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boba-at-323 · 2 years
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[10:34 PM] note : Fighting [verbal] , I swore 3 times.
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“What happened to our ‘forever’, Sungchan?!” You yelled out, unable to control any more of the fury boiling up inside you. 
An hour had passed, but the argument continued to escalate showing no signs of stopping. 
It didn’t start as serious; when Sungchan invited you to hang out with him and his roommate Chenle, you were more than excited to finally spend time with your beloved boyfriend. The last thing you had in mind was to be standing in his bedroom with such a tense atmosphere. 
University had caught up to you and you needed a well-deserved break from everything that was happening, and Sungchan could say the same. Things might have been a little bit easier for the both of you if you had been going to the same universities, but you were attending a university which was hours away from his. In all honesty, Sungchan was trying his best to give you time by sending you ‘good morning’ and ‘good night’ texts every day or trying to call you whenever he got the time, but it just wasn’t the same as being physically together. Naturally, the frustrations had to manifest in some form. 
Sungchan had never been one of the people who got angry over a slight disagreement. He understood that everyone had their own opinions and he respected that, especially when it came to you. Even if you said the sky was green, he would laugh and completely agree. Alas, stress can take over the best of us. 
Poor Chenle was hiding in the living room. He could hear every word coming from the bedroom’s direction but he didn't want to come between the two of you. Of course, he wanted to stop you, but it was just too confusing for him. What would he even say? It’s not like either of you would listen to him and stop fighting. So, all that he could do for now, was to pray for the fuss to end. 
“Y/n, please stop being so impossible!” Sungchan sighed in frustration, pinching the bridge of his nose. 
“Me?? I’m the one being impossible? Jung Sungchan, do you even hear yourself?” You asked him bitterly.
“I’m trying, okay? I’m trying my best to keep in touch with you. I’m trying my best to make up for the time we don’t get to spend together. I’m trying to make this relationship work, even though I barely have enough time to breathe. I’m trying to balance this relationship so it doesn’t end up going very wrong!” His words slipped out of his mouth before he could even think about them.
“Oh, so is this relationship just a burden to you?” You could feel your heart throbbing in your head, your mouth going completely dry at the thought of where all of this was heading.
 “N-no, Y/n– that’s not what I meant–” His stomach did several flips when he heard what you said. 
He tried to step closer to you but you only inched back, tears threatening to spill out. 
“No Sungchan, I think you’re right–” You said in a hushed tone, as a tear rolled down your cheek, “I– I think we need a break.” 
The sentence which left your mouth shattered his heart into a million pieces as if someone had slammed a hammer against a mirror. And with the knowledge that you deeply loathed crying in front of people, he realised that he had fucked up. Badly. The silence that followed was deafening.
“Y-you don’t mean that, right?” His voice trembled, filled with disbelief. He did hope that you didn’t mean the sentence that was tormenting his ears. He could hear it repeating over and over in his head, each time breaking his heart even more.
You didn’t answer. Tears continued to trail their way down your face as you looked at him with guilt. Maybe you had gone overboard. Maybe this was just stupid. Maybe you didn’t have any reason to fight. Maybe… You were wrong. 
But before you could take your statement back, you heard Sungchan sniffle. 
Wait– Fuck, did I make Sungchan cry?
“I-I’m sorry Sungchan I didn’t–'' Yet, before you could finish your sentence, Sungchan wrapped his arms around you, engulfing you in a much-needed hug. 
“P-Please don’t leave, “ he sobbed against your shoulder, “I d-don’t want to l-lose you.”
Guilt took over you. Of course, you had been frustrated, but you should’ve also thought about him. He was right, he had been trying. You were the one who had been lacking the effort.
“No-no, I’m sorry… I shouldn't have been so s-selfish. You had been trying. Oh my God, I’m so fucking stupid- I’m s-sorry.” 
All he did was tighten his hold around you to pull you closer than ever as if you’d leave the second he let go of you. 
Both of you felt extremely stupid, dragging out such a little thing and making it such a big mess. The tense air started to subside as you both stood there feeling each other’s touch, making up for the prior events. 
He finally let go after a while, still keeping you right in front of him, so close he could feel the warmth radiating from you. He took one of your hands in his, as the other reached out to wipe away the tear streaks on your face. 
“Let’s never do this again, babe. I don’t want to see you go. Ever.” he sniffled for the last time.
“Don’t worry, love. I’m never leaving your side.” You said bumping your nose against his, making him smile a little. 
Outside the bedroom door, stood a very relieved Chenle, plotting about when he would clown his best friend for crying over his girlfriend. 
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Title : [10:34 PM] || Word count: 957 || Genre: Angst, but fluff in the end || Pairing: Sungchan x Fem!Reader [ft. Chenle] || Thank you @tyuniiz for beta reading this mess ily <3
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nctficrec · 2 years
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Title: Be Still, My Nebulous Friend
Author: moonsv Length: Chaptered Status: Completed Rated: pg-13 Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort Warning: Abuse, PTSD, Panic Attacks
Summary: 
The thing is, it didn’t even hurt. It was just a light slap, something to grab his attention. The shock comes from the way Donghyun grabs his face afterwards, not harshly but still crossing so many boundaries that he wasn’t aware he needed to set in the first place.
Shotaro yanks the hand away from him with his own, looking at the man with wide eyes. Donghyun hardly looks surprised, if not a bit confused at his reaction.
“What?” He asks.“You can’t do that,” Shotaro blurts out without thinking. Donghyun looks like he’s going to get angrier for a moment before he pauses and nods.
“I can,” He says patiently, as though explaining something to a toddler. 
shotaro finds himself the target of a manager with less-than-well-meaning intentions. the few people close to him witness his slow but steady downfall into despair and isolation.
{AO3}
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haechanhues · 1 year
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pairing : ot22 x reader. sm rookies! shohei/eunseok/seunghan x reader. sungtaro x reader.
genre : fluff + angst + suggestive content throughout. 
warnings : suggestive content from a certain point. implications of bullying, swearing. toxic relationships. further warnings at every preview, written chapter etc please tell me if there are warnings I may have missed. everything in this fic is fictional. STORY COMPLETED BEFORE TAEIL’S REMOVAL SO HE MIGHT BE MENTIONED IN A COUPLE CHAPTERS ESP JOHNNY’S
summary : in which a girl farewells every boy she’s ever loved (or at least had romantic feelings for) in order to prove that her feelings for one particular boy are very real and unwavering. 
status : completed
taglist : @matchahyuck @haisuken @dinonuguaegi @replayenthusiast @90s-belladonna @scftharu @ahnneyong @liliansun
main masterlist
author’s note : now pls bear with me, this is kind of a concept that rattles me a little bit so pay attention to the previews which are listed as ‘phones’. timestamps aren’t necessarily important unless stated. i’ve had this idea in my head for 3+ years now and i've written about 13 chapters and i just cannot hold on any longer so here it is. 
EDITED : I will be deleting taeil’s chapter and because he is mentioned in another chapter or two he will be a warning.
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prologue :
P H O N E (1)
chapter one : hong seunghan
chapter two : osaki shotaro
chapter three : REMOVED
chapter four : matsushima shohei
chapter five : jung jaehyun
P H O N E (2)
chapter six : chittaphon leechaiyapornkul
chapter seven : park jisung
chapter eight : lee jeno
chapter nine : lee taeyong
chapter ten : jung sungchan
P H O N E (3)
chapter eleven : yuta nakamato
P H O N E (6)
chapter twelve : wong kunhang
chapter thirteen : kim doyoung
P H O N E (7)
chapter fourteen : song eunseok
chapter fifteen : na jaemin
chapter sixteen : lee donghyuck
chapter seventeen : mark lee
chapter eighteen : zhong chenle
chapter nineteen : liu yangyang
chapter twenty : johnny suh
chapter twenty one : dong sicheng
P H O N E (8)
chapter twenty two : qian kun
chapter twenty three : xiao dejun
chapter twenty four : kim jungwoo
chapter twenty five : huang renjun
P H O N E (9)
epilogue : you, again
author's confessions + thank you wrap up
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dalivanmagritte · 1 year
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FIC REC : NCT
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SOLO FIC REC BY MEMBERS :
suh johnny
jeong jaehyun
lee mark
lee jeno part.2
na jaemin part.2
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when you use your safe word (mark, haechan, jeno, jaemin, smut)
when you walk through the rain (dreamies, fluff)
nct dreams + sungtaro as greek gods (mythology!au)
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lee jeno fic. rec by taexoxosgf
lee mark fic rec by taexoxosgf
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hangup119 · 4 months
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ඞ JOIN GAME?
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not everyone is good at playing obby’s on roblox, and you’re no exception to this rule: after a particularly nasty encounter with another player on roblox’s altitorture, you log into twitter only to find out that the very same player who publicly dunked on your gaming skills turns out to be anton lee, a well-known streamer who also happens to be a friend of a friend. fed up with his fans bombarding your dms with teasing remarks or jealous musings, you decide to end it once and for all by appearing on his next stream with a promise to get through an obby successfully. however, you realize that the only thing you’ll be successful at is falling for anton lee instead.
PAIRING. streamer!anton + fem!reader
GENRES + WARNINGS. non-idol au, streamer!anton au, crack, strangers to friends to lovers, rivals to lovers(?) | profanity, violent jokes, sexual jokes, y/n is horribly bad at games so that deserves a warning of its own, mentions of GOJO 🤢
STATUS. completed
PLAYLIST. electronic lover by breathe electric; there is a light that never goes out by the smiths; she won't go away by faye webster; she's got you high by mumm-ra; accidentally in love by counting crows; 青のすみか by tatsuya kitani
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CHARACTER PROFILES
the better dsmp
robloxians
CHAPTERS
one. coolprettycutegirl
two. 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔦𝔰 𝔩𝔦𝔣𝔢 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔡𝔢𝔞𝔱𝔥.
three. no lube, no protection
four. ganyu says…
five. facebook stalker
six. 𝕝𝕖𝕥’𝕤 𝕙𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕦𝕡 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕘𝕖𝕥 🔥𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂🔥 ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓰𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓰 𝓸𝓫𝓫𝔂😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔
seven. HATE the player not the game
eight. gobble gobble 💔
nine. LALALA
ten. 50k words slow burn streamer x weaboo romance slight angst happy ending
eleven. y/ntonchansoul server
twelve. 3 dollars and a crunchyroll subscription
thirteen. kaomojinese
fourteen. modern day michelangelo
fifteen. who else feel Baka rn 😭
sixteen. pixelated haiku
seventeen. my little skibidi toilet
eighteen. organ failure 💔
nineteen. satosugu but straight
twenty. #STONERLAND_SUCKS
twenty-one. elon musk plz ban anton’s mortal enemy
twenty-two. galvanized steel and eco-friendly wood veneers
twenty-three. sungchan boy kisser confirmed
twenty-four. choose ur poison (simp edition)
twenty-five. user gojoxdino’s last straw
twenty-six. there is no “we” in y/nton
twenty-seven. u can’t just say perchance
twenty-eight. a friendly date for friends!!!
twenty-nine. oikawa drip at the function
thirty. awesome-sauce
thirty-one. soul literate era
thirty-two. #JUSTICE_FOR_YNTON
EXTRAS
EXTRA 31.5. seunghan’s 0 kills
EXTRA 1. #FlyHighYN 🕊️
EXTRA 2. sungtaro vs y/nton
EXTRA 3. behind user gojoxdino…
EXTRA 4. another minecraft server!?!?!?
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story by hangup119. do not steal.
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nqctar · 2 years
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maybe it's not our fault.
