#ramblimgs

[shadow-and-purgatory]

[roadklii]

Wait so in EP 2 of helluva boss we see Octavia stealing the grimoire right? What if she did that because Stolas and Blitz aren't on speaking terms and Stolas couldn't just ask to have it back? What if she stole it for Stolas?

[teabiscs]

art really be like: draw a perfect hand

and then be like: fail at drawing a face.

[cyndakiller]

Hypothetically.

If I made a P*yPal or a k*-fi (or another way to get donations) would anyone here be willing to help this random Brazilian faggot get out of their toxic home? (Considering the currency change it would help me a whole fucking lot because like 1 usd converts to 5.15 brl, but idk I'm too insecure and afraid and I'm not sure if it would be legally right to do, I just don't want to live anymore under constant stress and having my parents trying to control me and having them consume far-right winged media full of lies and fake news and disinformation and misinformation that makes me really want to die)

Hypothetically, of course.

Editing to add this: I want to work and have my own money but things are dire and I don't have the mental health to work on it living with my parents in this noxious environment (knowing they are close, especially my father, makes me very anxious), and I don't have the money to get out of here. I'm completely dependent on my parents and this fucking sucks cause I feel like I can't go anywhere. If I had just the basic to rent some place elsewhere and have money for food (my university has a restaurant where I can have lunch and dinner really cheap during the week so I could live with that) that would really help. Or just money for seeking mental health assistance.

[mydayasleticia]

Why Hunger Games has such a choke hold on me? Let me go watch that movie AGAIN

[runninguplenorahills]

No guys because my Spotify wrapped really screwed me over.

Not that it isn’t accurate but [i guess it kinda isn’t 100% accurate lmao]

1). I was really rooting for “Rock me Amadeus” to be in and it wasn’t BUT IT WAS SO CLOSE IT WAS MY TOP #6 SONG!!!

Also, in my top 100 Playlist there is an embarrassing amount of musical soundtrack songs.….

2). My top #5 artist is Kate Bush and that’s great but HOW TF DID SHE MANAGE TO GET INTO MY TOP 5 WHEN I LITERALLY ONLY LISTENED TO “Running up that Hill” ?!?!?!?!? I mean, yeah the song is also my top #2 song of the year BUT THE FACT THAT I LISTENED TO THAT ONE SONG SO OFTEN THAT KATE BUSH IS ALSO IN MY WRAPPED TOP ARTISTS???!?!!!

Queen is my top #1 artist and Djo is also in my top artists and I fucking love that for me!

3). My top #1 song of the year is “Another one bites the dust” and while I love that song it was kinda disappointing. Like… I did NOT listen to that song that often!!! Anything else would’ve been a better pick tbh. I think “Girls on Film” by Duran Duran would’ve made a way better top #1! But again, “Rock me Amadeus” would’ve been the best and most accurate top #1 personally.

“When I come around” by Green day has been in my top 5 songs for like 4 years in a row now….. that’s crazy!! And do you guys know this receiptify website? Yeah, “When I come around” is featured in “last month”, “last 6 months” and it’s fucking #1 in “of all time” ……. I can’t escape it

4). My listener personality type turns out to be “fan-clubber” which means that I’m allegedly a hardcore fan and whenever I like an artist I’ll listen to all of their albums and quite frankly, that couldn’t be further from the truth!! It’s honesty the least accurate thing ever!! I rarely have more than one or two songs from the same artist in my playlist and the only artist that really is featured quite a lot in my playlist is Queen.

5). My top #2 is “Running up that Hill” [in my Max era], my top #3 is fucking “Pass the Dutchie” [in my Argyle era] and even though it didn’t manage to actually get in my Spotify wrapped, my top #7 is “Should I stay or should I go” [in my Will era] so if anything, Spotify wrapped really exposed how normal I am about Stranger Things…….

