#possible breakup

[originalshaynotfound]

Maybe the differences are growing and splitting us apart. Or maybe it was always like this

-Me

[angelus-apocalypsis]

Whumptober Day 2

I chose “Confrontation” for this fill because this is a scene from the story I’m currently working on, Simiel’s Fall in the AFCFH verse, that I’ve just been stuck on. I’ve never actually written emotional confrontations, I’m pretty sure this is my first original work with a romance, and while I’m still not entirely happy with how this turned out and will undoubtedly write it a couple more times before it goes into the story here it is.

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Carwyn wasn't sure how the confrontation had started. How it had all gotten to this. He hadn’t meant to sound accusing. Knew how defensive Simiel was about his family. He was just as bad sometimes. But it had just been too much. The final drop that caused the cup to overflow after a day of fighting with his sister. And now found himself stuck in an argument he couldn’t win but didn’t want to give in on.

“We talked about this I thought you understood!”

“Keep your voice down.” The last thing they needed was for Lyn to come out to see what was wrong. “I did understand, I do, but you have to understand that you can’t just expect me to be okay with always being least important.”

Simiel looked like he’d just been slapped and Carwyn couldn’t help the flair of guilt he felt at the sight. He didn’t want to hurt him, just wanted him to understand.

“You’re not least important.” Simiel said voice almost pleading.

A bitter broken laugh escaped Carwyn at that. “How can you expect me to believe that? Words are just words when your actions seem to show you don’t care.” One day, that was all he wanted. Simiel’s presence with him for one day. And Simiel had promised him that. But now his brothers had better things for him to do. “You say they don’t care you still visit me. I say they want to make you stop on your own. So it’s not their fault.”

“That’s not fair. I’m an archangel it’s my duty to…”

“What about your duty to you?” As much as he loved Simiel he had only agreed to the change in their relationship if the angel would begin to think of himself as equal to his siblings.

“Maybe this is for me. Maybe this is what I want!”

And that shouldn’t hurt like a physical blow. Even if it felt like Simiel was agreeing with everything he’d just said. How will you of all people keep an angel interested in you? Bethan’s words did nothing to soothe the pain and Carwyn swallowed to keep his voice even.

“Then that is your choice. But you cannot blame me for my reaction to it. You are welcome to your choices but I would pray you not lie to me.” Because this was worse than a simple refusal would have been. Because he had hoped he wouldn’t be alone to remember his parents now that Bethan felt he shouldn’t spend it with them.

“I-” Simiel regretted his words. Vividly remembering Carwyn baring his heart and fears to him in a way he did with no one else. I just don’t want to be alone. “It was not my intention to lie. I had every intention of visiting.”

“But now you won’t.”

“I may still have time.” But even he didn’t believe that. He was supposed to be gone days and slipping away would undoubtedly not be taken well. “I must do my duty to Heaven.”

“Or risk punishment. How is that anyway to live?”

“So you would rather I fall? Be cast out from my family?”

“No? Yes? How am I supposed to answer that? Of course I don’t want you to lose your family, they mean the world to you. But I fear losing you when you don’t!” Because Heaven clearly didn’t feel like sharing no matter how short a time it would be.

“That means yes then.”

Carwyn felt anger bubble up inside him but he squashed it down. “You know full well that’s not what I said.”

Simiel’s answering shrug seemed forcefully uncaring. “Isn’t it?”

“No it’s not. I just want to feel like I matter to you.”

“That’s selfish!” Simiel spat even though it wasn’t and he knew that, regretted the words even before they’d left his mouth. It was the sort of thing his siblings would say to one another when they wanted something that in his opinion was completely reasonable. He hated it, got angry at them even though he knew they didn’t mean it. And now he was doing it himself.

Flinching slightly Carwyn clenched his hands to his side to try and hide their trembling. Even Simiel’s muttered apology didn’t lessen the sting of his words. Because he trusted Simiel, trusted him with his insecurities, trusted he wouldn’t use them against him. It felt foolish given everything they had been arguing about but somehow this truly was the final drop.

“I think it would be best if you leave.” He said softly only managing to look Simiel in the eye for a moment before dropping his gaze. “And consider what exactly it is you want. For both our sakes.”

For a moment Simiel hesitated, shifting slightly like he wanted to reach out or move forward. But then he was just suddenly gone. Immediately Carwyn slumped back against the wall legs suddenly too weak to hold him up. He shouldn’t have done that. Should have just kept his mouth shut. Pretended everything was fine. His whole body trembling he let himself sink to the ground. No. It had been the right thing to do. For both of them. Even if- even if Simiel decided this wasn’t what he wanted. Maybe even decided not to come back at all. Carwyn sobbed burying his face in his knees. It would be fine. He would be fine.

[spilledkaleidoscope]

unreliable narrator

[lucifers-simp]

We all joke about how Phoenix is basically Elle Woods (because of the whole "goes to law school to get a guy" thing) but aa actually came out in the us a month before Legally Blonde

So Elle Woods is basically Phoenix Wright

[pepperpixel]

“Can't remember when we walked past the O.R. sign!

