#sorry this is so long... if anyone reads my reasoning im so sorry bc thats like... 20 years long

[volfoss]

Leaving it up to Tumblr to choose my next comic chronology in like... 2 months when I'm free of green lantern (2 months is not very generous I fear)

Reasoning under the cut :3 (very long)

Duke- pretty short (less than 200 issues), I really like his character from what I've seen of him. I think it will also be hell (as is the nature of most batman adjacent chronologies) but it'll be worth it... Nice and short one and also swag character

Jefferson- 1. Black lightning is very fun early on and 2. I've already made the spreadsheet so I just have to read it. He's just like... A very cool character and I like him a lot so far. I just am gods scaredest soldier with long chronos (which his isn't too bad but it's ALSO batman adjacent and those are so scary)

Barbara - my best friend Babs but also if I have to reread the killing joke I AM killing Alan Moore ok. In theory I love her SOOOO much. In practice I think the fact I'm having to keep a "how bad is the disability rep" counter next to each issue says a lot. Unfortunately. Also already made this spreadsheet but I think it would be a very bad and good time.

Clint- again in theory would be fun. He seems right up my alley but alas if I have to see Tony Stark I do fly into a blind rage. And unfortunately I think he appears a lot... And also unfortunately I think I would suffer due to blonde man disorder ok (as I always do)

Silhouette+Aaron- package deal bc they're siblings. I've already started this one and then stopped because whoever is writing the early stuff SHOULD go to hell for what they're doing. For those unfamiliar, silhouette is one of the only heroes I've ever seen using forearm crutches (pretty awesome) and her power is that she can kind of travel via shadow iirc? Which would be really cool if they didn't like... Make her lose all her clothes and mobility aids when she's doing this. Which is why I quit. But she's very very cool minus that (and in my mind... I know she's written better later on) and her brother is his own can of worms (in... Definitely a way). In theory tho I rly gotta get through their stuff

Theodore - first off: I am a FIEND for marvel 70s horror comics. Second off: he is better than swamp thing. Third off: his big red eyes. But to be serious though like .. the Steve Gerber and Gerry Conway era of man thing is SO good and like .. political in an interesting way. I just need motivation to get around to it. Also he's cutesy ok!!!

Jason Blood- another consequence of the 70s horror era fan but this guy has CRAZY lore. He's a medieval knight who got possessed by a demon thanks to Merlin and then he's just lived through the centuries and become an occult guy. Reasons why I stopped this one - sometimes old horror comics are bad and horrible. And also a like 60 issue Garth Ennis written series. But I do really wanna finish his stuff bc he's like .. DC's version of Hellstrom (which. Genuinely awesome character, if you're interested in older horror comics def check his original run out <- my plug for my silly husband hellstrom who sucks so much or whatever. He's rly good tho seriously)

Jennifer - I've already made her spreadsheet and started it but the writers are soooo fucking bad most of the time. It's actually horrific. Pros for her- pretty good character when written well (her hellcat series stuff was REALLY nice for me. But I'll always hype up patsy walker aka hellcat at any chance) cons for her- the misogyny ... And my reward for finishing it is watching the she hulk show. So take that as you will

Dracula- I started his stuff bc I was PROMISED Gerry Conway (who is like.. one of my top 5 writers. He does amazing old horror comics and made a bunch of very cool characters). And then he left like 2 issues in and it went downhill. Some of the same authors who did some of the good (other marvel vampire who is redacted for my own safety ok) issues did stuff for drac. In theory this would be silly campy 70s horror comics fun. In practice oh my god I am gaining new authors to hate so bad...

[aropride]

saw ur recommendation for 3m aura n95s 👀👀 any advice on where to get them from? heading back 2 school in a few weeks and wanna stock up — tysm !!!!!

ok so!! my first recommendation is to see if there is a mask block near you, in my area it was CRANE (covid resistance action northeast), they're having trouble stocking and filling orders rn so mine took ~a month to arrive but the time would've passed anyway as they say . if ur in a more urban area ur a lot more likely to have one near u tbh, idk if it'd work but it'd be worth reaching out to the closest one even if they're not technically working in ur exact area just to see . here's a map of mask blocs worldwide- they're mostly in america (continent - but mostly in the US+canada) & europe (mostly in great britian) but there are some others too

otherwise the safest way to get some that are 100% not counterfeit is ordering directly from a supplier, but that can be expensive . project n95 is inactive now but theres still a list of suppliers there !! 3m is really good from experience . u can also get n95s/kn95s/p100 respirators from home depot if u have one near u- however the supplyaid kn95s they sell arent very good, i had them and theyre better than nothing but they only have a 67% filtration rate (as opposed to the 95% expected from n95s and kn95s - thats what the 95 stands for i was mindblown when i discovered this)

also while im thinking about it, part of the reason n95s are more protective than kn95s despite both filtering 95% of particles is bc the seal on the n95 is a lot more reliable than the kn95 :}

me personally ive been getting mine from amazon (not recommended) (i have gift cards there so im not giving them My money at least) and trying my best to make sure they're legit . i referenced the 3m n95 1870s i got using this twitter thread and they seem to be legit? on amazon it also usually says where it ships from and check the storefront, the reviews etc etc. i basically have to do an entire vetting process every time its very annoying ❤️ it is a lot less expensive though, especially if they have a sale going . (here are the ones ive been getting- the listings look the same as of rn but amazon changes them all the time so take this with a grain of salt, person i imagined reading this in 2027. link 1, link 2)

ive tried the holy trinity (new term i made up for the 3m n95 1870 (red straps), 3m n95 9205 (blue straps), and 3m n95 9210 (braided white straps)) -- ime the 9210 definitely has the tightest head straps and i have an abnormally small head on account of being 3 inches tall and born in a thimble all alone . so thats something to be aware of, if u have an abnormally big head the 3m auras might not be the best bc of the strap tightness .

