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br1ghtestlight · 1 year

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its so funny when ppl assume that louise's family hasn't seen her without her bunny ears since she was a toddler?? like she takes bathes/washes her hair and also they're her FAMILY they live with her they've seen her without her ears, its probably not a big deal to them like they obviously know what she looks like They probably see her without them like once every few weeks at least??? but other than gene tina bob and linda i would say probably nobody else has seen her without her bunny ears since she was a toddler and some ppl like rudy probably never have bcuz she sleeps and swims while still wearing them

#like as the audience obviously louise not wearing her ears is a big deal #but to her family its probably just like a little weird but not crazy or unheard of LOL like when logan stole her ears she had to walk home #with gene and tina and she didnt have her hoodie then so they would've seen her?? although it would be cute if gene took off his shirt #and let her wrap it around her head while they were walking home bcuz he knows that she feels uncomfortable without it #idk i was thinking about someday writing a fanfiction abt gene/tina and their relationship to louise's bunny ears #bcuz sometimes i feel fanfictions where theyre like 'bob hasnt seen louise without her bunny ears since she was 3 years old'#and like im sorry but thats just not possible they force her to take baths and wash her hair FJDMDJSJSJSJS #and i dont think she cares TOO MUCH abt taking off her ears when she's with her family #like obviously she doesnt like to and not for too long but she's okay with it bcuz she trusts them and they make her feel safe or whatever #random thoughts but i HAVE been thinking abt it #txt #bob's burgers

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spaciebabie · 10 months

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it never occurred ta me that the "you're going 2 brazil" meme was a reference ta something i just thought we all collectively sat down as humans and thought, "what would be the the funniest place ta haul some poor fuck ta" and all looked and pointed at brazil and said, "yes, that one"

#I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST.#THE INTERNET BEING RANDOM #JUST CHOOSING SOME RANDOM COUNTRY TA RIFF ON FOR NO REASON AKJSDKAJSDKAJDAKSJD #ITS A REFERENCE??? I HAVE NEVER BEEN THE SAME SINCE IVE KNOWN THIS INFORMATION #spacie spoinks #ive been thinking abt making this post for weeks and keep forgetting skdjfskjdfsdfj #in the meeting room like ''you're going 2 zimbabwe? no no that doesnt sound funny enough...''#''ireland? no...nigeria? no....italy?? no no no...none of these fit right....''#i mean. ta the memes credit i laugh like a lunatic whenever someone says ''YOU'RE GOING 2 BRAZIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'' so #i laughed while i was typing that sjkdjskksdks #im very easily humored. we all know this.#you could jingle keys in my face and id probably laugh abt it #fellow giggle fucks rise up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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iwoulddieforienzo · 5 months

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Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

#this is why ‘reading the TOA books’ fics fucking slap btw. because as embarrassing as his thoughts can be #so many of them are just incoherent screaming about how he loves everyone around him. devastating #like imagine helping out ur loser deadbeat dad who you don’t really know much about bc he’s flighty and hard to read #and finding out ‘wow he cares about us a lot more than I thought’#bc he literally almost dies to save you/your siblings and keeps following you all around everywhere #but he’s still like. your weirdo absentee dad. u don’t know hardly anything new about him other than an apparent suicidal streak #and then u find out that the whole time he was whining about chicken nuggets or whatever he was internally sobbing abt how much he loves u #and every time u were nearby he was going ‘MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY… JUST AS INCREDIBLE AS THEIR MORTAL PARENT!!!! BEAUTIFUL LIKE THE SUN!#HOW DID I EVEN MAKE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY. UNREAL. THEY CANT BE MINE!? BUT THEY ARE!!! LOOK AT THEMMM!!?!!! IM SO PROUD……#my beautiful perfect angels… all of their parents best traits and none of our worst…. I am Barely restraining myself from sobbing #i would give u the WORLD if my father wouldn’t kill me for it :(‘#and it’s like. wow. okay dad. um. would have been nice to know that when we were all dying in The War #Please Hug Me Though.#imagine being a Random Ass Demigod who didn’t go on a big special quest or something like you are literally just Some Guy #and finding out that this weirdo loser god u gave a sandwhich to or something thinks you are so fucking cool #your own parent doesn’t know ur name but Apollo knows u on sight and read ur soul within the 2 seconds yall talked and he thinks you rock #how are you supposed to respond to that.#snack time #toa #longpost

