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sturn-saturn · 1 day

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just this once

pairing; fem!reader x bf!matt

warnings: cooch eating <3

a/n: im LITERALLY writing this as im in class LMAOO sorry if it sucks. writing a fanfic in class is crazy.

one thing you and the triplets knew was school fucking sucked. it sucked absolute balls. your dream since you were younger was to be in the medical field and here you are. you're currently in med school majoring in nursing but thankfully this biology course is offered online.

you woke up this morning absolutely exhausted but this class was only 90 minutes so you weren't complaining too much. you were just hoping this would be the quickest 90 minutes of your life.

matt wakes up pretty early as well but his brothers on the other hand love sleeping in. matt usually stayed in the living room while you're in your virtual class. matt lets you use his desk, which gives you the space to focus and just get through the class.

you're currently on the call and you were just exhausted, dozing off, staring off, picking at your cuticles, twirling your hair, you name it. your elbow was on the desk and your head was leaning on your hand until you hear a creak.

you turn to your right and you see your boyfriend peeking through the door. you give him a deadpan look because he knows how easily distracted you are especially when he's around.

luckily your professor doesn't mind if your camera is off as long as you're participating in class. "matt, what are you doing?"

"i'm bored, hungry, and theres nothing on netflix." he explains walking further into his room.

"babe, you know i have a class."

"i know, i know." he whispers walking to you and kissing your head. "are you almost done? i'm hungry."

"god we really need to get you and your brothers into a cooking class."

"honey, i know how to cook. i just choose not to cause i love when you cook, you put so much love into it."

"oh you know how to cook, huh? that salmon you tried to cook the other day says otherwise." you laugh. "i'll be done soon don't worry."

"but i'm hungry now." he whines. "you know what, fuck it."

matt pulls the desk chair away from his desk and sneaks under so hes on his knees facing you.

"m-matt. what are you doing i'm in class!" you yell.

"cameras off, i'm hungry, i'm taking advantage of this." he smirks looking up at you. “you need to keep quiet, sweetheart. can you do that for me?”

“yes.” you breathe out. matt begins to pull your panties down and kisses your inner thigh softly while holding eye contact.

your professor was talking at this point and the only thing you heard come out of his mouth was living organisms. “ms. y/l/n could you explain further?”

“fuck” you mouth looking at matt.

he pulls away from between you and gives you a smirk. “well ms. y/l/n? explain further.”

you unmute the zoom call and do everything you can to refrain from moaning. “a living organism is anything that has life and consists of cells as its basic unit of organization like t-trees, animals, algae, b-bacteria, as well as humans of course.”

“correct, thank you ms.y/l/n.” your professor announces.

you go back on mute and you look down at matt and spread your legs wider to give him access. he taps your legs so you can put your feet on the arms of his chair.

“you’re such a good girl.” matt whispers.

“mmmm” you hum

“and…you…taste…so…good.” he says in between kisses to your clit.

“matt, quit teasing.”

“say please.” with a deadpan look.

“matt, please quit teasing.”

with that, be inserts a finger and your head falls back into the chair. he trusts in and out until you’re a mess. “what you didn’t realize was you and your professor were the only ones left in the call.

“y/n, are there any questions you had for today?” you professor asks.

you almost jump out of your seat when you heard your name from the screen in front of you.

you quickly unmute yourself, “no, professor, great lecture today, looking forward to next week!” you ramble on before you end the call.

“fuck i’m looking forward to getting inside you. get on the bed, sweetheart.” you boyfriend says with a husky voice.

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gaylos-lobos · 2 years

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actually before i go to sleep

giving Luz the same kinda shot composition here directly after finding out what happened to King and Eda (and telling Camila that she hasn’t changed her mind about returning back to Gravesfield after rescuing the two) while dressed as Azura (someone she admires) to when Philip arrived to the isles in search and rescue for Caleb (<- if getting there was accidentally or not does not matter) while dressed in his attire or at least clothes that resembles them, truly driving home the point of how similar the two of them are and how they really are just mirrors of the other

