#so theyll turn out bad anyway

[oifaaa]

Badly drawn Jason please if you want to 🙏

You really chose the one character I can draw with my eyes closed at this point thanks for that

[merry-the-cookie]

my DUUUUUUUUUDES

*inhale*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

im so excited i could cry LOOK AT THESE 😭😭😭!!!!!!! look at the floaty boys!!! tHE BUTTON!!!!!!!!!!!! i am SO happy im so excited my dudes….. the mike and ash charms are 2" with an epoxy finish that makes them a lil rounded.. the luke and cal are a test print to check what the other techniques/sizes look like! theyre 1.5" and i wanted to try a holostar finish but i prefer how the other ones look so thats what ill go with for the shop! theyll look like mike and ash ✨

i made lil stickers of the cone boys and the button design and theyre super shiny and cute i love it sm, i dont think that ill make an actual run of the cone sticker but i have a lil stock so ill try to give em away with pre orders i think. but anyways yeah im so. *does a lil dance*

and alas it occured to me i didnt share the button design publicly, but it might be one of my favorite things ive ever drawn lmfao i hope you love it as much as i do <3

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[isabelguerra]

i love pnat dynamics so much i cannot put it into words everyone is so wrong about each other except when they are right. nobody talks to anyone they should be talking to that would make for interesting and compelling character development. the interpersonal drama is so burdened that characters can barely look at each other without feeling horrible. its so genuinely unironically my favorite

[jrueships]

Aries and leo (kyle and demar)

OKAY so this is gonna be a long one, im a leo but i have a lot of aries friends n people who im close to, after like 50 years of knowing me finally get told my bday n they're always like 'i thought you were an aries!' Idk why! So yea, long one!

Leos things are i guess they're like cats? They want your attention n if they don't get they, they will act like people they really aren't. Leos are HUGE actors. They loove actin the villain ESPECIALLY, or acting like they have inflated egos but not REALLY. They love pretending to be bigger than they really are (cough. Ja. Who's diseased with sun leo moon leo.) They HATE accountability for BAD things, they'll take the good things but stay away from any criticism. N i know bcs me using they instead of i to describe my own sign should be telling. People love to put out that leos are super cocky n prideful n they can SEEM to be, but it's really more internal than exterior. Leos just SHOW you exterior so they can SEEM exterior. You'll see a leo show off for his friends (WORST thing for a leo to do is SHOW OFF.. for someone. Because leos will turn into people they aren't all to impress the person they want attention from, they're that desperate), n think he's an annoying asshole! He doesnt have cognizance lol! But, in his head, 2 seconds after doin that he's actually zoned out thinking 'why the hell did i do that that's so embarrassing.'

You know??? Like it's EASY to put em in a box, but they HATE being put in a box. They're always MORE than what a person THINKS, they HAVE to be! That's their REAL pride, not a direct everything is about me, but similar. I know me personally.. i think the most selfish self-preserving thoughts ever. It's scary the lengths my mind will go to scenario me the only survivor of something. I HATE being in places I can't control because of it, like Rollercoasters (but i also love rollercoasters). The WORST and BEST thing a leo can do sometimes is get in their own head. Sometimes you can dig deep n realize that who you were yesterday SHOULDNT be you n it's NOT you n you gotta improve! Othertimes it's selfish thoughts that you don't think are selfish until 2 seconds later, which makes you hate yourself more because 'damn?? I was really ready to jump on that idea?? Wtf is wrong with me man!' LIKE! leos THINK, but they don't want others to THINK they THINK cus they want you to THINK they can do things without THINKING. namean? Like everything they do, they meant to. It's all gotta look entertaining but flawless to people.

N people reminding them they rlly aren't flawless can fly the wrong way. It's always personal, YOU sought out a problem in MY performance because YOU just hate MY jokes or MY shine. You don't ACTUALLY think it's terrible, you think I'M terrible. N that makes them realize everything was an act n that act wasn't even good. N that makes em think n a leo doesn't wanna think cus it CAN lead to progression, but it involves accountability and forced self change. Leos who always say 'oh im not LIKE other leos like im not the STEREOTYPE', you lowkey gotta watch out for. Cus yea, leos do get a stereotype but people gotta understand that it's just STRESSED. Those factors DO apply to leo, just not exactly in the way others perceive it to. A leo that recognizes that will be a leo who's still pretty prideful on the inside yeah, but will always TRY and improve. A leo will always try to be better than they once were. Fueled by pride because they always need a worse comparison, yeah, but when they reach a higher better level.. they ARE becoming better. THEY just gotta realize that even tho who they are now is better than who they once were.. it could be a low bar to beat. They COULDVE been really terrible, switched the flavor, n are now thinkin 'i don't gotta do anything. Im the best i can be now, definitely better than who i once was' n they stop THERE. it's easy for a leo to get stuck in the state of mind they think fits them. What a leo needs is to learn to realize n accept accountability n USE that pride into BETTERMENT.

