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tarotnoob · 2 years

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PAC: What type of abundance is coming your way?

Please pick a pile and scroll for your messages.

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Pile 1

Okay, so a couple of things that come to mind are a sort of sensual self-exploration. Part of me wants to say it's actually kind of like a sexual awakening but I think it's more like that same type of euphoria but in a spiritual manner. Because, what I'm getting is a lot of feminine energy, a lot of sexual energy, a lot of nurturing and spiritually sensitive energy.

So, in terms of abundance, what I feel is like empowerment but not in a very strong and masculine sense of the word. It feels very much like a coming into your own, answers coming to you but in a way that is more spiritually satisfying.

I think you know what keeps me from saying it's completely sexual is the fact that there's also a lot of virginal high priestess energy. That's why I say I feel like this is more about some type of spiritual satisfaction. What that could possibly entail in terms of actual things happening to you that we could predict, I guess if you are a woman interested in other women, this would be a good time for you especially, because I see some exploration of that a little bit but I guess what I'm feeling is that if you are seeking any kind of answers, your solution seems to lie in meditating and searching yourself for the answers.

Because we have a lot of purples especially which is tied to the crown chakra, we have a lot of cups and that obviously speaks to our emotional side or are spiritual side.

So there is something coming to you and even if it's not physical, I guess it could come to you in terms of energy or people you meet come up but I definitely feel like you are setting off on some type of new spiritual phase in your life.

And I mean certainly for some of you it may be a sexual awakening or like a self-exploration kind of sexual awakening.

I'll just put it this way, what it kind of reminds me of is if you had never had sex before, and you were a virgin, which is what that means but I mean to paint a picture as if you were a young teen and through some type of more beautiful experience like out in the farmland and everything went right and then you wake up the next day and you're just like walking through this field of wheat or something and it's like oh wow that makes me feel like a whole new person.

I think it is also possible that there could be a romantic interest coming in. I would lean more toward someone who's interested in women because it almost feels like a female energy is coming in but if it's not romantic, you could receive some kind of good friend, female or a lot of feminine energy to them. Because in the three of Wands I actually see this as another person that you meet and somehow that sparks this journey maybe because you both have similar spiritual beliefs or you have somebody to talk to about these beliefs. And it kind of moves you. Like this person could move you in a very emotionally deep and spiritual way. I'm not saying this person is a Scorpio but it's that level of deep emotional connection, could also be cancer-energy.

Whether it's a friend or something else, I do wonder if there's an age difference. This could also have something to do with someone's relationship with a sister or an individual that is female or has a lot of feminine energy but you would be significantly close.

Enough that the two of you would spend time together chatting about deeper matters. You might even chat about dreams, talk about music, talk about art or poetry. But it still seems like a lot of what you talk about and share is very spiritual in nature.

For some of you I don't know that this is a new person, it could be somebody you recently met... Because there is a more new exploratory vibe to this.

I think that October is breast cancer awareness, and there is such strong feminine energy and there's even a breast on the maiden, so I would also suggest just out of a courtesy side note, that if you are of an age or susceptible to breast cancer, you might want to make sure that your exams are scheduled.

For me, there's a lot of emphasis on the shape of a circle or orbs in these cards. This could be related to the moon, I guess I would lean more toward a full moon. But again that also goes back to feminine energy and cycles. There's also a lot of emphasis on flowers and blooming like being at the height of blooming. So I just see a very strong peak of feminine energy, which is that energy where you want to just sit and wait and receive instead of trying to chase anything.

So that may be an indication of the best way to attract this kind of abundance where I mean it's not going to rain down money on you, this isn't that piles type of abundance. This is definitely a very strong spiritual and calming and healing energy that should be overtaking you. And also the addition of a closer type of relationship with someone else, probably a feminine energy, where there's something very healing about this relationship however temporary and that it somehow touches your heart on an emotional level. This could also be about reflecting upon a past relationship.

Like, if you have been thinking about a best friend from 10 years ago and you were really close or if you even had a friend with feminine energy who passed away, I would say that I feel like this person is hanging around or trying to help or wouldn't want you to be sad about that situation. Because there's something very reflective about this queen of cups. But, I feel like it's almost like this queen of cups has something to teach the other person, who may present as a night of cups. This could also be about expansion in terms of personal growth.

Where the queen of cups is looking back at how far she's come and acknowledging her emotional or spiritual evolution. Because like I said the night of cups and queen of cups could be the same person and then we have the two figures joined in three of Wands as if coming together.

Other notes, purple could be a strong color for you right now, it might help you tap into whatever this very calming, healing energy is. It definitely seems like a very chill and stay still energy, which could be nice if you've had a pretty rough last few months or something.

Mostly I feel pretty strongly that this has to do more with somebody coming to you and having some type of temporary deep emotional or spiritual connection or conversation with this person that kind of touches you in a way that feels purposeful. As in it's like this person is destined to bump into you but it still feels kind of short in a way. But it would be meaningful. Almost like in this one moment where you needed somebody to pat you on the back or do something nice for you, this person pops in and is a catalyst for putting you back on the right track.

If you were feeling a bit pessimistic, somehow the interaction with this person kind of ups your vibration almost as if somebody sends them and is like okay this person needs a refuel on their spiritual tank right now.

I would also say if you're interested, it might also come in the form of other people finding you really sensual or attractive right now. It could also be that you'll find a lot of people opening up to you about really personal things. Almost like they're reading you and feeling your energy and feeling like they're very safe and that you will listen to them or be sensitive and understanding.

I don't know what the kosher word for it is anymore but like there is somewhat of a gypsy energy here and I mean that in a positive way but I'm getting that strongly from the queen of cups so I definitely think this person has a very strong type of spiritual nomadic energy.

I know this is really random, but it's also possible that you could know this person from a past life. And I would probably go into specifics like maybe it's just for one person, I don't know but it's either that you could have known them and both been alive in the late 1800s to early 1900s or that this image is just to convey someone in this situation is I keep wanting to reference Zelda not the game but Zelda Fitzgerald, you know like the Great Gatsby writer's wife. Somebody very classy and aesthetic and stylish and interesting. Sophisticated.

It's a really high level of feminine energy, almost something you would expect from somebody very wise spiritually or a higher self type of energy or an older sister or an older aunt. It's not really like a mom energy. It feels more like an older female who would guide you but isn't that direct line like mom to daughter. It's either someone's self to their younger self, or two female friends that are slightly different in age, two sisters, yeah.

And also if you're interested in this, it might be an exceptionally fertile time. It could be a universally fertile time to get things started and growing of course or be tied to the moon and its phases but it could also generally be a fertile time for things physically or sexually or spiritually.

You know and even though I said it's not raining money, it's also possible at the time where you buy yourself nice things like clothes or get your hair done or acute hair band, but it's got that treat yourself type of vibe as well. So I would tell you maybe another message is even if your spiritual, it's okay to make yourself feel good in a materialistic way. Because that's important too, if something makes you feel good and it makes you feel pretty or sexy or appealing just on your own terms, that's a certain type of power as well, that type of confidence and willingness to treat yourself and get yourself things that you want and that make you feel good and pretty.

And not to get to Freud but the nipple imagery could just be about like nourishment on a spiritual level. Having connections and doing things that feed that type of energy. Now would also be a good time to take like a soaking bath with flowers or a bath bomb. Dress yourself up in a way that makes you feel good or attractive in your own terms. There is a lot of flowing dresses and natural hair and just very naturally beautiful images here but also very powerful. It kind of gives off that Taurus energy as well. Maybe a little bit of Libra too because I always think of aesthetic and Libra as going together. But to me mostly I'm getting a lot of cancer Libra Taurus and like a really light Scorpio. Not a dark Scorpio but like a Libra Sun with a Scorpio Mercury or something.

It might be a time to like I said where you're going to attract a lot of conversations that end up on a deeper level. Longer, deeper, more satisfying conversations. That would bring you closer to somebody else.

Yeah so good for you some type of spiritual sensual empowerment abundance.

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Pile 2

There's a lot going on here, which makes sense because a lot of cards came out. So, what I see here is something going on with the oracles that seems to have to do with someone feeling abandoned or isolated because we have the orphan and then we have acceptance and let go and get more information and the poet. So at least with the orphan let go and acceptance there's definitely this theme of some type of feeling that does feel like feeling alone or feeling abandoned, I don't necessarily feel that I was going to say somebody did something really hurtful and intentional but I mean if you feel this way, it probably was hurtful. But I guess what I also sense is like there's a bit of information missing as well. Like something hurtful could have happened but then it could also be a misunderstanding.

But anyway what do you think the get more information would probably more relate to is what's going on with your tarot, where we have two of Wands and a queen of swords. So it looks like there is something going on where you need to make some type of decision, but it looks like you need more information on whatever it is that's coming. And we know that something is coming because we have Ace of pentacles.

So there is some type of new offer or new message that's coming through, and it seems like you will have to make a decision on what to do with it. I guess the first thing that comes to mind is maybe you'll be offered an apology. And apology or explanation, from that you might be able to make a decision on what to do next.

It could also be another situation in which not letting go of something is actually blocking some type of abundance for you.

The poet card is interesting too because for one it feels like it's tied to these types of emotional feelings, we have the king of cups here as well, so there is some level of mental and emotional things that are going on with you. I know that's vague but it's easy to come up with situations where okay I'm feeling emotional about something and the mental part is kicking in because I'm feeling emotional about this but I need to make a decision on it. And I'm starting to like overthink it, you might not be following your heart or you want to follow your heart, but your brain is like I'm not really sure this is the right decision. Which would make sense because it looks like you just need to wait and have more information.

I'm also getting strong writing vibes. Like if you were writing poetry, it would be very melancholic or emotional or deep. You might have been drawn to the first pile as well because it had that similar emotional ties with something deep.

Yeah the more I look at the snake, the more I'm kind of thinking of seven of swords. So it definitely could be two separate situations where there was some type of recent betrayal. And it could be time to cut off certain relationships. It could be that you're not sure if you should do that.

Like you've been hurt by this person but you're like am I being over dramatic or is that really the right decision. Do I need to have more proof to be sure that this person did that. Do I need to have more information to find out if just for an example since we have the king of cups here and romantic stuff could come in, but is this person going to be committed. I mean it's weird because if you have an ace of pentacles, yeah you would expect it to be committed. But at the same time I'm just getting the sense that maybe you're uncertain about this person's feelings or intentions.

So there might be two groups here where one person or you know several of you need to let go of someone who has hurt you enough and made you feel abandoned and then there's this other group that is wondering if this is going to happen or is uncertain about the way another person is acting or feeling toward them, but I actually think you would need to give this person more time. If somebody has hurt you to the point that they made you feel bad, you're in the group that needs to get rid of this person. But if you just aren't sure about this person but you're interested in them but you can't like read them, I would say you're still in the phase of give it time and don't really do anything but just kind of observe and watch.

Personally, if I put the oracles away, I would think like it could be a one-sided situation because we have the queen of swords facing the king of cups but he has his back to her. So it could be that the queen of swords is interested in this guy, but he's like not even checking her out. He's not even looking her way. So for some of you like I said, it is unrequited. For some of you it's just new and maybe you need to give them more time. There's also a sense of being curious about the person. This doesn't have to be romantic.

It can just be that somebody knew has entered the picture or someone you haven't considered before. It doesn't have to be physical or sexual or whatever but like just somebody who's entered the picture that you're curious about or who has piqued your interest for some reason.

And okay let me break it down very specifically lol It's so one person could be an air sign or is just doing a lot of thinking okay. There seems to be something that's taken root with the queen of swords. Like this could be solidified interest in this other person or it could have been an offer. But, it's like the queen of swords either hasn't made any type of moves and is kind of waiting to see or gather more information. But there's something here that solid. It might not be the other person's feelings but it could just be one person's interest and curiosity.

Now the other person involved could be a water sign or have some type of heavy water placements. But they seem kind of aloof. I don't think they see this queen of swords because they either don't know each other or he or she or they don't know that the queen of swords exists or the queen of swords somehow is aware of this king of cups but like you know through mutual friends heard of them but the king of cups isn't aware of her.

Personally I kind of feel like the ball is in the queen of swords Court. I almost feel like the queen of swords has this impression that there's something about this king of cups. Like something significant like almost as if two people were to me and maybe they were soulmates. But the queen of swords feels it and then the King of cups seems to be oblivious. It's very strange. And when I look at the Queen of swords you know this queen is very detached and pragmatic, honest, so I guess she's just trying to assess the situation here.

