#somebody come scream with me

[daydreamerwonderkid]

NO, EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP RIGHT FUCKING NOW

LISTEN

JUST

FUCKIN' LISTEN

Y'ALL ARE SLEEPING ON MY MAN, HYUNSUNG, AND MY GIRL, HEEWON

THEY'RE LITERALLY EVERYTHING YOU COULD EVER WANT IN A F/M COUPLE

SHE'S THE KNIGHT

AND HE'S HER SWORD

ORV NATION, HOW ARE Y'ALL NOT FUCKING SCREAMING ABOUT THESE TWO??!!!!!!

[amedetoiles]

shangque really is just a soft sunshine dragon who loves friendship and loyalty and wants his bb demon lord to be the happiest

[ollivoil]

AHAHAHA I have a problem.

IM MAD IM MAD IM ANGRY IM UPSET I WANT TO DO UNSPEAKABLE THINGS I'm so fuckin angry rn, lmfao

I have just found out that they cancelled YURI!! On ICE: ICE ADOLESCENCE and YURI!! On ICE season two. I want to either make a professional-looking Gmail account and email e like 'May I have information on why YURI!! On iCE: ICE ADOLESCENCE and YURI!! On ICE season 2 was cancelled?', or write a super nasty and aggressive and angry email to MAPPA saying very bad things.

[ihaveonlymydreams]

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[scarletfish]

something something the parallels between the physical hands john created for alecto and the metaphorical hands he created for himself (his lyctors, his fingers and gestures)

alecto hating her hands, a physical cage molded after some plastic, lifeless ideal

john, miserable over his hands but continuing to strip the life from the people closest to him to create something malleable, something he can manipulate and control

the way both hands are a prison

BUT ALSO the way that nona loves other people's hands. the longing for genuine touch. the way hands can form either a cage or a halo.

in this essay, I will-

[thistablesknackered]

im feeling so normal i swear

[sidesteppostinghours]

4 + 5 + 8 + 40 + 34 and I) G) F) for Cyrus Becker my beloved 🧡

afternoon idle!! oh my god questions galore *cracks knuckles* cyrus get your ass over here youre up

4. How easy is it to earn their trust?

Very difficult, and at the same time easier than youd think. he definitely doesnt entertain everybody, but hes not unreasonable. hell hear you out if you give him enough reason to (or if he thinks its beneficial to get to know you. do you see why he gets attached to people hes supposed to be manipulating so often). ortega and mortum required him to establish a relationship, which is how they got so close to eachother so quickly. herald got by because cyrus thought hed be a useful contact in the rangers. chen couldve earned his trust a long time ago, they had to work with eachother a lot back when he still ran with the rangers, but chen squandered it on his suspicions and its been too long for cyrus to have any interest in patching up their relationship. argent has largely flown under his radar, she hasnt piqued his interest more than the passing curiosity of why she wanted the regenerator.

5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?

the default is mistrust. sorry yall, hes not taking any more chances than necessary. hes a telepath, he knows all too well what secrets other people hide, and hes not interested in giving people a chance to prove his suspicions wrong. but after hes grown to trust somebody? its... embarrassing how difficult it is to lose it. even though his trust is much shakier nowadays, you still need to have fucked up Majorly to get him back to mistrusting you. if you somehow manage to do that,,, uhhhh. what do you want on your tombstone? (ig its technically its possible to not die and even earn that trust back??? ortega managed, but thats ortega and hes statistically more likely to kill you or ruin your life. depends on how badly you fucked up. id say theres a good 5% chance youll survive the experience without the need for intense psychotherapy)

8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child

listen. follow orders. be exactly who we need you to be. cyrus was a deeply rebellious regene, but he wasnt stupid about it. hed go against the mission in secret, and just enough that nobody wouldve been able to trace any problems back to him. that doesnt mean he was never caught, but he was too competent of a regene to be scrapped, which saved him multiple times before. those few times did cause handlers to keep a closer eye on him though, just in case. handlers would usually keep a harder grip on cyrus, hold him to stricter standards. it contributed a lot to his own self talk. SPEAKING OF WHICH:

40. How sensitive are they to their own flaws?

you must imagine me holding him and looking lovingly into his eyes while i dump a gallon of insecurity and perfectionism on him. hes a proud man, he thinks hes better than what other people are capable of, but that arguably makes things worse when he does make a mistake. he of all people shouldnt be like this. add the puppetmaster scar on him and its a hefty load of 'i need to make sure every single step of my plan goes exactly right Or Else." the worst thing about him is that a lot of the petty flaws he thinks apply to him arent correct. AND HE CANT EVEN NAME HIS ACTUAL FLAWS. cyrus you are so smart and walking around with zero self awareness, its the best. please consider stepping into acid.

34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? 

hohohohoho. well. the first step is to get him to feel guilty in the first place. traditionally immoral actions arent going to get to him, obviously. the thing that springs up guilt for him most often is themmys death. he has. a Lot of survivors guilt about that. especially because hes convinced himself he couldve done something and *gestures to the ask above*. guilt will haunt him for life if it doesnt get resolved in a healthy way, but hes gotten good at burying his emotions a long time ago. even when he feels like that, he reserves a specific time to think about it, otherwise itll impede on his plans in the long run. that designated time is. usually when hes supposed to be sleeping. his sleep schedule is just a little bit messed.

