#poodle reproduction

[gayamulet]

Idk I'm having a great time

[houseofcatwic]

Poodle Parade Barbie. 1990s reproduction of 1965 original

[kitashinsukehoney]

Inside Out (JJK men)

Character: Gojo Satoru, Geto Suguru, Nanami Kento, Higuruma, Choso Kamo, Toji Fushiguro.

POV: You're having sex with them and they ask you where would you like them to cum.

TW: SEX, cunnilingus, creampie, breeding kink, somnophilia, bonding kink, rough sex.

GOJO SATORU

He was fuckin you lazily from behind while whispering some explicit words into your ears. Each time he thrusts into you, you can feel his dick getting harder and bigger. You can feel his dick is stretching your gummy wall as he's picking up his pace. He then lifts up your thigh so he can have easy access to fuck. Once he feels he's about to cum, he whimpers to you,

"Can I come inside you? Please, please?",, he whined. You who are now dumb fucked just say yes, while gasping and moaning nonstop. After few seconds, he finally cummed inside you and you can feel your lower abdomen is now full to brim.

Geto Suguru.

He was teasing you a lot knowing that you're in ovulation period. He keeps 'accidentally' brushes his fingers at your ass, breasts and clothed cunt. when you finally can't stand it anymore, you demanded him to fuck you.

"Really? Once you get it, we must do it for at least 3 rounds", he said while grinning stupidly. You didn't say anything but to agree. He pushed you to the bed and stripped you off in a minute. Then he fingered you for half an hour, as a tease. once he feels you're ready to be fuck, he slips himself inside you without warning and thrust quickly. You who gasping for air, bury your nails at his back while reaching high sex drive.

"T-too fast! Slow down", you begged him. But he won't stopped. You cummed and squirted for 4 times but he still doesn't cum yet. It took him 20 minutes to cum.

"CUM INSIDE ME SUGURU! PLEASE~", you didn't give him any options at all. He was happy to know you wanted his cum buried deep inside your womb so he cummed and won't get out until he satisfied.

Nanami Kento.

Man. This man has a breeding kink. You two can have sex almost everyday after he arrives home from work to relieve stress. When youre busy cooking, he would go behind you, slips his finger inside your wet hole, watching you becoming horny while cutting the vegetable.

"My dinner is ready, why do you need to cook more? Your pussy is savory and sweet enough for me", he said. After he said this, you finally give in and now he's eating you out on the luxurious black leather couch. He laps your sweet pussy juice like a hungry man. When you squirted, he let out his erected cock and fuck you in a missionary. He believes this position ease the reproduction process. He is big and of course he cums a lot.

But today, he wants to try something else. What if he cums at the entrance of your pussy and watch his cum seep into your hole? He did the exact thing he imagined and he was mesmerized at how beautiful his cum looked together with your pussy.

"Nanami, i want to suck you ..", you said with hoarse voice after moaning for an hour straight. He let you suck his dick while massaging his full of cums balls. You loved how his dick feels on your tongue while his cum taste so sweet. You know Nanami is a healthy masculine man and you are not disgusted at the thought of swallowing his cums. As you're sucking him, he watches you squirts, leaving a poodle of your cunt juice on the floor.

Higuruma

GOSH. okay, this man is a tired lawyer who busy working. So whenever he arrives home you would be on bed, sleeping soundly. Until one day, he feels like he's on heat and he needs something to relieve him. When he arrived home, he quickly take off his tie, blazer, leaving him with his long sleeve and pants on. He went to your shared room and saw you wearing black lingerie that he bought.

He slowly creeped onto bed, went to kiss you on the forehead before getting inbetween your thighs. He then eats you out for a few minutes until you actually woke up and greeted him. You didn't mind at all as you gave him consent before.

After you cum, he finally stripped off the lingerie and ties both your hands using his tie. He then fucks you mercilessly, not letting you to touch him. As his cock slipped in and out, his thumb naughtily rub on your clit, making you feels hornier.

When Higuruma about to cum, he pulls out and went to jerk himself on your bare breasts. He likes the view of his cum on your breasts because it looks as if you're lactating. After that rough session, he would sucks your nipples but his hip still busily thrusting you.

Choso Kamo.

