#teehee aaaaaaaaa

[our-inspire-verse]

I am! Not great again! Why I'd did that. Stuff /VeryNegative under the cut

Just. Jesus fucking christ when will these flashbacks stop. I SAW myself die again. And then i also, MORESO have to watch Alder find me again and again. He fucking. Kept yelling my name. He kept calling for me, desperate. He was so hurt. I was already cold. He couldn't do anything, it wasnt his fault. But he tried so hard. And then he sat there for so long.

How could i have not known. Twice. There was an attempt in my timeline but thank fucking GOD i failed. Can you fucking imagine I'd succeeded? Was it better he was alone? What would it have been like if Dan and Cadance were there and i succeeded? Because they helped him when i failed. But something broke in the other timeline within him. I can see it in the way he put his hand on my shoulder. That was something he did in our lifetime, he'd just gently stroke my shoulder. It grounded me, it was affectionate, it felt really nice. I can sense the thoughts in his head. "He can't feel this now"

I've been gone for hours. I probably was before he ever could have made it home. I was alone in my room like that for sO long and i died afraid. Thats all i can think about was how afraid i was. I didn't think anyone cared about me, i know i was more isolated from Dan in this universe. I know i was more cruel to myself. And knowing these are facts of how these things work is one thing. Actually seeing where that switch over was, thats another. The way that allowing love into your life saves you in impossible to know ways. You have to allow people to love you.

You will die without it.

And knowing i didn't have a chance to be saved in this one. Knowing there was a real possibility of it going bad, it wasn't just a silly cry for attention written by a sad artist. It was the possibility of my mental health taking over and ruining my father's(chosen) life. It was the fact that i do have an impact on my future and i have to decide to have one. Theres nothing i can do to help either damned soul now, there's something so uniquely heart shattering about having to live with grief like this. It is not mine, it is of mine. It is of me. It is a holy sensation that i regard with vile distaste. The feeling is important, more important than a lot of things.

Growing up this life i never thought i would live past 10. Then a lot of other numbers. How original. How horrible. It actually is horrible. Desensitization makes. These numbers these thoughts, its hard to recognize im sad about it since its so normalized. But being 7 and suicidal isn't. And i cant believe i carried that and my past life all this time like this. And now that im so aware, ill carry it differently. I can't believe i lived so long. I cant believe im gonna KEEP living so long. I havent felt genuinely suicidal in ages. I can be real, and say the idealization is there, but it's more about the fantasy of getting help for it. But recieving memories like this reminds me of how bad that hurt. For decades. And how bad it hurt alternate or past selves, and those loved ones there. I'm so sorry Alder, i desperately wish there was anything i could do. To take it back, to help heal, to love you better than i did. Your cabin stayed empty, my room stayed where it was, and you stayed alone. Dan stayed over, but not much. You never got to know Cadance. You met briefly and never became friends.

I did all of that. Everything was actually because of me. I can't take that right now. I was resting and these memories wont stop. It's incredible though. How bright the sun is from up here. How even though pain burns more intensely than it usually does from this height, so does the love. How much the love permeated in every crack and crevice last life. How i let the light in and hope filled us all up. Even during loss and pain and torture, even losing each other. It was okay. Because at least it happened.

[ithinkimightbeagoose]

describe your hyperfixation badly

i'll start: silly little guy who has committed several murders falls in love with a silly little girl who hits an e6 at one point, oh and also a chandelier falls

also put said hyperfixation in the tags

[figitorynonsense]

already posted this on the discor but yhea :3

[p-idiot]

my friend is ashamed of me (I made my whole entire phone doctor themed)

[grandmaster-anne]

20 March 2023 The Duchess of Gloucester attended the Volunteer Centre West Berkshire Knowledge Event at Shaw House, Church Road, Newbury. 📸: The Berkshire Lieutenancy

[kay-selfships]

i’m yelling i’ve discovered that sincerely theirs (a website that does one shots/letters/miscellaneous things for fandoms, i’ve gotten a few things from there already and they’ve all been wonderful) has ensemble stars as one of the fandoms they write for

i may perhaps be making a very financially questionable decision very soon

[glitch1997]

weeeee spam doodle thing

[splashtheskeleton]

Here a silly

This isn't dream its a version of them

But this version is ftm.. and just a silly .