#especially the returning back to Gravsfield line is really important to me. both of them wanted to return to a home that isn’t home because #their actual home is the people/person they want to rescue.#how they really are just the other to the left and that’s exactly how Luz and Camila escape the tragedy that Philip and Caleb couldn’t #theres more to say about this but im tiered and need to go to sleep.#but also how the collector is playing out stories they’ve been told and quit literally using the isles and it’s inhabitants to do so #the way Luz in the beginning and Philip project onto it. anyways stopping here #cause i could be talking about the Luz. Collector. Philip parallels all night. which would lead into the once with King. Eda. Caleb so on #and so forth. considering how many characters parallel each other in different ways.#like the quadrant of Caleb and Luz and Luz and Philip and Philip and Camila and Camila and Caleb once.#(<- was just about to elaborate in tags but I should just word that all out properly and make an actual post instead (well another one))#i lost my point im going to sleep. gn #philly cheese steak #meta tag #toh #the owl house #luz noceda #philip wittebane #emperor belos

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okitanoniisan · 4 months

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i keep saying i need to make some zhaoryu shit but i'm back on my y5 kazusaeji bullshit again they are just so. m

#ada speaks #there NEEDS to be more zhaoryu shit. but kazusaeji still holds my ass hostage so #if i am to write a comprehensive timeline of kiryu's sexuality and him coming to realizations about himself that lead to the way he's #changed in gaiden to be more. uh.#then i have got to start at 5 because its literally when he first begins to realize he's fr into men. and then gaiden & 8 he's like Out #i need his first time to be with saejima when he's at his lowest it just makes sense #theres so fucking much in 5 that feels like its really coming to a head #mayumi. why did they fucking do that. like also nakajima and his coworkers being like U Are Gay but.#mayumi. and hinata. why are you having him refuse sex with women TWICE in one game #i hc him as acespec but i also think he should get to fool around w saejima for narrative reasons #and by that i mean i think it would be absolutely devastating and tragic and also they would both legitimately be so normal about it #saejima knows he's going back to jail anyway so there's that #but god help kiryu he's absolutely trying to fill the loneliness void with People all the damn time #lowkey doing what he did with kaoru to saejima 😭#you're grieving the loss of your family? time to latch onto the woman going through the same thing just a year later #lost your emotional support daughter? allow a woman to live with you while you continuously rebuff her advances #lonely and directionless and feeling guilty for having dragged your loved ones into conflict again and again?#have sex with probably the Only guy who can understand exactly what you're going through but is consistently in a Way healthier mindset #it also makes the conversation they have on the rooftop of new serena so much more deranged if it happened before that #im normal btw thanks for asking

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aviancataclysm · 24 days

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me: i finally beat sidestep i hope the next levels arent ridiculously hard for easy demons like this one

traction:

#geometry dash #gdtumblr #zeektalk #???????????????????????????????????#WHAT THE HELL IS THAT GAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE THE 1ST WAVE IN CATA THAT PPL KEEP COMPLAINING ABOUT #THIS IS AN EASY DEMON!!!!#RATED 4 ON THE GDDL!!!! NOT EVEN 5 UNLIKE SIDESTEP #WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i HATE THE DEMON GAUNTLET #also theres this straight fly near the beginning that looks as tight as the one in verity #maybe ill get used to it. maybe. but HOW IS THIS EASY #i am especially salty that on the gddl it's 4 and sidestep is 5 because #guess what else is tier 5 #DEADLOCKED???#deadlocked is literally FREE compared to these levels

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lorenlily · 3 months

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i'm finally watching the good place season 4!!!!!! also, how are you?

sparklez hiiiii im tired good! OH IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! have tissues at the ready!! it felt slow to me with the first few episodes but you get to binge it unlike how i watched it weekly so it'll be easier to get through them. the new characters i did not like any of them at all lol but episode 7 onwards prepare for everything to come together in the best way!! it's so worth it and i feel like i was crying in moments in each of the last few episodes! the finale it's so hard to describe the feeling it gives you because it's almost like grief but peaceful at the same time!!! there's a scene where chidi is cuddled and talking to eleanor and i had to pause and cry my heart out! i watched the finale three times on the day it aired 😭

#tell me all your thoughts #the funeral to end all funerals is like the beginning of the end #and theres a scene at the end of youve changed man between michael and shawn and it made me cry #it felt like they were talking to us the audience #mondays am i right the character they being back it was so funny #and that episode has the funniest tahani name drop ever to me #the twist? in patty oh my god i remember watching it and when it ended i just started crying #because they literally tell you whats going to happen in the finale #and honestly i rewatch the finale when i feel hopeless a lot #what becomes of curious minds*#sparklez 💖

