#this is a 5 year and still going thing btw

[juliettejwnewinesa]

I really don't understand what I'm happening with the whole situation (just something about ai), and I've been reading you fanfics for a while now (and I've been eating them up, theyre scrumptious and yummy), and never once have I thought they were ai. You can see it in writing structure(?) And the way you write, it feels human. And there is nothing wrong with using grammarly cause we all do.

Anyway, I'm so sorry for your hate, but if it's not much trouble, can you make a fanfic about childhood best friend!reader x Han Su-gang who is older than her by 2 years. She left town, sugang was devastated, and she came back and transferred for her last year.

He makes himself known by lingering around her for a long while (in the halls, brief touching, just tormenting her), wondering if she remembered him. things have been quiet, and no one tells her the incidents. She simps over Han su-gang about how handsome he is to her friends (she's a bunble Ray of sunshine and naive so they tell her nothing) and how adorable their children will be and all that like a middle schooler. It's like pure and adorable saying they'll have 3 kids, 2 boys and 1 girl, and have 5 cats (being dululu), and he hears about this and decided to give her a good time!(smut)

Anyway, please and thank you and take care of yourself (so sorry that this is long💔)

hey babeee thx for the request sorry for the delay btw 😘

Title: Guess You Grew Up Pairing: Han Su-gang x naive!sunshine!childhoodbestfriend!Fem!Reader Rating: 🔞 MDNI Tags: childhood best friends to something else, naive reader, light corruption, possessive Su-gang, unaware reader, fluffy smut, oral (f receiving), size kink, breeding talk (delulu style), soft and dark tension

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Han Su-gang never forgot you.

You were the only bright thing in his life back then. Messy pigtails, scraped knees, and that ridiculous laugh. You were the first person who held his hand without flinching. Who told him he was your “favorite person in the world.”

Then one day, you were just… gone. Moved away. No goodbye.

It haunted him. For years.

And then—just like that—you were back.

You transferred in mid-term, your backpack bouncing, your voice still sweet and chirpy as you introduced yourself with a wide smile to a classroom full of half-dead teenagers. “I used to live here when I was little! It’s so good to be back!”

Su-gang leaned back in his chair, staring at you from the back row, jaw tight.

You’d grown. Legs longer. Hair shinier. Same fucking smile.

But you didn’t even look at him.

Did you forget him?

He watched. Waited.

And when the bell rang, you skipped right past him like you didn’t even notice the boy who used to protect you from bullies.

He almost laughed.

You started following him with your eyes first.

He could feel it when he walked down the hallway, his hands in his pockets, and you’d pause mid-conversation, glancing up at him like a little lost puppy.

Then came the whispers. The blushing.

“He’s so pretty, right?” you said to your friends one day in the bathroom, unaware he was around the corner. “Like, dangerously hot. Oh my god. I want him to kiss me and then ignore me for a week so I can cry about it like in a drama.”

Your friends stared at you in horror.

You just kept going. “If I married him, our kids would be gorgeous. We’d have, like… three. Two boys, one girl. And five cats! Or maybe seven. He looks like a cat dad, don’t you think?”

Su-gang bit his lip to keep from laughing.

You really hadn’t changed at all.

He started showing up more.

Behind you in the hallway. Lurking near your locker. Sitting near you in the cafeteria. His knuckles would brush yours when you passed. His shoulder would graze yours in class.

It drove you crazy.

You kept stealing glances, your brain turning into fluff every time he licked his lips or leaned against the wall like a walking daydream.

One day, after your “dream wedding fantasy” rant, Su-gang finally snapped.

He cornered you after school, pulling you into a supply room and shutting the door with a soft click.

You gasped, back hitting the shelf.

“Han—Han Su-gang?!”

He stared down at you, silent.

Your heart thumped. “Are you—um, are you lost?”

He stepped closer. "You really don’t remember me?"

You blinked up at him. “Huh?”

