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asphy7 · 9 months ago

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I know I only just updated my commission sheet and I haven’t really been pushing it, but would it be weird or annoying if I did so one more time?

I just got my quotes for top surgery and it’s quite a lot more than we were expecting. 18k Aussie, 15k if I can drop 30kg in the next five months.

I am also working on expanding my social media because I can’t just hide out in the corner of the room that is tumblr.

But it’s always been so exhausting to me learning so many different things.

I am also looking into commission sites like artistree and fiver but it’s overwhelming and will take me a bit.

Also maybe start streaming art soon but I need to get reacquainted with my pc and the programs there first.

I dunno, it’s just scary and it’s a lot but I don’t have many ways of making money… :,D

I’d also pay someone to help me manage it all and help me push my stuff out better but especially before I’m earning money that’s too much out of pocket.

I’m just ranting so I’ll probably delete later but in the meantime if anyone has opinions or advice I’d greatly appreciate it.

#man I so stressed out by this #rant #please don’t reblog #so I can delete later safely

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akqrus · 5 months ago

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I'm so in love with the psychological aspect of ml.

The way Gabriel is haunting the narrative? The way Marinette's secret is slowly ruining everything? The way Gabriels wish messed up almost any chance for Marinette to move on any time soon?

This gives us sooooo many possibilities on how it goes back to Marinette and Adrien, because they didn't get to resolve everything that happened (and ofc Adrien doesn't know LMAO). Not only do we get to see how Marinette's secret affects everything around her, BUT we also will get to see Adrien's reaction to everything that happened. (ofc it's not Marinette's fault. I don't want to hear a PEEP from yall, I ALREADY KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING) and if it absolutely WRECKS Adrien.

I'm so EXCITED to see how it all unfolds.

#Delete later #Ngl u got the unhinged lore enthusiast screaming #(it's me I'm the unhinged lore enthusiast)#I'M SO IN LOOOOOOOOVE #PLEASE SOMEONE HOLD ME #ur local psychology nerd is at again #I have so many thoughts #But I cant express it #ITS KILLING ME #All I can do is write fics 😭😭#Anyways thank you ml for having insane lore #Ngl if this wasn't a kids show I would want them to fall into a psychological horror genre #BUT HEY THE LORE IS STILL JUICY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA #I LOVE YOU MIRACULOUS MWAH MWAH #WAHHHHHH #This post is only real bc I'm writing LMAOOOOO #It just made me realize that I can go to deeper levels and mess them up KSJDKDKDKDKDKDMDJKDDJDJ #I WILL RUIN EVERYTHING AND MAKE THEM SUFFER #try and stop me #I DARE U #God created me to make my faves suffer <3 #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #miraculoustalesofladybugandcatnoir #miraculous lb #ml #ml spoilers #just to be safe #mlbposting #kai talks

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daily-snufkin · 4 months ago

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Dear friends,

I am going to be super late again, I need to include Mymble slamming a police officer to the ground, but I am struggling a bit with anatomy. I will manage though. Hopefully.

Fueled with spite,

Mun.

#dont reblog this one please. im deleting later #mun's munning #totally not self projection of what im itching to do #drawing this is the closes thing I've got rn.#the gov is so bad rn man.#i wanna scream more stuff but that qould just pin point me faster lmao #like the sui rate probably went down because people are fueled with spite to live after the gov told us to just kys #this country is run by clowns istg.#you can guess what country im talking about but i wont confirm anything. and stay safe no matter where you are.#i shouldn't be talking politics in a tumblr daily blog tags rn but im deleting this later #so whatever. plus its been affecting me enough taht it's making it harder to draw #okay back to drawing violence. sighs. if only slam dunk the gov day was a thing