This au has some of the main cast being Asgore, flowey, Nightmare (as a papyrus I might add), chara, frisk, toriel, undyne, alphys, ect! And I added stuff changed stuff this au kinda complicated. :)

[bisexual-ashe]

me when traumatised fictional sadboy:

[satoriberry]

AAAAAAAAAAAA IT WAS SO BAD

[mementoloki]

I NEED TO MAKE MORE LUCIFER CONTENT

aaaaaaaaa

enjoy these, for now

i love drawing his lil smile RAGHH

also let's not talk about my silly little self insert oc in the first pic teehee

[aannonn]

⭑.ᐟ˚⭐彡 // bright colors , pastel colors , slight blur art , messy text (?) , messy doddle , headcanon , can be taken as /r or /p

aAAAAAAAA FINALLY I FINISHED IT YAYYY

can't believe it took me, like- 2 and a half days just to do the shading... (The shading was so hard aaaa)

(I started yesterday at night, and finished today at morning.. Welp. lol)

teehee sunset duo!!

this is mainly just platonic, but u can view it as a ship if u want (sunsetduo date yayy)

without the shading version because idk which one looks better (i have mixed feelings about the final result,,,) :

Welp! i think that's it..? xD

Cya ~ !

[freshfromhell]

EXCUSE YOU MA’AM ARE YOU TELLING ME THAT I CAME HOME TODAY AND AFTER DELETING MY 200 WORK EMAILS I SEE THAT YOU’VE POSTED A NEW CHAPTER OF MANIA FOR ME TO CONSUME??? I’m being fed so much, i feel so blessed and so highly favored and i feel the light of holiness washing over me as i ascend to HEAVEN because you have bless’t me in the highest regard by writing more of my fav fic ever

anyways love u mean it please let’s hold hands and kick our feet while I tell u how much I love u and I can’t wait to read it 😩😩😩

AAAAAAAAA, I DIDN'T SAY THAT BUT YEAH is that okay??? omg are you mad???? do you hate me?????? 🥺 omg pls u can't hate me!!

anyway! teehee, I'll just be over here twirling my hair, kicking my feet, waiting for you to read it, lol.

[narsh-poptarts]

Wait a second I had no idea you were into megaman.

I originally followed you for LOZ stuff, but I was scrolling through the megaman tag and I saw a beautiful The Protomen Roll fanart. And I thought it was sooo cool! And then I see the other one of the rising sun and it's YOU?!

I'm just so happy to find more megaman fans out there and especially ones that like The Protomen and that I was unknowingly following one.

Thank you for making art :3

TEEHEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAYYAYAYAYA I love finding more megaman fans!!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY ones that are into the protomen!!!!! omg this is wonderful news :DDDDDDD

i'm so glad you like my art!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaAAAAA i'm so excited for act 3 it's unreal

and MAN i need to draw more loz.. been a while!!!!!!!!!!

thank you so much for your kind words!!!!! :DDDDDDD

[glitch1997]

people draw sneo so mmmMmMMmmmMm~

[avid-adoxography]

Jade, Mahogany, Goldenrod, Yellow for that color mutuals ask!

(I think I sent one before, but I can't remember, so have another one! (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠))

AAAAAAAAA THANKS MONO!! 😭💕😭💕😭💕

Jade - honestly you have some of the best takes on this hellsite.

Do I? Well, uh, I guess thinking with my pussy finally paid off, despite the warning signs... Nice :D

Mahogany - let's go on a late night drive together and listen to one of your playlists.

Deal! You drive, I ride shotgun and subject you to all of my terrible ship playlists without pause <3c

Goldenrod - i really wanna sit next to you and watch a sunset/sunrise. or maybe just look at you.

Booking a flight as we speak, hang on.

Yellow - every time i see you on my dash you're always so happy and it's so lovely!

Surprise! Uno reverse card bestie uwu🫴🔄

Pink - biting you biting you biting you biting you licking you biting you biting you

Us teehee <3c

The Colors of the Moots ask game