#sorry to rant but the entire thing really rubbed me the wrong way

[franky-y]

all jokes aside, this whole thing is kinda fucked up.  hiring someone, only to make fun of them, is some utter bullshit.

i don’t know how much jere gets paid for this, but it’s definitely not enough.

[boydepartment]

ོ༘₊⁺☀︎₊⁺⋆.˚ from the start (trips) - nishimura riki x m! reader

inspired by this cover - angst - masterlist - wc 250-300 -> PT 2

riki absolutely hated your tendency to have new crushes almost weekly. you were his best friend ever and something that kept him from going insane. riki always had busy schedules so being able to hang out w you once in awhile helped balance it.

there was just one thing, you were a hopeless romantic and would crush on anything breathing. and normally this didn’t bother him but now for some reason

it was.

it was REALLY bothering him.

riki didn’t know what was wrong with him, he watched you as you started to wash his face, bumming off his products and clothes.

he liked when you both shared clothes, having the same style helped a lot. he liked shopping with you too, how your eyes would light up a bit seeing something. or when you guys went out to get coffee and you’d know his order.

but you were his friend. yeah…

“oh and then she said this thing that was just so funny it had me cracking up and-“

you were ranting about this girl you met in your class, which was weird because riki noted that you mentioned slightly last week that you leaned towards guys which wasn’t a problem for him at all and-

no never mind riki didn’t want to think about that right now.

“she also said this one thing about my hoodie- well your hoodie and-“

“okay okay i get it.” his tone even took him aback, he felt horrible when he noticed you tensed up and turned to him.

your messy hair falling perfectly on your boyish features, the way your eyes looked, the small details on your face. this has been happening a lot, the awkward silences and him staring at you for a little too long. then it clicked…

oh

oh

“i’m sorry- i- i don’t know where that- i’m sorry continue.” riki coughed and looked down at his phone.

he heard you huff and he looked at you again, “i’m not going to talk if you’re just going to look at your phone. in fact you’ve been off this entire hangout dude… i don’t know what the fuck i did to you- god forbid i share about MY day… you get-“

“okay well maybe you’re fucking annoying talking about all your crushes every week, it’s to the point where i tune you out because it’s so fucking irritating!” riki snapped and he now knew where this anger was coming from- jealousy

he watched as your features shifted from anger, to concern, right back to anger, “well fine since i’m SO annoying i guess i’ll leave then.”

riki felt you shoulder check him before walking out of the bathroom, he stood there for two seconds debating.

he could run after you, and risk ruining everything.

or he could stay here in the bathroom and wait till it all blows over the next day- handling it in a very “dude” way. that’s what jake and him do. just handling it the dude way with a quick apology after an argument then it’s over.

but to riki- you weren’t just a dude, you weren’t just one of his guy friends, you weren’t just his best friend, you were more than that.

and before he knew it, his feet were sprinting to the other side of the house where you were slipping your shoes on. panicking he full on tackled you.

“what the hell is your problem?!” you yelled as you hit the floor

“IM JEALOUS OKAY? IM JEALOUS!” riki yelled, holding onto you like you’d disappear

he had no clue what the hell he was doing. he felt crazy- insane even.

he felt you sit up slightly, rubbing your head from the impact and he looked up at you. still holding tightly onto you.

your brows were contorted and confused, you were dazed obviously because of the fall.

“jealous of what, you psycho?!” a small smile started to curl up on your lips, he felt his stomach churn as you kept speaking, “you’re my best friend, some girl won’t change that-“

“no- no it will-“ riki was panicking again, god what was wrong with him?! usually he’s confident and calm what the hell is going on?!

you looked at him again, “riki genuinely i’m not a shitty friend i’m not going to leave you for her that’s a terrible thing for a friend to-“

“i- i-“ he swallowed hard and he did something he is going to regret, he let go of you, he realized just because you said you liked boys, doesn’t mean you necessarily liked him like that, “yeah- yeah sorry… i just got paranoid i guess.”

“stupid.” you laughed and shoved him playfully, you took off your shoes, “since you’re not going to be an asshole anymore let’s finish that movie.” you stood up and riki watched you walk back further into the house. when you turned the corner he turned so he was on his back, he stared at the ceiling.

memories flashed of you and his hangouts, he felt his heart drop.

i guess he’s always loved you from the start

[lovelykhaleesiii]

a modern au aegond on whatever you feel like writing plss

modern AU Aegon ii Targaryen x fem!Reader + Aemond Targaryen x fem!Reader.

A/N - I’m just writing a modern!University AU on what they’d be like in a relationship.

Modern!Aegon ii Targaryen x fem!Reader

Aegon was skeptical about you initially, especially your feelings and attitude towards him, he really struggled to figure you out.

You both shared various classes together, although never really spoke to one another unless necessary for instance for group projects or class discussions.

This time was different however, this time it was a little more 1 on 1. You both had been paired for an assignment, and to be frank, you weren’t initially that keen.

Aegon had a notorious reputation around campus, and it was not one you’d much rather associate yourself with.

He was wildly known for being a troublemaker amongst both students and staff alike, from time to time being absent from classes, often you heard it was because he was too “hungover” to wake up.

And with the girls, he was known to be a major fuck boy. He’d often manipulate and seduce girls to bed with them, only to leave them hanging the next day. No call, no consideration, just complete ignorance.

You urged Aegon that you’d only meet up to work together in public places & most of the time it was the library. You’d convinced yourself he wouldn’t try anything in a place like this, but you were so wrong.

Aegon began his take on you, you could see right through his facade. Each time his attempts to “flirt” would fail, he’d get even more frustrated with you.

He’d make degrading comments, often as a “joke” he would rationalise.

“God Y/N, you’re such a bitch.” “Are you always this fucking stiff?” “Why don’t you let me loosen you up, beautiful, aye?”

That was the tipping point, as Aegon’s hand began sliding up your thigh, making the comment, you shoved him off viciously, as you began your rant.

In the heat of the moment you went on a tangent; although to sum it up. “How fucking pathetic are you, Aegon?! It’s beyond me how you’ve convinced yourself that you could ever be deserving of someone like me. You, you being the scum of the Earth, Aegon, I’d rather drop dead right here and now, than spend another fucking minute with you. You disgust me, and don’t you ever fucking touch me again, you fucking asshole.”

The last thing you remember was the shock & stoic face of Aegon, as you grabbed your belongings before storming off. You’d never felt so heated in your life.

At this point, no progress was made from Aegon’s side of the assignment & after the confrontation, you couldn’t stand the thought of seeing Aegon again. You’d arranged to discreetly spoken with the professor in charge, who reluctantly accepted your desire to split from Aegon and complete the assignment alone, after hearing that Aegon was lacking.

You wouldn’t have disclosed this decision to Aegon before hand. Although, once he’d found out he definitely took it to heart.

He didn’t realise how much his behaviour and attitude had rubbed you off the wrong way. You would be his waking up call.

Aegon would text you and occasionally try to call you. You’d ignore his attempts.

This pushed him to having to confront you face to face, which when he did he was actually quite anxious to do.

“Y/N please, I know I don’t deserve your time and day, believe me. I just need you to hear this.”

“Aegon, I have class, I-” As you tried to continue on your walk, you felt a tug on your arm, pulling you back into his gaze.