I'm someone who doesn't take any criticism well because my first thoughts n reactions to it is 'you're disappointed. You hate me'. I have to MAKE myself step back n realize that's not the case. They're trying to actually HELP me. Not hate me. Even with school papers now, i have to look at the feedback, think out all the negative thoughts i instantly get from it, THEN come back like 'yeah this makes sense'

THATS where the aries leo connection comes in i think. People think they won't get along, aries and leo do things without thinking and that can lead to some hurtful or embarrassing stuff, but if they can both realize HOW bad they can get n are willing to try n improve from it, they can be a great duo. They have similar issues n similar solutions, moving on. Leos are quick to forgive themselves in a sense that they're forgiving their PRESENT self n hating the past. An aries can understand that because they work quick. Aries can be mean then flash into forgiveness. Leos and aries can hurt each other, realize they've hurt, and forgive each other as they move into a LARGER friendship FROM that. It seems weird to others, but it's just them! They GET it. They're both easily misinterpreted, and can bond from it.

Because a LOT of people can easily love an aries THEN hate them. An aries can be super sweet n funny, but for people who hold things for a long time with stagnant thought... they can hate them when an aries gets mad. Like my senior English teacher was an aries (zodiac girls in my class asked him), n whenever the previous class put him in a bad mood, he'd take it out on his honors class. Which isn't FAIR, but it's an aries. Aries gotta let stuff out. That's just how they operate. BUT because they gotta let things out, they can ALSO be super deep, direct, n SURPRISINGLY emotional. Lots of people just wrote my teacher off as a grump, but when he WAS happy, he was SUPER nice to us. Super sensitive to what we had to say, gave a big speech a lot about knowing we'd do well in whatever future lied ahead. Keeps in touch with his old students after they graduate. IT'S EASY to write them off as not sensitive, but they ARE. Just like it's easy to write off a leo for acting.

Aries can help a leo because they experience similar issues, but they NEVER act. They act on feelings, but they're FEELINGS. They don't care what they come off as, n i enjoy that a lot! THEY just need someone who's willing to wait it out whenever they're being an asshole. My teacher WAS a good teacher who DID like our class, but his attitude sometimes could just make a student hate him n that's it. Like.. idk. You CAN hate an aries, but you gotta learn you can love em as well. They're not ALWAYS gonna be like this, same as a leo. They both CHANGE. Not always for the better but they change n cus they share that, they can help each other thru the change

I think the beauty in an aries leo relationship is people thinkin they can be super toxic cus it makes sense. But they can a completely adverse direction and turn something terrible into something so beautiful cus THATS what they BOTH can do! Change !!

[weenieliker]

funny as hell that our homestuck introjects are objectively the most functional and sane out of any of us

[koolades-world]

can i... request an mc whos really afraid of rats/mice? like,, theyll refuse to go anywhere that has a possibility of having rats. places like the basement, attic, catacombs, deeper parts of the pantry, etc. when they do have to go theyll insist that someone comes with them and when they hear skittering and squeaking they freak out and beg the other person to check it out.

would any of the brothers use that fear against mc or maybe even take it as an opportunity to show how brave they are?

hello! yes of course :)

enjoy!

Mc with a fear of rodents

Lucifer

since he's closest to barbatos out of his brothers, he knows how to best handle your fear

you're not barbatos and he knows you're not as powerful as him, but he still feels bad teasing you with it

just say the word and he'll be there, no questions and no matter how busy he is

even if it turns out there's nothing, he won't be mad and will offer you the comfort you seek

Mammon

you don't even need to ask

either he's already by your side, or he just can somehow sense that you need his help

he's willing to carry you on his back if that's what you want

and, it's all on the house, just for you <3

Levi

unless the rats are in his room, which he's actually not sure how likely that would be, you're totally safe in his safe place

anything that is his, is yours so if you see a rat out there, feel free to hide with him

he doesn't get to play the role of your hero much and he thoroughly enjoys it

while his face will be red, he'll hold you close and comfort you while one of his brothers gets rid of it

Satan

though everything he knows, he is forever fascinated by humans and their fears of the "mundane"

while he does know that rats in particular were devastating a little while ago for humans during the black plague, part of that was self imposed, although the rats deserved some of that credit

but that's not why you're afraid

nevertheless, he doesn't ask questions in the moment because he knows you need him, and saves them for later haha

