#she definitely has undiagnosed anxiety and probably adhd

[wh0dunit]

steph always has cute nail polish but little known fact is that she gets the kind that is designed to taste bitter to try and prevent herself from biting her nails but it never works.

[sorribu]

MP100 DISABILITY HEADCANONS!!!!

@m00ngbin ASKED 4 THEM SO HERE U GO

mob

- like 99% of the fandom i headcanon him as autistic

-also headcanon him having osdd

- has chronic headaches

-has asthma

-there was something else but i forgot

ritsu

-also autistic

-has migraines (specifically vestibular migraines)

-has ocd

reigen

-dude definitely has chronic pain

-partially deaf

-uses compression sleeves

-probably has carpal tunnel

serizawa

-his back is DEFINITELY fucked up(he has scoliosis, just like me fr) it makes him walk a little off but its not really noticeable unless u were to pay close attention

-autistic and has an anxiety disorder

thought i had more 4 him but i dont :’]

teru

this kid probably hasnt gone to the doctor since he was like 9 he definitely has undiagnosed health issues

-has chronic pain and fatigue (this gets worse as he gets older and eventually starts using mobility aids in his 20s)

-audhd

-is probably immunocompromised

-vision is probably messed up

there was smth else but i forgot

-I FORGOT HE HAS SCOLIOSIS TOO(i love giving my favorite characters scoliosis <3)

-has bpd

tome

-audhd

-messed up her leg when she was younger and it didnt heal properly so she has a slight limp, is going to physical therapy for this

shou

-adhd

-dyslexic

i suprisingly dont have a lot 4 him

im pretty sure i have more but i can’t remember

ill update this if i remember any more

[goldendoodlerlockerlove]

Character asks: Gene!

Thank you so much, Nikki!! 🥹❣️

First impression: I feel as if my first impression of Gene was just... very normal, haha. I was incredibly normal about my favorite guy at first (blasphemous, I know). But overtime, he grew on me so much. I remember the exact moment when he did, too. It was during the episode Best Burger, specifically the moment where he's running to get the black garlic to Bob. That was the moment I became 🥺 for Gene. Ever since then, he has become my favorite.

Impression now: I love him so flipping much. He has so much depth to him. He's so sweet, has so much love in his heart, and is a great musician. What more could you ask for in a character??

Favorite moment: Probably the moment I mentioned before when he was getting the Black Garlic to Bob. There was just something about the way he apologized to Bob that almost made me cry. I wanted to run up and hug him so bad and tell him he's not a screw-up and doing so well.

Idea for a story: I would love to write a story where he struggles with school, or just some other task because of undiagnosed ADHD. It makes him feel inadequate, but he's assured by everyone that he's doing the best he can and that he shouldn't be too hard on himself. Preferably by Bob.

Unpopular opinion: I don't know if this is exactly an unpopular opinion, but he is not annoying. At least not all of the time. Besides, he's an eleven-year-old boy, what did you expect?? He adds so much to the show that a lot of people don't even give him credit for. Saying he should be killed off is absolutely insane. He's so sweet, what did he ever do to these people on Reddit?? Okay, got a little off-track there, but still.

Favorite relationship: Not sure if this means romantic or platonic, but for platonic, it's definitely his father/son relationship with Bob. It's always so sweet to see, because Bob is so dang protective of Gene, in ways that aren't always obvious. I adore him putting Gene's needs over his own by taking Gene outside in The Laser-Inth. Or when they went trapeze-ing together in V For Valentine-Detta and he was there to calm Gene down when Gene was freaking out. Side note, Bob is actually great at helping Gene manage anxiety, it's so adorable to see.

Favorite headcanon: @drawthethingdoppelganger actually came up with this one!! She came up with this super adorable headcanon that Gene wrote a song about the mole on Bob's back, but it just shows how much he loves Bob❣️

[ddwcaph-game]

Four New Traits!

Update: I've received some feedback and decided to reconsider adding the new traits. Check out this post for more information!

I'm not completely sure yet how these traits will work, but since this'll probably be the last ones I'll add in Volume 1, I've decided to add them in the next update and get some feedback sooner rather than later. They are:

💫 [Easily Distractable]

⚡ [Hyperactive!]

😳 [Socially Awkward]

🎒 [Super Organized]

A couple of years ago, someone pointed out to me that some of the MC's choices/thoughts have elements of anxiety/autism/ADHD and asked if this was the case. This was mostly unintentional on my part, and since it's an unfamiliar and sensitive subject, I thought it'd be best to not have an explicit choice for it, but fine if people wanted to headcanon it.

I wanted to give it a shot just like I did with the gender stuff (which was enlightening for both me and my characters), especially because having a young MC gives me a unique point of view to explore them. So I thought about it some more, and I think I found a way to make it work without adding a lot of extra workload.

I know that it's a spectrum and there's no strict definition or a single correct way of presenting them, so instead I separated it into different traits that doesn't directly state that the MC is neurodivergent. Writing in first person makes it hard to account for in every variation in every choice, so I'm keeping it somewhat vague and hopefully this gives the flexibility that MC may be either undiagnosed, or just has those traits.

This is a bit long, so I'll go a little bit into detail how I plan to implement the traits below:

⚡ [Hyperactive!]: (+20% Silly, Doubles [Well-Rested] Stat Bonuses)

You can select this trait at the beginning of Chapter 1, where you choose how to react to the bell ringing. The choice is:

Finally! Sitting inside the classroom for hours is torture. Some people say I'm hyperactive—but I don't understand how some people can just sit around all day.

This will probably restrict most passive choices where you decide not to do anything, and add new flavor text when the MC isn't doing much.

💫 [Easily Distractable]: (+10% Bonus EXP, -10% Knowledge)

You can select this trait when looking at the Top 10 Students list while cleaning the classroom. The choice is:

It'd be nice to see my name up there with Wayne sometime. Understanding the lessons isn't that hard, but focusing on exams, assignments, studying—that's what's really hard. Wayne also struggles with not getting distracted, but he always knows how to keep me engaged when there's something more interesting than what we're studying.

This is a permanent version of the [Needs Improvement] Passive, with Wayne being MC's study buddy instead of JM. I hope the comparison with Wayne here is okay—I want to frame it in a positive light but I'm not sure if this is the best way. (The text after the choice mentions that if Wayne can do it, then MC can do it as well.)

In addition, the trait will also provide some unique flavor text and variations in certain scenes (especially long conversations).

😳 [Socially Awkward]: (+30% Introvert, +30% Reserved)

You can select this trait during Roselyna's introduction after she first hugs you. The choice is:

I stutter. What if I say something wrong? What if I misunderstood what she's saying—or she misunderstands me? Am I overthinking again? I don't wanna repeat myself over and over trying to explain.