This man will begs you to ride him because you can take him with full length. He also can suck your breasts better in this position. The reason why you're being fucked right now is because you're wearing the mini skirt Nobara gave you. You didn't know your fiance would lose his sanity but you loved it. He now gropped your ass and spank you to fasten your riding pace. When you feel you're reaching orgasm, you leaned forward and rides his dick faster. You keep on moaning his name while he's whining like a bitch.

You pinched his pretty pink perked up nipples and kissing him deeply with you two tongues entangled. When he's about to cum, he quickly changed position to full nelson. You gasped at the sudden change and trapped in his embrace. Suddenly you feel warm loads inside your cunt and he groaned.

"One more...One more time", he said. As he slipped out his dick, you can feel his cum seeped out from your abused hole so he quickly stuffed two of his fingers inside.

"Don't waste it, I need you to carry lots of babies for me", he said, while preparing for the next round.

Toji Fushiguro.

Simple. First, 69. Second, cowgirl reversed. Third, mating press. Fourth, standing up.

After an hour of fuckin and edging you, he finally cums inside you.

"aggh~, need another siblings for tsumiki and megumi", he said while gripped your hips. He then stuffed his dick inside your ass. "I need both these holes used by me, see how pretty you are as my cumslut", he said. You can't say anything as you're dumbfucked but happy inside to finally fuck this hot daddyable beggar. He gropes your breasts and say how pretty your breasts would be to full with milk.

P/S: Geto is the hottest

[kiefbowl]

I think the idea of "neoteny" in human females doesn't make any sense from a scientific or feminist stand point. I'm only bringing it up because I have seen it floating around radblr for the past year or so from a couple people as if it is, uh, fact (a scientist positing it doesn't make it fact...), and also at least one person brought it up to me on one of my posts criticizing "pretty privilege", again as if it was fact...

so here's my criticisms against the idea that men breed women (hated writing that) to be more childlike in their features intentionally, as I understand that to be what people are referring to as neoteny:

We aren't really that dimorphic of a species. The differences between men and women are noticeable to us, but when compared to the animal kingdom at large, we are very similar looking despite our different sexes.

It doesn't make sense that the choice of female partners would only affect female children. This doesn't add up with what we understand about genetics. If you are choosing women based on their big eyes and small heads or whatever the argument is, then men would also start to develop those features as well.

In order to massively affect the genetics of a species to that specific degree, you have to truly breed that species systematically. We only know this because humans do that. From breeding dogs to cows and anything in-between, it takes several generations to create a new breed of anything, and it takes large scale control, and it also doesn't make the old genetics disappear. Just because we have poodles doesn't mean german shepherds don't exist, etc. The human genome is the human genome, and if it becomes something else then that means another species has arrived...

From a feminist standpoint, we understand women do not control their reproduction (if you don't agree with this statement, you and I have a fundamental misunderstanding about feminism). To limit female control of reproduction, men have to be less selective about their female partners, not more. It makes sense for women to want to be choose-y, and for men to take that choice away by forcibly breeding as many women as possible, not as few.

Furthermore, we have endless proof that men are, in fact, not selective at all about their partners. Not only do the majority of women in the world get married, the majority of women have children regardless if they are married. Women are married off, regardless of what they look like, and made to bear children, and then men also divorce them and marry younger women to have more children, as well as have mistresses and girlfriends in which they also have children, and also rape in order to have children. In fact it is an act of war to forcibly impregnate woman on the "opposing side". How do men do this and then also be selective breeders?

I honestly felt silly even typing this up. Unless I have completely misunderstood what people are positing, this just feels like fantasy logic. Just because there are differences in the female and male body doesn't mean there is an inherent value in those differences. Women having, say, larger eyes than men generally doesn't mean it's not just a fact of nature. Any value or cultural interpretation is just that: cultural.

The idea of men "favoring" more youthful characteristics in women has a lot more to do with controlling women's behaviors through beauty rituals than actual human mating.

okay I'm done. you can yell at me if you want.

[dollshobby]

New reproduction of the Barbie doll: Swirl Pony "Black Magic"

In 1964, Barbie underwent a bold transformation, swapping her iconic poodle bangs for a sleek hairstyle known as a side pony or swirl. This hairstyle marked the beginning of a new stylish era for the first teenage model.

