#these two Losers mann!!!

[stygiansentiments]

Saw this and immediately thought of these two!🤣

These gifs are by Chefkids

[leviathan-supersystem]

why dont you like the church of satan? im not a satan simp i promise i'm just genuinely curious because idk anything about them

i'm glad you asked! during my debate with the CoS simps on twitter i dug up a bunch of evidence of the Church of Satan's right-wing leanings, which was wasted on those losers because obviously they're not going to concede anything ever, but i'm glad to have a more receptive audience here.

so, to start with, the most well-known pieces of evidence relating to this are A: Anton Lavey said at one point that the CoS gives people "Ayn Rand with trappings" and B: there's a segment in the satanic bible called "the book of satan" which is outright copied from the proto-fascist philosophical tract "Might is Right", written by Ragnar Redbeard.

now, apparently CoS simps have taken it upon themselves to go around bothering anyone who brings this up, arguing that Anton Lavey only said that thing about Ayn Rand once so it probably doesn't mean anything (i am skeptical that he did only say this once but i haven't been able to find smoking gun evidence of him saying it other times) and the parts which copy from Ragnar Redbeard directly are only a few pages out of the satanic bible so, again, it probably doesn't mean anything. (ignoring that the influence of "Might it Right" is woven throughout the entirety of Anton's work, hardly limited to the direct quotes.)

so, to prepare my readers for if they get hassled by some CoS loser for stating the obviously correct fact that the CoS is right-wing, here's some more evidence to that effect, under a cut because i am merciful and this is going to get very long and very ugly.

here's Boyd Rice, then a major figure in the Church of Satan, saying that the principle of satanism is "let the master be the master and the slave be the slave, and never the two shall meet." this was in the documentary "Speak of the Devil", created by Nick Bougas, also a prominent figure in the CoS at the time. Nick Bougas is more well known by his nom de plume "A Wyatt Mann", aka the guy who drew those old nazi comics that became memes ("le happy merchant" etc).

here's some quotes from the official website of the CoS:

Satanists see the social structure of humanity as being stratified, thus each person reaches a level commensurate with the development (or lack thereof) of their natural talents. The principle of the survival of the strong is advocated on all levels of society, from allowing an individual to stand or fall, to even letting those nations that cannot handle themselves take the consequences of this inability. Any assistance on all levels will be on a “quid pro quo” basis. There would be a concommitant reduction in the world’s population as the weak are allowed to experience the consequences of social Darwinism. Thus has nature always acted to cleanse and strengthen her children. This is harsh, but that is the way of the world. We embrace reality and do not try to transform it into some utopia that is contrary to the very fabric of existence. Practical application of this doctrine would see the complete cessation of the welfare system, an end to no-strings attached foreign aid and new programs to award and encourage gifted individuals in all fields to pursue personal excellence. A meritocracy will replace the practice of such injustices as affirmative action and other programs designed to punish the able and reward the undeserving.

Satanists also seek to enhance the laws of nature by concentrating on fostering the practice of eugenics.

but if you REALLY want to get into the ugly shit that the CoS has been promoting, here's some excerpts from the magazine "The Black Flame", which the CoS published throughout the late 80's and through the 90's:

^that last one's from an interview with Lavey himself

and to bring things back around, here's another interview with Boyd Rice:

on the whole, while the CoS may present itself as an opponent of right-wing christianity, it's ultimately just controlled opposition, pushing largely the same right-wing agenda that the christian right was. it's funny that people never seemed to ask why christian conservatives like Bob Larson were always spending time interviewing, or being interviewed by, the Church of Satan if they were supposedly such mortal enemies.

[snowdropsparklezzz]

Be More Chill opinions Act 2

Aight, this is gonna be another long one. First up, thank you so much for 3 followers! I'm feeling so loved right now ❤️ Alright, here goes another massive yap... If you're not down for it, scroll away now...

Halloween: It's fun! I love everyone's silly costumes, even though I kinda would have liked to have seen Rich's weed costume from the book... Also Jake's prince/Prince mess up is pretty funny. Also Brooke makes an adorable poodle (not in a furry way I swear) and this further cements that I love Brooke and Jerberry. Also the SQUIP dancing, 10/10. I'm not super keen on the extended ending in the Broadway version

Do You Wanna Hang?: Ew. I don't even wanna think about it. If you ship More Than Hang don't talk to me.

It kinda annoys me that in the Broadway version they don't let Michael be angry in the bathroom scene, like Jeremy hasn't talked to him for weeks, it's perfectly reasonable to be kinda mad! But tbh Michael getting 'softened' is kinda a problem throughout the whole Broadway production. Still love him though.

Michael In The Bathroom: It's awesome, you know it's awesome, just... ughhhhhh. There's not much to say that hasn't already been said. George Salazar please marry me (only joking). Not really any strong preference between Two River and Broadway, the slayness is too much in both to try to criticise either. Oh also the I wanna dance with somebody bit is amazing :)

The Smartphone Hour (Rich Set A Fire): This song has no need to exist, yet alone be 6 minutes long, but I'm so glad it does. It's just so fun. The dance is so fun, and I have to do it every time, and you know by now I live for goofy costumes and this scene certainly delivers. The boys dressed as girls is 10/10, and they all slay in their drag :) I love how two of the guys come down from the ceiling on massive sparkly iPhones, truly iconic. The Broadway version is slightly better for me because Tiffany Mann is an absolutely powerhouse, but I love Katie Ladner too. Overall top tier scene 😍

I know the order of Pants Song and Pitiful Children is different in Two River and Broadway but at the time of writing I am listening to the Broadway album so I'm putting Pants Song first

The Pants Song: This song and scene is completely whack but I love it! Yes, you go king, wear those pants! I love how he's like, aight, time to become Superdad! It's so fun and an iconic moment. Also 'Do you love him?' '[very stoned voice] Whaaaaaaaaaaaat?' amazing. Also I love how they have the MITB instrumental in the 'I already tried to help him, and he called me a loser!' bit. Also I just love this whole scene. 10/10. Also in the Tiny Desk concert Tiffany has some awesome vocals in the middle bit, although tbh that whole video is awesome. I should have mentioned in the Act 1 post that Lauren Marcus does an awesome cover of A Guy That I'd Kinda Be Into and also Jerberry woo :)

The Pitiful Children: Okay, this is the first song I really have strong opinions about Two River vs Broadway. Firstly, I way prefer the lyrics in the Two River version, cos on Broadway it sounds like squip Christine and squip everyone else to make Christine happy, like that doesn't make any sense to me. Also the costumes for the squipped people in Two River are awesome and intimidating while on Broadway they're just weird. Also in Two River they reprise the dance from The Squip Song which is really cool. However, one thing Broadway has going for it is Tiffany's awesome vocals, like slay queen. Add Tiffany Mann to my list of theatre crushes lol. I might make an actual post of that soon lol. :) Anyway back to the point, Pitiful Children is awesome but better in Two River.

The Play: I don't super love either version that much, but both have their moments. Firstly, MICHAEL MAKES AN ENTRAAAAAAANCE!!! Yaaaaaaaaas! My boy Michael, you're not in the bathroom no more! (Credit to some YouTuber I stole that line off, can't remember who, sorry) Oh yeah, going off topic again but I finished the BMC soundtrack and now I'm listening to Little Shop Of Horrors and I remembered George Salazar was in Little Shop at some point and he slaaaaayed. Anyway, it's pretty fun how they reprise some of the earlier songs, even if the reprise of Two Player Game when Jeremy and Michael are fighting kinda kills me. Oh also 'I'm living the upgraaaaaade!' is awesome! One thing that I like better in the Two River is the delay before 'Drink this.' cos it gives it some tension, y'know.

The hospital bit is amazing and hilarious, and while I don't really ship Expensive Headphones the 'is he single' bit is amazing. Also I too identify as Anti-social Headphones Kid. Also yay pants! Also, 'Oh I was fully prepared to watch you suffer,' damn dude.

Voices In My Head: Awesome! I like the Broadway a bit better but I'm not totally sure why. Also 'Of the voices in my head, the loudest one is mine!' is a mood for questionable mental health squad. It doesn't totally make sense that everyone is suddenly friends and totally chill with the chaos that has been happening, but it makes for a nice ending I guess. It's cute that at the end everyone is having fun and happy.

