#so i can edit it either tonight or tomorrow but like. I want it done for before monday is over for sure

[weirdcharacter]

List of stuff to do before october arrives:

finish writing The Myth of König

(Possibly) edit The Myth of König

send the story to friends

Work on Sacrificed (format of the story)

Work on sacrificed (plot)

Do hw of course

Keep up with classes of course

go back to my grandma's house to get some bricolage material

make a lil guy out of papier maché and take it as my first steps in manual arts/ miniatures

think about my chrishmas list

prepare for Nanowrimo

socialize (if i got some energy and time left for that lmaoo)

[ln4swiftie]

Black and (Fluro) Yellow

🕷️ln4 x reader

🕷️ lando if he was spider-man

🕷️warnings: panic attack, kinda angst idk notes: hill the fluro suit had me thinking and this

🕷️ a/n: this is barely edited and kinda bad but enjoy!! <33 also im trying to write more so gimme ideas

The final bell rang through your ears as the school day ended and the bustle of the weekend was underway. You packed up your books, waving a polite goodbye to your teacher and made your way to your locker. You felt a pinch in your side and you swung your head to find your boyfriend, Lando looking at you with a goofy smile. “Hey where did you come from!?” you smile up at him while you continue to empty your belongings into their home for the weekend. “Calculus, i swear if i have to listen to that man talk about quadratics for another minute i'm going to lose more brain cells than gain.” he complains. “Well at least now we get to go and do nothing.” you say as you wrap your arms around his waist and place your chin on his chest. “About that..” he sighs and you know what's coming.

He's been blowing you off for weeks. It started with little things such as not saying goodbye before leaving school or not seeing each other between class periods. But now he's been completely ditching you. He refuses to tell you why and you’re starting to worry if you’ve done something wrong. You deflate as you prepare to ask him what the excuse this time is when your phone chimes in your pocket. “Oh it's laur..” you click the link your friend sent, you gasp “what the fuck”. Lando looks at you puzzled as you flip your phone around to show him.

It's a video of the new vigilante known as “spiderman” beating a man to a pulp in some alleyway, throwing punch after punch until the man was on the ground bloody and bruised. Once the beating was done Spiderman is shown swinging away before the video cuts off. “Did he just kill that guy-” “No. he didn't.” Lando cuts you off quickly. The slightest clench in his jaw and tense in his shoulders did not go unnoticed. “Well how can you know for sure…he was hitting him pretty hard.” you counter. “You can see the guy moving before he swings away.” he says firmly, as if he knew this as a fact. Spiderman showed up about a month ago, earlier sightings of him have consisted of him helping cats down from trees and escorting the elderly across the road. The public had grown to love him and his friendly neighborhood activities. But recently, he's been violent and the city has been working to catch him. Unfortunately with the identity of the spider being unknown, the police have come back empty handed. Lando gently takes your hands into his as he changes the topic “Look, I'm sorry but Max wants me to help him with his physics homework and he's got a test tomorrow. So I will see you tomorrow okay?” he says softly. He can see the hurt in your eyes as you give him a slight nod and a quick kiss before walking off towards the bus station.

Lando hates how he's been treating you these past weeks. Blowing you off for shitty excuses that he knows are shitty but he can't stomach telling you the true reason why. He's watching you walk off as he feels his best friend clap him on the back of his neck “you ready for tonight boss?” Max says in his ear. He notices Lando's stare and follows his eyes to where they've been trained to follow. “No lando we cant think like this” shaking his head. “You'll see her tomorrow.” he firmly reassures his friend who's beginning to question the late night activities he's been doing for the past month. “I'm not sure about that max..” he sighs “i cant keep watching her deflate everytime i cancel on her” he says quietly. “You could just tell her-” “NO.” Lando shouts, shooting his head towards max. Telling you would be like pouring sea salt into an open wound. Lando would rather give up everything, than tell you the truth about where he is at night. “Okay okay! Don't tell her, but either way..you're going out tonight.” Max says, putting his hands up in surrender as he begins to walk towards the student parking lot to his car. He turns around towards Lando who's still stood next to your locker staring in the direction you walked off in. “you coming or what?” After a beat of contemplation, with a heavy sigh, Lando makes his way to Max's car.

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You were sat on your bed, doing homework on your ipad. You Glanced at the time, double taking the clock sat on your nightstand when you see the number it read. Holy shit. you’ve been here since you got home at 4pm…it was now 6:30 pm. You jump off your bed and quickly check your phone, expecting a million texts and calls from Lando wondering what you're doing and complaining about Max's inability to understand the basics of physics.

Nothing. Not a single text.

You feel your heart drop. He hasn't texted you in 5 hours when he asked you to meet before you left school for the week. The tears prick your eyes as you check your other notifications seeing nothing from your boyfriend. Could he be cheating? No. he would never do that to you. But would he?

Your thoughts race through your mind as the panic begins to set into your chest causing your breathing to become uneven. Your vision starts to swim and your phone falls to the floor, your arms going numb. You hear your mom call your name for dinner but the noise goes in your left ear and immediately out the right. As if you have been submerged underwater. You feel your legs give out and you land ass first at the foot of your bed.

The loud thud heard from the kitchen causes your mom to shout for you again to pulse check.. When nothing was heard back she rushed upstairs to the source of the noise. When she finds you in hysterics she's in front of you instantly, cupping your face to wipe the tears. She helps you steady your breathing and bring you back down from your panic attack. “What's got you so worked up sweetheart?” she softly asks and she moves to your side. You explain everything that's been going on with Lando recently. She thinks for a moment before she speaks up “how about, we get some food in you. Then I drop you off at his place and you two can talk this out.” she offers. You give her a small smile, nodding as the two of you get up and make your way downstairs to eat dinner.

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You stare at the apartment door marked with the 4 before you bring your hand up to knock. The door opens revealing landos Mom, Cisca. “Oh hi honey what brings you here?” she asks, letting you inside the apartment. “I was hoping Lan was home.” She gives you a sympathetic smile, shaking her head. “No not yet, but he should be soon. How about you go wait in his room for him and I'll bring you a cup of tea.” you nod weakly and wander towards Landos room as Cisca moves to the kitchen. You leave the door ajar and lie on the bottom bunk of his bed, eyes darting around the room, flashing memories of the past 2 years that have been written in the walls. You turn your body towards the wall snuggling into the comfort of Landos smell embedded into the sheets you’ve spent countless hours in. your eyes start to feel heavy as sleep takes over your body. deciding a small nap while you wait couldn't hurt, you let your mind drift off.

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You’re woken by the sound of the window opening. finding that you're still alone in lando’s bed you sit up hoping it's him just opening up the window. You look over to find the window open, yet no one next to it. You think nothing of it due to the wind and sit up to reach for the cup of tea Cisca left you on the nightstand while you slept. You sip your tea sat on the bunk as your eye catches a figure on the ceiling. Yes, the ceiling. You see that black and fluorescent yellow suit you’ve seen all over social media for the last month crawling around on the ceiling of your boyfriend's bedroom. What the fuck is spiderman doing in Landos bedroom?! You thought to yourself as the man gently lowered himself onto the floor and reached for his mask, removing it.