“I used to walk you home. You made me hold your stupid Hello Kitty umbrella.”

Your mouth fell open. “…Sooie?”

He groaned. “Don’t call me that.”

“Oh my god—Han Sooie!” You laughed, teary-eyed, and then threw your arms around him. “I missed you! Why didn’t you tell me sooner?!”

“I was waiting,” he muttered into your hair, his arms tightening. “Wanted to see if you remembered. You didn’t.”

“I do now!” you pouted. “You got hot. That threw me off.”

He pulled back and looked down at you, his gaze dark. “You really think I’m hot?”

You nodded without thinking. “Like… really hot. In a ‘ruin me’ kind of way.”

“…You shouldn’t say that.”

“Why not?”

“Because I will.”

He kissed you hard, like he’d been holding it in for years.

Your lips parted in surprise, and Su-gang took full advantage, sliding his tongue into your mouth, one hand cupping your cheek while the other settled low on your waist.

You melted into him instantly.

“I should make you pay for forgetting me,” he murmured against your lips.

“S-Su-gang…”

“You say I’m hot? Say you want kids? Say stupid little things about marrying me?” He kissed down your neck, biting gently. “You think I wouldn’t hear that?”

You whimpered. “You heard that?!”

He chuckled darkly. “You’re not subtle.”

His hand slipped under your skirt. Fingers finding you embarrassingly wet already.

“Oh my god—”

“You this wet just from seeing me around, sunshine?”

You nodded, dazed. “You always look so good. I—I just thought about it a lot.”

“You want me to give you a good time, yeah?” he whispered, fingers stroking your clit slowly. “Since you dream about it so much.”

You whined and nodded again.

He kissed you breathless as he slid two fingers inside you, curling them slow and deep. His other hand moved to your chest, pulling down your top just enough to mouth at your nipple, sucking lightly.

Your legs shook.

“Please—please, Su-gang…”

“Shh. Let me take care of you, sunshine.” He dropped to his knees, pushing your skirt up.

“Wait—w-we’re still at school—”

“Then be quiet,” he smirked, before licking a thick stripe up your pussy, making your knees nearly buckle.

He ate you like he was starved. Like he owned you.

You were already close—years of fantasy finally crashing into reality.

“S-Su-gang, I’m—”

“Go ahead,” he murmured, fingers tightening on your thighs. “Cum for me. Then maybe I’ll fuck you for real and give you those kids you keep talking about.”

You cried out, biting your fist as you came hard, hips grinding against his mouth.

When he stood again, your legs were trembling, and he kissed you soft this time.

“You’re mine now,” he whispered. “Got it?”

You nodded, dizzy, breathless, ruined.

“Good girl.”

[thesnarkmaidstale]

Pulled together more of my rambling train station of thoughts RE: the THT/Nick matter (as so many of us are still trying to do in order to make sense of the trainwreck that THT ended up being in the end🥂)

You know, I want to start by saying...I've DEEPLY disliked characters before, but never once have I felt compelled to track down their fans just to preach about how morally superior I am for misreading the plight or arc of those said fictional characters. That kind of self-important grandstanding (usually built on vibes and not receipts - imo) just screams "projection."

And that crash landing ending? (lol didn't intend the pun but certainly keeping it) - that wasn't nuanced critique or character work; it was a loud, lazy display of “performative political solidarity” that read well to people who didn't/don't/won't engage with the work beyond a superficial "what happens next week" basis.

Meanwhile, detail-obsessed fans were left blinking in confusion while watching Nick Blaine, a canonically subversive character, get rewritten into a narrative scapegoat. And this all coming from the Hollywood bubble, wrapped either in moral absolutism or in Dianetics/LRH’s bottled sweat/imaginary alien overlords (I mean…I guess ¿porque no los dos?).