And if it's not current and it's not that situation this could be somebody from the past that was a king of cups figure and the queen of swords seems to be dwelling on this situation and what could have been if different choices had been made. But personally in that situation it seems like the cards are pointing toward acceptance and let go.

So it just depends on what group you fall into. And I do feel like there is a sense of even though there is this kind of cold detached queen of swords, it almost feels like she's become this way because her heart's been broken because she used to be this poet. Which makes sense for the queen of swords as well because she's a master of words, but it's almost like a certain maybe romantic situations that didn't work out would be something that she would write about most. Write stories about love or longing.

But yeah a lot of it seems like some type of past relationship that didn't work out and dwelling on that or either a situation where there's some interest in another person or thinking that maybe this could work out but the other person just is like not putting as much into it.

In some cases, there could be like a strong obsession with this person. I mean I guess it's possible that this could be somebody's infatuation with somebody famous who has no idea that they're even alive and that the famous person might also be a creative type like a poet energy. So again there's that unrequited type of situation but it could also be more about this king of cups character.

I mean granted it's always possible this is one person's energy like somebody who's queen of swords and king of cups and I'll talk about that after I talk about this but let's talk about this king of cups character if they are somebody else. So, I would see this person as being creative and sensitive for sure, maybe even somebody who writes songs or writes poetry or speaks very poetically. And they might have kind of a sad background story. It could be that they were literally an orphan or have some type of tough upbringing story where one parent wasn't there and this person seems very preoccupied with some pain in the past.

Gosh I'm getting so much stuff it's weird it reminds me of this YouTubers who are like oh my gosh I'm getting this message now lol but like I don't really get messages I just look at the cards and find new interpretations. Because I guess it just depends on what situation it is but like maybe this queen of swords feel some type of sympathy for this person. Even if this person might have done them wrong or ignored them. It's like the queen of swords feels sorry for them or something. And maybe that's why they exceptions and let go messages are coming because it's like you did all you can do, you couldn't help that person. Or you know you think more about this person than they do of you.

This person if they are another person and not just you, it seems very wrapped up in their own feelings and experiences and let's just say is kind of like an emo main character. Basically Romeo. Romeo before he meets Juliet when he just whines the entire time to mercutio about Rosaline and 5 seconds later sees Juliet and was like wow she's banging let me hook up with that 13-year-old

So yeah this person is like a Romeo main character, you seem fascinated with them but they aren't really as fascinated with you.

Yeah I would feel comfortable saying that they basically don't know you exist. That or the other interpretation could be that this is well in the past and you haven't moved on but perhaps the other person has or signs are unclear here.

Because the only situations I see for this being two people would be unrequited or you unrequitedly being focused on a past interest or relationship or person that didn't work out or abandoned you or left you or whatever. You might have had a moment at one point but it's passed and it's time to move on.

Now like I promised I will talk about this if you don't relate to the relationship part and these court cards represent two aspects of yourself.

Sort of similar to when I started talking about the other person, this would definitely make me think of somebody who writes for sure. I get strong like literary vibes. But again it could be somebody who speaks in a very earnest and poetic way. Or somebody who thinks in a way that is artistic or creative. But I'm more strongly interested in the idea of words.

There is definitely a decision that needs to be made by this queen of swords. It's I'm guessing she is aware that she needs to make this decision because she's put on the armor and she knows that she has a choice to make okay. The choice might have to if we look going in the opposite direction whether or not to extend an offer to someone. Now I'm going back into the other person thing because I guess it just really reads like that lol but let me put my hand over this King of cups and pretend he's not there. This just would coincide with that poet and sensitive nature. In that case, if there are decisions, I actually feel like you want to turn your back on your heart and you probably want to go with logic and being rational in the situation.

It could even be a goal that you have your heart set on but it might be that it's blocked or you have to rethink how to get there and so you have to let go of your one particular way that you're seeing it and accept that that's not going to work, get more information, and try again. And that's what the queen of swords approach would probably be as opposed to a king of cups who might like be really upset that things aren't going his way. Or like he was like wow I really want this so if I just like put a lot of passion into it as opposed to you know there might be other things involved that have to take place that are logical.

But also as a person I guess I imagine somebody who's like an air sign but with some type of water placement so like they tend to be super overanalytical especially about emotional topics, like relationships or things that upset them. So that could be another part of it where I was like you're getting really upset about something, and getting yourself all worked up and that's why you're in the sword energy. In like you just need to hanged man it.

Also this just coming through lol It could be about more than that. This could also be a father figure. I don't know why that falls under abundance but maybe the cards were like screw your theme we're just going to do what we want which is pretty much what they always do

So I guess there could be an opportunity to forgive somebody like that or you don't have a chance to forgive them in real life because you don't know where they are or they've passed away, but there might be a decision you still have to make regarding that relationship. It could be something like okay they passed away and someone contacts you and they have some of their belongings, do you want to take those belongings. Because it does look like you're getting offered something, but you have to make some type of decision on whether or not you want to go forward on that path.

It does seem a little bit more likely that this is focused on something to do with the past because the court figures are all facing in that direction and side note it totally felt like somebody just touched the top of my head as I said that and I had to stop and be like oh my God did a bug just land on me but it was nothing

I will tell you that this apartment needs to be cleansed because there's either some funky energy in here in a negative sense or I don't know. Ironically given what I talked about in pile one, there's so many at work I've been talking to a lot about spiritual stuff and I have totally I did a reading for her like in the first week but I totally can tell that she has like a weird type of ancestral medium energy that she later said she had and I had brought up in her reading. But like the more I interact with her and I'm around her I'm like I almost feel like the things that come to her are like trying to follow me around thinking that I don't know like I'll be able to tell her stuff. But I don't work that way so I don't know

Shout out if you're reading this Mikaila

But anyway I don't know why that touched the top of my head but that tends to happen sometimes when I do readings It's creepy

And so what was I saying I wonder if that means that I was saying the wrong thing or the right thing

Okay so maybe that is definitely an indication that this has more to do with something related to your past. A past relationship with somebody and they just aren't there anymore. They wouldn't be somebody you can rely on. And maybe it is that you didn't get to say something to this person. You didn't get a chance. You wanted to tell them that you felt abandoned or you know it feels like there's so much that you have to say about the situation or person whether it was negative or positive. But it does seem like you probably had to let go and the more I look at the ace of pentacles now the more I think rather than to see that as something that you get it looks like the coin is being released from the hand so again there's this type of let go four of pentacles kind of energy coming through.

And I think more than anything it's almost like somebody holding on to guilt as well. Like it definitely feels as if you know what if I had done this What if I had done that What if I had whatever but the cards just say let go and acceptance.

And even if there was no betrayal involved they could just be that this orphan card is kind of representing being locked up in your own thoughts kind of like the devil energy. Kind of being stuck or obsessed with the situation or person and letting go of them or whatever. But I can tell you I just don't feel like the king of cups is interested or is there anymore.

And I think you have to make the decision to let go because it's like you see this person and you're like obsessed with this situation or person and there's a decision that has to be made and the decision is like letting go of this Ace of pentacles

Do I see any situation where it's like a solid offer, not really. I don't see anything in the oracles that indicate anything positive toward that and I don't see anything in the tarot based on just like looking at the images and the directions that they're going and what's happening in them. To me I would tell the queen of swords figure you know figure out what you need to figure out to make this decision but ultimately, it looks like it's something that the queen needs to decide to let go of but maybe she needs to do it in her own time because she's kind of like being very sentimental and out of character. It's like she has some sort of fantasy or vision of what this relationship was like making it better than it is. Or you know wanting it to be more

But I just depends on the circumstances here like if you're obsessed with some type of celebrity they don't know you exist and maybe you should accept that lol

Me talking to myself about Jimin

No I did not start singing lie

But let me try to snap back into that one person energy because as one person there's not really like an abundance message but let me try. One person I still feel like if it's one person it's somebody being a bit nostalgic or like okay thinking about the past. But that still is basically being sentimental and nostalgic. It's weird for a queen of swords but who knows why that's there. It could also just be that again thinking about the past and being nostalgic but like the thinking part is coming through strongly because there's a decision choice or path that needs to be made here about a past offer or message or connection.

I mean in some cases do I think maybe there was a connection sort of kind of because look at the way there is a link coming from this Ace of pentacles with the rainbows it's like there was a connection to the king and there is a connection It's blocked by this two of Wands and if I ever said two swords I apologize I mean two of Wands obviously. So it could be that like something disconnected these two people because of choice hasn't been made or a choice was made or I don't know but if there's a block it's in between the face of pentacles and the queen of swords. And what's in between that is a decision card so it could be that whatever is blocking from this person had to do with some type of decision that was or wasn't made. And I would lean more toward wasn't made because we have another card that says get more information

And again that just brings me back to somebody in the past who's moved on either in a physical sense like has died or has moved on because you broke up or you stopped being friends but they kind of like have already done their thing and moved on from it or I shouldn't say I know for sure they moved on It's just that their information isn't clear from the cards as we see them. Like this would just be about you I don't see anything about the other person so either it doesn't matter or the feelings don't exist or we just can't know

In certain cases is it still possible that there's interest but the queen of swords needs to make a move to turn the king of cups around, I don't know. I guess that's possible but like I said the king of cups seems to be preoccupied with his own main character story. And I guess the queen of swords can accept that and drop it or can make a move some type of decision or like solid offer maybe the king of cups is waiting for that type of solid offer but mostly I would think that the king of cups hasn't even considered it lol but if the queen of swords made this offer or said something, sure maybe there are scenarios out there where the king of cups would flip but right now he doesn't know you exist or he isn't in the picture

Sorry that was more message driven than anything about abundance but from an abundance perspective let's look at that. We would just ignore that there could be another person and look at this as one whole all for you.

In that case, I guess what you will receive is some type of information okay and this information will enable you to choose a certain path or make a decision. I just think that information is your abundance. Not very exciting but still important. And somehow whatever information you're going to receive is just going to have to let you or allow you to let go of something except something and move on.

I think it might be hard for you to let go or deal with this because either you know if you have to cut off a person maybe you don't have some type of fear of being alone or have a fear of abandoning them. Like if you have somebody who's pretty self-sabotaging as a friend and you try everything and like you feel guilty for leaving them to their own devices even though they are really problematic and destructive in relationships, you could still feel guilt about letting them hit rock bottom which some people have to do sometimes before they'll make a change

And again it's almost like there's some type of message you might need to give or some type of offer or what's that word, ultimatum to this person but you're kind of dragging your feet I suppose. I guess something about the poet card feels very ironic and I don't know why.

Or I mean because it's almost like being sarcastic about romance because it's like a pantomime of a romance. Which reminds me of Romeo and Juliet again.

And I want to give you like a creepy take on something as well which is almost like somebody trying to send you a message through ESP or something. Because it's like the queen of swords having some type of ESP powers and the Ace of pentacles is this message so that's trying to get through and I don't know maybe it's trying to be willed to this other person. So maybe you've been trying to send psychic or spiritual messages off to a person or you know like communicate in your mind in a spiritual way to somebody who isn't there trying to like call them.

Or it's just symbolic of how much energy you've focused and thrown out this person. Because you think about them so much or the situation.

Like I said I think things that aren't tangible can be represented by Ace of pentacles because the level of energy put into it. So if you think about something hard enough or if you have a belief that you feel so strongly about, it can turn into an ace of pentacles. So it's almost like the queen of swords is like drilling a hole into the back of this king of cups head with the amount of energy she's projecting onto this person

But whether or not it's getting through to this other person I mean it seems to be what's in the way is this two of Wands which is you know choose your path or your decision. And once that happens, maybe it could get through to this person but I've kind of already explained situations like that. Where the king of cups is just at least on a physical level not aware of what you're doing even if like you send somebody good energy maybe they could receive it or whatever but they aren't like aware of it on a conscious level I also just got a headache at this point which happens when I read as well but I will stop there because you get the idea so you're abundance is just in the form of some type of information. Whether it comes to you through someone else or it comes through thinking about it for a while but you will get the answer eventually and it comes as information for you. And information is any type of communication, something you can read online, something you can think for yourself it could even be this message coming to you about the situation.