I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?

oh dude i Love putting cyrus in aus. its so fun to poke him with a stick and see what happens. the first one i put him in was a band au, it helped me figure out how he would interact with herald. basically cyrus was a masked guitarist (for backstory reasons) for a band daniel happened to be a fan of, except the two of them managed to meet at just regular old work, with cyrus not realizing daniel was a fan and daniel not realizing cyrus was from one of his favourite bands. it led to fun, mlb-esque shenanigans between the two lmfao. the second one i put him in was the becker siblings au, which i still have thoughts and emotionsTM about. that au let me indulge in the 'cyrus is an older sibling' headcanon and i will forever be in debt to it for the amount of protective cyrus i got. third and current au im obsessing over is a 'cyrus survives hb' scenario, where ortega managed to stop him before he jumped out the window. i am getting! so much ortega x cyrus content out of that au! and so much survivors guilt cyrus. cyrus 'using' ortega to forget about heartbreak my beloveddddd. he also says 'i love you' to ortega in this au and canon ortega is SO jealous. also x2, hes an alcohol vice step in this au. heartbreak hit hard and the tequila hits different.

aaaand i still like his canon version better. its just so very much him. out of every step ive got, hes the one i get to stay closest to how i envision based on the choices the game offers. plus he caught me completely by surprise suckerpunching me with an obsession over him and i cant Not respect that.

G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?

not sure whether this means on a character creation level or as a person, but ill answer for 'as a person' because im overall pretty satisfied with how he turned out! but like. god what is there to not be bothered about. my manipulative little shit of a son. ig the trait that frustrates me the most is his self destructive tendencies. like. Sir. are you at all aware of the fact that people care for you and want you safe? and that you can respond to that concern with something other than "i can use this", "sucks to be them", or, "no theyre not"? sir. sir answer the question. hes so empathetic and also literally a telepath but somehow cant compute genuine concern at him. as frustrating as it is though, i cannot deny that it is deeply funny to watch him fumble so badly.

F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?

normal. the ones where people look at me and think "wow, that is a person who is having (a) regular thought(s) about their character! very cool!" you will never see a person who is more normal about their guy than i am (i am grabbing him by the teeth and shaking him like a dog with a very strong kill instinct).

truly though, thinking of him gets me buzzing. hes like a puzzle, i keep breaking him apart and putting him back together again to see how everything works. i have this thing where ill often think about showing character analysis to the characters themeselves, just to see how they would react, and i undeniably do this the most with cyrus. i want to explain step by step (hah) why he is the way that he is now, like the whole timeline is plotted inside my head and its so!!!!! i am!!!!! chewing on him!!!!!

questions from here!

[niicevibe]

[banannabethchase]

It feels unfair that I have to schedule my breakdowns alongside school breaks because if I break down when it starts to feel like something's wrong, I will inconvenience everybody for a day or two. But if I wait, I only inconvenience and profoundly damage myself for about a week, and that appears to be preferable to everybody else.

[emdotcom]

I am going to snip a wire in the stupid fucking kareoke machine they gave to this toddler. Fuck you for letting her on that shit at any hour.

[machidielontheway]

i want to (and did) cry out of frustration because of work and by memory it's the first time it happened

i'm so tired of people doing a bad job and making stupid decisions and having to shoulder that weight months later when it's so late to see it and scrambling to find solution

[northofneverland]

Atsumu only drinks whiskey when he thinks of Sakusa. At first, he’d pour himself a glass as he rambled to Samu, over the phone, about the latest injustice that Sakusa had committed against him. However, he’s been pouring himself a second and a third drink recently because the burn of the liquor down his throat feels just as intense as Sakusa’s gaze. And he wants that feeling, he wants to be smothered by it because intensity is better than indifference. Atsumu isn’t one to back down from a challenge, and if it’s a long con, he’s ready for Kiyoomi to make the first play.

[allalrightagain]

There is no way the Netflix algorithm has beaten fandom to a show about feuding magic groups in Britain and France with a bi, queer love triangle and daddy issues, right?

Right?!?

[p0rkbun]

This video honestly reminded me of a requested art of officer! sam carpenter 😍

(This is my queue to sketch officer sam rn brb—)

[pressedink]

I just finished reading James Potter vs. the World and OH MY GOSH IT WAS SO GOOD ITS ONE OF MY FAVORITE FICS THAT IVE EVER READ

the backstories??? *chefs kiss*

and you know what? I��m not even mad at Peter like um yeah he kind of deserved it

also whatever the heck Evan and Barty had going on??? That is peak rosekiller

oh my friend. you don’t even understand how much this means to me!!! thank you for reading <3 and for taking the time to send me this ask <3

i too succumbed to the power of the backstories, like, fully did not even intend for them to go that deep but these characters grabbed me by the collar and said ‘we WILL be featured. heavily.’ and based on what i published i’m sure you can guess what i said back.

HE DID DESERVE IT! HE FULLY DID!! and like, without Peter, where would James Potter be? Peter got his moment, as he should, and literally everyone is better off for it.

okay the rosekiller in this still has its hooks in me, i won’t even lie. something about those crazy obsessed bug boys (Evan is bc Barty is ofc) has me foaming at the mouth. i can’t stop thinking about them. and honestly i’m seconds away from writing them again so i probably will……..

sending you the hugest biggest most enormous hug in thanks and appreciation!!! you are so kind and wonderful and i’m beaming over and over again just reading your ask. THANK YOU AH

[forbodium]

had a nightmare where my dad and i were stalked by the ghost of a serial killer called "bonny john" aubrey