Dressed in a stunning replica of the Black Magic ensemble, this doll exudes elegance in her little black dress, complete with tulle cape and satin ribbon tie.

To purchase the doll, Mattel will open early access for members of the Barbie Signature Club on the official Mattel Creations website starting on July 10, 2024, and on July 11, 2024, this fashion doll will be available for purchase.

[deedee0102]

Check out this listing I just added to my Poshmark closet: Coca Cola Sakura 8" Dessert Salad Christmas Holiday Santa Poodle Vintage Plate.

[bandaiprojectsuperherotime]

sphindam

gundam kaiju name: sphindam

gundam kaiju animalistic: they are light snow ice frost flower plant tree organic metallic skin frog tyrannosaurus kaiju sphinx dragon, they (with the exception of the princess or the queen or the emperess or the female) are genderless however they be treat as male by any one as they think they were male. they are nice peaceful kaiju sphinx dragon, they just breathe the underwater, they can walk in the furry feral animal style or the furry anthro animal style, they have the udder under their belly that have the milk to feed others, they have the diet to eat normal plant & normal meat & normal snow, they have the diet to drink normal water & normal juice & normal milk, they have the white teeth jaw, they have the white tongue, they have the white blood/organ/tissue, they have the white bones, they are wear the animal helmet & animal chest for the battle combat.

reproduction: sphindam are unisex animal, sphindam are all genderless despite except the princess & the queen & the emperess & the female, prior to the use of the magic that rendered all sphindam (except the princess & the queen & the emperess or the female) without gender, sphindam were polygamous, mother sphindam is the only known living sphindam who predates the loss of gender, the female is to be the mother of the future of the shpindam race, the female become the queen of the hive nest, the female/unisex lay eggs because their eggs develop into embryos with their own sperm without fertilization, the male/unisex can adopt & train & raised them as it’s own child, or they plant the ice seed made of their own ice plant magic into the ice grass ground, so the ice tree grow to grow the any plant egg, or they create the ice snow egg made of ice snow.

weakness: they maybe wild animals, but they are weak prey animals, they are weak to fire, lava, dark/darkness, laser/lazer, dangerous weapons, dangerous predator animals.

gundam show: gundam witch nature.

gundam apparance color: white light snow ice frost flower plant tree oragnic metallic scale skin body, white rabbit ear antnna, white fur hair, white torn leaf flower neck frill, white butterfly angel wings, white/blue/aqua cyan horn wing cheek, white/blue/aqua cyan sd gundam eyes, blue/aqua cyan hand claws, blue/aqua cyan feet claws, blue/aqua cyan unicorn deer dragon horn, blue/aqua cyan leaf shaped tail spike, blue/aqua cyan scale skin belly.

model based: angel, imp, demon, devil, fiend, gargoyle, witch, fairy, pixie, peace dove, stork, hen chicken, griffin, swan, duck, goose, bat, squirrel, rabbit/bunny/hare, spider, slug, worm, ant, butterfly, moth, bee, fly, dragonfly, rusalka, snow/ice/frost/winter fauna creature, plant/grass/flower/tree/nature flora creature, cloud creature, light creature, liger tiger lion jaguar panther cougar puma leopard cheetah sphinx cat feline, giant dane dalmatian hound wolf fox poodle dog canine, chupacabra, whale, sperm whale, beluga whale, squid, octopus, amphibian animals, reptile animals, lizard, dinosaur, tyrannosaurus rex, raptor, dilophosaurus, hadrosaurus, pachycephalosaurus  spinosaurus, giganotosaurus, kangaroo, deer, wendigo, cow/bull cattle, pig, goat, sheep, horse, unicorn horse, pegasus horse, alicorn horse, longma horse, dragon.

gundam armor piece: gundam helmet, gundam collar necklace, gundam saddle chest, gundam tail ring.

