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Princess/Long Quiet

I was writing somewhat cohesive propaganda and then the phrase “She is everything. He’s just Quiet” popped into my head and i think that sums them up better than anything else I could have said. The Princess can change to be anything she’s perceived as, and the Long Quiet… he’s silly :)

Fuuko/Andy (propaganda by @tokiro07)

Fuuko became the boss of a time-looping organization designed to fight and kill God, looped back to the 1800s and used visions she acquired from previous loops to become an oil baron. By the 1970s, she'd amassed enough wealth to outstrip most governments, re-founded said organization with incredibly advanced technology, and used all of her resources to avert the horrific tragedies of all of her loved ones. Along the way, she became skilled in several fields, such as language arts, surgery, cooking, kung fu, metallurgy, sharpshooting, singing, dancing, boxing, and drawing. In addition to being an oil-baron and effectively the CEO of a secret organization, she also became a ramen-themed cryptid, an astronaut, and a deadbeat dad

While Fuuko was gathering capital and recruits, Andy sat on the sun for an unspecified number of years, but likely the full 4.6 billion years since the creation of the Earth, to keep God's ten strongest soldiers sealed away within it and prevent them from interfering with Fuuko's preparations. For all intents and purposes, Andy acted as a stay-at-home wife while he waited for Fuuko to finish her work

They are canonically in a relationship, and they weaponize it. Fuuko's power, Unluck, is directly proportional to how much she likes whoever she touches x how long she touches them x how much surface area she touches, and Andy's power, Undead, allows him to tank whatever horrible thing Unluck sends his way while redirecting it at an enemy. A single, one-second high-five between the two was enough to summon a comet, specifically to cancel out a meteor she'd accidentally summoned on a close personal friend. She was able to think of the plan needed to facilitate this while fighting one of the aforementioned ten soldiers within 10 seconds while also performing major heart surgery, and then immediately infiltrated the sun alone to confront the other nine

Andy was originally a nameless amnesiac until Fuuko came up with the name as a pun on Undead. Since Andy got his first name from Fuuko, many fans have taken this to the logical conclusion that he would also take his last name from her, and thus refer to him as Andy Izumo

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For the Benefit of All: Assistive Tech Developed from NASA Tech

What do modern cochlear implants and robotic gloves have in common? They were derived from NASA technology. We’ve made it easier to find and use our patented inventions that could help create products that enhance life for people with disabilities.

October is National Disability Employment Awareness Month, which highlights the contributions of American workers with disabilities – many of whom use assistive technology on the job. Take a look at these assistive technologies that are NASA spinoffs.

Low-Vision Headsets

The Joint Optical Reflective Display (JORDY) device is a headset that uses NASA image processing and head-mounted display technology to enable people with low vision to read and write. JORDY enhances individuals’ remaining sight by magnifying objects up to 50 times and allowing them to change contrast, brightness, and display modes. JORDY's name was inspired by Geordi La Forge, a blind character from “Star Trek: The Next Generation” whose futuristic visor enabled him to see.

Cochlear Implants

Work that led to the modern cochlear implant was patented by a NASA engineer in the 1970s. Following three failed corrective surgeries, Adam Kissiah combined his NASA electronics know-how with research in the Kennedy Space Center technical library to build his own solution for people with severe-to-profound hearing loss who receive little or no benefit from hearing aids. Several companies now make the devices, which have been implanted in hundreds of thousands of people around the world.

Robotic Gloves

Ironhand, from Swedish company Bioservo Technologies, is the world’s first industrial-strength robotic glove for factory workers and others who perform repetitive manual tasks. It helps prevent stress injuries but has been especially warmly received by workers with preexisting hand injuries and conditions. The glove is based on a suite of patents for the technology developed by NASA and General Motors to build the hands of the Robonaut 2 humanoid robotic astronaut.

Smart Glasses

Neurofeedback technology NASA originally developed to improve pilots’ attention has been the basis for products aimed at helping people manage attention disorders without medication. The devices measure brainwave output to gauge attention levels according to the “engagement index” a NASA engineer created. Then, they show the results to users, helping them learn to voluntarily control their degree of concentration. One such device is a pair of smart glasses from Narbis, whose lenses darken as attention wanes.

Anti-Gravity Treadmills

A NASA scientist who developed ways to use air pressure to simulate gravity for astronauts exercising in space had the idea to apply the concept for the opposite effect on Earth. After licensing his technology, Alter-G Inc. developed its anti-gravity G-Trainer treadmill, which lets users offload some or all of their weight while exercising. The treadmills can help people recover from athletic or brain injuries, and they allow a safe exercise regimen for others with long-term conditions such as arthritis.

Wireless Muscle Sensors

Some of the most exciting assistive technologies to spin off may be yet to come. Delsys Inc. developed electromyographic technology to help NASA understand the effects of long-term weightlessness on astronauts’ muscles and movements. Electromyography detects and analyzes electrical signals emitted when motor nerves trigger movement. Among the company’s customers are physical therapists developing exercise routines to help patients recover from injuries. But some researchers are using the technology to attempt recoveries that once seemed impossible, such as helping paralyzed patients regain movement, letting laryngectomy patients speak, and outfitting amputees with artificial limbs that work like the real thing.  

