#they arent upset with me but it feels like they are

[wonbin-truther]

˚⊹ ᰔೀ dream boyfriend: incoming ˚⊹ ᰔೀ ╰┈➤ the way things go

the soft knocks at the wooden door to your room made you jump up from your spot on the bed. you looked through the little peephole and your stomach dropped at the sight of jaemin.

you opened up the door, giving him a weak smile. you both exchanged knowing looks as he walked in and you closed the door behind it.

jaemin was the first to break the silence, "can we at least do this on my terms?" his voice was fragile and slightly horse. you could feel tears welling in your eyes as you nodded. "come here then," jaemin gave you a smile and opened his arms.

you were quick to run into them, sobbing into his chest as he rubbed your back, "shhh i know. i know princess." you could tell from the shakiness of his voice and the sudden sharp breaths he was taking that he was most likely crying too. "i-im so sorry jaemin," you said between hiccups.

"it's okay. i knew this was gonna happen eventually," he pulled you away from his chest so he could wipe the tears from your cheeks and give you a kiss on the forehead. he cupped your cheeks, "it's mark isn't it"

you took a moment before nodding and spewing out the events of that night with mark.

"is this why mark also wanted to talk to me?" jaemin had a frown on his face. "im not sure. we havent talked since," you responded.

"and nothing else happened prior to this?" jaemin pressed. you shook your head, "nothing. i promise."

jaemin thought for a second before speaking, 'i'm not mad." you gave him a questioning look, "you arent?" "i'm not. i'm upset of course. but i know how mark felt about you and how you felt for him. it's okay."

you could tell from his shaky voice he wanted to cry again. you held his hand, pulling him to sit on the bed with you so you could easily hug him. he hesitated for a moment before finally letting his emotions out with his head buried in your shoulder.

"i love you," you said quietly.

it was quiet for a moment, his soft sobs being the only sound in the room. "i love you too."

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synopsis! it wasnt your fault mark was the first profile to appear on your instagram! and it was most definitely not your fault when you told your annoying older cousins that mark lee, the captain of your unis soccer team, was your boyfriend and somehow got him invited to the next family reunion...

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[moeblob]

Happy Birthday to Ferdinand von Aegir!

I actually made 33 emotes, affectionately known as Aegirglyphics to some, for my own personal use on discord. However, I figure why not share some of them! They're free to use for discord servers/icons/pfps or whatever. However, my only request is Do NOT use them as subscriber emotes on Twitch. You can make them free follower emotes but you are not to make them locked behind a paywall.

[spaciebabie]

yall who are not simps have GOT ta stop commenting on clearly simpy posts and acting like the people who are having fun are weirdos. i swear ta god its annoying and rude and im tired of going inta my notes and seeing those comments on my posts and on my mutuals posts. have some respect.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[pcktknife]

I complain about my life as if I would be doing anything other than sitting by myself in a room all day even if I did have a choice

[fallenrain40]

ALSO, I JUST WANT TO SAY. Although I'm not the biggest Ivypool fan, I never really was, THE FANDOM ISN'T EXACTLY ALWAYS NICE TO HER EITHER. Now, it's not as bad as the way they've treated Dovewing. And Ivypool often felt like a fan favorite, even !! But. I've also seen some terrible takes on THE BOTH of them. Alongside Hollyleaf as well. Honestly, those three cats seemed to get a lot of weird controversy meanwhile Jayfeather is Literally Perfect Boy to the fandom, and even LIONBLAZE doesn't really get much hate- he's just seen as kind of boring, which, is pretty accurate for the majority of the time he had a POV. very starkly different vibe the fandom has towards those cats meanwhile Holly, Ivy, and Dove all stir up arguments all the time. Them being flawed characters are a GOOD THING and idk why some people dont get that

[moomeecore]

head in my hands. im so bored of people's takes. yes im super happy that people where able to enjoy it but it is NOT poor literary skills to be unsatisfied with simon & betty's ending. it's not bad because they broke up, it's bad because it SUCKED.

[alchemiclee]

i know this has been said 473773474833 times by the kavetham/haikaveh shippers and probably even nonshippers, but i'll say it again. I finally finished the genshin summer event and did the little after quest in sumeru and.....every time kaveh is sneaking around trying not to be noticed coming out of alhaithams house it's just such a gay vibe. he's basically screaming "I can't be caught being gay in a homophobic society!" even if that's not what the game writers are *actually* saying. that's just how it comes off and they can't make it come off any other way. with hoyo's gay history, it makes me wonder if it's on purpose and all a cover-up to have a technically different reason for it so they can get away with it lmao but we will never know.

[mellotronmkll]

I need to stop having one weird reaction with someone and then letting the anxiety decide in my head that the friendship is doomed because I ruined it like it's my absolute worst trait and I just have to move past it but it's hard

[toxifoxx]

fighting the urge to make a rant post . but once you notice you really never stop noticing!!

[autisticlee]

no one knows just how hard I work at things. how I have to work 1000000x more than the average person to compensate for being autistic and adhd and probably other things i'm working out with therapist, and having a sort of physical disability i've not received any help or treatment for. everyone assumes I don't try or give up too soon. they think I just started, need more practice. they think I expect everything handed to me immediately with no work or effort and don't acknowledge the multiple years i've put into things. they think I have no right to be upset about still failing to get where I want even after working my entire life to get there, while watching people around me surpass even my meager goals within a fraction of the time and work i've out into the same thing. constantly getting surpassed by everyone around me who seem to barely do any work to get there compared to me. it's all handed to them and falls into their lap so easily. all because they don't have the extra obstacles to overcome and work around that I do. while they go from point A to Z immediately with no major stops in between, I have to go through every single letter and then some, often getting sent back to the start. but it's always *my* fault, according to everyone. it's not the fault of those around me who ignore me, don't support me, don't help me, don't believe in me, etc. it's my fault they don't do those things. because doing the work of 10 people in one isn't enough, just because it's me. and not reaching Z as fast as everyone else means I don't deserve any of the support or help or anything else and means i'm not trying hard enough. it doesn't matter that I *need* to work harder than 100 "normal" people combined to get even half the result! Just because I can't reach what they do means i'm not trying hard enough! ugh.

[rubiesintherough]

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[tiny-merkitty]

vent-ish cw

i had a close friend of mine offer to do caretaking stuff, specifically offer to do maternal type things, to which i declined and said I'd feel uncomfortable due to personal trauma, i don't feel comfortable with having any type of caretaker that's feminine or motherly because of that — they kind of brushed it off and then never really brought it up again which made me feel very eeuruughh :/ idk i feel like they never listen to me when i try talking about regression based stuff.

they've been open and supportive and are kind of educated (though very outdated), but whenever i've tried telling them not to use k!nk terms for agere they haven't stopped and whenever i've talked about my attachment to fictional characters while regressed they've been weirded out or not really cared and it makes me not want to go to them with anything :(

[calyptramoths]

my mom died a month ago. i turned 19 today

[snickerdoodlles]

there's a lot of things people blame for why fandoms feel like ghost towns these days, but no one's really talked about the way discord's contributing to it

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

One day. One fuckin day without something.