SORRY I'M LIKE INFODUMPING AT U NOW ..!! i have more though . If you know anyone irl who masks asking them where they get theirs might help, they might know stuff locally. ALSO speaking of knowing stuff locally- i don't know if this is universal but i have a friend who's getting really into asian cuisine and a lot of asian grocery stores ive been to with her in my area have had masks. that's such a long shot but ive seen them five out of six stores ive gone to and never at, like, hannaford or market basket or whatever.

OKAY ONE MORE THING . when i got my free masks from crane (SHOUTOUT CRANE I LOVE YOU CRANE) they also sent a thing abt how to reuse them that i will add !! they can be used for like 40 hours if theyre not visibly dirty or the straps dont break or anything

okay i am done infodumping now SORRY THIS IS SO LONG..!!! tldr: local mask bloc if it's an option is definitely the least expensive, project n95 compiled a bunch of links to buy from suppliers, home depot/other hardware stores are worth a shot, and amazon's an option especially if you're like me (poor but have money stuck in amazon gift cards) 🫡

[kerizaret]

you're one of the wisest people i follow and i would like your wisdom

a person very dear to me has decided to abandon their old life. they messaged all of our moots then deleted all of their socials, changed their number simply cut off contact with everyone. none of our moots have heard of them in two months. how would you cope with that? how does one cope with essentially the death of a relationship? how does one move on from something like this? thank you for reading, you don't have to answer if all of this makes you uncomfortable. 🦈

Hello, anon, in really sorry that happened to you :( it it must be really stressful and scary, especially when it's been so long. From thr way you're talking about it I imagine you didn't know that person irl, so I suppose that you have no way of contacting anyone close to them that isn't in thr mutuals circle.. it sounds really hard, being so completely in the dark and left so suddenly

I don't know if i can really give you any.. advice, on coping, no matter how wise or not I might be. not because I don't want to but I don't think there's like... a "right" way to deal with a difficult situation like that? Or one that will guarantee it to feel better. If there even exists one really. I dont know if what i might suggest would work for you or not, nor can I be completely sure how I'd act, since I also don't know all the details.. and I'm also talking from the perspective of someone who hasn't experienced that and might be completely wrong

but what I csn tell you is, at least from what I get from what you said, is that I hope you don't blame yourself for this too much. I don't know if that person gave you all their reasoning for this, but since they completely and suddenly left so many peoplethat didnt expect it, and especially if they were someone you considered dear, it feels like maybe it was moreso something going on with their own life that caused this? Maybe they needed this, or maybe they had some problem, or maybe someone forced this on them... but i wouldnt know. But I think its better for uou and your mutuals who stayed to support each other and be kind to each other and yourselves too..

And I think you're also allowed to be frustrated and sad about being left and not having a chance to prepare or explain it before the person just disappeared. Bc it hurts too and it's sad and frustrating you couldn't do anything and suddenly lost a friend. That they jusy decided that themselves. Yk?

I don't know how I'd cope really. I know id be scared and stressed and upset that i dont knoe anything snd that something couldve happened to thrm, but prbably angry at being left behind while also wondering if id done something wrong. I mightve talked about it with friends or trusted family or my therapist.. I probbaly would want to support my other mutuals who were upset by this too and try to help them feel better too. Id probbalu think of what id done wrong and if it's my fault and maybe search for what I could've done better.. I mightve personally drawn something inspired by this to make myself feel better, even if I only kept it to myself 😭 but I'm not sure if this helps... but maybe doing something physical with it like writing down your thoughts even if it's like a journal entry nobody will see, or drawing random lines of frustration or sadness to get the feelings out, or letting out the feelings in some way thats not destructive.. maybe its something to do? I know i like to do that, i think..

But tbh knowing .hself I might've tried to work on smth to not think about tbis and be distracted but j don't think that's too healthy so maybe don't follow that 😭 but maybe sometimes hetting disteacted eith something lighter could be good too.?? I.. don't know. I'm sorry haha I'm not good att thus. don't really know if I can really say mych more how I'd be dealing with it or if what im saying makrs sense or can help you. But I hope I'd remember what I said before to u too. At least that's how I'm trying to look at it

I can only wish you the best anon <3 hang in there. I'm really sorry for what happened but I love you ok? I'll be hoping for the best for you and your mutuals and your lost friend

[devilbombers]

Hhhhiiiiii!!! This is the same anon from the yuri ask!!! 1st thank u soo much for answering my question 💕 & 2nd PLS DO GO OFF about how u feel negatively towards yuri PLSSSSSS!!! *clutches on to your shoulders like a mad man* it's not that I don't want to feel bored with yuri I genuinely WISH I could find a good yuri series but it's sooo hard & at some point u do get kind of tired of digging through all the other garbage yuri series that's out there & when u do find a good yuri series it's either some obscure yuri series that nobody's ever heard of that came out in the 90s/00s or the series got canceled due to poor sales/the publishing company just didn't give a fuck about it in the 1st place. Which is y it ALWAYS grinds my gears when I c ppl b like "would u himejoshis stop bitching because your yuri series aren't as popular as the BL/yaoi genre, y don't u just make your own yuri series/write your own yuri fanfics 🙄" like BRUH WHAT DO U THINK I'M TRYING TO DO?!?!? Sorry I actually have standards for the media I consume & not consume the same uke & seme toxic yaoi skinny twink series for the 500 millionth time in a row

I could cry over how much i understand you. (you are right and you should say that abt bl) this world is too cruel. Real Himejoshis like us need to stick together 🤝 i can send you all 5 series i can think of thats actually good if youd like.

tyvm for indulging my manic frusturations. This is certainly gonna be a long post saurrrr ill have to put it under a read more lmao. You asked for it so the gloves are completely off with this one and i thought abt it again and i actually dont care if anyone thinks im wrong.