But none of it touched the reality of how real-world resistance actually works.. successful resistance efforts rarely include heroic bull-in-a-china-shop suspend-your-belief-in-logic singular action moments. Success is yielded from teamwork, working together in perhaps a few big ways but many more small ways towards reaching the common goal of true equality. This last season also did no favors as it pertains to increasing the awareness about current human rights atrocities nor in increasing the awareness about the slippery slope that the US was beginning to find itself in even at the time that Season 6 began filming (FDT hadn't "won" yet but the writing was clearly on the wall.)

All it was was glass mansions. With a megaphone. Expecting applause.

(And btw, record yourselves applauding please!)

The accusation that us as fans “just didn’t understand” is exquisitely rich, because it became painfully obvious once the existing source material ran out around the end of Season 2, that the creatives themselves didn't even understand the show they were making.

Season 3 was my early warning sound off (wish I’d trusted it), and by the start of Season 5, it was crystal clear- this team was wildly underqualified to develop an original narrative that could even begin to touch what Atwood set them up with.

I voluntarily relinquished my "loyal-AF-viewer-tuning-in-right-at-11pm-cst-on-Monday-night" membership card around the start of Season 5, Episode 1- as Game of Thrones had given me trust issues..and I didn't even care half as much about those characters as I did for most of the characters in the HMT.

Something inside me felt really ick about the wedding ring reveal of Season 4, without a character to even go along with the ring.. it was haphazard and the explanations for it made no sense. I hate to say my instincts were right to begin pulling away immediately... but of course I always held out hope that someone competent would find a way to land the thing, and I figured I'd just go back and catch up once it was all over.

But I digress...

When you have even the actors (hey Max Minghella) side-eying their characters' choices and wondering if there perhaps were darker sides to them that over a span of six seasons/8-9 years, that they were never told about..or in retrospect now perhaps feel a little insecure about, like they magically should've diduced that darkness from nothingness..?

Well, in that case, we're no longer talking about art, and instead discussing the glaring slow-mo narrative malpractice that's been taking place since Season 3.

This series ending/"landing" really could have been their (writers/showrunners) big shot at successful critical longevity. Instead, they turned an open-book test into a public implosion. The bones of Atwood’s world were right there, mapped out and ready, but instead of following them, the writers/showrunners/actors-turned-directors misunderstood and eventually betrayed them.

Honestly, in retrospect, The Testaments feels like a deliberate course correction. A softspoken “no, actually” from Atwood herself, reaffirming where the moral core of this story lies. And yes, that includes Nick. The show had the source material in addition to the reinforced narrative/additional insights provided by Atwood in The Testaments (released in September 2019, shortly after the television adaptation began airing its third season.)

And when the backlash from the final season hit shortly after the "betrayal," they deflected by calling loyal fans/viewers love-blind, shallow, or naive (especially women) for caring about a character who dared to represent subtle resistance (apparently you need to be on-the-nose and in-your-face defiantly obvious about your intentions or you too could be called a Nazi twice in the last season of a show based on a literary narrative that you've been a character/major part of in since the 1980s).

In their defense, they love to mention OC characters like Lawrence as if he's the beacon of proof of their creative genius, but here's the truth- Lawrence worked exceedingly well in spite of the writing, not because of it. That was thanks to Bradley Whitford’s interpretation and creative latitude. Same with Nick.. except Minghella had far less input, because Nick was/IS Atwood’s creation. Ultimately, both characters (one canonical, one not) succeeded because the actors did the heavy lifting when the scripts couldn’t.

The writers should not misinterpret this as a flex, because it more appropriately should be ready as a red flag warning at the beach, ultimately showing the dangers of what happens when performers understand the source material more deeply than the people that were paid to adapt it, and when writers confuse praise for their original characters as being praise for their writing vs it just being masterful performance by the actor themselves that makes the character work.

.. dangers such as, for instance, now you've got a nonsensical last season, and not to mention, a ticked off loyal fanbase, who started with the show back in 2017, absolutely refusing to even consider watching TT.

