#the negatives do be outweighing the positives ; and tbh

[filmnoirsbian]

[shzmluvrs]

very very specific request but 2019 freddy x clown collector reader? like reader collects clown dolls and all that kinda jazz and just how freddy would feel about that

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For some reason, as I go through dark times, this triggered such motivation and inspiration within me, so I thank you deeply🥲🫵🏽🫶🏽.

Also, I'm gonna name you bc I can pretty much guess you have a thing for specifically 2019 Freddy and that's pretty unique about you, so your name is 2019 (unless you have something more creative in mind lmao-).

~ Star✨️

Circus Baby

Prompt: The weird and overly fan-obsessed didn't particularly have a place at Fawcett Central. But, there they were, anyway, to be gawked and mocked at by the relatively common and "normal" student body. And while yes, Freddy was a prime suspect in the 'overly obsessive' category, he had to admit you definitely took the cake for the 'weird' department. In a good way to him, of course. Besides, who else is he gonna jokingly refer to as a wanna-be Gotham villain?

Timeline: Post Shazam! Pre S!:FOTG

TW/Content: Clowns (if they scare you, you not gonna like this at all, I'm sorry😭)⚡️Cursing⚡️Mentions of insecurity/anxiety and whatever relating⚡️Me being a little unhinged about this subject (for some reason-)⚡️Cringe? A little. But get over it tbh...

Reader: Fem! She/Her/Hers Pronouns! Clowncore Aesthetic/Style!

Requested By: Anon (2019?)

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I know you said clown collector, but because I'm literally insane, I wanna take this a step further...

Reader who is just full steam ahead into the clown-lifestyle😻🤡!!

Surely, it all started at a young age with your odd habit of collecting any bit of clown-related memorabilia you could get your grubby little hands on. But it soon escalated (and I'm betting startling your parents💀) into you basically being a clown.

Well, not literally.

I mean, you entertained the idea that you were decently humorous, and the occasional animal balloon tricks were attempted, but besides that, you managed to take something known for its silly (sometimes scary) wackadoo nature, and made it ✨️girlboss✨️.

And it helped that you didn't exactly shy easy, so you were proudly showing up places in your colorful, rainbow, clown-esque outfits...

Unless, of course, you happen to have a specific and favorable color, to which then it was your clown-esque wear themed specially in that color.

And your creative makeup that managed to be both cute and clown. Clute, if you will. Or maybe Cu-own...? Uh...😬...

And you could never forget about your hair. Unless you're a huge fan of styling and coloring your actual hair in cool, funky colors and ways, wigs were your best friend...

"Places" included school, for the most part, and you had thankfully become desensitized to the rude and teasing stares and the unprompted comments and whatnot... And at some point, so did the rest of the student body and staff, because it was clear no matter what they said, you weren't gonna tone down yourself for them.

Plus, it was fun! You felt as though the positive outweighed the negatives, thoroughly enjoying the bright-eyed and excited looks on younger grade's faces when they saw you occasionally pass through their section of the building, or when you'd actually receive compliments on your makeup from some of your peers. Plus, you were routinely asked to do other people's theater makeup, so-...

You got to try out new looks, new styles, new whatever every day without a care in the world!

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It was something Freddy found himself admiring about you from afar. It's not like you were exactly hard to miss, but it didn't change the fact that every seventh period, he'd wake himself up from an exhausting school day in complete, full anticipation for your arrival. He adored your outfits, your makeup, your hair, and once the day came when he'd finally gain the courage to speak to you, he'd hopefully adore you as whole, too.

That day came when you two were assigned to be partners for an upcoming project. A bittersweet emotion ran through his chest. Wasn't this what he wanted? The perfect excuse, chance, opportunity to get to know you? He was so nervous, he broke out into a cold sweat. Hands growing shaky and clammy, watching as you approached through the gaggle of other students shuffling around to get to their partners. And once finally sat, he stared, completely tuning out the teacher's next set of instructions.

At first, he couldn't bring himself to speak. For what seemed like the first time in a long while, Freddy Freeman was speechless. In complete awe by your presence (and ecstatic you hadn't grimaced or groaned when he was announced to be your partner), he admired every single detail of your purposefully paled face, the random little specs of glitter, elongated eye and mouth features thanks to eyeliner, and the outfit was definitely another one for the books.

At first, this boy's intense stare up and down your figure made you hope he wasn't actually the weirdo he was coming off as. Granted, you...did look like a clown, but once the stare surpassed the entire rant the teacher had gone on and then some minutes afterwards, you felt it necessary to speak up.

"Um... So, do you know how you wanna go about the project? Or...?"

"Sorry for- Oh my god, I-...Sorry for staring, that was probably really creepy for you and that's, like, the opposite of what I wanna do here-. I just think that this, whatever this is, this whole..." He used a big hand gesture to reference your ensemble. "...Is the coolest ever and I'm literally blown away."

"?!?😃 Oh my god, thank you 😃?!?"

And that was all it took before the two of you were hyperactively conversing back and forth on, not even just style choices, but on any and everything else that came to mind. It was like a force had been sparked between you two, the fire unable to be put out, let alone dimmed. It led to the start of an immediate and solidified friendship. Which, of course blossomed into something more. But I wanna focus on more of the "firsts" for now.

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Aka, The first time you had entered his home and met his family, which was the same day y'all met. He hadn't prepped you or anything, simply guaranteeing that they were bound to love your company and to pay no mind to any comments they might make. And while sure, you were pretty much used to having that mindset already, for some reason, this time made you nervous. Nervous like the very first time you had truly discovered you even liked this style and wanted to go out in public dressed as such, nervous. It had you adjusting your pins, clothing, and other accessories the entire walk there, and you swore that you had probably stress-sweat all of your hard-work makeup away.

To keep this short and sweet, every interaction was... unique, to say the least. First, there was a tall brunette sporting prep-wear, waltzing around the house with her phone pressed against her ear and determination in her voice to ace this interview for a nearby community college. But upon seeing you, stopped dead in her tracks and (much like Freddy) s t a r e d.

"That's Mary." "Your sister?" "Yes, out of two." "She's pretty."

"Freddy, why is there a clown in our home? Darla's birthday isn't for another four months."

Ngl, that stung you a little, but nothing you haven't heard (or expected to hear) before...