I've come to the sad realization yuri can only REALLY be categorized like the following:

#1: yuri that is boring

unfortunately the usual case with 90% of yuri especially with new series

usually plays upon overused tropes making everything abt it lack any uniqueness to it

it is such an epidemic its forced himejoshis to become resigned to accepting these things into their hearts and even pretending its the shit when really its just shit 😭

its hard to give examples bc this makes up almost all yuri i can think of

#2: Non-Existent yuri

A series with really gay girls but they dont ever explicitly say theyre in love.

ex. dungeon meshi

Most himejoshis will on in the hill of saying they love subtext but we all know and especially themselves know that isnt true

#3: Yuri that is unserious as fuck

Theres a lot of drama yuri out there but it is always so fucking unserious it just ends up being funny as fuck instead

ex. Onii-Sama E and my girlfriend isnt here today

quite often this type is also associated with erotic media. But theyre so goddamn unserious it dosent matter how sexy either of them are, it immediately makes them so unsexy the minute they start talking.

i would only say ive succumbed to believe i love this genre bc i love to laugh at it sm

#4: Yuri where one or sometimes BOTH of them are dead 💀

i literally dont care i hate the "bury your gays" trope so much. it just aggravates the shit out of me bc what is even the point anymore then

great example of this is Alien stage

personally i feel like the only yuri that can exist like this and is actually genuinely good is obviously PMMM (i will fight everyone on the planet over this IDC)

#5: side character yuri

sort of a popular trend. kind of goes hand in hand with non-existent yuri but personally i think they count as different entities sometimes

extremely minor plot points or concurrent small interactions between side characters thats kind of gay as shit

theyre either EXTREMELY GAY or just a little gay theres no inbetween (either way, people will lie one way or another to say its really good)

despite the fact this yuri is quite ephemeral or absolutely nothing some ppl will still call this media wholly yuri for whatever maniacal reason

#6: YURI THATS TOO FUCKING SHORT

Unfortunately the best type of yuri also happens to be too goddamn short (usually limited to oneshots, anthologies, manga series no more than 25 chapters)

All my favorite yuri happens to be like this and i always scream at god for making life like this

If i hate anything in this world its liars, so i probably hate other himejoshis very much bc i keep constantly reading suggestions people hype up on the internet and ultimately being disappointed every single time because its never as good or unique as anyone says.

Its easy to say i hate them but its probably pity. I pity my fellow man that i consistently watch them fall for yuri underneath a wooden box held up with a stick and rope.

With all this being realized; its hard to ignore the truth of it all when trying to get into yuri regardless of it. So ive finally decided to stop listening to literally anyone anymore and ive ultimately stopped seeking it out bc im tired lmao

[hees-mine]

i've been inactive but i just caught up on your page and wow! The patreon is def a good marketing idea lol. There will definitely be people who pay to read your works since desperate horny ppl with money buy anything😂this whole "i don't have enough money" excuse is tickling me bc it seems like these ppl have more things to worry ab than begging for part 2s😭.

but yeah it was a bit surprising bc even though writing is time-consuming and im not getting paid on here, that's not what I do for it for. I genuinely like expressing my creativity for the fun of it and over time it feels like a piece of art. its just fun idk.. it's kind of mind-boggling that you're complaining about not getting anything in return because what else would you get in return? All your supporters can do is like comment and re-blog, they can't do anything else bc it's just a social media platform lol. i'm a pretty big page but even if it were 20 people reading I would still enjoy pleasing those 20 ppl. If the hate or negativity ur referring to is getting that bad I personally would just turn off asks!

ur gonna do what you wanna do and you'll make money regardless so kudos to you! It's just that i don't think this writing field should be taken so seriously or have such an effect on you, and heeseung is a human being in real life, so it is kind of weird that you'd want financial gain from it since he can't consent to that. but hey I support everyone's hustle.

you have amazing stories on here so I took a sigh of thanks that you're not going to delete or deactivate. They get me through a lonely night girl.😂😂def just delete the app if it ever gets too much for u!

Sigh

The wording of this is horrible

A lot of back handed compliments here but it’s all over text so maybe I’m not reading it right so I’m not going to dive into it

As far as money goes people can do whatever they want with it if they have it they have it if they don’t they don’t I’m not going to get into peoples finances let alone call it an “excuse” however I do agree their are more important matters than asking for a part 2

Key word YOU don’t do it for that reason me and you are two different people I don’t do it to make money either cause this blog was free to the whole public in the beginning so money was not on my mind when I made it

By you saying “i genuinely like expressing my creativity for fun” implies that I don’t

Im sorry that your mind is boggled because when I said I don’t get something in return was not in regards to money it’s a simple request for respect thats what I’m not getting here is basic respect and thats all I’ve been asking for for the past couple months

I get how social media works lol and the thing is I don’t need numbers or reblogs simply appreciate and respect my wishes and we’re gucci over here I don’t care if I had one reader as long as you’re appreciative of what I take time out of my day to do I’m cool with that

The negativity comes in more forms than just my ask box

I’m not taking it seriously and I don’t think anyone else is either clearly at the end of the day it is by no means affecting me in my personal life

Geez

This isn’t about “financial gain” it’s an opportunity for me to try and find the people who actually care about what I do and weed out the ones who just mass consume content with zero feedback sure I’d be making a little money off it but it would never be enough to sustain anything in real life I’m not greedy for a few bucks

So basically with that logic if him not being able to consent to me writing stories about him and making said money from those stories people would have to stop making fanmade items as well cause he’s not consenting to that either

Or is this different because there’s smut involved?