They are so smart you guys, like you don't even know.

In the end, they confused moral ambiguity with moral incoherence, flattened complexity into cliché, and mistook erasure for subversion.

I'll end it here although I could keep going: Nick didn’t need a redemption arc, he already had one published in 1985, and then Atwood doubled down on it in her 2019 Handmaid's "sequel," The Testaments, but sadly, neither he (Nick) nor Minghella were backed by writers, showrunners, or actors-turned-directors brave enough to commit to it.

[zevdev]

Random Rambles

God being in constant joint pain sucks lol but I will say one positive side-effect is that you learn to mask pain which in return means high pain tolerance [for me at least] because I told a friend that today and after spent a solid 5 min debating is it's a good thing or I'm just masking it so people don't worry...my dad says I'm too young to have arthritis but I doubt it's that [it could but I'll believe it when I see it] I think it's just the result of 15 years of dancing mainly doing ballet [which is a very unnatural form to the human body] and not really giving 2 [beep] about my body often but who knows.

[wyvernity]

been thinking about the sinnohtrio lately......plus misc other stuff

also, casual ko-fi drop!! get something in this sketchy style starting at $10 woop woop

[blueskittlesart]

oh so THAT’S what you guys meant about persona 4.

[kitchensinksurrealism]

whenever people talk about what they were like 13 and i'm thinking like "wait that was me when i was 15" or someone's describing a stereotypical 18 year old and that was just me when i was 20. etc etc etc etc so like. although there's no way to be one particular age and everyone ages at different speeds. but idk it all adds up that i always seem to act 2 years younger at any age. soooooo tag ramble

[yther]

let me just take a sec to be the horrible person you might have convinced yourself I am.

If you're reading this, and you can fly a plane, and you're really tall....

Consider increasing your life insurance policy because your brother deserves it. 👍

[pickaropoprocks]

Day 47!! Chiikawa!!

[okitanoniisan]

i keep saying i need to make some zhaoryu shit but i'm back on my y5 kazusaeji bullshit again they are just so. m

[thursdayg1rl]

everything in my life still awful

[daincrediblegg]

it should genuinely be illegal for mmo's to take as long to download as they do like jesus christ

[risingsunresistance]

oh shit did i forget to come out on this blog

[britneyshakespeare]

might fuck around and buy my friend a copy of the riverside shakespeare (1973) for his birthday

side note it astonishes me that ppl are selling this book for between $50 to $100 secondhand in some places. you can get it for under 10 bucks at so many online retailers. it's a fifty-year-old tome that was commonly used as a college textbook, there are so many fuckin copies still floating around out there and most of them on the market are in the acceptable-to-good category of condition. how could one you have be worth much more than that? is yours in extra special superb condition? what?

do ppl just think everything vintage is valuable... bc oftentimes it just isn't

[boypr1ncesss]

sleepy...

[doomdoomofdoom]

Given the current pace, I give it 3 months, tops.

Saw a post about how halal and kosher meat will likely be the only reliably safe options in the US because their safety and cleanliness standards aren't dictated by what's the barest legal minimum that government food safety regulations demand.

So you're like 5 years away from "ever notice how the musulmans and jews never get sick from bad meat? clearly this is proof that they are poisoning us" right now.

[airenyah]

Hey, so I finished Summer Night some time ago and overall really enjoyed it. And thank you for answering my last ask too. I was pleasantly surprised by how well the various plotlines were picked up and solved towards the end. One of them being Jewel's figuring out his sexuality and thinking he had a crush on White- I thought that was supposed to be sort of a comedic scene, so I was surprised and impressed how Jewel brought it up in the conversation with White in the later episode, and White apparently noticed it too?! and how well it was handled. For some reason, this show tackled these sensitive topics that young people experience quite delicately and I was very happy with that. I also noticed that I very much prefer the shows where both heterosexual and gay/lesbian relationships exist within friend groups rather than the standard 2 gay relationships format. (It feels more realistic and I LOVE friendship dynamics, so there's that.)

