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anthromimicry · 14 days

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#ALL POWER DEMANDS PAIN AND SACRIFICE: musings.#okay but this made me laugh so hard just because of how much it reminds me of misao JSJSJ LOL because she has had like casual 'flings'-#with people and is an addictive personality as i've talked about here once which includes her being a love junkie + getting into-#relationships with people because she is in love with the IDEA of being in love though falling in love with someone can't just happen-#like magic as it involves a bunch of hormones and stuff but misao kind of somewhat hopes that this person of interest to her will somehow-#complete her life anyhow which... yeah can definitely raise a few problems as people with a love addiction often attract love-#avoidant people because both of these types of people generally have a fear of being abandoned and controlled.#but whenever it comes to love-avoidant individual's they're also emotionally unavailable so 😬#it's unfortunately kinddd of a recipe for an unhealthy relationship that could very well lead to the both of them being in a bad place-#once they break up as misao as a love addict is constantly seeking out new love in particular as a lot of excitement and good feelings-#come with this particular type of love in particular. so yeahhh - i know that this may be a bit of a weird picture to do a meta to but-#SHHH lol i just thought it could possibly relate to her more long-term relationships that she's had with people as misao-#tends to avoid feelings of vulnerability with people as you may all know and so this leads to both her + the other person not really-#knowing what they are BC they haven't really established that deeper connection even though they've been together for a while.#not to say that i'm trying to blame misao for having problems with opening up or anything like that but she has a very disorganized-#attachment style i think and that leads to her often doing this continuous 'push and pull' thing in her romantic/sexual ships #where one moment she will want to be attached to the hip to them but the next she will be cold and distant from them.#so yeahhh. misao is honestly kind of like what i've said barton is before: a cake inside of a cake because i feel like she's got sides of-#herself that she doesn't even know about because she's been scared of being fully emotionally vulnerable with someone for a while now sadly #NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study.

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paeinovis · 6 months

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Developing a theory that Phoenix's personal Place of Living is a disaster, while the Wright and Co. office is kept impeccably clean (him looking after Charley, compulsively cleaning the toilets in Multiple Games and even getting Apollo to in AJ) because Mia did the same (and/or had him doing those chores while he was interning for her lol)

#text #aa #aj #ace attorney #Apollo Justice #whether or not Mia actually tells him to do this via Maya/Pearl is up for debate but I like to think Phoenix is a creature of habit #and/or can't stand change and/or can't let go and therefore wants to keep things as they were when it was Fey and Co.#maybe he just cares a lot abt his ~professional image~ but I like to think it's more than that #the only time we really see the office messy is once Trucy comes into the picture #but also he's hugely depressed by then and may or may not be living in his office (I wish I knew what the entire floorplan was tbh. whether #or not he moved into office once he lost his job or What y'know)#like maybe it got messy bc they were living there and/or didn't have anywhere to put Trucy's magic stuff lol #or it's there so she can practice while he does work/investigating? who's to say #anyway!!! that's what I've been thinking abt aside from that goof post during my latest rewatch of my fav playthrough of the trilogy tm

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the-ghost-of-a-cyber-princess · 9 months

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madam montalogera, an eccentric milfy goliath who runs her own cosmetics/fashion company (nevata: finery and maquillage)

#made her for a dnd campaign with my coworkers tho shes never seen any playtime nor have I even settled on a class or anything lol #but shes eccentric dramatic and very fashionable and cunty #and Big #settled on her being 7'5' at the least #and she loves snowflakes/snow-related symbols #esp in her fashions as in her main outfit #heavily based out of 18th century fashion #also to anyone who is still reading and may be asking “how she supposed to adventure n stuff in this big dress”#worry not for I have an anticipated and deluded answer: the inner “skirt” is actually very wide-legged pants 👍#she can also unclasp the dark “over skirt” and use it as a cloak #says a lot that I've done more thinking into her outfit than her class/build lol #anywho love her! this drawing has been done for a while but never posted it #but since I haven't posted any art in a while woe madam montalogera upon ye #dnd #dnd 5e #dnd 5e character #oc #original character #character design #goliath #my art #art

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nomairuins · 2 months

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i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.