“I’m just really really sorry, Y/N. Whether you accept it or not is entirely up to you, but I couldn’t sleep, can’t think straight if I don’t apologise. Everything you said, i-it’s true. This feeling, this guilt, I’ve never felt this before. I really didn’t mean the things I said, I just say them because well I guess I just could.”

You hadn’t accepted his apology there and then. Although you could see the remorse on Aegon’s face. The guilt was really eating him up.

For the course of the next few days, you’d say hello, warming up to him which he appreciated, having some surprise on his face when you acknowledged him and a half hearted smile.

Aegon took the initiation to better himself. He distanced himself from his “friends” and even completed the assignment himself. He showed up to his classes, even the ones that “bore” him.

He began to have conversations with you, asking how you were and how your day was. And naturally overtime, you began to warm up to him. He took a keen interest in you.

He’d definitely spoil you with small things & remember key dates.

Eventually, you began to spare time with Aegon, showed up to social events with him. Your friends were skeptical of him at first, although overtime, he won them over also.

You supported Aegon with his studies as from time to time he struggled.

He was the first one to say “I love you” and he was extremely cautious with you the first time you were intimate. Although you assured him this time, it was different.

Aegon would definitely spoil you, taking you to the finest bars, restaurants that he’d been well accustomed to.

You guys would go on dates every weekend, just travel. Wherever you go, he goes.

Modern!Aemond Targaryen x fem!Reader

Aemond would definitely be your rival in class, your competition. He didn’t know this, although in your mind, you’d have the goal to beat him in an exam or an assignment.

He was just as smart and competitive as you, he took pride in his work.

He wasn’t widely known across campus, although most people were intimidated by him. And to some degree, you yourself was also found him fearsome.

He didn’t really have many close friends, just a few acquaintances here and there.

He rarely was seen taking extracurricular activities unless it was some sort of sport, I could see him taking a combat sport as a hobby, which made him seem even more dangerous.

Often you found him isolated in a corner in the University library, immersed in a novel.

He would always notice you, although neither of you made the effort to exchange words.

Until one day, a novel you’d heard so much about that you were desperate to read was no where to be found.

“I swear it was available.” You asked the librarian whom was checking to see the book’s availability.

“I’m afraid it seems someone’s already borrowed the book, perhaps you can ask them to borrow it after they’ve finished.”

“Well, whom currently has it?”

“Aemond.”

Fuck, you thought.

You’d contemplated buying the book externally, although these novels and textbooks nowadays cost an arm and leg. Besides, it wasn’t a terrible thing to ask for something, it’s not like it was his to keep, right?

You’d been planning all day the right time to ask Aemond, seeking him out.

When the moment came, you’d blurted out his name, from across the empty hall, and instantly he turned. To some degree, you could sense he was surprised, and began walking over towards you slowly. You could feel the courage you’d built up during the day rapidly fade, and you were stumbling at your words.

“Yes, Y/N.”

He knew your name. We’ll of course he did, you had classes together, you’d mentally registered.

“I-I was wondering if after you’re done with reading that book,” you gestured, “I could borrow it after, if that’s okay.”

A small smile appeared on his face, and he began to nod his head.

“I have a better idea, why don’t we meet in the library and read it together, perhaps we can even discuss about it.”

You were taken back. Although he left you there, without even having your approval. It seemed it was more of an order than a request.

As if your body and mind had been taken over, immediately you rushed to the library after class, waiting for him in the usual spot you’d find Aemond.

He found that quite sweet, the small things he’d noticed you did. Overtime, you guys became quite open and close, discovering things about each other, that you’d never thought or realised.

Aemond was the opposite of what you’d envisioned in your mind, he actually cared, or essentially he cared about you.

He’d disclosed things he’d noticed about you that you didn’t realise… He was watching you.

“I was always curious about you, Y/N. Just never thought the interest would be mutual.”

He would recommend you his favourite novels, and would passionately discuss them with you after having read them.

He loved the stimulating conversations you’d share, he found you so intriguing.

He would start to show his affection naturally. Putting his arm around you as you walked around campus, and after introducing your friends to him, they immediately warmed up to him.

He’d definitely give you his jackets or share his coat with you, as you both read.

You’d lay on his chest.

The more you become comfortable with Aemond, he becomes comfortable with you. That’s his way of showing how he trusts you.

He’s always chilling at your dorm more than his own.

Coffee dates becomes a tradition for you both.

[autismnation]

hobie x black!gn reader

hurt/comfort + fluff + established relationship + 2nd person pov + gender neutral reader (no pronouns, called cute + gorgeous by hobie)

this is not beta read so sorry for any mistakes @hobiesrockstargf

also i’m not black so if anything’s wrong please correct me! based on this:

You felt awful.

Really, really awful. Ashamed and upset and a little bit annoyed too, you had to admit. You tried to hold in the tears until you had some privacy but you’d started crying almost as soon as you left work.

You had this habit of playing with your hair, especially when it was in your natural afro. You were always detangling it when your hands were free; it was your way to focus and relax. It had always been a positive thing — up until about half an hour ago.

Your co-worker had rather rudely revealed to you that you had mini patches around your hairline because of this. And you always tried to find the good in people and you tried to believe that they hadn’t mean to be mean, but this particular co-worker was an asshole.

So, there was no surprise shameful tears were streaming down your face. Really, at that moment, you just wanted your boyfriend and his comforting embrace.

You knew Hobie was in from the almost deafening sound of guitar. Shoving the door shut behind you, you didn’t even bother to lock it before rushing up the stairs and into his room.

He barely got chance to place his guitar down before you launched yourself into his arms. You buried your face into his neck and cried and cried. And cried a lot more.

Hobie hugged you for as long as you needed, his strong arms keeping you close as he rubbed soft circles on your back. When you finally pulled away, he wiped some of your tears away with the pads of his thumbs and tipped his head to the side, “You gonna tell me what’s up, love?”

Wiping some snot from your face, you nodded. And then you told him. You told him about how wonderful your day had been so far and how utterly awful it had suddenly become. And you told him about your embarrassment even though you recognised that you shouldn’t be embarrassed because if, like you suspected, had autism, you couldn’t help it.

Hobie listened the entire time you sat on his lap and vented your feelings, nodding occasionally and still rubbing those comforting circles on your back.

When you finished your rant, Hobie leaned his forehead against yours and said, “It’s alright. It don’t matter, love, you’re gorgeous.”

“But—“

He stopped your words with a quick peck to your lips, “No buts. I’ll help ya stop if you want, but there’s nothin’ wrong with it. And these—“ He pointed to your patches— “are as cute as you.”

A soft smile made its way onto your features. You pulled Hobie into a hug again, sniffling a little, “Thanks so much.”

“Not a problem, love.” Hobie replied. “And if that co-worker carries on, I’ll have a quick chat with him and sort ‘em out.” Then, he muttered something under his breath.

You pulled back, frowning at him, “What was that?”

“Nothin’.” He shrugged, “I didn’t say anythin’.”

Your frown deepened, “I swear you said—“

“When no one’s watching,” Hobie quickly came clean, a wry smile on his face.

You lightly slapped his chest, “Hobie, do not hurt someone!” You scowled although the thought of him doing that for you made you smile a bit.

