#seekinglove

[uadreams]

Title: "Love: The Timeless Comedy Show!"

Caption: "Picture this: love, that age-old sitcom, playing on every channel of life's TV. No matter the season, women of any age are binge-watching, popcorn in hand, laughing at the timeless antics of Cupid. From the teenyboppers to the golden oldies, we're all tuning in for that rom-com marathon. So grab your remote and let's enjoy the ride together! 📺😂

[gayguysfollowmepls]

All i thought about today is how much i want some boy to love me. I want to feel love and pretty and sexy. I want to experience sex without feeling uncomfortable. I want to kiss, with the feeling of butterflies in my stomach.

I want to lay in bed with him and touch hands and body, smoke ciggarattes and w33d. I'm exhausted from being lonely and feeling like im not worth of love.

[luckycraftsartstudent]

"I care about you!"

- But, why?

[lightpost]

Have a goodnight

That’s what you told me, “you too.” all the courage that came forth felt weak from the strike, my heart no longer my own, voice, his sound broke more than stone. Regretfully let him go, through higher power or higher chance, I’ll get to see him again one day, maybe he feels this pull too, why did I have to wait so long? A punishment? Or a blessing? Living in limbo without him here and I hate that I feel that way, dependent on that, how I crave to be independent, without him I’ll never feel free, deep in my bones are marks, having trouble accepting that. He’s marked me and I don’t know how to take it back, its I who hurt him, kept him from the truth, he was the strong one, I became weak, held back, hid the inside alpha to life itself, getting knocked down countless times will do that frail and clumsy easy to have balance be an unknown thing, surviving but never thriving I don’t know does he feel it too? I’m I coming on to strong? I’ve had almost 10 years to live with this, you’re just feeling this now, how does it feel to you? Its a bond stronger than what humans are used to, unconditional. To let you go was to set you free. Am I selfish for wanting you, for always wanting you, for now needing you. Can I be selfless again and let you go, knowing it will be the end of me? Feeling pain without you can I bare this? Being at a all time loss is the worst way to live. When one of the pack members hurt we all hurt. Its a heavy burden, strength though let us carry it well.   

[catastrophicallyblue-blog]

Dream

a dream is a successions of images, ideas, emotions and sensations that usually occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.

what a defined meaning for the term? wikipedia's words, not mine.

 i would rather call it just as our unspoken desires which is buried deep down that we desperately wanted or wishes to come true.

but at the end, there is a reason why we call it as a dream, isn’t it?

[3rdeyephilosophy]

Group thinking creates a herd like mentality that starts to become the normality when individuals build their reality around conformity. #MasterYourself #SelfMastery #Self-esteem #SelfLove #SelfMotivation #Podcasting #TheBestPodcast #InspirationalPodcast #TruthSeekers #SeekingTruth #SeekingLove #SeekingJoy #BuildingConfidence #Independence" https://www.instagram.com/p/CDr0SougsO4/?igshid=14uyqg4rxohf1

[dubiousbutterfly]

Well, I did it.

I have this thing... I tend to let people walk all over me and when things go wrong, I blame myself. Today, I just let go of a friendship that has turned toxic. I know that this is probably not over but what is a girl to do?

I get so tired of always being the one to initiate the texts and going out. I get tired of older people saying that to have friends you must show yourself friendly. Some days I just think I would be better off by myself. I get tired of fake people. I want to lay it all out. I want to confess it all.... ugh. I wish I could just take it all off.

It has been a minute since I have been on here but I think I should do a recap. I had a moment of deep depression. I was only focused on the rape. I could not seem to get out of it. I was starting to meet guys through a dating app. I met a Russian guy that was completely infatuated with having sex with black women....sigh...fetish. I figured...I am pretty worthless so what will it matter. Then something changed. I met him. He was okay but pushy. I left that meeting thinking why am I about to give him a part of me that he did not earn nor did he deserve. Then I thought, what if he was a dishonest person... what if he wanted more than I was willing to give up. The what if’s consumed my mind. I eventually told him no and moved on. ...Wait, have I told you this story?