#i literally like. i didnt tell u guys bc it was embarassing #but i had to hype myself up to eat a fucking orange the other day. like i was shaking and crying and i nearly threw up.#bc it fucking reminded me of All that and also bc its one of the only foods i got to eat outside ofm my one meal a day #while i was living there. bc my coworker gave me oranges sometimes #and one time she gave me a whole bag of cuties which was wonderful of her i miss her #but i pretty much like. bc during m-f i had a meal at work #and i could get something from the vending machine if i needed to #but on the weekends i had to either order food (which would always make me insanely nauseous bc of. the money stuff. yk) or just eat #what i had in my room bc i couldnt use the kitchen bc the roommates would be mad at me #and they might kick me out and id be actually fucked. its so crazy looking back that i genuinely the entire time i fucking lived there even #b4 the breakup the entire time i was in terror that theyd evict me. bc i wouldnt have been able to do anything abt it #i mean thats why i didnt like. leave him after he . and stuff. both bc i thought i didnt deserve anything better and bc i was terrified #theyd evict me and i wouldnt have any way to get home. it was terrifying #but ya. so for a couple weeks i rationed myself One orange per day lol. and on weekends that was all i was able to eat rly #idk. i hate ptsd. basicalllyyyy is the gist of ittt. and i keep thinking abt random fucking things they did to me #me when they jokingly tell me to starve myself when i literally have a fucking eating disorder. and when i told The Only Person i knew in #that fucking house abt it he told me i was being dramatic and i was just being greedy and etc. and then later when i got off work today i #saw on their fucking whiteboard in the kitchen i wasnt supposed to use Eat more <3 as one of their goals. while i went to sit in the garage #for the weekend eating a single fucking orange a day. god #idk. ive gotten better with eating i still have the scale but i ws able to go months without using it until the medical call the other week #and i havent used it since but. everytime i think abt all that itmakes me want to go back to it. i cant tho everyone would notice #i do still eat a wholee lot less than i did b4 washington but idk. idont remember if i even ate today i probably should but i dont feel #hungry but i cant even fucking trust that bc i Starved myself for so fucking long im too good at ignoring hunger. and i never was super in #touch with my body but im constantly numb now. idk.#ed ment #a2t #i ws gonna say more but it ws tmi + tag limit anyway. its just insane that my fucking ed wouldnt have happened if it werent for him and it #graduated i wouldnt have been isolatedinever wouldve had an ed. like 50% of my ptsd would be Gone if i just hadnt joined that discord. lol

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stellacadente · 3 months

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i mentioned my ex during lunch break at work today and it was literally the first time i ever acknowledged being gay when at work and it was both freeing and Really Fucking Scary

#i was shaking so bad during the rest of the conversation i hope no one noticed 😭😭#i have to say thanks to my new-ish coworker who is firstly so nice and secondly totally open like she talks about lgbt+ stuff casually #which i admire so much bc i've been working there for 2+ years and while not exactly hiding being bi (i think it's quite obvious i'm gay)#i've never been able to be open about it my internalized homotransphobia is STRONG lol i panick when i even think to casually mention it #so like seeing someone else bringing up lgbt stuff casually is so insane and brave to me #and she definitely made me feel at ease enough to like say something that made it obvious i'm not straight #when i never could bring myself to before even if i wanted to #that said i still feel waaaay too scared to mention being trans also ugh i find it more difficult to casually bring up in convos #like gkfvkdvj especially the more time passes i mean i didn't even start this job with the idea of being stealth and i don't feel like i am #i feel more like i'm closeted? cause really i don't WANT it to be a secret i'd much rather it was out in the open #but it's scary. so so scary. i never know how to be open and chill about being trans lol like where do i start #but like hey okay baby steps i mentioned that i'm gay today which was already a lot for me #nico rambles

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what-even-is-sleep · 4 months

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Trying to get ahead of an unsustainability cycle that might be starting up this week,,, (I start work).