And that's when you saw him.

Those curls you run your fingers through whenever you get the chance to. Those curls you help tame when he takes his hat off after a long day. Those curls you love with your whole heart. Those curls which belonged to the boy you loved who was currently standing with his back to you, wearing spidermans suit.

You gasp, causing lando to look up and freeze. He doesnt turn around to face you, he knows who he's going to see. He knows it's over. The moment he's been dreading since that spider bit him that night. He's going to have to explain his past month and a half to the one person he didn't want knowing about this. The one girl he wanted to keep protected from this new hobby he's got himself tangled up in. and yet here he was frozen, staring at the picture frame sitting on his dresser.

The picture of him and you from the first time you went to the London eye. The picture is you two at the top with Landos hands around your waist and your arms swung around his neck. Your faces are squished together wearing the brightest smiles on your faces. Looking back, Lando wishes he could stay in that moment forever, frozen in time. But he knows that can't happen.

He slowly turns around to face you and look you in the eyes. Your lips slightly parted due to shock and hair slightly messed up from your nap. The mug slips through your fingers and falls to the floor shattering and spilling the lukewarm tea. “Shit” Lando whispers as he springs to action, grabbing the towel from the back of his door to soak up the tea, he looks up to you “are you okay? No cuts?” you're frozen, unable to speak, staring at him in that suit. All you can do is nod at him while he gently picks up your feet, placing them loosely on his bed while he cleans up the broken mug. You pick at your fingernails anxiously while you wait for him to finish cleaning.

After a few minutes he sits down next to you, freshly changed into a hoodie and sweatpants. Your eyes are trained on your lap where your hands sit pulling on the thread of the hoodie that you’re wearing. After what feels like hours of silence you’ve had enough “why didn't you tell me?.” you demand, you want answers. You want to know how your boyfriend and who you considered to be the love of your life became the person who you see brutally abusing people in alleyways. He turns to look at you, eyes full of regret. He opens his mouth to answer you but you cut him off, cupping his face. “fuck what happened?!” you stand up looking for a first aid kit when lando stands up to stop you, grabbing your hands “baby, baby stop it's okay max already helped me clean it and it’ll heal by the mornin-” “MAX KNOWS??!??!” you shout a little too loud for lando’s liking. He puts his hand over your mouth, shushing you so you don't wake his mother. “yes max knows because he was with me when it happened” he explained calmly, hoping his emotions will radiate onto you.

He slowly releases your mouth and you sit back down “are you gonna let me explain to you how this happened now?” he raises an eyebrow waiting for your answer. You give him a nod to continue and he takes a deep breath.

He began to explain how one night walking home from your house with max a radioactive spider bit him. He explains how Zac Brown, one of the richest men in the country, approached him and helped him understand his powers and the new responsibilities that come with them. He even was the person to make Landos suit for him.

“I'm really sorry that I’ve been a shit boyfriend recently, i never wanted you to get caught in this” he says, playing with your hands. You can't help but giggle “Here I was thinking you were cheating on me yet you were out fighting crime.” he chuckles, pressing a kiss to your forehead before resting it against your own “never in a million years my love” he says. “How about we get some sleep?” He smiles, squeezing your hands intertwined with his. Agreeing that this conversion should happen with a good night's rest. The two of you move to lie down in Landos bed cuddled against one another. Your head rests on Lando’s chest with his arms wrapped around you like you'd disappear the second he let go. As sleep beings to take over you hear a faint “i love you” coming from the boy beside you. You look up to see him already meeting your eyes “i love you too” you smile, kissing his chest before falling asleep with him safe and sound.

[sloanerisette]

You Need A Promotion, I Want A Shake Up, So Let's Get Married! Chapter 3

Here's chapter 3! This is a big one, so I hope you're all ready! Did some pretty intensive edits on it (not as much as chapter 2) and I'm pretty happy with the end result! So I hope you all enjoy it!

Chapter Summary: It's the aftermath of the hospital fundraiser and Mimi's big birthday party, and things aren't going great for either of them. But, Jou still has a gift to give Mimi and doesn't want to let her down, so the two of them agree to meet up. After some catching up, Mimi hatches a plan and throws an incredibly unexpected question his way.

There will be a short blurb under the read more, but you can read the whole chapter on AO3 HERE!

Jou slowly opened his eyes.

The light shining through the blinds, right onto his face, caused him to squint as he pawed for his glasses on the nightstand. Somehow he managed to make it through last night with little more than a completely drained social battery and a headache from the glass and a half of champagne he nursed.

Well, there was also the overwhelming feeling of guilt he had from not making it to Mimi’s party…

He didn’t have it in him to sneak out of the fundraiser after the way his father tore into him. His father’s words lingered in Jou’s mind the entire night as he did his best to talk with their guests, and he felt like he did pretty well considering how he usually was.

Jou was set to go to Mimi’s party once it was all done, but talking with his father after the fact dashed his motivation in an instant.

***

“So… it seems like tonight went well…” Jou said with a shaking voice as he approached his father. The guests had already left and the two of them were standing out in front of the hospital. There was a bite to the late night air, and Jou held back a shiver.

“We might get another couple of investors soon, too,” Director Kido said, staring straight ahead, his hands in his pockets.

“Oh, really?” Jou asked. His father nodded.

“I have a meeting with a few business partners of Hideki-san’s soon.”

“That’s really wonderful!” Jou smiled. He had done his fair share talking to some of the hospital’s business partners, as exhausting as it was, but if it could’ve helped even a little bit, then it was well worth it.

“Mm. I’ll probably be taking Kitamura with me for it. I’m sure they’ll like him.”

Though his father said it so nonchalantly, at the same time it was so pointed that it was painful. Jou glanced away, his shoulders slumping as a frown tugged at his lips. As much as he would’ve hated dealing with a business lunch as opposed to actually working, it would’ve at least been nice to be considered for it.

He opened his mouth, but quickly closed it when his father looked his way. The man raised an eyebrow, and Jou clamped up, standing ramrod straight and looking straight ahead.

“Well, make sure you aren’t late tomorrow,” his father added.

With that, he walked to his car, leaving Jou standing at the curb alone.

[melodygatesauthor]

Weekly Update - 05/18/2023

Hey all! I think I'm going to start doing weekly updates since I have a lot going on and a lot of fics in the works! I want you to know what I'm currently working on (WIPs) and I'll also toss some life updates in here as well. I'm also going to mention requests I have in the pipeline and when I'm expecting to complete them. Maybe your request is in there! (It probably is)

Going forward the updates will be on Sunday, I'm just doing this now because I have ADHD and it's on my mind today lol.

Since I've been really following the winds of inspiration lately, I want to keep doing that so I'm just putting this here so you know where the winds are blowing lmao.

I'll also mention if I think my current longfic is going to be delayed or anything here as well.