[cafetonki]

All men are created equal

Whether one thing is " better" than the thing to which it is compared is a function of specific relevant context and purpose. No one should be offended by this truth of fact. A Poodle is a dog and so is a German Shepherd, but a Poodle is not the equal of a German Shepherd in nature, nor is this particular existing Poodle equal to that particular existing Poodle in nature. Classification equality is different than equality per se.Īt what point something is classified equal to another thing, for purposes of that classification, is a matter of taxonomy hierarchy and granularity e.g., a man is not equal to a woman classified at the level of reproductive organs, but a man classified as a human being is equal to a woman classified as a human being. A dog is a mammal and so are human beings mammals, but a dog is not a human being. Whether any two things are equal to each other in nature is one question, but then we have the question of equality, not as actual things, but equals as classified. Therefore, two existing particular men may not be equal in size, strength and intelligence, but may be equally classified as men. Animals are not trying to be equal, they are trying to survive. You will note that I avoided saying " Is one human being equal to another?" The reason is because nature does not classify things as such. Existing things have natural rules of attraction and aversion, but classifications, such as that term is used, is a human construct, even of how the term " human being" is defined. In the state of nature, animals do not operate with such contrived stated definitions. No existing man is the equal of any other existing man. We should admit that no two specific actually existing things are equal in nature-that is, as specific particular existing things. The first question is whether actual things are created equal in nature, as an objective fact of reality. It does not really matter if the question is posed to a theist or an atheist. At the point of being created, is any one thing the equal to another? Is 7'4" Andre the Giant the natural equal to 2'11" General Tom Thumb? Are all natural gifts to one thing equal to the natural gifts of any other thing? Nature's God does not even make two snowflakes or two lowly fingerprints equal. Let us take one thing at a time, first nature then law. The more precise issue is: a) whether these rights are granted by the Creator and then perfected by consent or b) whether these rights are not granted by the Creator, but are granted alone by the consent of man. It is that part about it being self-evident that should throw us off a bit, particularly in light of the statement about being created equal and the right to life. That to secure these rights, governments are instituted among men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed. One the most referenced lines from the Declaration is " all men are created equal.endowed by their Creator with the unalienable right to life" to wit: We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights, that among these are life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Many people believe that the Declaration of Independence referenced a Christian god, but clever separation-of-church-and-state Jefferson (who believed neither in Jesus' divinity nor the Trinity) referenced only the " Laws of Nature and of Nature's God," " the Creator" and " Divine Providence." Constitution, but rather a document of rhetoric and declared rebellion, directed to the King George, III, who believed that his authority was derived from a Christian god. The Declaration of Independence was not a document of governance of men, such as the U.S. The Declaration of Independence is a great literary work, and one of the formative documents of the United States, but, we must remember its purpose. In result, men of sufficient means tended to be balanced human beings, and, from this broad foundation of learning and experience, sprang a font of wisdom. A man in those days tended to be combination of philosopher, business owner, farmer and soldier, by life necessity. Indeed, in those days, the time spent with book learning was based upon the liberal arts classics of history, science, philosophy and literature, including, of course, the most widely read book of all time, The King James Bible. There was no Facebook and Twitter in the Age of Enlightenment. He was an extraordinary man, like many of the Founding Fathers. Thomas Jefferson was one of the Founding Fathers of the United States. Kennedy’s dinner honoring Nobel Prize winners, JFK remarked: I think this is the most extraordinary collection of talent, of human knowledge, that has ever been gathered together at the White House, with the possible exception of when Thomas Jefferson dined alone.

[reigentitty]

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[kangals]

since i’ve seen some discussions floating around recently on dogblr regarding desexing dogs and its effects, i did stumble across this new study today and thought it might be topical to share it:

Assisting Decision-Making on Age of Neutering for 35 Breeds of Dogs: Associated Joint Disorders, Cancers, and Urinary Incontinence

i’m not going to breakdown the entire study (if you’re not interested in a specific breed i suggest at least reading the discussion section at the end), but essentially they took 35 different breeds and studied the occurrence of common health problems typically related (or viewed as related) to desexing. based on those findings, they also gave a general recommendation of what age range desexing should occur in either sex of each breed.

what i found most interesting was how wildly different the results were based on breed and sex, even within the same breed. for example, in jack russel terriers, desexing at any age was not linked to any noticeable increase in cancer risk, while golden retrievers had an increased risk after desexing. desexing a rottweiler increased the risk of joint diseases, but desexing a great dane does not. male standard poodles that were desexed had an increased cancer risk, while desexed females did not.