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pairing: jung sungchan ୨୧ osaki shotaro / sungtaro genre: heavy angst, no happy ending. inspired by: it's not our fault by yerin baek. warnings: no major warnings apply
synopsis: sungchan and shotaro have come to realize the spark in their relationship has dissipated, the love they once had for each other is now nothing but a memory that lives on through pictures and handwritten love letters, the burning recollections of quiet nights and lazy days spent laying in bed together serve as a reminder of what once was.
but maybe, it isn't their fault.
word count: 1802 words
Shotaro can't remember the last time they said "I love you,” to each other. He can't remember the last time they held hands, the last time they kissed, or even hugged. 
There was nothing between them anymore, just a hollow reminder that the house they lived in together was once full of love. Things aren't like that anymore, though. Recently, Shotaro has noticed the distance growing between Sungchan and him, every day making said distance bigger and bigger. 
Sungchan stays out later than usual and comes home without kissing Shotaro before going to bed. He tiptoes around him if they're in the kitchen together and disappears into their formerly shared bedroom without a word.
Formerly shared, because Shotaro hasn't slept in the same bedroom as Sungchan in almost a month. Sungchan was almost like a roommate to him now, just someone to help him pay the rent and stock the fridge. Yet if Renjun or Donghyuck were to ask how they were doing, they'd smile and tell them that everything is okay.
Nothing is okay, and Shotaro isn't sure why they're pretending it is.
His boyfriend doesn't look at him with love anymore. 
Shotaro thought about anything he could've done to upset Sungchan and came up with absolutely nothing. Because truth be told, neither of them caused this crack in their relationship, but the true culprit here is time.
Time is a bitch. Time has stolen the love Sungchan once had for Shotaro and will not give it back. Shotaro doesn't want to fight it, because if what they had is over, he'd rather let it die than drag it along anymore.
And today is the day he's letting it be known that the white flag is being waved.
He spends time packing his things, eyes welling with tears as the gifts Sungchan gave him fill up space in his bag and ultimately, his heart. 
Every tear he's been holding in rushes out like a damaged floodwall as he sees the bear Sungchan got him on their very first date. The bear was named Navillera or "Like a butterfly." in Korean. Sungchan had told Shotaro that he thought he danced like a butterfly, that was how things started between them. 
The Korean word for butterfly, Nabi, quickly became a nickname only Sungchan could use for Shotaro, but it was the first thing he stopped saying at the beginning of their end. Yet somehow, that hurt more than the disappearance of "I love you." 
Shotaro clutched the bear to his chest until he stopped crying and then placed it on the bed. He couldn't keep it with him if he was going to move on from their now empty relationship. It hurt him to leave the bear as much as it was going to hurt leaving their love behind.
He finished packing his things and noticed a framed picture he and Sungchan had taken together at a theme park. It was their fourth or fifth date by then, and Sungchan had completely opened up to Shotaro. He was so lively back then, so full of love and utter joy. That Sungchan was different from the Sungchan he was living with now.
It was time for him to leave everything in the past.
And he'd be lying if he were to say he was still madly in love with Sungchan. That was far from the truth. It was painful for him to admit to himself, but there was nothing he could do.
He turned the picture over on its side so that he didn't have to look at it anymore, he didn't have the strength to do so, and walked into the living room. 
He takes a quick glance over at Sungchan, who is sitting on the sofa and paying him absolutely no mind. Here goes nothing, he thinks and catches his attention by clearing his throat.
"Sungchan, we need to talk." Sungchan's body freezes as if someone had just pulled a knife on him, and suddenly the tension in the room is thick enough to slice. Sungchan turns the tv off and walks over to Shotaro slowly, standing in front of him.
"Is there something wrong?" Shotaro furrows his eyebrows at him because Sungchan obviously knows what's going on and is too afraid to admit it. Shotaro feels anger towards him for a split second, because this breakup is not one-sided and Sungchan knows that.
"Please don't act like you don't know what this is about." He says.
"I really don't." "Fuck, Sungchan, you don't even look at me anymore. You don't— you don't even say that you love me like you used to." And with that, Sungchan's body language changes completely. Shotaro assumes he's done playing dumb and is ready to face this mutually.
"God, Shotaro I'm so sorry. I've been dragging you along this entire time haven't I?" He places his hands down on the head of the sofa and takes deep breaths for a moment. Shotaro lets him, it's something he's always done to calm his anxiety. Shotaro feels bad for inducing it but knows this is something they would have to do one way or another.
"I've been leaving you in the dark and I don't even know the reason why." Shotaro doesn't know why he stopped putting his all into the relationship either. There was no bad blood, no unspoken argument that went over his head. There was absolutely nothing either of them did to cause this.
"I don't think that this is our fault," Shotaro says quietly, whispered, but it sends ripples of waves through the room. That sentence alone gives them both the clarity they've been desperately searching for.
It was the unspoken truth, this permanent lull in their relationship is only a victim of time, not of their own doing.
Shotaro's heart breaks into a million pieces as Sungchan wipes the tears from his eyes. 
"What are you— what are you suggesting we do about it, then?" Here comes the hard part. All Shotaro has to do is say those words. Those words have been making a nest inside of him.
His mind bounces between their first date, that fucking bear, and any other happy moment they shared together. The words catch in his throat, and suddenly he can't speak. He stares at Sungchan, hoping that he'll deliver the final blow for him.
"Are you saying we should break up? I promise you there are other ways we can work through this." He begins speaking faster like he's trying to catch up to something. Like his words now are trying to make up for the three months of radio silence.
"We don't have to lose each other." His voice cracks at the end, another piece of Shotaro's heart breaks, and now they're both crying. 
"Sungchan, when was the last time you said that you loved me? Or called me Nabi? When was the last time we even kissed?” Sungchan doesn't speak. He remains silent and stares at the floor. 
When he does speak, it only confirms what Shotaro had said moments ago, that this was not anyone's fault. 
"You weren't the only one who felt lonely, Shotaro. I waited for you to come back to our bed every night. I didn't bring it up because I wanted you to come back on your own terms." Sungchan's hands are in fists at his side, nails digging into his skin as he fights back his tears.
"I didn't want you to think I was forcing anything. I didn't want you to feel like we had to be together." Sungchan says with a low voice. They're almost whispering to each other as if they're trying to hide from something. Themselves, maybe. Shotaro couldn't figure it out.
"As I said, this isn't our fault. We didn't drag around our dead relationship on purpose. I think we fell out of love," It's Shotaro's turn to fight back tears now, "and we’re too afraid to admit it." Sungchan looks up at Shotaro through teary eyes and doesn't stop staring until they're making eye contact with each other.
"Then I think we should break up." "If this isn't our fault, let's quit while we're ahead." Shotaro physically can't stand anymore and sits down on the hard wooden floor. He places his head in his hands and lets out the sobs he's been holding in for those lonely three months. He never let himself cry until now. For a while he blamed himself for their rough patch.
It wasn't his fault and it wasn't Sungchan's either. He knows that now. He knows that people can simply fall out of love with each other over time, but he wishes he had learned that sooner. Before he met Sungchan, even.
Sungchan doesn't make any effort to comfort him while he cries. He sits down on the floor across from him and stares at the area near him, he once again can't bring himself to look at Shotaro. For a while, the only noise taking up the space around them is Shotaro's crying, but Sungchan speaks up and does his best to talk without another voice crack as he holds back his river of tears.
"I don't want to lose you, Shotaro. I am so incredibly sorry that I've been dragging you along." Shotaro waves a hand in a "don't say anything else." type of way. Sungchan's words are only adding fuel to the fire.
"It’s not our fault, at all." Shotaro lifts himself up off of the floor and Sungchan follows, the two face to face with each other now. 
"I don't want you to think that you alone caused this, Sungchan. I don't want us to think either of us caused this. We fell out of love with each other, and though it hurts to admit that, it's the truth." "I loved loving you while I had the chance. Those two years we had together will always stick with me no matter how hard I try to push them away." Shotaro takes Sungchan's hand in his and squeezes it tight. 
It's the first time they've held hands in months.
"You deserve someone who will love you even more than I ever did. Someone who will give you the universe instead of the world. I hope you find them soon." Shotaro picks up his bag and ignores the abundance of quiet please stays & don't go's coming from Sungchan as he walks out of their formerly shared home. At exactly 12:15 pm that day, their love ceased to exist.
A part of Shotaro went with it. 
A large part.
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misojunnie · 2 years
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THE ANGST ARCHIVES ⋰˚☆
a nct series...
a collection of stories, based on angst prompts. prompt credits to @hoerion on pinterest. some prompts may be modified.
⋰˚ prompts ☆
“did you really have to be that honest?”
“every time I see you, I just feel more alone.”
“you changed me.”
“was this all just a joke to you?”
“I don’t want to know.”
“can we start over?”
“you make me feel so insecure.”
“I don’t know if I can love you.”
“every time I wake up, I’m reaching for you… but you’re never there.”
“of course it meant something!”
“I gave up on you a long time ago.”
“you think I care about you? cute.”
“did you just forget about me or something?”
“I still need you.”
“I wanna say that there’s still hope but sometimes things just don’t go your way.”
“you said you would keep trying!”
“no, you are strong.”
“you promised me!”
 “fine. you’ll never see me again, okay?”
“I gave you everything I had.”
“your eyes can be so cruel…”
“I can never do anything right, can I?”
“I want my life back.”
⋰˚ table of contents ☆
the ring - yuta nakamoto. prompt 19.
the enemy zone - liu yangyang. prompt 13. 
late to the party - lee taeyong. prompt 17. [coming soon!]
the ring II - yuta nakamoto. prompt 14. [coming soon!]
⋰˚☆
taglist: @msxflower @enhacolor @hiqhkey @txpxwxk open.
network tags: @nctcreations @ficscafe @kflixnet​ @k-radio​
coming soon...
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yutaabyss · 3 years
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NCT OT23 masterlist
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(s/smut, a/angst, f/fluff)
series parts are bulleted 
taeil
johnny
just like that (s)
taeyong have your cake and eat it too (f,s)
yuta happier (a) happier than ever (a)
kun happier than ever (a)
doyoung
a taste for the arts (a,s)
ten
jaehyun
blue moon ice cream (s)
a taste for the arts (a,s)
winwin happier (a)
jungwoo
lucas
mark enjoy (f,s)
xiaojun come ride me (s)
hendery
renjun
jeno cherry lollipop (s) bad girls need to be punished (s) mommy and daddy (f,s)
haechan cry for me (a,s) that’s mine (s) tooth-rotting love (f,s)
jaemin cherry lollipop (s) wish come true (s)
yangyang need to know (a,s)
shotaro
sungchan
chenle
jisung
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hexonthepeach · 2 years
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dark & stormy 3: eye of the storm
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summary: you’re a housekeeper in a seedy hotel working through the worst hurricane of the season when you’re invited to spend the evening with your two sexy but enigmatic co-workers. when you accidentally uncover their secret identities you're dragged into a darker world—one you may already know too well
pairing: jaehyun (nct) x johnny (nct) x fem!reader (code name: jenny)
genre: the late-70s/early-80s miami vice/nice guys/secret agent johnjae/reader au no one asked for or: a work of madness inspired by the infamous w korea shoot
word count: 13k of 63k
warnings: explicit sexual content (m/f, m/m, mmf threesome) [see chapters for detailed tags], dark themes, implied murder, drug-use (alcohol, quaaludes), drugging w/o consent, stalking, kidnapping (non-sexual), bondage, minor knifeplay/gunplay, slight age gap [y/n early 20s, jj late 20s/early 30s], y/n implied dark origins/criminal history (OC vibes but history left open for interpretation), sleep paralysis/nightmares, walk-on guest appearances from other nct members inc. sungtaro in later chapters
fic masterlist
part 1: landfall | part 2: disturbance formation | [current] | part 4: dissipation | part 5: blue skies | part 6&7: aftermath & epilogue
read on AO3
chapter warnings: gratuitous use of pet names (babydoll, baby), size kink, panty-sniffing, wall sex, oral (m/f, m/m), exhibitionism, sharing is caring, polyamory, minor consensual somniphilia, bondage, drunk sex, double penetration, anal sex (m/m), devil's threesome (mmf), i had to turn my photocards around to write this, only god can judge me, a little bit of angst for the real ones
recommended listening: i can't breathe by gwsn
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"What’s that babydoll? You want a Waikiki Beach?"