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batz · 16 days ago

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#soooooooo excited abt moving out even if its stressing me out soo bad #having everything packed up makes it easier - we're all just figuring out the financial portion #but my mom is not taking it well at all and keeps Being Loud and talking abt how everyone hates her #and like.... man idk . if she didnt traffc me and exclusively befriend violent p-dos her entire adult life maybe ppl would like her LMAOOO #frank.txt #her current thing is trying to convicne me that parents bringing their kids to 'nonsexual kink parties' is normal it is NOT btw #if it was i would not have been the only 8 year old at those parties. LMAO.#i mean its not funny its sick . but if i dont laugh i will have a full blown mental breakdown abt how Not Normal it all was so. HFSHDDKDJ #i was almost kidnapped at one of those parties. v grim moment that ive been thinking abt a lot #anyway yayyyyyyy sooo excited to move out and get more therapy!!!!!!!! yippeeeeeee #delete later /#abuse m #csa m #one thing i will say is that talking abt this stuff openly and realizing im not the only person who had a childhood like ths has -#- made me more Sane #also nice knowing ppl who had similar childhoods can still grow up to live a Safe n Normal life #like plssss i just wanna feel safe like . Once ! preferably #just gotta deal with a few more weeks of gaslighting and loud noises and then we are GONE

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monimolimnion · 4 days ago

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sometimes a yaoi man who is drawn in a way that looks more like a spider than a human being can be so personal

#when michiru sonoo made mito a princess in a tower kept safe by everyone around him and therefore imprisoned in his own frailty I Felt That #extremely called out by the whole thing really #sometimes you read a manga and plunge immediately into comical levels of victorian-era romantic malaise. this was one of those times #and i cant even read the whole thing properly yet lmao. lmaoo #i wish she wrote f/f because her writing just reaches into my chest and Grisps and i think if a yuri made me feel seen the way her works do #it would rewire my brain permanently #momo talks #edit from a few days later i just found an old fanbox post of hers and i need to talk about it so here will do #she thinks of mito as strong.#oh my god he's STRONG.#iku says it a million times and i just never heard him because i was too busy woobifying mito and therefore myself. he's a tyrannosaur #in her own words. he is only ever angry quietly but he is a strong strong man.#it's true that the people who loved him could never help him because they were afraid they'd break him #because he didnt know how to ask for help and they never offered it #so they just left him there. in a tower.#in a trunk.#for twenty five years in the darkness.#they couldnt help him BECAUSE they loved him so much and that's why he needed iku. but i. augh #it bothers me. because what spoke to me most was his frailty because that's how i feel #and the idea of being rescued from my own frailty by someone who i could open my heart to and help heal in my own way. appealed.#but she doesnt think of him as frail.#she thinks he is strong.#it's like the camera shifted. i am strong too.#if she made him and put me in there somehow and thinks he is strong. then i must be too.#i have had my years of darkness too and i never stopped searching either. i am still searching. i never stop trying despite everything.#i am still in my trunk and nobody knows how to help me either because they love me.#they loved him too much to risk breaking him. and the distance that agonises me that i can't close because i fear breaking myself #is the same thing.#delete later #<- ironic use of tag so i can find this later because i never do end up deleting any of these.

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coridallasmultipass · 18 days ago

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#omg butterscotch pudding is fucking MINE #i bought a box a while ago but then executive dysfunction about looking up online how to make it w nondairy #i know my stomach is upset rn but i got a massive hankerin for sweet #i have none of my regular almond milk for a while bc i havent been able to go to the store #i check the cupboard and YES. FUCKING YES. A CAN OF COCONUT MILK. I WAS GONNA COOK (SAVOURY FOOD) WITH IT BUT NOPE #and i know coconut milk will thicken without additives if u cook it long enough so i figure its safe to use #and yes. yes yes yesssss pudding omg #omg its so good hot ughhh #i could cry man #i knew i had a can of coconut cream but i wasnt sure if i used the coconut milk already #seriously i could write a ton about how fucked my situation with eating has been over the past year (orthodontics)#but especially because of the old fridge breaking recently and how i havent been able to go to the store #and money obviously lmao #holy fuck the pudding i really could cry #i needed this so badly #vent / /#personal / /#ShitPost.exe #delete later / /

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aromanticasterisms · 20 days ago

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khaenri'ah focused patch ohhh my god