MC's mostly comfortable around their friends, so I imagine this will mostly manifest in emotional scenes, when you meet a new person, when you discover a secret, interacting with B, or when MC has the choice of not being sure what to say (excluding their twin), and automatically default to that choice (with slightly different dialogue) if it makes sense. It would be exhausting to read if this affected every conversation.

🎒 [Super Organized]

You can select this trait along with the other organizational traits when packing your bag in Chapter 1. The choice is:

...and meticulously arrange my belongings/stuff by proper label and color. My bag is super organized, and it helps me focus this way.

Not much to say here, it's just a slightly different version of the [Organized] Trait.

***

This is very much new to me, so please let me know your thoughts, or if you have any concerns with the trait names, the wording of the choices, or something else. I'm not entirely sure I'm making sense here either. 😅

Anyway, I hope the start of the new year is treating you all nicely!

[sillybillycanadian]

TW: depression, sui ideation, the big sad, etc etc

I hate schoolwork. It’s petty, it’s silly, it’s beneath me, but I am so fed up with it. I am 20 years old and I haven’t graduated high school. There are so many good messages on here about not needing to meet any artificial timetable. That we can do things in our own time. But holy crap guys I’ve been stagnating for so long. I’ve been fighting an uphill battle with this part of high school for three years now.

I started homeschooling halfway through Grade 10. I have self-guided courses that I can do on my own time which still earn me credits to go towards my high school diploma. When I started, I was working at a pace that (if maintained) would have let me graduate a year early. I was masking ADHD, anxiety, and depression so all of that slowly leaked out. I was procrastinating, oversleeping some days then under-sleeping others. I developed an unhealthy habit of eating when I felt bored and like I needed a distraction. Some life things happened like my mom getting cancer (she’s alive and well, but her neutral state of “healthy” will never be the same) and my dad kicking out the three of us (mom, brother, and me) for a while because my dad and brother had a fight.

Those nights were the closest I got to killing myself. We had nothing but the clothes on our backs and some cash we were able to use for a hotel. He did this to his immunocompromised wife during the height of the pandemic. He didn’t care. Even when we were let back in the house (because we threatened to involve the police) he didn’t speak to us for days. I was hardly eating. A family friend talked to all of us over Zoom and referred to my dad’s doings as a “hiccup”. I want to be a forgiving person. I like to think that everyone deserves a second chance. But I can’t say honestly that I’ve forgiven my father. I don’t think I’ve even forgiven the family friend for calling it a “hiccup”. He probably didn’t even know the whole situation, but it stung so bad. And I hugged my father that day. As if it was fine. As if he doesn’t still scare me and I lose the air in my lungs when he stands behind me.

Ever since then my life has been derailed. In the summer of 2020 I started treatment for depression and anxiety. The summer I should have graduated. Some time in 2021 I was diagnosed with ADHD twice because the first person to do it never kept proper records and then left the hospital she was working at. So it was as if my diagnosis never happened. So 6 months after the first time, the second diagnosis finally happened. I’m on medication for it now. I thought it was helping, but I’ve been so useless again for months now and with no changes in meds to explain it. I also might have undiagnosed autism, which really stings because I was neglected when I was younger and the excuse was that my brother needed the attention since he’s autistic. Anyway. I don’t have the energy to shower regularly. I hate needing to make food for myself. I literally have two courses left then I’m done high school for good. 5 basic-ass assignments then it’s over. But instead I watch YouTube and try to make stupid music on my laptop to get a tiny hit of dopamine. I search “help” and sort by latest on Tumblr to see if there is anyone I can comfort or cheer up. Is it actually altruism? Or am I just so starved for attention and validation and companionship that I try to please anyone I can? Do I try to help others because I may as well since I’m the only person I can’t come through for?

With all of this, I have friends who are pressuring me to move out very very quickly. They know how much living at home is making me hurt and ache so I know they’re coming from a good place. But I can hardly take care of my own health and hygiene, how they hell do they expect I can take care of a home and hold a job?

That’s why I don’t just hate schoolwork. I definitely do, but that’s not all of it. I hate schoolwork because it’s a testament to just how stuck I am in life. In this one place. Writing a few sentences to an essay each day if I’m lucky. I hate it. I just hate it so much.

One of those friends. We like each other. So so much. We want a future together. Her and I. But she is one of the ones trying to rush me. I know we both want me to be in a good place before starting a relationship. But she also doesn’t want to be in limbo forever while I work out my issues. So it’s like an ultimatum. At this rate I need to move out in the next month or two or I’m gonna lose her for good, it seems. That’s as far as one of our mutual friends of the group knows. So now I have another point of pressure to get my act together before things crash and burn even more. But it had the opposite effect because I feel lost and stuck and like I can’t do anything.

This is just to vent. Cause idk what else to do than rant and maybe just maybe I’ll stop being a piece of trash. God. I hate myself so much rn. I’m such a stupid worthless prick. Dammit.

[transboysokka]

One brother two years younger than me works remotely and never leaves his house which he owns (he’s always been the naturally luckiest of all of himself like the salaried he’s been living off of without a college degree are insane) but never takes care of bc he has terrible depression and lives alone. Actually he lost his job in like august and has been just living off credit cards since then bc he’s off his meds and too depressed to apply for a single new job. He’s about to lose his house. He lives so close to the whole family but never sees or talks to them. He was bullied a lot in terrible ways as a kid and our dad was not supportive at all and he’s kind of alienated himself from the whole family because of that? I relate to him the most bc if I hadn’t left the country I’d be in his exact situation right now, I’m positive

My sister is like 4 years younger than me. She’s doing great right now, she’s the GM of the biggest weed dispensary in town with another promotion not that far down the line I’m sure. She’s looking to buy a house soon but has always been so much better than me financially. Our dad always treated her the worst because she’s a girl and she really never deserved any of it. She had a huge drug problem in her teens and actually lost her best friend when she ODed in front of her. She’s always had a hard time with anxiety and depression and undiagnosed ADHD and definitely something else but seeing THAT obviously messed her up a whole lot more so she’s very. Here and there.