Once you're free of your shackles, you think, you're going to find some means to strangle Johnny. It might require a stepladder and a superhuman increase in your grip but you're going to try.
“Give me the key,” you repeat, looking beside you to make sure the older man two seats down from you isn’t listening. Luckily the PA system is loudly playing Anita Ward’s “Ring My Bell” and his beer is almost empty.
"The orange juice needs to be fresh-squeezed?" Johnny half-shouts, that easy half-smile permanently stamped on his face. "Yeah. Not that shit from a can."
"Give me the key." You repeat, louder. In retrospect hiding your cuffed hands by putting them behind you rather than in front of you, under one of Jaehyun's suit jackets, was the wrong strategy. At least you can rest against the bar in front of you without looking weird.
Johnny pauses opening a can of cream de coco, leaning across the bamboo bar-top in a way that makes you jerk back in surprise.
"Take a seat, let me make you that drink I promised," he says, eyes flashing with amusement but also a warning. 
The hidden implication is that you're at his mercy until Jaehyun gets here and after what you'd endured earlier you think letting him imagine he has the upper hand is better than making a scene.
You awkwardly get onto one of the stools, surveying the packed bar with its hodge-podge of Don the Beachcomber styled paraphernalia: glass floats and wood carvings lit by low, multi-colored lights. The attached restaurant is packed full (cabin fever has obviously set in with the patrons) so the bar is still only half-capacity. 
You don’t recognize any of the faces but it’s the corner booth that pulls your attention, crammed with a silent party of too-large men in suits, tacitly ignoring each other as they scope the entrance to the bar. You clock their leader immediately by his crimson jacket and stony expression, and the way his eyes land on you the instant you look at him. You have a sense for danger and avert your eyes immediately. 
Johnny is occupied with finishing several orders at once for the lingering dinner crowd but he makes a point to talk to you as he fills oversized tiki mugs and exotic-looking glasses with different drinks. Your mouth waters a bit, not just at the rum-heavy concoctions but also at the fluidity and skill of his work, like he's performing just for you.
"You have fun in my room today?" Johnny asks, finally sliding your drink across to you. He stops just out of your reach, laughing at you when you glare at him before sticking a straw in and bringing it to your lips. 
"No thanks to you," you grouse.
You hadn’t paid much attention to what went in it with the blur of bottles but it's a gradient of yellow to deep red-orange, garnished with an orange and cherry and even a little paper umbrella. 
You’re glad he hadn't asked you what you wanted—you wouldn’t have known what to ask for. You take a sip, delighted immediately by the complexity of flavors: citrusy and spicy but with an unexpected touch of vanilla and apricot.
"Good, eh?" he asks, watching you intensely. You can't fake your enjoyment so you give a small nod, your cold anger melting a bit with his attention.
"What's it called?" you ask, but he ignores you. A hand splays wide over your upper back and you go rigid, watching Johnny’s face go from concern to a smile. 
"Jae, my man, what can I get you?”
"The good stuff." That deep-like-velvet voice has you relaxed in a heartbeat as Johnny reaches to the top shelf with barely a stretch for a bottle of Blue Label. 
You’d watched Jaehyun get dressed but you're still surprised to feel the hard jab of a holstered gun digging into your shoulder blade when you lean back.
"Everything alright?" You twist to look back up at him only to find he's masked in neutrality. He shakes his head, lips pressed tight together. 
"Gonna be a long night," Johnny says cryptically. "And not just 'cause I'm working a double."
"Cleaning crew is en route," Jaehyun nods, swallowing his scotch in one throw. "I need you to take care of her until they can get here. I'll cover the bar and keep an eye on the regulars."
Johnny's bored expression turns a little more smug at that, his eyes flicking to you. "Finish that drink, babydoll."
You swivel in your seat to talk to Jaehyun but he’s gone, moving around the bar to join Johnny. Your heart pinches a little as you watch him roll up the sleeves of his work suit and survey the surroundings, that closed-off distance back more than ever. Whatever it is you know better than to ask, especially in public.
Johnny shows up beside you just as you finish your drink with a loud suck on your straw. Negotiating off the stool is difficult but he helps you, easing you onto your heels and maybe pulling you just a little closer to his tall frame. You shirk him off but secretly appreciate the hand on your lower back that helps you stay upright. You're surprised when he navigates you to the back of the house, through the kitchen with a nod at the two cooks and down the service corridor to the manager's office.
No one is inside but you still feel a mild panic going into the boss's space where you've had your share of (undeserved) dressing downs. Johnny closes the door but doesn't bother to lock it, coming over to where you stand perusing the mess of papers piled on the desk.
He slips the gray suit jacket off of you after a moment, drinking in the sight of the marmalade-colored strapless dress Jaehyun had found for you—supposedly from the hotel lost-and-found. You shudder to think of the alternative.
"You clean up nice," he says.
"Uncuff me, now," you say. If you feel a little toasty from his attention you blame it on the drink. You'd watched him make it so there was no way he could have spiked it but that doesn’t mean it hasn’t gone to your head. 
"Don't want to play a little more with these on? Didn't seem to be a problem with Jae," he says. 
"Now." 
He holds up the silver key and laughs when you try to kick him. Before long he's got you turned around and propped against the desk, working a little more slowly than you'd like. He pecks your bare shoulder at the release of the lock.
As soon as your one hand is free you turn around and slap him as hard as you can, cuff still dangling from your wrist. Johnny doesn’t even flinch, smiling through it. He grabs your hand when you raise it again.
"Still mad about the—" he starts.
"You tied me up and threatened to kill me, asshole," you snarl. You're more pissed off at yourself for failing to rile him than at his response, but whatever witty retort he's about to make dies on his lips as he sees that your eyes are glassy with unshed tears. He helps you out of the other cuff and rubs your sore wrists, careful to avoid the places where the skin is raw. 
"I'm sorry," he says. "Didn't know if Jae was being over-optimistic and you'd actually try to do something."
His apology gives you pause as you wipe the moisture from your eyes, careful not to wreck your mascara.
"I don't trust you," you explain. "But I don't have it out for you, either."
Johnny nods, a little less solemn. “It’s not your fault you got pulled into this. Whatever happens you’re safe with us. We just need you to work with us a little longer.”
“Jaehyun told me you needed a roper,” you say. You hadn’t let on that you understood the terminology, but it was also becoming increasingly clear that they already knew. “I’ll do it.”
Jaehyun had mentioned compensation, which would have been incentive enough if you hadn’t also been easing down from your fourth–or was it fifth?—orgasm of the day. That post-cum clarity you’d had getting yourself off in the past no longer applied, you felt like you’d been fucked into a single-digit IQ. Making up for lost time, indeed.
“I’ve got an easier job for you first,” he says. “Just need to keep me company here until Jaehyun gives us the signal,” Johnny says, touching the side of his head. He’s wearing the same inconspicuous earpiece you’d watched Jaehyun put in, wire hidden under long hair and collar. You wonder where Johnny has his mic since he’s wearing another short-sleeved tropical shirt, company orange and floral. It’s funny to think you match, even if there’s such a stark disparity between you.
“What are you planning to do?” you ask. 
That wicked grin appears again, his eyebrows lowered.
Johnny’s hands suddenly land on your hips and you squeak as he lifts you onto the desk, scattering file folders and log books onto the floor as you’re pushed back on the dark wood.
“Getting myself fired,” he says, voice lilting. His face dips down into the space between your neck and shoulder, not making contact but close enough to burn you with his exhalation.
"You think fucking a cute little maid on the manager's desk will do it?"
"Oh no," you shake your head, overwhelmed by the warmth radiating off his skin and the clean eucalyptus smell of whatever he was using in his toilette.
"You don't have to do anything you don't want to. It's just an act, babydoll." Johnny's breath tickles your skin as he moves up to your ear. “You wanna help or should I hide you in the closet and go find Ruby? I'll let you watch.”
"No." The word escapes your lips with a violence you’re not prepared for, that small sting of jealousy returning. He’s smiling into your jaw as he makes his way across your face, finally pressing more than a butterfly wing’s weight when he finds your lips. 
"I'll do it,” you repeat, kissing him back. “As long as . . . " You drift off, biting your inner cheek. "Can I talk to Jaehyun first?"
"He can hear you," Johnny says, tapping his shirt front.  "No secrets between partners."
"Ask him if he's okay with . . . " You wave your hands in the air, physically unable to say it aloud.
Johnny lifts your chin so you'll meet his honey-brown eyes, mouth curving. "You hear that Jae, she thinks you'll be jealous."
You scowl at him, watching him push the earpiece in further. He laughs at what’s said in the channel before coming back to you. 
"He said something about watching. I don’t know, music is too loud. Did he tell you he has a thing for that?"
"What?" you ask, confused. Johnny trails his hands up the silky fabric covering your legs, reading your face for consent before pulling you to the edge of the desk. You shudder as he hikes your dress up more with his thumbs, rubbing circles into your thighs through the satin.
"I've shared girls with him before but he usually just watches," Johnny says, blithely. "You're the first one he's properly fucked since we were assigned together."
His words send heat pooling into your core, fire spreading to burn through your nerves. You imagine Jaehyun sitting in a chair in the shadows, just drinking the sight of you in as Johnny fucks you into the mattress, bent in two and drooling into the sheets. You try to calm down–you need to keep your head on your shoulders–but you can’t hide your bodily reaction.
"You like that?" Johnny senses your arousal again, nose nudging yours. "You want to be shared?"
You breathe through your mouth, clenching your thighs together. The Lord above knew you should be sated but then you're sure he isn't involved in any of this.
“I think I can handle it,” you respond. “Can you?”
Johnny’s rough fingers suddenly dig into the flesh of your hips. You were so distracted you didn’t even realize he’d reached under your dress, pulling you closer to the edge. He flashes you the biggest grin you’ve seen yet, Cheshire Cat wide. 
"Need to borrow your underwear," Johnny says, yanking your second-best pair of panties down your legs and past your heels. You watch in horror as he lifts the ruined synthetic lace to his nose and inhales deeply.
"How many times did that bastard cum inside you, exactly?" Johnny asks. "In the shower, too?"
Your mouth is dry as the desert, unable to stop him as he tucks away his prize in his back pocket. 
"You heard that?!" you finally squeak.
"Of course. Everything, baby doll. You think we get privacy in this line of work?"
"Jaehyun." You bury your face in your hands to hide your mortification. Johnny gently brings you out, prising your hands apart as he laughs at you, quietly.
"You'll get used to it. Personally I like making the wiretap boys squirm. But then I'm not usually on the receiving end."
You open your mouth to tell him you deserved that but instead your eyes go down to his hips in front of you, and to the obvious bulge straining his white shorts, his length curved down against the inside of his left leg. Ruby hadn't been lying about his size. Soup is good food, indeed, you think, swallowing dryly.
When your eyes return to Johnny’s face you find it’s darkened a bit, his pupils drug-wide. "It's been a long day."
You can picture him tucking his cock into his waistband as he worked, waiting for his next break to jerk off to your moans in a bathroom stall. You’d never give him the satisfaction of telling him you'd heard it yourself, when Jaehyun had slipped his earpiece into your ear mid-fuck. Or that you’d come even harder to the thought of both men getting off to you.