[also love the fact that the spotify wrapped design/theme kinda fits my blog design/theme lmao]

[longwombraider]

i cant shut up about my upcoming illusts so im using Tumblr for this <3

Anhway, servamp 11th annivasary sneak peek 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

still in sketching phase tho ಥ‿ಥ

[elliott-has-thoughts]

I never realised why some people stand in the rain for hours, or watch horror movies just to feel something, but now I do. I realise now that to be numb is like having a blade run through your skin and you don't bat an eye, it hurts to feel that way, or rather to not feel at all. It really does.

[kink-queerious]

thinking about making content again but it's been so long and this account only sorta survived the great purge. maybe I should make a new account for content?

[gooeyslime]

I might eventually post some stuff from my fnaf au, specifically some designs/redesigns for certain characters, some stuff is slight like Ballora's leaotard being more obvious and not looking like she's just... not wearing a top at all... To bigger redesigns which I'll probably keep a secret, maybe just describing them vaguely instead of sharing the drawings I've made... Also all my drawings will be on paper bc all my digital stuff is made on my phone and it looks... Well it's not on the same level of my physical art lol

I miiight still show some digital art for some of them bc I do change a few colours around too plus it just gives a better idea than just going "this part is red with yellow stripes" or something lol

Also I will share some of the writing as well although it's gonna be very much out of context because I don't want to spoil too much although I kinda did spoil a few things already in past posts just bc I had to yell about my headcanons turned canon in my au lol but hey I rewrote the synopsis for the au a few times throughout the years so some stuff is bound to change as I actually write the story down...

[irbis-ounce]

The creation of man

Of madness.

What defines good and evil in the wake of insanity?

I've been searching my soul and finding that the darkness isn't something I should fear or shun but accept and witness.

Love

Morality

What am I leaving behind and for whom?

[shadow-and-purgatory]

siffrin is just the silliest little guy, who is definitely not (NOT!!!) stuck in a time loop

(like my art? want to commission me? my commission info is here!)

[selcouth-vast-poet]

soem old sketches i didd sometime ago

[osamusriceballs]

Imagine ATSUMU fucking you in the backseat of his ridiculously expensive sports car- not giving a fuck if someone can see both of you in that very compromising position while he dicks you down so so good. Your face is pressed down on the new leather, your ass up, only held by ATSUMU’S hands on your hips at this point. His chest is pressed against your back, you’re both almost fully clothed, safe for your unbuttoned blouse that he almost tore off your body in an attempt to grab your tits in that position. His cock reaches so deep, just barely leaving your sweet needy cunt because our dear ATSUMU is one big boy and can‘t move that much in that tiny expensive sports car~ he‘ll make you see stars when you‘re cumming though, and when he finally fills you up, he‘ll make sure that everything stays inside of you- you don‘t want to make a mess on his new car, will you? Better let his cum stay where it belongs~

[kijosakka]

alejandro,,, so fun <3 OKAY I HAVE MANY AN IDEA SO TO BEGIN WITH: panopticon

as established, panopticon is a Thing in this au mainly as a theme (but also a very very big influence in the creation of this in the first place).

panopticon itself refers to an institutional/prison design wherein a central guard tower and the construction thereof makes the prisons unable to tell if theyre being watched at any given moment; thus, self regulation.

^ dramaturgy, as an AU, focuses on noah acting ‘in accordance’ with the cameras in a genre-savvy adjacent manner; he self regulates. the ‘central guard tower’ to him is the audience.

to alejandro, however, the audience is not a variable. his competing does not factor in the audience and public the way noahs does; instead, his focus is shifted to his castmates.

to slot it in now, im talking about alejandros perception of the audience and the perception of him thereof (which, this and the above will be compounded upon with the stuff below further explaining alejandros facade/masking).

^ again, the audience just isnt a necessary variable to alejandro (at least, beyond *his family). playing in the manner he is, orchestrating and manipulating, you just cant fit in the time to placate the audience to make them love you. the more important thing is the opinions of his castmates, who are the real variables impacting his win.

and so, in short, alejandro is polarizing. people love a villain, but there is still the in-universe distinction of it being a reality show. it is real people; so, some part of TD’s audience will account that and denounce alejandro for being so comfortable in manipulating his peers so shamelessly.

