#she is a GIRL TO ME!!!!!!! and thats objectively true

[cd-006]

i like drawing gonne as a weird nervous freak

[alicentsgf]

working on the basis jackie and shaunas relationship has always been blatantly and very deliberately homoerotic and that they were both silently habouring feelings (which i do), i find the rabbit motif even more interesting.

its been said before but the rabbit motif isnt so much representative of jackie as it is representative of the false version of jackie. her own parents didnt know her, her teammates didnt, even shauna didnt fully know her, etc, but thats not by accident, jackie simply didnt make herself easy to know. the girl looks miserable every time we see her alone in the pilot, but she pulls on a mask for others. for jeff. for shauna. we see her seemingly have a crisis over sleeping with her boyfriend and then she gets in the car with her best friend and buries it all, not letting shauna know shes struggling. starts talking about losing her virginity to him like its no big deal, like its what she wants, when its pretty obvious to both shauna and us as the audience that it isnt.

we later find out from the meat shed conversations that shauna knew about jackie's struggles. deep down she knew, even though they didnt discuss it, she saw jackie was lying about her relationship. but shauna has never been a good communicator and also perhaps was too afraid of upsetting/losing jackie to have an honest conversation with her. and if shauna knew that jackie was hiding things from her, obviously that causes resentment in someone like shauna. shes irrational, reacts to percieved rejection in unhealthy ways, and this is her best friend whos lying to her. something shauna sees as a form of rejection.

the first act of violence we see from shauna in the show is her adult self killing the rabbit. it cuts to this directly after we see her sleeping with jeff in the teen timeline and i dont think its as simple as parralleling two acts against jackie. like maybe its foreshadowing jackies death, aka that shauna sleeping with jeff will ultimately lead to it, but given that we've been shown time and time again how rabbits are mistakenly attributed to jackie, it could be something else instead. if the rabbit is representative of jackies perfect, manicured facade, then having sex with jeff and killing the rabbit are one and the same. shauna gains control. she takes all the power out of jackie's facade by sleeping with jeff. ruining the perfect lie. which makes her actual objective clear —

she hates the fake exterior jackie maintained. her adult self literally murders it. she is desperate for jackie to be truthful with her. to confess. be open and vulnerable. and as if that desire wasnt homoerotically charged enough, their entire conversation about jeff later in season 1 furthers it; jackie saying she should have said i love you back the day before they left, saying she shouldnt have made "him" wait, saying she just wanted it to be perfect, all fits within the circumstances of jackie and shaunas relationship as well. jackie didnt say i love you back thay day, she did make shauna wait (for jackie to be honest with her), she was too fixated on some perfect ideal to share her true feelings with shauna. i think its relevant that another big way the rabbit motif resurfaces is as a mask that melissa wears. like... a literal mask. worn when she tries to kill shauna and cant because she does love shauna, despite how badly she doesnt want to.

and for me the conversation about jeff, jackies struggles, everything about jackies character, if we put it all together, hardly makes any sense at all without accepting that jackie was in love with shauna. like yes it can be explained away, because of course it can, but does any of it actually add to the story? why was it included? if jackie wasnt, there is no obvious reason for the focus on it. why do we see her express her worry that she'll die and someone else will be jeffs first? just so we can see shauna feel guilty? the framing of the scene makes it so obvious this is about far more than that. and then jackie does die and someone else is shaunas first.

shauna is the only one who knew jackie didnt like rabbits. aka shauna was the only one who even came close to knowing the real jackie. but one thing jackie would always put up a facade for with shauna was when she'd talk about jeff. she didnt love him, barely even liked him, and shauna knows that. we see her confusion when jackie says she should have said i love you back.

shauna killing the rabbit then becomes very specifically about her killing that lie. the jeff lie. just like her having sex with him is. she wants control, she wants honesty, she wants an "i love you". she wants the lie jackie was telling her dead, but she also EATS it. she consumes it. accepts it. makes it part of her. never actually confronts jackie on it. eating the rabbit, making her family secretly eat it, as a metaphor for both her and them accepting the lie that their family is based on. a marriage she got into out of "guilt and shame" because she was in love with her best friend and her best friend loved her back and on some subconcious level shauna has always known that and cant face it, didnt dare make jackie face it either. i think any true conscious realisation of it would kill shauna. it honestly might be what eventually kills her. or rather, it might be what she has to face at the end. because if we're talking about things coming "full circle", as things often do in this show, then shaunas story would have to end with jackie and the secrets they kept from each other in that car in the pilot.

[theannoyingmosquitoinyourroom]

i started liveblogging my read in my tags but i ran out of tags so imma continue here but like. read the tags first and then this cuz thats the order. damn i wish i had slots left so that i could tag the reblog w the writing tag as well n stuff. welp, next time ig

anyway moving on from phone-trees

“you may not be my daughter but i still want Maria’s kid to be safe” thats so cute i love you snake man

“for the institution is spell protected” ooh interesting!!!

“admission exams were such a pain in the—“ liz you are 100% correct. also its so fucking cool that you can camouflage!!

okay so if its an anthology im assuming it happens in the same universe? but idk lost of anthologies work differently

if you have more thoughts about the university id be happy to listen im curious to see what kinds of courses there are!!!!!

also im wondering what sort of magical beings are possible in this world. and now thinking of it, i wonder whats up w carlos he seems like a chill dude, i like him

Paternity Test

“I think my dad is a demon.”

“Not unheard of.” Carlos, the exchange demonology student, replied.

Liz frowned.

“I'm serious. My mom never talks about him and now there's this weird… spirit thing, following me.”

“Do you feel hot?”

“What?”

“Hot, angry, headaches, skin reddening?”

“No?”

“No signs of a hellspawn then, you're clear.”

“Come on Carlinhos, help me here, you're the only one from that weird magic uni I know.”

Carlos sighed.

“Okay, tell me what happened.”

“It all started 3 months ago.”

I had just arrived home from school. Mother sent me a message saying she wouldn't be home but lunch was in the fridge. So you can imagine my surprise when I saw Mom in the kitchen, frying rice. (my favorite!)

When she noticed me walking in she turned to me with the brightest smile I ever saw on her face. She rushed me to the table saying I should eat my lunch before going to work. And that's when I started to notice some weird stuff.

First of all, her fried rice didn't taste the same. It wasn't bad, but it didn't taste like mom's fried rice.

Second, she would not eat with me, just… stare. It freaked me out. She kept smiling while looking at me, and when I asked if she was going to eat she said:

“Oh no, human food give me stomach aches.”

She said that with a straight face, I didn't know whether to believe she was joking or not.

Once I finished my food she stood up and gently held me by my shoulders. With tears in her eyes she said:

“My daughter, my beautiful daughter.”

Do I need to say that's not something my mother does regularly? She continued:

“I missed you so much.”

And kissed me on the forehead.

It was at that moment I heard the entrance door being unlocked and the distinct voice of my mother saying:

“I'm back early sweety, did you eat already?”

My “mom” froze.

When my real mom finally reached the kitchen, they stared at each other for a moment.

“You again?!” My real mom yelled, throwing the shopping bags on the floor “I told you to leave us alone! Get away! Go! Go!”

She was slapping my “other mom” in the back and rushing her out of the house. I remember the pitiful look on my other mom’s face, she was silent as she left the house.

When I, rightfully, asked my actual mother what the hell just happened, she said we should talk after my shift, so I went to work. When I got home that day, she simply acted like nothing ever happened! She's gaslighting me to this day!

***

“Oh!” Carlos interrupted “Was it that day? The one you were so tired you thought your hand was turning gray while working the coffee machine?”

“Yeah”

“Hm…” he squinted his eyes at her “Crazy, sorry, go on”

***

And then I started to notice weird stuff happening.

First, suddenly I noticed a strange aura on the snake that always follows me around…

***

“Wait, wait, sorry again, the hell you mean the snake that follows you around? Are there even snakes in this region?! Isn't Ireland a snake free country?”

“Yeah, I didn't notice at first, there were plenty of snakes in my hometown, I hadn't realized they weren't common here.”

“And you were not worried that a specific snake followed you around?”

“It wasn't a venomous one, it's a milk snake, cute, like a pet.”