My next brother is about to be 20. The youngest two were adopted internationally. He was 5 when he came home out of an incredibly neglectful and abusive situation. He’s got all sorts of scars and while he (honestly luckily) doesn’t seem to remember that part of his life he still had the ROUGHEST time growing up dealing with that trauma. The rest of our family was absolutely not equipped for it honestly. RAD and BPD and a dad who just up and went “fuck it, this is too hard for me, I’m out” didn’t help either. This kid was sneaking out of the house and stealing shit and drinking and doing drugs well before 10 and there were probably way better things to do for the boy with abandonment issues than to send him to the mental hospital and to live with his dad but honestly it was tricky because he kept physically hurting and threatening to kill the rest of us. This poor boy. I loved him the best I could and gave him as normal of a childhood as I could have. He never finished high school and can’t hold down a job and last I heard of him he just got his drivers license suspended which honestly I think is the best move for him

The youngest brother is about to go into his last semester of high school and might even go to college! He’s a lot more wild than the average teenager but he’s doing okay. He literally thinks he’s invincible and doesn’t value his life, but that’s just teenager stuff right?? He’s a big shot on the schools varsity football team and is keeping his grades up. Childhood wasn’t easy for him either because he had to see allllll of us and our own issues and he was the next brother’s favorite punching bag. But he was too young leaving Guatemala to remember his life there so that, while tragic, is also great for trauma reasons. He lives with my mom which is also best and was quite young when the next brother up got sent away which I think really saved him. He’s always been very much influenced by those bad choices and his brother is more than happy to let him be his scapegoat. He’s actually kind of gullible and it’s clear he does have his own issues to deal with, especially around my dad who has WAY too many issues to talk about but my brother pretty much believes all of the terrible lies he tells about my mom so. Not great. That all gets very complicated but yeah he’s still the most normal of us so far so here’s hoping….

[atowncalledher]

Hey Everybody! I'm Noelle, the host (mostly) of our system. I'll probably be the one posting most of the time. We are definitely plural, but honestly idk if we have OSDD or DID or what, and idk that we'll ever get a diagnosis of anything. Undiagnosed autism, ADHD, OSDD/DID, Anxiety, and probably other things too lmao. I run this bitch like a freight train made of cardboard and duct tape nothing bad can ever happen to me.

Anyway rn we got

Noelle - She/Her. That's ME!! Transgender, gay AF, self destructive in the amount that she cares about other people.

Taylor/Sky - She/They. Also a lesbian. Court Has affectionately dubbed her a Hallmark lesbian looking mf.

Courtney/Court - She/They. Bi? The goth teenager we never got to be lol.

Saai - He/They transmasc nonbinary. Just a little guy, likes to be wrapped up in blankets like a little burrito. They like boys.

Leo - He/They cis guy. Bi. His voice goes SO DEEP wtf

Tau - He/Him. His name isn't Tau, it sounds like if you layer the Tau (pronounced like Tah - O) with the word Mile. But I can't make that sound with my mouth and idk how to write that out? I can kind of say it in our head but like. idk dude. So we're just calling him Tau for now.

Savannah/Star - They/Them nonbinary. They showed up like one time and insulted me a little and completely fucked off? WHERE'D YOU GO!?

And others that we're not going to talk about for privacy and safety reasons!

We've only known we were a system for like a month, so this is all very fluid still. We've had alters like split and fuse already so this will probably change lol. Also probably won't be tagging all our posts with who said what. Honestly we don't even know half the time.

Our primary creative outlet is music, so that will undoubtedly show up here. We also like writing and we want to get better at drawing, so we'll also probably be posting that too. And of course oversharing about random things that no one really cares about. That's what Tumblr is for, right?

[artflameball]

Presenting: my OCs!

Raven, Skylar, Myra, Jasmine, Carissa, and Vlad!

More info under the cut.

(PLEASE reblog art and add comments about it, and don't like it! Reblogging is the only way artists like me can grow, and comments are what gives us validation, which helps boost confidence in art skills!)

So ages ago, I tried starting a roleplay with these OCs with barely a story in mind. It failed, obviously, but I did make designs with picrew for them. I've been thinking about them again lately, so I decided to remake them. I'll probably make a blog focused on them, but maybe not. Who knows. You guys can send asks about them here too, that'd work too.

So, let's go down the list and show these characters!

Raven

Sexuality: Lesbian

Gender: Feminine-presenting demigirl

Age: Early mid-twenties

Goes nonverbal when stressed

Forgetful

Black-and-white morality

Himbo energy

Takes being wrong hard

The main character! Stubborn as hell, a big adrenaline junkie, and DEFINITELY undiagnosed ADHD, this somewhat forgetful adventurer's biggest visible weakness is her social anxiety and lack of self care. Her thirst for danger can get her into trouble, and she can get WAY in over her head, but she's always been a fast healer, so she keeps going, scars be damned. Hell, they're a bit like badges for her! She gets to run from the bad people, and gets a cool scar? Why wouldn't you wanna do that? Who cares about getting hurt? She heals.

She woke up four years ago. She didn't know who she was. She still doesn't.

Skylar

Sexuality: Queer ace

Gender: Genderfluid, presentation depends on mood

Age: Mid-twenties

Easily overwhelmed

Can overthink

Raven's best friend! Cheerful, bubbly, and happy, Skylar is a confident social butterfly who's kind to everyone not her. She's loving and sweet, always having comfort food she made herself to share with her friends. But don't mistake that for naivety - she's excellent at reading people, and she keeps Raven from getting herself hurt on a lot of her adventures. She's protective of Raven. Very protective.

She can't lose her. Not again. She wouldn't be able to handle that.

Myra

Sexuality: Not straight

Gender: Cis woman, neutral presenting

Age: Centuries old

Powerful elf

Ah, Myra. The powerful, mysterious elf. Barely willing to talk to anyone, an unstoppable force, a powerful elf, a liar liar LIAR. She's withdrawn, clever, a tad selfish, and whenever she's with Raven and Skylar, she leads them with grace. The way she holds herself is almost regal, and the respect she commands with her mere presence doubly so. She's closed off and cold, yet will do what is right.

She misses her old love so much, she barely sees what she herself has turned into.

Jasmine

Sexuality: Not straight

Gender:

Age: Early forties

Main villain

Has killed people who get in their way

Started the fucking main conflict (a war)

God. Jasmine. What is there to say about them? They're strong and confident, cold and regal, calm and collected, and full of pure villainous panache. They're incredible in a fight, second to one. They're out to get as much power as they can, but they treat all their schemes like games. They toy with the main trio, not letting them die because that'd be boring.

There's a spot of warmth when it comes to their right-hand girl. As if they'd admit it.

Carissa

Sexuality: Queer

Gender: Come back later

Age: Early mid-twenties

I made her first she's my favorite tbh

Six feet tall

My bestie is in love with her and I don't blame him she looks like a goddess imo

Carissa. God. Confident, strong, a polar opposite to Jasmine in every way, and yet their closest confidant. She's flirty, though they're TERRIBLE at handling being flirted with, and she's easily flustered. She always wears a strange amulet and if you fucking touch it she'll RIP YOU APART She's a very emotional person, letting them run her most of the time, and is distracted easily by little things.

