#thank you for giving me food for thought

[bastille-songs-battle]

you could say doom days is more curated than wild world, just spanning an imagined one night out, telling a succinct story with an end. wild world covers more of a modern feeling of hopelessness and an attempt to find meaning in a world where the meaning of anything is constantly changed.

^

[daboyau]

Do you is has sona? :3

I do not, unfortunately! I think the closest I’ve gotten are the really cool lil versions of me that @pinkcottonwood and @phoebepheebsphibs have drawn. I will forever be in awe of the fact they’ve drawn me lol.

Why do you ask?

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

the father [solar lunacy] the son [you move to dayshift but aren't paid any more, go figure] and the holy spirit [i see you, sundrop!]

[cerealbishh]

"You're pretty new at this whole relationship thing, huh?"

"... Yeah."

[jichanxo]

made a tierlist of my kuwagami fics for funsies (+ notes for a few) ↓

(everything listed in the same tier are equals, so the order they're listed in has no meaning)

[shorlinesorrows]

just got the time to start the sunshine court and I'm Vibrating out of my skin

[idiaa-shroxd]

Your cat cafe au is so much fun and so soft I adore it but hearing that Malleus and Leona's cats are friends is so funny to me and spawned the worst idea XD Prefect: Leona, Nebula is pregnant Leona: ...By who? Prefect gestures to Oatmeal and Nebula cuddling.

we share the same brain!! actually working on the cat au ask right now, but have a few irl emergencies that prevented my writing, and here’s a little bit of it! but first let me just say this is 100% my thought process if you and rook have yet to neuter the kitties. oatmeal and nebula have a romeo and juliet love story! \(//∇//)\ more under cut! this isn’t canon in the au or anything but a fun concept!!

“Nebula has never looked better, he scooped her up in one arm and held her firmly against his bicep, smug as she meowed up at him and purred loudly. He had zero hesitation to hold her while walking to his fated rival, looking him and his cat up and down before scoffing. The two proceeded to argue over who’s cat looked better wearing their dorm uniform for a bit, as the two cats seemed content in their arms without hostility to one another. - Leona Kingscholar

Malleus Draconia - As Leona argues with him half his brain has melted to this is the greatest cat. Cat precious. My firstborn is the best in this world. The other half of him smugly picks up his son in his own arm, the cat against his own bicep as he begins talking about how regal he is. Honestly, his cat is just happy to spend time with him and begins playfully nipping at him after not getting enough attention.”

anyways back to the ask!! I’d like to imagine if that actually happened then leona would freak out at malleus, while malleus is shocked he is getting his first grandchild with you already as you reiterate that is a cat, and you both are not married. he’s not listening, to you or leona. they end up being that in law family that despise one another thoroughly like my child is too good for your child but i don’t want to lose custody of my grandchild. cats tend to have multiple kitties at once so im thinking depending on the amount the may definitely mean the boys now live ay Ramshackle with the kittens, with Nebula nipping at her dad proudly showing him her babies and Oatmeal showing his dad his babies too, forcing the two men to bond despite their prominent scowls, but they avoid being too loud because you remind them kittens are sensitive to noises. (。-∀-)

they’d definitely end up trying to adopt the kittens when you graduate.. but that custody battle is a talk for a different day. on the bright side Oatmeal and Nebula finally get to stay with each other openly as they raise the kitties.

for anyone curious ( ^ω^ ) been busy these past few weeks with art fight, and my cat needed a vet emergency, still have to return to the vet later this week, but i’m also working on a r-18 birthday leona fic! friendly reminder my navigation does say mdni and you are responsible for the content on my profile that you view!♪

Σ('◉⌓◉’) actually haven’t written r-18 works for social media in a bit, but i will try my best to make the fic! if anyone does not want to view the content, please block the tag “shrouded in desire.” which i will be tagging the fic, and all r-18+ fics on my profile for those who do not want to see the content!