“Holy Shit.”

“Can I?”

“Yeah sure, go ahead.”

“Okay so…”

***

There was this weird aura around it.

Out of nowhere the snake tried to curl around my leg so I grabbed it gently, I looked at its face and I shit you not — I recognized it! The way its mouth stood… it looked like it was smiling, the same smile my “other mother” had at that time!

No need to say I dropped the snake and ran away.

Three days later my math teacher started acting weird as well. You know, don't you? Mr. Walker hates my guts! But suddenly he was being very nice to me. He wouldn't complain about my lateness anymore nor scold me for sleeping in his class. A sudden change of heart was weird but I wasn't complaining. Until I noticed.

His smile. He would always smile at me, with the same smile.

The same as the other mother. The same as the snake.

I wasn't having it.

After school, I cornered him in the parking lot.

“Who are you and what did you do with Mr. Walker?!”

He looked surprised for a moment.

“What do you mean, Miss Ferreira? I'm Mr. Walker.”

“No, you're not.” I rebuked “Mr. Walker can't pronounce my last name for shit. You're not him. What did you do?”

He smiled. The same sly snake-like grin.

“I believe we should discuss this in a place a bit more… private.”

“I'm not going to your fucking second location, you weirdo.” God knows what he had done to Mr. Walker. I wasn't risking it. I watch true crime documentaries, I'm not dumb.

He looked genuinely hurt. Maybe I was being rude. But fuck politeness.

“Maybe you could… choose a place and time? So we can discuss it properly. I swear your teacher is fine.”

He looked pathetic at this point. I was starting to feel bad.

“Okay…” I said and gave him a place and time.

***

We met at a diner. It wasn't late, I had just gotten off work. The sky was gleaming orange on the horizon, streets busy with workers heading home. It was fine. I was fine. I was not nervous. Not a bit.

I wiped the sweat out off my hands as I waited for him.

He showed up. At the exact time we planned. He had the same big smile on his face, it felt… silly.

“I'm glad you chose a more isolated seat,” he said to me and winked, “Let me show you a trick.”

And then the man wearing Mr. Walker's skin suddenly wasn't anymore.

I'll spare you the details of the transformation, but you know how snakes shed their skin? Yeah. That's what happened.

The new… person in front of me was very pale, although their skin had red and black spots all over, very androgynous also, and very lanky. Their hair and eyes were black as the night sky, I could not see their pupils, but I was sure they were slits and I just knew that if I touched their skin it would be cold and damp. The smile was the same though. It felt… comforting, for some reason.

I was shocked of course. And disgusted. Not by their appearance but the “trick” was nauseating to watch.

They grabbed my hands. As I expected, cold and damp.

“Lizzzzz…” they said “I know this is weird, but it's been 17 years and you need to know the truth.”

My mouth dropped to the floor as he said:

“I am your father.”

***

18 years ago, Maria, my mother was living in the Bahian Caatinga. She lived a simple life. Not so good, not so bad. Her parents wanted her to have a good education, so she went to the capital to study biology in college.

Mother had a special interest. Growing up in the caatinga she was used to seeing and handling a fair share of regional snakes. But what most people thought as just a regular inconvenience was her deepest passion.

She loved snakes and would never let her father kill the ones that sometimes sought shelter in her house. She would always hold them carefully and release them back to the wild, leaving the old man to pout and rant “They'll just keep coming back!”.

And that's cute, right? I'm all for helping the local species but… it caused her to receive some… unusual attention.

Suddenly, — no matter where she went — there would always be a snake around. She didn't notice at first, after all, what are the chances? But it was the same snake every time. A male milk snake, very common in the area but, That's weird… she thought, yet, what could she do? Even if she was superstitious, wouldn't that be a good sign anyways?

She got used to it eventually. And everything was normal. At least until St. John's day.

It was during the June holidays. Her village was going all out for the festivities that year: colorful banderoles from pole to pole, stands of all types in the street, the laughter of the children in their costumes filling the air together with the winter smells of corn, peanut, stews and alcohol brought by the cold breeze, the music never stopped, from the sanfoneiros at the plaza to the home speakers blasting all genres of music.

It was night, but the village shone as if the sun had never set.

It was during the festivities that a strange man, who later claimed to be called Conrado, approached her.

Extending his hand he said:

“Care for a danssssssce?”

Oh, he must be nervous, Mom thought, how adorable. And took his hand.

The dancing leads to flirting, and that leads to kissing, and kissing leads to… well, you know.

He promised to go see her the next day, at the cathedral by morning. She accepted, of course, after all, she had to explain that she had a boyfriend in the city… oopsies. But when she went there… there was no man, only that same snake that always followed her around.

And that was when he realized, and oh boy was she pissed.

Seriously? A snake demon?! A STALKER SNAKE DEMON?!

The snake did its best to be understood, to explain itself. But it could not talk, so I guess it didn't work.

What made Mom angrier was the fact that she didn't get her period the month later… neither the next month, nor the nine months that came after. And then I was born.

Years later, when I was… uh… five? she moved to Ireland — the only place with no snakes she could think of — to further her education, claiming I would also be safer here.

It took a while for “Conrado” to find us, most specifically, me. But he is very happy he did. He's been watching over me ever since.

***

“Wait, you said she had a boyfriend back in the city?” I asked.

“Hm? Yessssssss… I didn't mind though…”

“That means I could also be his daughter.”

He gave me a sad look.

“Yessssss but, I feel you aren't…” He looked even sadder. “But you musssst have notisssssssed, right…? That you are different.”

“No. I didn't.”

Was my skin a little weird? Yes, but I'm a teenager. Do I have some speech impediments related to s and z sounds? Yeah, but lots of people have it too! Was my sense of smell stronger? Yeah, but that's not out of this world. Was I a bit stronger than normal for my build? Yeah, well actually no, y’all are just a bunch of wimps.

He looked at me with the saddest expression I ever saw on a man, he looked… pathetic. Exactly my mom's type, that I can't deny.

“Okay, then…” he sighed, “but if you notice something… anything, you can call me, alright? I'm staying in the woods next to your house, just scream into a tree and I'll find you.”

He was about to leave, but then realized something and turned back to me.

“Also, take this,” he handed me a rock with a hole in the middle “You might not be my daughter, but I still want Maria's kid to be safe.” aw

And he left.

***

“And that’s it.” Liz finished her story with a sigh. “He can’t be my real dad, right? I would have noticed it…”

“Liz,” Carlos said in a deep voice “Did you notice that you didn’t blink a single time in this conversation?”

“What?”

“And that your hands and arms have camouflaged themselves on the table?”

“What?!” Liz looked down and sure thing, the color of her hands was completely changed, blending in with the table. Liz's mouth was on the floor.

“Also, everyone thinks I am enrolled at a regular university, no “weird magic uni”, for the institution is spell protected.”

Liz was flabbergasted “Then how? I…?”

“Only special humans or magical beings are able to know the truth about the university.”

“...”

“You should call your dad.” Carlos said “Also, you're almost finishing high school, right? I think you'll be getting an email soon…’’

“I… don't I need to apply first?’’

“The mystic arts university works differently, it's more like they come for you, no application needed.”

“I… I'll get going.” Liz stumbled.

Needless to say, a certain snake was very happy that evening. And feelings aside, Liz could not help to feel relieved to have a uni waiting for her already, admission exams were such a pain in the—.

[tumblingxelian]

I went and did a lil reviewing and its very interesting to look at Lila's situation regarding Catalyst and there's some fun observations to make in a vacuum.

1: This girls room has tons of masks.

I know that isn't a major thing but given what we know of her its like, "So you just wanna shout that you have a complicated relationship with identity is that it?!"

2: Her mom does work at the embassy

On the surface she seems nice enough if maybe very busy given she says she'll "Try" and be back before dinner. One can take Lila growling once she's gone as directed at Ladybug or her mother, or both.

But the dynamic also feels 'weird' & Lila's clearly used to instantly masking whatever she's actually feeling around her.

Assuming a "No child is born super evil" read, I'd say that either she is like Andre in that she can performatively show affection. But is not actually there for their child when they need it. In this case likely having failed Lila at some major interval that left a deep divide.