So yeah, that's it, so in conclusion I really love BMC and basically all the cast and characters and most of the songs wooooooo:D

[t4rbul3nt]

i die a little inside when I hear the broadway version of bmc, not because i hate it (bc i think ppl hate on it WAY too much), but because there are so many good little changes

like during ‘the play’

christine sings jeremy’s name the way he sings christines name throughout the whole duration of the musical :’) it’s so cute, but its also so heartbreaking

not to mention the funny things jason tams version of the squip does, for example during ‘do you wanna hang?’

when he says “you’re welcome~” to jeremy it sounds like he’s stoned, it’s awesome. (his voice reminds me of chad from lordminion777/wade barnes′s GTA roleplay on TSRP lolol)

along with tiffany manns version of jenna rolan, she seems a little less aloof than the og and also a bit more silly/joking, plus her riffing in pitiful children?? so freaking awesome

not to mention the addition of jason sweettooth williams to the cast from joe iconis family was amazing for me

and i LOVE britton smith as jake, he portrays him a little more sweeter than the two river version (which i love just as much) and theres a little more give to his character

which brings up how, though I love the original menacing version of ‘upgrade’, i love mutual distraught realization of change among the student body leading into ‘loser geek whatever’

and that version of ‘upgrade’ and the whole song ‘loser, geek, whatever’ was all underlyingly there in the original verison when jeremy pauses to answer (or even fully acknowledge) michael being excited for him before making a decision on making the deal/taking the upgrade, in the lines,

“and i wasn’t sure before, but now i wanna go all the way and more”

“tried to be genuine and true but now it’s time for something new”

“really it doesn’t matter how, i’m getting the upgrade right now!”

[concretecowb0y]

I wanted to review a different book as my first one but given the rightwing unrest in England and Northern Ireland right now I have determined this to be far more relevant.

Mephisto – Klaus Mann

Fiction 1936

Elevator Pitch: Weimar Republic call out thread, Jewish Twink drags kinky German sub through the court of public opinion.

Fascists are stupid fat venial people, their love of cruelty is only exceeded by their love of self.

This book is erroneously labeled as fiction, everything in it happened, the people have different names but their actions are real. It begs one question of its reader, what would you do if you were living in the embryotic stages of a fascist state? You think you would fight it, be the hero, say the speech, raise the banner of democracy; I do to. But this isn’t a book its your life, death happens and its final, you don’t get to see the statue they build of you in the martyrs square it just goes black.

Klaus Mann Fled Germany Hans Otto stayed to fight fascism, Klaus Mann went on to serve in the US Army and continued to write. Otto was abducted by Nazis and tortured to death refusing to give a single name of his comrades. Mann Died by his own hand. What would you rather do should Fascism come to power in your own county? Live and be racked by the guilt of what more you could have done or die a terrible death in the fight against it.

(There is always the option of collaboration but if that is an option to you don’t bother reading this, you will end up doing that.)

The right wing appears several times in the book represented by Göring and his wife but the primary focus and much of its condemnation is that of the intellectual and bourgeoisie turn coats. The rich will always align with fascism, they would rather die atop their mountain of gold then share a single copper; I respect the conviction, but they are my enemy. Fascists are losers they cannot win without bourgeoise support which we know they will receive. We have two great strengths on the left, Fascism (our enemy) will eat itself given enough time, and they need our support too.

These EDL lads have grass roots support because they recognize the rot at the heart of capital, they just lay that at the feet of refugees instead of bankers. The economy has forgotten these people, and they are more miserable and poorer than their parents, Brexit ensured that this trend will only get worse and so too will the violence. Labor has foreclosed upon themselves the opportunity to improve the situation, given the choice between maintenance of the status quo and fascism the poor will choose fascism, where are we?

I have the only correct interpretations of books, but I don’t claim to have an answer to the question this book poses. In the interest of never finding out these answers we need to fight now, not just in the streets but with policy, we need to offer the suffering poor an alternative, point their rage in the right direction. Anti Racist Anti-Fascist counter protests are worth doing but the EDL is learning, their had will get stronger as things get worse, advocate for socialism, prevent your own death.

[the-firebird69]

You're gonna tell this guy to go hell and we're gonna tell him today over and over I'm sick of hearing from this **** **** **** next door very it's in there drill again and we should have some sort of comeback and something for him to do and apparently we don't so he's just gonna keep drilling him until he's gone he's a leader it doesn't deserve the treatment doesn't want it finds it to be trite and unnecessary it doesn't do anything it shines a light on him. It says that he's going to go up there and use the red eye on Jupiter as an excuse to threaten for Hara to be in his possession. That was John Remelard saying it said the other day and I hope you know that's kind of a secret weapon system.

Thor Freya

We know it's driven by the max but still they've got some of those out there and we're going after them and death stars and things like that and they're going to come down there's infighting we have cover and we're going to use it there are several fleets that are slowly making their way towards Jupiter. We also have a fleet or two that is going towards Venus and several going towards Earth the fleets going towards Venus are Trump BJA pseudo empire and now the empire and it will be us and foreigners right now we're moving out and we're going to be within range of the approaching Morlock Fleet in moments they're sending 500 billion. 300 billion of theirs approaching Earth the same crew is intercepting. The fleets of approaching Jupiter are really it is mostly Trump and his flanked by BJA and he is shadowed by the pseudo empire who want him to perform the project. They're being followed by the empire. This is what's going on right now. Charlotte County the 5 million each Are being killed no they're gone they're getting down to just a few percent points of leaders trumpsters have almost 1.9 percent BJ a has 3% in the pseudo empire has 4%. The greedy the losers and they have money they can't use and they're ridiculous. Just like Gareth wanted revenge. And he's getting revenge there's a couple other things john Remillard is going to be sentenced Monday. he was found guilty of a criminal offense so he's hot to trot. Several other things as an update watching our son eat quite a bit he lost some calories I need to tell you that these people are all fanatically wrong and we need to put the our fist in their face so they stop doing this. They're way over the top I don't see how he's gonna get paid anything with these nonsense people here. It's time to go after them hard. The hell out of here. Watch any television show it's always got the idiot on it and he has way too many things to do in a day he's a fried piece of crap we need to stop him now get he and his out. There's other news they are forming up another percent that's the trumpsters and a half percent in the Western Hemisphere for the bunkers the percent is for all the tunnels not really it's mostly the West and he's going to be down to 2% after that off Island. His plan on doing something on the island but later on and says he wants possession. In a sense says so what i'll kill you myself and burn your ****. It's true too he hates him very badly. There's a couple other things to know BJA has called 2% and he's splitting it between the pseudo empire and the tunnels in the Western Hemisphere and in Brazil as well they probably will get wiped out and he's gonna be left with 6.5 percent off island. And will continue and there's several other things that we are going after the statues and caches due to repeated virulent threats and we verified some of it is somewhat valid so we have to go in and take their stuff and false flag would be good. There's success coming with the Giants there's three that are going to be ready to come out very soon and it's going to be spectacular. Takes a few minutes and then they're out and invisible. it is two of them near Bernie Mann or at it one of them is off when Monaco they're almost ready. We do have a few things more. This is a big problem here this situation this guy next door is a huge animal and is constantly harassing our son very badly and we want him out and he says there's a pathway we and we want him out and he says there's a pathway we should follow it and make it ours and we do agree. So go ahead and do that and he is an arrogant weasel about it and says you can't stop him and all this and I do see what he's saying he's willing to die for the cause and he's going to and he will be interned in the tomb not on the throne. And yeah there's an argument there OK so we're going to watch him die soon on September 22nd according to the max and it's coming up and he does get cut off from the continental army as Nathan Hale it is a story you can read about.

Frank Castle Hardcastle

our son is involved in the history of this and he lives around back then occasionally the max seemed to think it wasn't much but he was and they don't understand how no they know so it's gonna be interesting and a pain but at least to be not as unpleasant as this malarkey

Thor Freya

I am coming around the bend you better watch out you little twerp . It says who you talking to he says it. You. And when are we gonna get to do anything ever and we'll see you we're gonna read the story and he says thank you.

Hera

Oympus

[thenatureofnarrative]

Best Films of 2023

The basis of my annual list is simple, these are the films that were for me, mesmerizing and memorable. These were the cinematic experiences that either provoked a depth of emotion and/or provided a whole lot to talk about. These are the films that I could not forget and I cannot wait to see again.

After you read this year’s list, you can also find last year’s list here, and if you’d like to watch an epic conversation about the best films of the year I encourage you (or dare you) to watch this video. You can also follow me on Letterboxd and read #BehindTheScreens at Loving Is Moving Magazine. 

1. Past Lives

The best film of the year is a quiet, heart-wrenching, uplifting, painful and deeply satisfying story about love and commitment. It’s about romantic longing, and releasing ourselves and others from what could have been. Canadian, Celine Song, has written one of the best screenplays of the year, captured her story on screen with subtle elegance, and selected three lead performers who are all completely captivating. At the center of the film is a six-minute scene in bed, and it is one of the best, and most honestly written scenes of a marriage from the last twenty years. A masterpiece. On Prime Video.

2. Afire

Alternate Title: The A-hole. There is no protagonist I encountered all year long that I cared about more than, Leon. What a wonderfully talented and troubled loser. Leon is so incredibly self-involved, and yet, you can't help but ache for him. You want more for him. You want him to make better choices. You want to shake him and slap him and see him grow as a person and expand his empathy for others. I adored this little journey from narcissism to apocalyptic awakening.  On MUBI.

3. Fallen Leaves 

This is a sweet, tender and frequently funny tale of life and love in a tragic world. This is a small, idiosyncratic story of two lonely people crossing paths in their own unique corner of the world. Director, Aki Kaurismaki, has such a specific tone it’s almost impossible to articulate, as it stands along the border of much broader (and louder) expressions of wry and whimsy. And so, all you can do is sit back and admire the specificity and fall in love with beautifully drawn characters who seem slightly surreal, and yet, never leave the real world. On MUBI.