"Wh- No, shut up, that's not- She's a friend from school, we have a project together. This is just what she looks like, this is how she looks." "...Oh :). Well, you're gonna have to teach me how you have such a smooth base, because my products could never. Anyways, talk later, interview..." And with a shy point to her phone, she left you with a grin that you returned, growing flattered at the compliment on your makeup.

Then there was a boy, about shoulder height with glasses, who barely gave half of a glance in your direction. It's not that he didn't see you at all. He just... didn't care. Clearly, too focused on the TV screen that he stood basically directly in front of. "Optimal gaming stance, he claims..." Freddy informed, swiftly pulling you along before you could become engrossed in the Mortal Kombat fight yourself.

You were lead to the kitchen, Freddy rummaging through the pantry and fridge on the hunt for proper sustenance while you worked together. It was there, you were met with his mother, who gave a very "mom-happy" yet clearly confused smile. "Hi...!" She greeted suddenly, which urged you to awkwardly strike out your hand for her to shake. If you knew you were gonna be literally seeing his entire family same day, you would've toned down a little bit, at least. Just to let them get used to it all... but alas...

"Hi, I'm (Y/N). I'm just here to work on a project with Freddy." "Oh, I see! A theater project."

"Nah, science." Freddy corrected with a tone of casualty, kicking the fride door closed with the stub of his crutch, his other hand/arm supporting the weight of all of his gathered snacks and drinks.

"Oh." Rosa smiled again, still innocently confused. And before you could try to explain, Freddy was already insistent on the hurry to his room. It's okay, though, because once Rosa realized what you wore was just a creative, style choice a while later, she found it just that. Creative. And totally supported and compared it to alternative styles she'd seen back in her high school days, bless her heart🥰😭.

On the way towards/up the stairs was where you encountered what you had to assume was Freddy's father and older brother, who breezed past the two of you at first, but then did quick double-takes. "Ohooh, you look sick! What is this, like a statement, or...?" You received an immediate compliment from Victor, a chuckle leaving your throat along with a shrug of your shoulders.

"Something like that, I guess." And then Pedro, who did a scan up and down your figure much like Freddy had in class, before giving a satisfactory nod.

"Cool." "Thank you :')."

Walking down the hallway en route to Freddy's room, there was one more escapade that involved your purse accidentally falling open and your makeup going everywhere. It was the glittery stuff, too, so not only was it an expensive loss, but it was now going to be permanently marked onto the hardwood floor (yes, you felt beyond terrible, but it doesn't really matter bc a. There's already stains and glitter and whatnot everywhere in that house that are permanent, Rosa and Victor have given up on them, you can't convince me otherwise. And b. They ended up renovating by the second movie anyway, so it's fine😭).

It didn't stop you from desperately trying to scoop it all up, anyways, though (cuz I would, too, ngl-). Freddy informed that he'd go to his room to set the food down and would be back to help you, which was fine, but it left you in his hallway desperately scrambling at loose makeup like a weirdo. But clearly, that isn't what Darla saw when she poked her itty bitty head out of her room at the commotion. In her eyes, you were a mystical, magical being that harbored one of her favorite things in the whole world (glitter, duh), and she squealed so l o u d-

It scared you at first, especially when she came barreling towards you and almost managed to tackle you in an unexpected but returned hug. Rambling on and on about what a honor it was to meet you, "...whatever you are...!" She added, which pulled a giggle from your lips, and how excited she was and how she had so much to show you and-

"Oh my god, D, why..." Freddy sighed, having left for what was barely even a minute or so and had come back to find his youngest sister perched in your lap and talking your ear off. He should be doing that! Well, I guess minus the sitting in your lap part.

Unless you're into that🥴.

Idk. Anyways-

"DID YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS, DID YOU KNOW SHE WAS HERE?!" "😐Yes, I did. I brought her here. She's my friend and we're BUSY, so you need to go back to your ROOM, and mind your BUISNESS, please."

It took a lot more convincing, but after promising you'd converse with Darla another time (without Freddy💀-), she did as told and you two had finally entered his room. You found yourself quiet impressed with his superhero memorabilia, something about it reminding you of your own "little" collection back home. Maybe the obsessiveness of it all, or simply just how much of it there was. But you didn't have the pleasure of questioning, because-

"What the hell...?" "Dude, don't start-" "-I wasn't gonna say anything." "You literally were, I can tell by that dumb look on your face." "Freddy, I guarantee you, I'm not the dumb looking one in this room. And don't get me wrong, it isn't her either..." "Harhar, you're so funny. Why don't you leave and go do stand up comedy? I think you in particular would make an excellent CLOWN, don't you think, (Y/N)?"

"I... uhm...uh... ;-;." You weren't expecting a fifth sibling, that's for sure. His family was clearly very diverse. And at first, you couldn't quite tell if he was getting ready to bully you or not, seeing as Freddy was very quick with his wit in order to defend you. You wouldn't doubt it. Billy seemed to suffer from a bad case of RBFS.

Resting Bitch Face Syndrome.

"Ignore him." Freddy advised, whipping open his laptop while Billy scoffed.

"I'm right here, y'know. This is my room, too, you guys can't just-" "Okay, fine, then ignore him harder."

You giggled. It was grounds for Billy to address you separately/on his own.

"I like your outfit. It just...caught me off guard." You smiled, giving a nod of understanding. "Thanks, I get that a lot."

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The first time Freddy visited your house was months after the initial meeting. Not for any particular reason, there just hadn't been any real excuse until now...

"My parent(s) have been dying to meet you, like, I swear, if they keep pestering me about it, I was going to actually go insane. On some Joker type shit."

Freddy laughed at your last remark, but as we all know, the boy is quick-witted and smart-mouthed, so it was always easy for him to launch off of literally anything you say with a teasing remark that... sometimes you swore was him actually flirting. But, you couldn't be too sure. You didn't wanna ruin a good thing.

(You say as you literally bring him home to your parent/guardian(s) as if that's not the literal thing you do when-...nvm).

"Oh, so you've been gassing me up, huh~? Cute, cute... D'you tell them how much I adore you? Wouldn't want them thinking I'm neglecting you or anything." "Stop it." You giggled, nudging at his shoulder before pulling out your house key.