Or that she's one of those parents who can seem very nice and reasonable but if angered or offended or disgusted react very, very badly. I'd actually say this one feels the most likely given it would contextualize Lila's deceptive habits very neatly.

3: How much did she know?

The question of if Lila was "In on it" or a willing participant in the scheme is interesting. Cos its obvious she didn't know Gabriel's identity. But more to the point, thats he clearly wasn't even expecting Hawk Moth to come for her given she was surprised.

Like there is no one to be performing for here, that is genuine shock.

However, we all see her smirking after Hawk Moth has the Akuma leave her. But its worth noting she wasn't purified, the Butterfly just left. So while its obviously a headcanon I do feel the shift from shock and panic to stoic confidence is weird enough to thin it could mean more than just Lila is the devil.

Also is it just me or do her eyes seem more lifeless?

We do have Gabriel's dialogue to go off:

Hawk Moth: Fly away, my little akuma and evilize the one who's been waiting your return for so long.

But we've also seen him call Chloe his favorite "Victim" and its not exactly uncommon for people taking advantage of others to frame their victim as a willing participant.

With that in mind!

4: Oh they were 100% grooming Lila, yikes

So, we know from season 3 that Gabriel & Nathalie were fine undermining Chloe's mental health to the point of sabotage, gaslighting and hostage taking.

Thus it is perhaps no surprise they were doing the same with Lila.

Don't believe me? They have literal cameras on a fourteen year old and have clearly been keeping her under observation in their own words, for months!

Nathalie: (Hands Gabriel her tablet) Lila has been harboring her rage against Ladybug for months, and today wherever she looks, she'll see the object of her hatred, and as predicted, her anger will reach devastating heights. Your plan is perfect, sir.

But more pointedly is what is not said, or more, what is talked around, see this exchange:

Lila: (scrolls through laptop) Liar! Traitor! Coward! (comes across an interview with Gabriel Agreste and Nadja Chamack) Gabriel: (on the laptop) In honor of the wonderful Ladybug who has saved my son Adrien and myself, and who relentlessly protects all of us everyday, I have financed this tribute to Ladybug. Because Ladybug is the only true hero unlike her mediocre imitations, such as Volpina. Lila: (screams with rage and throws her laptop against a wall) I hate you, Ladybug!

Cue laptop against wall and then crying on the floor, again there is no one to perform for here, this has to be a genuine reaction.

What stands out to me is Lila's choice of words: Liar! Traitor! Coward!

If she was just angry he praised Ladybug & insulted Volpina these words don't make any sense. But they make a ton of sense if Gabriel or someone representing her contacted Lila about her time as Volpina.

(It does not seem Paris is aware she was an Akuma)

Likely telling her about Heroes' Day or otherwise framing themselves as very interested and impressed with Volpina saving Paris from that meteor. Only so they could have Gabriel twist the knife in on an interview.

Conclusion:

That's just an assumption but if not, why not call Gabriel a jerk and a fool or something, traitor and coward have very specific connotations that don't make sense unless she'd been led to believe Gabriel thought highly of Volpina,

Hell, how would they even know she'd find the interview unless she knew to look for it?

Yes yes, story contrivances, but if we want to base out logic in universe, Nathalie & Gabriel preyed again on an isolated and to one degree or another neglected as well as troubled child. Fed into her many issues, likely helping foster her isolation & resentments, just to betray and humiliate her for the purpose of using her as a weapon.

That is deeply fucked up, especially when you consider that they were spying on her and she has no idea any of this is happening!

All in all, I think its quite reasonable to read Lila as a fourteen year old taken advantage of and steadily warped by adults' who were using her for their own gain as opposed to someone just born evil.

[brummelliana]

Tbh it’s so refreshing seeing someone else who doesn’t idolise Linda McCartney because people get vexed if you don’t idolise her. I have a hot take,if you hate yoko Ono for “ruining the band/separating John from the band” keep that view for Linda aswell like they didn’t ruin the Beatles the Beatles did. Also I read somewhere how she would hate on Jane Asher and she made her cook book out of spite and made Paul cut off people connected to Jane Asher. (Sorry if i write rlly shit I failed English x)

Yes, thank you.

I never claimed to be special for having this opinion, like that other person claimed. I've been in online Beatle spaces since 2020, and I've genuinely hardly, if ever, seen anyone critizise her.

Maybe its because she's dead, or because of the way their relationship is portrayed now, or they genuinely like her, which is well within their right. I just wonder if it's a trend, because I've seen a lot more ship art and hype recently compared to previous years.

That is exactly why I wanted to say something, I feel like the only one who doesn't absolutely adore her, it'll make you feel insane. I believe its my blog, and I should be able to share my opinions without it coming off like a personal attack to someone who likes her.

Its true that she was very possesive over Paul.... buttt thats something I have trouble counting against her. It was Paul. If it were me I'd be borderline abusive with how hard I'd be possesive. Even if he was whipped it was no secret he was a whore for a literal decade.

Its paraphrased, but I remember they were gifted, or Jane's book made it into their house, and she got so mad. She threw it out.

I could be off on the details because of memory, but she was cold to who I think was Denny Laine's wife during the tour? Jojo (JOJO KIMI NO BOUKEN JOJO SONO CHINO SADAME JOOOJOOOOO) had history with Paul, so she did not fuck with her. She wasn't a girl's girl.

The funny thing is I read in a biography that between the two of them, she was the one with the wandering eye. Like girl, it doesn't get better than this, just stick with Paul.

The weed thing was also pretty out of hand. Like she put weed in her child's diaper to try and sneak it into Japan, and frequently would just drive the car of children while stoned.

When they were gifted a copy of "The Love You Make" the biography from the 70s, they burned the book in the backyard without reading it because they assumed it was slander. (Idk, I thought they were pretty fair to Paul in that).

But more than specific instances, its the whole attitude. That she didn't shave, or wore horse boots instead of high heels. She was down to earth and connected to nature instead of the other vapid rich girls she knew. I feel like that's more or a misogynistic viewpoint than anything I've said. That and the insistence that they were just an average standard income family just like you. (They weren't).

There was another instance where their housekeeper, Rose, was led to believe she was attending a day out at the zoo with the family. She got all dressed in her Sunday best, but when she came out to the car, it was her to say like "nooo! What are you doing??! You're not coming! I have work for you to do!!" so Rose spend the day sewing up holes in children's clothes instead. (Again, paraphrased from a biography). There's the argument to be made that yeah, Rose was the help, its her job to do that stuff. But idk, its still a bummer.

Really edgy for her to have a miniature horse in the city of London. I wonder who was cleaning the massive shits it took while she took it on walks. (actually, if anyone has a source that she was the one doing it, I'd respect that fr. Keep britain tidy).  A really good way to poke a hole in any argument I make is that Paul is involved in my critisms, or that Paul is literally worse.

All I can say is that I can no longer be rational or objective about Paul. Over the years I have grappled with all of his horrible traits and actions, and living like that is a net negative. It makes no difference in the world whether I let those thoughts consume me, or whether I am completely unserious and milk enjoyment from him all I can. He's a beautiful muse, silly, cheeky, and his music is okay sometimes too. (At least he's done things to stand on his own, you know. There's a reason he's famous). I think more people would be happier if they lived like me.

It annoys me when she's treated like a goddess and people make comments about Paul being useless and ugly and lesser than her.

This might be a contriversal thing to say also, not to woobify him, but I genuinely believe Paul was really impressionable and immature, and whoever was dating him had a certain amount of influence over his behavior. Not entirely, mind you, but a certain amount. He would act like the big male head of family, and believe himself to be, but deep down he needed a mommywife to tell him what to do. Girl power or whatever.

[dnpanimationstudioclone]

Meet Velvette📱🧶

Meet my take on Velvette! I had LOT OF FUN with this one! She’s reviewing Pentabucks newest drink!(being its top influencer can get you it for free!)

My Velvette’s more involved with social media/advertising/trends rather than owning all of Hell’s fashion indurstry. She’s basically a social marketer/influencer who uses her influence to support and advertise a lot of the overlords and high influence peoples businesses, products and services. She’s def still into fashion, I imagine she has something like a Bergdorf Goodmans, luxury end store and probably collabed with other fashion brands). I also see her own some fo the trendiest resteraunts, clubs, beauty salons, etc. def sewn herself into big brands!