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socialbunny · 6 months

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merry christmas to everyone that celebrates or just happy holidays or just merry. day. merry monday ^^

#chat #been on this particular tumblr too long. whatever #LOL. i was thinking of making a new blog next year. starting fresh #the longer i think abt it the more i dont really care yk.#crazy to think that things i used to care abt when i was younger are meaningless to me.#NOT meaningless but. just not as important as i thought they would alwa #*always be to me #i appreciate everyone on here and everyone i've interacted with.#everyone that's reblogged my skipleen and stupid headcanons and renders and random junk 😘😘😘#and the people who have followed me 4evaa and the ppl that have just started following me recently and ppl from my old blogs n shit like 🫂

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lesbiankordian · 1 year

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now why did dazai say here he wanted to ask chuuya sth 🧐🧐...? WHAT WAS THE QUESTION SUPPOSED TO BE?! like I know it'd be probably another joke but what would he say hadn't he made that joke...

#also yk when you're scared of ur feelings / don't want the other person to know sth so you start saying sth and then stop mid sentence?#not bc u didn't realize what u were saying but bc there was some hope maybe you'd hear what you wanted to hear #or just that you wanted to live in the fake reality for a moment and imagine yourself asking that not necessarily wanting an answer #yeah that's what happened here 😍#no but tbh i think sth similar happened in ch 101 #but actually not similar ahhhh I'll make a post abt that #anyways WHAT WAS THE QUESTION SUPPOSED TO BE DAZAI I NEED TO KNOW 😭#and don't tell me it would've been a joke i listened to one too many skk songs today #soukoku #bsd #okay actually im not finished bc this is another time where Dazai purposefully acts like a person / character in love with the other #(character bc how he does that is stereotypical. like an archetype from a movie) (the Book thoughts in my head rn)#so yeah like you don't say such a think to a random person or a colleague like THE BONDDDD god #and the fact chuuya really gets scared....#remember in 15 when they first met and Dazai was like 'will you let me go... if I talk?' and then he said chuuya ought to drink more milk😐#imagine if adult!Dazai's question was meant to be 'have u been drinking milk?' with that blank annoying expression of his #bungou stray dogs

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brechtian · 6 months

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I can’t believe this. A) he’s just like me for real nedd somehow in one scene became the most Rosie-coded character in the book B) suddenly being jolted back to all those jokes skyward discord made years ago about nedd and Arturo doomed romance living out the plot of Romeo and Juliet in the background of these books

#this is so so silly but I can’t NOT post about them talking about Shakespeare and also I’ve been lowkey waiting the whole book for nedd and #Arturo to interact so we could bring back the nedturo bit #for those unfamiliar the bit is that if skyward was mainstream nedd and Arturo would be the random background men everyone would be #weirdly obsessed with #defiant liveblog #skyward #ALSO. then they talk about hamlet and I literally have been thinking spensa has been a little hamlet coded in this book #but was like no surely it’s just bc I’ve been thinking abt hamlet 24/7 the past few days #AND WHAT DO I SEE.#I need to finish this book I’m embarassed everytime I post abt it #it’s okay. Lucia gets the brunt of my thoughts she’s my little angel

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whimsical-sonic · 6 months

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i think sonic x would've been so much better had chris's family been poor

#cosmic chatter #text #i mean theres a LOT that couldve made sonic x better but #maybe ill elaborate later but ive thought a decent amnt abt this #for one i think he wouldve been a more sympathetic character + his Parents wouldve been more sympathetic #like if they weren't home all the time bcuz they had to work multiple jobs #instead of boohoo we have loads of money but cant turn down some random job offer #also helen couldve been a close friend bcuz she and chris could connect via their parents never being there #thts just one point but ohhh

