#sorry if not coherent im sleepy

[dangans-ur-ronpas]

some dgr doodles i did last night

ft: the toxic yuri enogiri au i have in my head where they were dating before the killing game started. throughout the actual game, kyoko has the vaguest recollection that she has some kind of deep connection with the mastermind behind it all, and junko is both rooting for and actively sabotaging her girlfriend by dropping hints about their relationship. which leads to some intensely disconcerting inner turmoil for kyoko as she tries to figure out what the hell she's gonna do when she uncovers the mastermind's secrets, and if she really wants to do that at all

and naegami horses ig

[mirusx]

does anyone grasp the depth of grief, persistence, and hope all at the same time from these supposedly just system notifications? please bear with me and my incoherence bcs i might actually be losing my mind????? i apologize in advance

[Story, --, has begun its storytelling once more.]

[Story, --, is continuing on with its storytelling.]

and then kindly replace those '--' with a story like "Life and Death Companions" or other stories affiliated with kdj and kimcom.

Orv has repeatedly emphasized how people are stories and how we are all just stories trying to understand each other. Seeing these 'stories' that were made from kdj and other's connection trying to continue on and starting once more evoke emotions deep inside me. Because Kdj and every member of kimcom live on through these 'stories', they embody the stories that they obtain. They're the ones who want to continue on and to begin once more. Because 'once more' implies that it has already come to an end at one time, and 'continuing on' means persevering despite of.

like resisting permanent death.

It's like no matter what catastrophe befall the world or the universe and how long these stories and connections may stay dormant, they will always awaken once someone remembers them. Once someone speaks of them. It's like how people have this irrational fear of being forgotten, and so being remembered, being told, and being shared just like a story somehow realize our existences. And we all know that these system notifications appear when the people involved in the story are wielding their shared story/experience to get through something(scenarios) or to someone(between themselves) and hope that the stories they've created are good enough to be acknowledged. Whenever the system narrates a story— one, both, or all of the parties included in the story want to be seen, recognized, and understood as we all crave to be good enough to continue being somebody in at least someone's story— in someone's life. It's like our souls despairing and rejoicing at the same time, "i'm here! i'm still here. i'm still continuing on. our story's still existing.", pleading to be read.

and so once someone recognizes our story, connected with us, and understood us— our story continues on despite of, and it begins once more even when it might have ceased at one point. It tells this new story of not being forgotten

and how our existences— our already written stories, always endure. just like theirs.

....the grief, the persistence, and the hope of it all.

[Story, Life and Death Companions, has begun its storytelling once more.]

[Story, Life and Death Companions, is continuing on with its storytelling.]

fuck did this even make sense im so sorry. i just really needed to get this off my head, it's rotting my brain

[jackwhiteprophetic]

Sooo weird that this scene was not in the final cut. It felt like so much was missing from the Chris and Eddie storyline in 7B, to just simply establish basic things and make things feel more in place. Nothing in the scene was very surprising but it made everything else make so much more sense in the context it gave.

[vaugarde]

Eve and I were talking about how the Pokemon in the future got food and water when every drop of water is frozen, and he mentioned they just get it from the dungeons cause you can find apples in there. And I just hadn’t considered the dungeons before, I don’t know why. But that got a whole lot stronger in this playthrough cause I’m just now noticing that there’s color in dark hill and dusk forest (which i did note but dismissed as variety for the sake of it. im dense.) AND there’s water that a water type hero can swim in in Dark Hill.

So now I’m thinking. What if the mystery dungeons were the planet’s last ditch defense mechanism? Since time and space work differently in them, the dungeons themselves weren’t paralyzed, along with the Pokemon (who are also shown to be frozen). Just for some form of longevity. Of course, there comes the doubled edged sword of “the dungeons have a mind of their own and either drag you to madness or kick you out on a whim.” And that’s why most Pokemon in the future “have a darkness in their heart”, because they’re being influenced by the dungeons. Plus, fighting would naturally break out more due to the lack of food, some Pokemon can’t get through or handle the dungeons, and the exploration teams die out as it becomes every mon for themselves.

[sylkshe-gone]

So , I've actually been seeing a few people on the dash & friends too , going through this , so I'm going to add to it.