Later, I went on a date with a guy a met in a furniture store. This was the first date I have ever been on that did not start online. I was thrilled. He looked very different than my typical date. I went with it. I was ready for change. It was a decent night until he told me he hated a certain type of people. I can’t catch a break. So, now i am very single and very much alone friend wise. I don’t know how to meet good people. I never thought in million years that finding a good friend would be hard.

I am seriously considering writing on here more. I get so busy but this is incredibly cathartic. Sometimes I just need release. Sigh.

[midnightdream83]

What I hope I can find

[short-n-long-work]

DAY 03

Really happiness is time travel

Sadness, well sadness slows it down

No you’re weren't happiness per say, but damn you added to it

At the moment, one can only wish for time to pass in leaps and bounds

Time crawls for the decadent

Feeling stuck, not able to move on, blocked too

Closed off from you, no you’re not happiness

These recent days are just passing so slowly

Clearly the adage “one day at a time” is an understatement

I could count down to the minute in my exponential state of woe

Hours though, they’re more than sufficient

Reflecting in the dark, meditation and prayer

Occupying my mind, my very being protests the thought of you

Time thief, how I want you so

[oncloser-blog]

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[zoosk]

Ain’t that the truth? 

[troubledontlast1]

When God knows you're READY for RESPONSIBILITY of commitment, He'll reveal the RIGHT PERSON, under the RIGHT CIRCUMSTANCES. WAIT PATIENTLY. Don't waste your time searching and wishing. GROW and be READY. And you'll see, God will give you a LOVE STORY far better than you would ever dream of. #waitongod The LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him.- Lamentations 3:25 #waitonthelord If God is making you wait then be prepared to receive more than what you asked for. #waitingongod Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.- Galatians 6:9 #truelovewaits Be ye strong therefore, and let not your hands be weak: for your work shall be rewarded.- 2 Chronicles 15:7 #truelovewait When you are in a season of waiting, it's never just a season of waiting. It's a season of preparation, self-improvement, giving, and, as always, sanctification. Waiting is not passive. It's active. Be prepared for what you are praying for. You might not know when, but when God speaks, it happens fast. Be ready for it. #waitpatiently 🔥Subscribe to my YouTube channel and podcast,👉🏾"Uplift Past Crossroads"👈🏾🔥 Befriend me on Facebook/LinkedIn = Sean Christopher Jenkins 🔥Follow👉🏾@troubledontlast 👈🏾IG/Twitter/Snap/TikTok for more🔥 Turn on Post Notification - Like - Comment - Share - Save repost @king.of.kings.jesus ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ . . Follow my other Instagram accounts: Subscribe to YouTube(in bio)👉🏾@my_daily_bible👈🏾 Subscribe to podcast(in bio)👉🏾@upliftpastcrossroads👈🏾 YouTube👉🏾@upliftwithdrj👈🏾 Fashion👉🏾@glamourmeetsgq👈🏾 . . 👤 Tag a friend who would like this page ⬇️ ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ #goodthingscometothosewhowait #waitingforlove #waitingonthelord #waitpatientlyonthelord #waitingpatiently #waitingpatientlyforhim #waitforgod #beingsinglesucks #waitforthelord #donotgrowweary #dontgrowweary #seekinglove #searchingforlove #chasinglove #lookingforlove #lookingforloveinallthewrongplaces #christiandating #christiandatingadvice #godlydating #godlydating101 #christianlove #letgodwriteyourlovestory #godlymarriage #godlymarriages (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/CXChEWulirl/?utm_medium=tumblr

[sushon]

Being Born In A #World of Sin...Because of Our #Past Transgressions~ #JUDAH...It Was Impossible to Begin to Understand Who We Are~The Many, Many, #Distractions of The World 🌎 ~Look At Us NOW~ #seekingAPPROVAL #seekingATTENTION #seekingCARNALPLEASURES #seekingLOVE EVERYTHING BUT OUR #CREATOR WHO IS OUR ❤ (at Stamford, Connecticut) https://www.instagram.com/p/CS1p-XYsIpn/?utm_medium=tumblr

[anewbride]

Watch till the end to find out what a Ukrainian lady’s ideal man is!