[*his family, as seen in canon, seems to be something he is acutely aware of. he would be aware of how he presents himself, and would do so in a manner pleasing to them.

this is not to say hes unaware of the audience. he knows theyre there and speaks directly to them in the confessionals in a shifted manner (exaggerated/nitpicked for the purposes of this AU).

< where most characters speak about their competition to the audience, alejandro often speaks directly to the audience. tiniest distinction but i feel i should make it and emphasize it]

and now,, his actual facade; what it portrays, what it hides, and the reasons/motivations.

^ restating another post (ty ophe), alejandro has a mask of a person hiding antagonism. he acts like an idealist version of his actual person; kind, sensible, intelligent, considerate. athletic, helpful, goodhearted, compassionate, attractive to boot. taken to an extreme, holier-than-thou and patronizing. diminished, way overcompensatory, or maybe doormat-ish.

while this version of noah comes off as uncanny valley because no real person is so detached and lifeless, no real person is so perfect either. alejandro would trigger the same bells but to a much, much lesser degree. more like there were pieces of a puzzle missing rather than something distinctly wrong.

because alejandro seems like a person, he portrays depths and facets to himself (while all positive), and interacts with his castmates like how people interact with people.

it is, again, a the veil of an idealist person hiding antagonism. i don’t think alejandro is a cartoonishly antagonistic, unremorseful supervillain character (and hes not really portrayed as such in canon, but just to say), but he is absolutely not the perfection he portrays himself as.

now is a great time to add that alejandros mask heavily relates back to the expectations his family pushes on him; not only is it good socially (for the purposes of the competition) but theres probably a sense of validation there aswell (if shallow, because its still not an appreciation of the ‘real’ him).

^ and thats a Thing as well, the ‘real’ alejandro. flawed and imperfect, able to be irritable and snappy and meanspirited with arrogance hiding the cracks of overwhelming inferiority. as a person, that is, in intent for the game hes, well, an eel. conniving and slippery and manipulative and sly and vindictive and unapologetic.

and as for reasons,, staying in line with the burromuertos ‘high society’ position in this AU, maybe it was something like a way to prove himself; he works the social game and shows business promise because of it, and brings a hefty sum of money home to his family that he earned.

and his facade is an easy one, not only a way to show a sense of professionalism and keep the burromuerto name ‘untainted’ by blatantly unsavory behavior similar to someone like duncan, but a way to keep his castmates none the wiser while the steals the money from under them.

BUT within the au itself things umm do not go to plan as noah makes it his mission to unmask alejandro as just as fake as he himself is.

which brings about the topic of a very specific cast relationship: noah and alejandro

as,, yk,, the backbones of his entire au (ok its more like nervous systems. noah is central and alejandro is peripheral) i want to save a full digging into their relationship and developments for another post entirely (probably going episode by episode until pre london focusing mostly on alejandro, and then another post after i figure out the actual events of WT going through the changed canon)

but to just go through it very quickly; noah doesnt trust alejandro and sees through him. alejandro eventually catches wind of the fact that noah doesnt trust him, and i imagine it would trigger a wondering of how? spurred on by noahs whole ‘no substance’ thing.

and besides, nobody has anything on noah despite him being their castmate going on 3 years now. and now that he’s thinking about it, what does he himself really know about noah in the same way he knows things about the rest of the cast? that’s interesting. *

^ i imagine alejandro would be wary but not worried about noah knowing, simply because of the passive nature he’s read of the other. < poor alejandro. it is not nearly that easy.

[*interesting,,, i will cover that more on the actual post going ep by ep for their relationship. because i do have Thoughts]

[mydayasleticia]

tumblr is the best place to find a new serie to watch...

Never dissapoints