You were also right about WhiteIvy!! They had such good dynamic, basically a bickering couple, one of my favorites! Usually I choose friendships over romanctic ones and end up liking friendships more (Like THK, my most fav relationship is KantStyle), so this was the exception! I have no idea why they kept teasing the audience with so many good scenes - I mean the chemistry was OVERFLOWING? HELLO? - with White and Ivy, only to give us nothing in the end.... But the last scene with two of them together, the way White didn't really confirm they will only remain friends gives me this hope (lol) that they will meet again a few years later after they graduated universities and started working, reconnect and end up dating when they're a bit older. Where can I order season 2 of Summer Night to GMMTV..?

I also ended up liking all main characters (except Nana but I don't think she's one of the main). Despite everyone having their own flaws and making mistakes, they were likable and easy to sympathize. I didn't think I would like Star in the beginning, but her relationship with her mother reminded of mine with my mom and I couldn't help but feel for her too. Also the actress killed the fight scene with Lune. That was very realistic acting on her part. She had really great chemistry with all characters too- actually let me scrap that and say all four - Star, White, Lune, and Ivy all had great chemistry with each other that I could've accepted any pairing with them (except LuneIvy, just not enough screentime together). Like half way through I was pretty vibing with LuneStar and then came the classroom scene where White was cheering up Star who was feeling left out and that scene made me want to watch these two together for at least a little while. And I heard before watching the series that people were shipping LuneWhite and I just thought that was BL fans talking as usual and a bit of a bait from GMMTV for that accidental kiss? , but then White and Lune had this quite some tension(!) during the fight that I could definitely see why people liked it.

I digress a bit but I lowkey (or highkey?) digged the fashion of the girls that I want to imitate their styles, especially Star and Sera's when summer arrives. I don't want to sound shallow, but they were all so attractive I was like let me take note on their styles every episode haha. Speaking of attractive, I got to say White was so good looking to the point his look was distracting sometimes lol. Style from THK was so good too, crop tops and his cocky attitude, he's THE icon but White was another different kind of attractive, much softer and grounded. I heard that Dunk was shooting these two series back to back actually and was surprised how much different impressions he can give. I'm excited for Dare You to Death that's slated for 2025 lineup, I know that he's going to give a totally different vibe with the new character.

P.S. I saw you reblogging Theory of Love many times. It's also my all-time fav BL series along with Not Me. <3

yaaaaay glad to hear you enjoyed the show!! i think a lot of bl/gl fans watch the shows only for the gay, but personally i don't mind het romances either. IF done well, but then again, the same counts for any QL too 😂

so true, so many things kept coming back. i watched the show with my mother back when it was airing live and i think this is actually something we discussed at the time?? i have vague memories of it

i LOVED that white noticed by himself and was so chill about his friend being queer!!!!!! i mean white would know a thing or two about questioning your sexuality huh 🤭🤭🤭

WHITEIVY!!!!! OH MY GOD I ADORE THE TWO OF THEM SOOOOO SO MUCH!!!!!!! whiteivyscenes are the superior scenes of the show i said what i said

i had a smiliar (ish) experience like you when it comes to whiteivy. from the trailer i was actually expecting ivy to be white's "spare" love interest for when lune and star get together, but then the show started and – SURPRISE!! – ivy is gay for star?????? and it's a plot that goes over multiple episodes???? and white and ivy supporting each other through their unrequited feelings for star???? when i saw that i actually went "oh my god please do NOT let them end up dating, i much prefer them as friends!!!! please can we just have a het-pair that is besties without any romance between them just bc one is a guy and one is a girl and they're 'left over' without a love interest 🙏"