Freddy didn't exactly know what he expected upon entering your household. He supposed it'd reflect yourself. Colorful and creative, lots of little knick-knacks and trinkets, endless amounts of stuff to fill any empty space... At the very, very, fantasy like most, your house would be some foreign cottage in the woods that resembled a lot like the witche's candy house from the Hansel & Gretel tale (before it rotted, ofc).

So naturally, he was a little thrown off to find it was his very least thoughts that had come to play, the house almost gray compared to you. White walls, furniture organized hyper-symmetrically, every last item in its very clear-cut place. Not a spec of dust or dirt, not a thing out of place... and quiet. Almost eerily so. Well, maybe not. It could just be the fact that he wasn't used to seeing and hearing a house as such, given his living situation (loud family, messy-homey-actually looks lived in house...). But regardless-

"...I'm home!!" The call out to your parent(s) startled him for a moment, and though you did receive an answer back that sounded like it came from a room close by, it was almost like it echoed against the silence. Freddy shook it off. You didn't judge anyone or anything when you had first come over to his place, so he wouldn't do the same. If anything, they were just loose observations he couldn't help but make/notice.

But anyways- You lead him into your kitchen and there, he met your parent(s), who was quick to make a comment on how surprisingly "normal" he appeared to be. And usually, something like that might sting a little (for you, because like, uh, rude?? But dw, they meant it in a teasing/jokey way). But to Freddy? Normal? That meant the world, seeing as usually, most people couldn't see past his crutch, should they choose to see him at all. But he supposed the apple didn't fall far from the tree in the "non-judgemental" department. You must've got it from them.

That went relatively well, but here came the part you were always nervous about when inviting guests into your room...

"Woah..." The same way he was captivated by you was the same way he felt about your room. It was the splash of color amongst your house. Figures, all of what he'd expected of the whole/entire house would be crammed off into your one room, I mean, duh, where else would it be? It was littered with posters and trinkets and stuffed animals, clothes lying around that you scrambled to pick up and shove into your closet out of sheer embrassment. Even the walls were painted the color(s) of your choosing/liking, and my god, did you have so many different shelves full of things he wanted to mess with. He wouldn't, for now, waiting for the right time to ask permission before touching anything.

And then...he saw it. The corner of your room dedicated to that one specific, niche little thing you loved so much and based your entire personal being around...

The clown corner🤡.

"Oh...my god..."

You quickly spoke up before he could say anything more, the initial shock of your odd clown figurines, dolls, books, whatever the fuck else could possibly be clown-themed/related collection being enough for you to just assume the worst of thoughts he may have. "I know, it's weird. I mean, weirder than normal weird. But-" "I love you." He had whipped his head towards you just as fast as the confession left his person, a lazy smile etched into his features while you grinned almost manically because like, huh??

"...Excuse me😃?"

He shook the expression away, shaping himself back to normal as fast as possible at your reaction.

"No-! I don't. I mean, I do! Like, I meant it like, I love how you're like me, with the whole, "corner of the room being dedicated to this thing," thing. Superheroes are my thing, clowns are yours... obviously, and I love that. I love that you're me and I'm you and we're basically one."

"Freddy-..." You sighed, only able to laugh to yourself and at his rambling before gently pulling him closer to one of the shelves by the hand. "Look at this..." You encouraged, watching him lean closer to inspect some of the figurines and newspapers and other lose things in one specific place on the shelf.

"Oh my shit, that's Harley Quinn...!!" He gushed while you nodded proudly.

"My idol." You added, Freddy turning to you as you explained. "I know people consider her a villain, or whatever. Or that's she's crazy. But, I don't understand how that could be possible when the woman literally has a PhD and was an entire psychiatrist before she met Joker. Not to mention, the only reason she did half of the crazy shit she did was 'cause of that cunt-wad, so when I heard she finally emancipated herself from him, you have to understand... I literally love her."

Freddy didn't know how else to respond. Here he was, in your room, being one of your closest best friends, you talking to him (willingly, might I add, because even after all this time, he still can't even fathom how and why you genuinely love spending time with him and being his friend even though you remind the poor boy 24/7😭), and rambling to him about his favorite subject no less! And how it relates to your favorite subject! A combination of niche interests!! He-!

"I'm going to kiss you on the lips, (Y/N)." "Pfft-!" You snorted, the second confession catching you off guard in a flurry of amusement and surprise once again. But this time, he didn't have any excuses to back the claim up. Like, surely, he could easily pass that off as a joke or an intense way to say something along the lines of, "You don't know how much this topic interests me, especially coming from you, and it's making me so excited and happy and I want to talk/hear more."

But at the same time...

"What, like, actually?"

So now, you've presented Freddy with the option to mean it. For real. Which, like...

"I- Uh, like, only if you'd let me or you did it first or something." He laughed boisterously. "I wouldn't just do it without asking, that'd be craz-"

's m o o c h !'

You giggled. You had left some of that white and red behind on his lips.

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Okay, beyond this point is just some random other stuff I thought of...

DOING THE MAKEUP!!! Omg the way this boy BEGS you do his face the way you do yours, and girl, lemme tell you, you pop off...! You turned him into the clown-boy of your dreams, call that a Laughing Jack makeover/cosplay.

...*coughs*...ignore that, I had a phase, don't judge me.

Anyways, seriously, I think Freddy would rock the clowncore look so well, especially if you take advantage of his freckles and make them all individually a different color against white/pale foundation.

I also think he teases/flatters you by randomly gifting you trinkets he finds to add to your collection. So dolls he finds in thrift stores, or figurines he saw at a random strip mall shop, things like that.

Hella Harley Quinn discussions ensue, y'all love her.

Kissing him or him kissing you anywhere on the face is always funny because the white/pale foundation will transfer and it's the cutest thing. Or when you hug him and he's wearing super dark or super light clothing so your makeup is just smeared across his shirt and he's looking at you like, "😐" and you're looking at him like, "😕my fault bro🙂."

He also likes to steal some of the dolls/stuffies you might have, so if a clown is missing, you know that he probably has it. Y'all be treating them like your lil' babies, naming them and all😭. He sends you blurry, chaotic, cutsey type pictures of them and it'll have a corny ass caption like, "Jester won't lay down for his nap, I think you might need to come over and cuddle for a bit or something" yk💀.