Gonna cut it up into sections to keep it consistent and easy:

Long/Chaptered Fic Updates

Currently I'm working on A Bit Dodgy, as many of you know. There will NOT be an update this Monday (05/22/2023). Though I will be working on it this week for @welcometostayingawake to edit and I'll have it to post by 05/29/2023 (that's the goal). If it's going to be pushed back again, I'll let you all know the Sunday before (05/28/2023).

Mini-series Update

Worth the Risk Part 3 should be out this week. That's the goal anyway. I have a good chunk of it done but there's still a lot to do. <- Still hoping to have this out this week but we will see (05/22/2023)

Uploading The Fractured Moon Part 2 (either tonight or tomorrow yay) Continuing to chip away at The Fractured Moon Part 3

There's a top secret fic series coming out HOPEFULLY this weekend, but it may be next weekend instead depending on how quickly I can get it finished. I'm losing my mind over it. (It's a 3 parter and all 3 parts are coming out at the same time teehee) <- Editing that today 05/22/2023. Hope to be done with it by tonight!

In June there's a writing challenge for Pride that @flightlessangelwings is putting on and I'm working on my fic for that so I'll be announcing more for that fic once I have the details better outlined!

Fool Me Twice should be getting a part 2 soon. I'm hoping I'll feel inspired to at least start it this week but maybe not. <- Taking this off the list for this week. Focusing on ABD and requests (05/22/2023).

Still considering doing 2 other parts for The OJ Problem but honestly, it's not that exciting to me rn. Since it's more of a Valentine's Day fic I might consider just doing those next year. <- Taking this off the list for this week. Focusing on ABD and requests (05/22/2023) will probably just put this on for next year for valentine's day.

Requests

I still have a sizeable amount of requests. REQUESTS ARE STILL CLOSED CURRENTLY. If your request is in blue, that means I'm going to try to work on it this week (05/21-05/27). If it's in pink, I'm going to try to work on it a different week. It's taking me a while to get into the headspace for some of them so thank you for your patience. Green means it's done I'm just working on editing now. They are posted in no real order, just working on them as I feel inspired to.

Blue Jones X f!Reader requested by @saraicus

There are 2 prompts in particular that I liked from the list you sent so I'll be doing them. - His eyeliner running down as he’s banging you against his desk - You’re a new patient and he just grows overprotective towards you. Doesn’t want you to meet other men and keeps you in solitary confinement for his jealousy sake.

Moon Boys X f!Reader by @ravenz-hope

Gamer reader and the boys getting angsty over her being too obsessed with the game (most relatable thing ever) <- Haven't had the time to set up the post but this will be coming out very soon. Need to finish editing as well (05/22/2023)

Moon Boys X f!Reader by @simpforbritgents

Asking for something like Feeling Flustered where the moon boys are doing guided phone sex.

Moon Boys X f!Reader by @mercuryrosesixx

Moon Boys w/ a f!Reader w/ nipple piercings. <- Started working on headcanons (05/22/2023).

Marc Spector X f!Reader by @blueflowerhat

Marc shower sex based on AI prompt.

Steven Grant X f!Reader by Anon -

Steven and Reader are both virgins. Marc is guiding/coaching Steven.

Doctor Marc Spector X Patient Reader by @burnincrown

Role Reversal (sort of) of Not a Doctor - Marc is the doc, reader is the patient and he takes advantage - Dark Fic

Nathan Bateman X f!Reader by @campingwiththecharmings

This is the prompt that hit me like a Nathan-shaped mac truck! -> “if you don’t like my teasing why are you moaning”

Nathan Bateman X f!Reader by Anon

Cam girl reader x Nathan - Nathan turns to a cam girl, he's been kinda stalking her. (Excited hehe)

That's it for right now. I'm a busy lady as usual but I like having a few different projects going at once! More coming soon! Thanks for always being so awesome and supportive. Love you all!

[polite-pandemonium]

it’s the last thing you wanted (it’s the first thing I do): preview

Guess who, as the result of a combination of reading too many romance novels, planning a trip to Japan, and listening too much Taylor Swift, started WRITING A NEW FIC? 

ME. 

Anyway, here’s a quick preview to hold me accountable. I’M GOING TO MAKE IT A ONE-SHOT. And I have told myself I’m not allowed to go back tomorrow and edit/rewrite the hell out of the 2,000 words I wrote tonight cause I will decide I hate it and this thing will never get done. 

Takeru/Hikari, future fic, heavily inspired by The Alcott by The National featuring Taylor Swift. 

Would love any thoughts/encouragement etc etc. 

She spots Takeru immediately upon entering the bar; she can feel him before she registers him, because as usual, he’s taken her breath away. 

In her late teens, angsty and horny, Hikari had lamented to herself about how unfair it was that her best friend was that beautiful. All golden hair and soft blue eyes, a sharp jaw and broad shoulders. It felt deeply unjust that she was expected to be around such beauty practically every day of her life — had practically been around it nearly every day of her life so far — and wasn’t supposed to touch. 

Well. She hadn’t done so well in that last regard, which almost made it worse; having a taste of what you ultimately couldn’t have was torture. 

This beauty was carried into adulthood. There he was, sitting at a table in the back, a notebook open in front of him and a glass of something amber in his hands. His hair was longer than he normally kept it, strands falling out from under his beanie and into his eyes. He wore a simple, oversized cream coloured sweater, jeans that had been cuffed, and loafers. His jaw tensed as he scribbled something down. 

Hikari knew without checking that he likely had the attention of every woman in the room. 

She swallows, feeling suddenly nervous. As she takes a step forward, Takeru’s eyes meet hers. 

His face splits into a grin upon seeing her and he waves. 

She makes it to their seats at the bar so fast, it’s like she’s being lifted by the air itself. His grin grows larger, though it seems physically impossible, and his eyes sparkle. 

“Hikari-chan,” he practically whispers, standing to hug her. “It’s been a while.” 

His arms envelope her and she is hit with a shock that feels like she’s being electrocuted. He is warm and sturdy in a way that is intensely familiar and entirely different. She wraps her arms around him hesitantly, feeling shy at the public affection (it must be all his travelling that makes him so comfortable to embrace her in the middle of a crowded bar). He squeezes her around the middle and she tucks her face into his neck, breathing in his scent. 

“Takeru-kun,” she murmurs, shifting her cheek against his sweater. “It's good to see you.”

He feels like home. And yet…

He pulls back, his grin soft and his eyes softer. He gestures for her to sit before taking his seat and snapping his notebook closed. 

“Do you want to order a drink?” he asks, gesturing for the bartender. “I wanted to get you something, but I wasn't sure what you were drinking these days.”

Hikari feels herself stiffen, stung at his words. 

She’s not even sure why. It’s not like she knows what he’s drinking these days either. 

x x x

A few minutes of slightly awkward conversation between them later, the bartender slides her drink over to her. It taps the edges of Takeru’s notebook and she glances down at it. 

She wonders what words live in those pages. She wonders what he has written lately, today. Did he write that he was coming to meet her? Did he write about how that made her feel? 