She's confused, stunned, on the verge of breaking down. Ghosts aren't real, she knows that. Yet whenever she faces the main trio, she sees one of flesh and blood.

Vlad

Sexuality: Omni

Gender: Surprisingly, a cis man (though very gnc)

Age: Mid twenties

I designed him to murder my friend and fucking succeeded

He's a demon btw

Vlad is a loner with a HUGE crush on Carissa. They flirt with each other, he allies with her often, but he classifies himself as neutral. He's a badass with demon powers and the ability to summon wings i was too lazy to draw. Despite his outward experience as a bad boy, he's quite respectful, always asking for boundaries, stopping when people tell him, and just drinking his respect women juice daily.

He can be perfect if he tries. It's possible. He can be perfect. If he's not... Who cares? He may as well not matter.

[melinoegoddessofghosts]

I grew up with ADHD that went undiagnosed until I was 16 and it messed me up. I still have an anxiety response to the phrase, "Just focus." And my worst fear is that I'm going to miss the signs of mental illness in my (probably adopted) child.

The thing that is helping me somewhat get over that fear is that I'm planning on prioritizing things that help everyone's mental health, regardless of diagnosis or disorder.

When I was a kid, one of the hardest things was sitting in the living room working on math until 10:30 at night EVERY night. If I see my kid struggling with something for that long, I plan on telling them, "Hey, why don't you get up and get a snack or watch a video or dance around for a few minutes. You've been working on that for so long, you probably can't even think about it anymore. You've earned a break." Now, as an adult, I take breaks every 10-15 minutes and I finish much faster overall.

If my kid keeps losing their homework, I'm going to help them come up with a color code so that their books and folders, and binders match. That way, all homework has a designated place. As an adult, every aspect of my life is color-coded or delineated in some way.

If my child has trouble speaking up in class, we're going to talk about what anxiety is, how it affects the brain, and some coping mechanisms they can try. I'm still working through my social anxiety, and I wish I had been given coping mechanisms earlier.

My parents are great, and to their credit, they tried to get me diagnosed multiple times, before a psychiatrist finally said, "Okay, yeah, she's old enough that we can say for certain this is definitely ADHD and not just laziness." So my late diagnosis is not my parents' fault. But I wish I had been told more often that it wasn't my fault that school wasn't as easy for me as it was for my classmates. And I wish I hadn't been asked "Why is this so hard for you?!" all the time, because I never had the answer.

[magnum-schlong]

TELL ME ABOUT UR OCS 👹👹👹 ALL. I CANT FIND A BEGINNING DATE FOR THEM IN THIS BLOG BUT I WANNA KNOW.

AAAAAA OK SO. First thing to say is that in universe they are all probably boring motherfuckers. just guys being dudes. second theyve only been a thing since Last january so theyre not that old!!

It started with Brad (blue) and Chad (red) who literslly just started as a joke about how Jocks and "the boys" can be so homophobic and gay at the same time? the kind of, "no homo, its ok bro you have socks on" kimda thing? and then we got attatched so now theyre OCs lmao

Then during online school I made a collection of "as vines", but very quickly realised that it wouldnt be very interesting with only the two of them. so we popped in a third wheel: Jake (Yellow)!!! his original idea was just to be the only one with a brain and to have mental crashes every few weeks but he quickly gave up on being the voice of reason? now he mostly just goes along with it while making 7 sex jokes/minute. hes hypersexual what can i say he also probably has a piss kink but what do i know

None of them have any sort of a good relationship with their parents: Chads were masculinity Junkies; Brads were helicopter parents and Jakes were Very religious and pushy

this kinda made Chad angry at everything (mostly jake) all the time, Brad quiet (and also probably the one with the least discernable personality), and jake a whore (affectionate)

The general idea of this was that Brad and Chad scraped together some money for an apartment where Jake just kind of walked in and claimed the couch as his. so they live together now, early twenties. I like to think Jake works at a subway but we have not confirmed this. He kind of slips in and out of polyamory with them, at some point B & C have a small little wedding and Jake is not that commital. sometimes hes the secret third member sometimes hes their boy best friend

And thennnn we were like "lmao what if we made a medieval fantasy AU" so we did, and also introduced the girls (TM). Mori (orange) and Vivere (green) who are also together bc it is out universe and we do what we want. Moris a 6'4, colourblind, partially deaf pirate whos super cool and I love her. she definitely became the voice of reason but isnt very good at it usually. Vivere could very easily be the voice of reason but decides not to; she watches (and encourages) Jake's chaos while eating popcorn and waiting. we also threw in a wyvern. his name is Egg.

this AU was later basically made into an In universe DnD game because theyre all just like that.

Brad and Chad way later in the future adopt twin girls and get a house, and Jake comes with them, but thats yesrs ahead so no need to worry about that.

Jake also has an anxiety service dog (that we definitely need to do research for but havent yet, oops) called Fella bc he thinks its funny.

annnd i think thats all you need to know to understand the memes??? i might rb this later and Raya can add if she wants. ill make a key lmao

Brad

6'0, probably a sagittarius, the biggest simp ever, kicking his legs in the air while twirling the telephone cord simp, almost always wearing a blue jumper in the redraws, emotional mess but he has man boobies

Chad

5'4 (we think its funny), unchecked anger issues, dyslexic, either wearing a large jumper or red t shirt, curtains :/, possibly the only normal human when in public, pretends he hates jake but eh

Jake (theres no yellow :[)

5'9, Undiagnosed ADHD, always wearing a wife beater, ass shorts, and snapback, would tell you to do heinous things but cry when you say "i dont hate you", he reminds me a lot of bo burnham. take that as you will

Mori

6'4, shes wearing a pirste hat you cant miss her, this makes her hard to draw but its ok, shes very pretty and i like her a lot, ginger :/

Vivere

5'7, Long hair and usually wearing a dress, chaotic neutral, pisces

[spacegoatart]

OK so I think I’m finally happy with Jims friend group designs, it took so long lmao but now I can make funny comics with them

heres what I wrote cuz my handwriting is pretty messy, in order (its long so im putting it under a read more)

[]=elaborating notes

Stevie: anxiety, aspergers (slight), needs glasses, she/he/they doesn’t care for gender, bisexual

-shortest [of the group]

-wiz-kid, did special programs [didn’t mean to do the stereotype of ‘autistic kid loves math’, they’d like math even if he wasn’t mentally ill lol] [also this is the friend who gets Jim into math n stuff]

-hell of a sharpshooter [the group is either training or in a class together and Jim is like “hey Stevie you should try this” and hands them a laser gun, just to see. Stevie is skeptic, “yeah sure, but I’ve never shot a gun so I’m probably not good at it” she shoots and its a bullseye. everyone’s like :0, they try again and its another bullseye. after that he gets put in actual training]

-caffeine addict (space redbull)

-gamer [definitely the greasy kind xD but its ok, they shower and everyone still loves her]

Maiden [I couldn’t decide on a name and then Iron Maiden popped into my mind, it seemed to fit so it stuck]: aro[mantic, I think I’m gonna change this to asexual, I have a plot in mind that wouldn’t make this work, but I still like the idea of it being aro plus I realize I don’t feel comfortable discussing these characters sexualities, all of them are minors Dx], lesbian, ADHD [Jim and Maiden are very similar for a reason, they bond over it and become like siblings] it/she

-the rebel, the outcast, secretly really nice [but it’d never let anyone know that xD]

-so tall [the tallest of the friend group, avrg height for its species]

-humanoid, not human [originally the only alien but that felt weird, there’s clearly a lot of aliens in the film so why wouldn’t Jim make friends with aliens?]

