I've been thinking about the screwed magnetic fields of the grand line recently, and while that train of thought didn't lead anywhere, the phrase I liked - "an invisible birdcage" - really applied to Sabo's situation nicely.
I mean, it's obvious how much influence Sabo's parents have on him, but have you ever thought that Sabo never felt freedom while he was staying in Goa kingdom? And it's even before he was brought back to his family and properly realized just how messed up nobles are!
We've seen multiple times that his parents treat him as something they own, that he unquestionably belongs to them, and even after running away to the Gray Terminal the feeling of being tied down never went away. It seems like Sabo internalised that so much, that he didn't even realise that he was free this whole time! He was free to choose his future, he was free to choose his family! The only thing holding them down was that they were unprepared to set sail,amd even then they could always leave if they wanted! As Sabo did - by stealing the boat.
And yet he still longed for freedom, to be "anywhere but here". We can see it in his design - he lives among the 'scum' of the Gray Terminal, and yet he still dressed as a noble, he wears a waistcoat and a top hat which reminds us of the fashion of the high town and especially his father, and his cravat is tied tightly around his neck. His life really was suffocating for him. Even if he was physically away from his family he still could feel their influence, though he was outside the city wall, outside of their reach! And he ran away 5 years ago! He's spent so much time living there, that his noble upbringing has faded - he felt compassion towards the people of the gray terminal, which nobles don't even consider human; he even put someone else's happiness before his own - which is unheard of in the noble circles; he has defeated men twice his size, fearlessly charged into battle while nobles don't want to get their hands dirty. And yet he was powerless when met with violence from his father, showing that despite all this time, despite how much he's changed he still was in that invisible birdcage, unable to act under the influence of his father. (which is why he leaves again)
Even Ace and Luffy feel that:
And it's really sad that Ace says that Sabo was never able to grasp freedom, because even if briefly, he did. With you two :") But he could never feel freedom as long as he stayed in the country where people are treated no better than trash, and the shadow of his family and Goa's walls lingered above him.
And a couple of hundred chapters later we see the extent of his parents' grasp! Even with amnesia this deep-seated feeling of confinement never left him. (Though I do think that it's not just the abuse from his parents but also his disgust with nobles as a whole: the burning of the Gray Terminal and nobles' indifference to it clearly affected him a lot)
And what's worse, now he can't even identify what's wrong! I mean, it's clear that his parents were abusive, you don't need to be a Sherlock to figure that out, but the specific details are lost. Think about it! He ended up on a ship with people who at first didn't really want anything to do with him - not out of malice, they just have more important things at the moment; and then in an organisation(an army) where your value as a soldier is based on your performance(like rising through ranks and such). He doesn't know that his parents equated his worth with his usefulness, and the revs don't know that the boy being so eager to help isn't just a rightheous motivation. He needed to be sure that their efforts on getting him to health weren't in waste, to be useful, so that the only people he knows won't just leave him, plus pair it with his moral values, distaste of nobles, longing for freedom... – no wonder he is the second-in-command of the entire army by the age 22!
This guy's love language is acts of service, but no one (not even Sabo himself) realises that it stems from his screwed upbringing and fear of being cast away if he's not of use.
Ok, to be fair, it's mostly based on the flashbacks - I haven't finished my reread to look in depth at him as an adult yet! After all we've only seen point A(his childhood) and point B(adulthood) with the journey between them obscured. He does seem to be faring well tho! He takes his job seriously when needed, but also fucks around when he wants to - even if ppl around him show displeasure with that! Good for him.
Same with Koala actually! It's so nice to see her being able to express her feelings so visibly! Be it positive or negative. And I think it's cute, that while Sabo is both the common reason and victim of her outbursts of emotion, he never berates her for it! He's not thrilled, but he's not complaining either!
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ren doesn’t hate life he just hates living. he wanted a normal life, he isn’t chasing his end because he hates life itself but the way he’s living now is not ideal obviously. he wanted to occasionally burn his hands working the forge, to scrape his knees, to nick his finger and feel the cut sting even the next day. he envies people that find living to be a (mostly) pain free joy but he doesn’t want to live his own life — not like this.
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Spotify Character Study Masterpost
Below the cut is the current list of fandom/ character playlists. Many of these playlists are ever-growing because I keep adding more songs, if you have any requests for a playlist or song recommendations for a playlist, the inbox is open!
Series:
Doctor Who
Good Omens
Our Flag Means Death
Reservation Dogs
Fleabag
Stranger Things
What We Do In The Shadows
Animated Series:
The Amazing Digital Circus
The Radio Demon
Hazbin Hotel
Angel Dust (Hazbin Hotel)
Marceline (Adventure Time)
Gravity Falls
Pink Diamond (Steven Universe)
Bee and Puppycat
Character from a series:
Twelfth Doctor
Fourteenth Doctor
Fifteen Doctor
Wednesday
Lucifer Morningstar
Thomas Shelby (Peaky Blinders)
Aubrey Thyme (Good Omens fic) (NEW!)
Aziraphale (Good Omens)
Crowley (Good Omens)
Tanis (Letterkenny)
Willie Jack (Reservation Dogs)
Laura Palmer (Twin Peaks)
BJ Hunnicutt (M*A*S*H)
Hawkeye Pierce (M*A*S*H)
Marvel & DC:
Gambit
Rogue
Rogue & Gambit
Hobie Brown
Peter Parker
Bucky Barnes
Yelena Belova
Loki
WandaVision
Moon Knight
Werewolf By Night
Harley Quinn
Harley & Ivy
Star Wars:
The Mandalorian
Ahsoka Tano
Obi Wan Kenobi
Anakin Skywalker
Anakin & Padme
Movies:
The Hunger Games: The Ballad of Songbirds & Snakes
Barbie
Veronica Sawyer (Heathers)
Christine Daae (Phantom of the Opera)
Jennifer Check (Jennifer’s Body)
Ginger Fitzgerald (Ginger Snaps)
Holly Golightly (Breakfast at Tiffany's)
Bonnie & Clyde (1967)
Animated Movies:
Howls Moving Castle
Kat Elliot (Wendel & Wild)
Luca
Bruno Madrigal (Encanto)
La Familia Madrigal
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