I’ve heard she was suppose to be a doll because her pilot look mouth alluded a bit to stitching and wore frilly clothes.

so I ended up making her a rag doll! Doll’s are very popular to sell, especially to sell additional objects such as fashion, accessories, etc. Basically she sells herself out to the public eye 👁️. There’s also a bit of sewing terms that fits with social media such as “Pinned”, “Threads”, etc.🪡📍

And rag dolls are known for their adaptability(perfect for trend setting Vel)! I styled her outfit as a kinda tweaked modern outfit of Raggedy Anne/Andy’s outfit. The jumper and black booties. Restyled into a more flashy romp jumper and heeled boots 👢 Even made it to her name, VELVET!

Ngl many friends of mine have said she gives off Monster High vibes(I feel like 2000’s cartoons def inspired me). As well as Lalaloopsy!!!!!!! I was also a bit inspired by OG Millie’s outfit(love the double straps).

Put her in two shades of brown for a patchwork vibe! Another thing I’m going for with the rag doll theme is to allude to insecurity. I imagine she came from less glamorous origins. Didn’t have porcelain dolls like Charlie or plastic Barbies like all the other popular and rich girls, but simple rag dolls and stuffies. No matter how hard she tries to be like perfect porcelain or pretty plastic…she’s cursed to be seen as just some raggedy rag doll💔. I also imagine her death had something related to becoming…torn up(I imagine it wasn’t a pretty end)…

For this look, went with bubble braids made from balls of yarn 🧶 She has all kinds of hairstyles, from yarn, cotton, stitch on wigs and even real hair(from scalps of those who got on her nasty side, @a-sterling-rose suggested this). There’s even a type of hairstyle called “yarn braids”.

Wears fake nails 💅. Gel, acrylic, she’s made of cloth so she can adapt to any kind.

Gave her actual ears 👂 (added them on herself).

Clout Glasses 😎.

For her color scheme, @the-burd-lord suggested I'd go with RGB theme, colors on display screen(Vox is the leader and a screen) Ngl I was conflicted what colors to go with for the vees(Primary, Red blue purple etc). But then I realized when u mix those colors u get those other colors and then I decided to give the Vees two main color themes for each. One for show, the other their true colors! Velvette likes to use green, magenta and purple, for a visually pleasing vibe, light green and magenta for sweetness with purple/gold for luxury, but truth she’s a vain, envious clout seeker who has and will do less than ethic things for the likes. The two colors r also a mix of Val and Vox’s colors(uses them, advertises them to advertise herself!)

Played around with a assymetry color vibe for the envy vibe, thats she’s two faced 🎭. Having a deceptive social media personality like Miss Heed(less lovey dovey).

@lovesart23 video on Velvette really helped me consider what to do with her, like her beign Envy theme(she’s a clout chaser afterall). I LOVE her use of purples and greens for her! I also really dig the eye theme which mine in a sense does too. In this case, button eyes.

Added more weight on her a bit, to give off a more rag doll type body(especially with the limbs 🦾🦵)

Gave her black purple eyes with pink and mint button irises. Got Pin eyelashes 🪡📍

Her her a needle/selfie stick. Good for selfies, fashion emergency and stabbing people!

What do u think? I’d love to know💖

I’ve also done the Hazbin Gang, Mimzy, and even her associate, Vox 📺.

[thefrontmanscockwarmer]

Desire (part 1)

Player 001 x Reader📖

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Note: Takes place during Season 1, you were a finalist along with Sang-Woo. In this, Gi-Hun does not exist (protecting cannon and the time line in my other stories).

Tw: blood, death, a scene where reader is fighting their final competitor.

You stood at the summit of the game, knowing the only thing that stood in front of you was nothing but a man, nothing but an object. You didn’t care that he was breathing, living, existing, you were here to win. You wanted money. It was obvious from the very beginning, it was you or them. Your tux was soaked now, as it began raining. Not hesitating, you pulled the knife from your sock.

“You’re that weak you already pulled the knife?” The other player taunted from the outside.

“No” you laughed. “It’s just, it’s you or me. You see, human life means nothing to me. The only one that matters is mine, yours?” You paused, deciding on what words to say. “You’re just a paperweight, keeping my money down so it doesn’t float away, but when I pick up the paperweight, the money flies away.”

“And you think I’m gonna let you just walk away with that money?” He snarls. In Ho watched from beside the VIPs.

“What is going on down there?” One of them asked.

“What is happening on the play field?” In Ho radioed it in.

“Player 456 is going to kill him. Sir, she called him a paperweight” In Ho held in his laughter. Thats my girl he thought. He couldn’t deny, he’d been rooting for you since he saw you, ecstatic when you made it to the finals. You were absolutely gorgeous. You (h/c) hair, your deathly (e/c). You were a true killer at heart, and he knew it. You’d be great for the games.

“Oh shit, she called him a paperweight” one of the VIPs said, following it with a bunch of ‘Ooo’s’ like they were 10 year old kids at the lunch table in the middle of a ‘Yo mama’ battle.

“tell him to turn on the voice feedback, I wanna hear it all. This is interesting” another VIP said. In Ho radioed it in.

“No, I dont think you’re gonna let me walk off with that money, dumbass.” You rolled your eyes. Though, not visible because you were squinting to keep water from getting in your eyes. “That’s why I’m just going to kill you and take it.”

“That’s not playing fair” he said as he pulled his own knife from his pocket.

“No one said this was a fair mans game, Sang Woo” you declare loudly. “This is a game that only the best of the best can survive. Why do you think I’ve made it so far? Because I’m the best”

“Then what does that make me?” He asked closing in on you. An alarm rang in his head as he realized you didn’t back away. Scaring you wasn’t going to work.

“Collateral” you say, taking a quick few steps and taking a swipe at him. Managing to cut his arm. He missed his one opportunity to hit you as you passed him. You stood far from him. In a single instance, he ran towards you, you began running towards him. His arm cocked back told you what he was going to do before he did it, you quickly dropped and slid on the gravel, slicing his ankle, cutting him deeply. Leaving him on the floor. Blood pooling around his injured foot. It wasn’t until you turned that you saw your blood was dripping down your nose, he got your eye. You struggled to see out of your right eye. You were pissed.

“I’m not collateral if you can’t see, (y/n)” he laughed as he tried to stand. Successfully making it to his feet. You wiped blood off your face, ignoring the pain you felt in it.

“That’s true, but you can barely walk. You see, Sang Woo, I know I called you a paperweight, but, you’re less than that. You are nothing more than an incompetent fool. You’re nothing of value anymore, useless. Paperweights have value and use, you have neither.” You tell him as you approach him, ducking his hands as the swiped around trying to slice you. You jammed your knife into his body, helping him kneel before you. His knife dropping to the floor as he reached to his new wound.

“You’re a monster” he told you. You ripped your knife from him. Pulling it back and wiping it on his shirt.

“No, Sang Woo, I’m better than a monster” you said calmly. “I’m a demon” you said slicing his throat. Watching as he rushed his hands up to his neck together. You kicked in his chest, watching him fall back. You turned towards the window where the VIPs watched. You bowed. In Ho bowed back, not that you could see, but he was signifying his respect for you. You truly were made for the games, engineered by the worst of the worst to be the best. You were made for him. The guards declared you the winner, but you already knew that.

“Holy shit! That was crazy!” A VIP said aloud. “She was heartless”

“No, you saw the way she kicked him back as he was trying to hold his head. That was insane” a third one spoke.

“No it was the calling him collateral” another voiced. In Ho silently left the guests to attend to you.

Being ushered to the doctor to close up that wound on your eye, a square walked in just as you were denying an eye patch.

“The Front Man would like to formally congratulate you. Please follow me and join him for dinner and a meeting.” You hopped off of the table and followed him. Snatching the eye patch before disappearing around the corner. You were led into a big black and gold room. A man in black stood in the center.

“(Y/n), I am The Front Man, the boss of the games” he spoke. “I would like to formally congratulate congratulate you on your victory against Sang Woo” he offered his hand, which you took.