Nobody is entitled to your time. The world is in shambles. People are struggling to make a living wage. Life in general is just ... hard. Roleplaying is a hobby. Some people have anxiety. For some people , it's extremely difficult to carry a conversation with strangers. For others , time is a challenge. I for one have so little time because of my work schedule. I also barely have the mental capacity to take care of myself physically.

Anyway , I'm tired so I feel like this isn't really making any sense , but the point is:

Stop guilt tripping people for not being immediately available for you. People have lives. Not everyone is capable. You aren't entitled to anyone's time , muses , etc.

Stop guilt tripping in general , especially over roleplay.

[secondchoice-ragdoll]

Am I the only one who is a little sad that the moment Trixie was single she didn't take a second look at Katya and immediately went to the ex? She could've given her a chance. And I wonder how K really feels now that she wants kids. I know she doesn't want them herself, but I'm afraid this will change things between them and I really really hope they don't.

ugh okay first of all: im totally w u and i a 100% see ur point. these have crossed my mind too, and i can easily get to a place where these topics make me sad for a while. but genuinely i dont think we should worry too much abt any of it. at the end all i want is for them to be happy, no matter how that looks like🤝

on a further note, we cant be like *actually* sure abt any of what is going on? like yes it seems pretty clear, and it might as well be exactly as we think it is, its all spelled out, isnt it? its really just that we were the ones who spelled it out, and not T, or any other person who is practicipating in the situation. all im saying is that i wouldnt advise anyone to bet on whats going on w T rn (if for nothing else then just out of respect), and im sure eventually we will hear either a confirmation or a fully different story that will clear things up.

specualtion is free tho, and also pretty interesting, so as long as we keep it kinda hush-hush i think its okay that we entertain ourselves w these anecdotes. like im totally in, and i do think *the* ex is now truly an ex, like that much id even dare to place a bet on. the rest is just questionmarks😭😭😭 like i could see this new guy being actually something, or just a rebound-fling, or just a friend(?). and its also possible that he is the old ex, and then i do have even more questions, but the bar is under a frog's ass after the last guy, so im appriciative towards anyone who is slightly better than him, and it would appear to be a true challenge to be worse than him💀 sooo idk i do believe yall that that guy on the pics is really old KY guy, im just not sure if they r friends or fwb or dating or a secret fourth option? doesnt matter as long as T is okay and having fun. (also, i do think she could have spent some time being single IF she is in a relationship again, but hey, anything is better than how we were around a year ago, no? and as long as a guy doesnt treat her like shit im happy for her!!!) ((and yes. i am really sad miss K got looked over again if thats the case. even if i dont think we will ever get to live in a world they r actually legit dating. in another universe for sure. but in this one? too many hangups. these creatures cant even fucking talk abt the fact that they'd like to hang out more tgthr. like..... be fr😭 they r stooooopid, and thats okay. its sad, its tragic, but its okay, and they have a really special relationship regardless of whether they ever go that far or dont. there is always hope, and even if they fall out now, maybe they need it to break and actually confront the fact that they want to hang out? like there r so many ways for things to go. soooo many. i could sit here and spin this wheel on for hours with no end, i promise. i do think it could have happened in like 2020-2023? maybe even beginning of 24. but as things stand now... eeeh i think it wouldnt be such a clean cut, but they do tend to do things the more complicated way, at least thats how it seems to me. the thing is that they r such complex ppl and they have so many motives that i could make literal lists about what their excuses might be (such as work, but now that T says it doesnt matter that much maybe it changes, or such as age, or what-ifs, or fear of ruining what they have, or thinking that maybe they have missed their chance, new/old confidence issues, mental health states? ...these two...). on the other hand, do we really think K got looked over? Ts literal god? im not so sure, but only time will be able to tell wtf has been going on.))

i see ur concern, and yeah change is fucking scary, especially if such comforting things change. but u see, this could be exactly one of their hangups too. things keep changing no matter what, all we can do is hope they both r okay and happy and nice parts of each other's lives.