“I won’t, I won’t.” He responded, pulling you close to him and leaning your head on his chest. Your hands went up to your hair as you started to detangle your afro again. It was quiet for a few seconds until Hobie spoke up again in a low whisper, “I’ll do it when no one’s watchin’.”

[donniesexceptionalmind]

Hello there~ I’m currently in the process of getting diagnosed (or at least checked out for) autism. Also anxiety and adhd, the former I definitely have, and I think I may be some form of AuDHD. My parents were very traditional growing up and my father still thinks being neurodivergent is “bad” and the main emotional manipulation in my relationship with my parents comes from my mom. I came out to them around this time last year as bi and that was an emotional rollercoaster. It took me almost two years of asking to finally get a therapist (after I told my school counselor I was feeling really, really really really bad, and she intervened) and another half year for my therapist to convince my parents to get a diagnosis checkout. I was wondering if you had any tips for autistics (or possible autistics) with non-supportive parents, like subtle ways to stim or deal with meltdowns without getting yelled at,

And my parents aren’t bad all time around— it’s sort of like your relationship with Splinter where you crave his approval more than life but also know he could be a bit of a better dad, except maybe worse bc my parents are like Mother Gothel. Emotional manipulation is… nice

Sorry for the long rant lol— I just went on an hour-long rabbit hole about your tips for autistic peeps and figured I’d try an ask of my own. Have a peaceful day, and remember you’re so amazing! Seriously, I’ve developed so many stims and mannerisms from you and it’s been one of my hyperfixations for months now. I’m rambling now. Ok thanks byeeeeeee! 💜

There's no need to apologise for a long rant! I appreciate the trust & the courage it might have taken to actually reach out! /g YOU ARE VALID.

First:

"Every human, in the entire history of the universe, stims."

So, stim away. If you need it to feel regulated & calm - then DO IT.

Personal note: All stimming behaviours besides harmful stimming should be respected. There should be no right stim or wrong stim. Of course, if a certain stim is hurting another person (say because you are chirping like a bird & it's hurting their ears, then you should stim another way).

STIMMING SHOULD NOT BE FORBIDDEN AS IT IS VITAL FOR THE AUTISTIC PERSON.

Moving on.

Subtle ways to stim:

Tapping your foot/ leg (its a stim many people show when they are nervous, it's "a common behaviour"

Clicking a pen (careful, it can be annoying)

Wiggling your fingers/ toes - I like to call it finger dancing

Tapping your fingers

Soft humming

Chewing gum

Rubbing your hands together (can be seen as a sign of being cold as well)

Fiddling with your clothes

Twirling your hair (if you have long hair) or just touching your hair

Fiddling with a keychain, anxiety ring (those are not pricey & they can help a lot!) or other jewelry

Having a small comfort item with you to touch, maybe a textured stone or a smooth one

There are also many small fidgets which can be hidden in your hand or are very quiet:

Again, the anxiety or fidget ring

Stress balls are always a good option (just don't use the ones with air or orbeez inside, those make noises - I enjoy them)

Marble & Mesh, tangles

Bike chain fidgets

Acupressure rings or bracelets

Moochis (these squishy little animals, things)

Rainbow hedgeballs

A fidget pad (I have one in the shape of a gaming controller, so good) or a fidget cube

A Rubics cube - YES I know, it's a puzzle AND big, but you don't have to solve it (it's easy), just twisting the blocks around can be a good way to stim too. There are also smaller ones available that you can put on a keychain, though I prefer the original

[mybrainsrottingwithmcd]

hi!! so i’m. really really new to the aphmau fandom, aka i was super into it when i was like 8 and now my autistic ass got back into and actually joined in fandom stuff

i don’t. entirely understand how to guide through the aphmau fandom on tumblr. and i have a few questions- if you wouldn’t find can you answer them for me since you seem to be super into this!

what is an MCD rewrite and where do i find them- i assumed it’s people rewriting minecraft diaries but what sparked this and why?

what’s with the hate for aaron and aarmau- i don’t. fully understand it

how did garroth/lawrence happen (i love the idea)

is there like. a masterlist of aphmau lore somewhere so i can make sure i didn’t miss anything in my rewatch (i definitely missed stuff in my rewatch)

Hello hello!! Welcome to the fandom (we’re so sorry ur here its a mess)

I’d be happy to answer ur questions :D

“what is an MCD rewrite and where do i find them- i assumed it's people rewriting minecraft diaries but what sparked this and why?”

Yeah you’re right a MCD rewrite is people rewriting MCD and adding their own ships or improvements or different plot points. It started because the original MCD is kinda written poorly. Some plot points go nowhere, some parts are problematic, some parts drag on, characters appear and disappear, characters stopped developing and most importantly MCD has no ending and was abruptly discontinued by Jess so she could focus on Mystreet and other projects. People just wanna improve and finish the thing that means so mich to them basically. You can find them on AO3 and a few on Wattpad (I recommend AO3 tho its easier to find rewrites ur interested in cuz the tag system)

“what's with the hate for aaron and aarmau- i don't. fully understand it”

(There arent enough words in this world to explain my hatred for aarmau and aaron BUT)

Many reasons heres the main few: when Aaron was introduced he was supposed to be a side character but then he became a love interest kinda outta nowhere (my theory as to why is because Jess’s husband Jason voices him) and when he did become a love interest other characters like Laurence and Garroth kinda stopped developing and became worse to justify why Aaron was a good choice for Aphmau. For me they never had any chemistry in MCD, when its revealed Aphmau is pregnant with Aaron’s kid my brain logged out because wtffff how did they find the time and also why Aaron ://. He wasn’t kinda boring, his angsty past could’ve been used more but wasn’t he was just a brooding masked figure who followed Aphmau around. Then Pheonix Drop High happened and made things really weird. So when Aaron was 18 going on 19 he started dating Aphmau who was 14. Very creepy much yuck, they didn’t communicate well and then his whole character became that he’s in love with Aphmau but “he’s just not good enough for her :((“ and “i shouldn’t be with her shes perfect” and personally i find romance dramas infuriating, especially that kind of drama. AND YES AS A 18YR OLD U SHOULDNT BE DATING A 14YR OLD WELL DONE AARON. Mystreet they were the annoying lovey dovey couple with relationship drama they just rubbed me the wrong way in that series, I stopped watching after Emerald Secret and only recently forced myself to finish Mystreet and yeah no idc about them or their relationship. In MCD season 3 when Shad was introduced as a full character his whole thing is he’s Aaron again but evil and Aphmau’s sad about it and uuuuugg i dont caaareee. And I personally thought Aphmau wasn’t gunna end with anyone in MCD because she went on multiple rants about how that isn’t what she’s looking for and she has to think about her people first and she prefers her own company and then BOOM gets pregnant of masky mcsad face. Ugh. Basically Aaron ruined everything.