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iliterallydecepticanteven · 1 year

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I'm going back through my phone notes and I remember I was gonna write a fun kinda tongue in cheek TFA fic of Ratchet dealing with various interfacing related injuries and getting fed up with them all. Like Autobot-Decepticon truce situation, and he's gotta deal with stuff like Lugnut coming in with shattered optics because Strika sat on his face too hard, and Bulkhead comes in with minor electrical burns and arhythmia because Bumblebee accidentally shocked him, and Shockwave and Blurr coming in with friction burns in embarrassing places for reasons you can probably figure out. Like fun non-serious but embarrassing injuries. Then the punchline would be Ratchet getting a broken hip because he fell off the berth in the middle of getting busy with Arcee and the other medics desperately trying not to laugh while patching him up. That's for sure going on the future fics list.

#obviously everything is sane and consensual #not safe tho because they ended up in the med bay #this fic based on embarrassing er visits as a result of sex gone sideways literally #i think ill make this and the fun medic fic i mentioned a while ago warm up works #you know stuff to write at the beginning to get into the swing of it #before writing what i actually sat down to write #tf #transformers #my ramblings #also have i ever mentioned my love for bulkbee #because i love them #theyre so cute #theres such a fun juxtaposition #you have the outgoing energetic city boy #and the shy smart country boy #besties and bonded in my book baby

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imabiscuitinthousandworlds · 5 months

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crippling anxiety hours let's go

#a biscuit's rambles #theres a presentation due tomorrow we did Not prepare #and my partner is super anxious and the type to Need Perfect Grades #and she had a question and tried to call me several times and i saw too late and texted i was here now but then stupid whatsapp didnt tell #me when she called again so now i feel horrible #and honestly this presentation can go fuck itself i literally could not care less #im trying to do at least the tiniest minimum of Something for my friend but gosh. i do Not want to #just can't bloody get myself to do anything #doesn't help that i Know shell handle it because. she cant not without getting Way Too Stressed Out #i dont wanna leave her hanging with all the work like that but gosh im so tired #i just. cant. idk #on the bright side i did listen to a couple more tma episodes so thats something i suppose that was fun #........... i really need to do less stuff #i dont have a single free weekend for all of april and the beginning of may #goodbye emotional stability it was so nice to have known you even if for just a short while

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helenofblackthorns · 2 years

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cc calling Alastair and Cordelia's eyes black is so :/ to me like idc that they're just a shade darker than the pupil or whatever, their eyes are still brown. you're allowed to call them brown cc, even though that's boring and dull and plain etc. Thomas standing outside in the sun like inches away from Alastair's face should be able to see that his eyes are in fact fucking brown.

#cc and her anti brown eyes agenda continues #and I say all this as someone who *has* dark brown eyes #like 'in most lightings its near impossible to tell where my iris ends and my pupil begins' dark brown eyes #& i say most lightings because in sunlight/really bright areas my eyes dramatically get lighter #i personally love it & think its very cool and better than blue or whatever eyes #but ik cc wouldn't agree with me on that one 🙄#anyway it bothers me that cc describes their eyes as black constantly without any regard for the lighting #like??? do you not know a single brown eyed person lmao #alastair carstairs #cordelia carstairs #cordelia herondale #anti cc #anti cassandra clare #chain of thorns #chain of gold #chain of iron #the last hours #tlh #actually I just remembered that she describes Matthew's eyes as changing in different lights all the time 😐#theres literally no excuse for this im tired of her bullshit #the shadowhunter chronicles

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koushirouizumi · 3 months

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vimeo

{Shaman King} ~ Yoh Asakura & (Aspec!/Demiromantic Queer!) Manta Oyamada + "At the Beginning" {+{Minimal} Anna as Support) (near very End)}

By Me {Do Not Reproduce/Re-upload my AMVs/Video Edits Without my Permission Under Any Circumstances} Music (C) D o n n a L e w i s & R i c h a r d M a r x A N A S T A S I A (C) FOX/D O N B L U T H

