#proof that I am working on things

[theashofwkm]

“There is a cold-warm sticky feeling in your chest that you shove down, stepping closer, pressing yourself into his chest. His arms encase you, hold you even closer. It feels like a cage, despite your willing step into it, and you’ve no means or plans for escape despite how the thud of your heart demands one. Hugging him, you remember, used to feel like home. / You don’t remember the feeling. None of it is with you now.”

— DA, revenge wip

[evercelle]

2024 art summary! it sure has been a year

[invisiblequeen]

Some of y’all: SINNERS IS ANTI CHRISTIAN AND PRO SIN! 🤬

Some of us: Sinner is anti-religious exploitation and pro-“be a good person regardless of spirituality” 👍

[dustykneed]

--Really, Doctor?

[isfjmel-phleg]

😶

[sadcabbages]

Actually I think Bill is equally of a monsterfucker than Ford cause imagine you're attracted to this....THING that has like....SO many sides and in a 3D space you couldn't imagine

This is also why aus where Bill didn't destroy his home are so funny to me cause like imagine you're a euclydian and this weird ass dude is just like "No no you HAVE to believe me I have a boyfriend you just can't comprehend him no I SWEAR dude"

[total-serene560]

NEW ONE SHOT: A Lot's Gonna Change

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/65783365

(It's archive-locked due to AI scrapping of the archive, so you'll need an AO3 account to view)

Summary:

So,” Will began, staring off at the orange-tinged trees in the distance before glancing sideways at him, “Are you trying to get back together with her?” Mike sighed, rubbing his face, “I don’t know. Everything was so weird before you guys left… I guess I just… don’t know how to act. Around her, I mean.” Around you. Will hummed, “Yeah, it was weird. But it doesn’t have to be weird anymore, right?” Mike looked back at him, their eyes meeting, “Yeah, I mean, I hope.” “Me too.” Will said and then fell silent for long enough that Mike almost thought he was done talking, “I’m going to miss you.” I’m going to miss you. “Me too,” Mike felt his heart squeeze painfully in his chest, “Me too.“ Or: Mike shows up late to help the Byers pack for their move to California. Packing turns out to be more emotionally difficult and enlightening than Mike would ever want it to be. Or: Taking a closer look at Mike's perspective of moving day at the end of ST3.

Tagging some of my mutuals that might enjoy: @oldfashionedmorphine @magentamee @fireflywitch @sparks-olivarpente @foodiewithdahoodie (if you want to be added or removed from my tag list lmk!)

[chocosvt]

boomshakalaka

[coralhoneyrose]

Oof. The problem with publishing a fic across more than three years while working consistently on improving your writing during that time is that it makes it REALLY hard to enjoy the early parts of the story when you look back at them.

Idk, there's just something deeply ironic about the fact that I wrote this story for myself and that the very act of continuing to write has made me less capable of enjoying it. Because all I see now is what I could have / should have done differently if only I'd learned some of these lessons earlier T-T

[twinksintrees]

so i am absolutely obsessed with @play-rough’s classification au on ao3 and it got to the point where i needed to make a whole playlist dedicated to it, so here it is, i hope you all like it.

playlist breakdown under the cut

understand: it’s the first song on here because of @/knoxx.tbox’s animatic, it’s gorgeous and everyone should check it out. it captures the gentle, caring part of their relationship perfectly.

little space: it’s just a song about little space, i also found the line “and i start to give in/to the sin/to the sin” very fitting for dazai because of just how much he hates his little head space.

hazel: sad tired dazai vibes, it makes me think of the second fic where he stays up all night, trying to drop but can’t, and the poor baby is just so out of it. “hold me tightly” he wants chuuya to hold him so, so badly. but he can’t say that, he can never just say what he wants, so he has to wait until he drops and then he has no choice, and he hates it. but yeah it also just soft sweet comforting vibes to me.

smoke signals: this one’s weird cuz unlike most of the songs on here where they’ll apply to either dazai or chuuya, this one has a stark divide of both. the first few lines “i know i’m a freak/ripped the band aid, broke the peace/took the lock but lost the key/guess i set you free” are so dazai it hurts. he thinks he’s a freak, he hates himself for his regression, he thinks leaving and getting out of chuuya’s space and life is setting him free from dazai. but that’s not what chuuya wants, the rest of the song is all about chuuya always welcoming him back, always wanting him there when he’s upset, wanting to be there and to help him. he wants to take care of his baby and for his baby to let him.

almost home: this one just gave me very gentle sweet vibes. it also made me think of the car ride back to chuuya’s apartment after dazai bit tsu and walked back to his shipping container alone and regressed, and just chuuya lulling small dazai to sleep and holding him, happy to have his baby back.

moon river: i wanted at least one nice lullaby on here and this is what my mom would always sing me so it’s just very personal to me lmao. just picturing chuuya humming/singing it to little dazai makes me v happy.

treehouse: the childhood friends vibe. “i’m the captain/but you can be the deputy” just like, describing their bond together. the closeness, the trust, all that.

escapism: this one’s all about dazai. him wanting to be free from his pain and wanting to be free from his little space, while also using his little space to escape his pain, if that makes sense.

beautiful boy: first off this songs just makes me insane second oughhhh chuuya singing it to dazai would end me. he’s chuuya’s boy, his sweet little baby. and chuuya will always be here for him, will always keep him safe, will always do his best to quiet the overwhelming voices in his head. they’re so soft it makes me unwell.

yellow: also a chuuya one, he’d do anything for baby dazai. he would bleed himself dry if it came down to it.

i need to be alone: dazai angst. the isolating himself when he feels little space coming on. the antsy-ness, the irritability, all of that. he doesn’t want to snap at chuuya, but he doesn’t know what else to do, doesn’t know how else to handle it. so he lashes out and somehow, still, chuuya is there. he hasn’t pushed him away yet. dazai doesn’t think he can handle the day he hits his limit.