ideally the study should definitely be expanded upon with larger sample sizes, and go into detail regarding lifestyle, well-bred vs not, etc, but i thought it was super fascinating to see how incredibly variable the effects (if any) of desexing are. it just reinforces that making blanket statements about its effects (”intact dogs will get cancer!” “neutered dogs will have joint problems!” etc etc) continues to be a stupid thing to do, and that the choice of whether to desex a dog or not should be based on the INDIVIDUAL dog, and it’s INDIVIDUAL risk factors based on breed, sex, and lifestyle. don’t let internet forums tell you what is and isn’t right for your dog!

that being said, i totally checked to see if this study was going to yell at me for desexing my dogs lmao. i was pleasantly surprised to see that collies were one of the studied breeds (albeit with a smaller sample size), and the results of the collie study were as follows:

joint disorders were more common in males than females, but desexing at any age did not seem to have an impact on this

intact males had a higher cancer occurrence than intact females, and desexed males showed no change in that. however, females spayed at less than 6 months of age had a sharply increased cancer risk (possibly skewed due to the small sample size)

intact females had a 4% occurrence of mammary cancer, and a 16% occurrence of pyometra (the highest of all 35 breeds studied)

females desexed between 6-11 months had a 13% occurrence of urinary incontinence

based on this study, for collies the recommendations for males are that desexing can be done pretty much whenever after 6 months, as it doesn’t seem to have any appreciable effect on joint or cancer occurrence. females it’s recommended to desex between 12 and 23 months to minimize the risks of cancer, urinary incontinence, and pyometra. stellina just got spayed at 14 months, so it was nice to see that there was no data contraindicating this in this study. 

but this is why it’s so important to take the individual dog into account! ex: one of the largest studies that gets commonly cited in discussions about desexing focused on golden retrievers. in this study it confirms that female goldens are at an increased risk of both cancer and joint problems after being desexed at any age, to the point where the study even recommends leaving them intact if possible. if i had used the golden data for stellina, i’d be way freaked out about desexing her! or if she was a golden and i used collie data, i’d be missing out on some key risk factors! because that’s ignoring the fact that collies and goldens are different breeds with different risk factors and that you can’t just use one data point for every dog and expect it to be accurate.

anyway in conclusion: there are no hard and fast guarantees with desexing, aside from the fact that it removes reproductive capability. risks and benefits will vary greatly depending on the breed, sex, and lifestyle of the dog, so it’s important to make any medical decisions with your individual dog in mind. this is not a one-size-fits-all type of debate.

[nothorses]

Have you seen punky-poodle’s pinned post explaining transmisogyny and why she thinks trans men can’t face misogyny at all? Like.. there is so much going on with her logic that i don’t know where to start w/ addressing it bc it’s all so.. wrong?

I avoid interacting with her or looking at her blog or anything; I’ve seen a few of her posts, it’s very clear to me there’d be no productive or healthy way for us to interact. But I did go take a look at the post you mentioned and uh, yep.

Honestly, the root of it is that her definition of transphobia, misogyny, and transmisogyny are all just... extremely warped compared to how these terms are defined everywhere else. Subsequently, her understanding of “transmisandry” (which most folks call “transandrophobia” to prevent misunderstandings like these) is just a complete failure to grasp how actual transmascs define it.

It is a good example of how thoroughly you have to break the existing theory around this stuff to make that point, though.

In order to say transandrophobia relies on the existence of cis misandry, transmisogyny can’t be a unique system of oppression designed target transfemininity. It can’t be greater than the sum of it’s parts, and it can’t be a synthesis of oppositional and traditional sexism in the way Julia Serrano originally coined it. (yes that’s a wikipedia link, yes I did double-check Whipping Girl itself. Page 16.)

Which means transmisogyny has to just be transphobia + misogyny. This argument cannot function if it’s anything more.

Which means you now have to define trans men out of misogyny, too.

So now misogyny can’t be a system of oppression based on the inferiority status of women/girls and femininity- it must just be oppression that women and girls face for being women and girls. There cannot be added nuance to this, because added nuance leaves room for people who aren’t women to be impacted by this system. You even have to define people perceived as women out of misogyny.

So now if trans men lack access to reproductive healthcare and abortion, it’s not because of misogyny. It’s because of transphobia. The implication being, of course, that if transphobia didn’t exist and trans men were seen as men, we would be offered reproductive healthcare and access to abortion that cis women would not.