#this turned into a bit of a rant whoops #mypost #have been chilling recovering from breast reduction the last month #steadily helping my mom out around the house more and more #but neow imma be working a ~35hr week (not including commute times during rush hour rip)#starting tmr #and I’m remembering that 1) it takes me more time to shower bc I have to be careful with boobz. also I have to wash my bra every night bc da #scars can’t get infected. so the whole process of showering is connected to also washing and drying my bra and putting on lotions n such so #it takes an hour minimum #2) doing stuff for my mom… is always spontaneous and urgent and takes up more time/energy than I think #3) my mom is bad at food stuff on a personal level and that’s transferring to the household bc a lot of stuff including a) she’s hella busy #and stressed. b) the price of food 💀keeps goin up ayoo. c) she is restricting herself to only eating twice a day??? idk why????#d) she also considers a meal to be anything she throws together no matter how unbalanced/nontasty it is #e) I’m also so bad at cooking/meal prep/etc but lowkey have a Thing abt food rn and cannot eat random junk even if I’m v hungry #. all this to say: idk how to do my household duties (communicating with mom. nightly dishes. small stuff that builds) when I have a feeling #imma be hella hungry this whole week.#WAIT I FORGOT THO IMMA BE MAKING MONEYYYY 💰 💴 💵 so I can pay for lunch at work ayooo #((not thinking abt budgeting atm lol 😬. I’m fortunate enough to have a 529 plan for college so semester times are all g)#4) I’m also doing two coursera courses atm (personal finance for young adults and Good With Words) …. I will prob not be able to get much #done in these courses when I have a full week rip #5) I gotta prepare for abroad (applying for visa. dealing with large government structures 😭😭😭) and in general attend to my emails #all dis. hmm #oh and also personal upkeep: gotta order eczema lotion. gotta get in contact with doctors abt leg and jaw PT. gotta follow thru with PT.#falling behind on a productive schedule while balancing my moms needs and my needs and my long-term health/personal project stuff is gonna #be difficult…#hm #writing this out is. hm.#all g all g I am a young adult I gotta handle this stuff now 🧑#great freedom = great responsibility and all that shiz #FUCK I FORGOT I HAVE TO EXERCISE TOO FUCK!!!! DANG NABBIT

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sherlock-is-ace · 5 months

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#not having a great time today after my mom commented on my interests #i'm a person that is interested in shit i don't know this is why i'm very likely to follow disabled youtubers #in my time i have watched molly burke. multiplicityandme and a collection of autistic youtubers (guess why lol)#and my mom made a quite patronizing comment about how i ''take on causes'' by learning about stuff #and/or supporting fun and interesting youtube channels #but anyways it sucks even more because on her comment she made it clear (once again) that she doesn't believe me when i say #i might be autistic. and it fucking sucks!#because when i first talked to her about it even I didn't know much about it. i was just starting to do my research #and i was trying to make sense of things still but she dismissed it #but now that i do know more and things do make more sense #i can't even bring it up because the fact that i have been watching a lot of youtubers talk about autism will make her think #i'm just trying to be like them... which is stupid #but it's also the reason i didn't tell her that my best friend in my teens was trans. because i was trying to figure shit out myself #and telling her he was trans and then a bit later that i am as well was going to make her go ''everyone's trans now blah blah''#and dismiss that as well... but now i'm trapped in the same thing about autism lol #and her stupid loophole of a dismissal isn't just by saying ''no you're not autistic'' it's saying this like ''well MAAAAYBE you COULD be #but that doesn't mean anything and it doesn't matter and why would you want a diagnosis if it's not gonna change anything''#same thing as her whole ''sure you're a man but why do you have to look and act differently? YOU know who YOU are #who cares what others think?'' in a don't transition way #like that's so stupid!#dkfjhkdfhkdfg #i'm angry and i feel trapped #i have figured out a little bit ago that i don't stim near as enough as i need to BECAUSE i live in the same house as her #and the idea of ear defenders and other stuff like that is very appealing but i can't do that while she's around to judge #and IN PUBLIC?! that's unthinkable!!#i still remember the time she threatened with not going out with me (to the supermarket) because I commited the huge crime of #buttoning the top button of my button up shirt....#that's it. that was the whole reason.. she thought i looked ridiculous and she didn't want to be seen with me...#imagine if i wear ear defenders out...#not gonna risk it lol

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arolesbianism · 5 months

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I may not be authorized to have lob corp character options given I've only read at best 30% of the story and only because of me watching playthroughs while I play but also I need everyone to give more of a shit abt Lisa right now she's literally the best one objectively because I said so