Him stealing your wigs, too. And just literally any loose/baggy clothes of yours that will fit him. But it's okay bc you do the same with his when you're dressed down for once. He actually is so used to you all clowned up that when you're bare face and in one of his sweaters and shorts, you look like this cute little random girl to him.

"Who are you and what have you done with (Y/N)😧🫵🏻🙊?!" "Dawg😐..."

Ngl he hates sleeping in your room at night. He loves you and all of your quirks, of course. And don't get me wrong, he loves y'all children (the clown dolls n stuff)...but look man, they a lil' scary at night, just staring down at him from the shelves and shit and it freaks him out more than he wants to admit. You have a night light just for him when he stays over, though (it's a jumbo ladybug pillow pet you've had since you were like, eight, but the shit is so bright, it'd be a waste to just throw it out. Plus, it now helps Freddy sleep at night so win-win).

On that topic, bro has been jumpscared so many times bc you play too much and like to place your life-sized dolls around the house. He'll be thinking someone broke in and will be on the b r i n k of saying "Shazam!!" out of total fear before he realizes it's you just fucking with him. And is mad he can't do it back bc you're too used to seeing them💀.

Nicknames!!! Lord, this boy has some many! Just to name a few, "Circus Baby" "Harley" "Funny" As in he'll use it the same way one uses "Pretty". "Hey, Funny, you feelin' okay? Yeah? Okay, good." Also, "The fourth Flying Grayson" which you find pretty distasteful🥴.

If you post on social media, he spam likes and comments on all your post, especially if you make TikToks. He doesn't care what content it is, either. It could be you just talking about your stuff, it could be you posting little scenarios, it could be you showing your makeup routine, you could be making cringey ass thirst-traps for all he cares. You're posting and showing off your style? He's giving you all of his support and love shamelessly. He always does and will💙.

This was long but that's okay, that's just what I do lol😆.

Sorry again for my long hiatus, y'all. I do be struggling in this economy😔✊🏽. I hope anyone who sees this is doing well, Moon and I love y'all's support so much, it makes our day🫶🏽!

~ Star✨️

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[sookayheresthething]

a comprehensive list of what numbers are good, from 1 to 100

good; it's One.

good; it's Two.

good; it's Three. heads up, basically all the single-digit numbers are valid, for similar obvious reasons

good

very good

good

good

good

good

fantastic. exceptional, even

not ideal. should be either 12 or 10. smacks of indecision. also prime, which is bad

almost as good as 10

hmm. I'm not superstitious but a lot of people don't like this one. avoid it so you don't make people uncomfortable

it's okay but it's overshadowed by 15. also has bad connotations

fantastic. almost as good as 12

A+. no notes

bad

meh?

bad. be 20

very good

not a fan of this one but I accept criticism

positives: multiple of 11. nice symmetry. negatives: overall mediocre in tone. too close to 23, which is bad. final score: ehh

bad

all the coolness of being double 12 is far outweighed by being overshadowed by 25. I guess it's hours in a day, which is alright

sexiest number on this list by far

not good. number of letters? try again loser

it's 3 cubed which is cool I guess? meh. skip it

bad, unless you're doing months

bad

good! very good. not as good as 20 but better than 40

meh

32 my beloved. how do I count the ways. me and 32 frolic in the meadows with flowers in our hair and the shimmer of laughter in our breath

much better than 22 but idk if I'd call it "good"

the first real pervert number. shame

pretty good

damn, that's a lot of nines! 36 keeps showing up where I least expect it. pretty cool I guess

bad but a little hot. naughty even

bad

bad

not as good as 30 but it's okay. try for 50 if you can

bad

the answer to life, the universe, and everything. overplayed. gauche

really really bad. really bad. bad. really really bad

about the same as 33 tbh

good! great, even. very kind number

meh

boldly going where no man has gone before. kiss me, 47

it's the same as 45 but a little sexier and no I won't explain. iykyk

honestly not sure I've ever seen this one before. when did we get this one? have we always had this one? huh.

fantastic. great. marvellous. solid number. you could moor your goddamn ship to this number. wise and strong. so good that it completely overshadows everything in its decade (see the following)

shit

what?

bad

bad

pretty good

bad

bad

bad

really bad

not great but alright. maybe a little better than 40

meh?

this one strikes me as pretty cool for some reason. I don't vibe with it but I'm happy to sit back and watch it do whatever it does

oh. huh. hmm. I'm not sure about this one. it's a little scary

dude, FUCK yeah. after me and 32 frolic in the meadows we sit down for tea with 64 and comb each other's hair in the shade of a great oak tree

less than ideal but it's doing its best. honestly rating 65 immediately after 64 feels unfair.

slap another 6 on this bad boy and you get an S-tier number. as it is, feels a little rushed and incomplete

everyone's favourite two-thirds approximation! functional if clunky

bad

nice. second real pervert number. shame

COMICALLY overshadowed by 69

no thanks <3

pretty good

bad

I feel an odd dark kinship with this number..... it worries me

good number. fantastic. not as sexy as 25 and not as sturdy as 50 but is still wise, strong, and kind. I'd trust an impressionable child to be raised by this number

it's okay but it's no 75

wow! 77!

honestly undecided about this one

bad

good! I like 80. has a nice shape to it. it's round in both texture and personality

bad

baaad? kinda??

very very bad

dude, stop trying to be 64

it's pretty good if you can't get 80

isn't this a food service number? I don't like that

hmmm. this one raises some good questions

this is the nazi number. FUCK this number.

reminds me of 88. fuck it

pretty solid number! about the same as 80 but might be a little better or worse depending on context

bad

bad

bad

meh

this one's kinda sexy ngl 👀 95 got me acting unwise

I'd rather not thanks

ooooOOOooh I like this one

dude this one is GREAT

99 is a beautiful number and I love it, it's musical and enchanting and a little sensual

I have extremely complicated feelings about 100, but overall, I'm leaning towards "very good, but lacks variety"

[humankin-positivity]

not a requuest juust saying UUR AWESOME!! more huumannkinn positivity nneeded here tbh!!

-@crypticawoo

oh wow! thanks! im doing my best over here, just me against like um. two cringe blogs i guess. the support really has outweighed the negativity mostly! :B

[ca-3]

what are your thoughts and feelings about p5?? what did you like/dislike??