4. The Beasts

The Beasts is a thrilling and devastating masterpiece. Based on real events, what makes this film so taut and intense is the fact that we can all see ourselves in it. The neighbourly interactions, the arguments and alienation, the hostility and honest work - all of it is known, all of it is familiar. In fact, it’s so authentic and well written, that at one point you can’t help but sympathize with the antagonists. Do not miss this movie! On MUBI.

5. Ferrari

Michael Mann might be going soft in his old age. Ferrari is as much about obsessive professionals as it is interpersonal relationships. Truly, this is the women’s story (even if one is miscast). From an elderly mother, to a wife and a mistress, Ferrari is about reconciling one’s passion with the people who make the path forward possible. An elegant and classical work of cinema with the two best performances of the year: Adam Driver and Penelope Cruz. Available to Rent.

6. Maestro

Maestro is a film earnestly and openly reaching for greatness, and at times it gets there. In fact, there is a stretch of scenes about halfway through that were so emotionally charged they caught me off guard, and had me weeping. In other words, in spite of its flaws the highs here are really high. Maestro is a comforting reminder that flawed, selfish human beings are capable of transcendence. On Netflix.

7. Barbie

Greta Gerwig deserves an Oscar for this screenplay, and Margot Robbie deserves recognition for her incredibly complicated role. Barbie, is the essential social satire we didn't know we needed. I am so grateful that I got to share this ingenious, hilarious and beautiful film with my fifteen-year-old daughter. No movie made me smile more. On Crave-HBO.

8. Blackberry 

A wildly entertaining, triumphantly tragic true story, that is proudly Canadian, Forget, Air (2023), and all those other capitalistic works of cinema, this is the cautionary tale of the year. Matt Johnson is quickly becoming one of my favourite filmmakers, and both Jay Baruchel and Glenn Howerton give the performances of their careers. On CBC Gem and Crave.

9. Beau Is Afraid

A hallucinogenic, anxiety-ridden odyssey. In other words, the most affordable therapy I've ever received, and one of the funniest movies of the year. Ari Aster is Kubrick incarnate. The fact that this movie exists is a miracle onto itself. On Paramount+.

10. The Zone of Interest

Jonathan Glazer is the king of making unforgettable films you may never wish to watch again. The Zone of Interest is a powerful and provocative work of art. Sadly essential as it explores the mundane aspects and complicities of evil. It's a film I couldn't stop thinking about for days after. Available to Rent.

Honourable Mentions (alphabetically):

Anatomy of a Fall (Prime Video)

Are You There God? It's Me Margaret (Starz) 

Bottoms (Prime Video)

John Wick 4 (Starz) 

Killers of the Flower Moon (AppleTV+) 

Oppenheimer (Prime Video)

Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse (Crave-HBO)

Still: A Michael J. Fox Movie (AppleTV+)  

Talk to Me (Netflix) 

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Mutant Mayhem (Paramount+)

[slightlytheatreobsessed]

Be More Chill NYC Things

-Michael has a pride patch on his hoodie

-During Two-Player Game the background turns into the video game

-Jake dabs while talking to Christine at one point

-They added more singing parts for Jenna because Tiffany Mann is THAT good

-Michael wears weed socks throughout the whole thing

-After the boyf riends scene Michael says “My mothers would be thrilled” 

-Loser Geek Whatever is FANTASTIC

-The Payless guy says “We’ve got a new order of crocs that are lit AF”

-The Bows song is a variation of Two-Player Game

[doopy-n-loopy]

Yandere Saxton hale hcs?

Of course! I do not know if you want this anymore cause I've been awayfor so long but here it is anyways, if you don't enjoy it someone else will 💞

Two people requested for this lol @bonkcola

Yan!Saxton Hale (Tf2) × GN! Reader Headcannons/Imagines

// Yandere themese, obsessive, stalker, implied power difference/ power abuse, general abuse

You are an intern for Mann.Co, also some mentions of Miss Pauling in the HC but she's not a big part of it

[SFW]

🇭🇲💪You didn't think much about applying for a job at Mann Co, you especially didn't expect to meet a man who barely wears a shirt to show off his Australia shaped chest hair was a bit surprising

🇭🇲💪You ignored it anyways, but he eyed you up and down the first time you met, he didn't keep his vulgar comments to himself and had no qualms about sharing them directly to you

🇭🇲💪 In fact, he never held back with the comments

🇭🇲💪 He would say raunchy things to you all the time because he knew he could and there was nothing you could do about it

🇭🇲💪"lookin good, hot tits" was one of them

🇭🇲💪 Miss P, a sweet lady you worked with, told you to ignore it since he was usually like this towards the female employees when they first start working

🇭🇲💪 However, this lasted for months, Even Miss P was surprised by this. She made a joke about him liking you more than the others, little did she know, this was more than a joke

🇭🇲💪Saxton would often pop by your office to see how things were going like all employees but he'd get... Personal

🇭🇲💪 He was friendly, and would often crack jokes or offer to buy you coffee

🇭🇲💪 He would also flex his muscles a lot when you were around, you were warned that he'd do this from time to time but you didn't realize time to time meant every day

🇭🇲💪 More time passed, and as the days went by, Saxton seemed to get closer to you

🇭🇲💪You brushed it off, thinking that he felt bad for putting you in an office so secluded from everyone else in the facility

🇭🇲💪 A friendly pat on the back usually led you to being pulled in for a little hug, which would change to a deeper embrace into his broad chest

🇭🇲💪 You thought he was like this with all workers but surprisingly it was just you, again, you brushed it off though

🇭🇲💪 And then another male co worker began talking to you, and Saxton saw

🇭🇲💪Saxton wouldn't talk to you for the rest of the day and gave you the could shoulder and multiple passive-aggresive remarks

🇭🇲💪 Again, you just chalked it up to him having a bad day and left him alone

🇭🇲💪 However, your new friend went missing. His body was then found mutilated behind Mann Co. HQ, barely recognizable.

🇭🇲💪 And forget about leaving the company to work somewhere safer, because he'd always stop you with more than obvious threats

🇭🇲💪 "You can leave... Or you can try! We'll have to get rid of you if you even think about it!" Always in a tone that sounded like he thought it was funny, but you were horrified

🇭🇲💪 But other than that, Saxton took this time to get even closer to you, and used your grief to his advantage

🇭🇲💪 give him some slack, Saxton doesn't realize how manipulative he is

🇭🇲💪Saxton however makes really weird remarks to you, and you start to notice something is off about him

🇭🇲💪"Did you appreciate how he looked? He's not much to look at, that little loser doesn't even have any muscle!"

🇭🇲💪 You were shocked at how Saxton insulted him, and how focused he was on your relationship with him

🇭🇲💪He didn't realize why you were so upset and stormed off, but later that night he thought it was a good time to confess to you

🇭🇲💪When he confessed to you, as per usual, Saxton made it about himself. He made sure to emphasize how attractive he and his muscles are, and that pissed you off

🇭🇲💪 You have had enough, and were tired of all the crazy things happening around you- now this? It was too much and you snapped at him

🇭🇲💪 He went silent.

🇭🇲💪 He then became extremely enraged and confused

🇭🇲💪 "Are you seriously rejecting me, Saxton Hale? Y/N you'll regret this"

🇭🇲💪 You trued to storm off but he grabbed you, and everything went black

🇭🇲💪You woke up in a basement, your arm did not feel sore even though Saxton gripped you harshly. He has a surprising amount of strength-control, well, only when it comes to you

🇭🇲💪 He doesn't really know how to take care of you- he gives you multiple gifts most of which are just things with pictures of his face and chest on them

🇭🇲💪 He constantly reassures you that he'll make you love him, and maybe you do, maybe you don't, either way- he'll never let you go now.

🇭🇲💪He tries to be gentle with you but if you get out of hand, or disobey him- he'll give you a pretty nasty bruise

🇭🇲💪 He loves praise so you could calm him down with that

🇭🇲💪 He often makes you sleep with him (literally) in his bed and snuggle up next to him

[NSFW]

🇭🇲💪 He would always grope you during work, for example, he would slap you on the ass as you were delivering papers, pinch your butt as you walked by, caressed your thigh, and more

🇭🇲💪 He would also purposely drop things in front of you, knowing you'd pick them up and hand it to him- he would take that time to sneak and peek at your ass

🇭🇲💪 He definitely got off to the way you smelled

This isn't much but I hope it's enough for you darlings out there 💞 more yantent coming soon! I'm not good at writing for Saxton tbh

[mellometal]

Is it time to tear ANOTHER Dhar Mann video to shreds? YOU BET.

I've been sitting on this one for a bit because I wanted to make sure I talk about this tactfully. The subject of parents abandoning their disabled children is a very touchy one.