Did he write about her at all these days? Or was she now a character of the past, having fulfilled her supporting role in his earlier novels? 

Cause even if he didn’t write about her now, he certainly had written about her. Oh, how he had written about her. 

He had written about their adventures as children, about the deep kinship they felt, about their undeniable connection. He had written about the promise he had made Sora to protect and how as they got older, he took that promise more and more seriously. He had written about how brave she was to him, how awe inspiring, at ages eight and eleven and fourteen. 

He had written about the shared weight they had held, being not just Chosen Children, but somehow special Chosen Children. He had written about how confusing that was, given that no one outside one floaty deity had ever bothered to explain what that meant — and the deity hadn’t been one hundred percent clear.  

He had written about how she was truly the only one to understand him, how without her friendship, he felt like he would be missing his other half. He had written about her in great, flowery detail, describing how beautiful she was to him at nineteen and twenty-one.  He had written about the feelings he had had for her, so pure, so deep, so complicated and all consuming. He had written about how she was basically, for all intents and purposes, the love of his life so far. 

He had never mentioned any of these things to her until they were published for the world to see. 

The last of his books to mention her had been published five years ago. 

They never discussed any of them or any of it. 

[elocinnicole]

Live Stream

Pairing: Collin Hoskins x OFC Black!Reader (Shauna Lewis) Rating: 18+ M for language, implied smut, praise kink (very slight, if you blink you might miss it) Summary: Shauna is live streaming her makeup routine when Collin makes an appearance. Requested: No, just a quick Drabble. I missed my favorite Pairing especially since I’ve been looking at Season 2 of Blindspotting. Word Count: 688

“Hey everyone! Thank you so much for the love! Keep sending in what look y’all want to see next. This was requested by one of my followers, they want a soft glam date night look. Which is perfect because my man is taking me out tonight.” Shauna smiled

Shauna started doing live streams and tutorials during the Lockdown when she couldn’t do hair. She quickly gained a decent following from her clients and then when she did the don’t rush challenge by herself she went viral. Her video gained almost a million views and was shared all over social media. Now that the pandemic is over, she still posts videos but now they’re of her doing her clients' hair or makeup. Occasionally she’ll live stream either herself or she has a client in her chair. For the most part, when she’s live streaming she’s by herself showing a makeup look, hairstyle, and most recently an outfit.

“So I’m gonna do my makeup, my hair is already done, I installed this wig yesterday and I will be posting that video on my YouTube—will I ever stream on YouTube? Probably not, I like using TikTok to stream. Who does your lashes? Me, girl! If you in Oakland come get lased by ya girl Shauna. Alright, let’s get started on these brows. Remember your eyebrows are cousins, not twins.”

Collin walked into your shared apartment after having dropped Zan off with Ashley and Sean. He has been planning this date night for months but either he had to work late, Shauna has a client, or nobody could watch Zan. Not that Collin and Shauna didn’t mind going out with Zan but sometimes they wanted to spend time together as a couple. He saw the bedroom door open which usually meant Shauna was recording content to post later on. Collin typically didn’t bother you when you were recording mainly when you were streaming, but if you were just recording a routine, Collin would at least say hi, knowing that you could edit it out.

“Alright, so here is the final look, like I said you don’t have to wear this exact outfit but this is the perfect date night look. I got this dress from Cider, the shoes, purse, and jewelry from Amazon. Don’t break ya wallet ladies, it’s not that serious. Oh, hey babe!” Shauna smiled seeing Collin standing in the doorway.

“Hey, baby.” Collin entered the room and kissed you gently, being sure not to mess up your makeup.

“How was your day?”

“Good, I’m gonna hop in the shower real quick, get changed, and we can head out. You gonna be done by then?”

“Yeah, I’m almost done. I’m not gonna post until tomorrow.” Shauna blushed at the way Collin was looking at her. Well, he didn’t have to do much to make her blush in the first place.

“I love your make up Shauna, it looks really good. I know you put a lot of time and effort into it.” Shauna smiled bashfully at the praise

“Thank you, Collin.” Then Shauna saw a familiar glint in his eyes. Before she could stop him, Collin wrapped his hand around Shauna’s neck causing her to crane her head up at him.

“I can’t wait to mess it up later,” He said huskily Shauna went wide-eyed

“Collin! I’m recording,”

“You can edit it out,” He replied grabbing Shauna by her waist and pulling her closer

“It’s live!” She stressed

“Huh?”

“I’m live right now!” Not believing her, Collin got closer, and sure enough almost 2,000 people saw and heard the whole exchange. Many people in the comments were sending laugh emojis or commenting on how cute the two of them are.

“Oh shit,” He mumbled Shauna started to playfully nudge Collin out of the bedroom. “What up y’all.”

“You about to get me shadowbanned! Go get ready.” Shauna closed the bedroom door and went back to her stream

“Alright, everyone, here’s the look I’ll post pictures on my Instagram. As you’ve seen and heard, I got some things to do. See y’all later! Bye!” sshhauna.lewis has ended the Live Stream

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[ofmermaidstories]

I just looked up what time it is in Australia (I think you are Australian?) so I could see what your tonight/tomorrow would be compared to my time zone and I picked multiple places cuz I was like “well Australia is big and probably has multiple time zones like America does” and y’all have half an hour differences???

I’m shook

Like I guess it does make a lot more sense then just a sudden cut off of a whole hour but I was so surprised

(Also plz release the chapter whenever works best for you!! If it is easier for you to wait till after leak day then def do that we can be patient!!)

hahaha, i will give you a tiny spoiler for SJLT: i share my timezone with one of the locales in the fic. Australian Eastern Standard Time. 😌

but i’m pretty sure we have timezone differences of an hour! at least on my side of the island. on the otherside i think they’re behind like 3 hours? 🤔 i might be misremembering!!!

my struggle though is that i would’ve posted the chapter last night if i had had the spoons for it LMAO. but i knew it needed editing, even if that’s just me reading over it and tightening what i can. 😩 i can be pretty impatient with myself and i would like to focus on other projects but i won’t let myself do that until the deku fic is updated. 🥹 so right now, answering this, it’s about 6pm for me, AEST on Tuesday, October the 10th. I’d like to be able to update the fic either by 11pm tonight or early tomorrow my morning, so about oh… 12 hours from now. originally i didn’t want to “compete” with whatever shenanigans might drop in the leaks tomorrow because i know people like to agonise/celebrate them if they’re big, but at the same time i am done, LOL. i am ready to update the fic and let it go, watch it sail off. 🌅😌 it’s probably smarter from a numbers POV if i wait until the weekend to upload, especially with a massive update like this (to give people time to see and read it) but, eh. i’ve always figured that the people who wanna read it will—eventually. 📖🌷

[bvannn]

Weekly Update March 8, 2024

I didn’t do as much as I had hoped over spring break due to still being sleep deprived, but tomorrow and the next night I should be able to catch up. I’m making a good deal of progress on stuff.