#rat rambles #shes also just genuinely rly well written and shes made me cry #like Im not particularly interested in reading through most lob corp stuff right now but I will regularly rewatch her core meltdown scenes #and while I also dont plan on reading lor stuff the fact that I know she ends up alone in that game fucks me up so bad #like godddddd tragic siblings my absolute beloved #I dont forgive her for being blond but at least shes not trying to be a lil edgelord like wendy lol #I cant say shes evading the tboy cringe allegations though give her a couple years we'll see #but yeah Im sure that angela would have a death grip on my mind if I ever got into project moon stuff #I may not know a whole lot abt her but she and carmen combined fit into just about every character archerype I always fall for #oh and you can bet your ass I would be making carmen and olivia parallels in my mind as I read #which would then backfire because then I'd start thinking abt jackie and ayin #and then Id be sad that ayin and carmen arent doomed toxic yuri 😔#well they could be if you belive hard enough but I do not believe in ayin sorry #the real question in life ofc is if carmen is a lesbian or a gay man

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pepprs · 1 year

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discovered miah_pie on t*ktok (<- i don’t have one btw i just stumbled upon her bc someone i follow on ig talked abt her) and her videos make me want to cry so bad. 24 year old dependent moment

#purrs #i went to a clothing store today to try to get new work shoes and pants bc the one pair i have of each literally have holes in them and are #falling the fuck apart on my body and it was a HORRIBLE experience largely bc i think everybody in town was out shopping for back to school #so it was super crowded and there were lots of screaming kids and it was extremely stressful + my dad got into a mini car accident while i w #was in the store (he was / is completely fine thankfully but the car is not which is so awesome 😍😍😍😍😍) and i was just so stressed and #overstimulated but also like… nothing fits me bc im so short lol. but anyway it was so horrible i was on the verge of starting to cry in the #store and then i came home empty handed and my mom got super pissed at me for… needing to go to the store / being the reason we were out lol #and then finding miah pie and her videos are all about making trips to the store SO much fun and buying little treats and saying yessir and #OHHHHHH MYYYYY and just finding the joy in smth that can be so stressful and unpleasant… it makes me want to cry happy and sad tears at the #same time like i want that soooo bad and i can’t do it fully yet but i want it. need it. fuck my stupid baka life #anyways im gonna start saying the stuff she says just to make myself feel better even when im not at a store. yessir! OHHHHHH MYYYYYY.#acquired. don’t mind if i diddly dooooo!#also btw i am not a dependent except for the ways i am a dependent. hope that helps 🫶🏻#the problem is really that i don’t have a car or a license and also that my mom throws a fit every time i need / want to get driving #practice bc it’s never a good time so. lol 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 me doing drivers ed this summer was a fucking joke i forget literally everything i #learned and have only been behind the wheel 3 times and none of them have actually counted bc im just developing basic motor skills #(literally). fmlllll im never getting out of here who am i kidding 🤪#delete later

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princekirijo · 1 year

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Oh yeah because I love Pokemon AUs I was thinking about what partner Pokemon Riku would have and as much as I wanna give him like Charizard or Garchomp (I think he'd have a Garchomp but it wouldn't be his partner), the best partner for him is Urshifu, Rapid Strike Style specifically.

#oc tag #riku kirijo #look at that bear and tell me he isnt riku core - my gf when i asked her #like i think his team would also have like a luxray kingambit and garchomp #but urshifu is his partner #it just fits so well its a water pokemon and its just cute but deadly like him #also urshifu is my fav gen 8 pokemon so i was more than happy with this idea LOL #spiderfiend's partner would probably be a noivern ngl #because a) dragon b) color scheme and c) the vibes just work #i actually drew riku and kubfu a while ago and y'all... it was so cute...#also black mask riku would have a shiny Rayquaza LMAOOOO #only because it actually fits mordred so well mordred is shiny Rayquaza with wings 💀💀💀💀💀#pokemon AUs can be something so fun and personal #and yeah his partner is a legendary pokemon 💀 it works trust #i know a lot of people would say ann's would be incineroar but i think ceruledge would be so good for her #alolan ninetales and empoleon would be Mitsuru's trust me #yukari i actually dont know im kinda stumped #and yuna too 🤔 yeah dont worry i havent forgotten about her i still love her 🥹#shes just taking a back seat as usual #but i have stuff cooking for her trust trust

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hirokiyuu · 2 years

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besk/instance.............