#amv: at the beginning #koushirouizumi mankin #koushirouizumi sk #koushirouizumi manta #koushirouizumi yoh #koushirouizumi posts #yohta #yoh x manta #qpr yohta #autistic manta #autistic yoh #(T e s t to see if this one d i s p LAYS OK here)#({OK ANYWAY} HI I N E E D PPL TO B E G I N UNDERSTANDING)#(THIS IS THE ONLY KIND OF Q U A L I T Y FOOTAGE I HAD ON HAND BEFORE THE ' ONE WEEK ' A.M.V IN MOST OF MY F A N D O M S)#(This was also my very LAST Man-kin one before most of my later S o n i c X ones {oK BUT I STILL KINDA LOVE IT N E G L})#(Its ***OVER 10+ YRS OLD*** O K)#(I LITERALLY outlined these in my head while IN *S C H O O L* STILL)#(For a long while I was frustrated over how badly the quality got with the transition to H.D. bc it had displayed MUCH BETTER in the Past)#(Its still 'watchable' but m A N I NEED To Remake My Mankin Ones {you can even see the lines at bottom indicating OLD D.V.D footage})#({I also still need to 'finish' watching R e b o o t &also F l o w e r s..... but im eternally fed up Manta ISNT INCLUDED THERE})#({except ONE V. GOOD BUT Still SUPPORTING SCENE where YOH WASNT T H E R E and I dont think it even got into a nIME})#({Once I finish watching all that} {though Ive LONG since finished entire original m a n g a} {I Might Fix These Up Too})#({I also for LONG time decided not to reuse the outlining for KouxTai but also because I didnt have Clear image of direction Id go in With}#({NOW T H O} I Think I MIGHT FINALLY be able to try a KouxTai version down the R o a d {MAYBE FOR d IGIMON TAIKOUVEMBER....})#(Dont @ Me F L O W E R S HAS LONG BEEN O U T NOW OK THANK)#({A.K.A. I Finally Have Tai+Koushiros 0.0005 The Beginning screen times I CAN USE IT IN THINGS N O W..... SOMEWHERE.....})#(Idek but m A N When You Are In Completely Different H e a d S p a c e now than you were 10+ yrs ago makin this in s CHOOL)#({I STILL V. MUCH STAND BY THE T H E M E S & F R A M I N G THO})#(Gd though yEA I NEED to finish re sharing my handful of older Man-kin A.M.V.s and the last few D.N. @ngel + S o n i c X ones)#(If these embed{s} can work Ill see if I can share the others tho theres a few more w s o n g s that might not work lmaooo)

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maddy-ferguson · 7 months

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in october i read my brilliant friend by elena ferrante and then the story of a new name by elena ferrante and then those who leave and those who stay by elena ferrante and then the story of the lost child by elena ferrante and i was like i hadn't loved a book like this since i was like 16 will i ever find anything i like this much ever again. and i still haven't i don't even really enjoy her other books

#the english titles are so awkward like i kind of get it because the og doesn't have the story in the title for the first book either and i #understand not doing the story of those who leave and those who stay very long. but in french there's no the story of for any of them and #it's much better!#and like i say: brf slt #by december 1st i had read all 4 books twice like i was so obsessed #i haven't watched the show yet i want to i just haven't but i want to i think i will like after i finish watching what i'm watching rn i #hope i like it #and i've read other books i really enjoyed i've read other books i loved. but none that i connected with like that💔#but anyway. i've read basically all her other novels i read troubling love first since that was her first novel i was like hm. then i read #the lying life of adults and i actually really enjoyed it for maybe the first half or for like two thirds of the book like it had potential #and then? i don't know what happened. the last 50 pages especially made me so mad i was like literally what is this. why do we care about #this why are you ending the novel on this??/!?.#then i read the days of abandonment because i wanted to see if i liked it! i did not. i liked it more than troubling love but less than the #lying life of adults. i just started reading the lost daughter today because i'm a completionist and i'm actually liking it fine maybe #because i've seen the movie so i knew what to expect? idk. but it's so frustrating like the neapolitan novels were literary perfection to #me and her other novels are like very average i don't even enjoy them and they're all short like less than 200 pages (except for the lying #life of adults) that's why i finished them and kept reading them. i was also just curious like why am i not liking it!!!!#but i actually know why it's maybe two different things? the neapolitan novels are about two women it's about their relationship and theres #a lot of things about men in the books but still it's all about the two girls while the others are all about one main woman?#except the lying life of adults which is about a girl and her aunt and i think that's why i liked it more at the beginning.#there's that and there's maybe also the fact that we start in my brilliant friend when they're kids and then we see them grow up whereas #in her other books it's like adult women going through...something. again except for the lying life of adults. i didn't #like that one for different reasons it's different because it's from after the neapolitan novels the others are from before. but anyway #it's not like i'm incapable of reading books about adults but yeah i think the coming of age aspect is what made me me like my brilliant #friend and sequels so much like especially in relation to boys and men like just the way it goes is so good. like lila marrying redacted.#very bad but yk it's just all very good #and i also just don't like the style as much? like there's some things i liked or thought were okay+ in the neapolitan novels that are much #more prominent in her other works and when it's not in lila and elena's story it's just not good to me like it's actually bad #anyway. i'm halfway through the lost daughter because it's only 176 pages long and i'm actually having an okay time. but yeah #and it's been less than six months it's not like it's a lost cause or anything and i HAVE read other books i REALLY liked but...