"Do you want a taste?" you ask, hand caressing his jaw. You have your own agenda but it's clear the lines are blurred too much between torturing him and torturing yourself. You knew who would enjoy it, regardless.
"What do you want, baby girl?" Johnny doesn’t let you answer aloud, the flick of your eyes down is enough. He drops to his knees, pulling your legs over his shoulders. 
He's nowhere near as gentle as Jaehyun was, burrowing under your dress to press his plush mouth against your sensitive sex, licking deep and heavy until you’re begging him to stop. He doesn’t let up, angling you back so that you’re dropped across the desk, spilling a mug of pens onto the floor. 
You quickly learn that roughness is no indication of skill as he spreads your lips and laps at the wetness seeping from you. The sounds are obscene and you know it's deliberate but you find yourself joining him, making sharp little cries each time his mouth moves higher.
"Please," you beg, tugging on his hair. "Please more."
"Such a dirty little kitten," he says, flattening his tongue against your clit with each swipe. "Not satisfied with one cock. You think you can take two?"
"Mmhmm," you moan, lost in the moment. 
"We should get you ready," he says, pushing his long fingers deep inside of you. You should be sore but it's almost a relief—the ache is gone as he scissors the digits to open you. You bite back a cry, holding on to the edge of the desk with clenched fists as he adjusts his posture. The mess inside of you squelches with each thrust, desk rocking with the strength of his arm.
Just the knowledge that Johnny is fucking you with his hand is getting you off but you know you can do so much better, especially when you meet his self-satisfied look from between your thighs, his mouth on you again.
“Stop. Stop,” you say, grasping his collar and pulling on it. “You're not–”
“Quiet,” he says. He pulls his fingers out of you with a pop, inspecting the shine on them before reaching up to fill your mouth to let you taste yourself and the slight bitterness of cum. 
You suck experimentally, prompting him to stand up and watch your face as you hollow your cheeks. Johnny holds your neck as he thrusts the digits gently to the back of your throat, hips mirroring the movement as he pushes against the desk with his upper thighs. You scoot forward, practically hanging off the desk to soak the front of his shorts, loving the friction of the khaki against your bareness.
He watches you demonstrate your eagerness to take him in both orifices, clearly proud of himself.
“You going to take me raw, too?” he asks, easing up when you gag on his fingers. You nod, eyes watering. He looks at you with adoration, kissing your forehead and face and then your lips once he's pulled his fingers from them.
“I wish we had more time, I’d make you come on every surface in this room,” Johnny says, unbuckling his pants and pulling himself out of the top of his boxer briefs. You only have a few seconds to fully grasp the danger you’re in, lost in the miles of tanned skin you haven’t seen yet and a close-shaved thatch of dark hair that does little to hide the monster hiding there.
“Ready?” 
You don’t get a chance to answer as that absolutely incomprehensible size presses against you–the angle just right to–
"Are you, big boy?" you tease.
–he loses control and jams his into the desk, full-body wincing. You almost laugh at that, but he doesn't waste a second before pulling you forward and onto him, making you gasp with the burn of taking those first few inches.
"You aren't," he grunts, hand sliding between you to grope at your core. You bat his hand away, grabbing the back of his neck to try and pull yourself on him more.
"Whose fault is that?”
It’s not an easy fit no matter what preparation you've had, and he's not moving the way Jaehyun did to work you in as much as letting you stretch around him as he readjusts awkwardly. The desk proves too low for how high his hips are compared to it–both of you slipping as he tries to find a good surface to fight against the grip of your cunt keeping him half-sunk.
“You think this is funny?” he growls. Your pent-in laughter is immediately stopped as he lifts you up, his forearms wrapped up and under your thighs.
He’s strong enough you feel as weightless as feather down, but gravity still applies when he lets you slide down on his thick cock. You let out a cry, arms and legs wrapping around him instinctively to hold on as he moves you both away from the desk. And then you’re pressed against the wood-panel wall behind it, shoulders pinned as he rolls his hips up in controlled, tight thrusts.
“You okay?” Johnny’s mouth is against your forehead as he slowly fucks into you, not even halfway sheathed inside. Your legs shake, already tired, but you can't imagine stopping—not with that gnawing need settling in. 
Within a minute you're losing your mind; the angle and that impossible girth is good but you can’t touch yourself and you’re not sure if you’ll be able to come with him practically warming himself inside you. 
“I can take it,” you say. You don’t mind pain, and right now you crave it. You nudge his chin with your nose, kissing the smooth skin underneath, where he doesn’t need to shave. 
“I know you can,” he says. “But tap me if you need to stop.”
“Stop telling me–”
Immediately you’re pulled down until your shoulders are angling to the floor, hearing the rip in your dress as he lets you drop. You pull yourself up desperately, heels digging into his thighs and fingernails into his arms until he lifts you again, bracing you both against the office wall. 
“I said tap me if you need to stop,” he says, obviously amused as your eyes flutter shut when he’s close to bottoming out. His thrusts resume, gaze locked with yours in the flickering fluorescent light.
“Relax,” he says. “I’ve got you.”
“Do you?” you ask, threading your hands in his hair again. 
“It’s so funny how you think you’re in control,” Johnny says, voice low. The threat makes you clench around him and you both respond non-verbally, his grunts increasing as he angles you to pump even deeper. You dig your nails into the back of his neck, but with his cock fully lubricated you’re quickly at his mercy, each slap of his hips against yours bouncing you up along the laminate. 
You're immediately wetter than you've ever been, cum trickling down the inside of your thighs as he pushes you open further and further until you’re breaking against your own better judgment. You bury your face in the open V of his collar to keep from screaming, gold chain indenting your cheek.
His hands are under your thighs again, the wall just an afterthought. Now you’re being lifted and carried down in slow semi-circles, his jaw against your skull as he whispers consolations and praise. You know you’re supposed to wait, to listen, but there’s only his voice in your ear as you let go and feel every point of contact between you. 
For a moment you actually believe he wants you. He could fuck you into the next life and it wouldn’t be enough, you think. You want to suck him off in a linen closet. You want him to whisper whatever his desire is in your ear and respond in kind. Few would be so lucky.
“You can make noise, baby.” There it is, you think, that’s an order. You let the sound you’ve been holding in out finally, face angled away from the clip-collar mic you’d felt against your cheek. 
“Fuck me, Daddy,” you say hoarsely. 
That’s when you understand what you’ve been missing, when his conscious mind finally falls away, he holds you tight and fucks. Your entire body is bent as he ruts into you with his hand curling around the back of your neck to bring you closer to him. The wall clock above you falls to the floor, plastic shattering, as you lose yourself in the feeling of being broken apart—
“What in the fuck are you doing?!” The third voice in the room startles you mid-moan and you realize you hadn’t even heard the door open. Johnny pauses, hold slackening enough for you to slide back down the wall. He looks over his shoulder, the glow of sweat near his hairline shining in the fluorescent light.
“I’m on break,” Johnny says, subtly angling your bodies to shield you from sight.  
“In my office!?” The night manager doesn't sound scandalized enough for this to be a first occurrence, just humiliated.
“You weren’t using it.” Johnny says.
The slam of a man’s fist against the doorway is punctuated by a loud, defeated sigh.
“Well? You gonna watch or you gonna let me finish?” Johnny says. 
You’re impressed at the level tone he has, not just because you were interrupted but because your cunt is squeezing around him with each suppressed giggle. Your hands rise under his shirt to smooth over his twitching abdomen, watching the side of his face as he masterfully avoids reacting. You tweak his nipples for good measure, earning yourself a warning thrust of his hips.
“You can finish out your shift without hourly and then you’re out of this hotel, Sullivan,” the older man says in as threatening a voice as he can muster. “I’d drag you both out myself but you know damn well we don’t have anyone to cover you.”
“Works for me,” Johnny says.
“Fuck you and the horse you rode in on!” The slam of the door drops another framed picture and you wait until the sound of muttering about not being able to keep his dick in his pants for five minutes, then you both break into sobs of laughter, Johnny heaving you around and back to drop your ass on the desk again. He slips painfully out of you as you curl in on each other, shaking violently, adrenaline high burning in your veins.
“Did I do a good job?” You ask once you’ve stopped laughing, wiping tears from your eyes. You’re already adjusting your skirt down your legs, and checking your heels are still strapped to your feet when Johnny’s large hand wraps around your chin.
“Do you think we’re done here?” Johnny’s voice is low.
“You think I want a quick fuck?” You stare up at him through your eyelashes, enjoying the way his full mouth quirks and his eyes narrow. He doesn’t seem convinced by your delivery so you sink the knife in a little deeper.
“Didn’t you hear? Jaehyun said not unless he's watching," you say.
You smile, unable to keep a wry expression. Johnny’s grip on your neck loosens, his touch much more tempting as he strokes the earpiece hidden beneath your right ear. You shiver a little at how gentle he is, avoiding looking at his still-wet, perfect length right in front of you.
“Finish yourself off again,” you say, mustering up an air of business. “We have work to do.”
You slide out from under his arm as he leans against the desk, not moving to stop you. The silence in the room is deafening as you retrieve Jaehyun’s jacket, accidentally kicking a mug across the stained carpet, its yellow smiley face motif staring up into nothing. 
You're peeking through the closed blinds before opening the door when he finally speaks.
“You should be more careful.”
You’re always careful. You don’t turn around, hand on the doorknob. You’re also used to threats.
“Why is that?”
Johnny’s voice is quiet, personal. “You might have more than one man falling for you.”
He can’t see the smile that spreads on your lips as you duck out, straightening your dress and your back as you walk towards your next assignment. 
“I’m counting on it,” you say as the door closes behind you.
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The lobby is a hellish sight once you’ve successfully snuck out of the service corridor unseen. You retrieve your powder and lipstick from your coat pocket, cleaning up the smears around your mouth as you sit on one of the low divans nearest to the sliding doors while secretly scoping the front desk.
“The big guy is trying to get a door key from Sheila but she’s not buying it,” you say, coughing after you’ve leaned back from speaking into your jacket collar. "He's being directed to use the phone bank."
“We’re going to need you to go back to 310,” Jaehyun says, soft voice and piano music echoing loud in your ear when he uses the mic. “Answer the call.”
Your heart sinks into the tile under your feet, but you answer. “Copy.”
“Don’t worry. Snoopy will go with you.”
“Snoopy? Does that make you Schroeder?” You can’t help but tease, snapping your makeup compact shut to look up at his back, just twenty feet away where he’s sitting at the grand piano.
He answers by immediately shifting his improvised piano play into the first movement of Beethoven’s Moonlight Sonata. The music adds a somber air to the room as spouses fight each other over staying another night and the man at the counter steps aside for another in the long line of attempted vacancies. The goon makes his way back to the phone lines, foot tapping impatiently as an elderly woman yells into the receiver about whether her cats have been fed.
Outside sheets of water still fall from the carport but the neon lighting reveals a line of taxis no longer burdened by high flood waters—there’s traffic now, and you’re not partaking in it. No, you’re staying just a little longer in this dollhouse, puppeted by a shadowy organization you've been coerced into working with through the power of money and (admittedly) good dick.
"You're in on the plan now," Jaehyun says, painting your nails for you in the hotel room. "You do this for us and you'll be set for life."
"How long of a lifespan is that?" You ask, making him look up at you with thin-lipped concentration. 
"You're safer with us than anyone else," he says. 
You wanted to believe him. 
"What's the catch?" you ask, knowing there always is one.
"You have to pretend like this never happened."
One of the bellhops passes you by in a rush, distracting you as the seat beside you sinks with a new weight.
“He’s more of a Linus,” a soft, musical voice says next to you. The strange man shakes water off a drenched black fedora, setting a black doctor's bag on the cushions between you.