I tried answering this ask multiple times because I was planning to write a whole essay, but it was starting to sound like a very negative review because of how i started bitching about some moments in the writing and was outweighing the positives oops

But yeah, aside from some writing issues, character moments that I disliked, tone-deaf narrative at times, and some contradictions... those are the only flaws I can think of!! Like there isn't even that many really and the few moments that pissed me off, REALLY pissed me off. So that's why I felt so strongly and it all sounded so negative. I had a few issues with the dating aspect of the game too (and yes more issues aside from the fact you can't be gay/bisexual) Those are the only issues I had tho!!

The gameplay and game itself is so fun and satisfying and the art direction is so stylish, I love it!!! ❤️ even addicting at times! Usually I start to get tired of games that have combat that forces you to fight almost everything you come across cause then i need a break from it for a while.

But I love how the social links/real world parts are intertwined with the combat too and basically being friends with people literally makes your life easier lol, wow who would have guessed! I love being able to walk around and explore so many places in the game it's beautiful tbh. I really like a lot of the characters for unique reasons too and was excited for what happened next the whole time! Also one of the few times I can say a game is definitely worth the $60 haha like I've never played a game like this before or any other persona games but there was so much more than what I was expecting so that was delightful to me. I was almost overwhelmed by how much you do could in P5R!! Also I'm soooo obsessed with the games music wow wow wow ✨️✨️✨️ took me almost 4 months to finish the game, but I was SEATED for sure lol

Anyways that the condensed version of my review now 🤣 I'm super late to this ask, but I honestly could go on about a lot things!! I can totally see this as one of the games I will replay when I have the time/urge to do so!

[aceofshitposts]

hi I’m too nervous to ask this without anon on so here it goes: I was wondering if your fanfics you’ve posted have affected your ability to get a job or get into a college, etc? such as when they to background checks and see that romance stories are associated with you. I’d like to start posting some fics and possibly some more spicy ones, but I’m afraid that if I do it will mess up my chances at the career I’m pursuing. thoughts/knowledge?? I really appreciate this, thank you! 💓

Oh, dear sweet anon. I can tell you with a good amount of confidence that people who are not terminally online in fandom circles generally don't care. Most people don't even, for example, even know there were multiple Robins let alone this whole bat family thing.

But to answer your question, no it hasn't affected my ability to get a job or go to school because I've worked the same job for the past nine years and nine years ago I didn't have any fanfiction posted lol I did have some semi spicy cosplay photos on my FB page but I don't think my boss ever looked me up beyond our interview.

But here's a secret anon, you don't have to post under your real name. You don't have to be findable. That FB page I mentioned was always posted under an incorrect spelling of my name specifically so I couldn't be looked up unless I gave it to you and that wasn't because I was worried about potential fandom drama that was just a healthy amount of internet paranoia lol

Shipping jaytim has affected nothing except the occasional nasty internet comment which I'm more than well adjusted enough to handle. I know I'm not doing anything wrong and anyone who feels the need to comment nasty things to a stranger has their own problems and they're trying to enact control over something they feel is an easy target.

Overall the jaytim community has been one of the nicest communities I've been a part of so I really think the positives outweigh the negatives. But like, I'm sure you know but, there will always be someone who hates your stuff no matter what it is. I've gotten shit over batquinn, stony, sterek, peter/gwen etc there's always gonna be someone who lashes out.

Anyway. Honestly i don't know what kind of searching employers or schools might do nowadays, my info is over ten years out of date, but making yourself hard to find with a pseudonym is never a bad idea. But also remember most people aren't terminally online and probably won't even know the context if they're not already deeply entrenched in batman (or whatever) trivia lol

Also, tbh, if someone has a problem with you enjoying or writing romance genre I wouldn't want to work for them anyway. (I also wouldn't want to work for someone who goes snooping into my personal life that doesn't affect my work but. We sure do live in a society :T)

[freakystrashdump]

If you had to choose to live the life of one SI, which one would you choose?

Well not Salem, since being her means I'd be dead. And in hell. However, one thing I envy is that she lives out every single part of me I'm afraid to.

Selena sounds great! I mean, being a bakery owner of a self-running bakery, from a rich, bougie family and a also powerful witch? Yeah yeah, dealing with a homicidal witch hunter general sucks, but still...the positives do outweigh the negatives.

Tbh, out of all the F/O's I got and their worlds, living in Gargoyles New York and working for Xanatos sounds like the perfect life. Cool evil genius boss, good pay, weird love triangle with a fae and the fae's humansona, lots of weird magic, talk about living the dream baby.

[yurissweettooth]

Leaving Twitter was the best decision I ever made. Being constantly bombarded with tragedy after tragedy that I could do absolutely nothing about made me so cynical and hopeless and made my agoraphobia so much more crippling and I didn't even realize the full extent of it until I left.

I will no longer succumb to the idea that I need to be informed about everything all the time. To maintain the bare minimum of sanity and functionality I need to be uniformed about most things most of the time and trust that if there's a news event or policy change that affects me or that I can somehow help with (petitions, supporting my loved ones who are affected, etc.) the people around me will tell me (they do).

Not to mention how competitive it feels for people creating things and how distant the fandom had felt (to me) vs the more meaningful interactions I've had here.

And let's not forget how vitriolic a lot of people on there are and how those are the types of posts that get bumped up by the algorithm.

Literally one of the worst websites. After logging off for good in February I am starting to feel like a human being again and not a quivering, anxious pile of mush. It feels like there are good people and good things in the world again which is, unfortunately, a feeling I was starting to forget.

Idk, if you're on there (or any social media tbh, even this one) definitely evaluate how it's making you feel, what you're actually getting out of it, and if the positive returns you're getting outweigh any negative drawbacks.

I'm certainly not one of those "screen bad, go outside!" types because, due to the nature of my disabilities, I pretty much live exclusively in my room and most of my hobbies are digital (writing/drawing, video games, etc.) and indoor/digital hobbies are just as valid as outdoor ones! But if social media is making you feel bad you definitely need to put your phone down for a bit, log out for a while, or log off forever.

[alatismeni-theitsa]

https://greekreporter.com/2022/07/14/russell-crowe-fought-to-add-greek-accent-as-zeus-in-thor/

The most interesting part is this one:

Waititi said he realized in post-production, “it’s actually more offensive to the Greeks to have Zeus sound like he’s British. And test audiences loved the Greek accent. I’m really happy with it.”