(Aroacemau truther 4 life aarmau hater 4 life)

“how did garroth/lawrence happen (i love the idea)”

Garrence has been a ship since the characters were introduced and quite simply its because they have more chemistry together than with Aphmau. I’ve always been a lil uncomfortable with how Jess wrote Laurence and Aphmau’s interactions and Garroth and Aphmau’s interactions but Garroth and Laurence interactions were just more natural they had more banter they were sweet together. Then Jess did a bunch of queerbaiting with it and the ship got bigger, so many fanarts so many fanfics. Then it just never happened because Jess is a coward. Like it would’ve been so nice to see the hints and chemistry go somewhere but it didn’t. Everyone still holds hope tho. With rewrites Garrence is Canon :))

“is there like. a masterlist of aphmau lore somewhere so i can make sure i didn't miss anything in my rewatch (i definitely missed stuff in my rewatch)”

i have no idea on that one, i’ve rewatched MCD every other week for the past 8 years (autism go brrrrr) i’ve never had to look for a masterlist of lore BUT I’m sure someone has to have compiled one somewhere either on the fandom wiki or on Tumblr somewhere. :))

ANYWAYS YEAH WELCOME TO HELL HAVE FUN HERE

[hockeylovee12]

My Captains Sister-Adam Fantilli

Chapter Five

Summary: Nolan finally realizes what he’s be doing and is ready to fix it.

“This is all your fault. You’re a shit brother and shit captain, it’s no wonder Lucy wanted to study abroad so much to get away from you! You’re so fucking controlling! You treat her like a child! And I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry I wish none of this shit fucking happened but it did and now I fucking love your sister and it’s the worst thing in the entire fucking world! God you’re an asshole” Adam rants 

Nolan sighs before looking up at Adam “I know” 

Adam looks at Nolan confused. He had spent the past three months making his life and his sister’s life a literal hell and all he has to say is ‘I know’ 

“What?” Adam mutters the first words he can think of

Nolan takes a deep breath before launching into a long apology about his behavior this semester.

Adam accepts Nolan’s apology and Nolan promises to try and stay out of Adam’s relationship with Lucy. 

Soon enough the game ends and their coach dismisses the two. Nolan offers Adam a ride home and invites him to come over and talk to Lucy. Adam happily accepts. 

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Meanwhile Lucy was watching TV on the couch but her mind was somewhere else. During the game Lucy had received an email with some news. She’s trying to come up with a way to tell Nolan but her thoughts are interrupted when he walks through the door with Adam. 

Lucy’s eyes widen when she sees Adam. Adam lets out a little laugh at her reaction. 

“I think it’s time we talked, all of us.” Nolan says before taking a seat across from Lucy. 

“I have something to tell you guys too.” Lucy says nervous

“Let me go first, Lucy, I want to say I am so sorry for how I treated you. I wasn’t acting like a brother, I was acting more like a dictator and that was so wrong. I know you are not a little girl anymore and you’re right I need to stop treating you like that. You are old enough to make your own decisions and I can see that you have your own life now. I just want you to know that I am really really sorry and I hope you can forgive me. And I know it’s going to take time. And not that you need my permission, but if you and Adam want to be together I won't try to stop you or interfere I promise.” Nolan says very apologetic 

A smile breaks across Lucy`s face and she stands up and hugs Nolan. “I forgive you Nol, and I’m sorry too. I know you just want what’s best for me but I do need to learn to make my own decisions.” 

Nolan nods and then turns to Adam. “I know I already apologized to you but I want to say it again. Adam, I'm really sorry.” 

“It’s alright Cap” Adam says, patting Nolan on the back. 

Smiles fill the room as Nolan and Adam hug and Lucy smiles at them. 

“Lucy, what did you have to tell us?” Nolan asks. 

A wave of worry washes over Lucy as she thinks of how to tell them. 

“I applied to study abroad again and I was accepted. I leave after finals” Lucy says worry in her voice

She watches as both Adam and Nolan’s face drop. 

“I’m sorry I applied a few weeks ago and I didn`t tell you because we were fighting and Adam I didn’t wanna tell you because I knew you would be upset and ask me to stay.” Lucy says, trying to explain herself. 

Adam just looks at her, before shaking his head and walking towards the door. 

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Adam trudges through the door of his and Luca’s dorm room, shoulders slumped and eyes red. Luca looks up from his laptop and asks him what’s wrong, but Adam just collapses onto his bed and starts banging his fists on the mattress.

Luca worried, closes his laptop and walks over to Adam. He sits down on the bed next to Adam and starts rubbing his back comfortingly. “Hey, it’s ok, what’s going on?” 

Adam lets out a sniffle “Lucy” he manages to say. “She’s going to study abroad again. She’s leaving.” 

Luca’s heart sank. Despite him not being a fan of the issues that came with Adam being with Lucy, he knew how much Adam loved her. He knew how much he cared about her and how hard it must be for him to think of her leaving. “I’m sorry man,” he says, squeezing Adam’s shoulder. “That really sucks.” 

Adam sits up and wipes his eyes with his ​​sleeve. “It’s not just that,” he says, his voice thick with emotion. “Nolan just apologized to us and everything’s good now-but now this. It’s like, just when things were getting better, she’s leaving.”

Luca nods, understanding. He’s seen first hand how hard it’s been for Adam to navigate his feelings for Lucy. “It’s not fair,” he says softly. “But you know what? You still have time with her before she leaves. And who knows, maybe this will be good for both of you. You’ll have a chance to miss each other, to really think about how you feel about each other and what you want.” 

Adam looks at his older brother, despite Adam looking older Luca has always been the older one when it comes to wisdom. Adam thanks him for the advice. Luca smiles and says, “Anytime, little brother” 

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The next few weeks went by fast and Lucy and Adam spent as much time together as they could. Lucy even got a chance to meet Adam’s family when they came to visit. Things between her and Nolan were getting much better, and when the time came for Lucy to leave, she knew it would be hard to say goodbye to Adam and Nolan. 

Adam and Lucy decided not to do the long distance thing, and instead remain friends and see what happens, when she gets back.

All images are from Pinterest

A/N I hope you all have enjoyed this series this is the final part. Feel free to send in comments, suggestions or questions I’d be happy to talk to any of you! Thank you for reading along!

[peony-flowerking7]

hue just some oc

Rant+oc talk

I'M NOT LEAVING LMK FANDOM ANYTIME I LOVE IT TOO MUCH! I've just been frustrated lately, I have trouble with BNHA especially making an oc. But I favorite Gyaru characters they always have the best outfits. So I am hoping this calms my brain cells a bit, I've been having a hard time making a bnha oc but now I have one! She's actually a redesign of many various ocs I had in the past. Yes...I was shamefully in the BNHA fandom...I was a despicable person honestly.

I like the world building, the power system and how it works with science. It has some amazing characters and yes I still do like Bakugou I heard he died and then a lot of things in the manga are disappointing. I have a hate and love relationship with the anime honestly. I could write a whole chapter on it. I especially also don't like bnha oc, I'm sorry but this is my opinion but please don't take it the wrong way. It may come off a bit hypocritical but some BNHA oc are pretty boring and bland, they all look relatively the same, the same white paper skin, blue eyes and black or white hair. Not to mention some quirks are also pretty boring, they also have the same head shape and same eyes.

For me, all BNHA oc look the same, there's nothing to distinguish them well. That's my rant for the fandom side as for the anime. Horikoshi has a big problem with some arcs and characters he never once again used and it's frustrated. Also...fucking Mineta god I hate that character with a burning passion.