Asmo

he wouldn't be lying in saying the things didn't freak him out a little

even barbatos doesn't like them, so what does that say about them?

however, he's willing to brave it for you, and his animal is a scorpion anyways

his services come at the small price of a peck on the cheek haha

Beel

he doesn't quite understand your fear at first

to him, it's just a little, kinda cute creature but you hate them

out of respect for you, he won't mention them to you at all or bring you around them

since he's always in the pantry, he does his due diligence for you and always checks for mice and rats

Belphie

he's 100% going to be putting rubber mice in your room

he's half between owning up to it and half between being your knight in shining armor every time

either way, you hide behind him and he gets to spend quality time with you

he will admit though, he feels bad

[oogalaboogalabich]

I have an odd little idea that wont go away.

This idea that Ascended Astarion not only fetishises his own face as he does in canon, but also his consorts. I especially like this idea with a Durge.

When he turns them, hes stolen their visiage in the same way his was. He wont let them forget it of course. He will paint a portrait himself. He will learn the skills and perfect them because nobody is ever going to see Durges face but him ever again without his express permission.

And the thought utterly 'lances' him with the first spike of living arousal in two centuries. So strong he thinks its pain at first. This makes the fixation cement even harder.

Astarion would specifically go out of his way to find a jeweler before hes even gotten the chance to process what happened. Just 0-100. Doesnt bother to tell durge about it. He doesnt even know if its because he thinks theyll like it and wants to surprise them. Or because he knows the gesture may piss them off as well and the thought of forcing it on them anyway has him just as excited. He honestly doesnt know which outcome he wants more.

He has them craft an ornate mask thats surprisingly similar to something youd expect from gortash. Perhaps thats on purpose, perhaps not. I like to think of it as a tiny nod of mockery towards their past relationship.

He has durge kneel to receive it, and he states quite clearly that this is 100% about ownership. That he gets off on the whole slew of sick little details of nuance that make up the very specific fetish. And he names them off one by one while stroking his fingertips along their cheeks and nose, planting gentle kisses that entirely contrast the rough hewn tone of his voice, like hes almost furious at the very concept of others being allowed to look at HIS consort.

And durge in MY head EATS. IT. UP.

bro is so fuckin down bad he even suggest they make a few with some sort of gag or bit he can sink his teeth into and just gnaw without concern of breaking it. Something for combat and when his urges get out of control.

Astarion finds he rather likes the idea of his spawn drooling around a gag behind the ornate golden maw, eyes afire with battle rage as he swings his war hammers together around a skull.

Pic of Viriani (my fave durge) in the mask that inspired this surprisingly mild filth.

[calebwittebane]

so fucking funny when my brain is like. hey bitch. i see youre going to sleep well heres the thing. im gonna give you some dreams now. picture this. imagine youre staying in a truly bizarre, labyrinth-like hotel thats not even rly divided into rooms, its just like, heres your pile of shit, loose furniture, make yourself at home. anyway theres creatures roaming the place. they can stun you and cause you profound pain. ohh yeah reminder you feel pain in dreams. full sensory experience. remember that. anyway you contact the hotel owner to gently point out a civil engineering safety regulation issue in the building (unrelated to the already mentioned flaws). he seems grateful. it hurts you when you try to speak, btw.

there are, also, flocks of small birds stuck in time, everywhere, dont touch them or theyll crash into what from their perspective is a solid object moving at light speed, and theyll be obliterated. okay so the hotel owner is like thanks for the tip i will get that checked out. Surprise! youre a demon whos been on the run. the hotel owner is your uncle and also a demon hunter whos been Waiting for you. you were supposed to be outside of the solar system, but looks like not only were you paying a visit to earth, you were foolish and arrogant enough to disguise yourself as a human and pull this kind of stupid stunt! well, thats not fucking good.

you dont know what he plans to do, so you do your best to escape His Twisted Hotel Realm. its not easy, but thanks to your ability to fly and to briefly become invisible and able to phase through solid matter, you manage to get out. youre out in the city now. its a Twisted Fucked Up version of warsaw. i mean like Continent Sized. whatever. youre gonna try to get to a train station and then figure out the rest. you take off flying in a direction that seems right.

well, flying is hard. its tiresome. and there are power lines everywhere. get above the power lines level you idiot. oh oops theyre at Every Altitude. gotta make sure you dont fly into them. so dont fly too fast. but you have to maintain a good speed, otherwise youll lose lift. oough oof ouch, you touched some of those wires, that sure hurt! well, this will be an ordeal.