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mqonlighting · 4 months

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real talk in the tags for a second because i have a crush on a girl and i. a hehe. ahehehe.

will be burying this in reblogs and never touching on it again

#so random disclaimer this girl is like a year older than me and in high school it’s like a nono for older and younger batch to like be #a thing so i know i generally have no chance but i like to live in my own insanity and the progression of my crush on her has been absolute #ly cuckoo bananas. so like it started out as ‘i wanna be your friend’ and progressed into ‘shit they’re really pretty’ to ‘wow ur so??’ to #‘fuck i like them’ and then it died down and then by all golly it came back but more of a hallway crush now which is bearable bc i’m #not really a part of their life?? like we know each other but we don’t wave and shit and we don’t like ever interact that much so i was lik #ok this is fine bc they literally never think of me so i’m just admiring from afar. and the FIRST inciting incident was i request them onig #and i expect to not get accepted because according to their friends they onyl accept close friends and i’m like k this is a bad idea probs #but the worst that could happen is i get left in their follow requests right?? RIGHT?? but then within like two hours of reqing. lord.#i got. ACCEPTED. and they requested back. and suddenly it’s +1 tangibility like ok?? maybe we’re not as strangers as i thought we were #i later discovered i was not that special for this but also?? cool?? anyways for a while it kind of laid dead and we never spoke at all eve #tho i was in their acc now (at this time they barely posted but whenever they did it was so?? funny like they would slap the randomest shit #on that acc) and it was still a hallway crush altho my friends r awful (/pos) people who would always make me pass their hallway and i #would run into them so often but at this point we only ever like exchanged glances and they would walk right past me like i wasnt even ther #but THEN the second incident happened which was basically we had to play instruments for this christmas event thing and bc they’re literall #y amazing they played for it and i was roped into it and. i was so gay the whole time. bc who wears a leather jacket to school and gets the #prettiest haircut ever right on the last day before a long break?? and the worst part is whenevr something confusing happened they would #turn to me and this one other person and we’d b laughing together. like we r friends. and they’re so fucking nice they were checking up on #us the whole time i was literally dying i kept dropping my pick and stealing looks AURURUGH and they’re so gen funny and interesting i just #and the first few days of holiday break i just couldn’t stop thinking abt them it was so bad? like that was the moment where i was genuinel #like is this more than a hallway crush… eventually it died back down until the next event we had to play together where they were being SO #SO much more comf w me? like exchanging knowing looks when smt funny happens and that stuff.. at this point i didnt even know what to like #think of my crush on them so i just let it be yk. atp they’re not even waving at me in the hallways at all still so maybe they’re just bein #nice! BUT NO. THAT IS UNTIL I AUDITIONED FOR A BAND (theyr in charge of accepting) AND THEY ACCEPTED ME WHICH COOL BUT LIKE A DAY LATER I #HEARD FROM OUR MUTUAL FRIEND THAT THEY SAID ‘yeaa im so happy i got (my name)’ AS IN IN THE BAND. LIKE. HELLO?? HI U THIUGHT ABT ME?? and #during the first band mtg where everyone’s all awk they kept making eye contact w me and asking if i was good and making sure i got to say #smt before anyone made a decision and it. murdered. me. i’m sorry maybe it’s the fanfic writer in me or this shit is literally nothing and #think they’re just nice to everyone but who cares bc it means they’re nice to ME too. and then last week happened. which was like the nail #in the coffin. INTERACTION ACTIVITY. I IMPULSIVELY ASK IF THEY WANNA B GROUPMATES AND THEY SAY YES. THEY ONLY TALK TO ME AND THEIR FRIENDS.#I ACT STUPID. THEY ALUGH AND TOUCH MY SHOULDER. I ASK ABT THEIR CAMERA AND THEY GO ON A LONG-ISH (cute) RANT ABT SMTH. THEY ASK WHY I HAVE #BIG ASS STACK OF POST ITS. WE TALK. THEY LAUGH AT MY JOKES. SUDDENLY. THEY SAY A FULL HELLO IN THE HALLS. THEY WAVE AT ME A DAY LATER. FUCK

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indigosabyss · 4 months

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Oh yeah, that was one of the shows Netflix gave two seasons but called the seasons ‘Parts’ so they could pay the cast less. They did that a lot. Most notably with the ‘Sabrina’ reboot, before they cancelled it, and ‘Riverdale’ had to give it a backdoor series finale.

