i just think a lot about young Jane the tomboy who just wanted to run around in the rain and play baseball and help her dad do plumbing work instead of cook with her ma. teased by other kids, not so many friends, but always quick to kick the ass of anyone who was mean to her baby brothers (that was her job).
little jane who people Said Things about. Who got mud on her First Communion dress and got in fights with other girls. She was supposed to grow out of it, but when that never seemed to happen, Angela had to step in. The other mothers Talked. Jane learned what the word "dyke" meant.
Ma bought her more dresses than pants. Took her to ballet instead of soccer. Bought her nail polish and makeup, not new hockey pads.