Your entire body stills, careful not to react too much to the new company. Your eyes slide over and up a long torso to an unfamiliar face. He's got a soft, innocent air to him with his white-blond hair and angelic features but there’s also a slyness to him you wouldn't be comfortable testing. 
You wonder if it’s a prerequisite for their agency that these men be as tall as a coffin is buried, or look better in a suit than any man ever put into one.
“Nice to meet you,” you say, still pretending to watch Jaehyun navigate the keys. “Where’s Woodstock?”
“Oh, he’ll be here soon.” The stranger smiles without showing his teeth, kicking his long legs out. A small child waving a Stretch Armstrong figure barrels into his feet, crying loudly. It seems to cause a domino effect of chaos in the lobby, suitcases spilling as another person trips on the wet floor and a woman starts yelling about a refund.
“Let’s go up first,” the stranger says. His perfect cap of white hair is hidden under his black hat again as he stands to offer you a gloved hand. You navigate the crowd, leading as he keeps pace beside you, his other arm weighed down with the bag.
“Why do they call you Snoopy?” You ask once you’re in the elevator. 
“Maybe because I'm good at finding things out?” he offers, waiting for you to press the third floor button. His black overcoat still drips rain and you try not to steal glances at his profile. The more you look at him the more you think he looks like an undertaker taking you to your own funeral.
You step out of the elevator to a small crowd of people waiting to go down: tourists dressed in inappropriate shorts and linen shirts with their bags, others dressed in their best disco glam for a trip to the bar or another open club. Once the hubbub is gone and the hallway is empty Snoopy leads, a ghost for how quiet his long legs move across the hallway to the room you never wanted to go back to. 
“Wait,” he says as a door opens on the far side of the hallway behind you. He pushes you into the nearby stairwell, dark eyes over your shoulder, expecting company.
“Why do you all smell so good?” The whisper that escapes you is answered in stereo, a soft chuckle over you and multiple laughs in your ears. 
"Not all of us," an unknown voice says.
“You can turn the mic off if you want to, doll,” Johnny’s voice appears over the line, backgrounded by Donna Summers and bar conversation.
“If I get killed by someone named after a funny pages dog I want to be able to curse you with my last breath,” you say. More laughter follows, making you feel like you're at a live recording of a comedy radio show.
“How many people are on this line?” You wonder aloud but your companion shakes his head, leading you to the door for 310. He waits patiently for you to unlock it, your hands shaking as the key slips in. You're thankful at least you aren’t going into the suite directly.
Inside your quiet new friend listens through the adjoining door before opening it, his other hand reaching into his jacket to retrieve a silenced pistol. You follow him into the main living area, icy cold fear returning as he checks the other rooms, thankfully not making you follow. 
The phone rings, startling you with how loud it is.
"You know what to do?" Snoopy asks, nodding at you when he's back in the room with you. Jaehyun had walked you through the details while he'd helped you get ready earlier and it had seemed easy enough.
You let the rings go on for a while as you shake off your nerves before picking up the pink plastic receiver and answering the phone with a tearful, shaky "hello".
"Mira?" 
"Ye-yes." You let your stutter return. 
"Why didn't you answer the door for me?"
"That wasn't the deal," you say. "We meet in the bar, or not at all."
"Where’s Louis, Mira? He was supposed to be down here an hour ago." 
"He went for a swim," you say, not bothering to make it sound convincing.
"In a hurricane? You think I'm stupid?"
"I'll explain when I get down there," you say. "You know they're listening."
The stranger on the other end seems to take a lifetime piecing together what you said before agreeing with a growl. "Be down here in five minutes with the entire package or we're coming up there and breaking down the door to get it."
"I'll see you in ten," you say, hanging up. 
"You're a natural," Snoopy says, wiping down the receiver once he's taken it from your shaking hand. "Pick out an outfit and let me know when you're ready."
He nods towards the other room and you understand immediately, picking up one of the evening dresses strewn on the couch, then reluctantly rifling through the open suitcase on the floor for underwear to replace the ones Johnny had taken from you.  Wearing a dead woman's lingerie was the last thing you needed but you had few alternatives.
There’s a knock at the door that startles you as you're changing in the other room, surprised that you hadn’t had a warning from Jaehyun keeping an eye on the lobby. You come into the room to see your companion open the door, gun ready, letting in a much shorter man in a work suit pushing one of the hotel's janitorial carts.
So there isn't a height requirement after all, you think, nodding shyly from behind the door jamb as the man comes in and beams at you. He meets all your expectations in the looks department, that wholesome appearance they all seem to have masking something much different.
"Hey, Y/N," he says cheerily. "Hey, Jungwoo—"
"We talked about this, Taeil." the other man groans. "Code names?"
The other man shrugs sheepishly.
"We need to move fast. I'll help you once I'm done with her."
"Come here," Jungwoo says after reholstering his gun, guiding you into the empty adjacent room. He leaves the door ajar and gestures for you to enter the bathroom, patting the counter for you to jump on it as he opens his bag beside it. Even with the height increase he's stooped over you, lifting your face in delicate fingers to inspect it.
"We don’t have much time but the lighting should hide enough." He begins applying makeup liberally to your face in a spectrum of colors you've never used before: violets and reds and yellows. 
"You want to make it look real? You can hit me," you say, eyes closed so he can give you a convincing shiner.
"Absolutely not," Jaehyun says in both of your ears.
Jungwoo smiles and shakes his head, biting his lip as he touches up his work with a gloved thumb. "You can wear sunglasses to hide your face, they won't notice."
"Do you do this a lot?" you ask, letting him apply lipstick to you in a deep shade of red. 
"We usually have a team for this. But I'm a quick learner." 
You glance in the mirror, nodding. "You're good at it."
The younger man beams at you, rose lips parting to reveal perfect teeth.
"Stop flirting with the kid," Johnny says. "They're all here but they're looking antsy."
"Almost done," you say, helping Jungwoo put the wig on you to complete your look. He disappears for a moment and comes back with the final touches: large white sunglasses and a fur coat, and a key with the 312 tag. You don’t want to know where he'd found it.
"What about the bag?" you ask. 
"We'll let you know where we stash it."
"Won't they check for a wire?" You look up at Jungwoo, surprised to see confusion flicker across his face.
"These guys are dumb but they're professionals. You tell them you killed dear old Louis here and they won't suspect you're wearing one."
"It's still too risky," you say aloud.
"We're expecting failure," Jaehyun's voice crackles in with the echo of the lobby, piano playing stopped. 
Jungwoo nods, shrugging a little. "Getting caught is just another contingency."
"I see." You have your doubts but you also know that this is largely going to be a matter of luck, much like the other jobs you'd pulled off in the past. As long ago as it's been since you'd done one you’re feeling the same you had every time, the lemon-sharp thrill of possibility with your head running through escapes and back-up options should things go south.
"Should I take a weapon?"
"No. We'll have your back." Jungwoo adjusts your hairline a final time, combing out one of the long, black tresses to rest on your shoulder. "You have my word."
You look at him skeptically, prompting him to blush prettily. "On my mother’s life."
Mommy's boys, the lot of them, you sigh internally. It’s odd but nothing about the last day has been normal, so you figure you'll take your chances.
The trip downstairs is a blur, and you calm yourself by humming the Peanuts theme, until the chuckles in your in-ear reminds you that you have an audience. 
Once you're in the lounge you plan on blowing past the bar, but Johnny beckons you with a curve of his finger. The music is loud enough you have to lean over the bar to hear what he has to say. He hovers dangerously close, breath against your cheek.
"Want another Long Slow Comfortable Screw Against the Wall?"
"What?" You stare at him in disbelief once you've pulled away.
"The drink you had earlier," he says, holding up a glass. "I'll send one over. Deliver it to that spot you like so much in the lobby. The one with the view."
It takes you a moment to realize he’s telling you where the package is being delivered.
"Why are you like this?" you ask, not waiting for an answer or his pleased expression. You head directly for the suits at the back booth past the sadly empty dance floor and stage, mirror ball illuminating clouds of smoke wafting from the occupied tables. 
For a moment you catch a familiar face looking at you from one of the booths and your heart stutters but Ruby's gaze skips over you and back to the bar. Thank god for your disguise, you think, she's the last person you want to talk to right now.
There's a clear aura of uncertainty coming from the group you're approaching, the chill of fear beginning to freeze you until you remember you’re not carrying a bag. You walk forward with a mixture of feigned confidence and very real wariness.
One of the three men accompanying the leader stands up and pretends to give you a hug, patting you down instead. You stand stock still as his hands wander up your body under the white rabbit fur coat, roughly squeezing the underwire of your bra before standing back to let you sit.
Once you've slid along the red leather you're closed in immediately by the bodyguard, a hard and cold object digging into your stomach under the table.
"Where is it," the leader asks, fingers steepling in front of him. This close you can see he's as good-looking as your own agents, and though they hadn’t told you anything much past his name and a warning to play it cool you can feel the power coming off him like radiation from a nuclear core.
"You could at least buy a girl a drink, Max," you say, placing your hands on the table, not to show off Jaehyun's work on your nails as much as let them see the very real damage to your wrists and the scrapes on your knuckles. "The case is in the lobby behind the palm tree closest to the piano."
The leader only has to nod before one of the meatheads across from you—the one you’d taken to calling Hulk for the shape of his jaw—gets up to retrieve it.
"Roughed you up good, did he?" Max asks, offering you an expensive cigarette from an ivory-plated case.
You let your hand shake when you accept it, leaning into the flame and fighting the urge to cough when the smoke hits your lungs. The second drag is easier, letting them hang on your next words.
"I told him if he hurt me again he'd pay." You exhale smoke, flashing him a glimpse of your face under the glasses, satisfied with the look of disgust that crosses his cold features. "He paid."
"We'll need to confirm that." Max toys with his untouched martini. "Do you have proof?"
"The room is the proof," you say. "Everything is still in there but me. And the bag."
You indicate you're going to pull something from your pocket and he nods, the gun digging in a little sharper as you pull out the 312 room key and slide it across the table. "Knock yourself out."
"What do you want out of this?" 
"Protection," you spit out immediately. You adjust your glasses, looking out at the bar like you’re being watched. It's easy to act when you know you are.
"Don't think there's any protection in the world that could see you out of the mess you both made," Max smiles, his eyes cold.
"Fair," you incline your head, pretending to wipe a tear from under your glasses. "You can let me walk out of this hotel in one piece, though. Word is you're a stand-up guy." 
"I keep my word. Let's see if you keep yours."
The other man returns with the case, nodding. The guards get up, Max pocketing the key and smoothing out his jacket. 
"Take her out front and get her a ride," he says to the man still holding a gun to you. "You going to play nice for me?"
"Don't see that I have much choice," you snap back. 
"Be a good girl and you'll have nothing to worry about," Max says, smiling devilishly. You've seen this look before, you've heard these words before, you know that they're never true. But you pretend like you believe him, you even let him kiss your hand as he leaves you alone with your ward. 
The ghost of that kiss makes you clench your hand as you're shepherded past the bar, making eye contact from behind your glasses with Johnny as he pours rum. He winks at you, and while your face is hidden you’re sure he can see the look you shoot back at him. 
Your legs start to feel like jelly the moment the lobby doors open and you're exposed to the rush of warm, humid air outside of the hotel. You turn towards the line of taxis and airport shuttle vans but your captor walls you off, steering you towards the parking lot. 
"Where are you taking me?" you ask, quietly.
He doesn't answer, grabbing your shoulder to make you march into the rain-soaked night towards rows of cars and an ominous-looking black Lincoln Continental. You don’t fight it–making conversation instead.
"If you kill me people will come for you," you say, voice trembling.
"They'll thank me, bitch," he says, jamming the muzzle into your back.