oh geeze! it seems like youve flown into Gargantuan Horrifying Industrial Zone. its the part of the city thats all Mind Bendingly Huge machinery, excavators, pipes, endless fields of moving parts, saws, pumps, i mean theres nowhere to land. theres like, Walking Coal Excavators. walking moving coal plants. huge collapsing exploding structures--everything is so gargantuan, red-hot, horrible and dangerous, theres shit exploding and collapsing all the time. there are fires everywhere. oil spilling. toxic smoke. and of course power lines at every altitude. and enormous moving parts. well good luck flying through this Zone.

oh well! you try. you have powers after all. you try to fly through this Zone. a walking power plant almost crushes you with its incomprehensibly huge, rusty, titan limbs and machinery. maintaining invincibility while flying is Really hard and at a certain level of exhaustion its likely to malfunction, and if it does at a bad moment, youll be obliterated painfully.

well it happens. it hurts. but instead of dying you clip thru the ground into Huge Underground Tunne Network where the workers live and work and navigate the place. you try to hide in storages and unused tunnels and shit, but thing is, due to how Enormous all the shit upstairs is, the whole tthing is like a living organism. when a walking coal plant passes above, the tunnels contract and loosen up and give in, and some of them get squeezed completely. the workers know how to navigate this, but you dont, so you get painfully squished by a contracting tunnel. youre too exhausted to turn invincible.

well you decide trying to blend in is your best chance. best you can do with how tired you are is take the form of a young worker and pretend to be a new guy. some other workers (theyre all like combination coal miners and prisoners) immediately fall in love with you and try to hook up with you. you accept their advances to get information. they tell you about a train line running thru the zone that can take you to the outskirts. next one is tomorrow. you accept that as your best bet. after hours of grueling work and a painful experience all around, you get on the train. its old and falling apart. hard to tell where its going exactly. it breaks down. youre stranded. where are you? you dont know.

ugh! this wouldnt be happening if you werent a demon. which btw other workers figured out that you are. they start drowning you in a bucket of water. you start laughing at them. its not funny. you hurt all over. you want to die, but you never will. youre cursed to live through your own painful horrifying death endlessly, over and over.

also youre 10 and your parents are fighting

[orbees]

bitching about fat fetishism

so many posts defending fat fetishism are so fucking annoying bc theyll go for the "everyone on this site is so repressed. drawing sexual / fetish content isn't inherently bad :/" angle which. yeah if we're just talking Generally yeah. duh. but as it turns out not all kinks/fetishes/whatever are equal and some have the potential to do real harm.

i personally believe fat fetishism to be in that category bc it fetishizes an entire group of ppl based on attributes they've been dehumanized for. And it gets me bc fat ppl get lured into this shit bc they find a place where for Once people are saying they're sexy BECAUSE they're fat and not DESPITE it but at the end of the day its the same fucking thing. you're still not being seen as a person.

like. i obviously have way more understanding for fat ppl who are into this than skinnies. it just sucks seeing it so ubiquitous in fat pos spaces when i feel it hurts the movement more than it helps. its funny bc a lot of these ppl will also then parrot anti fat-fetishism sentiments of "you can be attracted to fatness without it being a fetish" but then completely take over fat pos tags w/ their fetish content basically implicating as such anyways. like it is basically Inescapable.

ALSO. it is absolutely true that ppl tend to be more heavily scrutinized if they mention they're attracted to fat ppl. and yes thats wrong. attraction to fat people should not automatically be assumed to be fat fetishism. but hte thing that these posts dont often mention is that a lot of the ppl calling this behavior out are ALSO fat people whove been around the block awhile and know the signs.

anyways. rant over. im done now =_= not about mutuals ofc just bitching about posts ive seen going around for a while

[eggsploded]

fausto for the ask thing...... the girl herself

butterflaust :)

first impression: you really get the feeling that she fucking hates you. shes rly funny cuz shes the tutorial character but doesnt leave after the prologue. shes here forever, judging dante. i feel in the beginning i skimmed over all the nuance in her dialogue assuming its just wordy for the sake of wordiness.