“Thank you, sir” he smelt good, like expensive bourbon and leather. His voice was velvety and thick, satisfying your ears. You couldn’t help but wonder what he looked like under those clothes. What did his face look like?

“I’d like to invite you to dinner, as a gesture of my appreciation of you playing the games, and as a token of my being in awe of your performance on the game floor.”

“Will I get clean clothes?” You ask as you remembered yours were still soaked.

“Yes, of course. Black or gold?” he pointed to two long silk dresses that sat on his bed, each accompanied with two different pairs of shoes to wear for each dress.

“What color will you be wearing?” You ask slyly.

“Black.”

“I will wear gold to compliment you as your guest, black heels please” you said.

“Please feel free to use my quarters to get cleaned up. Anything else?”

“Make up”

“Already provided, and everything you may need for your hair.” He said.

Time skip: you stood in front of the mirror, putting on a pair of gold earrings. A gift, rushed onto the island after your victory, along with many things”. He knocked on the door, standing in an all black tux, complete with a gold neck tie.

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[sixosix]

HELLO????????

this divorce arc #2 is pinching me from the inside using rusted moldy tweezers. MAMA AND PAPA ARE FIGHTING😭😭😭😭 we are so back (back to square one ffs)

“Because I lo—” Lyney grits his teeth, and finally, some real emotion—no more tricks, no more lies; his frustration satisfies you—at least until he says, “I like you, okay? You know this.”

I AM NOT OKAY ABSOLUTELY NOT. BRO JUST SAY IT. SAY THE L WORD AND GET MARRIED ALREADY GODDAMNJT1🥹😭😭😭 her vision acting out whenever lyney is involved is so heartbreaking like wdym that even an inanimate object that you own is drawn to him as well☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ her snapping at aether is just mmfmmfmfmgm like yes girl let it all out yeah this all happened bc this blonde majestic man strutted in your life in 7inch heels. i bet when reader walked out of that shop it was dead silent and lyney would probably like "tell me wtf did she meant by that right now, aether or istg"😭😭 GOD they are both so stupid and pathetic i LOVE IT.

ugh i love this series so much ive never done this in any series before (like draw and stuff) and i know theres only 4 chapters left so you better expect me to keep rereading all these in the next 50 years or so HAHHAHSHHSH

have a nice day six!!! i really enjoyed this chapter<333

OH MY LORD 😭😭😭😭 THAT IS BEAUTIFUL. TEARS IN MY EYES WOWW the atmosphere this art has im in awe U captured her gaze so well.. UNRELATED BUT MC’S TOP BEING A LITTLE OPEN,, AND LYNEYS BOW TIE WHAHSHGAHGS SO CUTE I LIVE THEM

RUSTED MOLDY TWEEZERS IS DISGUSTING 😭😭 also i am??? hoping u dont have a cctv in my docs or something cus… ?!?!?!?!? AWWW the inanimate object being drawn to him thats so true

UGHHH AKAGI IM SO HAPPY TO HEAR THATT im endlessly grateful that you discovered my account and i get to be blessed w ur art

[soapcan18]

I’m just gonna post my Ithaca Saga live-reaction rambles here bc I can’t form coherent sentences rn and I need to express my excitement:

The Challenge

PENELOPE OH MY GOD UR VOICE IS SO BEAUTIFUL

SHE KNOWS ABT THE STORM

THE BACKUPS??? HOLYY

WHOEVER CAN STRINGGGG

Am I tripping or is that the horse and the infant motif

PENELOPE UR VOICEEE AHH THE STRENGTH AND THE GENTLENESS AHH

Hold Them Down

Oh my god I’m gonna tweak

It’s about to get DARK

FUCK THE SUITORS!!

ANTINOUS!!!!

OH OH GET IT ANTINOUS

TELEMACHUS ON DIPLOMATIC MISSION I REMEMBER THAT!!!

YOOO THIS IS DARK

BOOONESSS

ONLY THE OCEAN AND I WILL KNOWWW

NO GET AWAY FROM PENELOPE!!!!

ANTINOUS UR A FUCKIN CREEP!!!!!!

KILL THEM AAALLLLLLL

THE VOCALS DEAR LORD

YEAHHHH ODYSSEUS KILL HIS ASS

Odysseus

ODYSSEUS!!!!!!

OH MY GOD JORGEEEE UR VOICEEE

I HEAR U DARE TO TOUCH MY WIFE AND HURT MY BOYYY

I. Have had. Enough.

THE ELECTRIC GUITAR OH MY GODDD

THE SUITORS’ TIME TO SHINE

THE BOW AND SCREAM EFFECT AHHH

WHERE IS HE??? WHERE IS HE???

“You think I don’t know my own palace? I BUILT IT.”

“U destroyed the serpents head” EYY BOOK REFERENCE

NO OPEN ARMS

“No” YOOOO THATS COLDDD THAT’S A POSEIDON REF

I love him just popping in here and then makes us feel like the suitors

“BEHIND YOU”

LEGENDARY MOTIF????

AGHH TELEMACHUS IS HEREEEEE

ATHENA!! OH MY GODDDD ATHENAAA

I HEARD THAT FUCKIN PIANO TRILL

“Ur very presence has doomed the king, young prince. We don’t fight fair!”

WHO IS SINGINNNN

“And he’s made a grave mistaaake”

GET OFF ME!! GET OFF ME!!

HOLD HIM DOWNNN

THE ELECTRICCCC OH MY GODDD HES FULL MONSTER

“Mercy? MERCY? My mercy’s long since drowned. It died to bring me home. And as long as you’re around, my family’s fate is left unknown. You plotted to kill my son. You planned to R### MY WIFE. ALL OF YOU ARE GOING TO DIE.”

THEY SAID THE WORD???

“You filled my heart with hate. All of you who have done me wrong. THIS WILL BE YOUR FATE!”

THE CHOIRRR AHHH ITS BEEN A NO LONGER YOU REF THIS WHOLE TIME

THE SCREAMS???? THEYRE SO REALISTIC OMLLL

I Can’t Help but Wonder

THESE SONGS ARE LONG DAMN

TELEMACHUSSS 🥹

ITS AN ACOUSTIC GUITAR NOW

My heaartttt

OMG WAIT ITS TELEMACHUS SINGING

MILO SOUNDS TOO MUCH LIKE JORGE

His voice is so gentle oh my goddd

MY SON IM FINALLY HOME!

FATHER HOW IVE LONGED TO SEE YOUU

THE HARMONIZINGGGG

ATHENA

ATHENA!!!!

I HEAR HER QUICK THOUGHT

“Show yourself. I know you’re watching me. Show yourself.”

THE PIANOOO THE CLOCKKKK

“You were never one for hellos.”

“I can’t help but wonder what this world can be if we all held each other with a bit more empathy. I can’t help but feel like I led you astray. What if there’s a world where we don’t have to live this way?”

“If that world exists, it’s far away from here. It’s one I’ll have to miss for it’s far beyond my years. You might live forever, so you can make it be. But I’ve got one endeavor. There’s a girl I have to see.”

“Very well.”

WARRIOR OF THE MIND MOTIFFF

Would You Fall in Love with Me Again

FINAL SONGGG

SIX MINUTESS

PENELOPEEEE

THE CACOPHONY OF INSTRUMENTS OH MY GODDD ITS LIKE ODY’S ANTICIPATION

THE DOOR SOUNDD

Youuu look different

Your eyes look tired

IM GONNA RIP MY HEART OUT

I AM NOT THE MAN U FELL IN LOVE WITHHH

Waaaitinggg waaaitingggg

The stringssss godddd

“Left a trail of red on every islanddd” RUTHLESSNESS MOTIF OH MY GODD

“As I traded friends like objects I could use”CIRCE MOTIF??

“Hurt more lives than I can count on my hands” I CANT MAKE OUT A SINGLE ONE BUT PIANO IMPLIES ATHENA??

OMG WAIT CALYPSO “FOR LOVING YOU” MOTIF

WAAAITINGGGG

“If that’s true, could you do me a favor? Just a moment of labor? That would bring me some peace. See that wedding bed? Could you carry it over? Lift it high on your shoulders and take it far away from here?”