Anyways off with my oc, her name is Misao. Her quirk is entirely based off on Mami powers in Madoka Magica. Her whole ordeal is magical girl stuff. So quirk I don't have a name but the description of it is, her cells can turn into guns, only her cells though she can't use anybody else's cells to make guns. Her father Quirk is a healing Quirk while her body is the same as her daughter she can pull any type of gun she wants from her cells except she can use other people cells. For that, the Mother is a military soldier and her father is a medical doctor.

Misao quirk is a combination of the two, let me explain this. Misao's cells can manufacture guns, it doesn't matter which one as long as she has the knowledge of that gun existence and it system is something possible. For her to pop out the gun she needs she will have to pull off a bit of her cells or her skin, it's a painful experience that makes the gun's power more powerful. The good thing is that with the combination of her father Quirk the pain lasts a bit but that all depends in which one she's taking out. Small guns require less so they feel like a pinch while bigger weapons require much force and it can cause Misao a lot of pain. Which is great for power but bad for Misao. She cannot produce bullets though, those she has to make by herself or she can ask her parents for them. It between those two but sometimes she rather ask Yayorozu or Bakugou with these. Like I said earlier Misao can heal faster than a normal person can, also the more guns she gets out the more immobilize she gets and more weaker she grows. Taking out a weapon strains her to the point where she will fall unconscious and stop moving for a couple of hours.

Also she's not very smart, you can say she's a bimbo. So she fails at tests and quizzes but does well in responding while getting her nails done. Also, most of her classmates think she's dumb and just like some of them but Bakugou is the only one to acknowledge the opposite. She was train as a military child, something she dislikes as well. She prefers looking good and getting her nails done, she actually doesn't even want to be a hero, she wants to be an idol. Her dream were crushed as a middle schooler, she really doesn't have a lot of choice.

She also doesn't like some of her classmates because of how their personality rubs her the wrong way. She's uncomfortable with them so she avoids getting to know them, the only one who she enjoys the company with is Bakugou, mostly because of his eyes also his quirk drawbacks but she does avoid him. Shinso is another person she enjoys being with, she's more close to him since they both can connect with each other about societal problems and cats.

[eww-y-tho]

A Ben Rant

[it get's real, sorry. also spoilers for the entire show so far.]

The reason I really can't understand Ben apologists is because, like Nick, I don't care about his issues. I am a raging bisexual in the throes of living with a very homophobic dad and a constant fear of being outed to him by my mother, and I wouldn't stoop to Ben's level in any way.

His behaviour is simply unjustifiable. That's why I love Darcy, she is also in a bleak situation, but tries to live her life authentically and without being a trash human being. A true foil so people can understand that perspective.

Truth is, just because Ben was in a bad environment doesn't mean that he has the justification to be a horrible person who abused Charlie. And let us not beat around the bush here, he sexually assaulted him. To be frank, the correct course of action would be a restaining order, being exposed for his crimes, a spot on his criminal record, and either serving some time (6 months-a year) or an astronomical amount of community service.

Sorry, you should have those consequences for your actions. It honestly gets me angry that Nick and Charlie didn't press charges and at least try to get him off that campus. I get it, they're young and really nice kids, but it's really sad that an acknowledged criminal walked off scot-free.

And honestly, when placed in that perspective, Ben's "apology" is even more insulting. That was just a last attempt at getting Charlie back, which is gross.

This hits too close to home in the form of my sister who went through a similar situation to Charlie. She has her Nick now, don't worry lol. I'm rewatching Heartstopper with her and I could tell it affected her.

When you or someone close to you has experienced a similar thing, I feel like it's easier to put it in perspective. But honestly, Ben shouldn't be given any sympathy whatsoever. He is a villain to his bones. And let's not even go into the mess that was Ben and Imogen.

Actually, let's do exactly that.

Imogen is proof that Ben did not learn his lesson and is just a sucky human being. He straight up used Imogen just to make Nick angry and rub it in his face. Imagine knowing the person who assaulted your boyfriend is dating one of your best friends. It's just gross.

And Ben's only motivations were his petty jealousy that Nick is a better boyfriend for Charlie than he ever was and that he wanted the control he had over Charlie back, as was pointed out by Nick and Charlie multiple times.

And let us also not forget that Ben is so far in his delusional mindset that he doesn't even recognize what he did wrong. A half-assed "I'm sorry, for everything," doesn't acknowledge what he did. How about you actually list everything you know you did wrong and apologize for every single one of them? That would show actual remorse.

That indicates that the only reason he's saying those things was to get Charlie in his good graces, not actually stating his remorse for those actions.

And I'm glad Charlie did not forgive him. It was a very powerful scene that went against the grain in similar plotlines where the perpetrator is forgiven for their deplorable actions.

Ben just wanted to have someone as his personal marionette, if that makes sense, and it really grosses me out, which is why people who defend Ben make me angry. You're defending a disgusting human being who deserved everything that came to him.

In the end, he pushed everyone around him away and he will continue to do so, and either learn to be better (which I find unlikely, based on the rainbow wave), or die alone.

This sentiment has been talked about a lot before, so I'm not expecting a revolutionary idea coming from this, but I just wanted to get this off my chest because I saw comments defending Ben and I wanted to rant for a second.

[mistydeyes]

Are your pairings still open? Feel free to ignore this if they aren't

Pronouns:

She/her

Appearance:

5ft tall (short as hell) and chubby.

I'm very Pale with freckles and green eyes. I have dyed black hair cut into a shag with bangs.

I'm very insecure about my body and kinda hate the way I look. I may have a slight eating disorder but Im usually fine. Currently trying to lose weight healthily.

I dress kinda alternative in blacks and am always wearing a bunch of jewelry. (Mostly ones I make). I am also always wearing boots (Often platform boots).

I wear tight pants both beacause they look good and I have sensory issues. I can't stand loose ones and mostly wear yoga pants.

Other:

I love to sew, crochet, make jewelry, draw etc... Basically anything where I get to create something. I love seeing an idea come to life. I'm constantly making things and I like to fidget with anything I get my hands on (meaning I have a habit of breaking stuff) (oops).

I constantly crave affection (but will never admit to that) I really love cuddling, and am definitely touch starved but anyone who knows that has figured it out themselves. Because for some reason my brain thinks I don't deserve any of it.

I am way too nice to everyone, even at my own expense and tend to Bury my emotions when I am in pain. I have Depression and some anxiety and tend to worry about if anyone I know actually likes me while simultaneously thinking that I don't deserve anyone to love me.

I am shy and awkward as heck. But I will talk your ear off if you get to know me.

I love all animals and have a particular fondness for the odd ones. Reptiles and fish are awesome but I love everything including worms that I will rescue from the sidewalk.

I own some fish and shrimp that I love. My plecos and my gecko are like my babies. Especially my boy Groot. He's an albino bristnose pleco and is very ugly, but I love him so much. My entire phone is photos of him and my leopard gecko Leo. (Resisting the urge to attach one) (nevermind) (I'm attaching photos of him, Leo, and my other pleco- Carlos)

I know a lot of random facts about animals and can rant for hours about my interests. Very passionate about animals and their care. Love all mine even if I might play favorites.

I'm also not super Great at reading social situations. Expecially flirting. I am so oblivious and unless someone is incredibly direct I won't notice it or think it's a joke.