[kenjakusbraincum]

the way i just binged all ur fics and drabbles.. scrolled through ur account 4 a while too 💀😭 UR SWAN LAKE FIC MADE ME COMBUST IN THE BEST WAY I HAVE THAT FEELING IN MY STOMACH WHERE LIKE UR ALL HAPPY AND GIDDY N SHIT hehe it made me lowkey wanna learn sm graceful thing

ugh i love sukuna 2 so much hes so 😝😫😫😫😫 like if he threatened 2 kidnap me and make me his whore or smt like... DONT THREATEN ME WITH A GOOD TIME?!!? i would fall to my knees if i saw him

also also do u think the Vows!Sukuna would bury his [dead] s/o? or would he js eat them 💀 like do u think he'd have a teensy tiny funeral for her with him and the burial of her? or like a pretty big-ish one with most of the servants/uraume? idk it crossedmy mind js now

ur writing is also so good.. i love the way u write sukuna 😫 hes even more hot ngl like a man of the arts!?! sign me tf UPPPPPPPP

wait also also imagine sukuna with a painter s/o!?! AAA THEY [I] WOULD PAINT HIM STUFF OMGGGG <333 THAT'D BE SO CUTE?? like imagine as a gift [like the reverance!s/o that gave him the crochet dollys] they made a painting of them worshipping him? [yk those religious paintings where they paint god what if the s/o painted him like that all god-like and shit FALFNAOGNOL] or painting the garden?? mayb a painting with the blood of his enemies LOL but ghfhhf that'd b so cute [i am a casual painter this was self indulgent bc i would absolutely do all of these things] like mayb they go outside js 2 pain 4 funsies [sukuna may indulge this but he'd get jealous like how when reverance!s/o picked up crocheting LMAO]

this is getting rlly long i luv u bestie [ur my bestie now]

Ahh I noticed all the notifications and omg THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! You left a sweet comment on everything, I'm so grateful for the dedication!! I'll get back to each one I promise 🥺🥺

I'm so happy you liked Swan lake so much!! It's one of my flop fics that ppl don't talk about as much, like I get double the comments for Vows and Reverence still every day, MONTHS after writing them and Swan lake is always kinda forgotten 😭 Which is a shame bc I really put my whole kenjakusbraincumussy into writing it, like I was writing it really intensively for days on end 😭

See I was thinking about how Vows Sukuna would've disposed of reader. I don't think he would eat them just bc at the point when they die there's really not much left to eat of them 😭 Maybe he'd keep one of their bones as a souvenir. Like a little rib of theirs maybe. I'm not sure if he would make a funeral, but if he did it definitely wouldn't have included many people, maybe just the servants that were really close to reader. I think he would cremate them with his fires, that would be a nice personal sendoff.

Sukuna being cultured and a man of the arts is just my favorite thing because it's so subversive. He's a big ass guy who also happens to look like a monster, is known only for his strengths in the battlefield and how funny is it to come into his house and see pretty paintings and statues and his personal little orchestra of musicians and dancers that keep him entertained when he's bored?? How funny is it to imagine him closing a book and being like that one was a banger.

ABOUT THE PAINTING S/O... I draw as a hobby and I absolutely think about this all the time 😭 But I must admit I've thought more about the other way around where Sukuna commissions an artist to paint reader so he can always remember their beauty even when their little human lifetime passes, so their face can always grace the hallways of his mansion and people who walk buy can wonder, who is this pretty person? Why are there so many paintings of them everywhere? AHHH Sukuna 💔💔

[lialox]

Unrelated to anything else, just needed a place to vent outside of my friends in person

but I am really not a fan of people who take advantage of my generosity. The “if I eat, my friends eat too” mentality only goes so far, and some people need to learn that sharing doesn’t mean the entire table exists only for them.

[grapecaseschoices]

Idk if you've been asked this before but what would you like to see more of in IF genre wise and RO wise. Are there any tropes you wish were more prevalent or genres?

i may have? [i think so!] but thoughts change. so it's all good in the hood.

My response to the first one would always be more diversity. More characters of color, more characters of different ethnicities, variety in body types. More characters with disabilities. More short male and nonbinary ROs. More amazonian female and nonbinary ROs.

I've seen some improvement in body types, at least from the recent IFs I've been eyeing, especially when the ROs don't have pictures but more is always great.

As for TYPES:

For IFs:

I'm a historical romance fan, so I would love to see more of those. In general. I don't mean in a magical world [though I will get that to it], but slice of life during the Harlem Jazz Era, murder mystery in Japan in the 1930s, etc. And if you MUST, must, must do it in a European setting [nothing wrong with that, I love a good Regency romance], there is no reason for it to be all white. Or even entirely white. 1- I don't care about historical inaccuracies [half the time people get corsets and medical stuff wrong anyway] 2- if you MUST be accurate, do your research.