And a final thing since I tried to share the things that come to me but the poet kind of looks like somebody leaning over and holding on to their head as if like in despair. So that matches up pretty well with that orphan and acceptance and let go energy so again it seems like grief or guilt or those types of feelings and decisions or messages or thoughts that are highly focused on that and what to do about it. But like I said I think the information will come because that's what's coming through as your abundance.

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Pile 3

You know what's funny is that for the first two piles like there was nothing super unusual about shuffling and then I get to this pile and like the cards kind of just flopped out like a dead fish. And then you look at the cards and there's a lot of mixed messages so to me plus we also have the moon here, it just makes me think there's a sense of confusion. This pile could be related to the previous one as a decision needed to be made there but I didn't really feel like there was a lot of confusion to be had. So it's probably just a standalone pile

So let's talk about the oracles first. We have asked your angels, wait, not the right time, it's up to you but then we have take action, the castle the fault line, the mask.

So I think the confusion for you kind of lies in what action to take. I guess it sort of resonates for the second pile because there is a sense of needing more information before you make a decision which is what was happening with that pile. But also like you know you are in control of your own destiny. We do have the it's up to you and take action cards which clearly mean like I mean it might not be the right time but you can do whatever you want because you have complete control. That's what the wheel of Fortune is about. Of course it also represents all of the fixed signs, or Sagittarius energy.

10 of cups is that ultimate emotional happiness and joy, relationships, family but there's just some type of cloudiness or confusion that seems to be hanging around This situation like some type of uncertainty. And I get that sense with the fault line in the mask. Even the castle because when you put the castle together with the fault line you know you would imagine the castle is having this perfect foundation or something but then you discover a crack in it. And the mask can also represent some type of deception of some sort or hiding something, which again could correspond to the moon.

So personally I kind of feel like there's something that you don't see about a situation or a person. Or maybe it's that you won't see this coming and there is change coming and it is for like the better and happiness but like it's just kind of like if you were walking through a completely foggy forest and you've been walking for a long time and then you had no idea that like maybe a half a mile away on the other side because he would never imagine it, there's like basically munchkin land after Dorothy comes out of the house and it was all black and white and then she walks out of the house and it's like this full color view

So there's like a sense of that. There's like this total confusion on what to do and what direction to go and maybe it's that this crack stuff not the drugs but the crack in the cards is like doubt or something like that doubt if this happiness is coming or this like whole full picture that you've been imagining like you're kind of back and forth about whether or not it's ever going to happen. Which I can totally relate to

So it's like I don't know maybe these are even messages that have come to you where it's like you know if you do this it's going to happen or if you wait it's going to happen or it's just not the right time it reminds me of all of the messages I've ever heard from YouTube Tarot people when I'm like okay but I'm 80 years old and I'm still waiting on my soulmate and you're like oh they're so close and then you die the next day lol

So I guess this is either thoughts going on in your head or messages coming from other people and everything feels quite mixed and confusing. So there could be some doubts coming through from you or there could be some unseen obstacles that will unmask themselves in regard to your plan or that it will actually take a long time for this ten of cups situation you're imagining to come to fruition.

But I will tell you I feel good about it because of the wheel of Fortune. Because it's like it will come but I guess I would say that part of the path to getting there is destiny but it's also like choose your own adventure because there is a sense for me that a lot of let's say you have or believe in the idea of a soul plan which is like your soul made some type of contractual whatever before you incarnated and you have a blueprint but like obviously when you incarnate you forget that you were of soul being and whatever the hell you were talking about before you incarnated.

And your soul was like I don't know I'm going to choose this path where I have a lot more freedom than normal to make my own decisions because I don't know you did it for s**** and giggles or it felt like a strategy game or you were bored I don't really know. But there's a sense of as a soul I'm going to let my person I become make a lot of choices on their own based on like whim or feelings or thoughts or whatever. And that's part of the reason it takes f****** forever to get to the ten of cups because like you screw up a lot and you don't know what the f*** you're doing and when you don't know what you're doing you tend to look to other people for information and those people tell you a million different things and so that never works out

So I guess that's just part of the fun experience in life is f****** around for a while and screwing up and then I don't know at the end I guess he figured it out

I don't know why but in this wheel of Fortune card at the top instead of seeing these falcons they looked like guns to me but I don't really know what that means but don't they look like guns when you look from far away but I don't really know how that would relate to a reading so we'll just let that one go

There is some sense of polar energy going on I don't know if this is soulmate stuff because if the ten of cups you have the two figures and then wheel of Fortune has the two different sphinxes and then we have the two wolves on the moon or I guess you would say one of the wolf and one is a dog

And it's like the two people at top of the moon are trying to bring these two together

So yes I do guess if I could pick anything it makes sense that this could be a relationship situation.

It could be also that there is some type of separation that comes at some point with these two people but of course you know you're separated until you meet or it's like a soul level thing where you've been together and past lives and you were separated until recently or I don't know who knows

We also have the sexuality card which is interesting because I brought this up and pile one and for some reason I felt compelled to leave it reversed so this could be related to some type of asexual or non-sexual situation like there's a physical separation happening it could also be some type of block in your sacral even though this card isn't orange but I associate sexuality with the sacral as well as like that passion drive creative energy type of thing but I think Red just represents passion I suppose but red makes me think of the root chakra and the root chakra would be something you would associate with stability and like I said when there's confusion and this card ended up reversed, there's like a lack of stability in that area and you know for some of you maybe you're having like sexual troubles on your own or sexual troubles in a relationship or it has nothing to do with troubles and might have to do with inhibiting some sexual part of yourself or I guess it could have to do with like alternate sexual lifestyle.

But for me this being reversed is probably associated with the fault line or the mask You know maybe there's something you're hiding or not disclosing or somebody else's in regard to sexuality like if somebody was closeted or if you weren't uncertain about your sexuality or wanting to come out to people. Because like certainly there's this instance of like okay on one side there is the ten of cups and the wheel of Fortune which are great things so it's like change and like happiness but then there's like something going on that's kind of like gosh I don't know about this thing that I'm going to decide or do or what's going to happen and so it's like blocking something to do with maybe sexuality or like I said it's just referring to their some feeling of instability because also with a fault line like you know it makes me think of earthquakes and like not being on steady ground

So again there's just like lots of confusion and mixed messaging happening here. So all I can say is I think despite that, you are on a path toward something that will lead you to 10 of cups and wheel of Fortune type experience I don't know when it's going to happen because for a lot of you I'm going to tell you that it feels like a really really really long road as opposed to me being like wow this stuff is coming really soon like no like you could be at the tail end of a journey maybe and that would make you close but still your journey was like 80 years to get there and it was also like really s***** to get there as well like nothing about it was easy

This could also be kind of like telling about like how long it's been since you've been in a relationship at all and like how long since you've gotten lucky. Or I guess it could be reading somebody who's kind of demisexual like can't feel much sexual attraction to somebody unless they feel a connection with someone or get to know them first

So yeah like this is mostly making me feel like it's calling somebody out for having a sexual or romantic dry spell but like I said I mean there's somebody coming It's going to take a while but they do seem to fall into that soulmate level I think even past lives and yeah I kind of feel like it's your other half but you either went through separation or have been separated for a really long time almost like you're on or have been like if a continent separated the line would have divided you so that you were on one part and the other person was on the other and then he meet later You're like if you were a South Korean then this person was North Korean and like only by a miracle do you end up meeting

But of my feeling is I hate to say it because it's annoying to hear but at least I told you that it would take forever, is that you meet them. I will give you some significant timing sort of I am feeling like the pearls make me think of June, they also make me think of like a wedding for some reason but you know pearls go with June. Or pearls might be significant

We also have fixed sign energy or Sagittarius energy and then the moon is cancer or Pisces. Or just the moon.

I mean technically high priestess should be moon I think and moon should be Pisces but I also kind of think Moon just stands alone

So also somebody's moon could be in Sagittarius or whenever the moon is in Sagittarius is a significant time for something. Even though the moon I'm saying is related to confusion but it could still be when you meet this person or the other person like I said has a Sagittarius moon

I also kind of pick up Gemini energy. Don't maybe you could be like Sagittarius and Gemini mixed or the other person is or whatever. And I still feel strongly that this destiny is fixed and that's why I keep putting the ten of cups in the wheel of Fortune together is like okay you don't no matter how many dots you have or whatever direction you go, like this is a fixed thing that you can't screw up you know no choices that you make are going to make this go away because it's been predetermined.

I also I hate to sound cliche but I do get the impression that this will be a surprise to you like you won't imagine who this person could be because the mask kind of makes me think like you know it's unknown or you won't see it coming or it'll be in a disguise.

That doing everything but like there's also something a little bit darker in here but I don't know what it is This could just be the amount of obstacles and darkness you have to go through to get to this moment like isn't just going through a lot of hardship and pain but I am scared to say that maybe there's also some things up ahead that also still suck which sucks to hear if you've already been through a lot of sucky s***

But it's almost like with the fault line and even the castle and the mask I get this sense of like something lurking I don't know if it's a negative energy or I mean like I said it could be the doubts in your head or the confusion or whatever but I don't know It gives me a weird feeling so you know just in case maybe do some protection spells or whatever makes you feel protected, take some cleansing baths or squirt yourself with some type of spiritual spray or meditate but I don't know it's almost like something is kind of watching you and gloomy from the shadows I don't know what that is though

So anyway in terms of abundance like I said I think the abundance has to be this 10 of cups in wheel of Fortune but to me it's coming through as probably a soulmate situation. Sure it could be platonic but I'm leaning more toward a romantic soulmate situation but it's like weirdly equal. But it's like

Things just aren't as they seem and I don't know why. I don't know if that's because the path is just filled with so many potholes to get there or there's still something waiting that will happen that isn't so great or like an unexpected separation does happen that you don't see coming because look even in the wheel of Fortune and the Moon even though these figures that I mentioned like the Sphinx and the wolves are so close they're still like something separating them. Like there's a path between the sphinxes there's this water between the wolves.

At least the 10 of cups characters are together but like they're also stuck on a rock with water around them. So it could just be that eventually you have the 10 of cups but like in the meantime you're going through some type of separation because you don't know each other yet cuz it takes that long to meet them or I don't really see it as you knew each other and separated I just feel like you've been separated up until the point that you meet like completely somewhere else and eventually destiny happens and you end up in the same place but it is going to take forever

And adjust don't know if you'll see that it's going to be this person. Maybe because it's not what you imagined or they display themselves as something else at first and throw you off or you don't feel it at first and there's like even when you do come together there's still some type of distance for whatever reason I don't really know. Maybe because they're presenting themselves as something or who knows and maybe that's why these other cards are like wait not the right time because this is the journey like you got to ask your angels for help and then you'll go through periods of time where you think that it's this but it's not actually that and then everybody gives up and they're like

I don't know it's up to you and then maybe when you do get to the point where you meet them and there's some type of distance between you for some reason like I mentioned with the second pile, you'll have to be the one who decides or takes action. But the other thing that it comes through strongly here is definitely some type of distance between the two of you whether it's physical or like just when you meet up even though you see each other finally there's still some type of thing that needs to be crossed before you can get together and maybe that's related to the reversed sexuality card who knows. Maybe there's not an immediate physical attraction on somebody's part or who knows that could be anything or maybe it was supposed to be upright and it'll be crazy times but not really because when I look at it it kind of reminds me of the three of swords because it looks like a heart with some swords going through it however it is reversed by the way so that would mean like you know getting over heartbreak which kind of again relates to pile two

Tell maybe I should have gone into something more that resembles pile two in the sense that this could be for people who something didn't work out but that doesn't really correspond other than you might have thought somebody else was the one and then that ended and then you meet this person after all of that and that's why it's kind of a person he didn't really expect because you didn't see it coming because you thought it was going to be somebody else so yeah so in conclusion I guess you're abundance will have to be some type of exciting romantic situation. But like I just don't feel like it's coming super soon unless like I said you're at the end of that very long journey and then like I said special days could be June or Sagittarius time or even a Sagittarius moon situation or I guess like June into July since I said the moon reminds me of cancer, or it could be related to the fourth house which makes sense for Castle because the fourth house is about home instability, especially with relationships or people you live in your home with

So yeah somebody's moon could be in the fourth house which is pretty common anyway but especially if you have a Sagittarius moon in the fourth house interesting. And that would kind of fit with the 10 of cups because the fourth house would be water-based and so you have this fire moon in a water house which I don't really know what that means I just that would be very specific

And yeah so the energy of the people could be Gemini or Sagittarius or shirt even cancer but I feel more Sagittarius Gemini potentially sure some fixed signs which I forget all of them Taurus and is it Scorpio and whatever You get the point

So yay Good for you before you die you should be able to meet someone!

