#lee rants

[chaoskreeves]

I can't believe oceangate doesn't know that you can go to a titanic museum for CHEAPER than a graveyard tour right? Like a museum built in the shape of the titantic with lots of recreated items and portions of the ship right?

[ghostlychief]

Only because I'm just getting in COD and I know you also adore Ghost, but just calling Ghost 'pretty boy' with all the flirtatious sassy before being officially together or even at the beginning stages of the relationship as a term you once used as teasing but now is a term of endurment.

NAURRR UR MIND I love this sm

like I can totally imagine that ghost would 100% be so annoyed at first. He’d be like “what did you just say?” And then you’d just shrug and smile and either brush him off or be like, “I called you pretty boy.”

He asks why

“Because it’s true.”

And after that I feel like he would low key get a warm feeling in his stomach whenever you would call him that after that interaction AND HE WOULD BE WAIITING FOR U TO CALL HIM THAT AGAIN😫😫 bc he actually grows to love it (even tho at this stage you’re still teasing him) and he’s definitely confused as to why it makes him feel this way (spoiler he likes you and is too dense to realize it at this point)

AND THENNN one time you call him that and for once he doesn’t have that damn mask on, and you notice a light blush float across his cheeks and nose (so you ofc call him out on that)

“Are you blushing?” you yet again have a shit eating grin

“fuck off.”

you two start dating shortly after that

[fat-psychward-sockgrippussy333]

It's wash day. Y'all pray for me🤣

[autisticlee]

it kind of sucks when all your friends and family, everyone you know, are all pairing off and getting married and havinf families, except you. you're the only one that doesn't have a partner and probably can/will never get one. especially if one around you has time for you anymore, they never reach out, never get back to you, because they're only focused on their partners and families. you're stuck alone and drift away from everyone through no fault of your own. you have no hope of finding your own partner or no motivation to look for one for whatever reason. the lack of connections while seeing everyone around you having their own can get overwhelmingly lonely at times....

[contributingtothechaos]

Halfway through tech week for my school's production of "Once Upon A Matress" and oh my fuck I'm exhausted. If you are an actor, amateur or professionally (though I'd hope professionals wouldn't need this remember), for the love of all the gods listen to your fucking stage managers. Now it may just be because my production is full of a bunch of dumbass high schoolers but they will not listen to a word I say. I promise just because I'm crew doesn't mean I'm less important than you, I'm much more likely to know where your props are than cast please just ask me.

[royallyprincesslilly]

Netflix needs to come off it and get over themselves at this point. Why the f**k does Bridgerton season 3 need to be dropped in 2 parts? What is the fu**ing purpose?

It is 8 fu**ing episodes. That is not part 1 and part 2 worthy. You can't stretch 8 episodes to need a part 1 and a part 2. 8 episodes barely qualifies as a season nowadays anyway!

They really are trying to capitalize as much as they can for their shitty service that they are steadily making even more shitty with questionable 1-2 seasons cancellations and behind the scenes decisions. 📢(I will share passwords if I fu**ing want to don't tell me what to do!)

I am so close🤏🏽 to relying solely on ill***l sites and options for all my watching needs.

📢Keep testing me Netflix!

[dark-mnjiro]

I love when TERFS think that only biological females are “females” / and vice versa for males. And the ones in the anime community who just refuse to include non binary/trans readers for the sake of clout (or get pissy when a non binary/trans/etc person asks for a small amount of inclusion or warning etc) - just say your transphobic and be done with it and stop dancing around with excuses. The world is catered to cis people already. I identify as gender-fluid myself (fem bodied for reference) - some days I feel more masculine other days I’m more feminine. I’m really going to start looking into writing more inclusive fics especially for those who really need something gender neutral. I know I’ve written basically all afab!female but some discourse I’ve seen recently really set me off and get angry about those who aren’t represented in our community as much as they should. Sorry for the rant. I’m just mad.

[cr1t1cal-darl1ng]

does anyone ever feel like they're not allowed to express their enjoyment of something because it's all dependant on what the people around you think so if someone says they don't like something you also don't like that thing.

like i cannot talk about aspects of things that i really like because i can't tell if its something everyone does or if its something really unique.