Though, I do love fantastical/sci-fi in historical settings. And I don't mean aliens made the pyramids [don't try it]! More like a Victorian era IF making influence of the steampunk genre [which go hand in hand]. Or netflix's taking zombies and putting them in ancient Korea [is it Korea? I don't watch those shows]. Give me elves in the Mayan empire. Or maybe something like where people advanced tech-wise but the social mores are very Regency. "Urban" Fantasy in Imperial China. Werewolves vs Vampires but make them Vikings.

More isekai IFs. Both in how they do it in manga/manhwa but also like a Kid In King Arthur's court, kind of vibe. You're not Alice but you're in Wonderland.

I love the slices of life coming out. Particularly the ones that are inspired by shows. I want more of that! Maybe even films.

I want more witches and werewolves. That is it. Separate. Together. Any era. I want them.

I also want more stories with the Fae. Changelings and hobgoblins and The Hunt. Tam Lin and kelpies and trades. The nightmarish stuff.

More stories about second chances in life, especially for older characters.

Um. I had more thoughts but I've lost them.

ROs.

Second chance! But something like you and your ex got a divorce, but there are kids [hi thicker than!]. Or the one who got away in high school/college [hi dropout!]. I don't want fresh feelings being washed out [though that's nice]. I want scratching at old scabs. I want you thought these feelings were dead but they're back. Or they did die, but now we're different people and -- oh, hello ... again?

Speaking of second chance. I would like more ROs who have pasts. Lost loves. Heartbreaks. Mistakes they've made and they're trying again.

Tired of alpha men. More 'alphas' of other genders.

I want ROs who are messes. And not in the shy, awk introvert~ Who is sometimes klutzy but its cute! I mean someone who thinks they're good with people but is actually a disaster. Characters who are angry. And mourning. And have their own issues that make them imperfect. That also won;t be solved just because MC is there.

This.

This.

Friends to Lovers to Enemies to Friends and then Lovers again.

Enemies to Enemies with Benefits to Grudging Friends to Bickering Lovers.

Older ROs.

MORE FAKE DATING/MARRIAGE PLEASE!

A King and a Lionheart. But make it dark.

And my all time fave: this right here.

[astorichan]

hc: Collector, or Jiji

Jiji recognises those with affinity to magic because those bugs do not call her a charlatan. She's used to being regarded as a fraud by people who don't really understand spellwork and magic.

The jars are Collector's choice because it'd seen nobles and the Love Key bug store their most prized possessions in chests. Since, well, living creatures can't be stored like that because they'd likely suffocate, it adapted by using jars.

[shoshiwrites]

Uncommon Questions for OCs: 1. for Clara, 7. for Frankie, 15. for Jo? please and thank you!

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

Not very long, tbh. She's not as bad as Jo, and she can sit and listen to a radio program, but she's almost always got to be working on something like her knitting or handicrafts. If she's tired from a long day at work though, or sick, then she's much more likely to just rest.

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

Frankie has a complicated relationship with nostalgia, having left home at a young age. I think it evolves as she gets older, and there's more distance. Food is a pretty big one, the dishes she grew up with, and aspects of religion. Her relationship with religion, too, is something that changes over time. It's hard for her to differentiate for many years what makes her feel nostalgic and what makes her feel...claustrophobic, if that makes any sense.

15. How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?

Jo is a thoughtful person, and that translates to how she speaks. I won't say she's hesitant, though, at least when it comes to her work? There's not rehearsing, even if she's been thinking about a particular situation. She's pretty quick on her feet in that way, except in moments of extreme emotional duress (lol) or when she's lying (which we have already established she is terrible at). She has been known to hold back on what she really wants to say (see moments of extreme emotional duress, romantic or otherwise).

[Uncommon questions]

[ofgentleresolve]

Does Patrick ever let the ghost of Felicity guide his actions AS IN does he sometimes regret things, avoid things, pursue things because of how he feels Felicity might have felt about them? What about Myungdae? Does Yoojin ever fear that perhaps he's immortal enough to outlive the world itself, to then be stuck and entirely alone? Are there feelings of inadequacy of any kind that plague Ray and could he vocalise them? Does Lam ever feel like he's stuck, does he feel like he's exactly where he's supposed to be or is he haunted by trauma restlessness, that prompts him to always keep moving, metaphorically or otherwise? How does Mana feel about her hands, about her skin, can she hold herself? Does she feel comfortable or uncomfortable at the notion of offering herself gentleness? Does K feel as though removed from life as others feel it, does his involvement with so many high-stakes, national affairs and people, make him feel as though he's actually playing a part in getting something done or does he fear being a wheel in this kind of machine, because of the life he can't have due to that? Bonus, Hyurick Pain™ (i'm a huge fan~): Has Patrick and/or Myungdae ever feared as though losing Felicity as he did would make him... inadequate (not a good word, BUT I CAN'T FIND WHAT I MEAN), almost, to love Hyuk? Did he ever fear the world might doubt him capable enough of moving on? Does he trust in love?