I will gift people I like things I make. I make a lot of plushies in particular that I create. I love to see people happy

Johnny "Soap" Mactavish (a/n: ur lil pets are absolutely adorable!! i literally cannot get over how cute they are, thank you so much for including pictures of them)

How you met: The first time you and Johnny met was definitely a story that entertained all your friends. It all started when you were at the pet store buying crickets and mealworms for your geckos. As you inspected the container of dried insects, someone came up next to you. You first noticed his basket was full of a 5lb bag of dog food that he effortlessly held in one hand. The next was his smile that lit up is face as he looked at you. "I think a restaurant would be a better place to find food don't you think," he asked you and you were a little confused. "But these aren't for me, they're for my geckos," you corrected and his smile faltered a bit. "I uh was just saying maybe I could take you to a nice restaurant some time," he sheepishly said and rubbed the back of his neck as his face grew pink. You had a habit of being terrible at reading social situations and were blushing profusely. "OH, I'm sorry I'm really bad at telling when people are flirting with me," you corrected. "Don't worry, I'm Johnny by the way," he said as he shook your hand, "how about I give you my number and you can call me when you're free? It looks like you have a little army to feed." He wasn't wrong, you were rushing home to feed your babies and this was just meant to be a pit stop. He read out his number as you typed in his number on your phone. "And don't worry if you don't want to, I won't take it to heart," he joked and went to go pay for his things. You stared at your phone for a while as you looked at his contact name "Johnny AKA pick-up line guy."

A peek into your relationship: "Open it," you said excitingly as you pushed the box into Johnny's hands. You had been working on a gift for him for ages and were happy to finish it just as winter was approaching. You had tried your best to keep it a secret and delayed the project as Johnny would always find a way next to you. "Alright, alright, chill little lass," he said as he pulled apart the layers of gift wrap and the lid to a box. You watched intently as he grabbed the two items which sat on a pillow of tissue paper. "You've really outdone yourself, bonnie," he said as he pulled out a crochet hat and scarf. "Heard you can get cold when patrolling and I thought it would keep you warm," you smiled as he inspected the stitches. He eventually saw that you had sewn a little patch with a dog that looked similar to his. "Yer attention to detail is something else," he said as he tried on the set for you. You quickly grabbed your phone as you snapped a picture of him. "That one's a keeper," you said as you laid your head in his lap. He took this time to pepper your face with kisses as you laughed at his stubble brushing your face.

Months later when he was on deployment, you got a message from Ghost that showed the scenery of a snowy cliff and in the center of photo was Johnny bundled up with his scarf and hat.

[zhoras-bitch]

I'd like to hear about your vendetta with TCH xD

I am so sorry for taking so long to answer! It’s completely on me, I’ve just been busy and I knew that once I went into the rant mode, it would take a while, so I had to put the ask away for a while. You have no idea what you're getting yourself into, please, take a seat lmao.

Keep in mind I’ve only read 4 chapters of book 2 (I will finish it… eventually…), so this is all about book 1.

TL;DR I hate TCH for not being what I wish it was. It combines aspects that I love with aspects I vehemently despise, and it frustrates me endlessly. Kieran is fucked up in ways that are entirely uncompelling to me. Radiance is fucked up in ways that are extremely compelling to me, but they are not the main character. It would be easier if I could just tear TCH to shreds like the shitty books of the Choices library, but unfortunately… it’s an objectively a good piece of writing (I say, clenching my teeth so hard blood starts running down my chin).

The writing is so poetic. The soundtrack is perfect. Visually, the book fucks so hard. The secondary characters are fantastic. Leaf is the love of my life. The fae and the twisted fairy tale are some of my all time favourite tropes/aesthetics. I should adore this book. 

…Then there is the romance.

(OK this is the part where I go into the petty complaints. Please don’t come to me explaining how these things make sense narratively, I KNOW.)

Kieran and MC are every trope I hate in romance novels. Cold, brooding LI with anger management issues (which are considered sexy for some reason). MC, who is in every way inferior to LI dynamic-wise (as in peasant-prince, mortal-immortal, strong-weak etc.) Also that trope when being good and compassionate makes a character naive like a freaking five year old. That kink thing when LI is so tall and strong and MC is so small and weak and LI overwhelms them physically and that particular brand of ‘sexy’ violence they do in the ‘BDSM’ scenes. Withholding (or failing to communicate) information about their world that is crucial for MC’s survival, like ‘Hey btw MC, since you’re human, you should probably know that most fae are racist dipshits who treat humans like pets, brainwash them and force them to do their bidding with magic. FYI.’

And a bit more on the anger management issues thing (ugh, this is the hardest part to articulate but let’s try). The way Kieran is written — at least in the first half of the book or so — just didn’t make me feel for them. Them lashing out makes sense given their backstory, but it’s some combination of those reactions being so overblown and the way they themselves reacted to those outbursts afterwards (not trying to make things right or showing some indication of remorse or trying to do better) just rubbed me the wrong way. I just, don’t like when people use trauma to excuse being shitty towards others, and that’s what the narrative was kind of doing with Kieran to me. Like, I understand their curse took away their heart, but did it take away their ability to say ‘sorry’ too? Because I don’t remember that part. And of course they change for the better in the latter half of the book, but that initial irritation really spoiled the well for me, and I just can’t enjoy his character anymore. (I told you this is petty.)

Also, in a book full of gender non-conforming fae in flowing silks and glittery makeup, they force me to romance the most conventionally masculine, minimalistic black suit wearing tall and dark one that looks like 90% of the romantic fantasy LIs? Insulting (jk).

In contrast, Radiance checks all the boxes on the list of things I do like in fictional characters. (I mean, I love Aerin, so this should come as no surprise.) In the ’dark is not evil’/‘light is not good’ dichotomy, I am always more fascinated with the latter. The Sun Court’s ostentatious purity and nobility masking their true rotten, egotistical and manipulative nature drives me insane in the best way possible. And Radiance is the embodiment of all those qualities in a human form (with cute fluffy hair!). They are a manipulative, calculating, power hungry bitch in sheep’s clothing and they are so good at being that, which, hot? They are also a product of their fucked up upbringing, which promotes them from ‘there’s something wrong with them <3’ to ‘poor little meow meow’ levels of brainrot to me. They turned their sister into a bear for power. They also love her deeply. My point is, every time they are on screen, TCH is a 12/10 book for me. Then it cuts back to Kieran's bullshit and I'm forced to remember the book is not about them.

So that’s the gist of it, I think. Thanks for the ask! It took forever, but it was strangely vindicating to write out? Lol.