i understand that T keeps speaking abt wantimg kids, and sure, pop off! but like, i reaaaally doubt she would be actually having kids this year? like i feel like its maybe a new thing for her to think of having kids as an actual possibility she considers for her future, thus she speaks abt it openly since its one of the things she is interested in now! but like, having a kid is not this quick of a process, even a pregnancy takes 9 months😭😭 and also im pretty sure that her life isnt at a place where she could pick up a kid tomorrow and just go on and be her best self as a parent and i feel like she must be aware of that? T and K would both be at least okay parents, thats for sure!! but like, considering Ts past year... yeah i dont think it will be such a quick happening. once, in a few years, sure! even in 2, why not! but not tomorrow. she'd do fine as a single parent, she'd do fine w a partner, it will be fine, just really not as soon as some ppl r concerned it might be😭 let her just get that birdie first, i think that could be a logical and nice next step!

finally, i really dont think K would have such a problem w children? (even if she did, dont u think shed make an exception for T? im pretty sure she'd do almost anything for/with T.) like she absolutely adores her nephew as far as i know, so im certain she wouldnt delete T's contact info if/when she had a kid. im pretty sure T wouldnt block Ks number either just bc she became a parent, she also seems to know how nice K is to kids despite not necessarily getting them (see: her gifting a lot of money to her nephew's, like, 4th bday? but i could argue that thats a great gift, just more long term great😭). and what if T gets that kid and eventually calls K for help (more likely for herself and not the kid, but this is besides the point), and then K does help, and then they spend even more time together with this newfound excuse, and they realise how well they function as a family, and then they can finally move in together and be lesbians and be disgustingly in love and live happily ever after??? what then???? anyways, my point is that even if they r in a tiny bit of a divitation i highly doubt it would be due to T wanting a kid. i think its more that they both were afraid during T's break that if they reached out more they would annoy the other one, bc "omg what if she needed a break from me too???" (like. T needed a break from her god. and K needed a break from the person who tethers her to this earth. sure jan. emotionally they do have some challenges, thats certain!). and maybe they need to drift a bit apart to then get back together and be even closer (if that is scientifically even possible). things arent as linear and easy as we would like them to be, and since our perspective is and outside one, im pretty sure that from their pov it seems or at least feels sooooo much more complicated. while i just sit on the floor and go "just date ffs its not that hard!!4!4 look back footage of ur faces while u look at eachother!!! thats all u need!!44!", and we r both right! it is very complicated but it could also be manageable. (what i think might be more painful here is if T has the kid w a partner, bc that seems pretty, uh, *certain*, or unchangable, final? obvi its not ***that*** drastic, but it is a bigger deal. so yeah, but i stand by my op that none of this will happen in the blink of an eye, we'll see as it unfolds ig and hope for smth real nice)

[wishi-selfships]

What about Denji makes you attracted to him? I love him as a character, but I’m not attracted to him at all.

Hiii anon I'm very sleepy but I saw this and didn't wanna wait until I woke up in the morning to answer. So forgive me if this makes little sense.

Basic Tl;Dr that leaves a whole bunch of stuff out: what makes Denji attractive to me is a combination of various things about him (personality and appearance), while certain other variables make that initial sense of attraction stronger. Full yap down here ⬇️⬇️

To be honest, I think I'm a little bad at understanding and explaining why I'm attracted to a character— outside the instances where my attraction is solely appearance based (bc there are characters who look so good visually but that's to the extent where I'm attracted to them). I'm just not a person who is very good with her words or figuring out her thoughts. I'm actually ... very bad at this, and it's definitely a point of insecurity for me. Which is besides the point (I told you I was sleepy and wouldn't make sense).

I think it's a combination of his appearance + personality + experiences he goes through + mutual likability.

In the sense that: I think Denji is cute. His design is very appealing to me. I love his boyish looks, the sharp teeth. His brown eyes are so pretty and his hair, while frustrating to draw admittedly, fits him so well. His design is so pretty to me. Even when he pulls some real fuckass expressions, his design is genuinely so alluring and so dear to me that I can't help but feel happy seeing it.