@mythvoiced LENA THESE QUESTIONS WERE FIRE OH MY GOSH 😲😲😲 ( unprompted. )

Does Patrick ever let the ghost of Felicity guide his actions AS IN does he sometimes regret things, avoid things, pursue things because of how he feels Felicity might have felt about them?

hahaha, you would think that after at least ten years patrick would have moved on from felicity by now bc of the sheer fact of, you know, it’s been ten years and that realistic that is a really long time to be mourning someone :’D if we’re talking about relationship wise or even just in regards to friendships, I wouldn’t say it’s necessarily the ghost of felicity, herself that makes him hesitant to open up to other people, but rather it’s the suddenness and brutality at how she was taken that made him clam up. like, before meeting felicity, patrick was pretty closed off…like of course, hyuk was his bff ( and will always be his bff ) and is one person whom patrick is comfortable with being himself around, but it’s kinda like?? You know, different people will bring out different sides of you?? so in this case, felicity, since she was more on the cheery and outgoing side, being around her really encouraged him to loosen up, ‘let his hair down’ if that makes any sense :’D I would say patrick was his most playful when he was dating felicity.

Which is why when felicity passed, patrick didn’t just go back to the way he had been before meeting, he became much more serious and reserved- like take how reserved and serious he is in main verse, now multiply that by like 10 and you have patrick in the aftermath of felicity’s passing…I even would say he hardly, like really smiled for like, the first year after she was gone ( although it also didn’t help that communication between hyuk and him had been on the sparser side due to a. work and b. patrick really hermitting in response to the grief…

Where was I going with this though?? OH YEAH the brutality of her passing- so let’s just say when you see the body of the love of your life that has been burnt to a crisp, it does…things to your brain. It sticks in a very permanent way and makes him almost…scared to pursue new relationships bc what if something like that happens to whoever else comes into his life?

Which is why I will say that felicity’s passing, although he knows logically she would want him to find and pursue new relationships…the way he lost her makes him hesitant to say, deepen the bonds of friendship with other people since that requires a certain degree of vulnerability that he doesn’t feel comfy with ( hyuk is both an exception and not an exception in that a. patrick was already best friends with hyuk before dating felicity and b. literally ten years. It takes them ten years to actually act on these feelings ).

On the romantic end as well, he has been encouraged by fellow colleagues and friends to perhaps seek new love as he deserves it, however, again, it’s not just that felicity was so special to him and he didn’t ( I’m using past tense here bc of hyuk :’D ) think there was anyone quite up to her calibre and therefore wouldn’t feel that it’s fair to pursue something he only felt half-heartedly about, BUT also it’s that the way she went that again haunts and he instinctually doesn’t feel right about setting her memory aside for his own happiness.

( that and also when the ‘accident’ that killed her was covered up, it also happens that any trace of her was also covered up…and save for one physics teacher in LA, patrick felt like he has a responsibility to keep her memory alive somehow :’(( )

What about Myungdae?

So unlike with patrick, myungdae never quite?? Had the time to process her death ( granted patrick had ten years and in those ten years, peace and quiet and his best friend, while myungdae had half the time and none of those things ) aka he’s still pretty raw about her passing. Whereas he might be able to speak about hyuk briefly to team checkmate, felicity is an off-limits topic; his temper will be triggered if probed on it ( which is also why when naomi starts to appear in seoul, myungdae will be HM- let’s hope he’s reunited with hyuk by that time, otherwise no one’s getting any information about felicity there :// ).