MOTHERFUCKER

I hate this bc no good nick was an insane concept. And it worked. It was the first sitcom-style show I ever watched, and couldn't fully appreciate the tropes and style of it back then. I'm watching it again. The laughtrack actually adds so much to it. A desperate girl just stole five thousand dollars from her fake foster family to give to an obviously fake lawyer and she is so happy bc she thinks she's going to see her father free soon, and ten seconds later the laugh track is back.

Fuck Netflix. Fuck them fr.

#unappreciated treasure #no good nick #a friend of mine has only seen clips of it and gen thought it was made by disney #like. the style. is so on point. that them saying damn jolts me #they're allowed to swear here #and also be gay here #imma just say it. jeremy was more normal abt the situation than anyone else #bro thought to ask if the social worker for a random girl at their house was a real social worker and his family called him a crazy paranoi #EVEN THO HE WAS RIGHT #like. everyone sucks here and so does he #but he was so real for that #justice for jeremy frfr #what no i don't have extreme social ineptitude and am not slightly gay and also am not mascleaning trans #how dare #who is giving this allegations #nick is still my fav #i just think the family could've been more fair to jeremy

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chrisbangs · 10 months

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#every now and then i think abt deleting every single social media and dying . like #i really genuinely think abt just dying fr like #👎👎👎#there's only 1 person i've been wanting to talk to lately #and like no one else lol #i just feel so fucking out of my head #why is everything so fucking bad #i barely leave the basement these days .. i just stay in bed and sleep #and i have less than a week to get the fuck over this random stupid rut i'm in #because fucking classes start on tuesday #i wanna kms so bad lol #like i would rather be dead than do another year of college rn #it's so fucking bad for me lmfao #i don't have any support or anyone to talk to and i feel like i'm going fucking crazy #i'm on academic probation is the best part so if i fuck up this semester i get kicked out which like part of me would love ik like #the part of me that's tired and exhausted and just done with everything i wouldn't mind being kicked out but #the ik . that my parents would fucking kill me knowing that i wasted 4 years worth of tuition money and just fucking flopped as a student #waking up wishing i hadn't woken up every fucking day... i feel sick inside...#my anxiety is spiking all over again and i can barely even organize my thoughts lately #i literally threw up last night cause i worked myself up into such hysterics . like lmfao...#i cant get a grip and i cant get the fuck over how bad i feel and no one fucking LISTENS when i saw i hate this and i'm not good enough for #this fucking subject i wanna fucking kill myself holy fuck it's crazy how much i wanna die..#i used to wonder abt that 4th year kid who killed himself when i was at my old uni like how fucking bad was it for him that in his last year #he just couldn't take it anymore and now i'm in the funniest position of literally understanding exactly where he was lol #last year... and i cant do it... i just cant fucking do it and i wanna kill myself i think about it every day i think about it 24/7 and #i'm just so... tired doesn't even encompass what i'm feeling right now i'm fucking exhausted and empty and i have nothing left man i cant #fucking do this... every day im dragging myself kicking and screaming to school and dealing with a 4 hr round trip commute in the shitty ass #weather that we get and getting verbally and emotionally abused by profs and getting 0 acknowledgment for ANYTHING and it's not like my work #is even GOOD enough to begin with so ofc it's not gonna get any acknowledgment like jdjdjdkdkskd i just dont . have it in me to do this #for another fucking year... i literally cannot do this... and i have no other thoughts in my head other than killing myself lmfao...