But his appearance would mean nothing if his character wasn't likeable— and to me, it is. Again I am admittedly bad at understanding character. But when I read Denji's interactions and I see his actions and how he speaks and how thoughtful he really is and how sweet Denji is despite certain circumstances making him seem otherwise. And how much love he has with not so many places to put it. And his naivety is heartbreaking but makes me more attracted to him, but not in the sense where it's like "aww he's so naive and stupid (I'm going to use him)" it's "he's gone through so much and hadn't had the chance to learn or be taught certain things and it breaks my heart I want to help him I want to help him see what it should be like" and just. He's such a sweetheart but he's also so silly and lovely and aaa..♡♡

And then speaking on that last part: the inherent tragedy of Denji and his place in the world of Chainsaw Man makes me feel so much for Denji. Because I read the manga and I read analysis' and I talk with others about it. And I see Denji going through so much and I already care about him so much for the person that he is that I cannot help but feel incredibly sympathetic for him. Denji going through so many hardships makes me want to protect him. It's... odd, I guess, from an outside perspective? But to me it makes total sense. Seeing negative things happen to him and make his mental state worse make me worry about him more. The more worried and sympathetic I become of his plight, the more I think and dwell on Denji as a character but also as a person. In a way. And the more I do that, the more my love for Denji is cemented in my heart.

And then I mentioned the mutual likability; which is my way of saying. Well. Denji is a character who would like me. I don't consider myself as desirable by any means. I don't consider myself pretty or having the best personality or anything that makes me worthwhile as a partner. But I read more of Denji and I get to see more of his character and I get the feeling that he'd see something in me the same way I see something in him? I can't put it into words. I think Denji actually liking me helps me like him more as well. It provides me with a sense of comfort (as sad as this may sound lmao) and that comfort makes me love Denji even more. And me loving Denji even more makes me think that he'd love me even more too. It's like a cycle lmao.

I don't know. Does this make sense? I always think passively as to why I love Denji. I struggle with putting feelings into words, but I know how I feel and I know why. Just instinctively, in my heart. And I'm very tired so my abilities are even WORSE. but. I hope this answered your question anon

[flame-shadow]

re: your tags SHOW ME JEROME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE booflies are my favorite non-boss enemy in the entire game i love them so so much. I'm making a cowboy bug oc that's a boofly wrangler soon. I must gaze upon this boofly oc.

You're in luck, for I have not one, but TWO boofly OCs! Pictured here with some of my other characters too. Zip is the smaller purple one, and Jerome is the large one with the scarf.

First up is Jerome, most beloved. One of my oldest HK OCs and best friends with Cyra the wasp who will stab and kill anyone who tries to harm her buddy. Jerome is a soothing presence, slow to intense emotion and very thoughtful. He's a little odd for a boofly because he's as much a person as any bipedal bug, but without the means to communicate with those bugs, he is not often recognized as such. With Cyra's help, he developed a special form of communication that's a mixture of body language (limb gestures, wing positions, tail angle, head tilt) and sounds (humming, rumbling, tapping, thumping) so that he could communicate with her, and she could translate to other bugs. A way to make new friends!! He loves friends!! He will convert Cyra to the way of friends eventually, too, but he has to be patient and persistent, which he's good at.

[more about how cyra and jerome met and bonded can be found in this post]

And now onto Zip! He is such a weird boofly! He's very energetic and speedy! ...well, speedy for a boofly. He won't win any races against a dragonfly, but that's alright. Once he gains some momentum, he becomes rather like an errant rubber ball, bouncing off rocks and walls and other bugs if he can't stop or turn in time. He's fine, though! It's all play for him. Fearless to the point of ignorant endangerment, he will go where no boofly has gone before! And probably get stuck, because it's hard to explore small cracks as a big, round bug. He sometimes needs help getting free, something Jerome recruits Cyra to help with. That won't stop him from trying to explore the next small crack, though!

Jerome keeps an eye on Zip. He can't keep up with the bundle of energy, but at least he tries. Cyra doesn't like Zip, but she tolerates him for Jerome's sake.

Oh, and as a bonus. Back when Jerome and Cyra were two of my only HK OCs, I liked to put them in angsty situations. Here's a quick comic I did a few years ago where Jerome gets infected. Enjoy :,)

Also thank you for the ask! I haven't gotten to talk about Jerome in a while. He hasn't gotten much development since whenever the previous time was, but he doesn't really need it. He exists to be a stable character.