You pretend to stumble in your heels, falling on to the wet pavement behind the hotel once you're out of the eyeline of anyone out front. The man looks down at you in disgust, gesturing with his gun for you to get up when light suddenly floods the sidewalk. 
Headlights blind you both, an engine flaring into life just beyond–
"What the—" the man doesn't get a chance to speak as he's cold-cocked from behind, the gun in his hand skittering across the wet pavement when it's kicked from his limp hand. You look up to see a giant man in a ski mask standing over you both right before the engine roars behind you, distracting you. There’s a screech of tires just as the stranger picks you up and throws you into the open side door of an unmarked van.
You have a glimpse of an interior full of all sorts of electronic equipment and a driver's side profile before a black bag is pulled over your head. Your assailant must be part bear for how little your struggle effects them, and after the hold he has on you doesn't break you go limp.
You're discarded on the floor of the van to roll across it, bumping painfully into what feels like a bench.
"Sorry, sorry," comes a muffled voice behind you as the vehicle peels away, door slamming shut. 
"What?" Your heart is racing in your chest, fabric keeping you from being able to draw in a full breath.
"We had to make it look authentic," he says, grabbing you before you can slide across the floor again. You don’t fight as you're lifted off the floor and set down on a cushioned seat, back against the cold metal wall of the van.
Once the movement of the vehicle is normalized you find hands tentatively removing the hood from your head, and a boyish looking face under brown, mussed hair peering down at you. You're both sitting on the bench running parallel to the massive amount of equipment filling the left side, including video monitors and radio dispatch equipment.
"Was the black bag necessary?" you ask.
"Security cameras," he shrugs. 
You take advantage of a red light to adjust yourself and he does too, moving away. Despite his height he looks comfortable as he sits in a bolted-down chair at the electronics station, donning a headset and clicking through a series of buttons.
"Where are you taking me?"
"Hotel," the driver says cheerily from up front and you have a moment of panic thinking he means back to The Magic Carpet. You don’t think you can spend another night there.
"Palm Beach," the big man clarifies from where he works.
"That's a long drive," you sigh. 
"I'm going to need your earpiece," he says, holding out his hand. He sees your expression and smiles shyly. "You're out of range anyway."
You comply, taking off your wig and wig cap as well, relieved to be able to itch your scalp.
"Oh and we'll need your clothes, too. Your stuff is over there."
You sigh. "Can I keep my underwear?"
He's surprisingly unfazed, cheeks maybe a little more red in the dim light of the non-broadcasting monitors. He turns and speaks into his mic, low enough you can barely hear but you can feel the universe laughing at you when he swivels around, face incandescent.
"No they say we'll need that too. Sorry."
You think you can hear Johnny laughing even miles away.
"Whatever," you say. "You want to watch?"
He turns around again immediately, but you catch the driver's cherub-like eyes in the rearview mirror smiling at you with a cheeky look. You respond with a rude gesture before going deeper into the back of the van, glad to see there's a curtained-off area with a narrow sleeping cot at the back. 
Your heart drops a little seeing your familiar suitcase and bag laid there—remnants of a life that feels foreign to you now. You may as well have been dropped off on an alien planet for as far away as yesterday feels. 
Once you've changed into your familiar denim shorts and yellow Keep On Truckin' t-shirt you lie down, listening to the soft hum of the radio playing soul and the occasional click of a keyboard or button. The smooth ride of the I-95 takes you into even more unfamiliar territory.
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God you wished they'd have let you keep the fur coat. But no, you'd been unloaded at the end of an enormous palm-tree lined lane at the most impossible destination you could ever have imagined yourself, a pebble dumped in a treasure chest.
"Welcome to the Breakers Resort," the woman at the front desk had greeted you, patient as you took in the painted ceiling and chandeliers. "Do you have a reservation?"
"Room 127," you say, looking down at the scrap of paper the comms agent had given you.
"Ah, of course. Welcome Ms. Smith. Kitchen is open for another few hours if you'd like any in-room dining." 
You don't even notice she's not asked for ID or money, swept past the grand Venetian ballroom and miles of soft carpet and antique furniture to your room. 
Of course it's a suite, you think, once you're inside. The place is tastefully white and pastel, windows revealing the rolling surf of the dying storm just past the well-maintained exterior. Unlike the place you’d just left, the palm leaves and jetsam have already been swept clean, erasing the chaos of the past few days in a way that has you unsettled.
You find pink rose petals strewn at the end of the turned-down king size bed, chocolates on the pillow and an expensive looking bottle of champagne sweating in an ice bucket on the table. 
Enjoy your stay, you've earned it. The handwritten note on hotel stationary makes you feel more alienated then ever and you soothe yourself by inspecting the room the way you're used to doing. It's so clean you feel like you could eat off the floor, reminding you it's been a long time since that sandwich.
The prices on the room service menu send your blood pressure skyrocketing but you disregard them and order a full spread, and another bottle of champagne—less expensive—for good measure.
It's hard to stay still and you think about going down to the bar but take one look at your face in the mirror with its remaining streaks of makeup and your ratty wig-tortured hair and opt instead to take a bath in the jacuzzi tub, dumping an entire bottle of soap in for maximum bubbles. You stay in the hot water until you can’t stand it anymore, wrap yourself in one of the thick white robes, and wait.
It's not your fault the bed is so comfortable and warm, the pillows so thick and cold. Four glasses of champagne and the roar of the ocean lulls you into a deep and dreamless sleep. You're out so intensely that you don't even wake up when the door clicks open, or when the shower starts, or when the mattress drops next to you.
No, you wake up much later, suddenly hot from the body encircling you, arm tight around your middle. You open your eyes to see another form in front of you, catching the sharp tang of alcohol as Johnny snores softly a few feet away.
"Jae—" the hand rises to press a finger to your lips and you turn around to see his familiar jaw, dark hair shrouding his face. You lean back to kiss him, surprised to feel how smooth his skin is and how good he tastes when your mouth opens to allow him in with a soft moan.
You kiss until you're both breathless, his hand tracing circles on your neck.
"You did so good," he whispers. "Without a hitch."
"I missed you," you say quietly, and you mean it. "Thought maybe this was a parting gift."
Even in the dark you can tell his expression clouds over, eyes darting over your face. 
"What’s wrong?" you ask, fingers tracing his eyebrows.
Don't say it, don't say it, you think. You want the illusion to last just a little longer.
"We can talk about it in the morning," he says. "Get some more rest."
You sigh, reaching back to run your fingers through his hair, finding it still slightly damp. 
"I don't want to sleep," you whisper, your tone clearly indicating that you'd rather be doing anything else. You sense him go rigid behind you. Fingers trace your lips before angling your jaw so he can kiss you again, just as softly.
"You sure?" 
"Don't wake him," you say, conspiratorially.
"Johnny killed half a bottle of mezcal so they’d kick him out early, he's not getting up anytime soon."
"Pretend like I'm still dreaming."
"Mmm," he assents, bringing you closer to him. You relax into his soft touches, letting him soothe you into a comfortable state only punctuated by shocks of cold when he undoes the belt of your robe, reaching in to massage your skin. You close your eyes and let him explore you in slow, endless circumnavigations of your breasts and belly, never quite hitting the places he knows will make you move.
You only jerk a little when he pulls back your robe collar, replacing the warmth of the fabric with his mouth, the fingers of his right hand venturing between your thighs.
You can't help but whimper the moment he touches you, lightly dipping his fingers between your folds, spreading the wetness that inevitably springs up. You’re still aching from the lack of completion earlier, body melding into every contour of his behind you as an invitation to go further. 
He brings his mouth to your shoulder blade, kissing you gently as he rests his forearm on your hip, alternating between teasing your entrance and up to your clit. You bury your face into the pillow to keep from crying out when he curls his fingers inside you, small gestures making you close your legs around his touch.
When you reach behind to grab at his head he brings your hand back to the pillow with slippery fingers, pulling off your robe from your right side, leaving you half exposed. 
"Relax for me, baby," he whispers into your ear, bottom lip brushing the lobe. "Close your eyes."
You will yourself limp, slowly coming to the realization that this is something he wants—you pliable and ready for him. He adjusts behind you and you feel that thick, soft tip nudging between your thighs, his hand pulling your leg back and over his to help him get you aligned.
"Stay quiet," he warns before fucking into you. You grip the pillow beneath you as he forces his way in, fighting the tight constriction in your cunt at the suddenness. 
Soft sounds escape you when he pulls your hip back, getting so deep you’re melding together, skin-to-skin in the cool air. His other arm snakes under you so he can clamp a hand over your mouth, his thrusts getting less controlled as you continue to pretend to sleep.
"Gonna give you such a good dream." Jaehyun's voice cracks as he rolls you slightly to fuck you into the bed. You want him to touch you so badly you whimper for it under his palm, eyes clenched shut. 
He seems to understand because strong fingers reach between you and the mattress, circling your nub until you're clamping down on him. Just when you think you're going to tip over the edge his hand pulls away, making your body snap with unresolved tension.
"Wait for me. Wait until I tell you," he says. You shake your head in protest but he doesn't let up, stroking you in alternations between the contact you need and then up to your belly as soon as you begin to tremor.
You're only consoled by Jaehyun's shaky breaths into your hair, his drilling into your warm hole speeding up each time your body flutters around his cock. Even his hand around your mouth tightens in spasms. 
"Now."
You don't understand why the bed is moving as much as it is until you're rolled back against Jaehyun, thigh pulled back again. Your eyes fly open with the first stroke of a warm tongue, surprise disappearing into a massive rolling wave of pleasure as you find Johnny's head between your legs, Jaehyun's cock disappearing into you in wild thrusts.
You're on fire, incapable of thinking trapped between the soft wetness of a mouth and the molten length inside of you. Johnny stops mid-lick and mid-tremor to blow on you, the cold air making you jerk.
"I said now," Jaehyun says, and you realize he's directing the other man, who's stopped mouthing you again, looking up across your bare chest to meet your eyes in the dark.
Then he's sucking on your clit and you can't keep the shriek from bubbling up in your throat, body curling in as the sensation of that wave breaking has your legs shaking and toes curling, shock after shock following as Jaehyun pulls out of you and finishes between your thighs, coating you and Johnny both. 
Johnny doesn’t stop, and Jaehyun holds you still as you're licked clean, your eyes half-open drinking in the sight in the dark. By the time he joins you at the head of the bed you're whimpering from overstimulation, captured into a kiss that coats your tongue as soon as Jaehyun releases the hand over your mouth.
"Take care of her," Jaehyun says, leaving the bed. 
"Tit-for-tat," Johnny says brushing his hand over your cheek. "You ready to finish what you started?"
Your heart races as he pulls you on top of him, gently tugging the robe off your left shoulder and tossing it away. His hands completely engulf your breasts, spreading them and thumbing at your hardened nipples.
"So soft. You're mine, too," he murmurs.
"You're drunk," you counter, but you don't leave your place straddling him. He’s still dressed but his shirt is open, body feverwarm under you. 
You suppose it makes sense that they'd cage you in without a say, after slowly whittling away at your resolve, but it still feels like waking up in the lion's den. So this is what you’d missed out on not following things to their natural conclusion before. You’re almost grateful you’d never made it that first night; you’d have missed the worst but you would have never have found yourself here.
"Maybe," he says. "I can still fuck you though."
"It's so funny how you think you’re in control," you repeat his words back to him, slipping down his torso and leaving a trail of wet until you're straddling his thighs. You pull his shorts open to release his massive erection, trailing your mouth over the leaking slit but offering nothing by way of satisfaction.
By the time you feel Jaehyun behind you again Johnny is groaning loudly at each wet kiss against his length, each weak suck and unfinished squeeze of your fingertips driving him deeper into the bed.
"You like torturing him, baby?" Jaehyun asks, turning on the light. He's naked and glistening with sweat, the sight making your mouth water.