[lightpost]

Delicious, spicy, yet unsatisfied. Did he just brand me? his voice struck the core of nothing from this world can truly explain, like an out body experience happening in meditation while hallucinations take over a loud drum hits the connection between worlds and suddenly thrown back into your body. His voice truly sparked a universe inside of this soul, voice that holds emotions that my heart is longing to hear, like he somehow branded me with sound I could feel it all within his voice when it hit my chest like a bullet radiating an energic movement from the heart to the spine to my legs now frozen in this cement unseen to the human eye my third eye taking me to the world he had unlocked inside of me, I felt everything, the strength of that sound wave, the anger, the pain, the sadness even, now years later after trying to win this war of the world inside and out to others laughing saying let him go to the one inside telling me hold on, his voice is somehow my hope, craving to hear that voice again when I do knowing everything will be worth it, but when? I remember the full extent of that day from coming home the night before from already long day working doubles getting almost 80 hours in a week I wanted a day off since coming out from an abusive nearly deadly relationship he got another girl pregnant  after threating he would always throw me down the stairs if that ever happened to me, he beat me so bad I black out and had broken and bruised ribs still had a fractured elbow from the fall I took from working at the spa, mixing drugs and alcohol together is a combustion on it own, my own family even turning on me showing me their uncaring, demonic forms, Lifetime fitness became my safe haven, from Halloween to February and starting yoga teacher training for the second time around, when that fatal night ended up taking a huge chunk out of light out of my soul I had no idea until years later how much that night would really mean to me. He’s always saving me even when he isn’t here and I end up getting this worst positions and this one I can’t seem to get out of, this thick shadow lingers here mediums, psychics, sensitive people have all told me turned me away, or telling me I have this shadow blocking me, one told me it will cost 300$ to remove the darkness and bring my soul back from the 9th level of hell I kind of laughed because that was just ridiculous yet I broken on an already broken heart, that this bruise can’t seem to heal either, this darkness is something of his he gave me, yet I feed from self-pity, fear, doubt, anger, regret which is the heaviest of all to many what-ifs and questions why I couldn’t move run to him after that strike of lightening why didn’t I just run to him say hi, would he see me as a freak, did I hurt me now? such a never ending war in my head and heart over this my soul is knots I want to be happy no matter the outcome but over the years to much bad has happened I’m numb left alone to this never ending hallow I try to fill with beauty and happiness but it never lasts and leaves the bruises on my heart even tender than before leaving to cry a pain that takes over my body and hits like bricks I am left black and blue for months unable to move, or walk up right anymore from pain, he took the best parts me like the greatest thief out there unknowing to the rest of the world how much I suffer without a care I’m in a living graveyard. I understand how much sound can heal someone, how much a voice can heal wounds, place the pieces back together, how a voice can touch the parts of you that are hurting and heal them back to health its such a powerful force most take for granted how it carries such emotions your body needs to feel, the way music washes over you and refreshes your heart, recharges the mind, changes the outlook to situations on life. Life doesn’t come with warnings and this something no could of warned me about. I think you can love someone you’ve never met and you can miss someone you’ve never known because I believe I do love him and I really do miss him because I’m always left unsatisfied by everyone but him he somehow deep down I know completes me he has the half of me I am honestly missing, he’s the only one who can remove this darkness lingering over my life. I know its a heavy burden he’s the balance to this scales here. Will he accept this? Will he seek what is seeking him?

[teammacrecordschina]