Parents abandoning their disabled children simply for being disabled is way too common. Like, I understand that not everyone has the resources to care for a disabled child (which is why you reach out for help, and why people like me, who work with disabled people, exist), but it doesn't mean you just walk out of their life. There are exceptions, like if you truly didn't want children or something like that, but just flat-out walking out of your kid's life BECAUSE they're disabled is fucked up.

I know someone personally whose biological mother abandoned her when she was born. Why? Because she's disabled. Physically, and mentally, to a point. I work with this woman on a daily basis. I don't really know WHY exactly her biological mother abandoned her, but I do know that her being disabled was part of it. It's sad. It doesn't affect her, thankfully. I'm happy that she's got her biological dad, her brother, and another maternal figure in her life, at least.

ANYWAYS. Before we get to the topic at hand, I need to put an obligatory trigger warning, like I do with EVERY Dhar Mann post:

This post will be talking about parents abandoning their disabled children simply for being disabled, treating disabilities like they're tragedies (in this case, we're talking about autism...again), divorce, and some SPICY ableist bullshit from an allistic (nonautistic) PIECE OF SHIT.

If any of this triggers you or makes you uncomfortable in any way, you don't have to read this post. This isn't worth putting yourself in a bad state mentally. I would never ask for any of you to put yourselves in that position all for a post. Put your mental health and well-being first. Consume media that sparks joy for you.

As far as my response goes, it's definitely more calm than normal. Funny....since this video is about autism spectrum disorder again. (Third time's the charm, huh, Dhar Mann? NOT.)

LET'S FUCKING GET IT.

The video starts off with these two parents (Gwen and Allen) in a psychologist's office. The psychologist tells the parents that their son (Chance) is autistic, and she tries to explain what autism is to the parents, but Allen cuts her off. Why? Because he teaches at a prestigious university, so he AUTOMATICALLY knows what autism is from that fact alone.

Um, excuse me? Just because you're a teacher at a prestigious university, it doesn't mean you're an expert in everything. It doesn't make you an expert in ASD or anything like that. Unless you SPECIALIZE in that area. Even then, shut the fuck up. The people who know about being autistic are AUTISTIC PEOPLE THEMSELVES! SHOCKER.

Hey, Dhar Mann! QUIT WITH THE VIDEOS ABOUT AUTISTIC LITTLE WHITE BOYS AND YOUNG WHITE AUTISTIC CISHET MEN! I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT. It's annoying, ignorant, and it feels like you're doing this on purpose at this point to piss people off. If you're so uninformed about autism in women and girls, FUCKING ASK AUTISTIC WOMEN AND GIRLS! DO BETTER RESEARCH THAT DOESN'T INVOLVE AUTISM SPEAKS. The Autism Self Advocacy Network (ASAN) and the Autistic Women and Nonbinary People Network (AWN) are great organizations to go to for any kind of research on ASD in women and girls. STOP GOING OFF OF THE BRAINS OF AUTISTIC WHITE BOYS AND AUTISTIC WHITE MEN.

I don't feel I need to go too deep into the fact that autistic women, autistic girls, autistic nonbinary people, autistic BIPOC, autistic AAPI, autistic LGBT people, autistic teenagers, and autistic adults exist. Y'all already know.

Gwen asks the psychologist if that means Chance isn't healthy. (I understand not knowing about autism, but don't treat it like it's a terminal illness. Please.) The psychologist tells her that Chance is fine, but he just learns differently and might need more support compared to his peers.

Yeah, autism can affect how you learn about certain things (limited and repetitive patterns), but there are other disabilities that can affect learning as well. Like how dyslexia can affect your ability to read, dyspraxia can affect your ability to do math, and Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) can affect your ability to focus or on impulse control. Autism affects how your brain is developed, it affects you socially, behaviorally, and how you communicate.

Allen is upset, says that he can't have a son "with a learning disability" (ASD is a neurological disability, not necessarily a learning disability), and treats Chance like he's stupid for being autistic. Gwen tells her husband that autism doesn't make you any less intelligent, WHICH IS SO FUCKING TRUE. ABSOLUTE FACTS. I was totally with her until she began that little monologue with "Just because a person HAS autism". SAY "JUST BECAUSE A PERSON'S AUTISTIC" INSTEAD! IT'S NOT HARD. PERSON FIRST LANGUAGE ISN'T WHAT EVERY DISABLED PERSON PREFERS. Allen says that "they could have another kid" and "put Chance up for adoption". Gwen obviously wasn't down with that. Allen gives his wife an ultimatum that it's either HIM or their son Chance. Gwen says that she can't choose between the two, but she will stand by her autistic son. Allen gets up and leaves the office, saying he wants a divorce.

Years pass by, Gwen is single and taking care of her autistic son Chance, and Allen has a new life with a ✨perfect son✨ (Samuel). He never mentions the son HE abandoned (Chance). He's completely forgotten about Gwen and Chance. (YOU OWE SO MUCH CHILD SUPPORT, ALLEN.)

Hey, Allen, how much do you wanna bet that your ✨perfect son✨ Samuel is autistic too?

There's the SATs, they're announcing a winner, and guess who it is? IT'S OBVIOUSLY CHANCE, OF COURSE. He's got the highest score in the country, with Samuel in second place. Allen is PISSED.

Chance gives a speech about how his mom really helped him, he struggled with autism, how Allen LITERALLY ABANDONED HIM, and THE CROWD GOES FUCKING WILD. Samuel, instead of being a sore loser, APPLAUDS FOR CHANCE. Stay humble, Sam.

My thoughts on the video? If you cannot tell by my tone throughout this post, IT WAS DOG SHIT. This video was insensitive to the true reality of parents abandoning their disabled children just because they're disabled. What do I expect from Dhar Mann at this point?

Here's my response to his video below. Don't worry, I will fully type out my response soon for anyone who cannot read the screenshots easily. It's a lot easier for me to do that on the desktop site than it is for me to do it on my phone.

For anyone who can’t read my response, I’m typing it out for you. Like I said, it’s easier for me to type it out on the desktop site than it is for me to type it out on my phone. It’s a real royal pain in the ass. But because I’m trying to make my posts easier to read for people, I’m doing this anyway. /lighthearted

First, second, and third screenshots (broken up into paragraphs):

Hey, listen, I appreciate the message you’re trying to go for, but can you please stop putting autistic people into a box? Can you stop treating being autistic like it’s a tragedy? Not every single autistic person is a little white boy in elementary school who’s considered “wild and unruly” or “super quiet and makes no friends”, nor are they a young white cishet man who’s a super genius or is how Chris Chan was before she came out as trans. (For anyone who doesn’t know about Chris Chan, there are many documentaries people have made on YouTube, and I highly recommend Geno Samuel’s docuseries, if you’re really interested in learning about Chris Chan.)

Autistic women, girls, nonbinary people, BIPOC, APPI, LGBT people, teenagers, and adults all exist too. 

It’s very apparent now that you get your resources from Autism $peaks, a hate group that spends the vast majority of their money on funding eugenics instead of helping autistic people like they claim, claims that only little white boys and young white cishet men are autistic and ignores all other autistic people who don’t fit that description, have no autistic people on their leader board or on any board for that matter, have members who have actually fantasized about k1lling their autistic children, treat autism like it’s a tragedy or a disease someone can catch (completely false), act like autism should be cured (there is no cure, and ABA therapy is a total shit show in itself), and treats autistic people like they’re broken and need to be fixed. Also, not every autistic person is a Super Genius(tm). That’s so demeaning to autistic people who aren’t seen as intelligent in any way. I’m autistic and seen as smart; however, there are subjects I’m stronger in than others.

If you can’t handle the possibility of having autistic children, or just disabled children in general, DON’T HAVE CHILDREN. If you can’t handle working with or alongside disabled people, including autistic people, maybe find a different profession. Even if you do that, you’ll never get away from disabled people. Disabled people aren’t a disease. We’re human beings just like neurotypical and able-bodied people.

Fourth and fifth screenshots (broken up into paragraphs): 

I would highly suggest getting resources from reputable organizations for ASD, such as the Autism Self Advocacy Network (ASAN) and the Autistic Women and Nonbinary People Network (AWN). Talk to any autistic person who isn’t a little white boy or a young white cishet man. 

Instead of using the puzzle piece, which is a symbol that many autistic people, myself included, are offended by (because of Autism $peaks and other organizations before them using it, plus it symbolizes that only autistic children exist and that we’re “missing a piece” like we’re broken), use the rainbow infinity sign (for all neurodivergent people) or the red and gold infinity sign (just for autistic people). Instead of “lighting it up blue”, light it up red or gold. Do both if you want. 

I’m actually really sick and tired of seeing just autistic little white boys and young autistic white cishet men being represented in the media, and y’all manage to fuck that up too. 

Before anyone mentions Sia’s movie “Music”, that’s also very poor representation of autistic girls. Besides, the actress who played the autistic girl isn’t even autistic. She MOCKED autistic people. I know she’s a kid, but that’s still super fucked up. I hope she’s able to turn that around. 

If anyone would like to discuss this topic with me or ask any questions, feel free to. I’ll answer as best as I can. Thank you and have a good night.