"It's only fair," you say, tongue flicking the precum from the underside of Johnny's cock. "You said he couldn't fuck me until you could watch."
"I made you come just now," Johnny slurs, hand twisting in your hair. 
"Debatable," you say. Jaeyhun grabs Johnny's wrist away from you and pulls it over his head and you hear the satisfying click of cuffs snapping into place. Johnny's hips thrust upwards as you give his cock another long swipe, watching Jaehyun ease on to the bed and angle his groin over the other man's face. You can't see but you can hear the muffled groans as Johnny takes him, the arching of Jaehyun's broad white back as he grips the headboard and fucks slowly into his mouth.
You forget torturing Johnny, cheek resting against his hipbone as you reach down to touch yourself instead. When Jaehyun finally pulls away you can see the line of spit from his erect cock to Johnny's plump lips and it makes you gasp a little, peppering his belly with kisses.
"What would you like to do to him?" Jaehyun asks, stroking himself as you tease Johnny’s length with your breasts.
"He can’t come until we tell him to," you say, looking directly into Johnny's lust-hazed eyes. "I want him to beg for it."
"That’s my girl," Jaehyun moves across the bed to join you, leaning down to kiss you before licking the twitching cock between you. You follow his suit, mouths clashing before you both set to work—your hand pumping while Jaehyun's cheeks hollow around the tip. You end up with one hand on his head guiding your lover, watching Johnny writhe and curse as he tries to break free.
"I want you to fuck me with him," you say, kissing Jaehyun once you’ve pulled him away. He looks at you quizzically, your hand wrapping around his cock to pull him closer and work at him against Johnny's muscled thigh. 
"I can take it," you say. "If he comes before I do then we can punish him."
"You sure?" he asks, pulling you tight. 
"Yeah," you breathe. "I want both of you."
You kill all alternatives by settling yourself over Johnny's hips, parting his open shirt so you can have better access to the wide swath of his chest and belly. 
"You want both of us?" he asks drowsily. You kiss him, marveling at how swollen his lips are until you remember biting them earlier. You nip at his neck, hearing the rattle of his belt as Jaehyun undresses his lower half behind you.
"We'll do all the work. Just try not to come," you say. You reach between you to angle his cock up into you, settling down as the stretch burns you awake. You feel unmoored until Jaehyun's hands are on your hips guiding you down to where you can rest against Johnny beneath you and then up again, making up for the lack of strength in your thighs.
"Oh," you say, leaning back into him. "It's so much."
"Slowly," Jaehyun says, cock pressed into your ass as he guides you. His arm snakes around you to help hold you as his hand fits between you, working through your slick until he can guide two fingers into you besides the other man. The first stretch of pain makes you squeak, tensing, and he slows.
"You sure you want it this way? We can—"
You shake your head violently. The feeling of being filled is too good, every inhale making you tighten. "Not tonight."
"That’s my girl," Johnny sighs. Jaehyun eases a third finger in, both of your movements slowing as he fucks into you with his hand against the warm length already inside you. You're on fire, feeling Johnny practically in your ribcage, but without the necessary rhythm to work you to completion it feels like you're sharing the torture.
"Please, fuck us," you whisper, leaning back to rest your head against Jaehyun's chest. You're so full already you can barely feel when his hand is out of you but when his cock replaces his fingers its a torch to tinder. You involuntarily jerk forward, half-off of Johnny as Jaehyun slides against him and presses his cock deep into your cunt. 
If you thought you had any agency in this moment it's stolen by hands on your hips pulling you back, Jaehyun’s grip viselike. Johnny is struggling beneath you, trying to fuck you against the encroachment of Jaehyun's cock but the latter’s movements are merciless.
"Oh fuck," Johnny says as you bounce on top of him, unable to do anything besides snap his hips. "So tight."
You reach a hand down to pleasure yourself and marvel instead at the bulging in your abdomen, a total flush settling over your body as Jaehyun forces his way into you with sharp breaths. 
"Don't come yet," he says, biting your shoulder, making your walls clench even around all that mass inside you. Johnny bucks, thighs rising under you, clearly feeling each twitch.
"Fuck, I can't hold it," Johnny says, the metal of his cuffs scraping on the headboard. "Slow down."
"Don't come," Jaehyun orders, more to Johnny than you. You aren't even touching yourself, too lost in the indescribable feeling of fullness inside you, the lurid sounds of skin against skin as Jaehyun's balls slap against your ass and the base of Johnny’s cock. You lean back to kiss him, unable to find anything but his jawline before he bends you down to slide in deeper. 
Your hands splay across Johnny’s abdomen, feeling every spasm and roll of his muscles as he comes closer to his end. You let your body respond in kind, squeezing in time until the tics escalate beneath your palm and you can both feel and hear his breathing stutter beneath you. 
"You're so good for me, Daddy," you whisper, laving the hot skin over Johnny's breastbone. "Come for me."
Johnny practically leaves the bed for how violent his orgasm is. Hot cum floods inside you, spurring Jaehyun to fuck deeper and rougher even as his partner grunts in protest at the overstimulation. 
He reaches between you to place your hand where you'd forgotten your own touch.
"Punish him, baby."
You circle your clit, making sure you keep getting tighter around his softening cock with each thrust. The stretch burns but you take it.
"Such a good girl," Jaehyun says, kissing your neck above your spine. Want to feel you come for us."
You feel the snap in the bottom of your feet and into your weakening legs, core throbbing with each pump until you finally crumble. You squeeze the sensitive member inside you until you're breaking apart around them both, face pressed into Johnny’s chest.
Looking up you immediately move up off both of them, not caring if Jaehyun has finished, kissing the sweat away from Johnny’s face. His expression is a grimace but his breathing slows as you soothe him with soft touches.
"We got carried away," you breathe, pushing the hair stuck to his forehead away. "Are you okay? Can I get you some water?" 
Johnny cracks a smile, eyes opening partially. 
"You think that was too much?" he asks. "And you said you could handle it."
You slap him lightly on the face.
"You’re done?" he asks, eyes flicking down between you. "I didn't beg, did I?"
You look back at Jaehyun, finding him with one hand on his cock, pumping slowly.
"Get back down here," he says. 
You don't resist, sliding down and turning to face him as you straddle Johnny's belly. Jaehyun kisses you, bringing your hand to spread over Johnny's softening cock covered in cum and slick. He reaches between you to cup your own mess, fingers slopping into you obscenely as he coats them in what's there.
"He's going to make you come again," he says. "I'll get him hard again for you." 
"I'm pretty sure he’s going to pass out," you say, looking over your shoulder. His fucked-out expression in the dark is how you feel, propped against your lover.
"Even better." Jaehyun says. "Watch."
Your breath catches in your chest as you see him take his white-coated fingers and slide them down between Johnny’s parted legs, beneath his heat-sagging balls. You’re the one to gasp as you watch him palpate the puckered muscles and slowly work in, feeling the body beneath you twitch.
"You don't know how amazing this feels," he says, meeting your round eyes. "Soon."
Heat radiates through your core and your entire body as you watch Jaehyun finger-fuck the man under you, as you feel his cock twitch with each stroke against his prostate. You assist by dropping down to take Johnny’s soft member into your mouth, sucking gently on it and pulling it to hardness. Somewhere out of sight Johnny groans inarticulately.
The taste doesn't bother you, not as you feel the blood return to his cock, taking a long time to fill completely. You’re only stopped by Jaehyun angling his own tip into your face, forcing you to alternate between the two until both are sufficiently coated in your spit and your throat burns from the intrusion. 
Jaehyun waits until you're choking on Johnny’s cock to make his first thrust, easing into the other man with a raspy sigh. You watch fascinated as Johnny lifts his hips, legs folding on either side of the younger man. Jaehyun's mouth is agape, eyes closed as his strokes become deeper and more forceful.
"You're so good," you croon, lying down beside Johnny and kissing the side of his face. He angles his head to catch your lips, making small noises of satisfaction when your tongue slides over his. You almost forget everything as you kiss him deeply, the moment feeling more intimate than anything you’d shared previously, until rough hands grasp you from behind and pull you down his body.
“One more for us?” Jaehyun says into your ear, dripping sweat down your throat and spine as he crashes you against him, still rocking steadily. 
You swallow nervously, thighs radiating a deep ache. “I don’t know if my knees can handle it.”
“Just relax,” he says, twisting your body so you’re facing him and pushing you until your bent backwards. 
“Lay back, babydoll,” Johnny says.
You can hardly breathe, your body tensing with anticipation as you lie down against Johnny’s chest.  Jaehyun bends over you, you think to grab the headboard until you hear the release of the cuffs. Just as quickly you are wrapped in a tight embrace, legs spread.
“Relax,” Johnny says, nuzzling your throat. “I’ve got you.”
He lifts his hips, diving into your ready heat—his length less overwhelming than before at this angle. Jaehyun settles down over you as well, kissing from your forehead to your mouth as Johnny begins thrusting between you. 
You can’t be sure of anything in this position—not who is guiding all three of you, or who is making the sounds in the chorus of cries of ecstasy. You’re sure you won‘t be able to come again but Johnny’s thick fingers slide over your nub, sending aftershocks through your abused cunt. 
“Oh fuck, oh fuck,” you chant, head thrown backwards against Johnny’s flexing shoulder. Hovering over you, Jaehyun is just as gone—face buried in your chest.
“I’m close,”  Jaehyun says into your skin, eyes clenched tight. 
“Hold on, baby,” Johnny says, and you know immediately it’s meant for you by the way his python-like grip locks you into place.
Johnny stops working beneath you and you realize he’s ceded control, the violence of Jaehyun’s last thrusts fucking him deeper into you than before. Johnny keeps you on top of him, hand unrelenting on your apex even as he loses tempo beneath you.
“Come on me,” you whisper to Jaehyun, breaking the spell he is under. He fights for control through a shuddering last push, pulling out to finish over you with just a few pumps into his hand as you curl towards him, foreheads colliding. Milky white ropes coat your torso, and you try to kiss him through the look of pure bliss you know he’s in but are rolled onto the bed, facedown.
“I can’t,” you protest, wrenching around to stop Johnny but you might as well be made of rubber. Something is shoved under your belly and your hips are hoisted up as you sink headfirst into the duvet. 
“You can, babydoll. I want to feel it when I ruin you for anyone else.”
Johnny’s weight settles over your hips as he teases your throbbing and puffy core with his cockhead, pulling you up on the pillow he’s placed beneath you. You jerk when he angles into you, dragging against the top of your walls with each plunge. As much as you expect pain or force there’s neither, it feels like you’re melting into the warmth of him as he kisses your shoulders gently.
“You’re so perfect,” Johnny mumbles, pulling sweat-sticky hair from your face as you gasp for air. 
“I told you she was.” Jaehyun lies next to you at an angle, kissing you, and you taste the swallow of cold water he’d just taken like it’s the first rain of summer. Soon he’s pulled you half into his arms, touch ghosting all over as Johnny keeps a steady pace. 
“How are you still so tight for me?” He groans, legs pressing against the back of your thighs when he hits you deepest. The sensation is overwhelming, like he’s going to crawl inside of you so far you’ll never be released. 
“It’s too much,” you say, but even you don’t believe it as you lift your hips to meet him, allowing Jaehyun’s hand to slip between your legs. He rolls your clit in a circular motion, kissing you to match the other man’s thrusts. Your pussy throbs in syncopation with someone’s breathing—surely not yours.
“You’re such a good girl for us.” 
You whimper when the waves of pleasure begin to shorten in refraction, the building orgasm like a bone deep ache that they’re working out of you. You go quiet in the last few seconds, high-pitched whine stuck in your lungs, willing overworked muscles to give up the ghost but the climax seems to stretch on forever with no peak to tumble off of. 