To further enhance the lives of people with disabilities, NASA has identified a selection of patented technologies created for space missions that could spur the next generation of assistive technology here on Earth.

Want to learn more about assistive technologies already in action? Check out NASA Spinoff to find products and services that wouldn’t exist without space exploration.   

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By Evan Gough March 28, 2025 The hazards facing lunar astronauts are many. There's the radiation, the temperature extremes, the psychological challenges associated with isolation, and the risk of bad accidents so far from Earthly assistance. But there's also the dust, which constitutes an ever-present background hazard. NASA has known about the hazards lunar dust poses since the Apollo days. When Apollo 11 landed on the Moon, NASA was concerned that the lander would sink into the dust and took various precautions to prevent that. As the spacecraft descended to the surface, it kicked up dust that impaired Armstrong's vision as he piloted the lander. Apollo 17 astronaut Harrison "Jack" Schmitt said, "Dust is going to be the environmental problem for future missions, both inside and outside habitats." NASA has developed a method of dealing with dust that builds up on surfaces called the Electrodynamic Dust Shield (EDS). They tested it on the recent Blue Ghost Mission 1, which was a robotic lander from Firefly Aerospace that became the first private spacecraft to execute a fully successful soft landing on the Moon.

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Astronauts face unique visual challenges at lunar south pole

Humans are returning to the moon—this time, to stay. Because our presence will be more permanent, NASA has selected a location that maximizes line-of-sight communication with Earth, solar visibility, and access to water ice: the Lunar South Pole (LSP).

While the sun is in the lunar sky more consistently at the poles, it never rises more than a few degrees above the horizon; in the target landing regions, the highest possible elevation is 7°. This presents a harsh lighting environment never experienced during the Apollo missions, or in fact, in any human spaceflight experience.

The ambient lighting will severely affect the crews' ability to see hazards and to perform simple work. This is because the human vision system—which, despite having a high-dynamic range—cannot see well in bright light and cannot adapt quickly from bright to dark or vice versa.

Functional vision is required to perform a variety of tasks, from simple tasks (e.g., walking, operating simple tools) to managing complex machines (e.g., lander elevator, rovers). Thus, the environment presents an engineering challenge to the agency: one that must be widely understood before it can be effectively addressed.

In past NASA missions and programs, the design of lighting and functional vision support systems for extravehicular activity (EVA) or rover operations has been managed at the lowest program level. This worked well for Apollo and low Earth orbit because the sun angle was managed by mission planning and astronaut self-positioning; helmet design alone addressed all vision challenges.

The Artemis campaign presents new challenges to functional vision, because astronauts will be unable to avoid having the sun in their eyes much of the time they are on the lunar surface. This, combined with the need for artificial lighting in the extensive shadowing at the LSP, means that new functional vision support systems must be developed across projects and programs.

The design of helmets, windows, and lighting systems must work in a complementary fashion, within and across programs, to achieve a system of lighting and vision support that enables crews to see into darkness while their eyes are light-adapted, in bright light while still dark-adapted, and protects their eyes from injury.

Many of the findings of the assessment were focused on the lack of specific requirements to prevent functional vision impairment by the sun's brilliance (which is different from preventing eye injury), while enabling astronauts to see well enough to perform specific tasks. Specifically, tasks expected of astronauts at the LSP were not incorporated into system design requirements to enable system development that ensures functional vision in the expected lighting environment.

Consequently, the spacesuit, for example, has flexibility requirements for allowing the astronauts to walk, but not for ensuring they can see well enough to walk from brilliant sun into a dark shadow and back without the risk of tripping or falling. Importantly, gaps were identified in the allocation of requirements across programs to ensure that the role of the various programs is for each to understand functional vision.

NESC recommendations were offered to make enabling functional vision in the harsh lighting environment a specific and new requirement for the system designers. The recommendations also included that lighting, window, and visor designs be integrated.

The assessment team recommended that a wide variety of simulation techniques, physical and virtual, must be developed, each with different and well-stated capabilities with respect to functional vision. Some would address the blinding effects of sunlight at the LSP (not easily achieved through virtual approaches) to evaluate the performance of helmet shields and artificial lighting in the context of the environment and adaptation times.

Other simulations would add terrain features to identify the threats in simple (e.g., walking, collection of samples) and complex (e.g., maintenance and operation of equipment) tasks.

Since different facilities have different strengths, they also have different weaknesses. These strengths and limitations must be characterized to enable verification of technical solutions and crew training.