Before I get attacked for mentioning Chris Chan in my response, I bring up Chris Chan because allistic people think that every autistic person is like her (especially before she came out as trans). That person is part of why I wasn't open about being autistic or talking about my diagnosis until this year. I didn't want to be grouped up with Chris Chan because I do have very similar interests to her, I've been seen as cringey for having said interests, and just the way Chris treated autistic people who were formerly diagnosed with A$p3rg3r$ $yndr0m3 (like I was) really made me feel even more alienated.

Also, S1a supports A$ (Autism $p3aks). She's not a very good person to support. Some of her music is good, but her as a person....no. Her movie "Music" was gross, from what I've read about it and seen pictures of.

If you've read this far, thank you so much!

[st-just]

Semi-coherent Queen’s Gambit thoughts

Overall I really did enjoy the show, even if it might be a bit shallow, once you dig into it. Or, well,, having thought about it I could write a damning denunciation on request, anyway (but that’s true of basically everything I watch, so). Aesthetically gorgeous, of course. But honestly, what’s most interesting to me is how, like, deceptively upbeat and optimistic and generally joyful show it is?

Okay, so firstly – I really do mean it when I say it’s aesthetically beautiful. This show has singlehandidly convinced me that every change in fashion since the ‘60s has been a strict downgrade. The soundtrack’s absolutely sublime as well, both the licensed tracks and just the score – I’m almost certainly going to just be listening to the soundtrack as walking around music for quite a while. I’m no expert on cinematography, but there were a few scenes that were absolutely just showing off, and I sure as hell enjoyed the show (the American championship montage, obviously, and the pull-out in the Moscow hotel. And, well, pretty much every important chess game/tournament). Anna Taylor-Joy absolutely makes the show, and literally anyone whose watched more than two minutes of it probably agrees. Has one of those faces that is just amazing at getting across emotions and ideas without actually saying anything (and without looking like an idiot trying to do so). Really, the comparison that springs to mind is Mathew Rhys and Kerri Russel in The Americans, which is just about the highest praise I, personally, can give. So, yeah, give her and the people in costuming and set design Emmys, at a minimum.

And – getting critiques out of the way, in descending order of how much I care. Jolene is absolutely the most stereotypically Black Best Friend sort of character imaginable, and the conversation where she basically looks at the camera and says she doesn’t just exist to be Beth’s guardian angel doesn’t actually help that much. Beth finally summoning up the self belief and willpower to flush away her lifelong pill habit in the middle of a tournament and playing the next day without any sort of problems was a bit twee. Between the show’s utterly despair inducing vision of the life the women Beth went to school with have and Julie’s whole vitriolic anti-model spiel the show can come off a bit #notlikeothergirls (incidentally, whoever got the French a national stereotype of being sexy, well-dressed and sophisticated deserves a bigger statue in Paris). And, yeah, it’s not unjustifiable or even, like, unusually bad, but Beth hitting rock bottom does end up looking a lot like a playboy spread.

But, okay – when I say the series is remarkably upbeat what I mostly (magical addiction-curing character development aside) mean is that the world (or at last, the world of chess) is shown as fundamentally uplifting, kind, and pure. The conflict of the show is either the result of forced interactions with the rest of society, or Beth struggling with her own damage. Her birth mother and father, the orphanage, her utter piece-of-shit of an adoptive father, the other girls at school – these are all, broadly, terrible. But chess itself is an entirely positive part of her life, and while some of the people she meets through it are rude or condescending at first, they basically all very quickly grow to respect her and become extremely invested in her well-being and success (her relationship with her adoptive mother also becomes more positive and loving basically entirely in proportion to how supportive she is of Beth’s chess career). All of her rivals turn out to be gracious losers and perfect gentleman, and also usually fall in love with her (which, well, fair), and the closest things the series has to a defined, hateable villain (beyond Beth’s self-destructive tendencies) is her adoptive father,  not anyone in the chess world that consumes the vast majority of the plot.

The show’s take on gender roles and period-appropriate patriarchy. There is, to borrow and probably butcher (I believe) Kate Manne’s there is quite a lot of sexism in the show, but almost no misogyny. Which is to say, Beth has to deal with plenty of condescension, double-standards, suffocating expectations, and generally being being looked at askance, and the show is absolutely crystal clear that actually living up to those expectations is a miserable, soul-crushing, dream-killing husk of a life. But when she ignores them and demands to be accepted as a serious chess-player, once she shows that she’s as good as she acts like she is, everyone just, well, lets her. There’s no enforcement mechanism to the patriarchy, or if there is Beth is too exceptional to ever even see it. And no one ever becomes hateful or violently insecure when shown up by her – quite the opposite, really.

Semi-related, but for a show set during the Cold War it’s got an oddly positive view of the Soviet Union. Benny’s rant about how people actually care about chess and give it prestige, and how chess players there actually work together and cooperate instead of being obsessed with individual achievement (which the rest of the show goes on to make very clear is a virtue and something worth copying). There was a bit in the last episode along the same lines that actually made me smile – when the State Department/CIA goon asks Beth to tell the reporters how being in Moscow has made her proud to be an American, when she clearly (imo) is rather fond of the sudden adoring crowds and the reverence her sport is treated with.

Beyond jokes about the there being another universe 10 degrees off from this one where the whole thing is a VN where you beat each potential love interest in chess to unlock them, the comparison that comes to mind is honestly Among Others by Jo Walton. Not for, like, tone or subject matter or anything, but just for the general arc of ‘Weird Girl in mid 20th century deals with horrifying childhood trauma and alienation from the social life expected of her by diving headfirst into nerdy/esoteric subculture”.

But yeah, anyway, gorgeous, enjoyable show. Would watch again. Give Taylor-Joy an Emmy. Thank you again to @triviallytrue and @rox-and-prose for the recommendation. 

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

LETTERS FROM AN AMERICAN

June 29, 2021

Heather Cox Richardson

Last week, Florida governor Ron DeSantis became the latest Republican governor to sign a bill making it harder for citizens to shift away from the fossil fuels that are changing the climate. The move came after Miami, which is in danger as sea levels rise, proposed cutting carbon emissions by banning natural gas infrastructure in new buildings. The bill was written by lawyers for utility companies, based on a pattern written by the American Gas Association. Lobbyists for the Florida Petroleum Association, the Florida Natural Gas Association and the Florida Retail Federation, the Florida Home Builders Association, and the National Utility Contractors Association of Florida supported the bill.

Nine other Republican states have already passed similar legislation.

Republican-led states are defending the use of fossil fuels in other ways. News that President Biden’s climate envoy, John Kerry, was urging major U.S. banks to invest responsibly with an eye to the climate crisis, led the state treasurers of West Virginia, Alabama, Arizona, Arkansas, Idaho, Kentucky, Mississippi, Missouri, Nebraska, North Dakota, Ohio, Oklahoma, Pennsylvania, South Carolina, and South Dakota to write to him expressing their “deep concern” that he, along with other members of the Biden administration, was pressuring banks “to refuse to lend to or invest in coal, oil, and natural gas companies, as a part of a misguided strategy to eliminate the fossil fuel industry in our country.” They accused the Biden administration of “picking economic winners and losers” according to “Biden’s own radical political preferences,” and thus depriving “the people” of agency.

Coal, oil, and natural gas are crucial to their states’ economies, they said, providing “jobs, health insurance, critical tax revenue, and quality of life.” They warned that they would withhold public funds from any banks that refused to lend to fossil fuel industries.

And yet, historically, the government has picked fossil fuels as a winner that outranks any other energy source. While Republicans tend to claim any spending for alternative energies is wasteful, a recent report by the Stockholm Environment Institute, a nonprofit think tank, says that U.S. subsidies to new oil and gas projects inflate their value by up to $20 billion per year. This would seem to fly in the face of Republican complaints about “socialism” in which the government picks winners and losers.

A recent Morning Consult poll shows that 50% of voters say climate change is a critical threat to America. Another 26% think it is important, but not critical. Among Democrats, 75% think climate change is crucial, while another 17% say it is important. Among Republicans, 21% say that climate change is crucial, while another 37% say it is important, but not crucial.

With this support for addressing climate change, why do Republicans appear to be dead set against dealing with it in a meaningful way and instead are propping up the fossil fuels that feed that change?

At the nomination hearing for now–Secretary of the Interior Deb Haaland, who has promised to protect our lands, Senator John Barrasso (R-WY), the top Republican on the Senate Energy and Natural Resources Committee, told Haaland that his state collects more than a billion dollars a year in royalties and taxes from the oil, gas, and coal produced on federal lands in the state, and warned that the Biden administration is “taking a sledgehammer to Western states’ economies.”

Oil produces the most revenue for Texas, which earned $16.3 billion from oil in 2019, an amount that made up 7% of the state’s revenue. Oil revenues accounted for 70% of state revenues ($1.1 billion) in Alaska in 2019, 52% of state revenues ($2.2 billion) in Wyoming in 2017, and 45% of the revenues ($1.6 billion) in North Dakota in 2017.