(sur-ger-y!)

Can't remember passing out with her hand in mine!

(my-my-mind!!!!)

I remember waking up with my mind repaired.

(A-OK! ^^)

I remember when I realized, she wasn't there...”

Amnesia was her name….. is. so. horrifically. sadly fitting for these two in literally every single line. And I’m gonna NEED ALL OF U GUYS TO GO LISTEN TO IT NOW OK… THIS ISNT A DRILL GO GO GO GO!!!

Anyway… uhh. the fact Betty “blessed” this guy to like. An eternally long lifespan w THIS FUCKED UP OF A MENTAL STATE IS SO SCREWED UP GHGH- Like poor Simon god damn…! u kno he’d rather just keep on not sorting out his baggage and trauma forever too cuz it’d be too complicated… too much… force him to admit things about himself and about BETTY that he really really doesn’t want to… better to just leave it all unexamined.. pack it all into lil boxes so he can just try to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist… HE GOTTA LIVE FOREVER W IT THO… *ME BANGING ON SIMONS DOOR AT 3 IN THE MORNING*: “SIMON U GOTTA ACCEPT URSELF!!!! LOVE URSELF!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE N ACCEPT EVEN THE “BAD” PARTS OF URSELF!!!! SIMON PLEASE!!!!! SIMON EVEN PPL WHO LOVE YOU AND WHO YOU LOVE CAN HURT YOU!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!! ACKNOWLEDGE THE HURT AND ACKNOWLEDGE UR FEELINGS!!!! AND URSELF!!!!! SIMON!!!!” anyway… gGHGH YEA, SRRY. SIMON PETRIKOVS MENTAL ILLNESSES MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE. ANYWAY HAVE SOME ART. W a bunch of diff versions cuz I’m indecisive!

[coffeebanana]

I’m not saying I want adrinette to break up in S6, I’m just saying that’s how we get ladrien

[musingsofmaisie]

Thing is, it changes everything.....

but it changes exactly NOTHING at the same time. SIGH.

[moomeecore]

saw something abt fionna and cake season 2 months ago and didn't look into it until now bc despite my love for these characters i litterally couldn't care less after that ending but yeah its true there's gonna be a season two. so can someone tell me what the fuck they are even going to do if not retract the last 2 episodes and give me an ending that dosent suck. seriously the way i was watching every episode multiple times after they came out and enjoying the show so thoroughly and then the last two episode came out. i watched them a second time specifically in hopes they would be better the second time around. they where worse. haevent touched any episodes of f&c OR the original adventure time since. cannot emphasize ebough how much that ending just dissipated so much of my love and joy around adventure time so fast.anyway seriously. what are they going to do in season 2?the ending was so rushed and part of the reason was that they Only Had So Many Episodes so it feels kinda insulting for them to be like "OK have more episodes now" after they put out the most rushed and incoherent ending possible

[the-obnoxious-sibling]

“Being a pirate is all about going your own way.” // “Come with me, Buggy!!”

is this post totally redundant after the similar post i made last week? idk. i guess the main difference is that this time i’m looking at the same topic in an unambiguously romantic light? the shipper goggles, as they say, are on, and i want to talk about these scenes in that context. so, if you’ll forgive me for repeating myself a bit, let’s talk about this again:

as much as i enjoy the heartbreak of “they always thought they’d be together but miscommunication tore them apart” takes on shanks/buggy, the very first flashback we get about them—the first things we learn about them at all, really—tells us this isn’t true.

and i think what we get is more romantic.

Chapter 19, Pages 12-13. i know last time i said they’re at most 12 here, but looking at these lanky-ass teenaged designs that’s nuts. i fully believe oda hadn’t thought through their ages/the timeline at this point, and they were originally supposed to be about luffy’s age when buggy got his devil fruit. which is not relevant to this post in any way, but it’s my post so i get to go off-topic if i want.

Shanks and Buggy have their own goals as pirates, and at this time they understand them to be mutually incompatible. Buggy thinks Shanks’ travel-and-adventure-oriented take on piracy is soft and foolish; Shanks doesn’t care for Buggy’s exclusively treasure-focused take. They’re sometimes friendly, sometimes not, they’ve fought side by side, but they know this time as allies and crewmates is temporary. (Buggy plans on taking his treasure map and the Devil Fruit and leaving the crew immediately.) Maybe they’ll become friendly rivals, ‘fighting to the finish’ when they run into each other like Roger and Whitebeard do, or maybe the next time they see each other they’ll literally fight to the finish. Who knows?

“That’s also what being a pirate is all about.” It’s very sensible behavior. Smart planning for the future.

Which means the contradictory ways they act later—Buggy secretly deciding to follow Shanks, Shanks bluntly asking Buggy to come with him—are not about these characters thoughtlessly clinging to the status quo. They are not in a “we were always together and I never thought that would change” situation. Deciding to stick together is a considered, emotional decision: “I know we don’t make sense together but I don’t care, I want us together anyway.”