current impression: faust is soooo... faust. upon replaying the prologue shes way less cold than i first thought, her little c: smile when talking about mephis was saur cute. in fact shes not really cold at all to me, simply operating in a faustly way. you can contextualize what she does as a way to keep herself occupied. not really for some deeper lore sense (because ionno what her deal is) but a bitch needs some stimuli. i think if she was made to do arts and crafts with no larger purpose outside of fun she would explode into blood and gore. it also makes her friendship with yi sang really funny because i wonder if she cares to understand his artsy spech past it being a little clever wordplay. if he made her a drawing she wouldnt know how to compliment it outside of a technical sense. her flavor of arrogance is also so funny to me because its so stupid? like when rodya complimented her and she puffed up and went faust Is cool. the speaking in 3rd person too is funny, knowing she isnt LARPing like don and is very much just Like That. theres alot about herself she either doesnt notice or simply does not want to examine deeply like her mild competitiveness or tendency to manipulate people if it means theyll be less annoying to her. simply the faust of all time

favorite moment: i think the sweetest and funniest thing was realizing her spiel about yi sang not being a genius Unlike Her and believing in more philosophical things unlike her Sensible and Tactile self was an attempt at a COMPLIMENT. i thought she was ripping him to shreds but no she was actually hyping him up a bit in the most clinical way possible

story idea: you know earlier when i said making faust attempt creative expression would cause her to explode into bits? well i want to see it anyway. im forcing her at the kindergarten table of that nasty smelling homemade playdoh and telling her to make a new animal. sinclair made a bear with with wings called a beear. very nice young man.

fav relationships: im enjoying the fandom divide with faust shipping where she is either getting bitches left and right and not giving a fuck to maintain them (because it comes out weird when she tries) or not even being aware of when shes down bad and having the primal part of her brain that tells her to bite and roll around hijack her motherboard. shes being corroded by an insidious EGO called... horny, different to lust, which is Krausts jam. i already wrote a little bit about fausang and i think fausts inability to know how to enjoy things makes them a very sweet duo. in her mind the guy doesnt come a lick close to her own brilliance, but something about how he closes his eyes in understanding speaks more words than compliments do. not to say that faust doesnt like being hyped up. because she does, like all the time. if they were walking she wouldve tripped when rodya called her babe. her greatest flaw is pretending shes above anything, if there was a chance to maul ryoshu she would without pausing. probably so turned on she cant see anything. ishmael too. also outis. hey, whats going on here? my sources tell me due to her ongoing opposites to yi sang she is incapable of a domestic lame marriage the way he is. ishmael is the yuri messiah, but faust is the yuri menace. you know what they are both capable of though? following rodya around enamored because that was the first pet name theyve ever been called and it felt Funny.

fav headcanon: in the newest credits cg for canto 4 i think shes telling vergil she has a tummyache

[streaminn]

Glimpse of you

Or, let's talk about an au where enid plans to fucking dominate this school she's forced to go too for a chance to see Wednesday again

(aka the og draft of the military school au where enid wouldn't have gotten a support system but is rather left desperate and threathening)

-

Here's the thing, it's been three or so months into the school year before it got abruptly cut short due to crackstone. A semester takes five months and there's two of them in a school year. All of that makes ten months to finish.

It was close to a year before Enid could see Wednesday again. Twelve months, it's nearly been that long and Enid feels like she's about to go insane.

Two months of winter, stuck in the hell that is her home before getting shipped to some private pretentious school for five more months to finish her sophomore year. She's surprised she didn't lose her sanity when she spent two months of summer back in San Fran. Luckily, it took one month of her first semester to finally clear the clouds and with it, her mind.

Honestly, Enid hasn't been paying attention during her time in this up stuck school and to think it was the word Nevermore that catches her attention.

It's enough to snap her into reality and before she knows it, she's grabbing onto another student's arm and dragging the both of them away from the crowd. Her grip is tight, unforgiving and if one were to look closer, begging.

"what's happening," she asks, uncaring of the way they shake. Her teeth bares and they still, clamming up and freezing. Good. "what's this about nevermore?"

This school is secretive for a reason, secluded and a private class all on its own. The best place to take care of werewolves! The school claims. The thought makes Enid rolls her eyes. Dramatic, she'd bet Wednesday would've burnt this school to the ground if she could.

Anyways, the school is private with a capital P. Which makes news from the outside hard to reach. Well, that is unless you out in some effort. Effort that Enid clearly hasn't done, much to her irritation.

"s-sinclair!" they cry out and Enid blinks before giving a tiny apologetic look when she realized her claws dug into their skin. It's fine, theyll heal. "the poe cup - They've been sent an invite. There's just a ruckus because they haven't accepted before!"

Enid clicks her tongue and her grip tightens.

"that's it?" she says, tilting her head. "nothing about participants?"

Their head shakes before they pause for a second and with a hesitant voice, they continued. "I've heard that an Addams might join."

It's enough to make enid bring them close with a growing smile on her face. In turn, the wolf in her hands turn pale and their breathing frantic.

"really?" Enid breathes and oh is that wonderful news. "an Addams?" Wednesday, it must be Wednesday.

It has to be.