And then Johnny shifts, practically on top of you, holding himself up but only so much as he drills you into the bed and the slick chest beneath you. Teeth are on your neck and another mouth against your cheek as you cry out, legs quaking involuntarily, nails digging into Jaehyun’s back as you hear Johnny cum with a muffled roar. 
Hot cum fills your belly as you finally find release, spasming so intensely you feel liquid gush between your thighs. You don’t have a thought left in you to feel any shame, your body shakes mellowing as you’re held through the comedown. 
“That’s my girl,” Jaehyun whispers, smiling against your temple. 
“Our girl,” Johnny corrects, kissing where a bruise blooms at the top of your shoulder blade. He rolls off of you but only to cage you on the other side, leg draped possessively over yours.
Jaehyun meets your eyes in the half-light, watching you. You have to close your eyes, unable to face that kind of unnameable emotion you feel hollowing you out.
“Stay with me,” he says, lifting you up finally. “Let’s get you cleaned up.”
You barely hear him as you sink into bliss, grateful that at the end of it all—whatever this is—you don’t have to be in control. 
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Hours later you startle awake with a gasp, the room grey with the dawn outside and the heavy breathing of the two men on either side of you only faltering for a moment before returning to the depths of sleep. 
It takes you longer than usual to get your bearings, the soreness in your legs making blood rush to your face as you remember everything at once. 
I’m so deeply fucked, you think, literally and figuratively. You sit up, finding yourself wrapped up in a deadweight arm—Jaehyun’s—while Johnny’s head rolls back from where it was resting against your shoulder. In the low light they look so much younger, weightless without all the responsibility and mystery you’d come to expect. 
You’ve already washed up and changed into your robe but you quietly scrub down again, wiping away the thin sheen of sweat from your forehead and checking the marks on your skin where tongue and teeth had claimed you. 
Inside you feel a glow of elation that you’ve finally understood what it is to be wanted, and somehow without conflict even with the uncertain nature of two people’s separate feelings in the matter. In a better world perhaps you’d have time to talk it over, sharing a room service breakfast and a morning finally free of the storm that had brought you together.
But you’ve lived a lot longer than anyone should have in your short existence. It’s made you more capable, and stronger, but also unwilling to accept any fantasy. Everything, you think, has a price, and some things are too good to be true.
You don’t have any illusions about what daylight will actually bring you. 
With the ease of an automaton you remove all traces of your existence from the room, changing into the clothes you wore and readying for departure. You find the one possession that isn’t yours with ease, in Jaehyun’s bag, leaving everything else intact. 
The watch feels heavy in your hand, the ticking like receding thunder, and you tuck it into your bra as if to quiet it with your own heartbeat. On your way out you find the Bible in the desk and leave the passage open, decaying rose marking Proverbs 27, underlining verse 5. 
If either hears you go, they don’t follow. 
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kdyism · 3 years
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renjun.
hot things he would do ♧
excuses ♧
where the moon doesn't shine ♡
the boyfriend experience ♡
jeno.
hot things he would do ♧
hiccups and bike ♡
haechan.
love again ♡♢
hot things he would do ♧
request 54 + 55
jaemin.
imagine 0.1
2022 neosecretsanta: stupid cupid ♡♢
delicate ♧
lemonade ♡
hot things he would do ♧
untitled i ♧
chenle.
when night falls ♡♢
hot things he would do ♧
jisung.
lovesick birthdays ♡
jisung in the great blue: collect of blurbs
hot things he would do ♧
the boy in the middle of the meadow sings love ♡♤
untitled ii ♧
CANDY HEART: strawberry ♡☆
shotaro.
burden ♧
romanticism ♡  
hot things he would do ♧
sungchan.
i know what i am doing (she know) ♡
imagine 0.1
headcanon!
things i associate with nct '00 line
NCT DREAM as strangers you meet once
NCT DREAM + the way they say i love you without saying i love you
nct dream + sungtaro as high school bfs
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nctficrec · 3 years
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Title: I didn’t think I’d make it, but now you’re here
Author: InfiniteWoonique Length: Three shot Status: Ongoing Rated: M Genre: Angst, AU, Fluff,  Friends to Lovers, Mpreg
Summary: Shotaro has arrived in Korea and he's working his hardest to achieve one of his biggest dreams. It's a lot of work but he's determined to fight until the end. That is, until he finds himself pregnant and in the process of becoming a mother. That hadn't been the plan at all and now he has to adjust while dealing with the struggle of finding the time and communicating efficiently in a language he wasn't too skilled in using.
And Sungchan... how will he tell Sungchan? It seems impossible, and he doesn't think he can do it... so he doesn't.
{AO3}
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90s-yang · 2 years
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PLAYING CUP!D | idol!reader x idol!kim sunoo
features! nct dream + sungtaro and jungwoo , itzys yuna , enhypen and mingyu of seventeen!
hi this is my first smau ^—^ ive decided to write this story but i decided to make mingyu , jungwoo and the reader siblings! i hope that’s okay with you guys and i hope to make this an enjoyable smau! also this will contain a bit of yuna x reader and maybe a little little bit angst im not sure but maybe
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babiesdreams · 4 years
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Reactions masterlist
Smut soft requested angst
🌼 active series// incomplete fics
Reactions:
Nct reaction to walking on you changing: Part 1/ Part 2/ Part 3
Nct reaction to them kissing your cheek but you pointing at your lips wanting them to kiss you there: Part 1 / Part 2/ Part 3
Nct reaction to their s.o having a beautiful singing voice: Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3
Nct reaction to you saying “i love you” out of nowhere for the first time: Part 1/ Part 2/ Part 3
Nct reaction to their small s/o trying to do hard labour: Part 1/ Part 2/ Part 3
Nct reaction to their s.o being really good with kids: part 1/ part 2/ part 3
Nct teasing their s.o not letting them kiss them (because y/n is short): Part 1/ Part 2/ Part 3
Nct reaction to their s.o giving them a silent treatment: Part 1/ Part 2/ Part 3
Nct reaction to their s.o having period pain: Part 1/ Part 2/ Part 3
Nct reaction to a clumsy s.o: Part 1/ Part 2/ Part 3🌼
Nct ways of showing affection OT23
Nct reaction to small titties s.o OT23 +16
Mark reaction to a girl grinding on him
They accidentally hitting you ot 23
Nct teaching others how to touch the reader requested by anon
Teaching their s.o an activity
Reaction to you having a panic attack (dream only)
She's got a point (dream + sungtaro)
Crybaby (dream +sungtaro)
You send them a dirty message Requested by anon
Kiss scene Requested by anon
You are selected as a queen of visual Requested by anon
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shotaroomilktea · 3 years
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₊˚✧⡱ nct fic recs [UNDER CONSTRUCTION ]
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ꗃ hello and welcome. here you can find an array of wonderful stories. I hope you find what you're looking for and please enjoy your stay!
⌕ › 。 last updated: 04/04/22
✿ = personal favorite ✧ = I cried M = mature
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mistymark mlist here
wincore series mlist here
tyongfs mlist here
dunkshot series mlist here
nct dream cuddle here
nct dream mlist here
nct dream cuddling while playing video games here
wayv the love diaries read here
nct dream giving you a hickey read here
nct dream + sungtaro cuddling read here
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yuta | jaemin | renjun | taeyong | johnny | haechan
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chenle
— summer romance | read here
↳ fluff / bullet fic
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jaehyun
— summer romance | read here
↳ fluff / band!au / bullet fic
— 6:43 | read here
↳ fluff / marriage!au
— 9:33 am | read here
↳ fluff / suggestive?
— the apple of my eye | read here
↳ fluff, comedy / teacher!au / fem!reader / 17k
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mark
— sunflower | read here
↳ fluff / college!au / 11.5k
— 9:53 | read here
— jealousy | read here
↳ smut / almost step-siblings / 16.4k
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Jxiaojun
— the haunting of xiao dejun | read here
↳ fluff, humour / 1.8k
— love in a major key | read here ✿
↳ fluff, romance / 11k
kun
— wildest dreams | read here
↳ fluff, smut / fem!reader / 7.8k
— nine in the afternoon | read here
↳ fluff / 1.3k
— one hundredth page | read here
↳ fluff, romance / f2l!au / college!au / 10k
yangyang
— two of us read | here
↳ fluff, humour / gn!reader / 0.7k
— ice ice baby | read here
↳ fluff / college!au / 18k
— speedometer | read here
↳ fluff / racer!yangyang / college!au / 14.1k
sicheng
— tip jar | read here ✿
↳ fluff / magick!au / 18.3k
— overrated | read here
↳ smut, humour / university!au
Haechan
— dandelions | read here
↳ fluff, angst, smut / childhoodfriends2lovers!au / fem!reader / 11.7k
— the are of secrets | read here
↳ fluff, angst, suggestive / fwb2l!au / 11.2k
— kiss her you fool | read here
↳ fluff, slight angst, slowburn / hockeyplayer!hyuck / bf2l!au / 15.7k
— romancing | read here ✿
↳ fluff, comedy / college!au / e2l!au / 23.7k
— the art of secrets | read here
↳ fluff, angst / bfb!au / fwb2l!au / 11.2k
— truth or dare | read here ✿
↳ fluff, angst / f2l!au / fakedating!au / 18.1k
— my words, your thoughts | read here ✿
↳ fluff, hurt/comfort, angst, smut / soulmate!au / f2l!au / 36k
chenle
— i fell for you like autumn leaves | read here
↳ fluff, angst, humour / gn!reader / 11.3k
— tuition and fees | read here
↳ fluff, angst / f2l!au / 17.4k
— awaken | read here
↳ fluff, smut / f2l!au / 6.4k
Jisung
— let me in | read here
Jeno
— can i love you again | read here
↳ smut, fluff / college!au / hockey!au / exf2l!au / 12k
— fight club | read here
↳ smut, fluff / fem!reader / fightclub!au / s2l!au
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nctynuniverse · 2 years
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Below you will find the masterlists through my works, sorted by member. Most of them will be slice-of-life-ish :) «s» is for smut | «f» is for fluff | «a» is for angst. Also all my works are +18. Do as you please, but I'd rather you refrained from reading smut if you're underage, I do not want any problems!
-you will see my biases marked with a star, as I will mostly write about them-
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nct u (sungtaro)
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lattegyu · 3 years
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nct dream masterlist !
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DISCLAIMER! everything posted here is made by me! so, please, don't copy, translate or repost my works, i spend some time writing them. also, all my works are fiction, so don't take it seriously!
KEY:
♡,, fluff
◇,, angst
☆,, nsfw
i do not write smuts for: chenle, sungchan and jisung!
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nct dream (+ sungtaro) !
— reactions/headcanons;
[seeing you in a bikini for the 1st time!] ♡ hc.
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mark !
— timestamps;
none at the moment.
— one-shots;
none at the moment.
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
renjun !
— timestamps;
none at the moment.
— one-shots;
none at the moment.
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
jeno !
— timestamps;
none at the moment.
— one-shots;
special attention | ☆
in which your boyfriend finally has a week off to spend with you. but, guess what he did on his free time? play video games. will you be able to receive his attention that you oh so much need?
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
haechan !
— timestamps;
none at the moment.
— one-shots;
none at the moment.
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
jaemin !
— timestamps;
[4:15 pm] ♡
— one-shots;
none at the moment.
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
chenle !
— timestamps;
none at the moment.
— one-shots;
none at the moment.
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
jisung !
— timestamps;
[1:31 am] ♡
— one-shots;
none at the moment.
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
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shotaro !
— timestamps;
none at the moment.
— one-shots;
none at the moment.
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
sungchan !
— timestamps;
none at the moment.
— one-shots;
none at the moment.
— headcanons;
none at the moment.
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