Either way it’s neither here nor there

Again the financial gain part is not even what I aim to do like I said some money would be involved yes but I’m not out here asking for 200$ dollars

Don’t know if you looked far enough but I’ve stated multiple times that if anyone had questions about pricing and what content they’d like to see then shoot me a dm/ask I’m open to making this a place where my readers can be happy and I can get away from the negativity that has plagued this blog

Thank you for liking what I put out i appreciate it🩵

It’ll never be a point where it gets too much because as I stated it’s just annoying but other than that it doesn’t have an impact enough for me to delete my blog it’s only an issue on tumblr

If I do ever delete it’ll be because I’m done with writing

Thanks for the input I hope my response just gives a little more insight on what things are like from my pov

[yagamisdiary]

I have a love hate relationship with the fact that you enjoy making us suffer throughout the entirety of your books and making us think they will have a bad ending just to give us the best possible endings ever 🥲 ugh i love you so much youre my favorite author ever, while im here i apologize for the incoming paragraphs but i just need to say it:

1. Idk how you do it but the book covers you choose are always so perfect like?? Idk if im explaining myself but i feel like they capture the vibes of the books perfectly

2. Ok now this is kinda personal and i dont mean to sound like im venting, but have you ever read a fic that impacted you so much to the point where you find yourself still thinking about it to this day 😭 bc that's how i feel about both of ur books, they're so beautifully written and i'm always thinking about the characters or going back to read random parts of the books (edit: i had this paragraph written way before parasite was removed okay but i started rereading eldia yesterday because im truly heartbroken, devastated, downcast, miserable, dejected and inconsolable by the fact that its finished)

I discovered you in july-ish 2021 during parasite era but didnt actually read it until june 2022, i was devastated when i finished it but also had to cleanse my soul cause i accidentally burnt my self out during the last few chapters (i mean it in a good way lol, it was rlly hard to read the last 2 chapters 🙇‍♀️ they were written really well and i felt unsettled while reading the beginning of y/ns whole breakdown, i could feel the gloomy depressed vibe it had if you get what i mean), so anyway i moved on to Eldia. At that time, it was fairly new so there were only like 10 or 11 chapters, ive been keeping up with Eldia ever since and its truly bittersweet to see it end like i was literally full on sobbing for no reason 🥲 probably the sentiment of being a reader for 2 years idk lol. Anyway what im trying to say is that your books were one of the only things that helped me escape reality in 2022, i didnt really find joy in anything and hated my life, however ive definitely improved ever since, so im honestly rlly thankful for you Amara 💕

Edit: i just know it sounds stupid and youre probably tired of hearing the same thing over and over, but i've had this written out for like 5 months and was kinda scared to send it because i felt like it was corny, but with Eldia's resolution i felt encouraged seeing all these people tell you what they think :P so sorry for the long ass paragraph lmao, i just needed to say it because i know in 10 years ill be a grown ass woman and still thinking about these books, theyre attached to my brain forever (like a parasite, ironic)

Ok so i doubt ppl will read this (or that you'll even read all of it) so if you reached the end i must say that you actually ate with the baby names in Eldia 🤭 im saying it here to avoid accidentally spoiling anyone but Andromeda 😪 i remember in early july i sent you an anon ask saying that i pictured you as a girl mom and even listed a few names, i was gonna list Andromeda so its kinda funny to me 😭 and Elrose?? Andromeda is my fav name but Elrose grew on me and i actually rlly like it, idk why it just sounds and looks so satisfying OMG DAMN I JUST SCROLLED UP AND DID I REALLY WRITE ALL OF THAT?? IM SO SORRY AMARA 😭😭 i definitely had way more to say but i feel bad now, it was gonna be an anonymous ask but atp i'll just let it be public

to conclude i must say that whenever someone asks me what my favorite books are, i hate that im not able to say "Oh my favorite books are parasite and eldia" because they're considered fanfics and not 'real books', i think thats really stupid, not only because fanfiction is just as valid as what ppl consider 'real books' but because there are so many fanfictions turned into real books or movies?? Ok im done (for now) but as you can tell im not really good at going straight to the point sorry for writing about 10 paragraphs love you queen vivan las escritoras latinas 🤞

1. honestly i find a pic that fits the vibe i want the book to give before i even write the story then i just somehow find a way to incorporate the cover

ex) eldia’s cover is jean with wine all over him, iykyk there’s an exact scene in eldia that references the cover

2. thank u so much 🥲 the ppl who have stuck around the longest always say the most sweet stuff bc yall really have been alongside me for so many years now and were like growing together which is kinda cool

3. i wanted a name that had ambrose and elijah both in it and it was either elrose or embrose but i ended up liking elrose more, embrose was too similar to ambrose

4. i don’t mind the length of the message at all! i love love love reading all the stuff i receive and the ones that are the longest stick with me the most. 🫶🏼

[wonusite]

Hiiiii

I dont know if anyone here had read the book Wuthering Hills by Emily Brontë (if you havent you really should) but when i think about a svt version of this i always think of these and i really wanted to share whatever this is

heathcliff!scoups/wonu: im sorry, i love seungcheol dearly but he just fits okay? Wonu is also there bc i really like him and wanted to add him and thats the only fitting role for him except edgar who was already filled with people (im just rambling at this point)And for the both of them i already said that they are probably the most intense SPOILER:obsessedloversakayanderes

Edgar!Jun/Seungkwan: both fit (actually all of them fits bc Edgar is my fave character but i dont want to say all just to say it lol) and i cant choose which one fits better (also dont come at me and say "but Edgar should be smaller than Heathcliff, Jun is not smaller than Scoups" Yes i know but lets ignore it and just think about the personalities of them pls)

Joseph!Joshua: wont even explain this, iykyk bc hes the only one fitting to this role

Linton Heathcliff!Jeonghan: bc linton is described as the pretty little boy of the book and there is some other reasons as well but dont wanna give spoilers (i hate that little bitch's guts but i love hannie so much please dont @ me)

Hareton Earnshaw!Mingyu/vernon/chan: no reason at all just fits the vibe

And i really dont wanna add him but Hindly Earnshaw!Dokyeom bc idk it just fits the vibes as well i guess

Lockwood probably would be a mix of hoshi and mingyu but since he is not a permanent character of the story i dont wanna add him here

Im trying to think more of male characters that made an impact on the story unlike Kenneth or Mr. Earnshaw (who did make an impact but didnt stay for long) but i cant think of any