I figured out animation with Clip Studio enough to make a little gif of Romeo playing piano, to go along with his theme. I’m really happy with how it came out. That’s the biggest song I have ready, but I’m really close on another (unless I decide to get more ambitious, which I might), and I do have a smaller one scheduled to go up Tuesday. I’m feeling surprisingly good about music.

The main problem I’m having is kind of a ‘just finish it’ thing, where I’m just not motivated to go record melodies or melody parts for whatever reason. That’s what’s holding back a couple pieces now, but I’m hoping that I can do some tonight or tomorrow. I’m thinking tonight because I got hit with inspiration for another character theme melody, and I don’t want to lose it while I sleep tonight, but I’d feel bad starting in that when another character theme and some other miscellaneous pieces are also awaiting melodies and recordings. I’d like to knock a whole bunch out tonight, because theoretically they shouldn’t be that bad, the annoying part is dressing them up for use which doesn’t need to be done tonight. Im not sure if I want to tonight because I also want to draw, at a minimum I’ll record that character theme melody.

The other big music thing is a vocaloid cover of a song that I’m using to test out how vocaloid works. I got the audio back from the friend with the voicebanks, and it sounds a lot better than expected! There’s a couple things I do want to tweak, but I don’t think I’d be able to do it from within the program, it’ll probably be more me fiddling with the wav file. Idk song is going surprisingly well, shouldn’t be very complicated to round up instruments, I already got all the plugins set up it’s just a matter of recording. I’ve also managed to find a guy in my area who offers Guitar lessons for cheap, which I’ve been taking and I do think the two I’ve been to are helping. Maybe if I get really brazen I can record organic guitar instead of using a vst, since it should be mostly or entirely power chords, but it’s not the end of the world if I can’t.

I do want to figure out visuals to go with it. I was a little hesitant to really put in a big effort with it, until I heard that buying a license for cover rights is ‘not actually that expensive’. I don’t know if that means 10 or 200 bucks but worst case I can hold onto it until I’m comfortable enough to drop money if it’s really that expensive. I’d like to do a simple music video with the vocaloid character, since the original song’s video is also really simple, although I need to figure out character design. Might throw a few together and put up a poll.

I’ve been trying to get more drawing stuff done too, some miscellaneous animations mostly. I’m really trying to push myself to finish up the timings I need for my commission sheet, and honestly I’m pretty close. I feel bad because I probably will have to increase prices after all, but I’m also offering other options, which can still be cheap. I’m trying not to undercut myself for my level of work, but art commissions are so expensive that I don’t want to be overcharging either. Most of the comms I have done have come with tips, so I guess people are willing to pay a bit more than I was charging anyway, but even then I don’t want to crank the prices high just because a few people are willing to pay more. I’m charging based on time, I just need to sort out how long things take.

Final point, comic writing/thumbnailing is going well, I’m at 25.5/32. Unsure how bad editing is going to be, but I’m kinda editing as I go along so I don’t anticipate it’ll be that bad. I’m expecting to be able to actually start making pages soon. What comes next could either be a continuation or a pitch for the other story. I get more questions about the other story, so I’m tempted, but I also feel like it’s a harder sell than the first. Whatever I need to finish the first one first, and that’s what I’ll do.

I’m still messed up on sleep and flareups are also picking up pretty bad, but only in the mornings, so I bet if I get more sleep they’ll go away too. Either way I do have a consult for the next surgery to deal with that in a couple months, so I should hopefully be okay. Plan tonight is to either draw some more or record some stuff

[rainsoakedphoenix]

You Mean Everything - Chapter 1

This was originally a story I had on my Quotev account (which is a website for quizzes, stories, etc) that I made a profile on a decade ago, which is currently under the name Bishop. I don't see many people using that website anymore and I myself don't use it much anymore so I no longer wanted to write there. This story was first published there in December of 2020 - my last genuine update was around May of 2021. I just wanted to include this note to say this story is NOT stolen - I just made an author's note on the website a couple hours ago to say I'm transferring the story here, and that my Quotev account will be deleted in 2 weeks' time

I had intended for this to be a Gally love story, but after thinking about it, I want to make it a Newt love story as well. Their love interest is my OC Ada (pictured - faceclaim is Paige McKenzie), and this story will go off the movies, so there will be 3 books following all 3 movies.

The world and the characters of the Maze Runner belong to the creator James Dashner; I am by no means claiming to own anything other than my OC Ada and her storyline

Not proofread yet, but I will come back later and do some editing

Warnings: none that I can think of at the moment, but please let me know if I need to add any

WC: 1,199

"And this is the Medical Hut. Most likely where you're going to be working, but we'll see."

Alby had just finished explaining to me all the ins and outs of the Glade. I came up in the Box just a little while ago, scared out of my mind. Looking for a way out, but of course not finding one. I got many dirty looks upon being pulled out of the Box by a soft-eyed Newt; after hearing the whispers and looking around, I had deduced it was probably because I seemed to be the only girl. They were skeptical about the fact that an organization named WCKD would send a woman to the Glade.

Aside from the dirty looks, I also noticed a few of the guys staring at me in awe: I later learned from Alby it was because they haven't seen a girl since their memories were wiped.

"Get away from the Greenie. Get back to work," he had said.

I was thankful for the order. Having a bunch of random guys staring at me wasn't helping the fact that I was forced into a place I didn't know and couldn't even remember my name. I was told it would come back to me shortly, and that it's all you're going to get back from your life before.

"Find Chuck. Little kid with the curly hair. Can't miss 'em. He'll show you where you're going to be sleeping tonight, and then introduce you to everyone. You should be done in time for dinner. Tomorrow, we'll see which job you'll fit in with best. Good luck here."

He patted my shoulder, taking me out of my thoughts, before walking away.

"Would it have hurt to at least tell me where he is?" I muttered to myself. Sighing, I decided to just walk straight and hope I came across him.

It didn't take too long to find him. Kind of. Being the new Glader, he was actually looking around for me too. Apparently, he's excited that there's now a girl in the Glade.

"That's so cool that they sent a girl up. Some of the other guys say it's a bad thing and that we're all going to die soon."

"Who's saying that?" I quickly looked over at him, slight panic on my face. Could they be right? I mean, I don't know anything about WCKD and I just met some of these Gladers but if I were in their position, I would also find it odd that after 3 years of nothing but boys, they send a girl up. But that being a death sentence? I hope not.

"Gally, for one. And whoever is actually friends with him," was his response.

"What do you mean?"

"He's kind of a slinthead sometimes. But don't tell him I said that." He had a look of worry on his face.

All I did was laugh, "Sure thing."

After talking with him a bit longer, him showing me the sleeping quarters and helping me make my bed, it was time for dinner. According to Chuck, they mostly have either meat, potatoes and vegetables, or vegetable stew and bread for their meals. It makes sense though; they only have but so many resources here, and WCKD only sends up but so much with each new Glader. The food does smell good though, and I now realize I'm very hungry.