Anyways, my point is that myungdae clings to the small reminders of felicity kinda like the way a child clings to their security blanket….it’s the reason he still carries around the pocket watch she gave him even though analog clocks are his worst nightmares :///  or why, say, he always keeps red hair ties in his desk/pocket or even why he’ll listen to sound of beach waves to soothe himself. for him, felicity is both a painful reminder and a safe space, as he associates her with the life he led five years ago…basically when he felt like a whole person, not an echo of that like shin myungdae and the black knight are D-:

Does Yoojin ever fear that perhaps he's immortal enough to outlive the world itself, to then be stuck and entirely alone?

As he says, he’s ‘been there, done that’. the place where I like to write him is where he’s come to accept that people will come and go, but for every goodbye there’s always going to be a hello- that being said, he finds that there’s no point in fearing the end of humanity ( although he really really would prefer if that didn’t happen ) when there’s still the present to contend with….but if that really does end up being the scenario, he’ll probably try to put a positive spin on it. Aka go befriend the aliens or whatever species end up coming after the humans :D

( although seriously, he really would hope?? That sooner or later his curse would end by that time…not that he’s looking for death necessarily, but rather, he’d like to go to an eternal rest once he is truly alone :’D )

 Are there feelings of inadequacy of any kind that plague Ray and could he vocalise them?

I think it’s definitely living up to his dad’s legacy as his cooking in the past does get compared to roy evans’ cooking and is considered second to that…years of trying to live up with that does give him insecurity about just…being considered a good cook in general? Which is also why he indulges in his demon spawn recipes…bc he already knows it’s gonna taste terrible SO there’s no need to worry about being judged :’D

as for vocalizing them, that’s something he doesn’t feel quite ready to divulge to anyone about yet?? Annnd this is also why I would think that he likes lam so much bc lam?? Well yeah he’s a hot mess and while neither of them have spoken about their histories with one another ( yet ), but lam also is surprisingly quite open about his insecurities and opinions and of course no one likes to be around a grump 24/7 BUT…there’s something comforting to ray about the fact that someone can be so open with their opinions without fear of censure over what other people might say when ray can’t bring himself to be open about the bad parts of himself if that makes any sense :’D

 Does Lam ever feel like he's stuck, does he feel like he's exactly where he's supposed to be or is he haunted by trauma restlessness, that prompts him to always keep moving, metaphorically or otherwise?

Of those three options, I think lam feels stuck more than anything. Although I suppose this might be a common feeling for a lot of people his age ^^’  sans getting screwed over by a friend and feeling guilt over that… in a physical sense, there are times where he feels really heavy and just can’t bring himself to do anything…most of the time that happens after he visits robin and it kinda feels like he can’t get out of his own body since the guilt ( metaphorically ) takes on a physical sensation and paralyzes him….but to go back to feeling stuck, it’s like, he is taking the steps to move forward ( aka with his job and making friends with new people all while figuring out who he is and what he wants out of his relationships ) BUT he also feels like…tethered?? To robin if that makes any sense?? Like, she’s been behind bar for at least two years and in those two years, she hasn’t really…changed aka her sentiments on what has happened, she hasn’t changed her perspective on the situations, those sentiments have only deepened…and so when he visits her it’s almost like unwillingly time traveling to how he was right before the accident….and he really doesn’t want to but also he knows that robin doesn’t have anyone else waiting for her on the other side so…it’s quite the predicament for him here :/

How does Mana feel about her hands, about her skin, can she hold herself? Does she feel comfortable or uncomfortable at the notion of offering herself gentleness?

You know Lena, that’s actually a really good question because most times when I think about gentleness in mana’s case, it’s almost always in the case of how she treats others. THAT BEING SAID, that’s such an accurate observation on your part since a lot of times, I’ve found, people who are harsh with others, typically are pretty harsh with themselves as well…

In the case of mana though, when it comes to her own body, it’s still a process for her to consider her own body as well, a home to live in since for so long, she’s had to see it as purely a means of survival. ( ex. Providing company for mister dinh ). As result of that time, it could be safe to say, even though she was in  a safe environment post high school and could have food to eat always, she lived as if she did before….which means, often skipping meals ( or just straight up not being able to eat well bc of her body reject said foods…) and have irregular sleeping hours. It’s not until daniel’s death though when these issues really started to become an issue for her as inadvertent brought up all of the trauma that she had pushed down from before college ( and this includes witnessing her mother’s death ).