[jinleebelee]

THIS IS FUCKIN FAIR FUCKIN MY FRIEND POCKET WROTE A FIC TODAY RIGHT CHAPTER 18 AND IT WAS JUST JUST FUCKIN RGHHHH IT WAS SUPER SUPER SUPER MEEEEEEAANNNNN

AS I SLOWLY READ IT JUST I WAS DYING SLOWLY VERY VERY SLOWLY WKTH THE TEASES AND THE FUCKIN CLAWS AND THE RIB TKS JUST RGHHH I DONT EVEN JNOW IF MY RIBS ARE SENSRIVE BECAUSE OF HOW VIDABLE THEH ARE POKES HURT IT WAS TO BE GENTLE AND I GET WAY TO DAMN FLUSTERED OVER CLAWS ON RIBS BUT I FUCKING

I GOT FUCKIN FLUSTERED ON A SPOT THAT I THINK UM NOT SENSTIVE TOO THE FUCKIN BELLU JUST AGH IVE ONLY BEEN RASBERRIED AND UNFORTUNATELY very very unfortunate I didn't tk BUT THAT MAKES ME SCARED IVE HAD SENSTIVITY EPIOSDEA ON MY STOMACH FROM PHANTOM TKS AND IM JUST ACARED CAUSE IVE NEVER HAD NH BELLU SCITERED WITH FUCKIN FINGERS OR CLAWS JUST RGHH THE STUPID CLAWS ON THE DAMN BELLY ITS NOT FAIR AND IRS ALL POCKETS FAULT MEANIE MEANIE MEANNIEEE

THAT THE FUCKIN OH GOD THE FUCKIN HANDS UP AND DONT COVER YOUR FACE OR THIS SPOT WILL BE WRECKED I NEWRLY DIIIIIIED FUCKIN RGH ITS NOT FAIR THIS HAS TO BE POCKETS MOST FLUSYERING FUXKIN FIC-

BJT WHAT REALLY REALLY GOT ME WAS NEWR TBE END

THAT SON OF A FLIPPEN SHE PUT EAR TKS

EAR FUCKIM TKS WILL THE CLAWS THAT WAS SO SO SO SO MEEEEEANNNNNNN. N

MY EAR FUCKIN SENSTIVE TO WHISPERS AND ON THE OCCASION FEATHERS BUT THE FLIPPEN CLAWW ID PROVAVLY DIEEEEEEEEEEEE JUST RGHHHH

AND NO NEAR TEH FUCKIN END NEAR THE FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING FUCKIN END LUGI SAID TO MARIO THAT HE LIKE GENTLE EAR TKS RGHHHH THATS UNFAIRRRRR THEY FLUSTER ME AS IF MY FACE AS BEEN IN THE SUN AND I GOT AUNBURNT (cause im really really pale)JUST UNFAIR UNFAIR UBFAIR

SHES A MEANOE MEANIE MEANIE MEANIE MEANIE MEEANIE FOR THIS

JUST RGH I WAS ABOUT TO MAKE THE MISTAKE OF REVLOGING IT AND COMMENTINF ALL THIS SHIT AND THEN I THOUGH ABOUT LAST TOME THE FUCKIN

SHE GETS DISCORD NOTFCATIONS OF FUCKIN REBLOGS COMMENTS ECT JUST AGH IT ATUPID AND I DONT WANNA BOTHER HER WJTH ALL THIS STUPID NONSENSE

AND FOR THE PEOPLE THAT JNOW POCKET SONT EVEN TJINK OF TELLIN OR SHPWIN HER THIS SHES AEEN ENOUGH OF MY BLOGS AND READ THEN OIT LOUD TO BE A MEANIE AND COOED AND AWED JUST FLIPPEN DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONTTTTT

(Butididenjoyherficalotlikeitllbeoneoftjoseficsillreadthatgetsmeflusteredupwheniwannabeflusteredup)

BUT SONT SAY SHIT IF YOH DO ITS YOUR ASS

[floppy-disks-and-8-tracks]

It's 7:30 a.m, I haven't slept and I have school in ~24 hours.... ugh

And I have to spend today cleaning

Please send me random fluffy gravity falls headcanons, especially Stan and Dipper related ones, it would mean so much <3 (either through asks or messages, I don't mind!)

[chaoskreeves]

Oh my god, nickelodeon should have had the plug pulled completely, like as in it should not exist anymore

[ghostlychief]

for my next ghost fic do we want fluff, angst, hurt/comfort ? What are we feeling

the only thing I’m not feeling is smut

[fat-psychward-sockgrippussy333]

In certain conversations I will say, certain ones will be like "Where are white people getting the audacity?! Why are these white people getting so comfortable?!"

...sometimes it's more IN house than you realize. Like baby you telling Timothy and Becky to "be chill about it." When you really need to be telling them to shut the fuck up.

Idk maybe it's something that comes with age..very doubtful for some of y'all bc y'all really be looking confused when you need to look in the mirror lol.