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scvlly · 1 year

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can’t believe i made a v clear post saying don’t rb my shitposts and add stuff to them then had a convo w the person who did it and made it clear that’s not what i wanted and when they said ‘block me if you need to’ somehow i didn’t twig to the fact that they were going to keep doing it suprised pikachu my own ass i guess

#i felt bad for making the post originally bc i didn't realise they followed me and thought they were just someone random #i don't feel bad anymore :)#just a reminder you ARE allowed to have boundaries on the internet even if its about your silly little shitposts #voyager has been my heart show since i was a child i will not let the internet ruin that for me <3 #im back to thinking abt b7 au shuttle crash ver #byee

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latinokaeya-moving · 2 years

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after all of this tho i still think diluc sucks lol he still irritates me bc it’s clear the game wants you to sympathise and admire him sooooo bad and they lay it on soooo thick when i’m just like :/ no. lmao.

#x #gi posting #i don’t like the way this game consistently shoves down ur throat how ur Supposed to feel abt characters or whatever it’s so annoying #they use paimon as a mouth piece everytime and i’m just like ? no thanks #like they do it consistently w eulas whole story. like narratively the traveller DOES feel sorry and sympathetic towards eula when it’s like #but what if i don’t lol.#i get dilucs deal now though i had been ruminating on his like. motivations/goals for a while now and they make more sense now #his whole thing is to do with self righteousness and believing himself to be the only one able to enact justice into the world #so he neglects or at least has put to the side all other personal issues bc he believes only his vision/delivery judgement takes precedent #and that. is incredibly annoying in terms of his relationships w others #like what’s worse than a self righteous white man lmao. come on #(me being at my most unforgiving and bitter bc i’m a hater at my core£#also random thought but i think it sets up an interesting parallel between diluc - choosing to continue to sort of. enact his fathers legacy #perhaps at the expense of himself and his relationship w others? (in the sense that they do not take precedent !)#vs kaeya - choosing to… ignore(? lol) his fathers legacy/wishes bc of all the ties he has to mondstadt now #and how He actively maintains those familial and friendly relationships bc they’re what matters to him #and how that translates into kaeya more obviously / desperately hinting towards wanting an active/true reconciliation w diluc while diluc is #more like… willing 2 accept what they have as of now. at least until his job of playing judge jury and executioner on all threats to mond #or whatever is finally done (which it never will be lol)#anyways a lot of assumptions and leaps of understanding r made here but it clicks fairly well in my head so i’ll accept it for now #i’ll admit they were on more neutral terms than i thought. tbf not my fault consenting all the interactions #we’d had until this moment were either tense or actively antagonistic lmao #so yeah. sure they care for each other n want to reconcile 2 a certain extent #still only one person rlly putting in most of the work tho

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mrburnsnuclearpussy · 1 year

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Maybe I would play any of the sonic games if they had Carson in them but they don’t so….what do they expect lol. If you want me to play a game you have to put Carson in or I don’t care!!! God when will they fucking LEARN

#btw idk if I’ll be more normal about Carson soon ish coz they upped my meds to highest dose in hopes it might regulate my irrational thought #thoughts* and stuff etc etc so…we will see lol #not BECAUSE of Carson lol but just like everything in general #also I gotta take another test coz they’re like we can’t confirm a disorder but you definitely have autistic traits so that might be #interesting! coz I’ve been wondering for years and I learned that others have too #and bad emotional regulation or something like that?#plus anxiety and depression obvs. but im not complaining abt this coz im getting further to knowing answers of-#-what is wrong with me. which is what I’ve been craving since forever so it’s a huge step forward!#i can’t believe I am where I am now compared to just a year or so ago like it’s crazy #i had a lapse yesterday and was suicidal which was bad but I have an amazing supportive team and im so lucky to have them and they helped #-me a lot and I’m so glad I’ve got the recourse’s I do because if I didn’t im scared to think what I’d be like #so 🙏#sorry random life update ramblings #but im good today yay