Ignoring the fact that this is just complete fantasy, and theoretical fantasy doesn’t have a place in a discussion about lived experiences, trans men actually have a harder time accessing reproductive health care than cis women do. Which means not only are we directly impacted by the same misogynistic system of oppression shaping “women’s” reproductive health care, we are also being gatekept even from the resources that do exist as trans men specifically.

All of this is ignoring the fact that “transandrophobia” is not implying the existence of cis misandry. It refers to the unique system of oppression targeting transmasculinity, which is in many ways a synthesis of transphobia and misogyny; just one that works in distinctly different ways, for different reasons, than transmisogyny does.

Anyway. I kind of debated publishing this ask in the first place, because I’m genuinely not interested in starting shit. I don’t know her, and I don’t know or care why she made these claims, and I don’t have any interest in finding out.

But it’s a good example of how broken these arguments are, and how nicely things start to work together when you include transmasc experiences.

[britnxyspears]

Anyone else get irritated just a little when reproduction 1959 Barbies dont have poodle bangs?

[neonun-au]

an end is also a beginning | jung jaehyun

pairing: jaehyun x reader genre: soft angst, contemplative warnings: none word count: 1.2k song: so long, marianne (cover) by russian red

For @itsapapisongo​ ; Javi, i hope you enjoy this~ 

The autumn scenery passes by outside the car window--a blur of orange, yellow, and brown. You lean your forehead against the glass, gaze unfocused, and let the colours drift by as the car flies down the empty highway. Another ad plays on the radio; some small town mechanics shop offering prices lower than the nearby city, interrupting the stream of classic rock that had been drowning out your thoughts for the past hour as you sat in the silent cab. Jaehyun has his eyes fixed firmly on the road, nodding along to the disjointed sounds. 

The temporary happiness of the last few days has dissipated. Dissolved slowly, mile by mile, while you weren’t paying attention and now you find yourself sitting in a bath of silence and contemplation. Leaning over, you flick the dial to change the station--desperate for an end to the ad break. 

“I don’t think there are any other stations,” Jaehyun comments, eyes unmoving from the road ahead as you turn the dial in vain. Nothing but static. With a sigh, you twist it back to the same station; just in time for another small town advertisement. 

“How much longer?” With a yawn you glance over at your boyfriend, his profile illuminated in the amber light of early evening. 

“Maybe another two hours,” he replies, sparing a small glance your way. 

You stretch out in your seat with a sigh before turning your gaze back out the window, thoughts drifting off again as an old Rolling Stones song blasts from the speakers. 

--

The diner is small and decorated in the vein of 50s nostalgia. Black and white tiles, vintage jukeboxes, a single, middle-aged waitress dressed in a powder blue poodle skirt. Jaehyun makes a beeline for the washroom and you slip into a worn vinyl booth, eyeing the oversized menu spread out in front of you. Rows and rows of items--milkshakes, cheeseburgers, french fries, all things deep fried and delicious. 

“What’s good?” Jaehyun asks as he slips into the booth across from you, leaning forward so he can glance at the meals on offer. 

“Last time we just got cheeseburgers, they were alright…” you trail off, pushing the menu towards him and leaning back in your seat. “Too many choices.” 

“Last time?” He hums, running a finger down the laminated page. 

“Yeah, we stopped in here last year, too, remember? It was our first trip together.” 

He shakes his head in a silent no and motions for the waitress to come over, ordering a cheeseburger and chocolate shake. The same order. You follow suit, thanking the stone-faced waitress as she toddles back towards the kitchen to grumble the order to the lone cook. 

“It looks exactly the same,” you comment, glancing around at the posters and old record covers lining the walls. Reproduction concert posters exclaiming that Elvis was in town for one night, and one night only. “I think we even had the same waitress.” 

Jaehyun glances around the small diner and you watch his expression, seeking out any hints of recognition. Any emotion deeper than apathy. He shrugs, “some things never change.” 

“Guess not,” you reply with a sigh, turning to glance out at the empty, leaf strewn parking lot. 

Things were much brighter in your memories. Summer had been in full swing then, families on their way to the surrounding lakes and beaches littered the parking lot. Hauling milkshakes and burgers in grease-soaked bags back to their cramped sedans and minivans. The hot sun beat down on the parking lot, intense and blinding. Jaehyun kept bumping his sweaty hands into yours--playful and teasing. Knocking your feet together under the cover of the formica table while you had laughed at him for getting food all over the front of his shirt. 