#i get why she picked instance but also wow. could not have chosen anyone worse in some ways #but also. who else could it have been #actually now that im saying this. rhett/besk has some fascinating possibilities #not that it wouldve happened i think rhett is too uh........ how do i put it #i think rhett would respond too well to therapy essentially #like i think shes definitely instance's therapist still but also i think instance is like #reticent? and like while she tells besk things #i dont think it would be to the extent of some other ppl u kno #meanwhile rhett i think is like. hi. i have ptsd.#so i dont think besk would be able to in good conscience pursue this the way she would w/instance #i joke a lot abt the various besk/instance power gaps (jesus christ there are so fucking many)#but the therapist/patient one is like. maybe the worst #but also. What The Fuck Else Is Besk Gonna Do To Stay Alive Lol #teenexo stuff #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #(puts the fall on repeat)

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astrxealis · 2 years

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sorry (not really) guys if you see me return to my obsessed w final fantasy (all), ivalice ffxiv voicelines, bloodborne era rn

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#i'm such a NERD !!!!!#i know a lot but i still need to know MORE.#but ya ivalice voicelines... <333 #tbh ivalice as a whole i am SO interested in. not just bcs of ffxiv or ff #the stuff between ramza and delita yes?#iirc. ivalice in ff is like the worlds of tactics + ffxii !! i might actually be wrong but i've been sure about this for years LOL ??#so yeah. REAAAALLY intrigued about both tactics and xii. xiv gets a lot of refs from xii #so i'm aware of the scions of light and the scions of darkness a lot and i find the correlations w the ascians super interesting #and yes. the fact that Emet-Selch is the Angel of Truth makes me very very very sad. it's so good :((#bloodborne on the other hand okay i may have not properly played much. i always chicken out #but a lot of the times i did try it out wanting to get far are really bcs of ludwig and lady maria #other themes i was in lov w too but mostly ^^ but now i reaaally want to more now bcs The First Hunter !!! and other songs too <3 #also bcs i'm older and hopefully less cowardly... (if you must know. okay i'm literally srsly a coward w scary stuff in games #as in ffxv daemons terrified me for the longest time until a while into act 2? and automata. a simple cave made me so scared <//3)#speaking of cave i miss ac odyssey... i want to play that more sometime! very fun game. i havent even got to do sailing or shit yet tbh #yea. so tjat's that. and on ff as a whole i am always so in lov w ff but ever since fulgur talked abt it more aaaaaa #I SHOULD ASK MY TITA FOR. ff8 soon... says me but i shld finish x and ix SOBBING. she also has xii so WAHHHHH #but time to eat now <3

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cherry-shipping · 1 year

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this is like the most niche thing ive ever imagined with an f/o but i like thinking that papyrus could call my bluffs really easily when no one else can. specifically UMM self care and health bluffs? i dont really lie about it. i just intentionally leave stuff out so people dont worry? like, if someone asks "have you eaten today?" ill be like "oh yea i ate before i came here! ^_^" but then i tactfully leave out the part where the only thing i ate was, like, a piece of candy i found on my floor or something and prior to that i hadnt eaten for a week, and things of that nature. and people never ever realize when im bluffing which is convenient for me but obviously Bad in general, but. i like imagining that paps of all people can just sort of innately Tell when im hiding something or skewing the truth just a little bit

#because hes SMART!!!!!!!!! and GOOD AT READING PEOPLE!!!!!!!#so far the only other person whos learned that i DO bluff (even if she doesnt call them naturally) is my school counselor #thats only because i told her about how i bluff a lot. so now she kinda questions whatever i say about my own health LOL #we were talking about my arfid at one point and i said how mama wants me to go see a professional about it #and i told her id declined because while my situation wasnt ideal it wasnt THAT bad and wasnt dangerous to my health #and she was like ok so how often do you eat #and i had to be like. umm. Sometimes.#and after like 5 minutes of pushing she got me to admit i ate maybe once a week (ITS BETTER NOW THOUGH!!!!)#and she was like. ok so i think maybe your definition of whats 'dangerous' to your health isnt normal at all.#anyway i imagine paps would be like that except i DONT have to tell him. he just kind of knows when im leaving stuff out #this is also so unique to papyrus nobody else can tell not even sans despite his skill of reading faces #blegh. i think the day im like fully open and honest with my life and how i feel is the same day jesus comes back or something #cherry chats #hes also good at prying in a way where i dont feel like shit. idk how to explain it but like umm #when ive been in situations where people have pushed me until im forced to guiltily admit i was leaving stuff out i feel bad #not only because they called my bluff and learned i was (almost) lying to them but also it makes me feel bad about myself #but i think hed never make me outright say it #since he just Knows hes also able to come up with ways to bring it up without atcually saying it out loud #he knows that i know that he knows etc etc etc #AND ALSO HES UNRIVALLED WHEN IT COMES TO MANIPULATING PEOPLE INTO DOING WHAT HE WANTS (IN A NICE WAY)!!!!!!!!!!!#SO IF ANYONE CAN GET ME TO EAT ITS HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hes so smart. he just tricks people into doing stuff for their own benefit and they hardly ever realize it #hes my BEST FRIEND FOREVAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3333333