They nod immediately, their head tilting back and baring their neck for her to see. "yes! Yknow that nevermore are desperate for sponsors with all the bad rep they have now-"

Enid growls, deep and rumbling from her chest. Immediately they shut up, a whine leaving their throat. She may not be in that school, not anymore but she grew up there and that means something.

When a whimper leaves their pathetic throat, her nails finally let go with a shlick. They stumble back, their hands clammy and their shoulders shaking. Yet even then, they stay.

Good. They know whatll happen when they run.

There's an anger burning in her stomach because no, she does not know anything about nevermore.

"tell me," she starts, wiping off their remains at her pants. "when does this Poe cup start?"

The answer she hears is wonderful.

Two months.

Two more months until she can meet Wednesday again.

[ankhisms]

dairy comic nov 26th 2023. ive made art before about this specific feeling because it haunts me but my heads been hurting for about 24 hours straight and things have felt weird bad. it helped to draw this

comic text transcript in case anyone cant read it:

ive felt like the absence of a person rather than someone real. i feel as though there is an invisible wall between me and everyone else- i cant break through. i am a stray scratching at your door who your mother says to not let in. but i keep scratching- please let me in, its so cold out here, i cant claw my way through the wall on my own. im scared no one wants the wall to be gone- that no one wants me to come any closer. will everyone want me around if i changed everything about me? do i have to be quieter, or louder, or smaller? should i just pretend i dont care about it all? will you like me if im a stone statue almost of myself? what is "myself" anyway- if not something people look at and know something is wrong. i guess its easy to turn to self isolation with a wall- you can only bang your head against it so many times. i wish it were different, wish i could know how to be a person and not something you cant let in.

washed my hair and ate pumpkin pie, so i feel more like im human now

also some extra thoughts... the wall feeling doesnt mean that i dont care about people or dont love people, its really the opposite... i love people a lot and desperately want to connect with people but i struggle to be able to feel like im a person and struggle with talking etc etc so even if i really love people i still get the feeling that im somehow distanced from both myself and life and like that at some point theyll get tired of me or that they dont want me around. its hard to explain

i think im gonna try to do more of these comics, thanks if youve read this

[gibbearish]

Hey, I found ur trans quiz thing on uquiz, I think I'm in the right place. Anyway, I'm basically positive that I'm trans, but I don't know if I should come out. If I do, my mom and brother will be disgusted by me, (both Christians) and I'm pretty sure I'd get the same result from my best friend. My real name is Roman, but I put Charlie for my username bc I want to be Charlotte instead. I don't want to bottle up my feelings, but I'm sure they would all judge me. What do you suggest I do? Thx for listening.

hey there! yep you reached the right place:3

this is always a tough one, i was in a pretty similar situation when i was in high school. i know a lot of people will say like "you never know until you try, the people who love you might surprise you!" but personally ive always found that to be somewhat shallow advice. you know the people in your life better than randos ever will, so above anything else i would say to go with your gut here. if it tells you that coming out now wouldnt be safe, then unfortunately i think it probably would be in your best interests to just keep your head down until youre able to set up a life and support system outside of them, so that if things do break bad it doesn't fuck you over.

that being said, that doesn't mean you have to bottle it all up either, nor does that mean all hope is lost for having a relationship with those people afterwards.

first, try to seek out others like you in your life right now. im not sure how old you are but most of the people who've reached out from the quiz have been high schoolers so i'm going off that assumption, if you are in high school i would see if your school has a GSA you could join, or if that wouldnt be a possibility bc ur parents wouldnt let you go then you could try reaching out to the teacher that runs it to see if they have any advice or could help you connect with other queer kids outside of the club. if you can't do that then you may still be able to connect, i know the stereotypes abt people "looking gay" are shit but there are also legitimately queer style choices that people make on purpose because they want to look queer (myself included), and while openly saying "hey you look gay lets be friends" would suck, ill let you on on the secret code to tell queer strangers you recognize their vibes: "omg i love your hair". and obviously randos can give that compliment too but im being 100% serious when i say that if that comment comes from Another Queer and is said in the "im gay too please notice me" way, it hits different, idk how to explain lmao. or "i like your pins" if they have pride stuff. really it's just you pointing out the Thing that made you go "you seem like me," and then complimenting it to show the other person youre cool with that stuff. and obv follow the other persons vibes, if theyre just like "oh thanks" and then turn back around then just move on w ur day, but if theyre like "omg i love your hair too!" then *hacker voice* youre in

anyways on to the second part which is all hope is not lost:

