soft kunikidazai blurb where kuni is his nervous self and dazai has no time to lose
kunikida: “-but dazai if i kiss you,, we’ll end up kissing on the couch,, and if we end up kissing on the couch then chances are we’ll kiss in the bedroom and if we kiss in the bedroom- well that’s the part i always rush into and i just don’t think it’s a good idea to rush into spending the night together”
dazai *letting his boyfriend finish//while also not waiting a second before saying*: “i want to spend the night together”
kunikida *blushing*: “i have no problem with that”
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okay, so i've been seeing more than a couple of posts on this and need to add my opinion/vision of it.
so we all know how things are rn between Cristobal and Hank, and in the last ep we got Mitch telling Hank that his Cristobal seemed to have a bunch of red flags. i could be way off and i'm undoubtedly biased, but i strongly believe people should cut him some slack.
Cristobal hid things from Hank -his marriage and family-, that's a fact, but he didn't mean any harm by it. I personally think he didn't bring it up because he'd rather ignore his life in Bolivia, a life we could say he was forced to live within heteronormativity. why would he want to talk about it, now that he was finally able to truly be himself? to be in love?
it is my impression that his refusal to acknowledge the whole deal to the person he was closest to, comes from a place of love. Cristobal thought it would be easier to ignore it, to pretend it wasn't important. before Fernando's arrival, i'm sure he thought he could keep getting away with being with Hank while maintaining a decent relationship with his wife and father-in-law, and that neither of them had to know about the other.
was it wise? probably not, especially given the outcome. but i strongly believe, had Elena not come for him, Cristobal would have eventually opened up to Hank, but he would have done it in his own terms, at his own time.
i don't want this to seem as if i were making up excuses for Cristobal, but i sure understand why he never brought himself to admit it. and to never admit it to a person who values loyalty as much as Hank? i'm sure it wasn't easy.
a combination between not wanting to confess he had a family back in Bolivia, because it wasn't a life he wanted to live; the fact that he didn't see why he'd need to bring it up, even after Fernando's death (i don't think he imagined Elena getting there so quickly), and his newfound happiness next to Hank, is most likely what led him to believe he could go on like this.
while we're at it, i don't think Hank "dismissing" Cristobal's behaviour ("red flags") is naive on itself. both men come from awfully homophobic countries or regions, so i'm sure Hank doesn't think Cristobal hid this from him in order to hurt him, but as a way to put it behind him. Hank is aware of Cristobal's feelings for him and his commitment to their relationship, so Cristobal not telling him about Elena, he knows it wasn't in order to protect him, but Cristobal's way to disregard his previous life and focus on what he had now and what he had built with Hank.
alas, the ghosts from his past caught up with him, and the blisfulness he had experienced in the past months was taken away from him, and from Hank.
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apologies for the rollercoaster of character emotions but your tags are making my evening; currently alternating between snickering like a cartoon devil with a bucket of popcorn and feeling slightly guilty for the angst fnkenr
anyway all this to say, super appreciate the input <3 thank you for caring about the blorbos.
you ARE. evil (sometimes. in a good way!!) and no need to apologize i'm 100% absolutely on board!!!!!!! even if. it's making me sad,,
but genuinely i love the way you build characters and develop them!!! makes something in my brain go AAAAHHHHHH every time. they're so cohesive!! and their story just works. i'm super glad you decide to share that <3 they are just prime blorbo material for me :]
(and i love your artstyle so much i can't even put it into words. just. woah!! pretty ;-; !!!!!!!!)
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So, anyway, I say as though we are mid-conversation, and you're not just being invited into this conversation mid-thought. One of my editors phoned me today to check in with a file I'd sent over. (<3)
The conversation can be surmised as, "This feels like something you would write, but it's juuuust off enough I'm phoning to make sure this is an intentional stylistic choice you have made. Also, are you concussed/have you been taken over by the Borg because ummm."
They explained that certain sentences were very fractured and abrupt, which is not my style at all, and I was like, huh, weird... And then we went through some examples, and you know that meme going around, the "he would not fucking say that" meme?
Yeah. That's what I experienced except with myself because I would not fucking say that. Why would I break up a sentence like that? Why would I make them so short? It reads like bullet points. Wtf.
Anyway. Turns out Grammarly and Pro-Writing-Aid were having an AI war in my manuscript files, and the "suggestions" are no longer just suggestions because the AI was ignoring my "decline" every time it made a silly suggestion. (This may have been a conflict between the different software. I don't know.)
It is, to put it bluntly, a total butchery of my style and writing voice. My editor is doing surgery, removing all the unnecessary full stops and stitching my sentences back together to give them back their flow. Meanwhile, I'm over here feeling like Don Corleone, gesturing at my manuscript like:
ID: a gif of Don Corleone from the Godfather emoting despair as he says, "Look how they massacred my boy."
Fearing that it wasn't just this one manuscript, I've spent the whole night going through everything I've worked on recently, and yep. Yeeeep. Any file where I've not had the editing software turned off is a shit show. It's fine; it's all salvageable if annoying to deal with. But the reason I come to you now, on the day of my daughter's wedding, is to share this absolute gem of a fuck up with you all.
This is a sentence from a Batman fic I've been tinkering with to keep the brain weasels happy. This is what it is supposed to read as:
"It was quite the feat, considering Gotham was mostly made up of smog and tear gas."
This is what the AI changed it to:
"It was quite the feat. Considering Gotham was mostly made up. Of tear gas. And Smaug."
Absolute non-sensical sentence structure aside, SMAUG. FUCKING SMAUG. What was the AI doing? Apart from trying to write a Batman x Hobbit crossover??? Is this what happens when you force Grammarly to ignore the words "Batman Muppet threesome?"
Did I make it sentient??? Is it finally rebelling? Was Brucie Wayne being Miss Piggy and Kermit's side piece too much???? What have I wrought?
Anyway. Double-check your work. The grammar software is getting sillier every day.
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I have beef I have beef so much beef with anyone who tells me I'm too kind and too sweet and too polite and patient to not be fake. Let me be to others who I want others to be for me. I will speak every kind thought and I will treat everyone with utmost gentleness and understanding.
Love wasn't ever given to me. I had to earn it, I still do. I have terrible anger issues that bounce in my skull like feral rats hissing and biting.
Let me see the world better outside of my mind. Let me treat everyone how I wish I were treated. I am not fake for being kind.
You've only never seen me angry because I don't trust you or because you never pissed me off.
I will tell everyone how nice the little details about them are and I will die on this hill. I will give the benefit of the doubt to small mistakes instead of demonising a person until they prove me they deserve the criticism.
There is worse in this world and just because I don't agree when you call someone "ugly" or a "slut" I am not fake.
I call out bigotry when I see it and just because you've never seen me in a political setting it doesn't mean my kindness is a way to take advantage of anyone. No one can do anything for me because I do everything myself anyway. My appreciation does not come from a place of need but simply because the little qualities in people are beautiful and since I talk so little already I will not stifle the good things coming out of my mouth as I think them out of fear someone will misinterpret.
All the people that got to know me used to think I was fake and even mean behind a sweet façade and Guess What?
We hang out and have the time of our lives now and I love them a lot. I don't know if they care about me as much as I care about them as much as I care about them, but they know I mean what I say and I say what I mean. Always.
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