Key word: "More offensive"

So, wait, he knows it is "somewhat" offensive, either way, and yet draws the line at the British accent which he was so into in the beginning.

Why not just get a Greek actor? So that at least one part of his movie is not offensive (let's be honest, the entire thing is too much).

Also:

Greek audiences have yet to weigh in on whether they find Crowe, a New Zealander who has lived most his life in Australia, offensive in fashioning a Greek accent onto the most powerful of Greek gods.

It keeps getting better and better. . .

I got one more ask about that but I didn't answer it yet because I hadn't seen the whole movie, just a scene with Zeus. But this article did it for me xD

I realized that in the movie many elements from the comics were ridiculed including Zeus powers and demeanor (he is mightier and more serious in the comics, imagine!). I don't think Waititi was the man to direct this, I am sorry. Yes he could get a Greek. He knows how to find us and how to recognize culture (for one, his work "what we do in the shadows" is famous for this. He has a Greek Cypriot there and lets her do her thing).

Now, okay, the accent offers more comedic value to the scene. I laughed but I also felt guilty about it because it was a very bad and half assed Greek accent. Like he did only one day of study and nailed only 10% of it. I mean I would expect a full-blown accent from someone coming directly from Greece. But he only brushed the surface with his "skill". I barely recognized it as Greek tbh, I was actively looking for the parts he did well and they were only a few moments.

But also why would Zeus not know how to speak with a native English accent? He is a freaking god and this doesn't make sense xD On the other hand I am sure that most USians have no idea how a Greek accent sounds like and they now realized that such an accent can exist. And maybe now they are wondering what happened to the Greek language in 2022, which is good 😂

Bad and good vibes. But they think the negatives outweigh the positives for a biiiit because the only purpose of this was to be silly - fuck me they already threw all accuracy out and now they remembered it? - and not educational or to bring any awareness to anything Greek whatsoever. I am happy if any Greek immigrant was happy with this scene but for me it was like we are begging for scraps and they threw us food burned to a crisp.

Pair this with the "skirt" movie joke Greeks are hearing about their high military and traditional clothing, aaaaand it's not a good look. Why would Taika screw this so much... :( I repeat that I laughed and I saw what they were trying to do but I think so many things went wrong. I am guessing his test audience about the scene didn't have Greeks/of Greek descent in 👀 Because, like the article says, we really don't know how to feel about this. I think I'd feel better if they kept the actor's accent because it would be correct at least... I mean no other foreign god (like Thor??) has an accent

[feederandfeedee]

What advice would you give to someone whose been into feederism for a while but still has body positivity issues?

This is a hard one and tbh there’s no perfect solution or answer to this problem. And I’m probably not even the best person to ask because I don’t struggle much with my body image. I find it very comfortable to be in my own skin and I don’t really know how to articulate why. I just love my body, because it literally carries me through each and everyday and it’s the only one I’ll ever have.

That being said I’m not sure if you’re already fat and struggling with being positive or if you’re smaller and have a desire to be fat. That would definitely change my answer so I guess I’ll give you some advice for both situations.

If you’re not already fat, you should heavily consider how getting fat would affect you emotionally. If all the positives outweigh the negative then you should definitely go make your fantasy a reality. If you really can’t get past the body image stuff and social implications then maybe it’s not right for you.

If you’re already fat and struggling then I would say try your best to let your worries go. I know that sounds hard to do but no one cares what you look like or what you wear. And the percentage of people that do care is so minuscule. Just accept yourself and do things that make yourself happy and you’ll be happy. Once you stop giving a shit about what others think you’ll feel so fucking free that you’ll wonder why you didn’t stop sooner.

[fairycosmos]

this might be a silly question but do you ever genuinely feel that tumblr is detrimental to your mental health? Ik you're quite popular on here (for good reason hehe you are wonderful) and I was wondering if it ever feels stressful or addicting or like too surveillance-y? I like tumblr a lot but I'm wary of all socials and interested in your perspective

hiii i basically hold the same opinion as you TBH obviously i love blogging and the micro communities on here but it's a social media site at the end of the day and it is very addicting/can be stressful and melt your brain a little or a lot........it's still just another version of hyper self-curation + intense oversharing and vulnerability with strangers which prob isn't healthy from a practical standpoint.......think the positives still outweigh the negatives though which i don't think can be said for apps like twt or tiktok (just my opinion but maybe i'm simply biased bc i like tumblr the most lmfao) anyway yeah i think there are times being on here hurts my mental health and times it helps my mental health, and it just oscillates between those two experiences lol also wughhh thank you for being sweet! <3 all my love to ya. x

[sleepless-crows]

hey! same anon :)

I think the thing with shipping is that being told the characters love each other or not isn’t often the point, at least for me! like its the dynamic that’s interesting and especially in fandom stuff you can just see its development from there. like most non canon ships don’t ever get to being *explicitly* in love anyway.

so to that purpose it doesn’t make much of a difference to me that alina loves mal. I was trying really hard to root for malina and I did like it a lot for most of book one. but him being really cruel to her when she sees him at the fete, paired with how unwilling to treat her with like any good faith or understanding in book two.

I ended up really enjoying their dynamic in the third book actually, and the tragedy of mal sacrificing his life. but the ending, paired with the earlier stuff did mean that my negative feelings still outweigh the positive. and like at the end of the day, I just find other alina pairings more interesting.

the ending is mostly the crux of it tbh. because like the first book has alina holding back and refusing to be her own person because of mal. and while her being under the darkling’s influence is bad, it’s narratively implied that some degree of letting go is necessary for her to grow. and the conflict of having mal vs having her powers is first introduced. and then by book two we keep getting acknowledgement that they’re making each other miserable and would probably be happier apart. and the main conflict driver is alina’s power and position. then by book three, even though they have reached (a really sweet imo!) sort of acceptance and synergy, the narrative question of mal vs alina’s power comes back in full force where she has to kill him to get more power, and how that then becomes reversed to him being resurrected and her losing her power entirely. and while in-universe the loss of her power isn’t treated like a trade off, and I really don’t think bardugo meant it that way, narratively it feels like one because of how it’s been built up as an either/or question for so long. and juxtaposed next to the beginning of her arc in book one: where she was refusing to become her own person because of mal, it just ends up feeling like a large scale regression. which again I don’t think that was the intent! but it ends up leaving a bad taste in my mouth. and it’s just too analogous with like quitting your job/ending all career dreams for a high school boyfriend. so I just personally can’t get into it. which is why, to me, it’s like alina sure does love mal, but at what cost lol.