I decided to sit with Chuck. He's really the only person I've talked to since arriving. Talking to Alby earlier, I was getting the feeling he's one of the people that are skeptical of me being here. I guess I understand though.

"The one staring at you from over there is Gally," Chuck said to me. I looked in the direction he nodded, just in time to see Gally look away.

"He looks a little angry."

"He's always angry. I think he's also upset that a girl's here. But no matter; sorry I didn't have time to introduce you to everyone."

"It's okay," I said, "I don't think I want to meet a bunch of guys who hate me already anyway."

Chuck chuckled, then looked to the side in time to see Newt walking over to us.

"Hey Greenie. How's your day here so far?" His voice is calm; not a hint of anger or hatred from him at all. His accent and presence was calming to me. Not that I wasn't already calm. He was the first one that spoke to me when I first got here. As far as I could tell, nothing but kindness ever came from that boy. Same with Chuck.

"It's been okay. I've made a new friend already," I pointed to Chuck.

"Yeah, he's easy to get along with. If you didn't know, he was actually the Greenie before you." I looked over at Chuck. "No way."

Chuck nodded. "Yep, only been here a month. It hasn't been too bad. I got a lot of stares when I first came up in the box too, because I'm so much younger than everyone else." Sadness came over me then. Who would send a child to live like this? Here, where they have to grow all their own food to survive. Where they have to make buildings from scratch to help them stay out of rainy weather. Having to make their own bedding just to have someplace comfortable to sleep. Why are we even here?

**********************************

It didn't take me long to settle in. After a few days, I had gotten used to the stares. Knew when it was time to go to bed, and when it was time to wake up. Knew when the meal times were. Gotten used to all the blood and wounds that I had to patch up. Sometimes I would even say I enjoyed it here.

My first month here went by quickly. Surprisingly, nothing bad had happened to us. Everyone kept saying we were going to die soon, but things seem pretty normal around here to me. My name finally came to me in my sleep one night. Ada. Chuck and Newt were excited when I told them.

"It's nice to meet you, Ada," Newt had said with a smile.

A loud siren snapped me out of my thoughts. I panicked, at first thinking that I had spoken too soon and maybe that sound signaled something bad. Maybe we were going to die.

Chuck soon ran by me. "Come on! We got a new one!"

It took me a second to realize what he meant by that. I quickly followed after him to where all the other Gladers were gathered. Around the Box, where I came up from just a short month ago. Newt and Alby opened the grates in time to reveal a boy, most likely around my age, trying to hide in a corner. Gally jumped down into the Box with him, crouching down.

"Day one, Greenie. Rise and shine."

[euphoricfilter]

I was one of the people who requested something and I'm willing to wait! Please don't feel bad :( Writing isn't easy. My head feels empty from college :/ But maybe you could write about them getting caught by their mom or aunt for "our little secret"? Idk if people will like it, but I find it interesting. Or something related to painting/pics especially during smut for either of them. Tae paints reader's body? I'm thirsty lol

thank you for being so patient 🥲

my head is always empty so don’t worry 😭😭 idk how much i’ll get done today but i will have something out hopefully tonight or tomorrow because i know what i want to write it’s just getting it all down and edited that’s the problem because i re-read what i wrote like 15 times before i even properly edit 😭 i’m also reading this kinda bad, definitely written by a kid wattpad story rn so all my focus is on that and i’m addicted to finding out what happens next 😭

both of them being caught could be a good idea

EW LITERALLY THE SECOND-HAND EMBARRASSMENT just thinking about it made me wince 😭 even worse if it were the aunt that sees them. ooo what if they get ‘caught’ like the aunt finds them both in bed (maybe tae’s balls deep inside the m/c) but she thinks they’re just napping together and TAKES A PHOTO ID CRY

or if the mum catches them, maybe she’d kick the m/c out of the house and that would be tae’s perfect escape where he just buys a house on the outskirts of the city where the two of them can start a whole new life together. tae would be able to work from home so it wouldn’t be much of a problem, and the perfect excuse for his baby to cockwarm him all day while he worked :( maybe he’d train her to crave his cock, hating the feeling of her mouth or pussy being empty, and maybe if taehyung is feeling particularly mean one day he’d make her bounce on a dildo in the corner of his office while he worked— he’d made sure it was thinner, smaller than his dick just so she would whine about not feeling full enough, only for taehyung to drop a pillow on the floor between his legs so she could suckle on the head of his cock :(

oh dw there’s definitely gonna be smut, painting could be another good idea, i feel like both tae and the m/c are very artistic people, hence him buying her paint. maybe he specifically buys body paint or like edible paint so he can lather her up and then purposely make a mistake so he can lick it off of the m/c and then the smut ensues!

[ttvnadeeta]

so i edited some more of my clips. but didn't edit all of them. took a break again. 1. i made a lot of clips considering i was live for almost 13 hrs and 2. if u do it to much/edit to many at a time twitch will start saying error when u try and retitle or relength a clip. will do more in a bit. but at least there's content for u guys in the meantime.

also will do test stream either later tonight after dinner or tomorrow. whichever i feel like doing most. i need to download fall guys(if room) and test that. i did delete valorant so i could update honkai,so hopefully there's enough room for fall guys. if anything i might delete Texas chainsaw as i need live for it and i don't plan on getting live anytime soon. but yeah so gotta test out fall guys,then gotta test out golf with friends and then there's other steam games i need to test out. cuz 1. i need to see if i like them and 2. if they will capture cuz some games don't capture properly i realized when i did a similar test with some games and i had to play them off-screen. but this is also how i found new games to stream for u guys as well.

but yeah so expect a live in a few hours or tomorrow. will keep u all posted.

i probably won't update anymore regarding my clips and stuff. i guess if u really want to u can just keep an eye on my page and stuff. but i'm at least 80% done with it,so there's that.

anyways hope u all have a good rest of ur evening and until next time <3 .

[stressedlawsecretary]

Today's Focus

Why yes, that is a real replica Divas belt; Jose got it for my bday last year. That tshirt was his first gift to me, an Xmas gift; it's a limited edition AJ Lee shirt. Ft. Mariah May and Mina Shirakawa my loves #hotgirlgraps

06.26.24 - This Diva has a half day today because it is both my bestie Jose's birthday but it is also AEW day! The weekly program - Dynamite - is airing from my hometown tonight and I have tickets to the show! I would usually go with Jose - he's my wrestling bestie after all - but the lucky little shit got a media pass, so I'm going with my friend Kelly.

Work - Everyone knows I have a half day and Malvaso is a sweetheart and agreed to field any requests after 1p. Now, both CSB and JJM are downstate for CLE (ah - continuing legal education; they're at school lmao) and SJC is dealing with the kids being off school (that ended yesterday) so Idek if she's working this week lol. Should have nothing to care about but the redacting the paralegal asked me to do - and that's not due until after the 4th.

Oh, and I have to update the activities in NYM RE: the new case CSB got. Frankly, that can wait until tomorrow; I fought enough with that program yesterday just getting the major stuff in.