But production declines in the past year due to the coronavirus pandemic have hurt these fossil fuel states. Wyoming expects to have 29% less money than it expected in 2021–2022. Alaska expects an estimated 18% budget deficit in fiscal 2021. Without money coming in from fossil fuels, people will have to make up the difference by paying taxes, an unpopular outcome, especially in Republican-dominated states, or by losing even more services.

Reducing dependence on fossil fuels will also cost current jobs, and one of the hallmarks of an economy developed around an extractive industry is that it tends to have little flexibility. The rural American West was developed around extractive economies, with a few wealthy men employing lots of workers, and its limited economy means that workers cannot transition easily into other fields.

Fossil fuel advocates also contribute mightily to Republican campaigns, adding financial interest to party members’ general dislike of regulation. In Florida, utility companies employ an average of one lobbyist for every two legislators. “It’s no secret we play an active role in public policy,” a spokesman for a Florida utility told Rolling Stone’s Tim Dickinson in 2016.

This week, in the Pacific Northwest, temperatures in Portland, Oregon, reached 115°F; Seattle hit 108°. Canada hit its highest temperature on record: 116°F in British Columbia. Roads are buckling and power cables melting. In the New York Times today, climate scientist Michael Mann and climate communicator Susan Joy Hassol warned that the conditions of our earth will only get worse unless we do something. But, they wrote, “A rapid transition to clean energy can stabilize the climate, improve our health, provide good-paying jobs, grow the economy and ensure our children’s future.”

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Notes:

https://www.flsenate.gov/Session/Bill/2021/919/BillText/er/PDF

https://www.miamiherald.com/news/politics-government/state-politics/article249783273.html

https://www.npga.org/news-resources/florida-enacts-law-protecting-propane-and-natural-gas/

https://www.wfla.com/news/florida/local-florida-governments-cant-restrict-dirty-energy-usage-under-new-law-signed-by-desantis/

https://www.documentcloud.org/documents/20788734-state-treasurers-letter-to-john-kerry-on-fossil-fuel-lending-w-signatures

https://www.politico.com/news/2021/03/12/kerry-to-wall-street-put-your-money-behind-your-climate-pr-475565

https://newrepublic.com/article/162842/tax-breaks-fossil-fuel-companies-inflated-profits-oil-gas-drilling

https://morningconsult.com/2021/04/27/paris-agreement-climate-change-threat-poll/

https://trib.com/business/energy/rules-to-keep-coal-fired-power-plants-burning-in-wyoming-are-expected-soon/article_f6feb1f0-21c6-54b6-8de9-91cb98615263.html

https://www.theguardian.com/business/2021/feb/07/massive-losses-should-be-a-warning-to-big-oil-that-its-bonanza-is-over

https://www.rollingstone.com/politics/politics-news/the-koch-brothers-dirty-war-on-solar-power-193325/

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/06/29/opinion/heat-dome-climate-change.html

LETTERS FROM AN AMERICAN

HEATHER COX RICHARDSON

[jrueships]

What wips do you have rn 👀 elaborate pspspspsp

Too many wips.. thats what I have rn.. too many...

WJBFJEBF so the ones I'm most focusing on rn is the spiderman! Donovan/royce au!! So far I wrote the whole exposition and I'm working on the 'enticing incident' LMFAO it's upgraded from my last summary so I have more to write because I'm insane but yeah! It's the one I want done the most but I'm also gonna go on a trip with my buds to this place without wifi for like? Four days so 😭 I might have to finish it there and wait forever until I can post it! And I'm still unsure about the ending!!! THE STRUGGLE

a shorter fic I have in mind still is the russell waiting for kd at a table for two but he never shows up fic! I just really like writing russell widjsbf but not much action happens there! Many just dialogue and a lot of pg fashion/life roasting from Russell's inner dialogue. He's very judgemental of people who give off douchebag frat bro vibes but can't help but feel intrigued by them JABFJWB oh and he makes fun of pg simping for gold diggers

The fics I have written partly but put back in the burner are my donovan/jaylen fic, marcus/giannis, pg/kawhi jealousy fic, pg/kawhi sm*t fic, pg/kawhi space au, and john/trae patroclus and Achilles au! Mainly because they're super long and I get nervous about writing them too much and wasting all my muse on one thing, so I get scared and back off 😭 but I'll tell u the basic summary of them!!

💙 donovan/jaylen fic is based off the idea of donovan going grocery shopping and getting all mad at the thought of the clippers LMFAO. Basically he's at a grocery store getting flowers for his sports medicine doctor for always putting up with his bullshit (never wanting to sit down and relax so he can actually heal. Playing through the pain). But as he shops, he keeps finding the simplest shit that reminds him of the clippers. Like he sees a claw machine and thinks about Kawhi and how collected that guy is, just chillin in the upper stands, while his team is facing a possible defeat. Donny gets all frustrated because like?? He can't just do that? Just sit back and chill while his team is playing without him? Donny HAS to help, has to GET OUT THERE!! kawhi Doesn't... but kawhi is the one who won a championship. And donovan starts doubting his leadership skills and if he's really good for his team.. if he let them down by being Too pushy and Too in their faces.

+ and then when he's getting a cute card to go with the flowers, he spots one that says "you're the man!!" And he thinks about terance Mann and his great game against them, how proud pg, basically his mentor, was of him. And it makes donovan think about his loss and how he couldn't get that same pride out of Dwyane Wade.

Overall, everything makes him feel useless af and he almost kicks a shelf out of anger. But he calms himself down and goes back to the flowers because he actually only got this little dinky green plant still struggling to bloom? He got it for himself because he felt bad for it LMAO but he still needs to get flowers for his sports medicine doctor. He's goes back to the flower section and who does he see? JAYLEN BROWN all gussied up in his depression fit LMFAO.. but they both are. Jaylen and him try to joke but they're both tired and awkward so it sucks IABDKSBD they basically just ask what the other is doing there. Jaylen is just traveling rn because he got nothin else to do IWBDKS but he bought Deuce a souvenir gift! And he asks Donovan if he can help him put it in his trunk (but really he doesn't need donovan's help. He can pick the toy up himself. He just knows that Donovan is too stubborn to accept help when he needs it but he'll always try helping others out! So he wants donny to think he's helping jaylen but in reality jaylen is trying to help HIm because at the car he invites Donovan to go meet up at a hotel with him where they kiss and have sad *** to make themselves feel better WKBFKSBX) that's basically it!!!! I have literally everything written but the *** scene they're literally my weakness.. I love the emotions they make but I hate.. describing the actions it takes to make them?? Idk I just feel cheesy writing it? It's very tedious and boring to actually crank my brain for a synonym to 'moan' because I'm tired of using that word but it's the only word that really applies to that situation without sounding weird, yknow?? Just very tedious

💙💙💙 OK so marcus/giannis idk bro like... it's just taking so long IWBKENF idk what to say except giannis makes a ton of small jokes at marcus

💙💙 OK so pg/kawhi jealousy fic... BASICALLY the plot is LeBron hosts some big rich guy party for the NBA because I need a reason to write all these people that live far apart interacting together OKAY??? But anyways it takes place after 2020 lakers winning the championship! Pg convince the clippers to come or else they'll look bad for being the only team not coming and they media will have a field day with them, so the clippers join the party. Basically everyone who later team up in 2021 are talking to eachother LMFAO like James hardon+kyrie+kd are talking while russell westbrook and beal are bonding over dance moves with a jealous John wall pouting in the corner. Obligatory Marcus and giannis interactions because I can. Kyle and demar are laughing together. It's all goood until LeBron waltzes over with his weird ass feet and starts talking to kawhi. Hes being all Handsome and Strong and lowkey flexing his win. Its starting to make pg suspicious so he keeps intruding upon the conversation. His inner dialogue is basically a ton of lebron hate KABFKWB. LeBron sometimes comments back to pg but ends up kinda tuning him outta the conversation and sly dissing him to kawhi like "how does it feel talking to someone who doesn't hit the side of the backboard lol"

Pg is starting to get nervous because he's trying to compete against LEBRON over who's the better teammate for kawhi.. and with his current playoff history.. he's not gonna win. He keeps trying to get kawhi out of the conversation, but lebron keeps drawing him back in and pg ends up giving up or he risks looking like an overbearing girlfriend.. So he slinks off in hopes of distracting himself. Originally, pg thought KAWHI would be the one standing all alone awkwardly in the room with no one to talk to, but it's slowly becoming HIM who's the lonely one LMFAO. He tries joining in bradley and Russ's conversation because HEY!! Everybody leaves russ! Russ must be SUUUPER lonely and DESPERATE for someone to talk to him‼ especially when his old ex durant is out there plotting with his two hydra heads!! paul thought, anyways, but finds out russ is actually having the time of his life clowning around with beal !! That just makes pg even more envious and he walks away with zero satisfaction of feeling superior JABDJSB he tries talking to John wall like "this party fuckin sucks bro" but John kinda barks at him and pg gives up. He tries talking to marcus and giannis but that was a mistake because the two smartiest smartasses in the room start roasting him together so he's shunned back to pretending like he's getting 700 thirsty women in his dms, AKA pretending like he got a text on his phone while he leans alone on a wall LMFAO. After glancing up periodically (and casually) to see if kawhi is still talking to lebron, he later gives up on playing popular and goes to hide in the bathroom like a fucking loser WHDJBFJEBD in summary he kinda broods and steams about how much he hates lebron and how he's 'so much better than him' and he's just thinking of petty insults against him to try and convince the kawhi in his mind not to leave him for lebron. He gets really mad and punches a mirror, but thank God lebron is playing bass boosted music so no one at the party hears it.