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criticalrolo · 2 years

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folks i have put in the legwork to try to understand the jgy apologist side of the fandom since that seems to be So Many People... I thought that maybe the tv show elevated his crimes to make it a more black and white villain situation but then I read what he does in the novels and it is WAY WORSE... i literally feel like it's 2012 and people are writing loki-style apologism for "his childhood was very sad (extremely true it was horrible) and that's why the crimes are okay (the crimes are so so many murders and SA because his feelings and desires are more important than People's Lives)"

#like it is truly SO SO SO MUCH murder and SA and betrayal. SO MUCH of that. like hes. squarely evil. am i MISSING SOMETHING #like the way he kills/SAs his admittedly horrible father ALONE would put him squarely in. This Guy Is Genuinely Evil territory #i literally feel like there has to be information i am missing because that alone (and then having the 25 sex workers killed immediately)#puts him in like?? This Is A Vicious Villain territory to me??? but it doesn't seem like people like him for Hes A Villain... it feels like #EXTREMELY loki 2012 did nothing wrong vibes. loki was 100% trying to do a genocide in the first thor movie #i dont CAAAre how sad his backstory is. it is genuinely tragic and also he doesn't get to murder whoever he feels like because of it #i literally am doing the legwork to try to figure out wtf people are talking about but I feel like every single argument I can trump with #playing the he orchestrates Mass Murder/SA card??????????#plus like. hes been killing people he doesn't like From The Beginning #that guard who was tormenting him was terrible. and yet he DOES murder him in cold blood and try to frame a different mass murderer for it #IDK i just feel like IM the crazy one here because theres SO many fans of his and I just do not get it AT ALL #i DO love villains I get it!! but that is not the flavor of discourse ive seen about this guy. ANYWAYYYYYY

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clearlitebergaming · 1 year

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i have given up on being AST, or any healer in general

#ffxiv #roegadyn #julian bahari #i swear healer main in xiv is the strongest race #how can u not shedding all the hair in your body #literal party babysitter #oh theres this one SGE who carried us all in voidcast dais #cause the other WHM DC'd from beginning #the absolute giga chad for keeping my first timer ass alive #most of the time tho #i did died once because i of mech that i didnt know #my art #clearlite berdrawing

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celeryw · 2 years

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YES. There’s a show! I never read the books but I think I’m gonna!

omg i LOVE the books so much!!!!!! i definitely recommend it is one of my most favourite book series!!

#cel answers #60sec400 #lockwood #AND TRULY IM SO EXCITED TO WATCH THIS #im not a show watcher but i think i can make an exception for my ghostie girl <333333 #theres gotta be the name plate at the beginning or it will FEEL WRONG #ugh im so excited for this #thank you for reblogging that gifset because i literally would NEVER have known

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notetaeker · 2 years

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oh no. sudden responsibility that involves public speaking 🥲

#vs. the desire to lie down and hide #ppl do not know. but. i absolutely hate public speaking.#everyone is always shocked to find out because they think i do such a good job #what they do not know is i am literally dying inside. for like the whole first 2/3 of it #if i could do public speaking without the Dread in the beginning i really would #if theres anything more dreadful its the 'sudden' part of it #cuz. i didn't have time to prepare for it mentally 🤧🤧

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broke-on-books · 2 years

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Agshagsg my scooby posts on here are always like two sentences and super vague or whatever and then the tags have like a five paragraph meta essay that gets super off topic and into the impact of evolving media and streaming ahfiadhahehsh