Background Noise - Okay I am at home, so I will have the DVR on to get stuff off. However, I also have a bunch of AEW to catch up on before this show tonight and I'm going to try and do that by watching it on mute while I like have Jeopardy on or a Steve Wilkos Show or something like that.

I did 16 YT videos yesterday, which is literally one shy of the first goal I set for the day, but I'm barely keeping even with what's coming out right now and today is not going to be a good day for YT watching.

Study - Once again, because today is a half-day I'm not really doing the 'visual study' thing. This is fine; I'm going back to the office tomorrow like normal and reading books lol.

Yesterday? Yesterday was great! Half a dozen random articles, seven of Van Gogh's letters, seven 'good news' articles, an essay "Trade Barriers in the Post War World," and a review "Some Economic Issues in Soil Resource Conservation." I would have read more, but I did actually do work that I'm paid to do. Plus mandatory training!

Extras - I have to make sure I clean out the catbox and vacuum before I leave for the event; dad's dinner will either be the takeout I do before I go (because frankly arena food is expensive as hell) or whatever hunny brings back from his family dinner (his sister is doing the pre-wedding family dinner but didn't say anything until after I bought tickets.) This means I'm not watching anything tonight except maybe a silly show if hunny wants me to wake him up when I get back. I did think ahead and the mini-essay is already done and posted; I've started working on the essay for tomorrow but like. I'll be back in the office like normal it should be fine.

I think I prepared for this event quite well!

[renee-writer]

Awake Chapter 113 Today!

AO3

“Today,” Bella thinks when she  wakes up the next morning, “they fight today.” God help us.

 

“When?” she asks when she sees Jake is up.

 

“At twilight but we are gathering to coordinate at noon,” at the look of stark terror on her face, he quickly adds, “It will be over by tomorrow.”

 

“That seems a really long time from now.”

 

“For me as well, baby.”

 

“Did they lay the trail?”

 

“I assume so but I need to find out. Will need to talk with Paul and Quil.”

 

“You need to run as a wolf.”

 

“Yes but only after I get someone here from the Cullen’s or the pack. I won’t leave you alone.”

 

“I will call Alice.”

 

“Alice can you or Tanya come by? Jake needs to check in with Sam. Oh, well can Tanya? Okay thanks. Please tell her thanks from me.”

 

“What did Alice say?”

 

“She can’t, has pre-battle stuff to do but she is sending Tanya.”

 

“Good. That will work.”

 

She nods absently as she turns to make up the bed. “You know I don’t like any of this.”

 

“I do. Me either. I don’t like that there is a sadistic vampire after my family. I don’t like having to leave you at all until we end them. But Bella, we are doing the best we can. I can trust any of the Cullen’s with you and our boys lives. If I didn’t believe that, I would pull someone from the pack or not leave at all.”

 

“I like that idea.” He takes her in his arms.

 

“I know. I won’t be gone long.”

 

“This time.”  He holds her tight.

 

This is how Tanya finds them when she walks in a moment later.

 

“Tanya, thank you for doing this.” He greets her over Bella ‘s head.

 

“Not a problem.” Her smile and tone radiant contentment. Jake knows. He knows because he gets the same sense from his wife after they make love. If only there was a way to maintain that peace within Bella. He prays she doesn’t pick up on what he knows happened between Tanya and Edward. There is enough going on right now.

 

With a deep sigh, he pulls away from her. “Gotta go.”

 

“Hurry back.”

 

“I will my love.” He bends down and kisses her, long and slow. She stumbles a bit when he is done. Sitting her down, he tells Tanya, “I will be back soon. Keep her safe. Please.”

 

“I will.”

 

He slips to the side of the house and strips, transforming. A chorus of various forms of, “Good morning, Jake.” Fills his head.

 

“Jake is a good kisser.” Tanya remarks after he is gone.

 

“Yes, he is.” A slight blush rises on her cheeks.

 

“Mommy! Daddy!” they hear Samuel call out. Bella starts to rise and Tanya stops her .

 

“I got them.” She sits back down and tries to figure out what is different about Tanya.

 

“There is something, subtle but there,” she hears her greet the boys and lift them out of their cribs. They all three soon walk into the kitchen. She gives them big hugs before Tanya places them in their high chairs where Bella feeds them breakfast.

 

“You need to eat as well.”

 

“I know. I am just so—nervous.” She edits due to the boys.

 

“I know you are  but you must keep your strength up and you must feed Faith.”

 

“Okay. Okay.” Her smile is a reflex as she hears younger Jake in her words and tone. As she sits down to eat, she asks Tanya, “So did you and Edward get ready for tonight?”

 

“Well, I will be here with you guys but, yes we did.” Her smile tells Bella there is more to the story.

 

“Oh, that’s good.” She breaths out as her head lowers away from the golden eyes.

 

“Bella, your not upset, are you? I know how happy you are with Jacob.”

 

“Oh, I love Jake.  He and our children are my whole world. I just want the same kind of for him and you.”

 

“That’s very sweet Bella. I do love Edward, after a fashion.  I understand your meaning but, sometimes you just have to be satisfied with what is before you.”

 

“All done.” Samuel ‘s pronouncement draws their attention to them.

 

“Are you now.” Tanya lifts them down from the high chairs while their mama sits thinking.

 

“She is talking about settling.  That’s the last thing I want for Edward. But there is nothing I can do about it.

 

“I will change them and get them ready for the day.” Bella tells her.

 

Tanya watches her leave thinking.” I hope I didn’t upset her but she has a right to know.”

[godlovesmemore]

a d d e r a l l & I got high driving again.

did not get pulled over by police. took more then last time but was more careful/safe — besides popping them while driving. was it cool? no but theres the rush when it feels illegal. i spaced them all out and thought about each one. the first one was genuinely because i was due for one and i forgot to take it before i started driving. that one was legal.

on the second one i knew it was more than necessary. i questioned my motives — is this my addiction talking ? its me and yes both are true. i also felt in my heart god said its ok to go ahead so i didn’t question the gut instinct. by this I mean it was a calling to do it and not a want of my own, my want comes after from curiosity, the pull where will this pill (direction) lead this time, good or bad? if i know its gods call i should take it, trust, break the law. if you’re not sure ask permission. be sure god says its ok, not yourself. then it’ll work out

By the time i took the 3x i was lost at some deadend — and thought wouldn’t this be a perfect place to pop a final one — my gut reaction (addiction) says take another — I wonder is it ok god? whatever the fuck you wanna do; god says — he’ll get high too. Update hours later. its 10pm and i just took another even though god said no. free will? actually it’s the opposite = addiction

edit

i just got home from seeing family, took a 2 hour long car ride in the country. trying to find god, reasons to live. reconnect by drowning out my feelings with bass music. i needed to decompress, so did some recreational drugs, slightly testing to see the effects going over the prescribed dose. its difficult to tell how it affects you unless your actually doing something (driving) so 3x in one hour and id say im feeling like i took a small dose of xanax — adhd meds really do calm me but its the mania = my addiction. if you’ve never done manic before you’ll just never know the high. i couldn’t sleep the past 2 days now and i haven’t eaten but i hope i can get real sleep tonight. new rule never exceed 6 pills in a day and try to stay below 4 — im only ordered 2x a day