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Horizon Lore Post

The Climate Victory Compact, contrary to its name, was not an admission of victory - it was a crushing defeat on all sides. The Great War acted as the primary driver for this, a massive, continent scaling conflict that saw every piece of military equipment utilized. Initially a proxy war between states, by the 2080s the Rus-Sino-NATO conflict had boiled over into full peer-to-peer conflict, with both forces making territorial grabs across Asia and Northern Africa. Resources were scarce, and the quest for continued extraction had come to blows. The Siberian steppe became the new Verdun, and NATO-Allied forces held their own for nearly two years. In the Middle East, oil fields were hastily burned to prevent Chinese and Russian forces from making a land grab. Lines were breaking on both sides, and the tunnel vision of conflict prevented the major powers from identifying the sheer degradation of global order. Nations grew tired, people grew tired, and the delicate framework that kept the planet together seemed to border on crisis. In space, battles raged - automated war frigates carried out their espionage and counterspace maneuvers, a cat and mouse game that had unfortunately broken the allure of space for peace. On the Moon, the great settlements locked their doors, and astronauts bolstered rifles as their home countries duked it out on the surface. It is unknown if any skirmeshes occurred on the lunar surface. Mars was silent, as it always was. Cities had been ravaged by natural disasters, one after the other, for so many years - and many were beginning to wonder if the end of times was truly upon them.

November 19th, 2089 was a day like any other. The US-led "Cavalier Brigade" was preparing to push through a Chinese blockade, potentially allowing for a small town's water filtration system to fall back into NATO hands. CENTCOM had it first, a brilliant flash had been observed by SBIRS satellites hiding out at GEO, roaring upward from the deserts of Iran. A missile had been launched - it's target unknown. In a quick ballistic arc, the missile would shed its first and second stages, before deploying a confusing volley of chaff - designed to confuse enemy interceptors. And then, it began to fall. Skipping across the atmosphere, the warhead sought its target before finally detonating over the city of New Dehli. 76 megatons would kill millions in moments, the largest wartime nuclear detonation since Hiroshima. A decapitation strike, the Indian government could not respond - and for a precious few minutes, the world hung in the balance. The Indian president, away for a UN summit, found his nation in ruins - an entire line of government destroyed. In a passionate speech delivered to the UN, he pleaded his case - citing the destruction of his beloved home city as a failure of the modern world. It would not fall on deaf ears.

Gradually, the war would lead to atrophy - as constrained resources made the conflict harder to keep up. Even with the advent of fusion power, the outdated equipment being thrown into the conflict could not be maintained sustainably. The last shot was fired by an M1 Abrams tank in January of 2090, as a 1,000 year storm ravaged the East Coast. Sheltering in the UN headquarters in New York, leaders of the world began to face what they had made. Superstorm Elena is marked by many as the final blow of the Rus-Sino-NATO war, later referred to as the Great War or the Dark War by Lunar historians. It is out of this 3 day storm that the agreements of the C-V-C were established, the creation of a combined, UN military for keeping of the peace, and the transition to sustainability projects with the hope of protecting a crippled world from slipping further into darkness.

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The Chase The travellers learn from the Time-Space Visualiser (taken from the Moroks' museum) that Daleks, equipped with their own time machine, are on their trail with orders to exterminate them. They flee in the TARDIS.

The chase begins on the desert planet Aridius and takes in a number of stopping-off points, including a spooky haunted house which is actually a futuristic fun-fair attraction.

Eventually, both time machines arrive on the jungle planet Mechanus, where the Daleks try to infiltrate and kill the Doctor's party with a robotic double of him. The travellers are taken prisoner by the Mechanoids — robots sent some fifty years earlier to prepare landing sites for human colonists who never arrived — and meet Steven Taylor, a stranded astronaut who has been the Mechanoids' captive for the past two years.

The Daleks and the Mechanoids engage in a fierce battle which ends in their mutual destruction. The Doctor's party seizes this opportunity to escape. The Doctor reluctantly helps Ian and Barbara to use the Daleks' time machine to return home.

Rise of the Cybermen / The Age of Steel Upon landing on an alternate version of the Earth, the Doctor, Rose and Mickey learn that Peter Tyler is apparently alive and well. Lurking in the shadows are creatures made to destroy - one of the Doctor's greatest fears have come true… the Cybermen are reborn.

In the parallel universe, Lumic's insanity has reached its crescendo. The unwilling populace is being converted into Cybermen, the madman's twisted vision of perfecting humanity. Will the Doctor help prevent this Earth from falling to the Cybermen?

[midnight-raven]

The Black Phone/Superhero AU Idea

There is a secret government initiative that takes in young adults whose lives have been permanently altered by an accident or catastrophic event, leaving them with abilities outside the normal.

The chosen few are trained to control their abilities, and see if they can become more than who they were before.

(Before you read on, let me apologize now. I stink at coming up with superhero names… I’m open to suggestions for change)

SuperNova/Finney Blake

High amongst the stars, Finney had been outside the ISS to work on repairs when the strike of a stray meteor caused the astronaut to become untethered, launching him straight into the heart of a solar storm. Upon returning to Earth, Finney discovered his body had absorbed the energy of the flare, leaving him with a few unexpected after effects .