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keeps-ache · 5 months

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hmmm. the vibes. they are strange

#just me hi #hhhggghhhh #so many things don't make sense.. ouh....#//i gotta make food in a minute. the choice is between beans and corn !#beans could be nice.. corn is great but i don't know if i want to go through the whole buttering and salting.. butter is not my favorite lo #most milk things aren't ! cheese is on some thin ice i'm telling you hhfsh #//also i've been having these typos where it's like a verbal mistake #like you might say 'graph' instead of 'grab'#that keeps happening!! i think it's cuz everything is stored as sounds and i'm not paying a lot of attention while i'm typing lol #//speaking of sounds i was talking with flame about telepaths and i think it'd be a lot more interesting if they were less soul-readers and #more electric-pulse readers that can translate them like a language. i think it'd be neat :>#like they could read a telegram before it got somewhere yknow?#/not that telegrams are used anymore. but i think that's a real shame! sure we have texting and stuff but telegrams were so cool !!#i also think we should bring back the pony express. it would be fun lol :3 #//i still have to make food.. wah....#guess i'll go do that then #refried beans + a couple tablespoons of water + generous amount of cumin + a puff of garlic and it's really nice :D #cuuuuuuuuuuuminnnnnn my belooooooooveeeeed ♩#//OH i think i'm gonna try using bl3nder again too !!#cuz i want to learn how to animate with it so !! :33 #apollo said he'd teach me so i guess i'll be attempting that later if i can remember #RIP my computer though she's not gonna like what happens next hghbsfhvh #//okay now i'm goooinggg i'm gonna makes Beans #toodles. ciao. adios. bye :3

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thebuttsmcgee · 6 months

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so. um. 👉👈

hi guysies.

Ig I should just say like. Hi

I haven't been posting here as much cause. Idk. Might be depression? I keep thinking its cause I've been so busy, which also wouldn't be not untrue, but these past, like, 3 weeks I think so far? I've had some free time but I haven't cause. I dunno, then again, I haven't been doing too much in general? I gues, besides very mandatory things, hell I've even been lacking in my regular skyrim hours of playing.

That, and as said, I get super melancholic when I remember just how sad and bittersweet it is that t0h is. Actually legit over. The show and experience, that is.

Oh all that and also becuz my headphones broke! Fuck! That's like number 2 in my bare necessities for when I post, do almost anything really! It's seriously been painful this past month going without headphones holy shit. Dude I've been scratching at the bit for some relief for headphones, I NEED music legitimately. Even right now, as I'm typing this on my phone, my music is on low levels.

But yerp. Its been. Rough. Really rough. I really do appreciate yall, everyone of yall. Have a sweet week everyone, ✌️!