Also Ellen would definitly be seungkwan and Zillah would be hoshi if they were male characters

haven’t read it so i don’t have anything to add lmao

[webslingingslasher]

https://www.tumblr.com/webslingingslasher/739224380667772928/hi-j-can-i-talk-ab-smth-thats-making-me-sad?source=share

thank you🫶🏻. i read this reply earlier and it made me cry bc you’re the only one who actually cares. thanks for letting me talk. also this is long and i’m v sorry but i just wanted to share w someone. part of it gets deep but i swear u don’t have to reply to that part, i fr just wanna make one point ab guys fighting

i hate violence so much. the jokes ab men punching walls don’t make me laugh and men beating the shit out of other guys to protect their girl isn’t attractive to me. i just hate all of it

it used to be funny and attractive until it wasn’t. my dad was so mad at me yesterday bc he was drunk and i wouldn’t give him more alc, that he punched a wall. i took a pic of the hole in my bedroom door and sent it my friends in our gc and we were laughing so hard at it bc white men and punching walls yk? It was so funny and we kept making jokes/memes ab it til i realised he punched the wall bc he couldn’t punch me (i closed my door and he couldn’t get in) and that’s a weird fucking realisation.

i just don’t like any of it and i’m having a v bad day. i told my mum and brother and nobody gets it. they both blame me. it’s ridiculous. and now i’m convincing myself that i DID do something wrong, when i know i didnt. it’s fucking crazy. he could beat the shit out of me (he wouldn’t) and they’d still find a way to make it my fault.

im gna send u my mums response (english is her 3rd language so ignore the mistakes) and she’s literally blaming me.

for context, my dad has a history of abuse (against my mum, yet she still defends him) and my mum is just as bad.

this is what she texted me:

“Ppl have limitations. If you push them they do things or say things and you turn and call names to those can’t bare any more. You should be a bit more patient and a bit more respectful to your parents

You shouldn’t keep shouting at him. We’re both doing our best even we are not the best I know, but as a return I thing we deserve to be respected , if you are better than us then you should understand what I am saying”

i just feel so alone. i stg it’s like no one understands.

anyways long story short i don’t like violence and i don’t find it attractive. i don’t shame anyone / any girls bc i’m a girls girl at heart, but i hate how people have romanticised violence bc it really does send the wrong message to guys and younger boys growing up and hearing “fights are so hot” and “it’s so sexy when guys beat the shit out of other guys” even if they deserved it. like even tho they wouldn’t do that to you, the reminder that they can makes me sick. i just don’t like it and i feel like i’m the only one :/ violence just makes me icky and anxious and scared even if it’s not directed to me/supposed to “protect me” (when it’s at another guy at a bar or whatever).

thanks for listening to my rant. ur legit my bestie. i have an anon emoji & we’re mutuals/we talk on here like all the time but i don’t wanna use it on this

ily

i don’t think you’re wrong for having this opinion or have it belong in an unpopular opinion category. i think the issue is that violence (esp w. men) has been so desensitized that it’s “normal.”

i also don’t like violence and grew up with an angry man in my home. i will never be an angry man and i will never be with one for that reason. but when i read something fictional i feel like im taking control back (? if that makes sense.) because i can “control” the violence.

your dad was wrong, and it was wrong of your mom to try and protect him. you deserve to feel safe and i’m sorry you don’t. i’m here always <3

[seiwas]

ok so..this is gonna be so strange and this isn’t a request but I wanted to put this idea in ur head bc I can’t get it out of mine

i haven’t looked into gumidori much I don’t think it’s a popular ship at all but there’s this audio going through Instagram rn..and I js saw an artists reel using it

and the audio goes like “hey be safe!”-gumi “I will :))” -itadori and then gojo and nobara are behind them “OH BE SAFE…ILL BE SO SAFE… MWAH MWAH MWAH” and gumi is like “GUYS STOP ITS NOT LIKE THAT..” and then he proceeds to monologue abt how he DOESNT at ALL have a crush on itadori..and then at the end hes like “i just listed all the evidence why I do have a crush on itadori…what the fuck” and gojo and nobara are sitting behind him listening to him mutter to himself and they’re absolutely DYING of laughter

that probably made no sense…it’s about 5am and I haven’t slept yet and I’m losing my mind! anyway have a nice weekend sel LMAO sorry u have to read my shit tonight 😔😔 there’s no way this’ll make sense to you at all but I tried my best I swear :((

but anyways..they’re so boyfriend coded now that I look at it? Like…ur telling me nobara hasn’t been actively discussing how to set them up together with gojo. UR TELLING ME GUMI DOESNT LOOK AT ITADORI AND GO “Hes so perfect, I wanna marry him. because he’s my best friend. No other reason.” Like what are you on about AND NOW APPARENTLY IM A YUJIGUMI(yujigumi? gumidori? Itagumi? gumidori sounds better.) SHIPPER SO THATS GREAT..

I’m gonna go dream abt toji now..goodnight u goose I’m so sorry u have to try to make sense of all this 😭

—anonnie 💌

hello nonie!! hehe i call megumi x yuuji as itafushi!!! (in case that rolls off better for you!)

and u r so sweet for coming in here to share ur thoughts w me !!!!! ohmegawsh 🥹 hehe i love itafushi platonic or not i just !!!!! love them individually, together, poly WHATEVER IT IS !!!!! they really are so boyfriend 🥺 what i love about their dynamic is how they balance each other out in a lot of ways 🥺 and i think megumi, despite being in the jujutsu world for so long, learns a lot from yuuji !! from how he perceives the world and jujutsu sorcery !! i think megumi’s rlly practical and cut throat in a lot of ways, but to see him deem yuuji as someone worthy to be saved 🥺 that’s what gets to me !!

that audio is also so funny !!!! bc megumi rlly would be completely the type to deny deny deny outright (tho i think he’s rlly aware of it deep down 😭 and just doesn’t want anyone to know abt it 😭 but gojo and nobara have him cornered !!! and what else can he do !!! but deny !!! only to realise that he just made it worse for himself 🥲)

i am wishing u the best toji dreams !!!! thank u for taking the time to share this w me nonie 🥹

[daezedd]

time for the 𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒 ! 🎀 ───

𖤐 first things first , as soon as my masterlist is made (im lazy rn sorry) it’ll be added to the bottom of this post. i think all my rules are pretty clear and should be common sense but please read through all of them before requesting or interacting with my page ! dont skip or skim.