5x today total i need to order more pills tomorrow

—feeling a come down from the last tab at 10 pm. this mania is truly tired out i hope she’ll still be with me tomorrow. mania must have just started today, honestly right when driving home. i guess something about leaving my familys house triggered it. id been feeling mad depressed lately. last night i felt so worthless deep down in my core. it was right there like i could hold onto it. yet ive managed to have my pills under control pretty much since being pulled over. yea nobody wants me manic—but its the only time i ever want to be alive. if you cant love me manic you dont get to know about my medication usage either. remember next time always hide mania from everybody — never trust anyone close to you but god

Im in bed right now, almost 1 a m — with bipolar i fear feeling better (moments like these) ill fear this moment because feeling better is probably gone tomorrow. so we stay awake, dont eat or sleep because maybe ill get another day with myself — the best part of me — a lovable me. i will remain sober from drugs. jesus help me i cannot go on with this life soberminded.

medicine is safe — its clean, im prescribed it. so what if i found the magic pill to become manic when it suits me: life fucking hacked.

[sholtiscapstone]

No. 5 Progress Update!

Hey, everyone! 

I hope you’re all doing well with your projects so far. Time is flying by and we’re almost at the end. For me, things haven’t been exactly what I wanted them to be in terms of timing but I’m still feeling confident I can get this wrapped before our last week deadline. It’s been taking some hours away from my sleep but that’s all worth it lol, and not that big of a deal. 

As for any hurdles I’ve faced, I’ve had some personal things take me away from my time on the project. I’m putting the time back into it though, and I’ll get everything back on track in no time. Realistically, I believe we still have so much time left to accomplish things, so if you’re stressing over our time frame, don’t worry about it. It’s better to be patient and finish the race a little bit later than you expected you would, then to give up and not finish at all. 

I’m also feeling more confident I can get things done quicker now after my check-in meeting with Sharla today. Lately, I’ve been gathering footage from the films my interviewees mentioned as I was considering adding in the characters they speak about in our conversation, but Sharla recommended that I should avoid doing that, as it takes away from the discussion. Super good advice, and it also helps me just focus on editing my interviewees. I’ve already chopped up the episodes, but the hardest part overall is adding in the different angles to the correct time. It’s a very meticulous task. Also, color-grading them to appear similar has been tricky, as I feel like my eyes have been bugging out on me. Thankfully, I have friends I can use as guinea pigs. 

Moving on, another topic that came up during my meeting with Sharla was my YouTube page that I’m going to be doing my posting on. I made one tonight and plan to upload everything there, so I’ll link it on my account for future reference! 

Then, for my visual component of this update, it’s a little different than a straightforward attached image. Instead, I’m going to link a project I did last semester in a short film class. I was lucky enough to have the chance to try and do a rough draft of what I wanted my capstone to look like back then. It’s awesome to see how much it’s changed since then. Instead of doing one-on-one interviews it’s now a group project, there’s no outside footage, and the questions aren’t the same either, as my new talk story series allows the interviewees to guide themselves more than anything. I can’t wait to do a full reflection on this experience because the change is pretty significant, but I love my current concept way more, which I didn’t think would happen lol. 

Females in Frame - CM 353 cut

Other than that, I’m getting back to work and planning to spend a few more hours tonight editing since I’m off of work tomorrow, so much sleep isn’t required. I hope you all are on track with your projects and seeing the results you want. And again, if anyone needs help feel free to reach out to me for whatever. You can email me through Laulima if need! :)

[kinetic-socks]

Long post expressing my frustration with my procrastination

wake up in the morning like yeah lets get this essay done today

have meal

go to class

ok essay time.

find myself crocheting instead. hey brain, what?

brain: we have time, we'll get it done later dw

well. crocheting isn't as fun now but ok, what can ya do.

ok, we don't want to crochet anymore. essay now?

brain: no let's walk around and listen to music. exercise is good and will help us later.

me: again, it would be nice to be getting work done but alright.

me: hey, I still wanna get that essay done. can we go home and do that?

brain: no. exercise good. shut up.

me: i guess this is what we're doing.

brain: ok we got a cut on our arm while running let's go home and treat that.

me: yeah sounds great. in perfect agreement with you there.

brain: ok, cut is treated. let's nap now *reads comics instead and does more crochet like simultaneously*

me: what is happening

brain: ok NOW let's nap (it is 10:30 pm)

me: is this wise? It's late at night and we haven't done any work, and what if we accidentally sleep too long?

brain: alarm will handle it (it did) and we need sleep or we won't be able to think

me: you make sense but I don't feel great about this

I get back up at like. mignight and am like ok. essay Now.

brain: we're hungry again, eat first. and use the bathroom and change your bandaid it's coming off.

me: eating and using the bathroom and changing the bandaid all sound fine. these are reasonable things for a person to do.

It becomes 4am. Don't ask me how.

me: pleasee. essay now, we wanted to finish it before tomorrow

brain: well, it's either essay or go to bed for the night, which means it's the latest we can start and have it be today, so alright! you can now make yourself take out a pencil and write a bit. but also let's write a tumblr post about this phenomenon to ask the internet if you're just an undisciplined bitch for procrastinating or if i'm the bastard. also good luck making yourself follow any tips they give on making yourself get started because you can't make me do shit. it would be funny to watch you try honestly bc it didn't even work last semester when you got so frustrated with me that you'd start hitting yourself. so I really cannot think of a single way you could ever subjugate me and I will only make you miserable if you try. I will also make you miserable by doing this even if you don't try. This is who we are and you're simply not good enough

me: ok, when I post the post can we do the essay then?

brain: yeah probably. it's almost the end of today so I'll let you get started on it. You wanted it to be today and I understand that. You're right that we don't have a lot of time left.

me: it's not really today anymore but you're right that it still feels like it. thank god for the small mercy that is you letting me do it at all. We've been thinking about it for awhile anyway, maybe we'll enjoy this. Oh and you'd probably fight me like this tomorrow if I did it then, right? We'd turn it in at 7 am instead of midnight?

brain: I might enjoy it but you'll still have to fight me the whole way. and oh yeah for sure I would give you hell tomorrow. I wouldn't let you start it till late at night. that's what we did last time!

me: okay. at least we'll be able to edit it tomorrow after we write tonight. Plus we'll hopefully be tired tomorrow and not the next day when we have more important classes.

brain: should we finish writing tonight it's very unlikely I'll want to edit it tomorrow and you're likely to be satisfied enough that we have anything that you won't call me on it at all. We're probably not sleeping tonight so I'm going to give you a headache tomorrow to compel you to sleep after class and then probably all day and you rarely fight naps because our sleep schedule is so bad you figure we need it. plus yknow it makes sense to sleep after an all nighter.

me: ok but we'll write the essay?? when this post is done??

brain: yeah alright put in a readmore and hit post now.