#personal stuff #delete later #just watched the trailer. WOOO. NO IDEA WHAT'S GOING ON.#skirk looks cool though. do hope she gets a foul legacy transformation in a cutscene or smth though #her tail in her skill form looks sooooooo cute #WAIT tartaglia's passive increasing normal attack dmg. he buffs her a little omg #also sword dahlia is so funny to me i thought he was going to be a catalyst???#HYDRO SHIELDER DAHLIA MY DREAMS HAVE COME TRUE OHH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!#his skill being a mini version of venti's skill 🥺🥺🥺 wait the preview for it just being Launch Your Friends #and DAINSLEIF MY FRIEND DAINSLEIF...#whooooo was that npc with inteyvats in her hair.#what do you mean five hundred years in the past. is the abyss sibling time traveling what's going on #ALSO THE SPACESHIP????#I ALWAYS ASSUMED THE TWINS JUST LIKE. HAD MAGIC THAT KEPT THEM SAFE FROM THE VOID OF SPACE #TRAVELER'S TALES 2 YEAHHHH WOOOO #thoma in mondstadt oh my GOD. YAYY #was hoping we would get that in an event or story quest but i'm just happy to see it. happy to see kaeya again as well <3 #alsoo. no mare jivari. if the rumor we're getting that as a limited-time area instead of a summer event is true i'll be so sad. augh #AND STILL NO FUCKING DORNMAN PORT. MAN COME ON. can they at least release it with nod-krai or something my god #the nod-krai teaser AUUUUUUGH <3 #music is so nice <3 and all the new designs woooo.#the new fatui enemies + hi dottore + blond varka head in hands + ALICE DESIGN REVEAL WOOO #she looks like klee's outfit 🥺🥺🥺#THE END OF HER HAIR IS IN BRAIDS OH MY GOD I WAS RIGHT?? I STAY WINNING????#snooped on the va's mentioned. i think the girl with inteyvats is voiced by vita's va???#IN THE PATCH ABOUT SPACE TRAVEL??

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lapsed-lys · 1 year ago

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Getting teary-eyed over here. A transphobe was going on about some ''gotcha'' argument they had and it lead me to research for 3h on the subject between reading studies, reading articles, watching Youtube videos from professionals and trans experiences. And, again, nothing like research shows that trans people matter and are cared about.

We have our place in the world, we have our place in the healthcare system, we have our place in justice, we have our place in debates. We do not have a place in your bigotry arena where you punch down on us without thinking.

Do people who hold negative opinions of trans people ever research as much? Do they read articles from various sources, both right-wing and left-wing, both professional and anecdotal experiences? Do they meet trans people in real life and go ''disgusting being'' when they so gloriously smile and greet you?

Tumblr keeps sending me transphobes on my dash and in my inbox. I won't shut up. I will uplift my siblings, because I actually care enough to research before spouting my opinions heavy enough to matter in human rights.

Happy pride month y'all, to my queer, trans, intersex, detransitionners and outcasted folks.

#you know #when that person told me trans women couldn't breastfeed you know what i did? spend 3h searching and reading.#and yeah actually they can. there's nuance of course but nothing that is exclusive to trans women #(''getting drugs'' to lactate for trans women is... the same drugs as cis women. literally the same though domperidone is controversial #since forever. it's not because of trans women. cis women talked about it years before 2018 with the first breastfeeding trans woman)#ANYWAYS transphobes don't research nor interact with trans people irl sooo #i'm just sobbing over the fact that we have proven that it's possible and safe to do so. isn't observations of His Creation just wonderful?#trans #transgender #delete later #trans christian #trans catholic #queer christian #queer catholic #lgbt #lgbtqia+#2slgbtqia+

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sankttealeaf · 6 months ago

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gamers. i miss the sun :(

#i miss being able to go outside and not immediately get sick #been in a weird headspace lately and i can kinda feel myself using things as escapism but thats not a good idea #but also. what can ya do?#its cold. its dark at like 3pm. im sick all the time. i cant do anything except sit at home bc its safe #but also ive been soooo in my head lately even tho i cant do anything!!#the sun will come out again and i'll feel better soon but ohhhhh my god i am going through it #last year i had something to project my sad energy into (writing) and im trying to do the same this year but hm #idk #weird brain time #delete later t!!!#not to mention the horrible comparison my brain keeps doing lately. like dude. shut the fuck up?#im so *screaming*#im gonna stop venting in the tags now lol and go to sleep im tired

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lunearch · 11 months ago

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artist alley day 1:

tl;Dr bad day

got in early, got my booth the rest of the way set up. I'm learning a lot of stuff I'll want to do different next time but I'm still p pleased with how my setup looks in the end.

and then the actual day started, and things got rapidly worse.