in part that came also bc whiteivy's friendship dynamic reminded me a lot of my own irl. i grew up with a lot of guy friends (in a group i often tend to be friends with more guys than girls) and a lot of the time i have a bickering dynamic with them where you're playfully mean to each other (i do this bc i'm lowkey terrified guys will think i'm in love with them if i'm too nice haha) and so when i saw white and ivy's friendship in the early episodes i was like "OMG CAN I PLEASE HAVE SOME REPRESENTATION OF MY IRL M/F FRIENDSHIPS?? 🥺🥺🥺"

but then?? some development happened?? and dunk and lookjun had such fantastic chemistry with each other???? so i just couldn't help but begrudgingly ship whiteivy more and more????? (here's a relic from that time djkfkjdfg) to the point where i was suuuper supportive of them getting together by the end of the show???? AND THEN THEY JUST. DIDN'T!!!!!!! top 10 anime betrayal of 2024 tbh. here's a quick summary of my fall from grace, it's hilarious actually

THIS IS THE ONE MAJOR CRITICISM I HAVE WITH THE SHOW TBH, LIKE!! WHAT WAS THE POINT OF ALL THAT DEVELOPMENT IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA PULL THROUGH???? i would have totally been fine with whiteivy staying platonic till the end, but in that case the writing should have gone a little different tbh. something like that sandnick kiss scene in only friends would have totally worked here, you know what i mean? but the way the whityivy relationship ended just leaves you feeling very unfullfilled tbh. and it makes you feel like "oh why did i waste time investing and sitting through all of that when it didn't even go anywhere?" they could have easily left it strictly platonic and i absolutely would have LOVED the writers for that non-romance m/f besties representation. ah well

i also liked all the characters except for nana!! but tbh, the issue was less with the character and more with the actor's performance. i know that was her first role and tbh, imo that role was too difficult for her. she could have had a loooot of fun with this role, constantly jumping between being the sweetest girl and letting the bitch that she is shine through at very deliberately chosen moments to the point where you as a viewer are intrigued bc you can't tell what she's playing at and if she's good or bad. unfortunately, the actress only played "the obvious" as my camera acting teacher would always say, and that got pretty boring real fast. it was clear from the start that she was the bad guy, and that sort of performance also didn't fit with the way the characters reacted to her. bc everyone didn't seem to think much of nana, except white who was like "i have a bad feeling about her" which is something that would have been MUCH more interesting if nana had been super nice and charming towards him, you know what i mean? bc you could have gotten that tension between nana being "nice and sweet" and white's uneasy feeling. i hope i'm making sense 😅 i'm also doing this from memory, so i don't have any specific example rn bc all my brain space has been taken up by thk

YEAH ALL THE MAINS IN THIS SHOW ARE SO SHIPPABLE!!!!!!!! it's something i greatly enjoyed. i too would have been cool with any pairing between the four mains tbh

YEAH NO THE WHITELUNE WASN'T BASED ON NOTHING HAHAHAHA. it's not even the tension during the fight scene, but also, i mean, the way white was looking at lune during the entire first episode???? like pls dunk, you're bl actor is showing 🤭🤭🤭🤭 NOT TO MENTION WHITES WEIRD OBSESSION WITH BEING LUNE'S "FIRST"????? and that's just the first three episodes

also i love how they brought back white's obsession with kissing lune at the end of the show kdfjkjdfkjsgfsd. again, let me just state: white is a disaster bi who has a lowkey crush on lune and absolutely NOTHING can convince me otherwise, least of all the series itself

yeah, dunk was shooting these series back to back! in fact, dunk actually missed the first few days of thk shoot and only joined from Q5 onwards because he was still busy filming summer night (summer night finished shooting at the end of july, around the 28th of july iirc, and thk started shooting on july 18th). iirc he had a break of one day between the final shooting the of summer night and his first day of shooting thk (pretty sure he went to get a hair cut on that day 😂)