໑ don’t copy my work. i’m not even that secure in my own work yet , so for someone to copy it would be rly annoying for me & embarrassing for them. also don’t translate , change , edit , or upload my work anywhere else. tumblr is the only platform i write on.

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໑ i’ve been a reader for a long time & i’ve seen a lot of writers get bombarded with anonymous hate , so if you’re one of those you will be blocked. if ur gonna hate at least don’t be scary abt it :p

𖤐 i ask for feedback a lot , but that isn’t an invitation to harshly criticize me or my work. only constructive criticism (when asked) is allowed pls & thank you !

𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐒𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 ..

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info/rules for 𝐑𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐒 ! 🎀 ───

𖤐 like i mentioned before , i am a slow writer. i can go for days at a time not writing (im trying to fix that) so keep that in mind when requesting. also , i may not write/create the thing you’re asking for. depending on a lot of things — if it interests me , if i don’t have time for it , etc. so please dont spam the same ask over and over again , or get upset with me. i am a human not a machine.

໑ i do/will age up characters , but only based on their canon birthdays. (ex : yuji was born in 2003 , so in a modern/future jjk au i would age him up.)

𖤐 my “y/n” (or reader) will usually be black coded & short , sometimes chubby as well bc that is what i most relate to ! i can try and keep it vague but im definitely (mostly) catering to my black girlies !

໑ what i will not write. ───

amab/male reader , incest , necrophilia , r@pe , drugging , character x character , pegging , rim jobs , age regr. , ddlg , feet kinks , non-consenual recording , g@ng bangs , lactation/breast feeding , scat/piss kink , domestic abuse , pet play , mpreg , bestiality , eating disorders (an eating disorder page followed me a while ago & i dont fw that shit very specifically), master/slave , heavy bleeding/gore , suic*de.

thats it for now , but im sure as (if) my page grows things will be changed + added ! ⇒ masterlist. (link will be added when its complete.)

©daezedd under @daest4rz . — GO BACK IF YOU DID NOT FULLY READ MY RULES. PLEASE & TY !

[puckandgossip]

can i get some girl to girl advice? i’ve been with my boyfriend for over half a decade. we’ve broke up three times and each time he’s gotten with another girl. i’ve never been either anyone else aside from him, like he met this girl and had sex with her not even a week after we “broke up”. he lost his virginity to her!!! it wasn’t even me!!! he ended up kind of forcing me into having sex with him and i hate myself for it bc like why did i give my virginity to someone who was so vile to me??i forgave him for everything, which was hard, but now i’m just bored of him and for some reason that makes me feel awful? he’s been good recently , and he’s adamant about wanting to get married and blah blah. but i just don’t see a life with him. he’s my best friend sure, but not my soulmate. my brain knows i deserve someone who won’t have to lose me to realize my worth, but my heart is telling me we’re young and learning - in that same breath i would’ve never done any of the things he’s done. i’m not sure if it’s underlying resentment or if i genuinely just don’t love him anymore. i don’t have any friends aside from him bc i made myself codependent on him and now i’m so socially awkward. i’m like a hermit in college while he’s living it up in europe, i really am not sure how to go about dating or finding someone attractive. he’s also destroyed my self confidence so badly, i look in the mirror and just want to cry bc i feel so ugly 24/7. i know this is my fault but i don’t know what to do to make it better as pathetic as it sounds

awh girl im so sorry.

I know it sucks to hear but please leave him, even the plain "we broke up 3 times" did it for me, and then I kept reading.....

he clearly does not have any respect for you and it shows. I know it's hard and it sucks to throw away a long relationship but I promise you , you will be SO much happier and find yourself again.

no one is worth destroying your mental health over like that and it will only get worse as time goes on. put yourself first and leave the relationship, cause thats fucking awful and he sounds like a terrible person.

take care of yourself first ❤️

[writers-get-biters]

Oh btw, apologies for not having asked first, but, would you& like me to refer to you& as "friend&" or "friends"? I think of you& as a collective first and foremost, but it's the '&' language like idk pathway in brain + you& often saying 'i&'

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"+ like, what if you& collectively count as a friend& specifically

Sorry I'm not always good with formulations + things slip my mind a lot when I speak"

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oh! actually we were just thinking the other day abt how we've never explained to anyone(&) how and why we use 'we/us' vs 'i&/me&' which i& think is relevant to this question lol! + there is a tldr at the end! bc we got excited ([our] plurality is a SpIn of ours lol) and this turned out a tad long '^^

bc of how our system works, we have like three different 'fronting' experiences. one is what is often called 'being co-con.' the second is similar to co-con but much wider in scope imo. for that, we prefer internet terminology like 'connected' or 'logged on/in' where we can identify ceters who are affecting the internal sphere of our experience. these r in contrast to the third: '[co-]fronting' (i& prefer other words like 'directing' or 'controlling' or 'steering' or 'commanding' but its not a major preference and 'fronting' is fine! tho mayhaps slightly confusing sometimes) where certain ceters are directly controlling the body and its actions. usually,

(we do also have other alternative terminology for 'fronters' & other common plural terms so if u or anyone(&) is interested, feel free 2 ask! no pressure tho ofc!!)

bc of those differences, most of us use 'i/me' to refer to the main fronter, 'i&/me&' to refer to all those who are fronting (and sometimes including co-con), and 'we/us' to refer to the gray area btwn ceters in the second fronting experience thingy who r 'connected' & the whole system. we sometimes use 'wei/muis' also instead of 'we/us'

when it comes to external forms of address and your specific question, i& think it depends on context (referring to fronter[s] vs co-con/connected vs Whole System), but generally i& think we dont have an overall preference! 'friends' is slightly preferred by some of us and 'friend&' is slightly preferred by others. perhaps more than anything, we would appreciate a mix, but please do not worry if thats difficult or not possible for any reason!!

tldr: we use different first person pronouns to refer to different things we experience with regards to fronting/co-con. in response to your actual question about 'friend&' vs 'friends,' we would most prefer a mix based on context, but feel free to use either &/or stick to one!

also sorry this took a bit to respond to..... "^^ we v much appreciate the question n dw abt it; not rlly anything to apologize for im&o ::? !