But, demar ends up knocking on the door. He needs to shit. So pg is like.. what do I do with this broken mirror and my bleeding hand.. so he tries to keep demar out and they banter and eventually demar notices its kinda weird for pg to be huddled up in the bathroom instead of partying.. he must be getting high or smthin. So he's like "that's fucking stupid. He can go get high in one of lebrons 700 rooms. Why The bathroom." So he just opens the door LANKDN and sees The Scene.

At first he's like "are u paying for that.." to which pg responds with "uhhh. I tripped and hit my head on it" (while clutching a bleeding fist) but then he realizes OHHH pg must be ... OH is he.. no.. he can't be limp wristed... blah blah they end up bonding over their funny situations: demar being jealous of kawhi and feeling like kyle thinks he sucks because of him. Pg being jealous of lebron and feeling like kawhi thinks he sucks because of him. Blah blah it's a bittersweet ending pg becomes a little less of a jerk blah blah I haven't finished it because I'm stupid and WEAK

💙💙💙💙 pg/kawhi space au is just too long I have to be in the mood to write it or I end up dismissing good details I could have included if i wasn't in such a burnt out mind!

💙💙💙 pg/kawhi sm*t fic I gotta be in the mood to detail the h*rny right 😭😭

💙💙💙 john/trae patroclus and Achilles is mainly just an idea but with no plot!

But yeah!!! Those are SOME of my wips!! This post is really long tho so I'll just shout out those!!!@ thank u for the interest tho that's so cute 😭😭😭 it helps me write more when I have a plot lined up to look off of and remember ideas so this is really helpful to me too!!! I'll be shocked if u read this far tbh!! But anyways THANK U ALWAYS FOR THE ASKS, ANON!!!!!

[dwellsinparadise]

30 One-Sentence Lessons from Literature

1. Hamlet by William Shakespeare: Just make up your mind already, dude.

2. Anything by Stephen Crane: It doesn’t matter what you do - the Universe still thinks you’re super lame.

3. Don Quixote by Miguel de Cervantes: You can never read too many novels…oh wait, maybe you can…

4. 2001: A Space Odyssey by Arthur C. Clarke: As they say in the Lion King, it’s the circle of life, people.

5. Moby-Dick by Herman Melville: When a big ol’ whale pisses you off by gnawing on your leg like it’s a chicken bone, go to physical therapy and seek emotional support from friends and family, rather than dragging lots of other people with you on a suicide mission to mess up that dang whale.

6. The Magic Mountain by Thomas Mann: Treat every out-of-town visit like a permanent move, cause you never know if you’ll wind up staying there, like, 10 years or something.

7. Sister Carrie by Theodore Dreiser: Cluelessness is not something you want to broadcast when you’re a young woman in strange new city, for you’ll just become a skeevy-guy magnet.

8. Dracula by Bram Stoker: If you have a choice between Count Dracula’s castle and the Holiday Inn, stay at the Holiday Inn.

9. Frankenstein by Mary Shelley: If you absolutely must create a freakish monster thing, be sure to make a girlfriend for it, cause if you don’t, he’ll be really, really mad.

10. The Blithedale Romance by Nathaniel Hawthorne: It’s called a “utopia” for a reason, geniuses.

11. The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka: Sucks to be a bug.

12. Macbeth by William Shakespeare: You should treat your guests well by, you know, not murdering them in their beds.

13. Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain: When you travel around in a boat with a friend, away from human civilization, when you do run in to people you realize just how crazy they all are.

14. Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen: When it comes down to choosing between the hot guy who treats you like crap and the not-as- hot guy who treats you like a queen, it’s really not a choice at all.

15. An American Tragedy by Theodore Dreiser: When you start going out with two chickies at the same time, it gets really complicated.

16. Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert: You can’t always get what you want, but that’s no reason to poison yourself and die a horribly slow and painful death.

17. Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad: Don’t frighten the natives.

18. The War of the Worlds by H. G. Wells: When the freaky alien things come swooping down on Earth and shooting lasers or whatever at everyone, run as fast as you can cause those aliens are mean.

19. The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald: Yeah, yeah, money can’t buy happiness- check.

20. Tess of the D’Urbervilles by Thomas Hardy: Just when you thought that life couldn’t get any more unfair, you read Tess and lost any last shred of hope.

21. “Ulysses” by Alfred, Lord Tennyson: Strive to live a life that’s so awesome that, on your deathbed, you can say to your friends, “we had some really great times, huh guys?”

22. Finnegans Wake by James Joyce: A book that ends at its beginning and begins at its end is inviting you not to read it, and you should accept that invitation.

23. Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky: Crime, really, doesn’t pay- it just makes you turn your soul inside out and beat it with a stick, that is, if you’re an angst-ridden, depressed, 19th-century Russian guy.

24. The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton: Society cramps your style, but it’s so damn convenient when it accepts you.

25. Odyssey by Homer: Go through life looking straight ahead and ignoring all those bothersome people who try to get all up in your face and make their business your business- you know, like those kiosk people at the mall who accost you and spray you with some new perfume or whatever.

26. Buddenbrooks by Thomas Mann: Look, you can’t be awesome forever.

27. Remembrance of Things Past by Marcel Proust: Better not eat that corn chip- otherwise, you’ll be mentally transported back to that time when you were 9 years old and you went to that camp that you liked but stupid Andy whatever-his- last-name-was was there too and he ripped that bag of corn chips right out of your hand and you had just bought it with the last 50 cents you had left but you were too scared to tell the counselor cause Andy would have beaten you up. So yeah, ixnay on the cornchip-ay, monsieur.

28. Anything by e. e. cummings:

capital

letters

are for

losers.

29. King Lear by William Shakespeare: Don’t bother arguing with your parents. Or your children. Just don’t bother.

30. Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk: Don’t beat yourself up about it.

[forthehonorofraeskull]

what the be more chill broadway album did RIGHT

while this is old news, i still see hate on the bmc broadway cast recording. and yes, the original album may be superior, here are some things that the broadway album definitely did RIGHT

1. Keeping George Salazar

2. “Loser Geek Whatever”

3. The part in “The Play” when Christine sings about her love for Jeremy. They added a few “Jeremy”s for Christine to sing to the tune of “Christine.” The way she only said it once ALWAYS bugged me in the original album

4. B R I T T O N   S M I T H

5. “I’m tired of being the person that everyone thinks that I am”

6. The added emotion to “Michael in the Bathroom”, especially the choking on tears during “but I can’t hear knocking anymore”

7. Adding onto that, the key change in the main tune after he says that line. Like the iconic “dun dun dun dun dun, dun, dun!” I like the key change on the last note.

8. The instrumental break at the very beginning of “Two-Player Game” after “THE CAFETORIUM!!”

9. The part in “Upgrade” when Brooke says that she wants someone to see her first

10. *Pinkberry intensifies*

11. “Sync Up”

12. “It made me feel like, there just aren’t enough strong roles for women in theatre these days. Particularly high school theatre. Do you find that? Because I totally find that!”

13. soft michael :3

14. the absolute PRODUCTION of the music

15. I feel like “The Smartphone Hour” is just superior in the Broadway album

16. So is “Voices in My Head”

17. “A Guy That I’d Kinda Be Into (Reprise)”

18. The “naaaaa na na na na na na naaaa na na na” in “More Than Survive”

19. Will Roland’s acting

20. “S-stammer? N-no, I don’t stammer, I-”

21. In the background of The Squip Song, you can hear Rich’s SQUIP singing along

22. Every single damn time Tiffany Mann breathes

23. “My mothers would be thrilled!”

thank you for your time

[mytwilightimagines13]

Vampire (Caius Volturi) (Part Eight)

Word count: 1785

(Alright, this is mostly just the musical. Only the last part is back to the main characters part. If anyone wants to see the musical with English subtitles: Part one Part two I hope you will all enjoy it!)