#pick a card #tarot #abundance #spiritual advice #tarot reader #astrology

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honeycombstrawberry · 2 years

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Could I please request an Adrian x reader where the reader names their cat Vigilante because he save them. They have a big crush on Vigilante. Idk how the reader will find out Adrian is Vigilante but I thought the idea was super cute.

this is dumb cute okay i'm gonna do a little headcanon thread on this one it's adorable!! okay here we go!!

adrian finding out you named your cat vigilante headcanon thread!!

you just moved to evergreen and you've heard about vigilante but you haven't seen him in person until the day he saves you. maybe he saves you in a silly way or maybe a big way. but he leaves a major impression on you. from the moment where you first saw that costumed maniac come running for you and save you, you're stupidly infatuated with someone whose name you don't even know, whose face you haven't even ever seen, but you have such a dumb crush you cannot get over it

about a week later you happen to find a kitten on your walk home and you save that little cat just like vigilante saved you. and once the thought enters your head, you feel a little silly, but there's no other name that will fit this little guy. so you name him vigilante and pretend it has nothing to do with your ridiculous crush on your local masked doofus who keeps evergreen-- as safe as he can, really

also meanwhile what a coincidence you got a new job (to pay your rent on your new place and also provide vigilante (the cat) with a lovely lifestyle for the rich and famous) at a local italian restaurant. and what a coincidence but your coworker adrian just happens to be like so cute and so funny

you guys kind of hit it off and you're into him but you're also into vigilante which sounds ridiculous but you're still kind of holding out hope you'll see him again. but you can't help wanting adrian, too.

after a while it starts seeming ridiculous for you to keep waiting for somebody who probably never even thinks about you-- especially when you are starting to develop a whole crush on adrian, and he's right there and you can see his face and you're getting to know each other as real people, which is more than you ever got with vigilante, who you have never seen again, despite your best efforts

you and adrian start spending more and more time together. and then you start hanging out outside of work, going places together. and then you maybe invite him over to your place one night and he comes and you introduce him to your cat and he's like "aw! i forgot you mentioned you had a cat! what's his name?"

and you purposefully didn't tell adrian what the cat's name is because you don't want to explain that you named your cat vigilante because of your dumb crush on vigilante. but you think-- maybe he'll find it funny? and it's not like you're actually dating vigilante.

so you tell him, "his name's vigilante, it's so dumb but i named him after vigilante saved me and i kind of had a crush on him, isn't that so stupid?"

and adrian doesn't laugh? which is kind of weird. he's just petting the cat for a moment and then he laughs a little dryly and he's like "really? you had a crush on vigilante?" and then he hesitates and he's like "but not anymore?"

you're not entirely sure what the hell this energy is because it doesn't really match his words or the situation, unless he-- maybe knows vigilante?

and then you put it together. you're not dumb; you heard vigilante's voice when he saved you, and you thought it sounded familiar when you met adrian, but-- maybe he had a brother, or that's how people sound around here, or something, but now you know. looking at him, you just know now, you understand, this is him and they're the same and you've just admitted you had a stupid crush before you even knew who he was--

so you get brave. and you tell him, "well-- kind of. not really, but mostly because i have a bigger crush on you." just to see his reaction, which is-- so obviously excited and eager and happy, he has a hard time suppressing his reaction, he's already up and moving towards you, your cat following him

and you tell him, "but i guess my crush on vigilante is also my crush on you, so-- i just have a crush on you?" and he's a little shellshocked you figured him out because he tries so hard to keep the secret, but also-- you figured him out, he didn't even need to tell you, you just knew, and he's so weirdly soul-touched by that that he can't help but confess his feelings for you, too, right on the spot, because holy shit holy shit holy shit

this was just a little thread idea but your concept was so cute i couldn't resist!!!!

adrian chase taglist:

@deputyrook @bb-skyrunner @himboelover @pieriinova @gcldtom @violetrainbow412-blog @amysuemc @saturnngal @neptuneswritingwork @jewishdelis @myguiltypleasures21 @pinkygunslingy @chaseadrian @breathing-in-waves @rishlurh @goblynnrockz @theowritesstuff @themartiansdaughter @dallasvakarian @missscarlettangel @samantha24015 @hillaryroadheadcllinton @ohmybubbletea @buckys-estrella @witchywcmans @ladyrebel25 @eviejune @vigilantesluvr @qjuiq-odakyu @xothatnerdykid @awkwardfangirl2014 @thevalkyrior @mattsmanpain

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fruitcoops · 3 years

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What happens if one of them is super horny and the other just isn't feeling it? Obviously Coops is all about consent but idk if they'd feel bad or what they'd do. You're really really good at exploring these situations (the safeword and condom fics were so good) so i was wondering if you'd write about it

Oooo, I really like this prompt! It was a fun one to navigate, so thanks for sending it in! Coops credit goes to @lumosinlove

TW for making out

Sirius slid his hands up Remus’ shirt and covered up his yawn by nuzzling into the soft spot below Remus’ jaw, drawing a breathless sound from him that sent a tremor through his thighs. Really, Sirius should have known better—he was usually ready for a long tumble in the sheets himself after being away for a while. But the plane ride was more exhausting than usual, he had almost twice as many interviews, and all he really wanted was to go to bed.

Remus moaned. Sirius wished he could bottle that sound for later, after a nice nap.

“Love you,” Remus gasped, his grip tightening in Sirius’ hair as he pulled him up for another kiss. “Fuck, baby, I missed you. God, your hands.”

“Missed you, too,” Sirius said against his lips, and he meant it. Now that they were out and living together, he wanted to spend as much time as humanly possible with Remus; the interviews five states away threw endless wrenches in his plans. It was hard to cuddle someone through FaceTime.

His skin was warm and soft under Sirius’ palms; he sank into the feeling and pulled Remus further into his lap, relishing the pleased rumble of his chest. He knew his kisses were sloppy due to his general lack of energy, but maybe if he moved down to his chest…

Remus sighed and sat back, somehow disheveled and matter-of-fact at the same time. “Alright, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” Sirius said, tugging the hem of his shirt. “Viens ici, mon coeur.”

Remus narrowed his eyes despite the red of his cheeks. “I don’t believe you. Are you tired?”

“No,” he laughed, leaning back in. Yes.

“Do I need to brush my teeth or something? Do you want to shower first?”

“Why are you asking me all these questions?”

“Because you’re not into this.”

“I’m always into you, Re.”

Remus raised his eyebrows, looked down at the absence of a bulge in Sirius’ jeans, then back up to his face. For someone who was still flushed and half-hard, he was awfully sure of himself. “You know you can just tell me, right?”

Guilt simmered in Sirius’ gut; not for the first time, he wished Remus couldn’t read his expressions so well. “I’m…a little tired.”

“And not horny at all?”

“And not horny at all,” Sirius admitted. “Sorry.”

“Why would you be sorry?” Remus half-laughed, kissing his forehead.

“I don’t know! I just—I feel bad! You were all…” He gestured with both hands, lost for words. He really did wish he had the energy to fully appreciate the man straddling his lap. “And I’m…not. I’m sorry.”

Remus shook his head, reaching up to tuck Sirius’ mussed curls behind his ears and cup his face. “You’ve got nothing to be sorry for,” he insisted. “Just tell me next time, yeah? I won’t be offended.”

“I didn’t want to disappoint you,” Sirius muttered as he kissed the inside of his wrist.

“You could never disappoint me, baby. I’m sorry, I should have checked in more.”

He shrugged. “It was a very nice welcome-home gift.”

Remus snorted, then dissolved into laughter, resting his forehead on Sirius’ collarbone. “Oh my god.”

“Can we still shower together?” Sirius asked. He closed his eyes and basked in the familiarity of Remus’ weight, as well as the scent of his shampoo and the feeling of his heartbeat under his right hand. I missed you, he thought fervently, snuggling closer. “Please?”

“Course we can.” Remus let out a slow breath and settled his arms around Sirius’ waist; the previous tension fled his muscles, leaving him putty-soft. “I love you so much, you know that? In or out of bed.”

Sirius smiled. “Yeah. I do.”

#sirius black #remus lupin #coops #sweater weather #lumosinlove #my fic #fanfic #making out

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btsxmalereaders · 3 years

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Pairing: Im Jaebeom x male reader

Genre: angst

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[I am always drowned in the thoughts of you. I get exhausted from crying, but I look for traces of you again...]

The patter of the rain hitting the window has been the only thing that has set the gloomy place for the last couple of hours.

The catheter placed with an uncomfortable sticky tape on the back of your hand feels heavier and heavier. Your eyelids shutting even when you try to keep them open. You're tired despite only spending all the time laying on that stretcher.

Some nurses come from time to time to make sure you're comfortable and you only nod tightly to the questions they make; a routine that you don't have the energy to hate.

Of course, not all days are like this. Sometimes you wake up in a good mood and the personnel would take you out to the small garden behind the hospital, pulling your wheelchair since you're still weak, but it is still something. You would smile and take the sun on good days like those, and if a familiar visited, they would bring you your painting tools for you to clear your head and have a good time.

But you haven't had good days, lately.

Your friends called you constantly and, when you had enough energy to respond, you tried to put your best smile for them.

You didn't see it as a bad thing, though. They didn't need to know that you were going through thick.

But there was someone you couldn't lie to.

"The receptionist told me 'You can see your fiancé now.'" Jaebeom says as he walks towards you, placing a cute bouquet of flowers on the small table next to you. He looks stunning and always walks in with the hugest smile on his face to greet you. Probably to lift up your mood, too. "Was that an insinuation?"

You can't help but giggle at that, "Maybe. But also they wouldn't let you in if I said you were only my boyfriend. And I don't want to keep this lie."

"Then I better hurry up, right?" He smiles, placing a kiss on your forehead and dragging the chair next to you, taking seat as he grabs your hand tightly. "As soon as you are discharged, I'll put a ring on your finger. I promise."

You keep the big smile to him and cup his cheek with your free hand, being careful because of the catheter. "I've missed you."

"I've missed you so much more," He murmurs. His semblance suddenly changing. "We've been really busy with the tour now that it is starting soon, I'm sorry. I wish I could see you everyday."

"It's okay, love. I understand."

A silence sets in after that. Jaebeom closes his eyes and enjoys your touch for a moment while you observe him in detail; every mole, every mark on his skin, his warm breath against your wrist and his grip on your hand, as if he would never want to let you go.

When he opens his eyes again they're full of tears. You don't even recall when was the last time you've seen him cry.

"Why are you crying? What's wrong?" You ask, sliding your thumb across his cheek to erase every trace of tears falling down.

"I'm sorry," Jaebeom softly whispers. "I hate that I can't do anything else for you."

You sigh, bringing him closer and moving a little, making a space for him to cuddle with you. "Come here. Don't cry."

He does as told, hiding his face in the crook of your neck, calming his nervousness with heavy breaths. It breaks your heart to see him like this.

Your boyfriend gets to calm himself as minutes pass by, with the help of your hand tracing circles on his back, and sweet words whispered to his ears.

You two get to talk properly afterwards, telling each other about how your days have been, although Jeobeom did most of the talk and you only listened, occasionally commenting about it and also asking about your friends.

"As usual, the boys send you greetings and hugs, but only I get to do that, right?" He chuckles, kissing your forehead for the nth time and making you blush. "They might even pop up at the videocall tonight since we'll be rehearsing."

"That's good, don't tell them I said this, but I actually miss seeing their faces and hearing their voices everyday."

Jaebeom laughs at that. "No wonder why I see Bambam sending you voice notes all the time."

A nurse comes back a moment later to let you know that the visiting hours is now over, so Jaebeom stands up and kisses you goodbye, "Don't forget that-"

"-we have a date. For dinner at half past eight. As we do almost every night. Of course I won't forget."

He smiles at you and kisses you again. "And that I love you."

"I love you too." You murmur with a smile and see him walk out of the room.