with zoyalina I think it’s kind of just the hyper focus on each other that a rivalry implies? and also that alina spends SO MUCH page time talking about how hot zoya is. like it’s probs leigh bardugo trying to make sure the reader objectively knows. but with a 1st person pov it just ends up like alina is just stopping to stare at zoya every time she steps into the room and just constantly internally monologuing about just how hot she is. and I think the arc of disliking each other a lot —> falling in love is again just fairly interesting. there’s more ground to cover so it’s fun!

and to an extent I agree a lot with your point about nikolai being allowed to give up artifice and just live his life! I think thematically I just *personally* felt like alina embodied that more as a character. because wanting nothing to do with the performance of court life is like half her personality. and I think nikolai could learn from that?

zoya absolutely represents this for him too but I think with her also being rather ruthless about strategy and willing to sacrifice happiness (ie being with nikolai herself) to make the more politically expedient decision, she just ends up overlapping with him a little? like they go through very similar arcs. and there’s nothing wrong with that and I absolutely see the appeal there too! I just tend to personally prefer the starker contrast I see with nikolina.

I’m sorry this got so long 😭😭 anyway again, I did like zoyalai a lot! they’re very fun and I love them! 🤍🤍

OMG THANK YOU <33 i loved reading this

but i feel like i need to correspond with a long reply too so here goes

I think the thing with shipping is that being told the characters love each other or not isn’t often the point, at least for me! like its the dynamic that’s interesting and especially in fandom stuff you can just see its development from there. like most non canon ships don’t ever get to being *explicitly* in love anyway.

oh i think we differ in views of shipping. for me, i usually ship something when i like the content shown right in front of me. especially since it's a book, i tend to prefer ships whose dynamic and relationship give me quotes and scenes i like, if that makes sense. but it is very interesting to think of what could've been if the author did something differently and how that may be appealing. i just don't ship that way! if i like what's in front of me, i'll take it. if i don't, then i don't. and i don't particularly see anything wrong with malina. can't you tell i'm a canon shipper, it's awful

so to that purpose it doesn’t make much of a difference to me that alina loves mal. I was trying really hard to root for malina and I did like it a lot for most of book one. but him being really cruel to her when she sees him at the fete, paired with how unwilling to treat her with like any good faith or understanding in book two.

again, you ship non canon, i don't tend to, and that's alright! also, i don't recall their relationship in book two, i feel like there are people who could defend them more than i can. so i won't comment on it. but i will say that i saw this post somewhere, i'd like to give credit but i can't find it, saying that mal suffers from ptsd. he watched his friends mikhael and dubrov die. and he could have been suffering from survivor's guilt. i think it's important to acknowledge this because his trauma affected him so much, and many people just ignore that. and it's hypocritical when we acknowledge kaz's trauma and how that affects his relationship with inej but we don't really talk about mal's. and mal is a teenager, and he's gone through horrible stuff, his way of dealing with it wasn't the best, but what should we expect? he shouldn't have had to deal with any of that, especially at such a young age.

I ended up really enjoying their dynamic in the third book actually, and the tragedy of mal sacrificing his life. but the ending, paired with the earlier stuff did mean that my negative feelings still outweigh the positive. and like at the end of the day, I just find other alina pairings more interesting.

i respect that.

the ending is mostly the crux of it tbh. because like the first book has alina holding back and refusing to be her own person because of mal. and while her being under the darkling’s influence is bad, it’s narratively implied that some degree of letting go is necessary for her to grow.

i mostly agree with this. how do i word this? she did need to let go of mal to let her powers grow and develop but i think the hesitancy towards it was because she loved mal and didn't want to be separated from him. this was, after all, what hindered her from being found out a grisha when they were kids. it was definitely because of mal but it wasn't his fault. i don't have a strong liking towards their dynamic but this shows alina truly loves him (i've said this argument so many times already but it's true) and i just want for her to be happy. i'll continue this down below.

and the conflict of having mal vs having her powers is first introduced.

yep.

and then by book two we keep getting acknowledgement that they’re making each other miserable and would probably be happier apart. and the main conflict driver is alina’s power and position.

i don't recall that part about them making each other miserable, i must have forgotten it. what i do remember is that mal gave so much to be with and support alina. and they're both teenagers, we know how teenagers are. i think it's valid that they experienced some negative emotions, because they've both been through so much, and they shouldn't have had to deal with the situations they were facing. but they still stayed together and made up in the end. so i think if we account for the circumstances, i don't really see a big issue with it. but again, this hugely depends on perspective and just how you see it.

then by book three, even though they have reached (a really sweet imo!) sort of acceptance and synergy, the narrative question of mal vs alina’s power comes back in full force where she has to kill him to get more power, and how that then becomes reversed to him being resurrected and her losing her power entirely. and while in-universe the loss of her power isn’t treated like a trade off, and I really don’t think bardugo meant it that way, narratively it feels like one because of how it’s been built up as an either/or question for so long. and juxtaposed next to the beginning of her arc in book one: where she was refusing to become her own person because of mal, it just ends up feeling like a large scale regression. which again I don’t think that was the intent! but it ends up leaving a bad taste in my mouth. and it’s just too analogous with like quitting your job/ending all career dreams for a high school boyfriend. so I just personally can’t get into it. which is why, to me, it’s like alina sure does love mal, but at what cost lol.

the topic of alina giving up her powers is sort of a sore spot for the fandom. many people hate that decision. but i personally agreed with it? i think it was the best course of action to take, imo. i think alina was getting greedy with her power, she wanted more. and she did need more to defeat the darkling, but we also did read about her internal struggle fighting the temptation of power. how she didn't think she would ever stop wanting more if she had it. i personally agree with leigh that alina needed to lose her powers. it isn't choosing between mal and becoming her own person for me. i think it was more of teaching that power is addicting. once you have it, you'll always want more. we can see this reflected in society. and that no one should ever have so much power alone. because even the most kind-hearted people will struggle. the bittersweet part for me was how they had to live in secret, but i really think it was for the best that she lost her powers.

