#this also applies to sh

[builtfromthesamestar]

thinking about how revolutionary it was watching shadowhunters and BEGGING the show runners and/or writers to allow more non-sexual intimate scenes with malec vs now having things like heartstopper where foreheads are kissed, hands are held, cheek kisses etc…

it bewilders me how much we get now compared to the very small, very analyzed scenes we got in “older” shows compared to now

[craycraybluejay]

reminder to moisturize your cuts (vaseline/petroleum jelly is fine). apply after it stops bleeding regularly until the scab goes away to prevent/lessen scarring.

if you get something stuck inside an injury. listen. listen to me. you have to remove it. if you cant do it with your hands you're gonna have to go in with tweezers. if you cant handle making yourself take that pain get someone else to help you remove it. do not ever leave an external object in an open wound. keep external numbing agent on you if possible if you think you are likely to get injured and need to remove something (i.e. you climb actual mountains)

[switch]

[transpanda-1]

🎹I-I'm just personally of the opinion that no video game should let you spend upwards of thousands of dollars. Th-There's so many stories where people destroy their bank accounts but th-there's not enough focus on the fact you can just?? Spends hundreds of thousands of dollars o-on these games??

Video Games don't even work as comparisons to casinos because casinos have the chance t-to give you money. We w-were about to go on a diatribe that casinos should only be in physical places to hard establish ID's, staff, etc etc etc but we realized the only t-true overlap with casinos and video games are both let you s-spend exorbitant amounts of money w-with no limit.

Imagine i-if monopoly let you spend-wait th-there's a monopoly phone app what does it do. Is it just the monopoly game o-or is it a microtransaction littered hell

[batttlingfear]

i hate you sugar free i hate you sweeteners i hate you keto i hate you stevia i hate you sweet n low i hate you low calorie i hate you splenda i hate you carb free i hate you sugar substitutes i hate you diets i hate you sweetners i hate you aspartame i hate you sucralose i hat 

[barrelrollgif]

break from normal posting but this is important (TW: self harm)

tip for people who self harm by scratching themselves with their nails but want to stop:

if you cannot will yourself to stop, clip your nails really short. not short enough that your nail bed bleeds, but short enough to make scratching very difficult. (make sure you also file away any sharp edges) it might be frustrating at first, since the inability to cause pain was frustrating to me. it did help me stop though. it basically lets you have the motion without the damage.

also, another option, though it is less discrete, is wearing soft gloves. this does basically the same thing but you don’t have to clip your nails (unless they’re very long) or feel the feeling of your skin pressing against the top of your nail.

anyway, i hope things get better in your world. scratching yourself doesn’t make you bad or any less human. it is your response to stress. i will admit that self harm is an unhealthy response to stress.

i believe that you can break out of this habit. i broke out of it. it was very hard. many times i wanted to rend my legs to the bone. i gave in sometimes and scraped myself raw. but i did get out and if you start taking the little steps i believe that you can get out too. i went on the journey alone. it was terrifying. no one should ever go through this alone. please reach out if you need support. you deserve support and you are not selfish for wanting it.

[leirsulien-archive]

back on the ava and liv brainrot so fucking soft about these idiots

i'm not asking you to run ahead / could you try to take a single step / how can we move forward when / you're halfway out the door

so you've made mistakes, you have regrets / i don't need you to be perfect / just promise you'll be honest / i promise that it's worth the risk

but I can't make you love me even if i try / i'm not gonna force you / you have to decide / i'm asking you to trust me / when i say that I'm not here for the moment / i'm in this for life / yes i know, i know you've been hurt before / and life will lay you low, oh, of that i'm sure / but just say the word baby, and i'm yours

[elytrafemme]

okay so. disclaimer i am not professionally diagnosed with BPD due to circumstances with my psychiatrist/therapist, but have been medically recognized as sharing certain symptoms and an indicated likelihood that i would meet the minimum criteria for the diagnosis, et cetera et cetera. 

but. i thought it would be interesting to show you guys the results of a (CLEARLY UNOFFICIAL AND while derived from actual research and asking questions that appear generally consistent with the diagnostic criteria NOT NECESSARILY VALID NOR RELIABLE) BPD symptoms test i had taken, i can get the link somewhere. i mostly took it because (1) the website provides pretty pie chart results and they just genuinely make me happy that’s why i peruse that website at all, and (2) i thought it would be interesting to get at least a starting place on how i might want to conceptualize certain symptoms i have, like dissociation, splitting (which... is separated for the test, but not on the actual dsm5?), and impulsivity. and (3) it seemed fun and i was bored. 

ANYWAY i’ll put it below the cut because it’s Large but for those curious: 

this is pretty much what i would have expected, given the conversations i’ve had with my therapist and the thinking i have done about my experiences over the past couple of years. I exhibit impulsivity at a healthy level-- about average, I would say, if not a little less frequently than other people. I won’t get into the self harming behavior but that one has been very puzzling to me for several reasons, won’t really expand on it but I can at least say that it’s definitely the kind of symptom that were I to switch providers and get formally diagnosed with anything, would be somewhat contentious. 

the severity of feelings of emptiness and paranoid ideation somewhat surprised me? but the paranoid ideation can be somewhat explained by my anxiety disorder and possibly the aftereffects of generational trauma. feelings of emptiness has remained at that exact same ‘amount’ no matter how many times i take this test even if i am specifically trying to make answers to that question “more accurate”, so I have no idea what’s going on with that. 

emotional instability is about what i would expect and it is also kind of funny that i had 100% on that one like, damn okay. unstable/intense relationships is one that i was somewhat surprised by but the more i think about it, the more it makes sense -- it’s kind of hard to gauge that symptom for me because i am actively in a romantic relationship that i have not Actively ruined yet, but still I would say i get very shifting perspectives on my current partner that i tell other people about, and have also lost a surprising amount of friends in the past (though never by any real explosive means). fear of abandonment sort of make sense but i’m only just now beginning to conceptualize that as it applies into my own life, identity diffusion is naturally impacted by my probable dissociative disorder but is also problematic outside of that, and that should be the full circle.

anyway this test was just for fun and also to see the funny circles get filled in, but i did find it interesting because through some means i kinda got a sense of what the results look like with people who don’t have BPD and well, there is definitely a difference.

[crazychicke]

"I am also an athlete..." - Spencer James

the mac and cheese debacle aka 3x16

[unxpctedlygreat]

Also, I don't know why I started systematically calling Byleth baby boy but it's ingrained in me now

[izzymalec]

your barbie outfit!!!!! love it 🩷 the pink trousers, matching the pink runway? obsessed!! 💫

essie 🥹 you're the absolute sweetest thank u so much ily 🫶🏻

[bruisedconscience]

things that are signs of me having undiagnosed adhd from my childhood:

hard to focus on schoolwork but completed assignments relentlessly & all at once out of Fear

pen spinny

pen TAPPY

fingers tappy

the leg jiggle™️

‘play’ with spit in mouth :/

my mother would resort to playing the quiet and still game with me whenever she tried to take a nap with me, of which the only goal was to stop moving and also be quiet :)