-Silver helps them, daddy issues lol [Silver and Maiden don’t bond as much as Jim and Silver did but I like the idea that Silver keeps accidentally adopting misfits, he cant help it lmao all the kids love him and sarah]

-[didn’t write this down but its important to Maidens story, it has a military dad who was gone a lot as a kid, hence the military garb. either its dad dies or is still gone, which cause behavioral issues of course. this is also a point that him and Maiden bond over and they sit out on the roof and talk it through, there’s definitely a hug moment. lots of angst :)]

-tail (balance :D)

Anthony “Ant”: he/they, gay, BPD (undiagnosed)

-built asf (wrestled and worked in his dads junkyard) [a little less buff now, but still very strong since he works in the mechanics department]

-realized they loved building, joined mechanics course [haha another bonding moment with Jim]

-clever asf, very inventive [ok he may be inventive but they’re an airhead sometimes, this dude got no common sense] [oh hes a himbo]

-[id also like to mention that he doesn’t know what a bee is and everyone else loses their minds, eventually Stevie finds an image of one and then Ant proceeds to lose it too]

that was a lot but I think its good, wanna get all my notes down

ill have some more stuff done in the next few days, I just wanna lay down the groundwork for their friendship then ill probably do some more Silver stuff, overall I got ideas :D oh also I’ve been making a loose playlist based on what i think Jim would listen too, lemme know if ya’ll wanna hear it

[toytricks]

is that RILEY MATTHEWS from GIRL MEETS WORLD? looks a lot like HAILEE STEINFELD. SHE/HER is TWENTY-ONE YEARS OLD and lives in GREENWICH VILLAGE. flower crowns, always offering a helping hand, seeing the best in everyone but yourself and teddy bears remind me of them. 

hi everyone ! my name is diana & i’m so excited to play riley matthews in this rp ! i’ve played her a few times in multifandom roleplays and occasionally on my indie so i’m very happy to play her again. i’ll put a little list of bullet points about basic things to know about her / some canon divergences from riley matthews on gmw !

she’s pansexual 

she’s depressed

that’s it that’s the intro ( just kidding but not really )

basically, riley is the kind of person who needs to always be doing something in order to distract herself

she probably has a little bit of undiagnosed adhd

she definitely has anxiety

her main personality traits are: goofy, benevolent, optimistic, insecure, dependent, selfless, self-critical, gullible

she has a huge underlying fear that whatever she does isn’t enough, i kind of have an idea / headcanon this is somewhat because of how her mother treats her ( bmw topanga would beat gmw topanga up for how she treated riley in gmw this is the hill i will die on ) 

she basically tries to fix everything & everyone in her life partly because that’s just who she is and she wants to help everyone as much as she can but she also does it so she doesn’t have to focus on herself and the fact that she’s broken even though she doesn’t want to admit it

she has so much guilt over being sad & depressed like sooooo much

some songs that describe her ( taken directly from my playlist entitlted these songs belong to riley matthews and only riley matthews! no i don't take constructive criticism ) : liability by lorde, she used to be mine from waitress, frank d fixer by jason mraz, mirrorball by taylor swift, needy by ariana grande, idontwannabeyouanymore by billie eilish, be ok by ingrid michaelson, never grow up by taylor swift, you’ve got a friend by james taylor, 6/10 by dodie, get it right by lea michele as rachel berry & nothing left by halle kearns.

okay, that’s all i can think of right now !

[kakitysax]

OKAY HERE WE GO IT’S POLYCULE TIME

DARREN

Athletic, gorgeous, huge fucking chad. Adopted from China as a baby, but his parents are white so he doesn’t identify much with being ethnically Chinese. Handsome, so all of his interactions with cute women are kind of tainted by heteronormative socialization. But he has a younger sister (also adopted) who he adores, so he’s not a dick and he does respect women. Kind of a bystander, will participate in mild bullying with his friends. He assumes all his friends are as naturally nice as he is, so he tends to obliviously go along with shit that’s actually a little mean out of this weird belief that nothing done without mean intent can be hurtful.  Puts a lot of positive energy into his jock friend group, but has a general obliviousness/attitude of entitlement that makes him a bit of a dick.

LEVI

The Bad Boy™.  Impulsive dickwad. Wants hunk energy but he’s too much of a twink. Dad skipped out on the whole “being a dad” thing; raised by a harried single mom who he thinks is a fucking queen and would never intentionally disappoint. Thinks masculinity equals punching people to defend your ego or whatever so he’s quick to fight. Probably skinned his knuckles from punching a wall once. Self-medicates with weed but I don’t know what he’s fucking medicating lol. Lives in a bad part of the town, hangs with a shitty crowd, has definitely committed various petty crimes. Lots of pent-up frustration and shame. Blows off school because he doesn’t see the fucking point. But he respects the FUCK out of women so he has that going for him which is nice.

VALENTINE

Theater/art/band kid. Latina, speaks fluent Spanish. Middle child in a larger family, emo but pretty casual about it. Hates other people in the almost-performative “I don’t like people”  kind of way. Goes through eyeliner like her tía goes through husbands. Unironically wears shirts that say shit like “Black is my Happy Color” and “I’m Fluent in Sarcasm” with black hoodies that have holes in them and dark wash jeans and ratty white sneakers. But the jeans and sneakers also have paint on them because when she’s not busy actively despising humanity she’s super passionate and good at art and music. I’m on the fence with her vibe a little bit, my two choices are “confident goddess who is bitter like a smooth cup of coffee” or “undiagnosed adhd female who covers up her insecurity by being cringe emo and is endearing for it in a shit-eating way.” 