To answer your question though, she has begun to acknowledge it more, aka take attempts to…pamper it if that makes any sense as in the past, she was more inclined not necessarily to hurt it, but more of to ignore it aka treat it as a separate entity that she has no real attachment to from herself. As for providing herself with gentleness, again, that’s also a process she’s learning to get use to although a good number of this coarseness that she was giving herself before was pretty subconscious as it took quite some time to realize that yeah, she blamed herself for both her mother’s and daniel’s passings. And as such, she self-sabotaged majorly in the first year following daniel’s passing….

Does K feel as though removed from life as others feel it, does his involvement with so many high-stakes, national affairs and people, make him feel as though he's actually playing a part in getting something done or does he fear being a wheel in this kind of machine, because of the life he can't have due to that?

I think for right now, at least in k’s main verse, from my understand, K is, as you’ve pointed out, very removed and isolated from life as the others might know it and he does that by choice. Even after he gets his revenge, you can see that he still remains by yo-han’s side and while part of it does come from an undying loyalty to the one person who has been by his side all these years, I also see it as because k has isolated himself all these years to follow yo-han, k feels he doesn’t have anything really to live for?? or at least a purpose…of course, it’s a very dangerous lifestyle and since k has fulfilled his goal, he could technically leave yo-han behind for their own safety. HOWEVER, they don’t and honestly, it makes sense to me bc dying is scary, but what’s scarier than that?

Living.

Bonus, Hyurick Pain™ (i'm a huge fan~): Has Patrick and/or Myungdae ever feared as though losing Felicity as he did would make him… inadequate (not a good word, BUT I CAN'T FIND WHAT I MEAN), almost, to love Hyuk? Did he ever fear the world might doubt him capable enough of moving on? Does he trust in love?

HAHAHAHA so this is where I get to nerd about why I love hyurick soooo much ( shoutout to alex @jeoseungsaja for wonderful ship and being a wonderful ship partner ), thank for this opportunity lena to allow me to indulge in hyurick PAIN :’D JFKLSDJFLK

So, this is actually kind of a question/concern I did have any ship that patrick would have following felicity ( and it was one w/ calum post mana’s passing as well ), which is that because felicity is such an integral part of patrick’s backstory and as a result, he will always love felicity…and unfortunately some muns/muses aren’t exactly…okay with that?? like I’ve had some muns who want their muse to be the ONLY one in my muse’s heart, which just isn’t going to happen :/ ANYWAYS, the point is that I knew that if patrick was to get into a romantic ship, there may be the question of ‘does he love this person because they remind him of felicity’ or ‘does he love this person because they’re filling in the void that felicity left behind’. In both of those cases, I know for a fact that patrick ( and calum for that matter ) would NEVER get into a relationship/ship if that was the case.

But that’s one of the biggest reasons I really?? Love hyurick!! because ( and alex feel free to correct me on ANY of this ) it’s not a competition between hyuk and felicity. Hyuk completely respects the place felicity has in patrick’s life ( and as a matter of fact, they were at the very least acquiantances ), understands that patrick will always love her, and would never try to replace her in patrick’s life. I like to think that when she was alive, she probably made like an unspoken promise with hyuk to ‘protect patrick because he’s too busy taking care of everyone else’. Basically, their mutual point is patrick so if one were to perish ( like felicity did ), the other would be there to take care of patrick.

On patrick’s end, again he would never to use hyuk to replace felicity in his heart because hyuk, first of all, is his platonic love, so they’ve already had a very strong bond hyuk?? understands that :’D basically, what I’m trying to say, is that patrick’s romantic feelings for hyuk developed independently from his grief. i also believe I have told alex that after felicity’s second passing, patrick does actually put breaks on the budding relationship between him and hyuk bc it wouldn’t’?? feel right to pursue this relationship while he’s properly grieving felicity’s death 🥲

BUT BUT!! I actually had this shower thought and honestly, this might explain why patrick knows for a fact that his feelings for hyuk are genuine. This was completely unintentional, but when I was developing felicity, she accidentally mirrored hyuk in that they are (were) both lively hotheads who also happened to really like the beach. and with her backstory now set in stone, they both have rough histories when it comes to families. It just might not seem that way initially because by the time felicity met patrick, she had softened a fair bit so some of that temper mellowed more into cheerfulness.