(i just realized while proof-reading this that i didn't counter you and basically just said what we both probably thought. so on brand for me. but i never really perceived it that way. i think it was more of doing what was necessary and giving her a happier ending (for choosing to do the right thing? idk). but i do get where you're coming from. leigh probably didn't intend to make it seem that way but it does.)

with zoyalina I think it’s kind of just the hyper focus on each other that a rivalry implies? and also that alina spends SO MUCH page time talking about how hot zoya is. like it’s probs leigh bardugo trying to make sure the reader objectively knows. but with a 1st person pov it just ends up like alina is just stopping to stare at zoya every time she steps into the room and just constantly internally monologuing about just how hot she is. and I think the arc of disliking each other a lot —> falling in love is again just fairly interesting. there’s more ground to cover so it’s fun!

i guess that makes sense. i personally don't see the appeal but again, it's preference!

and to an extent I agree a lot with your point about nikolai being allowed to give up artifice and just live his life! I think thematically I just *personally* felt like alina embodied that more as a character. because wanting nothing to do with the performance of court life is like half her personality. and I think nikolai could learn from that?

hmmmm... i agree.

zoya absolutely represents this for him too but I think with her also being rather ruthless about strategy and willing to sacrifice happiness (ie being with nikolai herself) to make the more politically expedient decision, she just ends up overlapping with him a little? like they go through very similar arcs. and there’s nothing wrong with that and I absolutely see the appeal there too! I just tend to personally prefer the starker contrast I see with nikolina.

i agree. i guess i've never really thought of that.

my arguments still stay the same with what i said in my last post but now i feel so, so informed about this. it was so nice reading all this!! thank you for sharing your opinion, again <333 i appreciate it so much, this must've taken very long. also, if i said anything wrong or in a mean, less collected way, please tell me! i swear i don't mean it, i'm just super grateful. plus, i haven't been in this fandom as long as many of you and i'm at that age where i'm still trying to form my own opinions, so that may have affected my replies. so please, please don't be afraid to call me out! i just really want to learn.

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[pansexual-pied-piper]

Hey it's me the cisgender who kept asking about queer. I was thinking back about the whole post and I realised that the way you were talking about it was like The word was used by the queer community first and then only got used by bigots as a slur. Is there any material I can read up on about this or can I trust Wikipedia on this one?

I believe Gay New York by George Chauncey touches on the way "queer" was used specifically in the NYC mlm scene of the 1920s

Tbh, I'm not sure who used it first and for what reasons, but I also don't think it matters what way a word was used first? "Gay" used to mean "sexually promiscuous" once upon a time, at another point in time it meant "happy" or "carefree". Some words have a long and complicated history and people can personally resonate with different parts of that history.

What bugs me is the way people single out "queer" as if the bad parts of its history and the negative experiences they may have had with it outweigh the good history and the positive experiences other people have had with it. The people who do this largely wouldn't dream to act that way about any other word people under the rainbow claim as an identity, such as "gay".

(Now, I unfortunately cannot find studies abt this, but I believe it's also been found that nowadays, "queer" tends to be preferred by people who are seen as less "acceptable" by those who peddle respectability politics, which puts the pushback against "queer" as a term into a pretty insidious light. Add in the involvement of TERFs in starting the "queer is a slur" movement and I think you can see how even people who got sucked into this because they were hurt and didn't mean to hurt anyone else can do a lot of damage to the most vulnerable members of this community by feeding into this anti-queer movement, not to mention the people deliberately causing harm.)

[louisshomesharry]

I am scared of harry because of this stunt and the kind of people he chooses to be around. (And he used to be my comfort person but now all yhe comfort is gone, i don't feel safe with louis either) The lack of attention to tour and merch (its because of choosing wrong peoole to work with again) and pleasing, the choices with outfits and tour photograpy is just bad, the mvs, its like he doesn't care about the fans and giving something nice to them, its just all about money, like why give something decent when you can give bad and earn the same amount

yeah I've been told that the same merch item has two different quality at the same show so it's all weird and half-assed :/

Some outfits are cute and I'm glad he's wearing more comfortable clothes but the mixed patterns is just not it for me.

Also apparently the rumour he's touring europe again next year has some weigh to it so I don't get why they didn't announce it before this tour leg so they could have done a fine line tour this time, like the fans wanted and paid for and then do the hs3 tour next year....

2021 and 2022 have been awful years tbh, they've both disappointed me with some of their choices. I was expecting both tours to make us feel lighter but the negative/bullshit outweigh the positive for me :(

I'm hoping once dwd is released things will start to get better but I'm not holding my breath.

[notesonartistry]

Why can't fans just enjoy the person they supports relationship? Especially when it's their most stable to date? Both Britney and Taylor found the love of their lives in 2016 and both of their fan bases still, still have fans being bitter and jealous and controlling and hateful and weird about it, and it's so unnecessary

"Why can't fans just enjoy the person they support?"

I'd just stop your question there tbh anon. I think it says it all. I'm a fan of things I like and, while I acknowledge that there are always things I'm not so keen on or don't like, I prefer to focus on those that I do. When I find that the negatives outweigh the positive, I accept that I'm no longer a fan and move on.

These things happen, we grow and change and the artists we follow do the same. It's generally a wonderful thing!

[sylvieons]

I'm being pursued (that sounds so dramatic lmao but I can't think of another word) by someone that is insistent on being my friend but I don't want to be theirs and they won't pick up on any of my blatant hints and I don't know what to do. I don't wanna be like "hey leave me alone" so I indulge them sometimes but despite that, it's really obvious I don't want this to go anywhere. And I notice manipulative behavior on their end which makes it even more difficult.  I’ve been here before with an online friend and I do not have the time for that shit (tho I called him out on it, told him I wasn’t speaking to him anymore, and then proceeded to do exactly that.)

And it’s not even like they want to be casual friends that hang out occasionally. I am expected to have a deep, emotional constant relationship and that’s just not me.  I don’t speak to people every day. I need distance.  I see one of my good friends once maybe every month or four and we never text each other in the meantime.  It’s a good arrangement and that’s the person I am.

Not to mention I have a lot of shit going on at home and I don’t have the emotional capacity to take on another’s constant stream of extreme drama, which is. What this relationship is.