The nurse changes the serum, as usual, and you only stare at her, not knowing if you should ask...

"Is everything alright, ____?" She asks.

You've known her for a while now, it's almost as if you two were friends, but still, you were still undecided about something that has been in the back of your head for a couple of days.

"Noona, could you do something for me?"

GOT7's tour was about to kick off two weeks after that visit, although it wasn't the last one. Jaebeom did make sure to visit you whenever he could; after rehearsing or even skipping his time to have meals to rush in to the hospital -thing that you obviously scolded him for, but he promised he would get something in his way back-. He also made sure to show you clips of the rehearsals and some videos with messages from the boys for you, which you truly loved.

However, even if that lifted your spirits, it wasn't enough to make you feel better from the terrible days you've had. Not only you couldn't move and hang out as you did weeks ago, but you were feeling so weak that most of the time you would spend it sleeping. In one of Jaebeom's visit you two were talking until you fell asleep, and next thing you know he was saying goodbye again with a worried expression on his face.

And the worst thing is that you didn't have to be a genius to know the reason why. The disguised words you heard from your doctor were enough confirmation for you to know what was about to come.

And you definitely weren't ready for it.

"So? You got good news for me?" You ask the nurse once you see her entering the room.

She tilts her head and sees the hope shining in your eyes, despite looking so small and weak. "Yes. I talked with the doctors and they gave the authorization."

And that was enough for you to feel happy for the rest of the day.

"Are you sure you are okay?"

Unlike other days, today you have woken up happy and eager to go out. You suppose it is normal because you have anxiously waited for this day to come

You nod as an answer and the nurses carefully help you to get ready.

To say you were nervous was an understatement. You weren't even sure how did the idea come to mind, but you were really determined to do it. And as you get in the van, you quickly send a message to Jinyoung to let him know that you were on your way there.

You've thoroughly planned all this; after all, it was a surprise for Jaebeom.

Of course he couldn't believe his eyes. He froze in his place while the boys almost ran to hug you; Jinyoung pushing the chair behind you and telling them to be careful, but you were too happy to even care about the bone crushing hugs you were receiving. It was all you wanted.

Jaebeom walks slowly to you and gives you a hug when they're done, letting out a sigh he didn't even know he was holding.

"Really? H-how did you even- Are you okay?" He asks, concerned, to which you laugh and nod.

"I'm good, hyungie. The doctor allowed it and I've been wanting to see you out of the hospital." You murmur, holding his hands. "And what kind of boyfriend and ahgase I'd be if I didn't attend your first concert of this new tour?"

They all seem very happy because they haven't seen you in a long time, so it's not surprising that everyone is around you all the time in backstage, asking you lots of questions and updating you on everything that happened since the last time they saw you, although no big news since you're used to chat and videocall them quite often.

While they are fascinated to have you there, Jaebeom seems to be more quiet and with a worried expression, indecipherable. You wonder if he knows or at least suspects about the reason behind it.

The concert finally starts and after more worried looks from your boyfriend, you decide to see from the first row the entire show. Even Yugyeom got you a lightstick for you to cheer them up, and Jaebeom stressed that whatever you needed you could ask anyone from the staff.

It goes pretty well, and you didn't feel uncomfortable or bad at all, but that didn't stop your boyfriend from making sure you were indeed okay every time he could; approaching the side of the stage right where you stayed and nodding in your direction from time to time, and the fans close to you were respectful and careful with your space.

Jaebeom gets somewhat sentimental while performing some songs, and when he stares back at you, you know it. He knows it.

So the first thing he does when the concert is over and gets to backstage is kneel in front of you and cry on your lap.

The boys don't understand the situation, but they leave you two alone for a moment, thinking that maybe their leader was too emotional tonight.

"What are you hiding from me? What have the doctors said?" He gets to babble while the tears are covering his face.

You're hurt from seeing him crumble like this in front of you, so you cry too, holding his hands and tracing circles on their back, trying to calm him down.

"Nothing you don't already know," You say. "You've seen me. I'm not doing well, and... I just had this feeling, I had to see you again, one last t-"

"No." He stops you. The lump on his throat making it harder to speak. "Don't say that. Please."

"Hyung, I'm sorry." You murmur, now caressing his back and placing a kiss on his head. "Please forgive me."

Before going back to the hospital, you say goodbye to your friends, who seem to now be understanding of the situation, but being too shocked to even say anything about it. They hug you more and try to lift the mood making lighthearted jokes that genuinely make you laugh.

Jaebeom doesn't want to separate from you anytime; he's either holding your hand or leaving kisses all over your face, letting you sleep on over his chest on your way back and whispering words to your ears.

"I'll come to see you again later today, alright?" He promises as you lay on the bed and get comfortable. "Sleep for now. I'll be here when you wake up."

He kisses you with so much love, not knowing it was the last time he would do it.

He didn't expect to receive that heartbreaking call that soon.

Just when he was getting ready to see you, he received the news, and he couldn't stop crying and shaking for a long moment. His friends were there, trying to calm him and themselves down; hurt by hearing they've just lost you and feeling so wrecked and weak.

Naturally, the next shows were postponed, which raised suspicions and fear among the fans, who saw you just a few hours ago.

Jaebeom has never felt this empty and pained.

A part of him ruthlessly ripped away.

He can’t believe it,

That when he opens his eyes you won't be next to him.

Even if those memories make it hard on him,

It’s on his head again.

Even if he clears out all those memories,

He will always be drowned in the thoughts of you.

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mashiraostail · 4 years

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I've been having a lot more depressive episodes lately.(dw, im getting help) But, can i have Nemuri and Aizawa comforting a s/o who just had a depressive episode? You don't have to do it if you're not comfortable with the topic, but if you do thank you so much

Thanks for the request! I can do this for sure and I hope it helps! As someone who is also depressed I put some lil tidbits from my own struggles in here (specifically the gargantuous amount of energy turning the shower knob can take me and how that simple action has literally stopped me showering for weeks) If you’re struggling right now please remember to extend your body the same kindness you so consistently extend to other people!! Even by sitting here reading my writing you’re being so amazingly kind to me!! Project that back onto yourself and give yourself a reward, a glass of water at your favorite temperature, or even a snack if you can stomach it! It’s easy to drown ourselves in comfort content and neglect tangible acts of self love but I promise the energy will be worth it!

Nemuri: It’d been a while since Nemuri heard from you, and even longer since she’s seen you, which was rare. You didn’t drop off the face of the planet or anything but you had been evading her invitations to go out or even just to spend a night with her. She wanted to avoid showing up unannounced but it was becoming concerning. The last thing she wanted was to make you think she didn’t trust you or to startle you, but whenever she brought it up you brushed her off. She hated the idea of you being sick or even just swamped with work all alone when she was more than capable of helping you out. Eventually she just decides to show up, she texts you first but you don’t even appear to open it, she just had a bad feeling and if hero-work taught her anything it was to always trust a bad feeling. She knocks on your front door for a while to no avail, ringing the bell intermittently, she’s just met with silence. Her key works which at least is a good sign that you didn’t pack up and move across the country or something. “Hello??” She wanders into the apartment. It’s dark and radio silent. But there are dishes in the sink, your shoes strewn around the entryway and your bag on the table. “You here??” You were definitely here, your car keys were on the couch and your usual walking around sneakers...or. one of them was underneath the coffee table. She decides to check your bedroom. “I’m gonna open the door okay?? If you aren’t decent now’s the time to say it don’t freak out at me okay?? I’m opening the door now.” She opens the door with covered eyes. “Hello?” She peeks between her fingers and is greeted with the sight of you, or the lump that is probably you, curled up underneath your duvet. “Nemuri.” Your head pokes up overtop your pile of pillows and the fluff of your comforter. “Well hello!” She piques, clearly relieved to see you, “good morning to you sleeping beauty, though it is 4 in the afternoon.” She pushes the door open the rest of the way and enters the room. “What’s up?” She leans against your dresser, “where have you been?” “Where does it look like I’ve been?” You sigh. “What’re you a vampire or something now? Decided to go fully nocturnal?” She grins but you don’t mimic her amusement. “What’s wrong babe? I’ve done like 4 things that you would have laughed at by now. Something’s obviously wrong. I texted you and called but you didn’t reply...are you upset with me? This isn’t how you normally act when you’re upset with me...” She wrings her hands together, “normally you come to see me all the time, I’m not saying you have to be inseparable from me or anything but...well this just isn’t like you..if I made you mad I’d rather you tell me babe since I’m clueless..” You sigh, suddenly feeling guilty for your radio silence for the past few days and the increasing distance you’d put between the pair of you for the past week or so now. It was intentional you just shut down and you didn’t mean to but everything was a chore, even the things you loved, sometimes especially the things you loved. “No...it’s not you.” “Well I’m...” She looked confused, “I’m glad to hear that but I’m still kinda lost. Are you sick? Did someone else make you upset? If someone else is giving you problems you need to tell me.” Having the green light gets her to venture further into your bedroom and sit on the edge of your mattress, “I can set some people straight if that’s the problem.” “No it’s..nobody...no one is giving me any trouble that’s not it.” You also suddenly feel sort of stupid. You don’t even know what put this on. One day you were fine and the next you were worse, and then next was worse and the next was worse than that until you ended up where you were now. In bed 5 days removed of a shower where your one meal of the day consisted of a plain bagel sometimes toasted other times not. “No one?” She reaches out and holds the bend of your knees, “are you sure?” You nod. “Okay then...well what is it? I wanna help but you’ve gotta let me know how.” “I just...” You scrub your face, “I just...it’s been a really bad week or..2 weeks or..however long. I don’t know. I feel so depressed and exhausted and everything is annoying and tiring and no matter how much I sleep I can’t seem to stay awake.” She takes in a breath at that and nods with it. “Oh. OH. Well now I feel stupid pulling away so much. I just didn’t wanna be overbearing and offend you or..well...well what’s up? What set all this on? Did something happen to...to make you feel upset or?” “I don’t know...I just think I haven’t been taking good enough care of myself. I’ve been slacking and procrastinating and then I got overwhelmed and then I got upset and now...I’m here. I just feel like such an idiot and now to think I made you think I was upset with you because I was too-” “Don’t even finish that sentence.” Nemuri shushes you, “it’s alright. Really you don’t have to feel bad about that. I get it, I understand now so it’s okay. I’m sorry for making it about me.” Her hand moves up to squeeze your thigh. “I wanna do everything I can to help okay? Whatever I can do to help you come out on top with this thing...” Her other hand squeezes your lower arm, “I don’t want you to feel like you can’t come to me with this sort of thing okay? We don’t have to get into the...deep emotional part of it if you don’t wanna talk about that with me. But we can start small can’t we? When’s the last time you had something to drink?” She looks at the empty glasses on your bedside table. “And when’s the last time you ate or took a shower?” The face you make at that tells her more than enough. “Okay you don’t have to answer that.” She reaches out tuck your hair back but you flinch away from it, the last thing she need to feel was your dirty hair. “Come on with that.” She sighs, “I don’t think you’re gross. I’m not grossed out at all okay? I promise. I’ve had my fair share of shower protests. It’s in the job description, no ones perfect. I love you, smelly or not. Now hold still and let me give you a kiss.” You relent at that. She presses a long kiss to your temple, sighing into your skin, “I’m sorry you feel this way. I don’t wan you to feel this way ever..so let’s start small.. How about a nice bath, yeah? I’ll set one up for you you can soak in it for a bit, while you do that I’ll clean up around here, change your sheets and...work on that.. situation.. in the sink, then when you’re ready I’ll come wash your hair for you. After that you can relax in the bath a little more, shave if that’s something that will make you feel good, or I could put some conditioner in your hair. Or you can just sit in a nice warm bath with a cold bottle of water and get your energy back up. I’ll get you some real food in the mean time.” She doesn’t poke or prod for information, she washes your hair with the same care and consideration that went into most of the things she did, she didn’t ask to join you, or to stay. She asked if you wanted to be alone for a little bit longer and left you to it when you confessed that you did only poking in to leave ‘the comfiest looking pajamas I could find’ for when you were done cleaning up. You manage to get yourself up and out of the bath without having to call for the help or extra motivation to do it. She only looks delighted to see you. “How’d the bath go? Did I use enough bubbles?” “It was nice..I didn’t realize how..far gone I was..I feel better..” You rub your arm, if she’s at all perturbed by your confession it’s not detectable. “Yeah?? I had a feeling it would help. Now come here. I really want a hug.” She pats the empty bed beside her and you make your way over. “Good, there you are.” She wraps her arms around you and sighs, “I missed you.” She tucks you easily into her chest, her free hand scratching the nape of your neck, “don’t apologize for that.” She stops you before you can talk. “I ordered some food from that place you like. I wanted to make something so you could get some food in you a little faster but...you’re running a little low on raw materials.” She combs her fingers through your wet hair, “it’s okay though having your favorite might make you feel a little better.” “Yeah..thanks for being here.” You close your eyes, still exhausted but your chest felt lighter, your whole body felt lighter. “Of course. I only wish I came sooner but...” She pulls back and looks at you, holding the base of your skull in her hands, “I get wanting to be alone sometimes. Needing space to get your feet on the ground is normal but...don’t be afraid to ask for my help either. If there ever is a time that you want me here, need me here even...I want to be here. I know I can rely on you so I hope you know you can rely on me too.” She presses a long kiss to your forehead at that. “I think I’ll feel a lot better tomorrow.” Your voice is quiet and your fingers brush against her collarbone. “That’s good.” Her palm pulls your hair off your forehead, “in the meantime I’ll be here to help you get there.”