SASHA

Quiet kid paralyzed by social anxiety. Chill parents who support him, but the bullying PTSD is palpable. Probably neurodivergent but not diagnosed*. Was one of the Gifted Kids when he was younger, but when the anxiety kicked in he started getting B’s and C’s instead of the straight-A’s that he literally never had to work for. His grandma was a Russian Immigrant, she and his mom have a turbulent relationship (as in they love each other but are both intense and scream at each other whenever they make eye contact) but it doesn’t extend to him. He learned Russian when he was still in elementary school because he just thought it was so cool that she’s Russian and asked her to teach him. She loves him, she calls him a “gentle soul.” He grows up identifying way too much with the term “gentle soul” and then starts questioning his gender years later. His Grandma supports the gender, too. Has a lot of OCs that he never talks about. People think he’s taking notes in his class but he’s writing fanfic or original stories.

*I specify that he’s not diagnosed because I have a lot of characters who aren’t - I write them with neurodivergence in mind but the characters who talk about it in those terms are the older/luckier/more obvious ones who would have been diagnosed irl (and who live in worlds where there’s like. a system of diagnostics lol)

[couriersiccs]

i finally got diagnosed with ADHD.

it has taken. twenty-five and a half YEARS of my life to understand and achieve.

it was never noticed growing up because no one knew what the fuck ADHD even WAS. it was a little boy who couldn’t sit still and that’s like IT that’s all anyone knew.

it wasn’t me having a stutter because, quoting my mom, “my brain goes too fast for my mouth to keep up.” (that is LITERALLY ADHD.) it wasn’t me being, quoting my dad, “silly-dally Sally” in the morning, getting distracted and taking forever to get ready on time for school. it wasn’t me in 2nd grade loudly saying “i already KNOW THIS” and falling asleep in class. it wasn’t my theater director WATCHING ME SPACE OUT while she talked to me. it wasn’t me lashing out against kids who bullied or teased me. it wasn’t me being the kid that everyone only knew as “quiet” and “nice” and “weird.”

i got good grades, and i had a couple friends, was “conscientious” and a “pleasure to have in class.”

but i didn’t get good grades through conventional methods. i found other ways. i figured out how much homework i needed to do to pass and did ONLY that much. i figured out how to write well, mostly because i loved writing, so i could make an essay SOUND nice even if it was 100% bullshit. i didn’t study - i NEVER fuckin studied. my notes were incomprehensible and usually incomplete. instead, i figured out how teachers wrote the quizzes and tests. i wrote what i thought THEY thought was the right answer. figured out how often they hid answers in previous questions. how they framed the correct multiple choice answer within the wrong ones. memorized facts, didn’t necessarily understand them. didn’t necessarily learn what they were teaching. i relied heavily on hard deadlines for the pressure as motivation, and usually turned shit in late, but not too late too often.

so because “nothing was wrong with me” my mom had certain expectations. and no matter what i did, i couldn’t live up to them. they always felt out of reach. part of me wonders, if i didn’t have ADHD, maybe i could’ve. but she was also an emotionally abusive alcoholic with undiagnosed BPD, so probably not. but still.

so then her fear-based, controlling authoritative parenting style, excessive criticism, and repetitive reminders of what i wasn’t accomplishing for reasons that were beyond me but still definitely my fault, and i GUESS plus being raised a repressed catholic, came the guilt, the depression, the anxiety. which, fueled by ADHD, became negative, shaming, cyclical rumination, which became intense self-loathing and hopelessness that went on for years. and YEARS.

my relationships suffered. my creativity suffered. i suffered, tremendously, and i didn’t even know why. just that i was hurting and the only culprit was myself.

and then i moved out at 19 and realized my mom had abused me. and then i fully accepted that i was gay. and then i had friends who really, truly supported and loved me, watched them grow. i had a teacher who showed me how his life and his work changed dramatically after addressing his mental health as an adult. and i decided that, if i was going to survive, i would need to do the same.

i’m going to start medication after next month’s appt and i’m so excited that it might help and so scared that it won’t because it just seems too good to be true, that everything that’s hindered me thus far will start to fall away and i’ll be able to live the life i want to live. i’m working with my therapist on the trauma front and i’m hoping to pick up new, healthy habits along the way, but it’s terrifying to imagine a future where it all works out and i’m happy and thriving because i’m still just worried it won’t happen because what if it IS just me, maybe it really IS ME, this is how i’ll ALWAYS be, and there’s NOTHING i can do to change that.

and then i hug my dog and breathe and then continue to take it one day at a time. i wanna get better by bleachers plays from the other room. i take a nap and schedule time to write fanfiction and take care of myself in the ways i wish i’d been taken care of before, but i wasn’t, so it has to be done now, and i’m the only one who can do that.

[screechthemighty]

FR Octane is 100% one of those characters where I can see all the building blocks of WHY he behaves the way he does, but also acknowledge that his behavior is...Bad, it’s not great. And guess what, I accidentally wrote an essay about it if anyone cares! (Listen, I paid a lot of money for an arts degree, if I can’t over-analyze everything then that money was wasted, humor me) ETA: also if you’re thinking of dragging me for this post, please read this first and consider not doing that.

 We’re going to be looking at two big aspects of his character for this analysis. One is more subtext than actual text, but since all the evidence is there (and, if how they handled Wattson’s autism is any indication, will likely never be canon regardless of all the evidence) we’re just going to treat it as canon for the sake of argument. The other one is paracanon which, to be fair, isn’t as canon as “evidence actually in the text”, but again, for the sake of argument, we’ll treat it as such.

Fact the first: Octane, most likely, has ADHD. From the way he behaves, I’m assuming it is either undiagnosed OR he was never adequately taught how to manage his symptoms. The most relevant symptoms to this discussion are his seeming overreaction to Lifeline teasing him (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria being a common ADHD symptom), his persistent and VERY canon inability to handle boredom, and his equally persistent and canon poor impulse control (especially related to the boredom but in this case it also goes hand in hand with the previously mentioned RSD).

Fact the second: He grew up in an emotionally neglectful and dysfunctional home--his dad had multiple re-marriages (and lbr, probably was cheating on his current wife with the next wife every single time), he was raised more by an assistant who didn’t care to learn his wants and needs, so on, so forth. IMHO, this fact does explain both his larger than life personality AND manipulative behavior. If he stands out and acts out, he gets the attention he craves. If he’s manipulative, he can actually get what he wants/needs from the uncaring adults in his life. He behaves badly because of childhood trauma.

So, with all of these facts in mind, here’s the sequence of events:

Octane is relegated to a task he considers painfully boring (keeping in mind that boredom is one of the worst sensations for the ADHD brain). He is forced to stay in said task by an authority figure who doesn’t listen to his input about what he’d rather be doing or what tasks he might be better suited for.