[tmmyhug]

in the first few minutes of the stream dream says that they've been planning this for a while and it finally worked out. cancelling or postponing someone's memorial stream like that would be very disgusting.

i'm not defending dream's actions, but I genuinely think this is a case of bad timing and it's disrespectful to techno's family to call it damage control

it's both bad timing and a bad decision on dream's part. it can be both. i wouldn't be as harsh towards dream if he had shown any effort at all to acknowledge that it was bad timing that couldn't be helped, or to center himself in it less. but he didn't, and whether that's because he thinks the situation's over and he can move on as normal, because he thought it would be a good way to get people to stop talking abt it, or both, it's a vile move. cancelling or postponing would be bad, but so is this. i mean no disrespect towards techno's family and i won't call it damage control anymore, but it's dream who's at fault.

[sumthinganarchy]

I've only ever thought about my lithromantic and orchidromantic identitys as in irl situations, as helping my fictosexuality (so I don't have crushes for a long time/ don't cheat on my f/os), But I also exhibit them in fiction to not gain new f/os in the same source as my other f/os (not all the time tho (lol)). For example I've had a few crushes in cookie run other than my f/os (after I had gained these f/os), but they would go away after awhile. Just thought about this lol

[kxllerblond]

Clark && Physical Attractiveness.

I've gone over how Clark is very casual around your eldritch beasts, your formless entities, your 'strange' and 'monstrous' looking individuals. This is heavily in part to him just naturally gravitating to those that are the outliers of normal society and their current standards but it's also a lot in part to what he is and what his father is.

Clark's father was an incubus. Incubi and succubi tend to be shapeshifters in my hc and they will most always take on forms that are considered the most attractive at the time by society's standards. It's a means to hunt and attract the most meals-—attractiveness and beauty is to incubi/succubi as their lure is to the anglerfish.

So how does this play in to Clark and his perception of what is, by society's standards, attractive or not? Some good, some bad things.

I've said it before how Clark's father more or less took his mother's genes and essentially put them on steroids. So he is insanely, unnaturally even, pretty. He is very pretty and he knows he's pretty because that's what his father's kind is to be the hunting predators they are. So the bad thing is, he does have some form of body dysmorphia going on and probably a morphed perception of others too. The good thing is, because of all this...he just does not care about looks. They mean absolutely nothing to him because they hold an entirely different meaning to him.

Conventionally attractive is a tool to get stuff to him. It's not to be trusted, it's not genuine in his eyes. Clark is very likely to trust you LESS right off the bat if you are also an insanely pretty motherfucker like he is. He can look at someone and, in a very detached way, take note of features that society currently favors or disfavors-—but on a personal level, he just doesn't really care.

Add in his demisexuality and it really just makes him the worst muse to play opposite for if you have a muse that has any sort of focus on 'unattractive' features, looks, etc because he will just slow blink at you and go 'Ok...anyway, do you want to get bagels and smoothies today?'

[nocturnal-birb]

I think I know the real reason why Plushia is back in the store (at least in the EU/Uk one)

and it's because of that one time Copia was holding a bootleg of him when he sang MOAC

[altruistic-meme]

Abram darling, i have two questions:

have you unlocked the secret shrimp emotions from being awake so long?

i'm shuffling through your Omar but mmmm i cant find songs that itch my brain. you know the songs that tend to do that, do you have any recommendations?

hello my love ksdhfshd

1. i am prety sure i can hear shrimp sounds. i don't think i've ever drank so much coffee in one day before, which is fascinating cus i have definitely drank a lot of coffee. it is still a 0/10 experience and i would LOVE to experience some Sleep. alas. we are going on hour uhhhh 32 or so.

2. mmmmmmm most of his songs itch my brain but i think that may be somewhat of the Blorbo Effect. that said tho, the songs that i definitely vibe with the MOST are: In The Sunrise, Om Om Och Om Igen, Moving Like That, and Läppar. ESPECIALLY Om Om Och Om Igen. it's simply one that is *chef kisses* but for his slightly slower songs i do also love to listen to Breathe and Dum, as i think they just have powerful moments in them that i like to sing along to!!

i would also definitely suggest his cover of Symphony, and this performance specifically of his cover of It Takes A Fool To Remain Sane! i love the acapella version from YR a lot more than his 'official' cover of it

[i-may-be-an-emu]

Seeing visibally queer people in public is honestly so soothing like I hate shopping because ew bright lights and noise and people and clothes suck and dysphoria but I needed to buy something over the last couple days and I met these two really cool (probably) gay* guys and it's so nice to be in a place you hate and your already stressed about the really unprobable possibility of someone being like "hey why are you buying MENS clothes you GIRL" and then this older gay dude is just randomly like "how was your day??? Oh my gosh my shift is almost ovverrr i cant wait I'm so tired" Just talking to me. like he knew me. And oh my gosh. Just made me feel so safe. Like I was so stressed looking in the men's section for clothes, and I know this is such a little problem in the grand scheme of things but it honestly just made me feel so much better when I saw a (very probably) gay dude just. existing. And another at a different store with painted nails who kept asking his co-workers riddles. Like it immediately made me feel so safe and not alone.