Aizawa: Aizawa was an introvert himself. He liked being around other people at times of course but sometimes he just needed a quiet room to recharge. He figured you did too, and plus you were both plenty busy. For the most part he trusted your judgement and tended to not be very insecure when it came to how much time you spent together. He liked being around you, and would rather be with you than not for the most part but he understood probably better than anyone what exhaustion can do to a person. If you were tired then you could recharge. That being said he wouldn’t avoid you if he saw you out and about, and he saw you out and about. It was actually late for you to be out, late for anyone to be out really. You were leaving a convince store and he was getting ready to call it a night with patrolling. “Hey.” The way you jump out of your skin at his voice tells him he maybe should have approached you with noisier steps. “Sorry.” “It’s okay.” You clutch the bag you were holding, “I just thought I was getting mugged is all.” “You think there are criminals running around when I’m out here? I don’t know if I should be insulted.” He teases a little and you jump. “That isn’t how I meant-” “I know.” He chuckles, “I know. What are you doing out so late? It’s almost midnight.” “I...had to get some stuff.. You bounce nervously on the balls of your feet, the last thing you needed was him seeing you like this. It was the first time you’d gone out in like 2 weeks, you were sure you looked as terrible as you felt. “You don’t look very happy to see me.” Ever intuitive. You supposed you didn’t keep it much of a secret, the first thing you did whenever you saw him was reach out for him, his hand, his arm, his waist, you just wanted to touch. Or normally you did, but now all you wanted to do was get away. “I’m just...exhausted. Sorry I am happy to see you. I’m always happy to see you.” You rub your eyes, “like you said, it’s late.” “It is late.” He agrees, “I’m finished here.” “O-oh that’s good..are you hurt at all?” “No, slow night...but.. why don’t we spend the night together? Since we’re both here.” He didn’t need to see the state of your apartment. “U-uh okay yeah we can go to yours..” “You’re closer.” He raises his eyebrows, letting his goggles fall around his neck, “and you just bought stuff. I’m assuming it’s for your apartment not mine.” He peeks into the bag, “I don’t remember sending you a midnight shopping list.” “W-well yeah but there’s school tomorrow and you’re closer so it’s probably easier for you and-” “You’re an extra five minutes out.” He laughs at that, “and unless you trashed all my things in the week I went without seeing you I have plenty of stuff to wear at your place.” “Y-yeah I mean..that is true.” He raises one eyebrow at you, “so?” You couldn’t think of a good reason to say no, the mountain of dishes in your sink, the full washer and dryer and 2 baskets of unfolded laundry didn’t seem like an excuse, especially considering it was knowledge you wanted to withhold from him in the first place. “Y-yeah sure..it has been a while.” “Alright, let’s go then.” He reaches out and takes your bags from you batting your hand away as you try to stop him. “You’ve been working-” “I got it. It’s fine come on. You really shouldn’t be out so late by yourself you know.” “You’re probably right..” You murmur, making to follow him down the road. He doesn’t pry about your jittery state, he asks a few question about how your day went and seems to back down even more when you take a hold of his arm on your walk. “It really is slow tonight.” He looks around, “at least you picked a good night for a midnight excursion.” He nudges you a little playfully and you hum. You wanted to be more engaging but every step brought you closer to the impending doom that would be Shota seeing the abysmal state in which you were living. Once you get to the front door you realized you didn’t have your keys. “I...” You look at your shoes and he leans against the wall. “What’s up?” “I don’t have my keys..” “You really are lucky you ran into me.” He straightens up and shifts the bags to one arm to fish around in his pocket, “I’ve got one. Are you feeling alright?” You don’t reply because...well he’d figure it out. “Please don’t say anything rude.” You warble mostly to yourself as the lock clicks, he pushes the door open. “What do you mean don’t say anything rude, why would I-” He clicks the light on as he steps inside. Oh it’s worse than you remembered. How’d your laundry get to the couch? And why did you get a new glass every time you wanted water? Especially when you didn't drink it half the time. Everything is clearer in hindsight. “Oh.” He sets the bags down on the coffee table, which is really the only clear surface in a 10 foot radius of him. “I’m sorry.” You groan, slumping into the wall and scrubbing your face, “I’m so gross-” “I didn’t say that...But let me ask again.” He turns to you, “are you feeling alright?” “Not really no..” You look down again and he starts to pick up some of the glasses. “The sink isn’t any better..” You warn him, hugging your chest. “Yeah I figured.” He turns to you, arms full of various aspects of your mess. “Don’t look so guilty. Come on.” He nods you towards your kitchen, you figure the least you can do is pick up a few spoons, bowls and glasses on your way in. “You don’t have to clean up after my stupid mess I-” “Don’t be so hard on yourself.” He shakes his head, “you don’t feel good. I wish you’d said something sooner. I would have come when you asked.” “Don’t feel bad.” You murmur, “I wasn’t ready anyways.” “Come here.” He holds an arm out and you cringe, “I probably smell terrible I haven’t-” “It’s okay. It’s all okay. I’m not holding any of this against you, no one is. Come on. Over here.” So you shuffle into his chest, eventually wrapping tired arms around his ribs. “Does this help?” He’s rubbing long strokes up your back, his palm his firm against you every stroke pushing you a little closer. You just nod into his chest. “Did something happen? Did someone upset you? Or are you just having a hard time right now?” “I’m just having a hard time.” You reply, trying not to let your voice sound to wet or warbly. “Cry if you want to. If you need to. It’s okay. I won’t hold that against you either. Sometimes the best thing you can do is cry. I’ll be here for you while you do.” It’s not loud hiccup-y sobs, you aren’t bawling and sniffling. It sounds just as tired as the rest of you, it’s listless and exhausted and downright empty. It honestly hurt him to hear it a little. He’s been there too. One hand holds the back of your head the other keeps running those lines up your back pressing between your shoulder blades. “What do you think about taking a shower?” His fingers glide along the hem of your tee shirt, grazing your neck lightly. “It’s not that I don’t want to-” “I know. Hey, I know.” He pulls you away and slicks your hair back, “but you’re neglecting your body right now. Even if you don’t mean to. Your skin and hair will be really thankful for a shower right now. How can I help you get there?” He takes you to the bathroom and carefully undresses you going as far to turn the shower nob for you. “Sit if you need to.” He reminds you, gathering your clothes off the ground, “I’m going to leave the door open so call me if there’s anything you can’t do, but I’ll come check on you in 10 minutes okay? Is there anything you don’t want me touching or cleaning without you? Is there anything that’s off limits?” “No...it’s okay...I just feel bad you’ve been working and now-” “Don’t feel bad. I’m not doing anything that you wouldn’t do for me. Take your shower, I’ll come back in a few minutes after I fold up the laundry out here. Try to stay focused.” “Thank you.” You nod and squeezes your shoulder. “You’re welcome. And thank you for trusting me.” He helps you out of the shower and wraps you in a towel. In the time you’d spent in the shower he’d gotten most of your dishes into the dish washer and you could see your couch again. “New sheets.” He kisses your temple, “you ready to go to sleep?” You nod as he tosses a tee shirt to you. “Tomorrow morning you’re gonna eat a good breakfast with me right?” “I don’t really have much to cook with-” “We’ll make it work.” He leans back against the pillows, “don’t worry about it now. Right now just focus on getting some sleep, real genuinely restful sleep. Wake me up if you need me.”

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lalainajanes · 4 years

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17 + 43 for the prompts!! so happy to see that you're accepting prompts

Okay, these are from a list I reblogged awhile back thinking writing would be done (but then 2020 decided do continue to be 2020 - aka a series of awful awfulness). I’ve missed writing and I’m getting back into the habit so I decided to finish up a short-ish thing that was already in progress.

#17 was meeting at a party whilst drunk au and #43 was falling in love with their best friend’s partner au. But I didn’t get to drunk and I’m cheating a little bit with the definition of partner – my brain is an angst free zone these days!

That Perfect Stranger

As much as Caroline hates surprises, she does take a certain amount of joy in surprising other people. When she’d gotten an invite to Bonnie Bennett’s 50th birthday party, she’d immediately started investigating flights to New Orleans.

She hadn’t RSVP’d. Rude? Probably. Caroline had rationalized that, based on the invites (champagne cardstock embossed with a shimmer so subtle it had to be stupidly expensive), whoever was throwing the party wouldn’t skimp on food or drink, so an extra person wouldn’t be an issue.

It’s been about ten years since she’d last seen Bonnie, and she’s never visited Bon’s adopted home town.

Weaving her way through the thick crowds on the streets, carried along by the music and the energy, Caroline’s kicking herself for not making the trip sooner. She has a general idea of where she’s going, has the address memorized, but she’s content to take a meandering route.

That might be the slight buzz she already has going – either the drinks from the bars here are really heavy on the booze, or there’s something in them designed to affect vampires. She’s getting a few appreciative leers in her short metallic dress, but given the vast array of attire on display – from ratty jeans, to sparkly costumes, to the tiniest club skirts – she doesn’t feel out of place.

She might have to stay a few extra days and do some exploring.

Caroline’s not entirely sure how her oldest friend had ended up in New Orleans. They’d reconnected long after Bonnie had made the move. Bonnie’s never been one to brag though Caroline’s heard whispers from other acquaintances. Something about evil witches coming back from the dead, mortal danger, a showdown of supernatural species, then Bonnie showing up to kick ass and take names.

At the time, Caroline had still been committed to pretending to be human. She’d fled Mystic Falls when it became clear that far too many people wanted to kill her, had hitchhiked across a few states before her cash had run out in Chicago.

Luckily, she’d mastered compulsion easily. Chicago was home to all sorts of easy marks – business bros who genuinely thought hitting on a seventeen-year-old girl was a thing they should be doing. Typically, such a man’s only redeeming quality, which Caroline had been happy to take advantage of, was the lack of a limit to how much money he could withdraw from the ATM at once. It had taken a little trial and error, but she’d mastered feeding enough to sustain herself without leaving a pile of bodies behind.

She’d built up a nice little nest egg, had even gotten her first college degree. She’d optimistically sent her parent’s an invite to her graduation. Her mother hadn’t shown; her dad had. He’d just been armed with a stake and a jug of vervain.

After that, Caroline had given up on blending in.

She’d been flitting around the globe for about a decade when Bonnie had found Caroline on Instagram and sent a DM. At first, Caroline had been leery about another trap. Bonnie hadn’t been too thrilled to make Caroline a daylight ring, and she’d kept her old email address for years, hadn’t heard a peep from anyone she’d grown up with. Her curiosity had gotten the better of her, and she’d replied.

Stilted text conversations got longer, more fluid. Eventually, they’d progressed to phone calls. Caroline had carefully planned their first meeting, in a city where she had connections and witches were thin on the ground.

They’d had some hard conversations on that trip. Ended up spending way too much time ugly crying indoors, considering they’d been in freaking Porto in June. They’ve made up for it in the years since.

Caroline sidesteps a pack of probable frat boys – cute, she notes idly, probably tasty – twists her head a bit to make eye contact (she’s not hungry now, but who knows how the night will go). She smiles, a little flirty, only to stop abruptly as the noise disappears as if someone had pressed the pause button.