[funsizedcrow]

I was tagged by @multifr0gg in a tag game asking me to rank the LU links but the post was getting kinda long so im making a new post haha. also i kind of wrote a lot so im putting my reasonings under the cut. anyways! From favorite to least favorite (this was very hard because i do love them all...)

Four

Wild

Hyrule

Twilight

Sky

Legend

Time

Wind

Warriors

(Also: open tags! Anyone who wants to can join in)

. Four. I am a big fan of both minish cap and the four swords manga and I think combining both stories does actually work surprisingly well in a lot of ways and in general four is just the most interesting Link for me to think about…there are several different ways ive seen people interpret the colors and its just all very fun for me :) i also really like his design it is very fun for me to draw. 

Wild. Breath of the wild is my favorite video game ever easy and I do really like the way that jojo writes Wild’s character specifically..he is sooo interesting to me i love it when characters die and come back..is he the same person as before? is he an entirely new person? i don’t know! and neither does he. My favorite 117 year old. 

Hyrule. I just think he’s neat…I also think its fun how people take the very vague bits and pieces of story from his games (which i have yet to play but will soon i just have to finish ww and sksw first) and turn them into something interesting. the fairy spell, the blood curse, zelda ii surprisingly gives a lot of interesting lore to think about :)

Twilight. Twilight princess, also one of my favorite games. I really love his dynamic with wild and i love wolfie its such a fun story thing to play around with. i cannot figure out how to draw him though why is it so hard for mee…

Sky. I am playing skyward sword right now fun fact! Good game sky is a very interesting character to think about he is so fun. hes not up higher just because. i like the other characters better its not that i dislike him. He is also very similar to me irl haha generally very easygoing and laid back, people often characterize him as soft but he likes to tease people, tends to get very angry. just like me fr. we even have the same hair color. He is also ranked slightly lower bc i have beef with the skyward sword controls. yes i play with motion controls on the switch on purpose and yes it kind of sucks but also i didnt like the non motion controls much better.

Legend. I have played all of legends games (except triforce heroes which isnt actually canon to lu anyways) and i love them all a lot. Legend as a character is very very interseting to me and he is only so low because again. the others came first. um also I dont always like how hes portrayed in fanworks but thats mostly just me being nitpicky abt my blorbos…either way i do love legend. pink link <3 <3 (alttp link is my favorite link to draw but generally i draw my personal interpretation and not legend so in lu rankings that doesnt change anything.)

Time. ok heres the thing about Time i love him I just..i looove love love love majora’s mask and ocarina of time but especially majoras mask and i spend a lot of time thinking about the hero of time but its just..I spend a lot of time thinking about him as a child. and Time is an adult, much further removed from the actual games and I just have a harder time getting a grasp on his character? 

Wind: im sorry hes so low i didnt mean to..im playing wind waker right now too and i love it its so fun wind is so fun! Hes also one of my favorite characters to write i find it fun to write from the perspective of a child hes just. i dont hate him i love him i just dont spend as much time thinking about him as a character as the others

Warriors: hes at the bottom not because i hate him or his character but. its kind of similar to time in that hes just so different from my own personal interpretation of hw link that i find it kind of hard to get into his character? Ive read a lot of good fics and i think hes very interesting its just. again i am nitpicky about my blorbos. i have never actually played hyrule warriors (ive definitely had the option i just dont like the gameplay style) but i have spent a significant amount of time watching my dad and my sister play it, though that was like 5 years ago haha

[twildflower]

heh.

IF you actually decide to read this please do not like tell me to not do whatever and whatever and i have support and people love me and all that shit i do not care. im literally a lost cause. i have little to zero attachment to humans and i dont care abt how anyone would feel if i died. like if my collectables got stolen im just deadass gonna kms bc theyres no more reason for me to live anymore!!

not a good time to look at this if ur in a bad mood but i am being so honest here if one day i disappear for over like id say two months without notice then i probably killed myself LMAO like i probably would say smth if i did anyway but idk magbe id do it impulsively and like die lmao. i dont know im like not even american so its not abt the elections its just ive been swimming close to the edge every so often. its been slightly better after i moved but the main reason (my parents) are still around me so its also not been very good im sleeping way too much so easily. to normal people standards anyway ive slept for at least 15 hours today and i still couldve slept more but i just woke up bc i have to play my games and im scared of being scolded for sleeping so long. but im really just sleeping. idk why do i get scolded for sleeping but idk. they think im staying up late and gaming ig. im actually just sleeping but well. oh well. haha. idk. sorry. i dont know i guess im just saying this because. oh anyway i have like memes i really want to make but i just dont have the character cuouts im gonna cry and look them up... pray i find them lmao. and i have an assignment that my adhd is dragging on my ass i am not even 1/3 done w it...so i dont know i probably will just get distracted and actually try and find the cutouts i wanna use but thats so funny haha

[kindlyfunkn]

i was planning on making cookies like 2 weeks ago had chocolate chips there for that long havent had the motivation too much to do

a few times my sisters remarked to her friend that i was going to make cookies "but hasnt done it yet for some reason" like hmm yeah i wonder why i havent. could it be how incredibly tired i am all the time? i havent done anything specifically for myself except scroll social media and waste hours bc i sit for a break after not stopping and black out time jumps ahead n ive done nothing and that makes me feel worse. i feel guilty when i want to play a game or watch tv bc theres always something to do but my sister just stays in her room all day blasting music. days when i just cant do anything i feel awful then my sister comes home and i can feel the judgement radiating off her for nothing being done but im always the one doing it every day. i could spend the day after school sweeping, swiffering, making supper, shovelling snow, dusting, wiping the grime off shit, changing garbages, doing laundry, but because the dishes arent done shes right flippant. she had her boot marks scuffed up the entire living room so i mopped the other day, noticeable difference, not a word from her. she only ever thanks me for the dishes and supper but it means fuck all when im the only one doing them all the time. your thanks doesnt mean shit anymore to me can you cook an actual meal for once please

she made kraft dinner (which i cant eat makes me gag) some time ago, made two boxes worth then put the remaining in the fridge. she made kraft dinner again a night ago and ate it all. guess what i threw out today! moldy leftovers! stg she never eats her own leftovers. i make supper and the leftovers are put in a tub and in the fridge hoping maybe i can have it the next day instead of cooking again, she eats it the very next day like clockwork for her breakfast or lunch doesnt ask if i want it even though i made it, yet never touches her own shit she puts in there. im not a picky eater overall but i cant stand most wet slimy foods (kraft dinner, storebought macaroni, tbh anything creamy cheesy makes me want to vomit) but thats what she eats if i dont make something and she never touches her own leftovers.