Chapter 1082, Pages 8-9. i was cursed the moment i saw these pages with Unable To Stop Thinking About It disease; only time will tell if seeing it animated makes it worse or cures me.

This argument is a codependent breaking point. Buggy’s pinned all his dreams on Shanks, hoisted that poor boy up on a pedestal, and it all falls apart when Shanks reveals thoughts and plans that don’t match Buggy’s perception of him. He can’t bear to be around him now that the false image has been revealed. (Shanks, poor thing, seems to have had no idea any of this was happening.)

But if Shanks hadn’t said no to Laugh Tale in this moment—or maybe if he’d offered a soft no of, idk, “okay, sure, once we’ve got a strong enough crew”—Buggy would have gone with him, still projecting wildly onto Shanks. He’d convinced himself that being a member of the Pirate King’s crew was enough for him, that he didn’t need to be Pirate King himself if Shanks got the title and he was with Shanks.

…but would he have actually liked being a member of that crew?

Like, looking at the things the Red-Haired Pirates do, would Buggy have enjoyed being one of them? Wandering East Blue, hanging out in friendly port towns, collecting treasure here and there but spending a lot of time getting drunk and making friends with the locals? Eventually becoming famous for having a large, weak fleet of subordinate pirate crews Shanks has to sometimes physically step in and protect?

God, no, he’d’ve been miserable. Just seething with thwarted ambition, furious at the perceived disrespect. A real power hungry first officer stereotype, the kind of character that makes you think, Why’s he working for this guy if he hates him so much?

And Buggy must have suspected it would go something like that. But if Shanks hadn’t rejected Laugh Tale, he would’ve gone with him anyway.

(Better to be miserable with you than a loser on my own.)

Or say Buggy agreed to come with Shanks. Obviously his presence wouldn’t change the crew makeup significantly enough to skew the Red-Haired Pirates towards his way of thinking, but for the sake of argument: if he had convinced Shanks to do things his way, would Shanks have enjoyed the kind of piracy Buggy engages in? Taking over and destroying East Blue port towns, ordering your crew killed on a furious whim, single-mindedly hunting down treasure maps and single-mindedly hunting down treasure chests and paying no attention to anything along the journey? Eventually becoming the boss and administrator for a bunch of bounty hunters and mercenaries?

No way; most of that behavior is totally repellant to Shanks. If he let Buggy do that kind of thing under his banner, you’d be left wondering What happened to his morals? Why does he let this guy walk all over him?

And Shanks knew the kind of pirate Buggy was and wanted to be. But he asked Buggy to come with him anyway.

(Better to be miserable with you than have fun apart.)

It’s hard to see a way to make these very different styles of pirating work together. It’s probably doable… with a lot of compromise and honest conversation. The younger Shanks and Buggy had a point, when they said each going their own way was the obvious choice! It was certainly the easier one. Was it the happier one? Who can say.

[basically-i-write-shit]

Hey 9-1-1 besties how are we feeling? Anyway, considering 7x4.......happened.....I have a confession and that confession is that I don't hate Tommy all that much. Do I want him to be endgame with Buck? No. Do I think it's even remotely a possibility for the show? No. But I'm tired of big breakup scenes, and specifically I'm tired of the "queer person getting into a relationship with someone inexperienced/closet and expecting them to be ready to do everything/be ready to come out to everyone" troupe. While I'm sure not a lot of people are thrilled by Buck's bi-ness beginning with Tommy, I think there is a lot of opportunity for growth with Buck and I hope Tommy can help him with that.

My hope with this relationship, however long it lasts, is that there isn't any ultimatums. No "Come out or we're breaking up" moment, no "I'm too out to be dating someone who just only discovered they're queer" moment. It's a gross troupe and I hate it and even though I've seen it with ABC before I'm hoping it doesn't go that way. I want Tommy to be able to teach him the ropes, but ultimately realize that he isn't who Buck wants- and to gently guide him in that direction.

Is it so much to have an amicable break up for once?

[soyxx]

[evankinard]

rewatching the 502 scene with ana at the station and it genuinely makes me howl every single time. the long ass silence between eddie introducing chris to ravi and then just staring into space while everyone looks at him waiting for him to introduce ana while he gets absolutely pummeled by the elephant in the room. his thousand yard stare. just a dumpster fire of a human being. a wet rag cosplaying as flesh and bone. I want him carnally.

[eeveeights]

going 2 start posting my agent sheets as i slowly make them.... very hard to summarize my agent 3 in 4 bullets and 3 songs they would like but i tried....

[thatsmistertoyou]

*’real, actual friends’ defined as ‘I talk to them more than a few times a year and look forward to it’, not ‘I probably wouldn’t feed them to alligators if given the option’

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

[buggin-0ut]

Kuraun been working hard, selling his furniture, and he finally managed to buy a store space… not even within a week, all of this happened.