i’ll die anyway: similar vein to the above. sad dazai.

juliet: the opening verse is so dazai core to me it hurts. “but i need to understand/when I can power through/and when i need some help from you/when i should stand my ground/and when i need to just sit down/sometimes i act like i know/but i’m really just a kid” all of this speak to dazai and his relationship with chuuya, specifically with accepting his help with his little space. he doesn’t know what to do, how to handle anything, when he’s little he is just a baby. chuuya knows what to do, what will help him feel better, knows how to take care of him and make him feel good. and dazai has mixed feelings on that, because he loves chuuya and he loves his attention, but it hurts to receive sometimes, and it hurts to not know what’s going on with himself, and that chuuya knows better what to do. he feels out of control and he doesn’t like it, but he still trusts chuuya and yeah it’s a whole thing.

i’ll keep you safe: chuuya song. very straight and to the point, chuuya just wants to keep dazai safe and happy and he wants to protect him, be there for him, quiet all the bad thoughts in his head. he knows how much it takes for dazai to regress at all, and the fact that he keeps doing it around chuuya (even though sometimes it is out of either of their control) just proves a huge amount of trust and chuuya values that so deeply, and that is a bond he would never dream of betraying or breaking.

rises the moon: imma be honest this one’s just for the soft vibes. i could see chuuya humming it as a lullaby, but mostly it just made me feel soft and happy so i put it on here.

small hands. this song. this song oh my god. i love this song so much it hurts. anyway it’s chuuya talking to dazai, “if you need come build your home in me, i can’t fix what was done to you, but i’ll shield you from the rain.” it’s chuuya knowing he can’t go back and erase dazai’s past, but being here for him now. he’s here now, and he’ll be here in the future. “cause i never mind, no matter the day or time, i never mind” chuuya would do anything to be there for dazai, it’s him telling him to reach out for help, telling him it’s okay, telling him he truly doesn’t mind, he wants this. he wants to care for him, to help. “and all the anchors that they hid inside your chest/we will unravel all of the chains/toss the remnants all down the drain” the anchors and chains being the trauma mori’s instilled about little space being bad. that dazai’s not supposed to, that he just push through and push it down and be fine. it’s chuuya telling him that’s not how it works, but together we can get you to regress safely and see that it’s not bad, it doesn’t have to scary, it can even be fun sometimes. it’s the slow process of working through all that trauma. “i will be there to pick up the pieces, and keep you housed while you bend them up” literally just chuuya always trying to have dazai over. his apartment is so much better than dazai’s shipping container. like just objectively. “if you wind up in the dark again/just turn and call my name/if the fire in your chest goes out/well i’ll hold you all the same” this whole bit also makes me think of after dazai bit tsu. “if you wind up in the dark again” is dazai going back to his container alone and scared. dazai doesn’t even need to call chuuya’s name before he’s showing up to help him, even if it’s a bumpy ride getting on the same page. “well i’ll hold you all the same” goes for chuuya’s feelings towards dazai in general. he wants to care for dazai in and out of headspace, it’s just the type of care looks different depending on where dazai’s at. sometimes it’s holding him in his arms, sometimes it’s pulling him back from a ledge. sometimes it’s gently feeding him a bottle, sometimes it’s forcibly fighting him into dry, clean clothes so he doesn’t get sick. and now for my favorite line “if you need to take this out on me/well you know i won’t complain” it’s chuuya never getting angry at dazai’s outbursts in headspace, cuz he knows how hard it is, how hard his baby is trying, he just doesn’t know what else to do with his overwhelming feelings. so chuuya takes his outbursts and handles them, and he’ll never hold them against his baby, because he’s literally just a baby what else is he supposed to do but cry and lash out when he’s tired and grumpy.

tired: sad tired dazai and specifically the line “cause i’ve been eating less all day/to give my brain some extra space to think.”

coffee: I know it’s called coffee but honestly this makes me think of chuuya prepping dazai’s bottles, making sure it’s just the right temperature, the right flavors for his baby. vanilla and strawberry, something more special than just milk. it’s cute.

feb 14: honestly i just kept coming back to this song and the playlist didn’t feel complete without it but i couldn’t tell you why, i don’t have a real detailed reason for it other than vibes.

this side of paradise: chuuya not wanting dazai to feel lonely/be alone and scared while in headspace. “come be lonely with me” all that jazz. i chose the slow version cuz the og felt to fast paced and overwhelming compared to the rest of the playlist, and i this fit it better.

[nobodybetterlookatme]

Anyway after thorough research, I can confirm that I am, in fact, not a big fan of the snow ahsjakskla it was really cool for like an hour and I was having a fantastic time, but the novelty wore off quick when it melted into my clothes lmaoooo

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

The National Park Service is actually calling themselves “The Resistance” and doing a lot to educate people on what’s going down behind the scenes, even as their employees are unduly fired. They’re badass!

I'm not surprised, this isn't the first time they've worked hard to stand up for marginalized people, they're a great service.

[lesbiansanemi]

Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb

[shannonsketches]

lays on the floor do you guys ever think about how in ResF Bulma falls for Vegeta's fake-out with Freeza and both she and Yamcha are worried about Vegeta's villain fake-out strategy in Champa and Beerus' mini tournament and how it's only been a couple of years since the Buu saga and how Vegeta straight up stopped using that strategy after that tournament

[lesiasmadness]

I rly like Randall despite how it might look like

[hotwaterandmilk]

Organising upcoming content for Weddingpeach.net and these images articulate nicely why I love the wedding swords .

They're cute, cool, and Peach really wants to cut a bitch. Like, she's super into it.

Why did men deny her this simple joy in the anime? :(