Oracle/Gwen Blake

Born with the gift of precognition, Gwen works as a consultant detective, using her visions to help catch criminals, find missing people, and even prevent crimes before they happen. Until one night, when Gwens dream depicts a powerful force hiding in the shadows, threatening millions of people. To stop this threat, she and Finney will have to team up with a team of other young heroes.

Stealth/Griffin Stagg

In a private research campus, Griffin was a young intern eager to prove his abilities to his professors and fellow peers. One day, after being accidentally exposed to the fumes of a chemical mix-up, Griffins’ entire body was rendered invisible. With the help of a private facility, Griffin was given a high-tech bodysuit that would make him visible again, as long as he wears it.

Renegade/Billy Showalter

There is a secret program that turns promising young men into weapons of war. One such success is the The Silver Guard, close & far range skills, deadly in combat, and no identity anywhere outside of the program… except in a missing persons report under the name Billy Showalter. After being detained by Homeland Security, Billy was given a chance to seek atonement for his actions and also find the pieces to his stolen life.

WarPath/Vance Hopper

Many years ago, a pair of gauntlets were sent to Earth from a dying alien planet lightyears away to seek a fighter. ‘The Gauntlets of Ares’ named after the mythology warrior, was designed to only be worn by a chosen one and grant them God-like abilities to defend the innocent. No one was more surprised than Vance when the gauntlets chose him as its wielder.

Titani-Man/Bruce Yamada

Bruce once had a bright future and a promising baseball career ahead of him, but it was all taken away when a hit & run accident left his legs paralyzed. Mr Yamada, a skilled mechanical engineer, constructed a special pair of leg braces to restore his son's ability to walk. On his road to recovery, Bruce discovered a new path for his future after constructing his own special suit.

The Defender/Robin Arellano

Robin always protected those who couldn’t defend themselves, and that didn’t change when he enlisted. During his service, Robin and his team were held prisoner by an unknown enemy for over three months. In the end, only Robin made it out. Discharged from the army, Robin pursued a vigilante life, dedicating himself to protecting others by himself until he was given an offer to join a team.

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Name: Carson Scott West Age: 34 years old Gender: Cisgender Man, He/him Occupation: Firefighter/Paramedic Faceclaim: Jordan Calloway Height: 6'0 Build: Muscular, burly Sexuality: Bisexual (Leans to men) Smokes: No Drinks: Yes Tattoos: None Piercings: None

BIOGRAPHY.

(tw fire, death, teen pregnancy)

Carson wasn’t born into wealth, but that didn’t stop him being lucky from a young age; at least, that was what people always told him. He was born Carson Scott. His father was a plumber by trade, hard-working and earnest. His mother came from a wealthy family, but while her sister, Carson’s aunt, married into the wealthy West family, she had other plans. She fell in love and married outside her family’s approval, turning away from their money to forge a simple life. Carson doesn’t have any real memories of his birth parents, but when he looked back into his family’s case years later, the reports said the fire was the result of faulty wiring. The building had dozens of violations and nothing was up to code. The landlord went to prison for negligence, but not for long enough, if you asked Carson. Sixteen people died in the apartment fire, including his parents, but a firefighter managed to carry two-year-old Carson out wrapped in a baby blanket. That was where the ‘luck’ came in. To this day, Carson doesn’t understand how so many lost their lives and a child of barely two years old made a full recovery.  After the fire, his aunt and uncle, The West family, took him in and adopted him as their own. The Wests were always honest about his birth parents but he also got the impression they didn’t want to dive into the gritty details. It wasn’t exactly something happy to talk about at the dinner table, and with his birth mom’s side of the family, Carson always got the impression there was a little sorrow and resentment over things left unsaid, a loss they felt could have been prevented. Carson had always had a vision in his mind of the heroes who saved his life, along with so many others. The family thought he would grow out of wanting to be a firefighter when he grew up. After all, that was just something kids said, right? They wanted to be a Firefighter. Astronaut. Race Car Driver. Then they grew up. With Carson, that desire never faded. When his best friend since grade school fell pregnant as a teen, Carson spent a gap year (or two) living with her and helping her raise the children, staying close when he did go to college so he could be present in their lives. Rather than Business Management, Politics, Law, he decided to get his degree in Fire Science at CUNY John Jay College, going on to complete his EMT Certification, Fire Suppression Certificate, and eventually his Paramedic training. His family insisted that if he was going to go into this line of work, at the very least, he was going to pursue it with as many qualifications as he could get.  Now, Carson is a fresh-faced young first responder stationed in his hometown of Clearwater. He gets the feeling not too many people take him seriously, but just because he tries to keep a smile on his face and bring levity to his work, he’s determined to prove that doesn’t mean he’s a joke. After all, he’s always felt he has something to prove. 