On top of that, he is teased by someone he considers a close friend (practically family by his own admission) in a way that a) makes light of the situation he finds uncomfortable and b) compares him to an “accountant”, something that is anathema to what he wants to be. Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria kicks in; the comment becomes genuinely hurtful and not just slightly unfunny but well-meaning ribbing.

His intolerance for boredom says “no, we’re not doing that task anymore, let’s go do the fun thing.” Poor impulse control and no buffer to mitigate the effects of poor impulse control say, “the first thought to pop into my head is right, let’s get that dopamine!”

His manipulative tendencies say, ��If I make a big fuss, do something stupid, and let Ajay know it’s partially because she was mean to me, then she’ll understand that she hurt me and feel bad about it.” Unresolved trauma means that he doesn’t even THINK to communicate that to her, which would be the HEALTHY thing to do but likely not a method that has ever worked for him in childhood. Instead, he leaves an emotionally manipulative letter and peaces out. 

As of right now, we don’t know what the ULTIMATE outcome is (my money is on him getting his ass kicked TBH). But the IMMEDIATE outcome is that Lifeline feels responsible for something that isn’t her fault and now she and Gibraltar are both going to be put at risk of getting hurt. Octane has also put himself in a position where he’ll probably be hurt. This isn’t going to end well, is what I’m getting at.

NOW. Here’s the thing. The two facts I listed up above are not his fault. Him having ADHD? Not his fault. Him not getting the right help he needed as a child? Not his fault. Him growing up in a dysfunctional environment that had a negative impact on his emotional and interpersonal development? DEFINITELY not his fault. Everything about his behavior based on those two facts makes sense, and I’m not gonna sit here and act like he’s a bad person for being a neurodivergent abuse victim.

But, to paraphrase the very smart Jessica “How to ADHD” McCabe, it may not be his fault, but it is his responsibility--in this case “it” being how he treats other people, which is very much within his control. I get WHY he did it, but he IS being an absolute ass to Lifeline for the second time (that we know of), and that IS wrong. He HAS to learn at some point to not be like this. It’s already temporarily lost him a friendship, and it COULD get him or someone else killed this time around. He’s a grown adult, and despite my/the fandom’s jokes, he does have all his brain cells. At some point he’ll have to realize he can’t treat people like this and adjust his behavior.

To be fair to Octane, I completely understand and acknowledge that getting help and admitting to the things clogging up your brainspace is incredibly hard. Trust me, I have firsthand experience with this one, and my problems are small potatoes in comparison to what’s going on with him. So he’s not necessarily a bad person for not having taken those steps, especially because I’m still not sure he REALIZES he has a problem. Now, if he knew that he was hurting people and continued doing so because “that’s just who I am, they’re the ones who are wrong, actually” against all evidence, then that IS him shirking his responsibilities to other people and himself and I could criticize him for that. But I don’t think he’s at that point yet. Right now he just seems oblivious, which, yeah, we’ve all been in that position where you’re oblivious to your problems even as they’re slowly burning your house down (I cringe looking back on childhood me exhibiting early anxiety symptoms that went unchecked until now, when I’m well past college age).

I also think it would be helpful if someone told him in a CONSTRUCTIVE manner that his behavior is worrying and was able to help him get to that place where he can realize that himself and get help (not saying they should bear the majority of the emotional weight, AM saying that he seems like he needs the extra help and that’s valid, all things considered). Unfortunately...pretty much everyone in Apex Legends is their own flavor of messed up and they ARE in the middle of a crisis, so they’re likely either unable to see it or unable to help because y’know, lot going on.

In conclusion: I say none of this to demonize Octane? I say it because a) I think his character is really neat, flaws and all, hence me referring to him as a “problematic icon”, and b) because I think it does a disservice to his character to ignore his flaws. I don’t want him to be turned from a complex character with a lot of neat stuff going on to an uwu tortured sad boy who’s never at fault. I haven’t seen anyone do that YET (everyone seems to love him for being a trash baby and that’s valid), but, y’know, doesn’t hurt to start the conversation preemptively.

(QUICK sidebar that I didn’t think of until I was tagging his: his privilege as a rich child from a rich family definitely is a contributing factor to his behavior and another stumbling block to him getting help for a lot of reasons? I won’t go into all my thoughts on this because that could be its own essay but tl;dr Rich People often don’t believe in consequences as it is and don’t like to admit to being wrong, and some of this definitely wore off on Octane and is exacerbating the rest of it.)

[combat-wombatus]

uHm if you do these and if you want to do it I’d love a bnha matchup <3?

• my name is Aubri, I’m bi but prefer MHA boys tbh. I go by she/her, too.

• I’m a very Gryffindor person. (Sorry if you don’t know Harry Potter - 😖)

• I’m a June cancer, and I have ADHD and anxiety. My anxiety can be literally crippling somedays, but it’s gotten better overtime.

• I’m a bit of a class clown and usually just a clown 🤡 but that’s irrelevant. My teachers all hate me but like school-wise I do well so we have a love and mostly hate relationship 🤧

• I’m usually the ‘entertaining’ friend, in elementary the popular kids would invite me to play games with them because, “you’re funny” and it was like the biggest achievement ever 😭👍🏻 then they’d ignore me but that’s another therapy session

• I’m usually made fun of by people for being ‘weird’ and ‘insane’. Like all through elementary everyone thought I’d be a criminal when I grew up JUST BECAUSE I HAD UNDIAGNOSED ADHD - I hate it here 😐🦶🏻

• I’ve always been super into crime stories/true crime (where my anxiety comes from, I’m always worried about a pesky serial killer just killing me. It’s usually being kidnapped tho lmao) so I knew and still know like all these murder facts and sometimes I’d just randomly be like;

“Hey did you know it takes 12 hours and 2 days to dissolve a body in acid?”

or

“If you bury a dead deer over a dead body you buried deep in the ground, when police dogs sniff it and people dig they’ll just think it was the deer and won’t dig any farther.”

• So maybe people had a reason to be scared of me and think I’ll be a criminal someday, i dunno.