I REMEMBER THIS FROM THE BOOK AGHH

“I had built that wedding bed with my blood and sweat…”

THE ELECTRIC GUITAR COMING BACKKK AS HE GETS MORE INTENSE

“The only way to move it is to cut it from ITS ROOTS!” “ONLY MY HUSBAND KNEW THAATTT!”

AHHH I REMEMBERRRRR

PENELOPE TEAR IT UP

THE EMOTIONNNN IN HER VOICEEE

WAAAITTINGGGGG

PENELOPEEEEE

WAAAITINGGGGG

PENELOOPPEEEEEE

WAAAAITINGGGG WAAAAITINGGG WAAAAAAAITINGGGGGG AHHHHHHHHH

forrrrrr (was that the remember them motif???) youuu

Damn she sang so high

THE SYMPHONYYY

JUST A MANNNN ITS BAAACKKKK

THE ANIMATICS R GONNA GO SO HARD DEAR LORD

“How long has it been?” “20 years.”

“I love youuuu”

BRAVO 🥹

JORGE I LOVE YOUUU

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

[dapper-lil-arts]

is it just me or do the people who created mlp have really bad taste in ships? Like equestria girls gave us so many good ships.. and then mlp got fluttercord (creepy), maudbriar (boring), and a few others I can't think of. It just felt like mlp kept setting up good ships with fluttershy and tree hugger, maud and starlight, only to drop them for weird reasons

I think you may be looking at it the wrong way-- A lot of the best ships are one that canon barely even touched. The only relationship that is actually canon that I can think of that ISNT boring is applejack's parents, and they're DEAD! Like, even when there IS relationships, they outright avoid spending time with them. The best example is Cadance and Shining Armor-- literally both characters get introduced in their WEDDING EPISODE. And only one or two episodes that dont focus on their relationship later, shining already put a baby in her. Like-- That's ANTI relationship writing. That objectively against what writing good romance is lmao! Oh and I definitely agree that Equestria girls provides better canon content to latch onto and spring off of, but even EQG, who is the goat, has its problems on that front, the biggest of them being Flash and Timber, two bland male characters that exist solely for a character to make a googoo eyes at incredibly briefly Flash himself has potential not as a boyfriend, but as a himbo ex boyfriend friend to Sunset-- He has zero ZERO developed chemistry with the Princess and boy it almost offends me that they even try. Twilight out here gaining the throne while maidenless Timber is... Well lets just say theres a reason why so many fic writers write him to be incredibly creepy and/or a bad boyfriend. Its just such a weird choice to have innocent, bright eyed and very vulnerable scitwi to fall for a camp councellor-- Specially when Sunset Shimmer is literally helping her endure nightmares, because she's just that good of a friend and believes in her goodness so much (NO HOMO) either way, final thoughts-- it's hard to accept it, but its painfully true that there just isn't much canon lgbt on mlp gen 4, specially with the characters we know and love. But hey. Thats what fan content is for! I will keep creating!

[dabuerre]

well fellas. its time. the end of the journey is here. only "Daybreak" remaining. lets go. this post is gonna get super long.

its funny that this is gonna be the second time im gonna cry over a ship. first its onepiece, now its battlestar.

holy fuck we actually see Zak. broooo i never expected that lol. also Leoben is super fucked up, considering he literally recreated Kara's apartment in that prison on New Caprica lol.

wooow gaius is/was such a child looool. i heard that he grew up on a farm, but when he was explaining himself to gaetta(i believe thats where he first mentioned it) i didnt believe him haha. so its true.

WHAT THE FUCK???????? so laura's family dies and then a few days later she gets told that she has cancer. this is probably not correct actually. wow. girly....insanity

gaius is gonna be the author of the final chapter for humanity huh. so they all die??

also, fuck boomer. my relationship with her character is just.. im always flip flopping between "fuck her" and "god, she's really got it rough" overall im glad and suprised that boomer still exists. and, i understand.. cavill fucking "groomed" her essentially. but taking hera was super fucked.

chief bro you gotta chill a little bit. i guess from his perspective it does look like just acting and a true betrayal soo.. idk.

the song is pretty much always playing in this episode. i think its called a leiftmotif or something like that. i love it.

awww.. thanks for saying it again bill. kara is your daughter indeed.

okay drunk lee chasing a pigeon with a broom is everything i ever needed. wowie bro. how many glass objects do you need to destroy before you are satisfied hahaaaa.

im hope cavill dies a painful death. well, again, no, but yes? he too is just a sad little man that wants to be a machine.

lets goooo. lets get hera.

oh god no, please dont tell me laura went with the guy that killed her family on a date??????? okay so he might just be her student ok thats better i guess. but still felt like a lie to me, maybe.

its insane that kara and lee are literally flirting from the moment they meet each other. and of course, nothing happens. why should it???

i have no idea why everybody keeps pushing saul to leave bill. they are best friends bro. and they work great together. they went through some shit. and bill IS a great leader. why not follow him. i would.

laura you are truly my hero. in your final moments you would push yourself to go on this silly mission? "go light a cigarette and grumble" :( this is so sad.. "i can barely see"

you know, i just realized, this show is fucking insane. i definitely didnt have "the leader of the Caprican resistance gets turned into a mystical being that can perceive future events and speaks in gibberish" on my bingo card.

girly please go sit on your fucking ass! my god she works??? she works??? in a triage situation??? i love you honey my gooooood. best fucking woman ever. personal, but she does remind me of my mom haha.

gaius did the thing. wish you luck bro.

galacatica's last battle.... oh i thought the colony is gonna be on a planet, not a space station. that does make way more sense. HOLY SHIT THEY ARE IMMEDIATELY JUST PUMMELING THEM :( GIRLLLL HOLD OOON

i love that the whole CIC flashed redddd... so gooooood. oh wow this lady hybrid made it!!

those motherfuckers are really just getting ready to test her. boomer you are sick. hope you wake up soon. THEY ARE SLAMMING OUR GIRL???? BUT SHE HOOOOOLDSSSSSSS.!!! GOOD JOB GIRL

interesting that they still have viable cylon raiders. i thought they too are now self-aware. i guess they continued with their "lobotomies"

they got the old centurion models???? why? oh nice boomer, good job. you woke up. good morning honey. maybe they couldnt lobotomize the new centurion models, so they just built new old models?

OH MY GOOOOD THEY BOTH REALIZED THEY SEE EM FINALLYYY!!!! I THOUGHT THEY WOULD NEVER BRING ATTENTION TO IT

oh nooooo athena :( i.. i guess this was always gonna be the conclusion to boomer but.. she just got gunned down.. no emotion, nothing..

how are they gonna get out?? i doubt galactica is gonna hold on that long.. and then you gotta spool up the drives.. i dont think you got five minutes.. oh i guess they were pretty close huh.

laura really is insane i have to keep stressing that point. OH FUCK KARL NOOOOO. HERA NOOOOOOOOOO.

the opera house... laura found hera, goood. hope caville doesnt find her. seems like god's on her side. THE CHILD IS GONE AGAIN. BRO THIS SHOW IS THE GREATEST. EVEN THE FIVE ARE LIT UP AND SHIT.

gaius really is the chosen one bro. "it requires a leap of faith". saul shut up!! you cant give him ressurection! the cycle will not end this way. dont let him leave!!!!!!!!!!

OH YES FINALLY, GALEN'S GONNA LEARN ABOUT KALLY!! HAHAHAHA! "we are all capable of making mistakes lolll! you killed his wife!!! XD hahahahaahhaa. toryyy you silly girl.

ahh... well... nothing ever changes huh.... fuckk... fuuuuuck.. where is the fucking daybreak??? daybreak implies, light, brightness, which implies hope. hope just died man

HOLY FUCKING SHIT RACETRACK YOU ARE INSANE!!!! SHE NUKED ITTT. she might have saved the situation honestly. AWW I FUCKING LOVE THE THEMEEEE. i hope its on spotify.

oh wow that jump was really fucking rough.. "she's broke her back.. she isn't jumping anymore.."