The judge called upon Luigi Lucheni to tell his story. To tell the reason why he killed the beloved empress Elisabeth. “Nacht für Nacht dieselbe Frage. Seit hundert Jahren! Was soll die Fragerei? Merda. Ich bin tot!” he would shout in his defence. Yes, he indeed was dead, yet this was his punishment. Every night he would have to stand in front of a judge and explain why he had committed such a horrible crime. “Nennen Sie endlich die Hintergründe!” the judge would shout out to Lucheni, wanting the murderer to take his responsibility. “Die Hintergründe? Ich habe sie ermordet, weil sie es wollte!” was his reasoning. He had only murdered her because she wanted him to. “Und reden immer noch von… Elisabeth!” he would shout as the dead slowly rose up and started to chant about how to old world has sunken. Luchini sang about how Elisabeth hated them all, every single one of them while the dead chanted about how everyone has danced with Death, yet no one like Elisabeth. “Attenzione! Ihre Majestät der Tod!” he would shout as the room grew quiet. Death made her way down the stairs, looking down at the dead. Her hair hanging in loose curls down her back, the upper part clipped back neatly with a Celtic looking pin. She was completely clothed in white, looking like and angel. “Was hat es zu bedeuten: dies alte Lied. Das mir seit jenen Zeiten die Brust durchglüht? Engel nennen’s Freude, Teufel nennen’s Pein. Menschen meinen, es muss Liebe sein.” She sang, her voice lovely yet dangerous. Yes, love was a curse, and it stood in the way of her job. She quickly made her way further down the stairs, past the dead and past Lucheni. “Mein Auftrag heißt zerstören. Ich tu es kalt. Ich hol, die mir gehören, jung oder alt. Weiß nicht, wie geschehn kann, was es gar nicht gibt – Doch es stimmt: Ich habe sie geliebt” she sang, yes she had loved Elisabeth, and the game they had played throughout the empress life, even though she had no idea how it had happened.

The first meeting between Death and Elisabeth was when the empress was only sixteen years old. At a family meeting Elisabeth had climbed up a tree, when a branch had broken below her feet and she had plummeted to the ground. Death, now dressed completely in black, had swooped her in her arms and gently brought her back to the living, wanting nothing more than to take the young woman with her, but knowing she couldn’t do it just yet. Elisabeth was a flower in bloom, and her beauty had Death in awe. “Est ist Liebe! Per Dio!” came Lucheni’s explanation. “Wohin gehst du, schwarzer Prinzessin? Warum bleibst du nicht hier? Ich hab mich in deinen Armen wohlgefühlt. Und ich spürte eine Sehnsucht. Mich von allem zu befrei'n. Wie ein schwarzer Vogel. Stolz und allein. Ja, ich weiß, du bist der Tod. Und alle fürchten dich. Doch ich denk an dich. Was immer ich auch tu. Träume und Gedichte schreiben. Oder reiten mit dem Wind... Niemand versteht mich so wie du!” Was Elisabeth’s claim of love for Death, her Death. She didn’t want her dark princess to leave, not now that she had felt what freedom was. And no one had every understood her as much as she had. Yet Death turned her back towards the young girl now and disappeared, yet she always stayed close to her. Soon Elisabeth met her other love, Franz Joseph, emperor of Austria and soon their wonderful wedding day passed by. “Augustinerkirche, halb sieben Uhr abends. Merkwürdige Zeit für eine Trauung, aber passend, An diesem 24. April 1854. Sehr passend, porca miseria!” Lucheni shouted towards the judges. The crowd sang about how all the questions had been asked as the couple made its way towards the priest. “Wenn das Euer Wille ist, so antwortet mit Ja!” if this was their will, then they must answer once with Yes. “Ja!” was their answer. The wedding bells sounded and Death herself was hanging on the cord, pulling it down. Laughing frantically as she knew Elisabeth would be hers, and that Franz Joseph will begin the chain of events that would lead Elisabeth into her sweet embrace. Many of the guests along with Elisabeth’s father, mother and mother in law were bickering whether the young girl and the emperor were a good fit or not. As Elisabeth tried to dance in her own way, Franz kept the young girl on track of the classic waltz, not once giving her the freedom to dance the way she wanted to dance. Death looked at the young woman, a small smirk on her face as she and hear angels of death emerged. With a snap of her finger the angels spread and the guests froze on the spot. All but Elisabeth. Death held her hand out for Elisabeth, inviting her to dance. Elisabeth smiled and made her way towards Death and soon they circled around each other, never once touching. Soon Elisabeth got out of her trance and ran towards Franz Joseph, whom was still frozen in trance. Death made her way halfway up the slope, and slowly sat down in sync with her angels. She sang about the old song of one loved by two. “Der letzte Tanz, der letzte Tanz. Gehört allein nur mir! Den letzten Tanz, den letzten Tanz, Tanz ich allein mit dir!” she sang, her voice soft yet threatening. She sang about the time, how it influenced the wine and made it old, the air in the mirror hall was growing thick. Invisible eyes were watching the two of them, all of them waiting for their Rendezvous. Death grabbed Elisabeth and danced with her before pushing her down, in a dance of dominance, one that Death would win. “Und so wart' ich im Dunkeln. Und schau zu dir hin. Als der große Verlierer. Doch ich weiß, ich gewinn!” she sang, yes she was waiting in the darkness, looking like the loser, but she knew, she would win in the end. She ran up the slope as it ascended once more, making it into a bridge on the top of the stage. “Den letzten Tanz, den letzten Tanz. Tanz ich nur mit dir!” she sang, the final note long and strong before walking of the stage. Four years passed, Elisabeth herself very soon comes to regret her seemingly "fairy-tale marriage". She feels abandoned by her careless husband, psychologically abused by her possessive mother-in-law, and is chronically depressed due to her loneliness. There is only one thing that keeps her emotionally stimulated—the dark and sensual shadow of Death; but Elisabeth is reluctant to consummate their relationship. When Death takes her infant daughter, the tragedy shakes the young Empress extremely. “Nein!” Elisabeth shouted as her daughter blew out her last breath. She runs towards her but is stopped by Death and falls to her knees. Death sends her a gentle and welcoming smile. “Weißt du noch, wie wir erbebten. Als wir zwei im Tanze schwebten? Du brauchst mich. Ja, du brauchst mich.” Her tone grew threatening, but soon returned to her sweet, angelic voice. “Gib doch zu, daß du mich mehr liebst, Als den Mann an deiner Seite. Auch wenn du ihm scheinbar mehr gibst. Du ziehst ihn in die Nacht” she sang as she told Elisabeth the truth of her husband. “Die Schatten werden länger, Es wird Abend, eh’ dein Tag begann. Die Schatten werden länger. Mit dir stirbt die Welt. Halt dich nicht fest daran” Death finished, trying to sway Elisabeth to come to her embrace but she refuses to give in to Death's sway.

After her remaining two children are taken from Elisabeth, she grows cold, and sets Franz Joseph for an ultimatum. “Ich habe ein förmliches Ultimatum aufgesetzt. Wenn du mich nicht verlieren willst, erfüll' es. Ich möchte selbst über die Erziehung meiner Kinder bestimmen. Und von nun an will ich entscheiden, was ich tue und lasse. Lies mein Schreiben und entscheide dich: Für deine Mutter oder mich! Und jetzt lass mich allein.” She said as she felt her depression creep up to her again, and soon she heard the voice of her beloved Death. Elisabeth turned around and saw Death sitting on a love seat in her bedroom, her arms opened in a welcoming way. “Elisabeth! Sei nicht verzweifelt. Ruh dich aus in meinem Arm. Ich will dich trösten.” She sang and soon sprang up. “Flieh, und du wirst frei sein, Und alles Kämpfen wird vorbei sein. Ich führ dich fort aus Raum und Zeit, In eine bessre Wirklichkeit.” Death held her hand out for Elisabeth to take, her voice growing soft, and loving. “Elisabeth! Elisabeth! Ich liebe dich...” “Nein! Ich möchte leben! Ich bin zu jung um aufzugeben. Ich weiß, ich kann mich selbst befrein. Jetzt setz ich meine Schönheit ein.” Elisabeth sang, her voice growing firm. She didn’t need Death, she would find her own way to freedom! “Geh! Ich will dich nicht! Ich brauch dich nicht! Geh!” Death frowned and fled back into the shadows quickly.

But it had been too late. Elisabeth calluses over and becomes cold and selfish. She flees the Austrian court and spends decades restlessly travelling all over the world, trying in vain to escape from her fear of emptiness. Eventually, Elisabeth makes peace with her husband, when he finds her. He begged for her forgiveness, and he swore he would give her anything she wanted. Elisabeth walks through a mirror, completely dolled up looking absolutely gorgeous. “Soll ich dich verstehen. Will ich auch verstanden sein. Ich will mit dir gehen. Doch sperr mich nicht länger ein. Ich bin nicht das Eigentum von dir. Denn ich gehör nur mir.” She sang. Soon Death herself emerged from the same mirror, yet stayed within the frames. “Was heut das Auge sieht. Ist morgen schon Vergangenheit. Wohin dein Blick auch flieht. Auf meiner Seite ist die Zeit.” She sang as she watched Elisabeth from the shadows once more. “Du musst mir nichts geben. Nur lass mir mein Leben! Denn ich gehör...” Elisabeth sang. “ Du gehörst…” Death sang. “Nur mir!” Elisabeth and Death sang together.

During the final part before the break was the first time I looked up at the balcony I knew the Cullens and Volturi were sitting. I had felt his glance on me the entire time, and it made me want to perform on my best. His red eyes pierced through mine, and even from here, I could see a gentle look in his eyes as he watched me perform. Elisabeth sang her lust, high note and the lights turned off, signalling it was time for the break.