anyway if anyone has been reading these vents im sorry i feel really dizzy i got super mad i have a lot on my chest even if it seems really insignificant ive just been so stressed out by everything i feel worse by the day im so so so so sick of everything right now

[dotuvoidsynth]

oh god i forgot about this entirely im so sorry uhhhh. ill start w the general gnp hcs bc yea. long ass wall of text after the read more thing

cakey/obsequious' name that i kinda like for her is Catherine for some reason?? its kinda silly it fits her shes silly shes my blorbo

also she's transfem, bisexual and demiromantic, uses she/her and uh. im a cakehurty shipper srry guys they r dating they love each other!!! lets go!!!

then theres hyper/tooth hurty n i dont rlly have a name for them i havent rlly thought of it....i should name them something silly too. like diet coke 3

they're nb n transmasc, uses they/him and uhhhh i havent rlly thought of their sexuality n romantic orientation but theyre probably demiromantic n demisexual too why not!!

they're both autistic n in love!!!! yay!!

i dont have many hcs for chris but!! ik hes a demiboy or some flavor of not cis, and maybe hes aroace who knows!!!

same for lilia but i just can tell shes nb or something, she/they and lesbian + ace

i also have barely any hcs for the crazy town guys for some reason, they're def both t4t w maika being transfem n yohioloid transmasc n i honestly have no idea about their romantic n sexual orientations but i have a feeling they're both bi or pan or something.......

and for the cmncs hcs!! i have barely any that i remember for some reason but!

henry and nancy are both ace and allat like usual bc they do not do the devils tango!!! they dont woohoo!! theyre both cis, henry's straight and nancy is like. demi??? she doesn't rlly mind gender shes just silly

frances is aroace, and also cis for some reason. idk why i got so many aroace little guys in my brain im not even aroace what does this mean!!

pronouns are just. plain cis person pronouns i think

uhhhh kennith is genderfluid, gay both ways n kisses men... oh he uses any pronouns he just does Not Care. he only wants money and men and like happiness or something.... a little kiss too if he feels like it..... hes audhd too...... the scrimblo

greg is a demiboy mayhaps....he/him, maybe bi??? maybe demi??? he just doesnt rlly care about anything he just exists and is not rlly okay w it but its fine he has the little gay guy that smokes w him so everythings fine

steph is cis, uses she/her and is also pan but!! shes also somewhere in the ace spectrum too!!

bri is nb they/them and a lesbian too and like ace too and like. they have an unhealthy obsession w tamagotchis for some reason. they're autistic and share that special interest w avery whos also autistic and they can and WILL talk about their spins for several hours. love them!! OH also they rlly like korn for some mysterious reason

avery is transfem n she/her and uhhhhhhhh..........somewhere in the acespec??? and a lesbian too i think....... she likes neopets n she definitely played club penguin at some point in it's early days

simon!!! my blorbo!!! im sorry you were so slandered and honestly i get it youre a cunt in the canon fuck you. but its ok because the canon is NOT REAL!! im delusional and will literally write a whole brand new story for him because he deserved a better lore bc hes just a bad guy for no reason and he has no depth behind that

so!!! simon is still aroace, uses he/him pronouns and everything, but he def didnt have the best most real most based childhood. someone give this dude a snack or something maybe a hug. his whole family was conservative and lived in a fucking. white ass neighborhood?? apparently those are a thing in the us?? what the fuck. everyone there was like that too so he grew up thinking that gays r BAD!! trans people? EW!!! icky!! black people? nuh uh! anyone thats not the typical alocishet white guy named John Smith was not normal n allat. so it was p much an echo chamber of weird stupid shit that he couldn't escape and didn't know anything that wasn't what this community inculcated on his brain since the moment he was born. so imagine this dude goes on the internet and sees a black trans girl n a latin american nb dating and identifying as lesbians. like just imagine the confusion bro would feel about that shit. bro probably punched a wall or something in frustration and decided to fuck their lives up because he didn't get why they were like that. anyways things happen, nathan appears and simon thinks "woah that guys rlly short he sounds like 13 or something is this a toddler?? nice clothes tho that hoodie goes hard" and plays cod mw w him on xbox live and shit on random kids and make them cry and everything, and this dude has NO IDEA that Nathan is not only non-human, but also fucking TRANSMASC and never rlly realized until like halfway through what would have been the case 3 story and yeah. hes like. what the fuck. this dude i actually shared my past with and actually asked for advice on some shit and played cod with and have spent all this time with, is literally trans??? what the fuck???? huh???????? and he got so confused he turned WOKE!!!! jk he just stopped being an absolute dick to every single person that wasnt a cis white dude that much. like he would still try to understand what the FUCK was going on w them but he didn't threaten to kill them. or actually kill them. or make them starve. or bully them to death and everything. he just made fun of them mostly but thats it!! he gets better later tho. he heals!!! nature is healing!! good job white boy!!!

i also kinda forgot about my storyteller hcs uhhh ray is agender, he/they n aroace.

evelynn is nb, she/they n guess what!! shes also ace but they're also a lesbian so its fine

nathan my boy........i would like to award you with the most prized thing i own (being hcd as transmasc). hes just a little trans guy!! just like me!!! uses he/they and is also aroace and hes also audhd and rlly fucking loves dogs. big dogs specifically. like these absolutely massive dogs u see sometimes and think "woah!! big dog!!"

should i start to post my cmncs + general gnp hcs.....