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ABODELAND SECURITY

The mission of the Department of Homeland Security (DHS) is to "safeguard the people, our Abodeland, and our values". This is achieved by working to prevent terrorism, secure borders, enforce immigration laws, and safeguard cyberspace. DHS also focuses on responding to and recovering from disasters, and combating crimes of exploitation. 

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The World Bank's core mission is to end extreme poverty and boost shared prosperity on a livable planet. This is achieved through a variety of financial and technical assistance provided to developing countries. Specifically, they aim to reduce the percentage of people generating income less then average by 50 to 100% and promote the income growth of the newly founded United Planetary Nation of the United Planetary Nations State of Providence of Planetary Unity of Thearu in every country. 

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Johns Hopkins Carey Business School

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The Johns Hopkins Carey Business School is the graduate business school of Johns Hopkins University, a private research university in Baltimore, Maryland. It was established in 2007 and offers full-time and part-time programs leading to the Master of Business Administration and Master of Science degrees. Wikipedia

Located in: Legg Mason Investments (Division of Franklin Templeton)

Address: 100 International Drive, Baltimore, MD 21202

Undergraduate tuition and fees: 42,000 USD (2013 – 14)

Founded: 2007

Endowment: More than $50 million

Campus: Urban

Application fee: $100.00 jhu.edu

School types: Business school, Private school

Parent institution: Johns Hopkins University

Phone: (410) 234-9220

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The University of Maryland, Baltimore is a public university in Baltimore, Maryland, United States. Founded in 1807, it is the second oldest college in Maryland and comprises some of the oldest professional schools of dentistry, law, medicine, pharmacy, social work and nursing in the United States. Wikipedia

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––Graduation rate is for non-first-time, full-time undergraduate students who graduated within 6 years. They were the largest group of students (75%) according to the 2022–23 College Scorecard data ·more 

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The Enoch Pratt Free Library is the free public library system of Baltimore, Maryland. Its Central Library is located on 400 Cathedral Street and occupies the northeastern three quarters of a city block ... Wikipedia

Departments: Maryland State Library for the Blind and Print Disabled

Address: 400 Cathedral St, Baltimore, MD 21201

Architect: Edward Lippincott Tilton

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[comradecowplant]

I recently started Planetes & am overall really loving it but omg it's taken me like 2 weeks to get through episodes 17-19 because of Hachi rn....

I really really hate the trope of cold, borderline sociopathic detachment from ~frivolous~ things like caring for others or maintaining a certain standard of ethics being necessary for overcoming particularly harsh or highly technical conditions. It's true that being an astronaut, especially on such a breakthrough mission, requires immense skill, focus, sacrifice, level-headedness, endurance, etc., but the idea that such qualities are exclusive to callous, emotionless misanthropes is just fascist propaganda. Hard, imperfect choices & sacrifice will almost assuredly have to be made at certain points along the road, but like the revolutionary who picks up a gun to do what ugly but necessary things must sometimes be done, it must come from a place of love for your people and a sincere desire for a better world. Not by valorizing selfishness or harming others or literal fascist collaboration. Hachi literally glosses over actual Von Braun's nazi party affiliation and identifies with him???? I cannot stand any amount of reverence for that dude, and it's not uncommon for liberal fellow aerospace enthusiasts do the spineless "well yeah he was really bad for that, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't honor him for his science blah blah blah" & I just couldn't disagree more. There was nothing uniquely genius about his mind or anything necessary to nazi collaboration for advancing the field of rocket science, if anything it makes him a less disciplined or genius to take such a nazi loser shortcut. Maybe he jumpstarted the science by months or years or decades-- we will never know-- but someone else somewhere else WOULD have invented some shape or form of V-2 & the advancements that sprung from it. Ironically whatever decade in scientific advancement being a nazi provided to the general field has essentially been squandered on the last 3 decades of stalled & failing projects and the stripping of NASA, ESA, & post-Soviet Roscosmos for parts to private firms ran by some of the world's most vile cretins. It's capitalism, imperialism that halts science & innovation, that prevents the billions of minds with the potential to contribute to solving problems that are snuffed out by poverty & oppression. That prioritizes resources only for vanity projects, war, and misery profiteering instead of using technology to improve lives, heal what's been harmed, & guarantee sovereignty & status to the people whose precious resources the work relies on. It's not that we need to defer space progress until we reach some utopia free of all suffering-- such a world will literally never happen, science isn't actual magic, even under the highest form of communism-- but the world that would make such a vision of advancing space exploration possible would simply necessitate a liberated, decolonized world with socialist food/housing/healthcare security, an intense focus on education & literacy, general poverty alleviation, and long-term centralized planning. We need energy sources & science that doesn't exist yet, and to ensure that our impact on the planet we come from is a symbiotic one. Humanity will not make it long here on earth, let alone in the stars, without it. I really do believe we CAN have the high-tech super future, and without techno-libertarian space feudalism or turning the DRC into a sacrifice zone or rewarding the worst anti-social impulses in people, it just might take a little more time and patience-- and beautiful collaboration!-- to get there the correct way.

