I've realized over time that shit that I went through in my childhood does "count" as trauma and continues to affect me to this day. And it was even at an 'early enough' stage of my life. And yet I know literally the exact day I heard of tulpamancy and the exact day I decided to form Jay (from diaries), and that was about 4 yrs ago when I was in high school. So we're not traumagenic.
However since then we've had the rest of our headmates form from nowhere except basically stress. So it's like I had to open the gate for my brain to use plurity as a coping mechanism. BUT another part of me wonders if I did have "plural tendencies" (dunno how to phrase it) as a child but not realize it? Cuz I remember things like getting entirely lost in my own head to the point of phasing out reality around me, or things like looking in the mirror and being surprised I had a different body than in my head. But I don't have any headmates from before Jay. Closest I had was a very very personified plushie but she's not exactly around anymore, plus it normal for kids to talk to a teddy bear or whatever.
Honestly the whole 'endogenics are secretly traumagenic' narrative might just be messing me up and making me search for things that aren't there, but I need to write it all down instead of just letting it tumble around in my brain. I'm probably grasping at straws to feel more valid or something. Idk. I'm also very sleepy right now so I should head off to bed but a certain headmate suddenly has a lot of creative drive so lmao we'll see.
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KK #2 (PLURITY EDITION) FEAT. VINCENT PARKER + KAWAII KAVE DJS WOBANGS + #BASEDG0TH OCT 5TH @ ELECTRIC OWL! FREE BEFORE 12!
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TRAX
ANNINOME - LAUREL HALO
KEEP IT COOL [PROD BY JAMCITY] - KELELA
BANISH HIM - JAM CITY
HATE ON ME - TINK
TRIP II THE MOON......THE DARKSIDE - ACEN
SA SA SAMOA (ELITE GYMNASTICS REMIX) - KORALLREVEN
FEELING SO REAL - MOBY
DO IT JAH - DARK SYNDICUT
LIFE (HANDS 2 HEVEAN) - D'CRUZE
MILLENNIAL - KALLISTI
FINEST ILLUSION (ILLEGAL MIX)- FOUL PLAY
HIGHER LOVE (SLIPPMAT REMIX) - JDS
THE OTHER SIDE - KILBOURNE
SUPER BASS - NIGHTCORE
HUSTLIN HARD TO THE LEFT - CRAXXMYRF
VIRTUAL EXPLOITS - LITTLE SIXTY NINE
GRACE MA BREAKS - GORESHIT
DJ TOYS - C-ZMURF
EMOTIONS - E+E
MIXED BY DJ #BASEDG0TH
THIS YEARS HOTTEST COLLAB MIXES HIGHLY FUNCTIONAL PERFORMANCE WEAR AGAINST MANKINDS GREATEST THREAT WHILE IN SLEEK CLASSIC STYLE BROUGHT TO YOU BY ADIDAS.
KK #2 (PLURITY EDITION) FEAT. VINCENT PARKER + KAWAII KAVE DJS, WOBANGS + #BASEDG0TH OCT 5TH @ Electric Owl Social Club FREE BEFORE 12!https://www.facebook.com/events/506403026112189/
TRAX
ANNINOME - LAUREL HALO
KEEP IT COOL [PROD BY JAMCITY] - KELELA
BANISH HIM - JAM CITY
HATE ON ME - TINK
TRIP II THE MOON......THE DARKSIDE - ACEN
SA SA SAMOA (ELITE GYMNASTICS REMIX) - KORALLREVEN
FEELING SO REAL - MOBY
DO IT JAH - DARK SYNDICUT
LIFE (HANDS 2 HEVEAN) - D'CRUZE
MILLENNIAL - KALLISTI
FINEST ILLUSION (ILLEGAL MIX)- FOUL PLAY
HIGHER LOVE (SLIPPMAT REMIX) - JDS
THE OTHER SIDE - KILBOURNE
SUPER BASS - NIGHTCORE
HUSTLIN HARD TO THE LEFT - CRAXXMYRF
VIRTUAL EXPLOITS - LITTLE SIXTY NINE
GRACE MA BREAKS - GORESHIT
DJ TOYS - C-ZMURF
EMOTIONS - E+E
MIXED BY DJ #BASEDG0TH
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I'm intrigued by the Derek/ Blake thing because of what you said about Derek not just being an apathetic alpha (~*~alphathetic~*~) but I feel like its rlly random and thrown in there. Like hey lets throw in a random love interest that will make some sterek fans go psycho and the rest of the fandom confused. I JUST WANT HIM TO B HAPPY IN A PAIRING THAT MAKES SENSE -overdosing on feels
I know, I'm a hardcore sterek shipper I understaaand. But if Sterek is gunna be like endgame, then everything needs to be drawn out. There needs to be random love interests thrown in before the characters can be developed together as a whole.
Like i do wanna see how Derek is when he's romantically involved with someone else. Irritating as it is that, that person isn't Stiles but.. we just need to have patience. It'll happen or it won't happen. We just need to trust Jeff. He got dis shit.