• I love love love reading and writing, and also debating. The things I’ve wanted to be when I grow up are basically: Dog shelter worker, actress, FBI agent, politician, and a writer. But usually I just want to do something that makes a positive impact on people. Like i wanted to be an FBI agent to solve crimes for people. I wanted to be a politican so I could actually help a lot of people. The entertainment industry also seemed like a way to make people happy. Idk, but then I decided I couldn’t be a politican at 10 because they were all corrupt and to be one I would have to be too. 😫🤌🏻 we love some good childhood angst

• the only subjects I’ve ever excelled at are ELA and Social Studies aka History, and Math I can’t do to save my life. ELA comes easy for me and I usually don’t have to work that hard and/or get too stressed over it. But I always get the meanest teachers for some reason. For example, one time I did my final essay for like 30% of my grade in 30 minutes the day it was due and I got an A+ 🦟🦗🦟🦗

• Uhhh id describe myself as a pretty loyal friend, I’m a ride or die type of girl. A story from my childhood that summarizes it pretty well is when I was in 2nd grade my friend wet her pants and she didn’t want to go to the nurse for it alone so I peed my pants so I could go with her and she wouldn’t have to be alone. Like, you know, a professional problem solver

• and I have genuinely attacked people for fucking with my friends but don’t snitch pls 🕳🏃‍♀️💨

• But also just anyone, people at my school tend to come to me with their problems for me to either help solve them by reasoning, or just to confront the other person like the bad bleep I am 😈😈

• I also have a huge daydreaming problem, it’s literally maladaptive daydreaming. So paired with my ADHD I don’t get shit done like ever.

• I have really high empathy levels I guess, like I always say hi to everyone I see on the street, especially if they look sad 😔 I’ve done it ever since I was a little kiddo.

• My fashion sense is very much a preppy/alt style. I wear those ripped tights and fishnets, I also have the MOST BIZARRE JEWELRY- like who allowed me to buy the gummy worm glittery earrings, hmmm???????? and those Mary Janes???????

• But I love crew necks and pleated skirts so I always obide by the National “hoes dont get cold” policy 🇺🇸😫🦅

• I wanna move somewhere someday, I don’t want to stay in America for very long

• I can speak Latin, French, and my native language which is English.

• My music taste varies, but my all-time favorite artists who all of their music they’ve ever put out has been my favorites are, Billie Eilish, Melanie Martinez, and Conan Gray.

• I no-joke have a sign in my front yard that says;

In ✍️ this ✍️ house we ✍️ don’t ✍️ worship Jesus ✍️ but instead ✍️ Melanie ✍️ Martinez

• My favorite shows are MHA (duh), The Promised Neverland, and Malcolm in The Middle.

• and I’m not going to tell you what I prefer in a partner, because that ruins the fun 😤

• but I will say I cannot be friends with someone who doesn’t really make me laugh. Like I’m used to doing most of the talking in convos but if you’re just boring I’m sorry it’s nothing personal but no thanks 😐✌🏻

• About my physical appearance, I have fluffy n curly brown hair, but when it’s in the sunlight it looks sort of brown but golden yk?? It’s shoulder length :) I have bleach blonde streaks in the front. I like wearing eyeliner most days, too. I’m pretty average size/ on the skinnier side. Kinda high key inscure abt my body bc I got flat shamed in elementary EVEN THOUGH I HAVE TIDDIES NOW- whatever 😤🙄. I also have crystal type blue eyes, and I do have fairly big eyes. But, like, not weirdly big. A good big. My cheekbones are ALWAYS PRESENT so sometimes I get called a Tim Burton character but it’s cool ig ☠️☠️ oh and I’m kinda short. I’m 5’3, even though my doctor said I’d be 5’7. I feel like I was either tricked by the doctor or someone just stole my destined height while I was asleep. It’s probably cause I didn’t keep an eye out for Selener 👁 😔😔

• I’m a definite night owl, like all of my energy comes at night which really sucks cuz I can’t do much since everyone else is asleep.

• My love language is touch starved so I’ve never figured it out ✌🏻😗🔫

• but I am an attention whore so idk 😏

• I’m a huge introvert with social anxiety. It isn’t as bad as it used to be cuz I used to not be able to like go to restaurants but now I’m much better.

• I’m a huge history person, mostly like sad history LMFAO. Uh but a lot of my hyperfixations have been on history. Some examples are The Roman Empire, Julius Caesar himself, Anne Frank, The Titanic, the Black Plauge, Helen Keller, Marie Curie, Slavery in the US, Joan of Arc, and just a lot more. I always love talking about these things if someone would let me ramble to them but no one ever does 😖 it also got to a point where for all these subjects I’d go to the library and try to find a book on them but usually I’d either have already read it or I’d read it and know all the information.

• I’m super into Greek Mythology, I have 7 books filled with the stories, I’m going to Greece maybe this summer to see it’s history, and named my hamster Aphrodite but we call her Aphie. I also will talk about this forever and ever if you let me.

• My favorite color is yellow, my favorite food is literally nothing I never have an appetite, my favorite planet is Saturn, favorite song is Tag Your It by Melanie Martinez atm but it changes like everyday.

• Music is a huge safe-space for me if I’m feeling down or having a panic attack. It calms me down n is overall my coping mechanism 💃🏻💃🏻

• Biggest fear is spiders, even looking at one gives me a panic attack and I cannot sleep at all for that night, adding to my insomniac ass 🧎🏻‍♂️🏌️‍♀️

• I’m mature for my age, I don’t exactly like hanging around kids my age and I get along better with older crowds.

• i don’t like conventional dates, (I PROMISE IM NOT TRYING TO SOUND ‘QUIRKY’ AHAHA) I kind of like having a best-friend type partner more so dates that aren’t as romantic as like the movies or a fancy restaurant suite me better. My dream date is playing Monopoly on my bedroom floor 🦧

• Also I hate getting gifts. End of story. If someone gets me a gift like awe that’s nice but never again, I’d prefer to get you one. Especially in a romantic partner 😐 i keep a journal of my friends’ interests and hobbies so I can get them the perfect gifts for their bdays and Christmas’s. Been doing this ever since 4th grade.

• Though I don’t have much actual experience with relationships🧍🏻‍♀️

• I’m a huge believer in ‘family isn’t blood, it’s who you make it’ because I have a pretty shitty family life and my childhood has been trash. My friends are my family to me.

• Also if my friends don’t like my romantic partner ✨ GOODBYE ✨. Sorry girlie, bros before hoes 🦨💨

I was going to put more but I’m so so sorry for how LONG AND COMPLICATED THIS IS- idk if this is a autobiography or a matchup at this point 🤦‍♀️ don’t feel pressured to do this and if matchups aren’t open IM SO SO SORRY LMAO uh yeah ilysm 🦎🎂🧃

OMG ASLDFKJHASLKDJH

🥺 i’m so sorry bby but matchups are closed ;-; my 100 follower event was over while ago (i guess i should’ve specified that in the asks i answered LKSAJHFLKJAHDS SORRY IT’S MY BAD) but you sound so cool?? i had a lot of the same hyperfixations interests (heLLO helen keller was badass AF and the roman empire was messed up but still v cool, anne frank was awesome too) i also may or may not have wanted to be a politician when i was younger alskdjfhalkdhj but now i’m just 🧍🏻‍♀️ lost and anyways you’re amazing >.< love u lots and don’t forget to drink water and eat a lil something hehe :p