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falling-hand-in-unlovable-hand · 2 years

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i wish i hadn't made it into this year's play tbh

#one of my classmates who's a senior and really involved with it told me to my face that this year's production is gonna be a shitshow #and so far it's been living up to it smh #no scheduling the only way to communicate abt it is a fucking facebook chat and now i'm missing the second rehearsal bcs of a trip i'm #ALREADY anxious abt bcs i have to miss that whole day of school #i just..... really don't want to deal with it #kiwifae says shit #honestly i think after this i'm taking a break from theatre for a year or two #i was so relieved when i thought i botched my audition and idk the thought of going onstage doesn't bring joy anymore #i don't want to be in this play but i really don't wanna be the kid who drops it after i said i would #especially bcs i'm in ensemble and i don't want it to be seen as me being pissy i'm not the main character #but. i just so don't want to be doing it for some reason #just seeing the days i'm going in and thinking abt tech week is just making me feel awful and dread it #i'm already having trouble with the changing season and the rehearsals go to five so i'm barely gonna see the sun #fuck i just don't want this #i wish i never auditioned and i wish i could leave without being seen like that and i'm dreading going to all those rehearsals #this might partially be the winter season and it being kinda late affecting me but god i wish i never tried out #vent #+random crying fit about this 🙄

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strawberrygiorno · 1 year

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gonna tag ramble about shivers

#so i've been thinking more about shivers being connected to the pale #and paying more attention to joyce's dialogue i do think there are moments it happens to her but she's good at hiding it #and the paledriver experiences it pretty explicitly #and like... thinking about the times where you have the strongest connection with shivers #almost all of them are near the church #on the dance floor #the feld building #the coat #my current theory is that shivers is connected to the pale and is a result of overexposure #it functions in a similar way to how the pale will plant random memories in your head #it's like the pale is imprinted in a person's brain after exposure and they can never truly escape it #and it allows them to pick up on the memories of the places around them #shivers is less seeing something than it is remembering something #the voice of the city is the collective memory of all the people who have ever lived there and will ever live there #it's so thick with history that it almost forms a mind of its own #and carrying the pale with you is how you commune with it #shrugs tho it's just the thoughts i've been having abt it lately i could be completely wrong #which is why this is a tag ramble and not a post lol #but i do at the very least feel relatively confident in saying that shivers comes from the pale #it speaks

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supergraphicultramoderngirl · 2 years

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I AM. CONFUSED.

#abt to vent in the tags ignore or message if you want idc #throughout the day i had been debating whether or not i had a crush on these two different people in my life #(that was yesterday)#and then. last night. i had dreamt that i wanted to tell one of them i had the crush and it was like The Plot but i never got to bc it ended #and then immediately after i had another dream where i had a boyfriend (first crush is not a boy but other one is)#except the boyfriend was not the boy i thought i had a crush on it was just some random dude #which NONE OF THIS NARROWS ANYTHING DOWN #and to make things worse. neither of these crushes are the person who i have gone on two dates with #so i feel like i may need to do some light ghosting #i think my main issue between the two crushes is this.#with the first one i have the feelings to a degree but i can’t imagine actually doing any relationship things w them #esp because we’re already best friends so like i’m good with just cuddling as friends that’s chill with me i don’t think i’m a kisser anyway #but with the other one. i have only a small amount of feelings but can picture doing the relationship things with him #but i don’t know him as well so it could be totally way off from what i think it would be like #plus there is also the issue of #even if i do have feelings for the first crush i can’t do anything about it because we’re best friends and she doesn’t see me like that #in addition to the fact that there cannot be two relationships within our five person friend group and she is emotionally unavailable #meanwhile i could fully ask out the other dude no hesitation but i might end up feeling guilty if i realize i don’t actually have feelings #and i cannot have thought i liked a person then asked them out then broke it off a week later bc i lost feelings for the third time in a row #idk i’m just really confused and don’t know what to do and am mad at myself for not being able to recognize my own emotions #this is STUPID. anyways #mari is irrelevant

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