"And your Lord says, "Call upon Me; I will respond to you" Surah Ghafir 40:60
I have called countless times and yet You never tire of my voice. A voice that at times is so silent yet loud enough in the tears that fall. A voice which you make heard even before my tongue finds courage to form words. Words, which my own ears are shy of hearing aloud. Sometimes in fear of wondering just what it could mean to have the desires of the heart and an answer to a prayer, align. And I guess that's the wonderful part of conversing with You, My Lord. No judgement, no pre-notions, no pre-requisites to be able to simply bare all. Vulnerable, yet secure in Your Sacred Company. And so I find myself calling upon You for the millionth time, unashamed, yet with this unwaivering conviction that just as You have so truthfully vowed, shall as always undoubtedly Respond.
I’m ready to live for the sake of Allah. I’m tired of a life of sins and not struggling against the nafs. I’m ready to see all of my Adiyah accepted and my dreams become my reality. I’m done with allowing myself to be lazy and will put in the hard work combined with sabr and strong belief in my rab. And how could I not if I have a Lord that is shy to turn His slaves away empty handed? How could I not believe my Adiyah will be accepted when I my Lord says He will respond to me ?
Why is a person’s du’a not answered, even though Allah says in the Qur’an: ❛Call on Me; I will answer your (Prayer)…❜ [Surah Ghafir 40:60]
Sheikh Dr. Saleh al-Fawzan said (paraphrased):
The answer to a du’a is sometimes prevented due to the [shortcomings of the] person himself.
🌟 Rasulullah salla Allahu ‘alayhi wa sallam (ﷺ) mentioned a person who made du’a while his food is haraam, his drink is haraam, his clothing is haraam, and he has been nourished with haraam, then how can his supplication be answered? [Sahih Muslim 1015]
So Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala does not answer supplications from the one who eats from what is impermissible, until he makes tawbah and leaves off unlawful sustenance.
Another reason is that he may have made du’a without khushoo' (focus); or that he makes an evil du’a; or making supplications while he has severed a kinship.
🌟 Rasulullah ﷺ said: ❛The servant will continue to have his supplications answered as long as he does not ask for sin, or cutting family ties…❜ [Sahih Muslim 2735]
But sometimes, a du’a is not answered because Allah stops [the materialization of] that du’a. Even though the du’a is supplicated by a righteous servant of Allah with consistency, and his du'a is of goodness, Allah ends the materialization of that du’a for the benefit of His servant, and grants him something better [than what he originally asked for].
Thus what a servant of Allah should do is continue to supplicate to Allah with ikhlaas, and without despairing of His Rahmah.
🌟 Rasulullah ﷺ said: ❛Every one of you will have his supplications answered, as long as he is not impatient and says: I have supplicated, but I was not answered.❜ [Sahih al-Bukhari 6340]
Di antara banyak pertanyaan mengapa, mempertanyakan alasan-alasan pada setiap kejadian, mempertanyakan apakah tindakan yang dilakukan benar atau salah. Ada poin penting yang aku dapatkan, menerima dan bersyukur.
Aku yakin sulit sekali mencapai kedewasaan. Kalau kita belum menerima takdir, belum menerima diri sendiri, dan sulit sekali kita akan bersyukur.
Benar sekali pada surah Ghafir ayat 61, "Allah-lah yang menjadikan malam untukmu agar kamu beristirahat padanya; (dan menjadikan) siang terang-benderang. Sungguh, Allah benar-benar memiliki karunia yang dilimpahkan kepada manusia, tetapi kebanyakan manusia tidak bersyukur."
Pada nyatanya kita manusia sulit sekali untuk bersyukur. Tetapi bukan berarti tidak bisa. Kita bisa, kalau kita mau.
Setelah melalui berbagai pengalaman yang sedikit dan mengamati sekeliling barulah aku sadar. Ada banyak hikmah yang bisa aku keruk.
Aku sadar bahwa aku hanya perlu menerima dan bersyukur sebanyak-banyaknya.
Entah itu takdir yang aku dengan senang hati menerima sejak awalnya, ataupun takdir yang perlu aku cari hikmahnya.
Aku merasa, aku mencapai titik dewasa ketika aku berada di tahap saat ini. Menerima dan bersyukur.
Selamat menjadi dewasa sepenuhnya, bukan karena umurnya.
Semoga Allah berkahi, bertambah kebaikan dan merengkuh ridho-Nya.