She can still see the street behind her, jam-packed with people and lit up by streetlights and neon bar signs. In front of her, however, it’s quiet. Still. Caroline jumps when a throat clears, her head whipping around to see a man in a white tux who definitely hadn’t been there before. “What the crap?” she squeaks, fangs dropping.

His face remains smooth, not even a hint of shock or fear evident. He’s blandly handsome, nonthreatening, but she’s learned not to trust outer appearances. “Miss Caroline Forbes, correct? You’re here for Miss Bennett’s birthday?”

Warily, Caroline nods.

White tux smiles, friendly now, “Excellent; she’ll be pleased you’ve made it. Can I see you inside?”

His head tips, and Caroline almost jumps when a stone staircase freaking shimmers into view. White Tux pretends he hadn’t noticed her shock, jogging up the steps. He pulls a gleaming door open. It lacks a doorknob, is instead marked with half a shiny M (probably real gold, she decides).

He waits patiently while Caroline makes her way up the steps. She’s careful, given the fact that they’d appeared magically. Between her high heels and her short skirt, even her vampire reflexes won’t save her from humiliation should she take a fall. When she’s at the top, she peers inside curiously.

She hears music again, the clink of glasses. Laughter. “Do you need to see my invite?”

Caroline’s got it in her purse, but the man shakes his head. “Not necessary. You wouldn’t have seen me if you weren’t on the guest list. Welcome to The Abattoir. I hope you have a pleasant evening.”

“Thank you,” Caroline murmurs, biting back her questions about the impressive magic this place obviously holds. No need to seem like a total yokel if she’s wrong, and cloaking gigantic buildings in the middle of a busy city is in every witch’s bag of tricks.

The lights are low, and most flat surfaces are covered in candles, lending a warm glow that bounces off ornate framed paintings and crystal chandeliers. The click of her heels is lost under the sounds of the party, louder now that she’s crossed the threshold. She follows the noise easily, walks through a set of double doors into a packed ballroom.

Caroline lifts on her toes, scanning the room, notes the party spilling out the far side, where several sets of French doors open onto what looks like expansive grounds. “Well,” she mutters, snatching a glass of champagne from a passing waiter, “Bon, you’ve been keeping some secrets.”

“I have not,” Bonnie says, and Caroline whirls, narrowly managing to avoid tipping her glass.

“Bonnie!” she squeals, shifting forward and throwing an arm around Bon’s shoulders. “Great dress.” It’s teal and short, with dramatic sleeves and a deep neckline, just a tiny bit witchy.

“I’m so glad you came!” Bonnie says, returning the hug enthusiastically.

“I am too, actually. Why have I never come to New Orleans before?” She sways a little to the music, drains her champagne, smiling when Bonnie laughs, “Seriously, I had a better time on the walk here than I have in ages.”

“We do like to hear that,” a low voice replies, just behind Caroline. She startles, dropping her glass, though it’s neatly caught by long fingertips, just next to her bare thigh, before it hits the floor.

People have got to quit sneaking up on her.

A hand lands on her hip, nudging her away from a potential collision with a nearby couple, and Caroline whirls, ready to remind Mr. Sneaky Feet that it's rude to interrupt a conversation.

The words don’t come. Caroline hadn’t realized just how close he would be.

Or that he’d be really attractive.

Her eyes dart to the champagne glass clutched in his hand, to a bare wrist, then a crisp white sleeve that’s already rolled up. His tie is askew, and his eyes are downcast, in the middle of giving her person an equally thorough perusal.

She can’t even be mad about it.

His thumb toys with the sequins that cover her dress, flicking one absently back and forth. She opens her mouth, unsure of just what is going to come out. There’s a 50/50 chance it’s either snippy – because hello, personal space – or flirty because she’s got excellent eyesight and fully believes in shooting her shot.

Thankfully, Bonnie interrupts, tugging on Caroline’s arm until she has the personal space that she’d been slow to take back for herself. “Klaus, this is my very good friend Caroline.”

There’s a definite warning in her tone. Caroline glances at Bonnie’s face, finds her expression is pleasant enough, at least to a person unfamiliar with Bon’s moods. Caroline is, however, so she studies Klaus a little more carefully. She shifts, boxing him out, and waits until Bon meets her eyes. A quirk of an eyebrow, then a tilt of her head, and Bonnie gets the message. “No, ew.”

So he’s not an ex, or someone Bonnie’s interested in. Good news, Caroline thinks, because that would be awkward considering how much she hadn’t minded his hands on her.

However, Caroline can’t help but look at Bon like she’s nuts.

Bonnie sighs, “It’s a long story. Klaus and I are…” she trails off, like she’s struggling for words.

“Partners,” Klaus supplies, smoothly shifting so they’re a circle once more. Caroline’s pretty sure he’s unused to being ignored.

“Eh, more like coworkers.”

A flutter of Klaus’ fingers and a new tray of champagne appears. He waits for Caroline to select a flute before taking one for himself. Bonnie declines with a shake of her head. “I feel like there’s a story here,” Caroline says, nudging Bonnie not so subtly with her foot to let her know that she’s a little peeved she hadn’t heard it before.

“Klaus is the one who first… invited me to New Orleans.”

Caroline doesn’t miss the hesitance. She narrows her gaze, shifting her weight to widen the distance between her body and Klaus.’ A smirk tugs at his full lips, but he sips his champagne, doesn’t press forward again. “I’m sensing the word invite is doing a lot of work there.”

He grins at that. “Truth be told, it was more of a coercion. A bit of blackmail, a few threats. But it all worked out for the best.”

Dubious, Caroline looks to Bonnie, only to find grudging agreement. “I will never admit Klaus is right about anything. But New Orleans is home now.”

Klaus’s smile turns taunting, and he lifts his glass, tipping it in Bonnie’s direction. “You’re welcome.”

Bonnie’s lips press together and Caroline feels an odd crackle of energy but then two other men, one familiar, one not, are at Bonnie’s side. The man she doesn’t recognize is taller and cups the back of Bonnie’s neck, pulling her into a kiss that’s so not appropriate for company. Enzo’s mouth brushes the side of Bonnie’s neck and Caroline knows she’s gaping at the scene like an idiot. Bonnie melts into Enzo though, her hands tugging the other guy closer. When he pulls back he tosses Caroline a salute, before spinning Bonnie onto the dance floor. She just catches his words before they’re swallowed up by the crowd, “No aneurysms on your birthday; you can torture Klaus at family dinner on Sunday.”

Enzo’s towed along, managing a wink at Caroline, “Hello, Gorgeous. We’ll catch up later, yeah?”

“Enzo, what…”

But he’s gone and Caroline resists the urge to dive in after them and start asking questions. “When did that happen?!” she exclaims, forgetting she has an audience.

Klaus leans closer, “Kol and Bonnie have been off and on for decades. They’ve been consistently on since Enzo arrived… about two years ago now.”

“I cannot believe they didn’t tell me,” Caroline grumbles. Enzo she kind of understands, he’s not the best at texting or emailing, is forever losing his phone. Bonnie should know that getting into a polyamorous relationship is the kind of juicy dirt that needs to be shared, damn it.

Klaus lifts a shoulder, “I’m not entirely sure your friend views it as serious. I expect a blow up once Kol presents her with the gift he bought for her. Possibly why he’s attempting to institute a no aneurysm rule.”

She’s dying to fish for more details, has to bite the inside of her lip to keep from immediately peppering Klaus with questions. He’s watching her expectantly though, his lips curled in amusement, and she knows that’s exactly what he expects.

Caroline would hate to be predictable.

She looks at the people near them, notes that most of them avert their eyes, as if they’ve been attempting to eavesdrop. “Klaus,” Caroline says again, letting the name roll off her tongue slowly.

“Mikaelson,” he supplies, with just a hint of a sigh. She supposes she has to give him a point for not attempting to deflect. “I assume my reputation precedes me?”

“That you’re an evil megalomaniac that’s prone to violent murderous rampages when things don’t go your way? I might have heard a whisper or two.”

He carefully avoids her gaze, sipping his drink calmly. “I’ve mostly cut down on those,” Klaus mutters.

Caroline hums noncommittally. But she doesn’t leave. “Bonnie leads the witches here, that much I know. What is it that you do?”

He moves closer, until she can feel the heat of his arm pressed against hers, skin separated by only his shirt. “I built this city.”

Caroline’s eye roll is automatic, too used to similar bragging from men who are trying to impress her. She reaches out, straightens his tie. “Sure,” she drawls, rubbing the obviously expensive fabric between her fingertips, “you seem like you build things all the time.”

He takes no offense, presses her hand flat against his chest, a laugh rumbling out of him. “You long are you planning on staying in my city, Caroline?”

His touch is light, his thumb stroking the back of her hand. It feels like an invitation, not a threat. Still, one can’t be too sure when playing with dangerous hybrids. “I assume that’s not a ‘be out before dawn if you don’t want your head on a pike’ hint?”

He circles her wrist, lifts her hand to his shoulder. He sets his glass aside, Caroline does the same. “Correct. You’re welcome to stay as long as you’d like.”

“Good to know,” Caroline says, letting Klaus lead her onto the dance floor.

She had already been contemplating a few extra days, hadn’t she?

#klaroline #klaroline drabbles #i don't remember why I didn't make this one ah to be honest #also am on my bonnie/enzo/kol bullshit #bonnie deserves nice things damn it

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A Twist in my Story

you just went out of the broadcasting room when you saw jisung and chenle walking towards you. you smiled and waved at them, but instead of waving back they ran towards you and immediately covered your eyes with a blindfold.

"what the hell, chenle? jisung?" you tried removing the blindfold but one of the two kids is holding both your hands.

"i'm sorry noona, just doing our job." it was chenle who said sorry but you're pretty sure he's just smiling right now, not feeling any remorse at all.

"someone paid to date you, noona. wonder who." jisung chimed in with his fake seriousness.

"idiots. i need to talk to jaemin though."

"jaemin hyung can wait for you noona, don't worry."

"how much do i need to pay you both so that you can let me go?"

"100,000 won."

"Excuse my french, but what the fuck? Why do I need to pay 100,000 won for a fake date? Are y'all nuts?" What the hell is a blind date that costs 100,000 won?

"Well, not really noona. You see our normal charge is only 10,000 won. But you see, the person who paid for your blind date gave us 50,000 won just so you can't say no. We made a policy that anyone who refuses the blind date needs to pay twice the amount originally paid, so you know we can still earn for the services we provided, we're just doing business here, definitely nothing personal." you would've been proud of chenle if it wasn't at your expense. you heard the two kids you're fond of laughing not so subtely and they also did a high-five.

who would've paid for that amount? you wondered to yourself, but you really can't say no now, 100,000 is a lot already.

"whatever. it won't last long right?"

"30 minutes."

"oh hell, that's a lot of minutes."

"we planned it well, noona."

after what seems like forever, you've arrived at the location of the blind date activity.

"noona, it'll be your choice if you want to remove your blind fold or nah, but head's up, your date is already here and he already removed his blindfold and grossly staring at you." you heard chenle say "ow" after he said what he said, like he was smack or something.

"bye noona, we'll go now. 30 mins." jisung said before you heard footsteps walking away.

you felt nervous all of a sudden by the fact that you are in a small space with someone you cannot see and you're still not sure if you want to see. who would want to date me? of course it's a dumb question because obviously someone has taken a chance on you. you decided it's only fair to remove your blindfold and talk to them properly like a normal person. you can do that, right?

you slowly removed your blindfolds whilst hearing the loud beating of your heart. hopefully it's not loud enough for the other person to hear, because that would be so dumb, you thought again.

after the blindfold has been taken off, your eyes immediately landed on a familiar pair of eyes; because you've known it for forever. it's the same eyes you've been dreaming about for a long time.

"hi." it was a simple greeting but you felt all those cheesy shite in your stomach. remember those movies and books that said that there are butterflies on their tummies? well, guess what, it's what's in yours too.

"jaemin, hi." you smiled suddenly shy at the presence of your bestfriend.

"you're blushing, baby." okay first of all, what the fuck was that? baby?

"shut up, idiot. don't call me baby." you smacked his arms playfully to which the boy only replied with a smile, still looking at you straight in the eyes.