I just ... didn't sell anything. by the end of the day I was about half way to covering my table fee, which means if I'm lucky I might break even this weekend. could be worse I guess - but that still makes this the worst market I've done this year (from a pure finances perspective), and I'm reeling that something I was so excited for could turn out this poorly. plus I'm really close to a bunch of rhythm arcade games and having to listen to 3+ simultaneous sound tracks would drive me crazy on the best of days.

I'm very very grateful that I had a friend offer to help out and I was able to leave the booth with them and go hide out in the bathroom when I got too thoroughly overwhelmed, around 5 hours in. and they kept me company the rest of the day, which was immensely kind and really kept me sane.

I'm really embarrassed. this has to be the most public place I've ever broken down before, and it's really easy to see when I've been crying. it's taking a lot of effort to be kind to myself right now.

the day wasn't a complete failure - I met a ton of really nice people, saw some really cool cosplays and two live parrots, learned a lot about how this sort of event operates. saw well over a dozen Mikus, which warms my heart. Miku if you're reading right now hiiiiii ily. dug through my file folders and found a smattering of old old fanart which I'm printing out right now. not a lot, but I imagine at this point anything will be better than what I have right now. too much original work for this space, not nearly enough blorbos.

day 2 should be better, or if nothing else, far shorter. and I have a month between this and comic con, enough to implement what I'm learning here. as much as it sucks I'm really glad I'm leaning this all now and not at comic con.

ugh! wish me luck tomorrow.

#rambling #might delete later idk #i don't usually share much personal stuff online #but this is like my most quiet account and it feels relatively safe to be messy here #and i need to get this out of my head so i can move on and go to sleep #if anyone has advice for artist alley tabling I'd love to hear it

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baekura · 7 months ago

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#nothing has fueled my adrenaline during a workout more than the news i received yesterday that my brother voted for the annoying orange #i guess it shouldn't be a shock to me that he's gone down the pipeline of insecure cishet white man to conservative christian trump voter #but it's so wild and feels like it completely caught me off guard for some reason #like i feel like he was one of my biggest advocates and most trusted people in my life and now i don't know what i can trust to tell him lo #and i don't want to have to have conversations about religion or gender or politics when i hang out with him #we already talked about so much yesterday and he said we'll probably never agree about ''modern gender ideology''#but this is also coming from someone who said he would not go on a second date with someone who believes we live in a patriarchy #and made a comment about ''men competing in women's sports under the guise of being women''#like okay cool. good to know where we stand and that I shouldn't feel as safe around you as i have for so much of my life. womp womp #delete later

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 8 months ago

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i can feel...... the mental illness...... clawing its way into the forefront of my mind........

#touched a Bad object saw another Bad object realized that nothing and noone is safe saw someone coigh into their hands and not wash them at #school today im going to die. i feel SICK this whole house is INFECTED and i cant fix it without everyone leaving forever i need to set all #my shit on fire and set everyone else's shit on fire and i need to destory my sister's shoes they make me want to die seeing them makes me #feel fucking crazyyyy i hate them so much theyre evil she has so many shoes but she wears the Bad ones all the time i think i actually will #find a way to get rid of them and ough i need to vacuum but yhe vacuum is dirty bc it was last used in a Bad room and i need to clean the #bathroom but i feel like im gonna tear my skin off and i need everyone out of the house so i can fix everything but i never get the house #empty and the garage the fucking garage i fucking hate the garage i had to do laundry today and the washer n dryer are in the #garage and the garage is so Bad and dirty so im bad and dirty and i need to take a shower but even when i get out of the shower i can never #be clean because this whole house is fucking infected but u can never get it empty the properly clean it we have too many cats too many ppl #too much stuff i need to burn this place to the ground i need to BLOW IT UP WITH MY MIND #vent #to delete later