[karuvapatta]

TW for brief non detailed ED talk ‼

i used to be a j/m girlie, but now that monster!jon has taken over my life the majority of j/m fics are either boring or just. rub me the wrong way with how they handle the whole 'jon has a physical dependency on statements, especially live ones'.

a lot of them tend to praise is martyrdom to the point of it feeling too close to encouraging EDs to me.

obviously, supernatural trauma dependency and real, actual EDs are entirely different things, but a good chunk of people with restrictive EDs also believe that starving themself is the morally correct thing to do.

i also dislike how many of them portray jon's insistence on martyrdom in general (a lot of those i read portray this as a Good™ characteristic, when i've always interpreted it as a quite obvious character flaw)

most of canon j/m i'm fine/neutral towards or find cute, except for end-of-season-5 j/m but that's a whole nother can of worms and this has already gotten so long NFNSNDNNA

j/m fans you're doing great sweeties!! /ref but it is just not for me lol

also SORRY THIS GOT SO RANTY/LONG HFHSJAJAJ 😭

Noooo, don't apologize, I love rants! And this is a fascinating topic to rant about, so feel free to send them to me :3

(I'm putting this behind read more because of spoilers and whatnot)

Jon being physically dependant on statement is SUCH an excellent source of drama and conflict for his character, I love reading/writing about it. But tbh I never made a connection between this and ED despite literally writing about him intentionally starving himself and losing weight and suchlike... this is very strange in retrospect? It's such an obvious correlation, and yet. And yes, I know it's not the same thing as real-life ED, but there are definitely similarities.

As for the Jon/Martin thing: I get that. I love angst, so I admit I'm not terribly interested in the fluffy aspects of their relationship. For me, it works really well either as a happy ending to the Jon/Elias (which leans towards abusive and toxic in fics), or as a juxtaposition to one another (which is the way I've been trying to write it). Martin is clinging to the idealized, human version of Jon, while Elias is here for monster!Jon above everything else. And I love monster!Jon, so I'm unfortunately leaning more towards Elias's side of the argument.

Jon's martyr complex is also a compelling plot point. No, I don't see it as good, per se, since I don't think it comes from a particularly healthy mindset... but whatcha gonna do, two thousand years of Christianity means that European Culture boils down to martyrdom and self-sacrifice = good and morally right.

In conclusion: I now have a craving for a good corruption arch for Jon's character. Let him BE a monster, come on. But also for fics that explore Martin's inability (unwillingness?) to accept that Jon needs those statements. Both excellent premises!

[venus-of-the-hrdsell]

It's Hellblazer anon again and I finished it! What an amazing read! There's a thousand positive things I could say about it but instead I'm going to rant at you about those last 50 issues. You once mentioned that Azzerello was your villain origin story....well Milligan is mine. I have never read such dogshit writing in my entire life. The fact that it was Hellblazer's last issues really bloody rubs me the wrong way as well. It was character assassination on a world wide level, no survivors, everyone was annihilated. MY GOD WHAT WAS PETER MILLIGAN THINKING?? John was sooo pathetic and old and obsessed with having a wife?! All he does in those last issues is be obsessed with boring women? Like sweetie don't you have better things to do?? Phoebe was so bland, Epiphany was genuinely the absolute worst and Milligan tried sooo hard to sell us on this weird marriage? He even went as far as to bring back Kit and get John to tell her that he loves this random chick way more than he loved Kit 😭 like wtf, Kit was so important to John, their relationship was so special and Milligan just had to shit all over it just to prove a point? Making Angie a punchline to fat jokes was disgusting and so unnecessary. Holy shit poor bloody Gemma? Everything around what happened with her was so revolting and she deserved so much better. Milligan just couldn't write good John angst so he had to absolutely destroy Gemma's character and I hate him so much for it. Not even Chas could escape the onslaught! John literally left Chas to die, the only reason he saved him is because his passport got rejected, like I'm sorry but John would not let his best mate die?! Also....where did the horror go?? It just turned into the John and Epiphany show where all they did was have sex and talk about how shit everyone else was. Speaking of, words can not describe how much I hate Epiphany. Two dimensional, written way too edgy, and her being that young just felt like Milligan was trying to act out a fantasy. I just.....hated this run with my entire being. So boring, so badly written, lacking substance and I was glad that it ended. Also I have no idea wtf that ending was but I hate Milligan for having that privilege and absolutely fucking it up. He also gets the medal for writing the absolute worst love interests. Sorry that got so long but I had to tell someone! I'm honestly just pretending that none of that was canon. Gemma forgave her uncle and became a doctor, Kit and Angie lived happily ever after, Chas got a cool new car and John got to have a pint. There, fixed it.

(I'm so sorry for answering this so late) but anon I hear you and I FEEL YOU because I was sleepless the night I finished Hellblazer because of HOW BAD those last 50 issues were. It's infuriating that this trash trainwreck had more issues than the good writers Hellblazer had??? Like???

It's genuinely one of the few runs in comics that aren't salvageable for me because it both destroys John as a character, destroys the Hellblazer lore and it's side characters and sends continuity to hell (there's so many errors I can easily list here). It's also incredibly misoginistic by vertigo standards because everyone woman on it either gets disrespected, shamed abused or FRIDGED. And the fact that DC saw the shitty work this writer did on John and was like "this is the PERFECT candidate to write a Constantine lead team Justice League Dark:) "

So my best advice is to do as I do (and Spurrier) and pretend that run doesn't exist. For me, Diggle's run is the perfect conclusion for Hellblazer (this, or the route Lemire took with John on Swamp Thong: Green Hell).

[officialtayley]

Not much of a question, and this could be a big reach... but yesterday I replied to Joey H's story of Parafour at the beach saying:

"Glad y'all are having fun. Please use your platform to call for a ceasefire and spread awareness about what is happening in Palestine. Y'all have a responsibility, I'd hate to see all you lovely people waste it! Much love Joey"

Obviously he didn't respond but today he posted a Troye Sivan song and it's really rubbing me the wrong way bc I'm 95% sure Troye is a Zionist (not just insinuating bc he's Jewish, but because he went to a Zionist school, visited and raved about Israel, his family seen with Israeli flag, and has been silent this last month).

I'm sure Joey probably doesn't know all these things, he just wants to support another queer artist, but the coincidence is just not sitting right with me.

I am pretty fucking disappointed in the entire band at this point. I don't want to make what is happening in the Middle East about celebrities and their silence, but this is a band that is so attentive to its fanbase, they notice a lot more than we think. Like how do they sit with themselves ignoring hundreds of messages on every social platform asking them for a simple post ab Palestine about their day, for them to post themselves going about their day laughing on a beach?

Do they know how incredibly bad that looks? We know they are seeing these pleas, but sure, continue to post about how awesome and fun their life is right now instead because they have the privilege to look away.

Too many things to say, sorry for coming in all hot but I just had to rant and I had no one to vent it to.

You created a great community here, thank you for all your work deprogramming and putting Zionists in their place. I know it's not easy.

(ps, can someone or multiple of you Aussies make pro Palestine signs and hold them up at the upcoming shows? I'd really love for them to see those so they understand we are not playing around with holding them accountable)

you're welcome to vent :) and no need to thank me for that, it's not easy but i'm just doing what's right. i've very much been using my voice on twitter so i also wanted to do that here, didn't realise i'd get so many zionist asks though but hey.

tbh idk what signs would do tbh, they'd probably just ignore it.

[sixeyesgojo]

Yoru!!! Ma'am, that Kyrgios fic is such a pleasant surprise. I swear I was giggling by myself when I saw it but I have yet to send my entire rant about how my heart fluttered a hundred ways by reading that fic.

I'm really sorry for replying late. A lot of things is going on and I am trying my best to keep up, although there are a few things that I am really having trouble at. And it doesn't help that two of the members have knowledge how to do it and our group leader pretty sure have some grudge after that incident, but I know she's not that kind of person to take revenge. She is clearly annoyed, that. That, I think will describe her feelings towards us. And because of all this, I just want to go MIA at some point. I just feel like disappearing. To be alone, with no one bothering me and all these relying at me. Sigh.