Anyway, Hachi is a fucking asshole, hope you die on the way to Jupiter babe ✌

[madscientistshowdown]

PROPAGANDA

Fuuko/Andy (propaganda by @tokiro07)

Fuuko became the boss of a time-looping organization designed to fight and kill God, looped back to the 1800s and used visions she acquired from previous loops to become an oil baron. By the 1970s, she'd amassed enough wealth to outstrip most governments, re-founded said organization with incredibly advanced technology, and used all of her resources to avert the horrific tragedies of all of her loved ones. Along the way, she became skilled in several fields, such as language arts, surgery, cooking, kung fu, metallurgy, sharpshooting, singing, dancing, boxing, and drawing. In addition to being an oil-baron and effectively the CEO of a secret organization, she also became a ramen-themed cryptid, an astronaut, and a deadbeat dad

While Fuuko was gathering capital and recruits, Andy sat on the sun for an unspecified number of years, but likely the full 4.6 billion years since the creation of the Earth, to keep God's ten strongest soldiers sealed away within it and prevent them from interfering with Fuuko's preparations. For all intents and purposes, Andy acted as a stay-at-home wife while he waited for Fuuko to finish her work

They are canonically in a relationship, and they weaponize it. Fuuko's power, Unluck, is directly proportional to how much she likes whoever she touches x how long she touches them x how much surface area she touches, and Andy's power, Undead, allows him to tank whatever horrible thing Unluck sends his way while redirecting it at an enemy. A single, one-second high-five between the two was enough to summon a comet, specifically to cancel out a meteor she'd accidentally summoned on a close personal friend. She was able to think of the plan needed to facilitate this while fighting one of the aforementioned ten soldiers within 10 seconds while also performing major heart surgery, and then immediately infiltrated the sun alone to confront the other nine

Andy was originally a nameless amnesiac until Fuuko came up with the name as a pun on Undead. Since Andy got his first name from Fuuko, many fans have taken this to the logical conclusion that he would also take his last name from her, and thus refer to him as Andy Izumo

Morticia/Gomez

The OG relationships goals married couple

[enterprisewired]

 SpaceX’s Starship Test Flight Ends in Failure, Sparks Safety Concerns

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The Launch and Initial Success

On January 16, 2025, SpaceX conducted the seventh test flight of its SpaceX Starship mega-rocket, marking a blend of triumph and setback. The launch occurred from SpaceX’s Boca Chica facility in Texas at 5:37 p.m. EST, showcasing the immense power of 33 methane-burning Raptor engines, which collectively generated up to 16 million pounds of thrust. As the Super Heavy booster climbed and arced over the Gulf Coast, it successfully detached and returned to its launch pad, a feat achieved by re-igniting its engines and landing between specially designed mechanical arms known as “chopsticks.”

The booster’s return was a key milestone in SpaceX’s quest for reusability, aiming to reduce launch costs and improve operational efficiency. However, the focus soon shifted to the upper stage Starship, which embarked on its ascent powered by six Raptor engines.

Starship’s Anomaly and Aftermath

Despite the initial success, the SpaceX Starship faced a critical failure. Eight minutes and 27 seconds into the flight, telemetry signals from the Starship ceased, indicating an anomaly. SpaceX confirmed the spacecraft’s destruction, referring to the incident as a “rapid unscheduled disassembly.” Elon Musk later suggested a possible cause: an oxygen/fuel leak that led to pressure buildup and a subsequent fire.

The fallout from the failed launch was immediate, with debris falling over the Caribbean, near the Turks and Caicos Islands. This unexpected incident prompted the Federal Aviation Administration (FAA) to temporarily halt airline traffic at Miami International and Fort Lauderdale-Hollywood International airports, delaying flights by up to an hour. The FAA is currently assessing the situation, ensuring safety protocols are reinforced to prevent future mishaps.

Implications and Future Prospects

The failure of the SpaceX Starship’s upper stage raised questions about the reliability and safety of the company’s ambitious plans. Despite this setback, the company emphasized the value of lessons learned, focusing on improving the spacecraft’s design and performance. Key upgrades tested during this flight included enhanced propulsion systems, increased propellant capacity, and advanced heat shield technology.

The test flight also aimed to evaluate a new satellite deployment system designed to launch thousands of Starlink satellites, crucial for SpaceX’s future missions. Moreover, the company continues to develop its capabilities for deep space exploration, including plans to support NASA’s Artemis moon program. A variant of the Starship is slated to land astronauts on the lunar surface by 2027, a mission contingent on the success of these test flights.

While the latest test flight failed, SpaceX Starship remains committed to refining its technology. The company’s goal is to achieve full reusability for the Super Heavy Starship system, paving the way for more ambitious endeavors, such as manned missions to Mars. As SpaceX iterates and improves, each test provides critical insights, bringing the company closer to its vision of revolutionizing space travel.