"so did you pay for this?" jaemin asked to which you replied with a faux-shock look on your face.

"nope! chenle said this "date" was like 50,000 won. i'm too broke for that. i can just talk to you without paying, right?"

"of course, yn. but i didn't pay for this either, but at least we can talk here, right? not going to lie, i haven't seen this part of the room. jisung and chenle must've worked hard in decorating, because this looks... dope" jaemin almost said romantic but of course he can't just say it without context, he doesn't want to send shock to his bestfriend.

"agreed. so you said you wanted to talk about something? what's this about?" you tried not to be nervous; because nervous yn is a wreck. you're still gathering the energy to confess to this perfect human being in front of you, and you almost feel cold feet whilst looking at him.

"well, just promise me you won't leave me or say anything until i'm over. deal?" jaemin extended his hand towards you to seal the deal and you accepted and shook it.

"okay, hit me with this. it seems serious. i'll zip my mouth." you made a motion that looks like you're zipping your mouth, jaemin smiled at the action and breathed deep before he started speaking.

"okay, i can do this. so you know that i've known you since forever. you're like home to me, no matter where i'll end up to, i will always long to go back to you because you give me that sense of comfort. you're also my lighthouse, because when i find myself lost and in some dark place, i look for you because i know you can guide me home. knowing you for a long time is a bliss to me. sometimes, i look at you and a sudden thought would come to my mind, "i could spend my whole life with this girl." but just like all those cliché coming of age movies, i was scared of going over the line because what if it will go wrong, what if i fuck up and i'll end up losing you, i can't do that, losing you would mean losing my home. so i stayed back, and i was happy since nobody was there to call you theirs, i mean it's selfish but i was happy. and then someone came in the picture, fucking Mark Lee who's nothing but perfect. Of course he'd come to like you, who wouldn't? and then one day, you suddenly introduced him as your boyfriend and i've never felt more devastated, damn i've never even known that word before. but it's the only thing that described what i've felt then. you were happy and even if it sucks it's in someone else's arms, i've come to accept it, just as long as you are happy. i tried moving on too, because i don't want you to worry about me. and lia was there, she said she likes me, i was honest with her from the very beginning and she agreed. and i actually find myself liking her, then loving her, but not as intense as it was with you. but i tried really hard, you know? because lia deserved that, but it was becoming so hard; especially after fucking mark left. i find myself wanting to stay with you, comfort you. sometimes it comes to a point where it becomes the reason why lia and i would fought. and before it could get worse, i've decided to break up with her. i don't want do something stupid, i don't want to recover my feelings for you when lia is still in the picture. she doesn't deserve that. so i told her we need to, because i'm starting to think of someone else more than i should. i don't know if she knew it was you. but you know lia, she's an angel, she agreed, but she asked for space. and i gave that to her. it's almost 4 months since the break up and i think it's enough time and i can finally be honest with you." jaemin suddenly took your hands and you let him because you're still agape at the words that are coming out of his mouth.

"and i just want to tell you that i love you, yn. not just in a way a bestfriend would love his bestfriend, but in a way a person loves his lover. the kind of love you say to the person you want to kiss or to the person you want to spend a long period of time with; and you know act like those old married couples. i mean we're still young, so i can only hope. but i love you with all my heart, it's not much but i just want you to know. i think i've waited long enough, i want to say that to you no matter what the repercussion will be. but maybe don't cut me off your life, please, if you know, if you'll say no and all. i mean i love you, but i still want to be your friend... and lover. i'm blabbing, but i love you, been loving you since before i've gotten to know what love is about. yeah, i think that's all, i mean i messed up my speech but that's what most part of my speech so, yeah, i love you, park yn." jaemin is shaking as he held your hands, it felt sweaty but you didn't mind. how can you? when the person you've been loving since forever is also in love with you?

"you can say something now, yn" jaemin said while fidgeting his hands which is still holding yours.

"oh, yeah, okay. i could do that. say something." jaemin laughed and ruffled your hair.

"you really do know how to make me smile and calm."

"well, you're not making me calm right now, nana." you said with a pout, not intentionally though, but Jaemin still smiled because he finds it endearing.

"you really didn't know that i like you?"

"nope, i had zero clues. every time hyuck or yeji says something about you liking me i would automatically refute it as defense mechanism, i guess. i mean why would you like me? i'm me, nothing special about me."

"okay first of all, that's no way to talk about yourself or to the girl i love. second, you're beautiful inside and out, and i would still say this if i'm not your bestfriend or admirer. you're kind, you're friendly with people, and you've always been patient and forgiving, even to those who don't deserve it. you're amazing, yn; if i could let you borrow my eyes so that you could see yourself on my end, you'd see how awesome you are." jaemin said with eyes full of intensity, wanting to make sure it'll be absorbed by your system, and surprisingly it did, not because you fully believe it, but because it was jaemin. jaemin could be a lot of things, but never a liar.

"well, geez nana. you're making me blush! i never knew today is yn's appreciation day. but before i reply to your grand speech, i also need to say something to you. so i'd appreciate it if you'd listen to me first before saying anything. is that cool?"

"okay? you're making me nervous. but of course i'd keep my mouth shut until you're done." jaemin gave you a reassuring nod signalling for you to go ahead; you took a deep breath and collected your thoughts before starting. here goes nothing.

"na jaemin, you might not know this, but you are an idiot. but worry not, because guess what, i am too! after your confession, i've finally realised we've become best friends because damn, we are both fucking clowns. i don't know if you know this, but i like you a lot! i've always liked you since when we were younger, of course no one would put colours to it because we were so young then. but i've always preferred to be with you than hyuck, like in games and stuff. i thought maybe it was just because me and hyuck are really competitive with each other, and yeji would ask me to let her be paired with hyuck, i didn't mind of course, after all that means i'll get to be with you. i don't know if it was the last year of middle school or early freshmen when i realised that i really like you, not just the like you have for your friends, but a different type of like where i also wanted for you to like me back. but again, we've already established that we are idiots, but now i guess we can also establish that we are both huge fucking cowards. on my end, i was insecure, i didn't think much of myself; and you were already gorgeous when we started highschool, i was like, "damn where did that ugly nana go?" but of course, that's just me clowning myself, you've always been handsome in my eyes, even when at times hyuck would really say you're ugly. i guess when they said that, "love is not blind, but it doesn't mind", i find myself agreeing to it. so now we can fast forward to the time i realised i will never have a chance with you. i was too afraid to confess or risk our friendship, so i decided to take a chance on mark. i mean, who doesn't like mark? when mark lee gives you attention, how do you turn that down? i was in bliss when he told me he likes me, enough to momentarily forget about you. and of course, it worked. mark was almost perfect... but just as things are finally going well, of course, fate decides to fuck it up, you know? because damn, we broke up just few days after he started Uni. you were there again, even if you and lia are still already together. but believe me when i say this nana, i was happy for you and lia when you got together. i realised that maybe, we're not made for each other, at least not in the way i used to hope. but then you also broke up, and that's when i started panicking. because what if i'd end up liking you again, because sure i was able to bury my feelings for you before, because mark was there, but this time he's not. and then i saw myself go thru that process again, liking you secretly... but this time never pining for us to be together; because we now have lia in the picture and she's my bestfriend." you gave out a sad smile which jaemin notices so he held your hand tighter.

"and frankly, i never wanted to confess. i thought, it'd just die down or something. i only have to wait until we start uni. but a twist happened, a variable i never expected to show up. somebody found out about my feelings for you, somebody i don't know, and surely i can't trust. i thought it was just hyuck pranking me, but hyuck would never play me like that, he knew about my feelings for you the longest just like how i knew about his feelings for yeji. this stalker told me i need to confess to you and to lia that i like you or he would post that wish i hang in the wish tree downtown every christmas. it was me, uhh... wishing for the one i love to be happy, and i wrote your name. they took a pic of it apparently, and you'd know my handwriting, lia would know too. so i told him, i'd do it, but only during the festival. and a lot has happened before this day nana, it was like almost two months that i experienced scenarios that would only pass my mind at like 3 am, i never thought those type of scenarios would happen to me." and that's when you thought of jeno, jeno who was never part of your life two months ago, and now he has occupied a huge chunk in your mind, especially after that kiss.

"and this people, do they go by the name of jeno?"

you nodded.

"i still like you a lot, nana. i guess, i'll always do. but, it'll be unfair to you if i just say yes to whatever you're proposinh when i'm thinking of other people."

"i want you to be girlfriend, yn. but seeing that you are still trying to figure out your feelings, i'll wait; this time i will patiently wait until you make your decision. it might take a long time, you might end up not choosing me, but i'll wait. don't get stress over this though. you already made me happy by telling me you like me, i mean not as full as it was before, but i still have a chance, and i'll work hard to deserve your feelings."

"i'm sorry. i don't know yet what my feelings are for jeno, but he, i don't know, crawled his way into my mind. i used to hate him, but when i've gotten to know him, he's actually not bad. he's a big idiot too, and maybe i like his presence because just like mark, he makes me not think of you. i was so keen on forgetting my feelings for you that i didn't imagine this moment would even come. if i have known in my first year of highschool that a na jaemin would confess to me in my last year in highschool during the school's festival, i think would've waited. but at the same, i really don't regret the things that happened when we decided to look at other people, nana. i hope you don't too. i've met mark, you've met lia; and yet we're still bestfriends, that's how strong our relationship is. i'm not sure what you're asking of me, but i don't think i'd offer you a half full cup, you deserve more than that."

jaemin is smiling at you patiently but you can't help but notice the sudden gloom in his eyes.

"jaemin, i love you, a lot. as a bestfriend and as a person in general. but i don't want to hurt you."

"love will hurt anyway, remember how john green said something about you don't have a choice if you get hurt in this world, but you have a choice on who can hurt you. and my choice is you, yn. whether, you choose me or someone else, i'd still be your bestfriend. all i ask is a chance to prove myself to you. just a little chance, yn, and i'll be the happiest man in the world."

you stared at your bestfriend who's looking at you with his big puppy eyes; you still can't believe that this person loves you. how many nights did you spend dreaming about this day to come?

"okay."

"what do you mean okay, yn? okay you're giving me a chance? okay, you're fine if we'd still be bestfriends no matter what your choice may be?" jaemin is now standing up looking at you with a glint of hope.

"to everything you said, nana. i'll give you a chance, i don't know what the coming days hold, but let's see. but i also have to tell jeno of my idk, feelings, just so i can fully start being honest with myself and to you."

"that's fine by me. as long as you're honest, as long as you're happy, i will be too, no matter what."

"thanks for understanding me, nana. this would've been easier if we're not a bunch of insensitive cowards."

"true, but at least now we've become aware that it was the two of us." you both end up laughing thinking about it when jaemin stopped and suddenly become serious.

"is it okay if we hug? i just feel a strong urge to hug you right now."

you didn't trust your voice to reply, because you might end up crying. so you nodded your head before jaemin pulled you and enveloped you in a warm hug.

"i know you're overwhelmed right now, baby. you're probably having a rush of different realisation right now. but it'll get better, take all the time you need, i'll still be in the end of tunnel holding a lamp for you. you're yn, and yn always strive against adversity in the end."

you didn't realise you were sobbing in jaemin's chest until you had to laugh at his speech and your snot almost come out.

"you'd make a good leader nana, i didn't even know you know the word adversity. but still, thank you. you're still my main bitch, hyuck will always be a side hoe."

"i don't know if i should be honored to be called bitch, but i guess thank you for making me that bitch."

you smiled in nana's chest because he just gave you the assurance you needed; that whatever happens, you'd still be friends.

you looked at jaemin and he nodded.

you're still hugging each other when you heard familiar voices not so far away from your area.

it was jeno, and lia.

a twist in my story | part xl

~~wherein a text message from an unknown number became the twist in your story~~

[an: sorry for grammar errors, spellings, and other mistakes you might have seen along the way // but i believe in you, you'll get it 😉❤️ thank you ]

an: hello!! sorry if it turns to be a written update 😥 i was having second thoughts on updating it this way but i went thru with it, because if i didn't it'll be like a three-part update. hope you understand! 😔 (next update will be on sunday)

SEND ME YOUR THOUGHTS!!! ASK IS OPEN 💕 which i'll prolly reply tmr ^^ thank u for reading!!! all love, 고양이 🐈

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