好似無法將愛情刻劃成某一種形狀 唯有看見愛情的當下 才得已明白，所有的愛情都是由自己建造出來的模樣 也許愛情會隨著時間與經歷的不同，而改變其形狀與輪廓；然而愛情的初衷其實就像是棉花般潔淨無瑕，Bii畢書盡將這首「看見愛情」獻給還在愛情中迷惘的人們，哪怕在追求屬於自己愛情的過程中跌跌撞撞，也請不要放棄，也許我們等待的愛情就在不遠的前方。呼應著訴說愛情那宛如棉製品般的舒服純粹，這首歌曲也被選為2021美國棉年度主題曲。 「看見愛情」是一首新式R&B情歌，由金曲音樂才子HAOR 許書豪跨刀編曲及設計歌曲和聲，由娓娓道來的琴聲作為前奏開始，再由Bii畢書盡動人地嗓音刻劃出愛情的輪廓，似唸似唱的深情風格，隨著節奏直入人心，副歌加入大量地和聲交錯堆疊出層次感，曲末神來一筆中文饒舌更令人耳朵一亮，為歌曲添加了不一樣的色彩；也許說愛你、說想你已無法表達一切，那就用我唯一的聲線，唱響愛情的模樣。 Bii畢書盡 『看見愛情』 2021 /05/14 老鷹製作 福茂數位上架 #Bii畢書盡​ #看見愛情​ #2021美國棉主題曲​ #SeekingLove​ ═════ Bii 畢書盡【看見愛情 Seeking Love】 - 2021美國棉主題曲 ∎數位線上聽 https://Bii.lnk.to/SeekingLove​ ═════ 看見愛情 演唱：Bii畢書盡 作詞：張懷顥、徐培年 作曲：張懷顥 編曲：HAOR許書豪 想看見愛情 但這個世界怎麼 每個人都看不懂 那愛情裡的你和我 原來不只有你和我 明明在這個世界 怎麼都不懂愛情 不只你和我 就反正人人都遵守 我不也跟著在信奉 是你在我心 怎麼也在他心中 不想懂 愛情在 在平行的時空 說 愛 你 沒人不想聽 說 恨 你 卻總找不到理由 兩個都是我 Hey 說 想 你 你已無法聽 這 句 話 紀念愛情曾來過 回憶在這 等我 明明在這個世界 怎麼都不懂愛情 不只你和我 就反正人人都遵守 我不也跟著在信奉 是你在我心 怎麼也在他心中 不想懂 愛情在 在平行的時空 說 愛 你 沒人不想聽 說 恨 你 卻總找不到理由 兩個都是我 Hey 說 想 你 你已無法聽 這 句 話 紀念愛情曾來過 回憶在這 等我 說過永遠了沒有 那說過唯一沒有 若說過就算愛過 也許脆弱總被識破 也許堅強只有你懂 只有在你面前哭過 當你享受被佔有的快樂 就是愛情裡最好的時刻 如果愛情就是似懂非懂才真懂 也許最後我說原來我愛的是這種 就算還是不懂 至少我可以說 我在愛情看到了我但誰又是我 說 愛 你 沒人不想聽 說 恨 你 卻總找不到理由 兩個都是我 Yay 說 想 你 你已無法聽 這 句 話 紀念愛情曾來過 回憶在這 等我 【歌曲Credit】 英文曲名：Seeking Love 演唱Vocal：Bii畢書盡 作詞 Lyricist：張懷顥 Mike Chang、徐培年 Hsu Pei Nien 作曲 Composer：張懷顥 Mike Chang 製作人 Producer：陳又齊 Gyniuz Chen 編曲 Arranger：HAOR許書豪 吉他 Guitar：HAOR許書豪 貝斯 Bass：HAOR許書豪 和聲編寫 Chorus Arranger：HAOR許書豪、陳又齊 Gyniuz Chen 和聲 Chorus：HAOR許書豪、Bii畢書盡 配唱錄音師 Vocal Recording Engineer：謝達孝 Siao.H 配唱錄音室 Vocal Recording Studio：白金錄音室 Platinum Studio 混音工程師 Mixing Engineer：楊大緯 Dave Yang 混音助理 Mixing Assistant：謝皓宇 Andy Hsieh 混音錄音室 Mixing Studio：楊大緯錄音工作室 Dave Yang Recording Studio 母帶後期處理工程師 Mastering Engineer：楊大緯 Dave Yang、藍偉恩Wayne Lan 母帶後期處理錄音室 Mastering Studio：楊大緯錄音工作室 Dave Yang Recording Studio OP：大潮音樂經紀有限公司 OP：阿爾發音樂股份有限公司 https://www.instagram.com/p/CPHrdj_LbvD/?utm_medium=tumblr