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NOT AGAIN AGH 🙈

#anyways highkey considering rewatching goes hollywood teehee #and its all super specific to my own experience ofc. bc i forget that sd for the dootuals (and others!) may not have been a monumental part #of their childhood and their no. 1 interest/favorite thing/obsession for YEARS #like scooby literally helped me learn how to READ. how do i introduce someone to that for the first time ever. how do i convey the enormity #of that.#like how do i show someone the feeling of playing cheesy scooby themed web games on the computer at my grandmothers house. of eating #EXCLUSIVELY scooby fruit snacks (i loved the little blue ones) and playing scooby dominoes and having a toy mystery machine and little toy #gang members that i can STILL see the bite marks on and checking out something for the very first time at my school library in kindegarten #and its a scooby doo comic with batman and wonder woman in it. and being daphne for Halloween (i was always daphne and my brother always #shaggy) and learning to READ and love reading as i TORE through the scooby solve it yourselves at school.#and how i loved watched scooby on boomerang (the old one when it was blue) and would get SO excited when a scooby movie marathon was on #instead of the regular episodes and would sit there for HOURS watching them. and how i always cried whenever we watched zombie island #like in what way can i possibly explain the force of that love to another human being. like where can i even start.#theres no magical order to watching can recreate that. i couldn't even tell someone where to start because ive been loving scooby since #before i can even remember. how can you even begin to share that with someone who didnt have those same experiences?#.......#i did it again didnt i #swishy you need to STOP-#blah

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larrythefloridaman · 2 years

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You know :)

nccts is funny. anyway cyberbullying prism is a way of life and i am committed to it i am putting her in a shoebox with no airholes and floating it down the Alafia River to be carried to and sink to the bottom of Tampa Bay where she will be torn asunder by the sharks

#considered marking 'i like them enough to project my own issues onto them' but thats not quite accurate #the nccts have made prism's character into a frighteningly real depiction of an abusive parent that reminds me of my own experiences #and so theres stuff that feels almost instinctively true about her and her relationship with the cods that isnt #bc im seeing my family in it and probably projecting a little because of the parallels im seeing #so i guess it's more 'wow... they are LITERALLY my dad' (derogatory)#i hate her very much (she is an extremely effective antagonist)#she's metatextually interesting bc 'narrator thats a character aware that its a story and has godlike power over it' is not a New concept #but shes a very interesting take on it because shes proper introduced several seasons in #and shes grounded in the world she exists in because her actions have consequences in it on people who are just as real/fake as she is #so its easy to fully invest in the idea that this world is meaningful even if it isnt real unlike some other metafiction thats so consumed #by pretentious metatextuality that it becomes kind of hard to care if thats not the point because it undermines itself and your investment #but cpuk comes with 1) so much investment from seasons of fun and goofy storytelling beforehand #and 2) a thin 4th wall to begin with #so its neither surprising nor undermines its world that the emissary of the highest god of its reality is Literally A Narrator #that polices and alters the narrative to her whim with the goal of driving it toward a meaningful and satisfying conclusion #whether the characters would Really be ultimately happy with their predetermined trajectories as chosen by her or not #because she wont doesn't and doesn't know How to understand them deeply enough to really know what they Need #just what they want on a surface level. without really understanding why they want it. because she can't really imagine something deeper.#which leads her to an often flawed idea of what their 'happy ending' would be especially when she doesn't want to face an ending at all #and thats not even getting into how she's come to view her wards the ciblings like sacrificial lambs on the altar of meaning #someone has to keep things in line. someone has to be a tragedy. someone has to be the villain.#even if it means shaping the lives of the fellow immortals in her care for the worse so that they ultimately hurt themselves and others #girl i think you gave your youngest son a paranoid complex that if someones too Nice tm to him theyre lying and only cruelty is honest #and on top of that your daughter has literally disowned you and her godhood about how you make her feel #your only kid who trusted your opinion on Anything came to you for advice on connecting with people and you gave him an identity crisis #i cant say i dont understand why prism's like this. and i empathize with the problem. but i am still hissing and killing and biting also #*because she can't really imagine a state of content #she can imagine people having depth she just. cant imagine a state of contentment with the self and ones own life #so how's she supposed to really help other people to reach that point

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