With this in mind, I actually argue that not only does patrick’s relationship with felicity inform how he approaches his romantic relationship with hyuk, but patrick’s friendship with hyuk also informed how he approached his romance with felicity. He was friends with hyuk first and knowing what kind of background hyuk had come from, it allowed him to also approach felicity in the way that would make her feel comfortable once he got the full picture. To summarize, basically he wouldn’t be the person is with either felicity or hyuk if he didn’t have a relationship with the other person :’D

Now for myungdae though- yowza, uh so what happened with felicity is more or less one of the reasons he avoids hyuk like the plague. Because it is partially because he doesn’t want ANACHRON to hurt hyuk the way they did with felicity, however it is also due to an internalized belief that he ultimately ends up hurting the people he cares about inadvertently ( considering that in those five years, there were individuals who did help him and then were killed and/or tortured because they did so ). At this point, moving on isn’t a thought for him because to begin with, he’s not even sure if he’s going to make it out in one point to have the chance to move on :///

[m-siecle]

Lan Qiren: why not date him?

Why not indeed.

The moustache. It's too soft and flowing and might make me giggle. And giggling is prohibited in cloud recess 😌

[carebearbussy]

ᥫ᭡ thinking about heian era! sukuna having a heavy breeding kink, seemingly out of nowhere.

you bring up a mere idea at dinner, the conversation quickly turning normal, to you bringing up an idea he had never given a second thought to.

"do you ever want kids with me, 'kuna?"

you would ask him, innocently enough, a sickeningly sweet tone hidden beneath your words. but you would already know the answer to this question. he would look up at you, then back down at his food, annoyance pondering his mind. eating a slab of salmon sashimi, he took a bite, chewing slow enough to hint at his potential answer. placing down his chopsticks, he would look back up at you, scoffing to himself at your foolish inquiry.

"those small, annoying humans that require too much attention for their own good? no thank you, i have better things to attend to."

he says, focusing on the meal before him. but his thoughts soon get the best of him. and now that he thinks about it, he will need an heir eventually. and not only that, but what would you be like? as a mother specifically. you would require more attention than most of the time. which was something he secretly enjoyed indulging in, despite his negative reasoning towards infants. how would you look?

you would be more swollen than usual, you stomach would grow larger by day, your breasts will most definitely become more full by the day. the bigger picture, which was you, enticed him in a way. something about seeing you round with his child really had his head going.

and so thats how you ended up here, you knees tightly locked against your stomach, as sukuna absolutely plows into your already stuffed cunt.

this was the seventh time? eighth time? at this point, you couldn't keep track. but he had came wayyyy too many times more than an average man should be able to. it was excruciating, really, the whimpers leaving your mouth, his hands bringing your knees closer to your chest with every move of his hips.

his seed was leaking out of you, glop by glop, dripping down your bottom even more, as he kept going harder and rougher. splashes of your juices paired with his cum stained the bed, the squelching of your pussy becoming deafening with every smack of his heavy balls against the rim of your ass. and the tight grip he had on your locks wasn't helping his case.

"hah, you're gonna give your king his offspring? yeah? r' you gonna be a good little mother f'me? make me an heir?"

he asks, your head barely able to focus on anything other than trying to stay sane. you felt sooo full, but this apparently wasn't enough for sukuna, or his heavy urges to breed your sloppy cunt. you nod eagerly, not wanting him to go any harder than he already has. but with the way he kept abusing your womb, it seemed like you were enjoying it, as sukuna relishes in your facial expression, your eyes rolling back, your mouth hung open wide enough to stuff two of his free fingers in.

"you'd be such a good mother, so obedient too. you wanted to rile me up, didn't you? i'll give you what you want, woman."

moaning into his fingers, you swirl your tongue around his digits, making him hum contently. you try to focus your vision onto his eyes, but the way he pushed his chest further into yours, had you practically cross eyed. hitting a new angle, you felt yourself completely let go, officially adding onto your list of orgasms you had previously had that night.

he released his fingers from your mouth, a coat of your saliva stringing upon release. he ceases to pull out of you, instead letting himself nuzzle nicely into your warmth, releasing yet again inside of you, earning a whine of complaint on your behalf. he playfully slaps your cheek with his wet hand, trailing it down to your pussy, playing in the ring of his semen around his cock. you squirm slightly, as you watch him then bring his cum coated fingers up to your mouth, pushing them back inside your mouth, making you taste his seed, some of his cum pooling around your lips.

"does that taste good? i bet it does, since you seem to love my seed so much. i cant wait to see you so full, besides from right now, of course."

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I can’t wait until I’m in like my 70s or something and fully don’t give a shit. I mean I’m already getting there now but I feel like I could give even less shits tbh