I'm fine. I am gonna be fine. I tried to talking to other people about it. In the end, only I can comfort myself. Not in a negative way. It's just that some people's advices rub me in the wrong way, so instead of feeling good, I feel like shit instead. It just means that I have to stand up for myself. In my perspective, it's like another you inside of you that comforts you in times when you feel like giving up. It's a headache sometimes cause I like to cry so badly then this me just talks in my head and say this and that. Now it's like I'm having two different mind.

Enough of my drama. Yoru, I hope you are doing good. Don't forget to hydrate yourself and eat, and have some ample rest too <33. Don't become like me whose funeral is probably soon/jk. Kisses and hugs to you because you are so sweet!

This is Gilyoung co-parent/Kyrgios anon by the way! I am actually thinking of a name for others to call me but I am too very picky of what to use. “March” will do temporarily. Correct me or not, but you were also going to name me right? Hehe, I am looking forward to that too! 🫶 Have a nice day Yoru!!

HELLO!! I already missed you and I hope, despite all that you're going through, that you're taking care of yourself. I reblogged that hc post a thousand times to make sure you wouldn't miss it, and I am very happy that, even if only a little, it made you feel nice. If you need to rant, my ask box is always open to you :) even if I don't know what you're going through exactly, I find sometimes just writing it down will already help a little. I am hugging you tightly ♡

I'm doing fine, just a little stressed at the onslaught of exams that began again today. But I will manage!

I was thinking of something but I'd much rather use whatever you'd assign yourself 👀👀

[allywritesforfun]

{God I Fucking Hate that Kid} Wilbur Soot x Reader

summary: ew Logan Paul. aka just wilbur complaining about Logan Paul 

pronouns: not mentioned 

word count: 1064

trigger warning: swearing 

a/n: this is basically my vision of the day that Wilbur comes home from recording with Tommy and Logan because I personally think that Logan went too far with some jokes /srs. almost everything in here is from my perspective and I clearly have no understanding of what went down. 

regular masterlist wilbur masterlist

The door slammed shut, you turned, “Jesus fuck! Wil-”

“I FUCKING HATE THAT KID!” He yelled, sitting down at the kitchen table.

You walked over to him. He was staring at the center of the table, hands folded in his lap. You could tell by his look that he was trying not to lash out. You gave him his time and stood behind him. Slowly you reached over his shoulder and rested your hand on his heart. It took him some time, but he eventually placed his hand over yours, rubbing it gently. He grabbed it for a second to kiss the back, then returned to it where it was resting.

“I’m sorry,” He said, a lot calmer this time. “Logan is just-”

“It’s okay, Wilbur,” You assured him. “I can tell you’ve had a rough day. Wanna talk?”

Wilbur nodded, standing up. He kept his hand in yours and guided you to the bedroom. He had you sit down against the bed frame, that way he can lay in your lap. He positioned his body perpendicular to yours. His head rested in your lap, his left hand over his belly and right one up holding yours.

“Talk to me,” You whispered. Your hand threaded through his hair.

“Why can't Tommy stop chasing clout and meet up with good, uncontroversial people?” Wilbur asked, staring at the celling. “I try so fucking hard to get this kid on the right track, then he just throws it all away and gets with the wrong people.”

“He’s almost eighteen you know,” You reminded Wilbur. “In a couple months, he might not ask you to go with him. Don’t get too controlling.”

He shook his head, throwing his left hand in the air, “First James and now Logan. I get what you’re saying, I do. I just can’t help myself.”

“You see him as a little brother, nothing wrong with that. What did Logan do?”

“What didn't he do?” Wilbur asked. He brought your hand to his lips before starting his rant. “The first thing he says about me was something like: ‘you’re so tall. I wanna fight you.’ Like, what a great fucking introduction that was.”

“You could've kicked his ass,” You joked.

“Damn right I would’ve!” He exclaimed. “If he would've said that later in the day and kept being a little bitch he would be on the fucking ground.”

You laughed, knowing that Wilbur would never fight anyone. And even if he did fight Logan Paul, he had no chance. Still, you nodded your head in encouragement. 

“So then we take him on the bus, the two story one. It was so embarrassing y/n. He just had no bus manners at all and encouraged Tommy to do the same. Then Tommy starts his whole ‘how do I get girls bit’, which was funny for a little bit. Logan told him to use some harmless pick up lines on some girls, but then Logan just pushes Tommy aside in his mind and starts straight up cat-calling these girls. I mean, it wasn't like BAD bad, but bad enough. I hid because I couldn't let my rep get ruined like that. I called him out and he just laughed. How could he laugh at a time like that?”

You sighed, “That’s horrible, but you have to remember that his culture. He’s lived that way his whole life. And don't think I’m saying what he did was okay or justifying it, but it is the truth. He made a platform off of it. But, I’m glad you told him. Did he stop?”

Wilbur nodded, “It was really awkward afterwards. I think I made him uncomfortable.”

You shrugged, “That’s just pay back. He made you uncomfortable.”

“Then we stopped at this candy shop,” Wilbur told you. “He bought the entire candy cane stack and told Tommy to hand them out to people but... Logan only gave some to people in front of the store and his crew. Tommy tried to give more out, but Logan insisted on moving on. It’s all just manipulative y/n. I feel terrible.”

“If you want, we can go out and do something like that if it makes you feel better,” You offered.

“Maybe,” Wilbur agreed. “Then, I don't know if this was a joke or not, I’m sure it was, but he told me that I did a horrible job with Tommy. Like, that hit home for me in a way. I just wish he would’ve ran some jokes by me first. It took me really off guard.”

You rubbed his cheek with your free hand, “Awe, Wil. You’re doing a great job with Tommy, you know that. Don’t let anyone get in your head.”

He turned his head into your palm, kissing it, “Tommy wanted to go into the Lego store. So we did. Tommy tried making a few jokes but Logan interrupted telling Tommy to grow up and that he shouldn't be excited by Legos anymore. Like what the fuck? That was totally uncalled for, especially when he knows Tommy’s audience is preteens-teens. I really hope that Tommy leaves that out because that’s gonna hurt a lot of people.”

“But if he leaves it in and people see Logan say that, they’ll turn against him and you’ll get second hand revenge...” You suggested.”Is that mean? That sounds mean. Oh well.”

“If I had the time, I would be doing Legos every day. They’re therapeutic you know.”

You scoffed, “Wilbur, you don't have the patience for Legos. You would be spending too long on it just to realize you messed up and need to start over and then I have to hear about how your day was ruined.”

Wilbur chuckled, “Yeah, maybe you’re right. Just one more thing he did- he left us.”

“Huh?” You asked. “Like just got up and dipped?”

Wilbur nodded, “He found a strip club and told his crew to follow him. We were down for the bit but about ten minutes later we called him and texted him and he wasn't picking up. He just straight up left.”

“What a dick!” You yelled. “So he was using Tommy for clout? That’s life I guess.”

“You don't use me for clout, do you?” Wilbur looked up at you.

You furrowed your eyebrows, “I barely use social media? What are you on?”

He smiled, “Just making sure.”