The diner might look the same, but everything else had changed. 

The food comes out piled high on old white plates. A massive mound of french fries and a burger dripping with sauce and cheese. The image of Jaehyun sitting, white shirt marred by a massive stain of red as you tried to blot it out with a napkin between bouts of laughter flashes into your mind again and you resist the urge to giggle at the thought--swallowing it down with a mouthful of soda. 

“Well,” you start, after a few minutes of silently picking at your plate of food, “the trip was fun.” It had been your idea, a weekend away from the city. A different world in a cold cabin next to a lake--time ceasing to exist as you had lain back on a blanket to watch the stars twinkle overhead. 

“Yeah,” Jaehyun nods around a mouthful of fries, “would have been nice if we could have stayed longer.” You spot a small splotch of red on the front of his shirt as he reaches for the salt, but your hands remain still on your side of the table. He has napkins. 

--

The car cruises easily down the rest of the highway as you drive, taking the wheel for the last hour back towards the city while Jaehyun dozes off in the passenger seat. 

The last remnants of the illusion of the past few days disappears entirely  into the empty wheat fields lining the road. Distance yawns between the ignorant happiness of your lakeside excursion and the silence in the small sedan as it speeds back towards your banal life in the city. Jaehyun sighs in his sleep and you feel the emptiness sink into the pit of your stomach. Making its home there--filling your body with the endless stretch of nothing. A familiar, and somewhat comfortable void. 

How do you know when something is ending? 

Is it when the pin first drops? Missed calls, forgotten dates, wandering eyes in a cafe. 

Is it when the fighting gets to a point when you feel like you’re angry more with yourself than the other person? Angrier at the time wasted in tears, rather than any actions taken. 

Or is it in the void. When the comfort of nothingness becomes more appealing than trying. When you resign yourself to the surface level conversations, to the passing glances and empty touch of one you once knew so well. Or maybe that was all an illusion, as well. The illusion of knowing someone when really all they are is a construct your excited mind has concocted during late nights spent staring at your phone. 

You slow the car to a stop and park in front of your building, yellow tree branches replaced by grey, steel streetlights. Shaking Jaehyun awake you break the long silence with a soft murmur, “hey, we’re back.” 

He blinks his eyes open, stretching out in the seat like a cat in the sunshine. “Already?” 

You nod and climb out of the driver's seat, hauling your overnight bag from the back as you slide out onto the pavement. Jaehyun slips out of the vehicle after you, walking you to the front door of your apartment building and wrapping his arms around you in a quick, routine embrace. 

“Love you,” you say, already turning the key in the lock. 

“You too,” he calls after you on his way back to the car--twirling the keys around his fingers. “I’ll call you later, okay?” 

You nod, waving as he starts the vehicle and drives off down the street--rounding the corner at the next intersection and disappearing into the mass of identical cars. 

Heaving your bag onto your shoulder you ascend the elevator to your apartment. The TV blares on in the dark of your living room, and you flop down on the couch in front of it--flicking through title after title on Netflix. A welcome distraction from waiting for a phone call that you knew was never going to come.

© 2020, neonun-au

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My great grandmother, Kaye, and reproduction Poodle Parade Barbie

[wildwood-faun]

10, 18, 24 💜

Thank you!! 💜¨

10. what do you wish you hated, but actually like?

Nothing that comes to mind tbh! I'm trying to replace guilt over liking things with mischievous glee. Sometimes I like terrible/cringe/off-brand things and I am going to make that everybody else’s problem >:)

18. what animal would you keep as a pet, if you could?

This is where I ought to reach for the moon and talk about void critters and beings of starlight but honestly? I really wish I could have a dog. I’m kind of into the various pointer breeds but for allergy reasons I ought to go with something like a poodle (also good dogs don’t get me wrong!). Work/life balance is not on my side though.

24. what is your favorite thing to learn about?

Historical dress ooouuuuuuhhhh!!! God just give me all the fashion plates, reenactor blogs, obscenely expensive reproduction fabrics and digital museum collections 🙌

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Check out this listing I just added to my Poshmark closet: Coca Cola Sakura Stoneware Coffee Mug Christmas Holiday Santa Claus Holiday Tree.