I'M SO FUCKING HYPED TO SEE HIS PERFORMANCE IN DYTD, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!!!!!!!!!!! i've been talking about wanting to see dunk in a serious role for a year now and gmmtv is actually giving it to me, i'm so blessed <33333 (it's episodes 9 and 11 of hidden agenda specifically that made me want to see dunk in a serious role for a full series)

regarding theory of love... idk how long you've been following me, but those who were around for all of 2021 will know i have a very special relationship with that show, esp the khaithird plot. i'll put that lore under a read more bc the ask is already long enough as it is jdfkjfdsjkgs

that series came to me in late 2020 at a time where i had just ended my friendship with my own personal irl-khai aka my best guy friend at the time who i'd been in love with for 1-2 years, a relationship that just got more and more unhealthy for me. i'm gonna spare you the details, but basically he kept treating me like a girlfriend but continuously insisted we were just friends (it was an accumulation of small things, that individually i'd be like "ok but friends can do [thing]", except alltogether it wasn't quite right). oh and there was also the infamous roadtrip with me, him, and two other friends, one of them being the girl that he had a crush on and i had specifically told him a few months before the roadtrip that i wasn't sure i could still go on that roadtrip if that girl came along bc i was in love with him and didn't want to watch him chase after her without a way to escape or get a break for three weeks straight and him insisting that he was totally over her, only for me to almost get a first row seat to their love story during that roadtrip anyway (i'm saying "almost" bc at first that's actually what happened, except funnily enough shortly after the roadtrip the girl my irl-khai had a crush on ended up dating the other guy aka the fourth person who'd come along. that guy is a close friend of mine and him and her hadn't known each other before the roadtrip, and once they started talking during the roadtrip they immediately hit it off and so while for the first half of the trip i was miserable in a front row seat for the irl-khai plus his crush show, during the second half of the show i actually got to watch my close friend plus my irl-khai's crush fall in love with each other, which was extremely hilarious. karma's a bitch, my dear irl-khai <3)

anyway, so yeah. that roadtrip happened end of summer 2019

then march 2020 i watched why r u. my mom insisted on watching it with me. my mom then ended up watching love by chance on viki bc she saw it had saint in it. my mom then watched multiple other thai bls (at that point my mom had actually watched more thai bl than i had kjfdksjkjdskjsg)

then, at the end of summer 2020 i broke up with my irl-khai the night before he went on an erasmus semester (it's kinda ironic that i had to break up with him when we weren't even dating in the first place....)

and then, about a month or two later my mom sat me down for a thai bl, with the words "you HAVE to watch this. it reminds me so much of your story with [irl-khai]"

and my mother was right. i could very much relate to third and it was soooo cathartic to watch khai suffer. i could let out all of my frustrations and anger with my irl-khai out on the fictional khai without making the drama in my real life worse

and in 2021 the khaithird plot became extremely important to me in my journey of getting over my irl-khai. i watched it at least 20x that year. in fact, in april of 2021 there was a time where i watched the khaithird plot ten (10!!) times in the span of only 14 days. i watched the khaithird over and over again every single night for two whole weeks. "fake protagonist" (the thai version) was my no.1 song on my spotify wrapped that year. to this day tol is my most rewatched thai bl at 27 rewatches (tho over the years bad buddy has become a close second at around 24 rewatches that i've counted on mydramalist and that makes me happy bc it means i really am well and truly over my irl-khai and i don't need tol anymore the way i used to 💪 jkkjfdks)

so yeah. theory of love and esp the khaithird plot is very dear to me. it really did help me a lot 😂😂 in fact, so i knew my irl-khai from my youth group, right? we went there together for years. and in summer 2022 i went on this retreat with a bunch of friends from said youth group, including my irl-khai. it must have been like the 3rd time i had faced him since our "break-up". and in mental preparation as well as a reminder to stay away from him, i actually rewatched tol right before i went on this retreat 😂

so that's my story with tol. it will forever have a very special place in my heart