FUCK YEAH KARA YOU GAVE THEM EARTH, THE REAL ONE!! guys i think its gonna happen. my happy ending is gonna happen. shit i might cry

damn lee. i couldnt leave everything behind haha. the centurions are free! WOW. THE WHOLE FLEET. IN TO THE SUN.... that... is insane.

i would really like to see what they took with them. LAURA STILL LIVES.. goooood.. so goooood. she is seeing animals.. they broke the prophecy haha. i thought it was "the dying leader will not see paradise" or something.

my fucking goood...im weeping bro.. bill carrying laura... shiit. fuckk. so bill is choosing to die with laura? shit... "nothing but the rain".. "grab your gun and bring in the cat"

oh no? kara? honey? bullshit girlie. now its time to heal. you have still not experienced the good part of life. woow. their relationship is just.. a fucking tragedy man.. meant to be, never happened. because they are stupid haha.... holy shit.. she really was... something.. she just.. blipped.. what the fuck man.. how?? that is insane. what are the lore implications for this. insaneeee. she really was an angel. wow. okayy. sureee.

good night, madam president. oh bill.. why did you put it on her so lateeeee :(

nevermind!!! im glad he didnt do it. that goodbye was very strong so i assumed he would chose that but he didnt. nice.

wow. i never thought that gaius and caprica would get such a healthy relationship.. im happy for em.

150.000 years later????? brooooo. and yeah. that is it. the end.

fuu. gonna decompress a little bit. incredible show man. will be doing babylon 5 next. the sci-fi marathon must go on

just for fun, when i finished the pilot, i wanted to see gaius redeemed, boomer uncovered soon, lee forgives his father, kara thrace survives to the end. all of it happened. just not Kara.... she really did die in that nebula... its insane to think. i dont know everyone else's explanation for what kara is, but to me... if gaius and caprica see angels, and kara thrace is an angel.. then.. she wasnt really there.. like.. never i guess... i dont know.

[goodgirlfuckdoll1]

When did you learn to be at ease with your figure and sexuality? I (somehow, I dunno why or how) have had quite a few large-chested female friends, who often struggled a bit with it as teenagers. Especially since huge fucking...(sorry, I got carried away for a second) ... a larger cup size tends to go with more filling all around, there were a lot of insecurities. How did you develop into this lovely, mature, intelligent (ridiculously hot) woman (sex toy)?

💞Hi! Thanks for the great Q!💞

Short answer is, its been an evolution. I became very aware of my sexuality when I started developing into a D cup in the 6th grade. I would get comments like "shes going to be a heartbreaker" or "you are built like a brick house" . By the time I hit high school I had DDs and friends started calling me Barbie as a nicname. I think a lot of large chested young girls struggle because they are not equipped enough mentally to handle the onslaught of powerful sexual attention. Yes they are noticed but not seen for their true selves which causes a lot of inner conflict.

I was in good shape in high school. I hit the gym after school. It was part of the healthy California lifestyle. I didnt loose my virginity till 21. I was a good girl. Infact I was engaged to be married to my "first time" but called it off as he grew more insecure as men were circling around me and my body. My body became a liability to the relationship with him.

It wasnt until my 30s I fully became comfortable with my sexuality. I realized how miserable I was denying who I was for the sake of " reputation" and felt more at ease with my body.

Im a big built German girl. I cant fight my genetics. Every female on both sides of my family had extremely large breasts. I tried to fit the societal ideal by crash dieting etc. I only got to a size 8 best case scenario but I was the most miserable. I literally looked anorexic at 180lbs. I diddnt fit at all into this world, its standards of beauty and no role models.

I did feel finally accepted and changed me for the better when I started working for a pro wrestling company handling some of their talent backstage. They gave me most of the "big men" and some considered "dangerous" but they all loved me, my big physical presence as it wasnt an issue with them since they were so large themselves. I even got asked out on dates from NBA and NFL stars.

As I aged, I did get fluffier in spots. I survived a horrific car accident barely because of my size. I am strong enough to rip off a big plastic car wind bumper with my bare hands. (Oopsies🤭) My family has also possessed a lot of strength. My point being, I love my big body now because it was strong enough to endure things that would have killed others. So if someone has issues with it, go find less. Respectfully.

I accepted being a sex toy fully about 1.5 yrs ago. My tits grew to a J-K cup and I finally accepted my destiny as a sexual object. I cant hide my huge tits, and Im a good sport about them. I love making people happy and horny. I wanted to become a bimbo to bring more positivity, support, kindness,sexy fun in a dark world. The response has been tremendous. What are we saving our love for?? Give it out like an open firehose! 🤭

Bottom line is.. Make peace with your body. Thats all you are going to get in this life. Some will like it, some wont. Not everyone has great taste😉 Let go of shame, insecurities, be proud who you are. Life is shorter than you think...so have fun! Its been the best life being a glamazon, one of a kind, bimbo sex toy!

Much love

-GGFD1💞

[twentyonemillionwishes]

I love your disposable girl headcanons do you have any for splitter :]

yess!!

-listens to lots of speedcore and digital hardcore, mainly Diabhara, Goreshit, Rory in Early 20s, LustSickPuppy and Femtanyl. one of her favourite songs would be Unforseen Dream Scenarios by Rory, listen and you'll find out why LOL

-loves dark vocaloid stuff. like Masa Works Design's stuff, Bacterial Contamination, Fear Garden, etc etc

-loves anime / games / media like Danganronpa, Class of '09, and Yandere Sim (the "into any media thats objectively fucking awful" makes me laugh so I figured I'd include some)

-plays osu! she's decent at it. probably wishes she could clear Galaxy Collapse one day

-super cluttered room. half of it is her computer setup and shelves with anime figures and posters and such. the other half is her bed and all the trash and clothes she hasnt picked up

-has an account on pretty much every social media and website. she has a terrible internet addiction

-watches and listens to true crime / gore to scare herself and get her heart racing to fill the void and to satisfy her violent thoughts

[n3rdyslvt]

WCI Debrief

whole cake island spoilers ahead

after more months than i’d like to admit i have finally FINALLY finished WCI

who i love:

Luffy (always 💕)

KATAKURI 😫

Brulee!! (icon, from the seducing woods to the last moments in the mirror world with katakuri, she’s a queen, my lovely branch)

Reiju (my wifey 🙂‍↕️)

Carrot (bro she’s so fun and adorable + her sulong form was fire, likeeeee the voice change!!!)

who i hate:

flampe (😒 shitty diaper)

big mom (OHHHH MY GOSH YOU BIG HUNGRY DEMON 😭 its like the determination that i love in luffy is everything i hate in her “my wedding cake” this “where’s my wedding cake” that CAKE CAKE CAKE 🙄 SHUSH)

the elephant in the room…

NAMI YOU COULD’VE USED ONE OF YOUR FUCKING WEATHER EGGS WHILE BIG MOM WAS ON FIRE, I LOVE YOU BUT GIRL!! JIMBEI AND YOU SHOULDVE TAG TEAMED HER WITH WATER. I HAD TO WATCH YOU MAKE SOGGY BISCUITS FOR LIKE 3 EPISODES AND YOU’RE TELLING ME YOU COULDN’T MAKE IT DRIZZLE ON BIG MOM?? i need them to stop acting like Nami can either be a fighter or the navigator but never both, LET HER BE THE COOL LITTLE WEATHER WIZARD SHE WAS BORN TO BE 😞

sanji:

ok so i know i’m in the minority that hates sanji AND zoro so lowkey i spent 80% of whole cake just shit talking sanji while washing dishes… (personally thriller bark was when i lost all faith for him but its been there even before that😭) ok and my hatred for them is more like, that feeling when someone just pisses you off for no reason so you dislike them and whenever they fuck up you’re like “AHA! my hatred has been validated”. However i’m a sucker for glasses and whenever zoro or sanji have glasses on they always do cool shit so i begrudgingly like them. ANYWAYS so yeah i spent most of the arc ranting (yes i know WHY he did what he did i simply dont care, a true hater) and yes pudding is 16 so i cant fully support them but… the last scene with pudding where she’s crying and we see the memories she took from him… ohhhhhhh that hurtttt, i felt like i fell in love with him too. like usually i feel bad for girls that are the object of sanji’s affection cause he’s gross butttt with whole cake when he was with pudding or reiju or just cooking/baking… I really loved himm 😭 like omg make sanji cute and charming again (and yes he’s had other moments that i loved like “mr. prince” or the last moments in enies lobby where he’s being really sweet and walking with chimney, but i’d rather swallow batteries than say i like sanji or zoro. you might be wondering why i included zoro in this section… and i only did it because i need it to be clear that i hate both equally, people always wanna hit you with the “i bet you love zoro huh” when you dislike sanji and the opposite is true too, like guys i just wanna get freaky with a blue haired cyborg ☹️)