[autisticlee]

I have realized I need more friends, especially a specific type of friend (chill, positive, very nice and gentle, shares interest in my interests, etc) so I've been putting a lot of time and effort and energy into trying to make a new friend, but I don't think it's working D: I genuinely don't know how to do it. I used to ask people if we can be friends but learned thats not correct and even got called creepy for it before...so i'm just exhausting myself for no reason because nothing is being reciprocated the way I want or need it to be.

i'm trying to learn about the person and tailoring my scripts to match them and what they seem to like about people they are friends with. but so far i'm not getting much reaction outside of general kind acknowledgment that all random strangers get. i'm trying so hard not to ramble or rant about anything or be "too negative" like i've been called many times for simply stating a related/relatable fact about myself. i'm trying to ask questions more questions like ive been told to do. i'm saying nice and positive things whenever I get the chance like i always do. i'm doing all the things people have advised me to do when ive asked advice, but it still feels like i'm looking through a window and not allowed to walk through the door! but see everyone else getting invited inside. I genuinely don't know what to do and how to make it better 🥲

when I look back in the past and how I made friends or starter talking to people, it always came from trauma bonding....often it would start from or be carried along by a shared interest, but one of the dominating factors was always trauma bonding and ramling and ranting at each other about the trauma we have gone through that relates to each other. I felt like I needed it at the time and felt like it helped, but now i've reached a point where it's too exhausting to go through repeated exposure to trauma stories and reexperiencing ny own traumas. plus it usually ends in failure and me adding more trauma to my plate because they have issues and lash them out at me, or decide they are upset that I have my own issues they trigger, and I do not want to do that anymore.

I don't want to befriend people through or to trauma bond. I don't want to befriend people who only want to talk about negative things or people who bring out those things in me. I want some positive and chill and fun friends. but I genuinely do not know how else to make friends. I don't know how to do it right. I don't know how to talk to people correctly. I don't know how to do any of this without trauma dumping/ l listening to trauma dumping and using that as the gateway to form friendships.

I don't know how to have friends that don't share same interests either, but I have realized that's only part of it. that part is fine I think. maybe that's the normal part. (it's my autistic intensity that's the "not normal" part and losing friends as soon as one of us loses that interest) but how do I befriend someone positively off of similar interests only, and not drop my dark lore or avoid letting them drop their dark lore and using that as the bridge? I simply can't figure out how to connect with people in any other way than the whole "I understand what you're going through/you're not alone/I'm here for you/this is a safe space you can come to" thing I tried building up my whole life. but that's only been exhausting and leads to dead ends.

I don't know how to form strong and positive connections with other humans, despite following every tutorial and advice I could find. I even tried heavily masking and learned I'm just no good at it, and I can't figure out if i've acted myself out of a personality, or if it's just a dissociative disorder causing me to have like 20 different ones (working with therapist now who is evaluating me for osdd/did because she says my dissociative levels are concerning. and honestly i feel like part if not all of it is due to my negative people experiences....so i really need positive ones!) i've been trying to keep all my rambles and rants and negative thoughts and feelings to this blog only. i'm not here on this blog to make friends. this is purely for me and myself and I. if anyone relates they are welcome to reply/comment or send an ask and share, but i'm not going to pursue a friendship over it.

I only want to accept positive and chill and fun friendships over my special interests and smaller interests (I have a whole other blog for just those) BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO IT. NOTHING ANYONE TELLS ME WORKS. i'm trying so hard to bond over interests with people but just cannot form any connections no matter how hard I try. it remains me being the only one to ever reach out and give (time/energy/attention/etc) while they can easily have 4747373 other friends and people they enjoy and care about and talk to and hang out with. so I don't think it's them. it has to be me. (I've had people saying it's not me, it's the people I try to talk to and I need to find other people. or even "the right people" but i'm not told how to do that or what it means. and i've spent years flipping through people like clothes on a rack and it's so tiring!!!!!)

don't know know what to do or how to do it, but need human interaction and genuine strong connection and can't force self stop craving that 😭😭😭😭😭

[peachy-hina]

I giggle everytime I see salty (y’know who stans) in our tag on Twitter, trynna “shade” us… using someone else’s work🤦‍♀️🤣 like babe you couldn’t even do original work to contribute to your month. I swear it’s always the ones who can’t draw doing the most🤭 like babes you’re embarrassing yourself out here, stand up, and go do your own thing. Anyways literally all the work, fics, and art etc for this sh month (and it’s not even done yet AHHH) has filled my soul, it’s all so beautiful.

[another-emotional-wreck]

the fact that i didn’t realize what it was called till months after it happened is so insane 💀💀