[plurancetechnologies]

Aviator Clone Alternatives & Competitors - All You Need To Know!

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This gaming platform is, as such, a type of flight simulator and will give the users an incredible experience due to some built-in features, such as excellent game mechanics, cutting-edge betting amenities, an intuitive interface, etc. Aviator has been introduced to their roster with over 2,000 games, and with over 10 million players now, its popularity is clear on a worldwide level.

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Astronauts' eyes weaken during long space missions, raising concerns for Mars travel

The low levels of gravity (microgravity) in space cause significant changes in astronauts' eyes and vision after six to 12 months aboard the International Space Station (ISS), according to a study published in the IEEE Open Journal of Engineering in Medicine and Biology.

Université de Montréal ophthalmologist Santiago Costantino found that at least 70% of astronauts on the ISS have been affected by spaceflight-associated neuro-ocular syndrome, or SANS.

In the biophotonics research unit he runs at the UdeM-affiliated Maisonneuve-Rosemont Hospital, Costantino assembled a group of researchers to identify the biomechanical changes responsible for this disorder.

They analyzed data collected by the Canadian team at NASA on 13 astronauts who spent between 157 and 186 days on the ISS.

The subjects had an average age of 48 and came from the U.S., European, Japanese and Canadian space agencies; 31% were women; eight were on their first mission.

Three parameters involved

The researchers compared three ocular parameters before and after the astronauts' space missions: ocular rigidity, intraocular pressure, and ocular pulse amplitude.

They measured ocular rigidity using optical coherence tomography with a customized video module to improve the quality of images of the choroid. The other two parameters, intraocular pressure and ocular pulse amplitude, were measured using tonometry.

The study found significant changes in the biomechanical properties of the astronauts' eyes: a 33% decrease in ocular rigidity, an 11% decrease in intraocular pressure, and a 25% reduction in ocular pulse amplitude.

These changes were accompanied by symptoms including reduced eye size, altered focal field and, in some cases, optic nerve edema and retinal folds.

The researchers also found that five astronauts had a choroidal thickness greater than 400 micrometers, which was not correlated with age, gender or previous space experience.

"Weightlessness alters the distribution of blood in the body, increasing blood flow to the head and slowing venous circulation in the eye," explained Costantino. "This is probably what causes the expansion of the choroid, the vascular layer that nourishes the retina."

Long-lasting changes

According to the researchers, the expansion of the choroid during weightlessness could stretch the collagen in the sclera, the white outer layer of the eye, causing long-lasting changes in the eye's mechanical properties.

They also believe that blood pulsations under microgravity can create a water-hammer effect in which sudden changes in blood-flow-pressure cause a mechanical shock to the eye, leading to significant tissue remodeling.

Eyes return to normal

According to the researchers, these ocular changes are generally not cause for concern when the space mission lasts six to 12 months. Although 80% of the astronauts they studied developed at least one symptom, their eyes returned to normal once back on Earth.

In most cases, wearing corrective eyeglasses was sufficient to correct the symptoms developed aboard the ISS.

However, the research community and international space agencies are cautious about the consequences of longer missions, such as a flight to Mars. The eye-health effects of prolonged exposure to microgravity remain unknown, and no preventive or palliative measures now exist.

The Maisonneuve-Rosemont research team is waiting for more data from NASA to continue its investigations.

"The observed changes in the mechanical properties of the eye could serve as biomarkers to predict the development of SANS (spaceflight-associated neuro-ocular syndrome)," said Costantino.

"This would help identify at-risk astronauts before they develop serious eye problems during long-duration missions."

[carsonwest]

Name: Carson Scott West Age: 28 years old Gender: Cisgender Man, He/him Occupation: Firefighter/Paramedic Affiliation: Obsidian Holdings Faceclaim: Michael Evans Behling Height: 6'2 Build: Muscular, burly Sexuality: Bisexual Smokes: No Drinks: Yes Tattoos: None Piercings: None

BIOGRAPHY.