#the butts chronicles #ogh but yea. been rough.#as said I have no idea if we'll keep this house cause man shits been fucked #uhhhh. lets see. recently my sister got into a fairly nasty argument with her husband since they were both drunk and hes a bit of a. hm #quick to being mad guy? I spose? but yea they made up and he actually apologized to me and my family for that so. its okay?#OH YEA FUCK LOL a few weeks ago fuckin tecksas got hit nasty with a hurricane and GUYS. I FREAKED OUT SO BAD LOL #cuz there was hail with the rain but since. I dont think we even ever experienced hail here I was scared that my ceiling roof broke again #and that it was the rain leaking to my room ceiling and was about to burst my ceiling so I legit started hyperventilating and panicking #with like. short and heavy breathing and almost crying badly until I went to look outside and saw hail and only slightly calmed down #oh but yea it was nasty lol. then the next day almost the entire block lost power and apparently sparks were happening cause fallen trees #uhhh. lets see. hmmm. OH OH RIGHT DAMN I FORGOT WE GOT A PUPPY LOL #we've gotten a lil pup all the way back from dec? iirc and she is now older and a shit lol shes in her teething phase and whatnot #still p cute tho and very puppyish. oh yea also during dec our power went out and ogh man dec was so freezing literally.#almost as bad as the one from. uhhh I cant remember the exact year but I remember it being within these past 4 years at least cause I read #a t0h fic during it lol. oh yea speaking of. we also changed our light company and damn. its been not bad so far! we had to pay up to 300 #in our old company and now we dont even get to 200 so far! hope Im not jinxing it! hmm oh did I already say before that I had to get a new #phone? cause I did and I did not enjoy it lol. had it for a while and now and its arguably worse cause no damn headphone plug-in #I think I did mention this but in case. I did finish counseling. well more accurately they required payments again since things and whatnot.#I think? I mentioned the stuff I got for my bday and chmisas. I got mostly neat stuff. I guess. one of them has still yet to arrive lol #uhhhh. hrm. I did get Mr. Martinet's autograph as a present! hrmmm #my other sister got another surgery a while back and its been relatively the same since. hmm. my only other living grandparent passed away #me and my ex got into a. not great argument cause mistakes and whatnot. raccoons in the attic thats hopefully taken care of for now #aaaaand the plushes I ordered a damn near year ago have been technically canceled cause of unfortunate circumstances for the creator #who just kinda. posts things now lol ig.#but yea. lots. holy shit guys. lots has happened. fuck man. I think Ive been way more tired than I thought.#not to mention the past weeks of just. reflecting. man #uhhh #long post #LOL i gues #but yerp.

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If I ever do get properly into dst character modding I like have to make an oni character mod at some point, but the issue is Id want it to be an Olivia mod so bad but also Nails is as far as I'm aware the only legal character name wise and as such it feels like it has to be them, y'know for the bit. But also I have already written too much Olivia dst dialogue and I need an excuse to use it damnit

#rat rambles #oni posting #starve posting #also good ol dr winslow would be dead in seconds I think #not that most of the cast would fare much better but I believe in olivia to last longer #more importantly though it would simply be easier to justify olivia kit wise as while nails was involved in printing pod stuff they didnt #yknow. invent the damn thing.#idk we technically dont have olivia initials yet she Could have a w middle name if we believe hard enough #we have a jackie middle initial tho so shes off the table doubly because she also would have like 50 in each stat lol #also again olivia constant dialogue is just so much more fun to write #especially when it comes to mob examination quotes #also several jokes and bits that I could technically do with nails too but olivia is easier to craft a consistent voice for #as much as we get a surprisingly large amount of characterization for nails they still only have one log of dialogue at the end of the day #like I have hcs and stuff but they are fragile as hell #klei could come out swinging and recontectualize everything theyve ever said at any time if they wanted to it wouldnt be hard #again its one log with little context to most of the things they say #so while we have a glimpse of their character we don't rly see them in enough contexts to rly get a solid general characterisation I think #not that I want more per say my point is simply that any hcs I do have could easily be disproven by not a lot of new information #like itd be very easy for them all to crumble into dust the second klei adds more logs #technically many of my olivia hcs are equally fragile but those are mostly the ones that dont matter much in this context #like idk they could be like fun fact olivia actually loves kids and gets along great with them but I doubt thatll happen #oh that reminds me scariest thing abt oni actually is the idea that some of our lil scientist guys could have kids #like the email abt there not being a bring your kids to work day doesnt inherently mean any of the characters we know have kids but it #makes me remember the possibility and that scares me #like I dont wanna think abt devon potentially having a kid I dont wanna imagine them putting pictures of their baby with toast online #I mean I do but its still like wtf why do you have a life that existed thats scary and it also makes me sad but its also funny so its good #I still stand by my frankie and mason divorce hc frankie got custody of the baby devon got custody of the food blog #its a good think jackie and olivia dont have a kid thatd suck for the kid so bad #like imagine your moms being the worlds saddest wettest cats of women and just having to grow up with that #and theyd be terrible parents for sure jackie would be an absent father and olivia would become an alcoholic

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