you may not be able to come out to these people now, BUT you may be able to start laying the groundwork to do it further down the line. i'm not saying start religious/political arguments, obv do whatever you need to stay safe, but you can start just. nudging them in the right direction. like say your parents are ranting about something right on the line of anger abt queerness, like a guy wearing eyeliner or w/e, you could drop a noncommital "eh i think it looks cool but i get it" or "i mean its kinda just facepaint when you think abt it tho right?" or another example i cant think of right now to just kind of. push the needle a little bit. and with this kind of thing it's very important you dont go into it expecting immediate change, like. this is you planting the seeds so that in six months when theyre trying to fall asleep theyll be like "....huh. i guess it kinda is just like facepaint, so. why is facepaint ok for men but makeup isnt" yknow? so if you go into it with that being the expectation, the things you say hopefully wont register as confrontational or disagreeing, but just as like. the noncommital hand wiggle gesture. it can take a long time for ideas to take root in people so it makes convos much easier when you remind yourself not to expect immediate change

now obviously your mileage may vary, if you think even that would be too dangerous then absolutely feel free to disregard and just do your best not to let the things they say get to you. and either way remember that you WILL have your own life away from them someday where you get to be yourself, and it is never ever too late to start transition. no matter how long you have to stay with them to set up your own life, it is out there, and one day you will get to a point where whether they cut you off or not, it doesn't matter. you'll get to choose your own clothes, religion, hair style, makeup, house decorations, food, schedule, the world will be your oyster. so when it gets hard, hold on to that. i believe in u 💕

[desudog]

i have noticed people say something on tumblr lately, especially when staff messes up time and time again because theyre grossly incompetent, but i cant say i agree with the plea.

Over and over i see users both big and small say that they just want tumblr to simply implement a double standard system of management.

Time and time again, "all we want if for you to ban every nazi and transphobe!"

You have to understand, if youre peddling that then you are making a plea for something that cannot, will not and should not be done. you are asking for something that will only hurt queer people!

If you ban people based off post contents, even if those contents are disagreeable or vile, youve opened the door to banning people for opinion and are ridding yourself of free speech, meaning banning is 100% in the hands of the admins but this time legally so no lawsuits can be won proving discrimination.

"well thats easy, just make transphobia a bannable offense!" it would be, wouldnt it? it would be if anyone could agree on what transphobia is! because under that rule, back in 2014 or so, it would have been against site rules to be nonbinary and especially to use neopronouns or to be bisexual! hell, right now you could get ban for that under that rule for being bisexual, just as long as youre also IDing as lesbian/gay/het!

rather, what needs to be cracked down on is harassment. bigotry still has a bite no matter what, but you can take out its teeth by punishing harassment much harder. reports of harassment, cyberstalking, etc, need to be taken much more seriously. moderation needs to turn their attention towards report spam harassment campaigns and they need to take claims of harassment much more seriously which means looking into them, like, at all.

i would rather be able to speak freely and also have the guy who wants me dead to be able to do so than to be made to shut up about my queerness and face having nowhere to go because of people who havent unlearned their queerphobia deciding queer existence is queerphobic.

oh, and banning them wouldnt do anything anyways, in fact, theyll just get harder to locate. if you ban transphobe tags theyll just make new tags that are harder to filter and avoid and search on peoples blogs. you WANT assholes to be as loud as possible so you can avoid them.

the answer is rather the fact we need staff to make them avoidable. if someone starts attacking you instead of staying in their little shitbubble, or starts using your selfies in a way you dont approve of, etc, that should be more easy to challenge. there needs to be at LEAST a way to make appeals easier and maybe even an option for "I got mass reported."

incompetent staff is bad enough, if all you have to suggest is further incompetence then we're at a stand still. double standards are generally not acceptable. you dont not-want an elon musk to run the site you just want a queer elon musk to run the site.

[asbestieos]

my tablet refuses to let me draw anymore its simply not cooperating >:( so you can have these sketches of pre-grad asta. the cringe high schooler era. ok i rant endlessly below now

the name changes between 1st -> 2nd is simply for convenience!! others found it hard to pronounce ‘thien’ correctly so it shortened to ‘en’ to make it easier ^_^

if first year asta looks considerably more skrinkly thats because he is!! the essence is she wants to be an idol soo bad but bc reimei’s student population is literally All Guys and its a bad idea to have a fem-presenting idol intermingled in there, it goes undercover in guy uni 👍 which theyr totally cool with whatever gets them to idoldom fastest. hence the girlier vibe and the messy short haircut

they actually have to retake 1st year due to personal circumstances (get Child of Divorce’d). only reason theyre allowed to come back is bc they kinda Are pretty girlslay when it comes to idolisms + since they were first allowed into reimei on a scholarship, theyr allowed to return but only if they shill a hefty tuition (father’s child support payments all go to tuition <3) + another condition wherein theyll deliberate with reimei’s school board directly with the express intent of suppressing nonspecial student rebellion but we’ll talk abt this later