*im meaning the word gay as in probably queer in some way

[virtue-and-beneviolence]

Asura and Arachne are kinda 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳

Oh sleepy sleepy sleepy you little spicy nugget you.

I'm more team Medusa in terms of the hottest female character personally but Arachne's eyes and attitude are 😳

I just. Love stein's madness. And even when he's v controlled he's got the sexy apathy thing going on. But surprise he's also stupid goofy science teacher. And like the chemistry he had w Medusa holy God I want that ahahahah

Secondarily. Pinstriped suit soul. Devoted boy>>>

Wes is my type to a t. Cute boy's older brother oops. Rich to boot. Also plays a string instrument idk idk look. I have. Thots. And he has like idk 4 panel appearances right lol he's the reason i started the manga tho i didn't finish it.

[pedrilcvr]

HÉCTOR FORT. SHE LOOOOOOOVES TRACING HIS TATTOO. she usually only ever does it when they’re about to go to bed and with how much she’s done it, he actually can’t and won’t go to bed unless he feels the gentle touch of her fingers on his skin FUCKKKKK.

Restless — Hector Fort.

Pairing: Hector Fort x Fem!Reader

Summary: Hector cannot seem to fall asleep, and he quickly realizes the reason why. He needed your familiar touch to put him to sleep.

Disclaimer/s: none, just pure fluff!

A/N: oooh im so sick i need a bf (hector) BAAAD.

Hector couldn’t fucking sleep. He’d been tossing and turning for the better half of an hour. You’d fallen asleep the second your head had hit the pillow, probably exhausted from a long day at Uni. It wasn’t until a few minutes ago Hector had even realized that was the problem.

You’d fallen asleep without doing your nightly trace. Usually, and by usually Hector meant every single night, traced his tattoo. He didn’t think the fact that you being asleep meant he wouldn’t be able to sleep, but it did. And now he was screwed.

He didn’t want to wake you up, but he wouldn’t sleep and you were the only solution.

Gnawing on his bottom lip, Hector rolls over, staring at the back of your head for a few moments. You wouldn’t mind.. would you?

There was always the chance you’d get upset, snapping at him to go to bed… screw it.

He says your name quietly, a little above a whisper as he reaches out to tap your shoulder. You, being a light sleep, mumble out a quiet, “yeah?” Your eyes still closed despite answering coherently.

“Sorry, I couldn’t sleep.” He sighs, pushing himself up onto his elbow.

You turn over to face him, eyes fluttering open, looking up at him in concern. “What’s wrong?” You were fully attentive now, your lips tugged into a frown.

Moonlight lit up Hectors face, making him look all the more handsome. “It’s stupid, really.” He says, his cheeks darkening despite the light.

“Nothing could ever be that stupid if it’s coming from you, mi amor.” You tease, voice still raspy from sleep.

Hector rolls his eyes playfully before he becomes embarrassed again. “Could you..” He clears his throat, nodding his head in the direction of his tattoo.

Your eyes flicker to it, mentally tracing the lines. You loved his tattoo so much. Sometimes you even wished he had more. In the year and a half you’ve been dating, you’d somehow memorized it. Even during Uni, when you zone off during a lecture, you found yourself doodling the tattoo.

“Of course.” You laugh lightly, pushing him onto his back so you could make yourself comfortable as you cuddle up next to him.

Closing your eyes, you trace the design from memory. The simple touch beginning to lull Hector to sleep within a few minutes, but not before he can whisper out his thanks.

With his breath warm against your skin, you hear his sleepy mumblings. “Thank you, mi princesas.” And with that, he falls fast asleep.

DTS , @halfwayhearted <3