the ending:

bro with soul pocus and pudding crying and brulee and katkuri… the ending was fire asf, it felt like a proper close to the arc and i really liked that, it was just a vibe

alsoooo this is a little extra but as someone with complicated relationships with both her parents i really like how they explore how various children cipe with big mom’s parenting and how no matter the age gap not every child gets the same mom. like before the burnout started to hit i feel like katakuri was my twin but now that its been hitting for damn near two years (save me 😫) me, brulee, pudding, and chiffon would be besties. OMG and i love how bege loves chiffon like thats really HIS WIFEEEE and the whole crew loves her too 🥹 its so fucking adorable

closing remarks:

overall WCI was long asf and i probably wouldn’t rewatch it unless i were rewatching all of one piece (i’ve been itching to rewatch pre-timeskip, i miss my babies) butttt its still a really good arc and i LOVE!! katakuri as the boss fight, like what it meant for luffy’s growth 😫 him being honorable 😫 sir just bend me over already. oh and most importantly, rip pedro 🪦🕊️

[mommahughes19-23]

baby boy - B.M

@ryleeee.montour : Thank you florida and the Panthers organization for hosting us for the past 3 1/2 years and the opportunity to see my best friend and the love of my life hoist his first cup! 💖🐱🐈‍⬛🏆

tagged : @montour

location : florida bby

matthew_tkachuk : gonna miss the both of ya, just means we gotta party harder this off season before you guys leave!🥳🥳🥳🥳

↪ ryleeee.montour : you act like im not ur sister and youre never going to see us again.....

flapanthers : Thank you for 3 1/2 seasons with us! Once a cup champ always a cup champ!🏆🏆

daynamastro : NOOOOOOOOOOO. NO NO NO NO NO NO!❌❌❌❌❌

gustavforsling : I cant believe Monty isn't gonna be on the bench with me next season. 😞😞😞😞

ryanlomberg : im gonna miss you and monty! Thank you both for one of the best seasons! 🫶🏻

↪ ryleeee.montour : Ryan, thank you! You and Marissa have been everything to us!!! You will kill it in Calgary! 🥰🥰🥰

↪ montour : My brother, its been a great run with you and the boys, and fuck it we are leaving as champs!😎😝

lundell_anton : this is just wrong. MONTY SHOULD STAYYY😡

carterverhaeghe : who's gonna man the grill at chuckys now?? 😭

↪ ryleeee.montour : I guess you big boy, ill buy you an apron before we leave.

sbennet_93 : thats my best friend omg no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

barkovsasha : you will always be my little brandy boo

tygagen : for the record I was always your biggest fan @ryleeee.montour

evanr17 : im prepping the funeral preparations for you and Brandon, would you like to be buried together or separate?

↪ ryleeee.montour : Evan baby, good bye.

emiliekulikova : youre my best best friend, love you both the most! Please come back and visit anytime you want!!!!!😭😞🥰

ellie_connell : GIRL NOOOOOOOO, you cannot leave me with your brother like this!!! PLEASE🙏🏻🙏🏻

samsonreinhart : Brandon, youre a sexy man - Reino

vt9191 : we shall miss you

marissalomberg : NOOOOOOOO, YOU BETTER MAKE TRIPS UP TO SEE US !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

slorentz16 : MONTY! MONTY! MONTY!

nickcousins27 : YOU BETTER REP THAT SHIRT EVEN IF WE ARENT TEAMMATES ANYMMORE !!!!!☹️💖😡

alligadjovich : NO NO NO NO NO, TAKE BRANDON NOT RYLEE!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE LEAVE RYLEE.

↪ montour : yeah... not happening she's mine.

mackie.samo : Brotherrrrr, always sad to see a teammate go, wishing you the BEST of luck in Seattle!🫶🏻🙏🏻

tiatuomola : hey Siri, play in the arms of the angel...

nikomikk : NOT MY MONTY BOY GIVE HIM BACKKKKKKKKKKKKK

tarasenko.yana : you better visit us and the boys ANY TIME YOU GET A CHANCE!!

montour : I love you so so so much my baby! Home is wherever we are together! Thank you to the guys and Panthers for everything you've done for us!💖🏆🐱

smillaalwin : I miss you alreadyyyyy

ninaacousins : NO, not nicks #1 fan! come backkkkkkk

eetuluostarinen : I would like to say personally I object to this and any future changes made to our perfect Stanley cup team🙂‍↔️😞

zozeleny : OUR TAILGATE PLANNER IS LEAVING????? WHAT THE HECKKKKKK

aaronekblad5 : montyyyy boy, once a cat always a cat, youre never going to be a true kraken

christinalrodrigues : omg the kids are so sad uncle monty and aunt rywee are leaving! I expect post cards!

↪ ryleeee.montour : girl your husband is apparently planning us a funeral please, you cant get rid of the Montours that easy. PLUS everyone forgets B and I are here till September

emmasulonen : I would like to protest this immediately.

danielaforsling : im sorry but I just cannot support this move. you belong here

↪ ryleeee.montour : Danni babes DONT YOU GUILT ME

kevinstenlund : brothers from other mothers for life

jessjewell : always will be my little wag

jgadjovich : crushed the twins won't have you two around growing up as much as they could. All the best in Seattle 🏆🫶🏻

tammymontour : My baby will be a star no matter where he goes

erinmarklee : MY BOYFRIENDS BOYFRIEND AND MY WIFE ARE LEAVING ME FOR EVER!

↪ ryleeee.montour : thats a bit dramatic but also true.

A.N: MAY I JUST SAY THIS OUT OF ALLLLLLL OF THE TRADES GOING ON BRANDON IS ONE OF THE TRADES THAT ABSOLUTLEY KILLED ME..... MONTY BABY AND LOMBERG MY SMOLL KING ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE CATS TO ME.

jessjewell = Sam Reinhart

danielaforsling = Gustav Forsling

ninacousins = Nick Cousins

tarasenko.yana = Vladamir Tarasenko

alligadjovich = Jonah Gadjovich

marissalomberg = Ryan Lomberg

emiliekulikova = Dimitri Kulikov

daynamastro = Aaron Ekblad

tiiatuomola = Eetu Luostarinen

emmasulonen = Niko Mikkola

tygagen = Alexander Barkov

ellie_connell = Matthew Tkachuk

smillaalwin = Tobias Bjornfot

zozeleny = Sam Bennett

erinmarklee = Stevie Lorentz

TAGGED : @noahkahansorangejuice @skylershines @quinnylouhughesx43

[bluiela]

Just a little reminder that Gwyn and Elain have not and will not look upon their horrific trauma and reminisce about meeting their true loves 😬

No one saves mementos from horrific trauma like cloaks and jackets. Imagining Elain cuddling with Luciens jacket she saves in her closet is absolutely WILD. Nesta couldn’t even have a bath for a year after that night and you think Elain purposely thinks about what happened???? Really?

Gwyn was not swooning over Azriel killing the people attacking and SAing her. I think her mind was probably on something else. Doesn’t really matter who saved her or who carried her off. If thats were the case why not ship her with Mor too?? Or do you understand that it was not supposed to be seen as romantic?

Ugh.. I don't understand why people come into gwynriel/elucien spaces and then check out some Hc's or theories then don't understand and what the HC or theory means/implies and then whine about it on their tag,

Like excuse me who the hell is romanticizing gwyn/elain's trauma or the stuff they have from it? No gwynriel/elucien, the ones who make posts on are the ones who view these objects as a comfort, they make head canons that maybe the girls find comfort in it, the fact that they were in such a traumatic situation and these objects were provided to them so as to comfort them, maybe when they have PTSD they look back at the object that provided them comfort in the first place and might seek comfort from them again,

And If you have this opinion then you should have the same energy for Azriel-elain saving and have the same energy for romanticizing the "hold tight and don't make noise scene".