1st year pt 2 and 2nd year they get their shit together becos she fixates on The Guy Ever of course becaus im incapable of being normal and not putting entatsu everywhere i go but theyr dynamic is more teacher/disciple than romantic or anything . originally en is the one teaching tatsumi the ropes of reimei, but it becomes Very Clear that tatsumi needs not help learning to be a good student hes already ballin on his own (however he needs plenty help learning to Be Normal) and the dynamic flops with en now becoming tatsumis follower / admirer by the time second year rolls around and the roots of the revolution start to be planted ^_^ they turn a blind eye to tatsumis activities and pretend to not be affiliated with him in anyway to avoid either orf them getting in trouble

oh fuck in getting tired anyway 3rd year en grows out her hair bevcos she misses tatsumi and its fruitu.. also has to deal with doublecrossing the school board as revenge while also assisting ibaba with his sort-of revolution. ibara had a revolution right? or at least he like changed reimei for the better i think that happened . anywhow i sp sleeepy goodii no tht

[molluskmirage]

Soulfire Purgatory Day 11

-Fit and Phillza are the only ones online for awhile, they meet in the center and play with some dice

-there are no bounties today, Fit tries to look in the ocean for “creates” that are said to be there to claim flags for the day but finds nothing

-Bad logs on he mines some and makes some picks around the base (Bad seems a bit fatigued, theres no pressure to win today because they want the win to go to red to even the score so bad is kinda listless going about the day)

-Fit and Bad decides to wait at a jump portal incase the creates are dropped and theyll be given coordinates

-Bad looks for horses for him and Fit while they wait. Bad also gets material to make a scythe

-an ice event happens and bad tries to spread out the ice but could be a big giveaway potentially

-Bad makes to the the drop crate first but theres a toxic fog around it and he cant get on his mask in time and dies

-Fit makes it and loots two containers with 24 flags, he runs into red team and kills cellbit (fits sword was enchanted and felt terrible as he had forgotten about the no enchantment rule so he gives red team half the flags he stole then leaves)

-Fit logs off not cashing in the flags just yet (with plans on returning later to do so)

-Bad alone again, hes pretty aimless and unmotivated since their not trying to win today he’s not even sure they should bother with flags (i think thats very wrong as they will be needed for the upcoming event)

-bad makes his scythe

-bad tries to make it to the next ship drop, its a snowstorm. Red is there first, Bad fights with them but is killed.

-bad cant get back to his body because of the snow storm. And red tells him theyve taken his horse. Very dejected Bad whips up some iron armor and goes again

-Bad starts getting silly with it as he rows ‘naked’ to retrieve his stuff, Phillza says hes left bads horse at spawn. And a blood moon event comes and bad is chased by a soul vulture and killed by a warped mosco, he goes back again and makes friends with a warped toad. Bad dies to the snow storm, he tries again, dies again

-hes joined by caramel, dies again and then coco shows up by bads sixth? death, Bad makes it, Coco grabs his things out of pity and gives them to bad

-almost all of red team is on its Bad, coco, caramel, Hoppy and Floppy (2 warped toads) against the world.

-based on the chords of the two ship drops bad decides it’s between two spots, he decides to go to one and wait there for the drop (if hes wrong he could care less being there first is the only chance he has at getting items, he knows its a sucicide mission but hes trying anyways)

-Bads choice is wrong, he roasts marshmallows around a fire. (Apparently Cellbit dies to bads horse in a hunger evet)

-Bad tries to check the 2nd boat for scraps, theres nothing, then go to the 3rd

-Bad runs into red they try to give him free hugs (theyre raidioactive) theres nothing on the boat

-Bad decides to try and find red’s base, hes bored your honor hes lost the plot.

-Bad Coco and Caramel ride off into the sunset together. They find an underwater nether portal ruin.

-Tina logs on and Bads life is renewed in his last 15 minutes he decides to get apple juice for a personal task, he also cleans up some ice around base

-Bad turns in the apple juice and makes some tea for tomorrow before being kicked for time.

-Tinas shoes are burned by Roier and Foolish, they also give her a diamond and a 1x1 house

-Tina finesses some diamonds off Foolish, she gives back but ends up with more items then she started with, she gets fighting lessons from Etoiles

-Tubbo logs on they all chill at center, tubbo is killed and is at base when theres a snowstorm so more ice woo