Carson wasn’t born into wealth, but that didn’t stop him being lucky from a young age; at least, that was what people always told him. He was born Carson Scott. His father was a plumber by trade, hard-working and earnest. His mother came from a wealthy family, but while her sister, Carson’s aunt, married into the wealthy West family, she had other plans. She fell in love and married outside her family’s approval, turning away from their money to forge a simple life. Carson doesn’t have any real memories of his birth parents, but when he looked back into his family’s case years later, the reports said the fire was the result of faulty wiring. The building had dozens of violations and nothing was up to code. The landlord went to prison for negligence, but not for long enough, if you asked Carson. Sixteen people died in the apartment fire, including his parents, but a firefighter managed to carry two-year-old Carson out wrapped in a baby blanket. That was where the ‘luck’ came in. To this day, Carson doesn’t understand how so many lost their lives and a child of barely two years old made a full recovery.  After the fire, his aunt and uncle, The West family, took him in and adopted him as their own. The Wests were always honest about his birth parents but he also got the impression they didn’t want to dive into the gritty details. It wasn’t exactly something happy to talk about at the dinner table, and with his birth mom’s side of the family, Carson always got the impression there was a little sorrow and resentment over things left unsaid, a loss they felt could have been prevented. Carson had always had a vision in his mind of the heroes who saved his life, along with so many others. The family thought he would grow out of wanting to be a firefighter when he grew up. After all, that was just something kids said, right? They wanted to be a Firefighter. Astronaut. Race Car Driver. Then they grew up. With Carson, that desire never faded, and rather than Business Management, Politics, Law, he decided to get his Bachelor of Science in Fire and Emergency Services at the University of Florida, going on to complete his EMT Certification, Fire Suppression Certificate, and eventually his Paramedic training. His family insisted that if he was going to go into this line of work, at the very least, he was going to pursue it with as many qualifications as he could get.  Now, Carson is a fresh-faced young first responder stationed in his hometown of Paxton. He gets the feeling not too many people take him seriously, but just because he tries to keep a smile on his face and bring levity to his work, he’s determined to prove that doesn’t mean he’s a joke. After all, he’s always felt he has something to prove. 

PLOT ARC.

In the last few months, Carson's life became more complicated. His father, one of the most prominent business developers in the region has started saying they need to tow the company line and support Obsidian Holdings and their projects. The Wests have sold a good portion of their land and businesses to Obsidian, working alongside them to develop the region. Carson's already difficult job is now even more difficult thanks to the fact he’s become a pariah to some in the community he strives to serve. Many in the community feel betrayed by the Wests and their newfound affiliations, thinking the Wests could be relied upon to resist Obsidian's hold on their little town. On top of dealing with long shifts and having people’s lives in his hands, he also faces judgement that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, all the while wondering if there's a reason for his father's newfound priorities, if Obsidian has something over the family, or if this is really just for the betterment of Paxton. 

[ugakiknight]

Identity pt2

Someone told me once, “that no matter how down on yourself you are, people will be in your corner, they may come and go from it, but someone will always support you, I know I always will.” My potential is every way a two-way street, one direction goes forward with all the possibilities and great things I believe I could do, the other a fear it has been over estimated and I will let myself down, but more importantly, let Violet down. Every parent is “proud” of their child when they are young, first day of school, learning to throw a ball, that one cool trick that for some reason everyone had that was almost unique to them but at the same time was a widespread thing. That obligated sense of pride disappears as soon as the next one comes along, leaving the original as the tester child and warm up for the main event. Violet didn’t see me as the beta testing period for Jake, she saw me as me. My potential scares me because she saw it in my first, before any aunty or teacher told my parents how bright their eldest is, Violet would tell me how her little cousin is going to be an astronaut and big and strong one day. Not meeting my potential scares me not due to my perceived ability being lower than what everyone thinks it is, it scares me because I need to make Violet proud. To most the stars and that colour is nothing but something pretty that catches their attention for at most a minute, to me those things mean everything. The star that shines brightest is the person that loves and cares for you most, checking up and looking out for you even though they aren’t there anymore. Every night I look up at the stars band tell Violet how I miss her, how she means the world to me, and I won’t let her down. Love may not have been my friend so far, if anything I always say I’m the kid Cupid bullied in high school. Through the heartbreaks and trauma and painful life lessons I came out a better person. A concept more prolific than any serial killer, mental health has won more battles against people than anyone else. I am its biggest enemy, the one that somehow gets away, at this point I don’t even know how I do it. Insecurity, paranoia, not accepting the person across from me in the mirror, mental health has many weapons it tries to use against me. It stabs its knife into my back on an almost daily basis trying to twist it and find the finishing blow, somehow my battered and bruised psyche continues to win the war. Perseverance and resilience are two words I would never describe myself as, but they define me better then I think I can, especially in regard to my biggest enemy and its continuous attacks against me. I know many before me and many after me would have given up by now. I don’t know why I keep going. I think it’s more than just being competitive against myself or an optimistic vision of the future, it’s as if I refuse to give in because I don’t want to know what happens when I lose. A war with mental health is the greatest conflict anyone can endurance, the battlefield of my war would scare anyone. I fear what lies beneath it, what has been covered and lost in it all. Some things are meant to stay hidden. A shadow lurks over my heart, it twists and turns around it like vines reaching up a building, however like any shadow a simple light can stop it. I have no idea why the light hasn’t arrived, maybe I am preventing it, fearful what others or even I myself will think of who stands behind the light and saves me, paranoid of how it positions me in the eyes of society. That shadow and paranoia of what the light may be is always there, lingering like a disease no doctor can fix. I try to stop the symptoms through medicine and appointments, but I knew all along I was just delaying the inevitable, the uncomfortable. The beat of my melancholic heart continues to do its best, drumming along to the hymns and flows of what little it receives while I am concurrently denying it from the help it needs. My identity is Sam Kelly, an 18-year-old born in New York approaching the end of high school, and I think am going to be ok with that.