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[broodwolf221]

triple checks it's the right blog this time...

so I'm having a p shitty week and I'm gonna cope by talking abt my meta for solas, mostly in terms of his personality and behavior. I have a LOT of meta abt his past and nature and future but that's... another post, lmao

some of his key and/or most interesting characteristics:

kind

selfish

reserved

arrogant

empathetic

detached

now, let's dig into these

kind: he clearly and consistently wants people to be happy or to alleviate their suffering. he's glad the inquisition helps refugees, he's glad (dialogue, not approval iirc) when you take the time to find the apostate supply caches in the hinterlands, he makes a point of connecting with every single companion, even ones who regularly degrade him. and in trespasser, he goes to extreme lengths to keep southern thedas from falling to the qun, because he wants the people - those he knows and those he doesn't - to be happy and at relative peace.

this is one of the most remarkable things he does imo, bc if he'd just let the situation develop, he'd have an absolutely clear path to achieving his goals. yes, he'd need to get the anchor another way, but that's hardly impossible. what matters is that by stopping the war, he gives the inquisition/inquisitor clearance to pursue him without distraction, while also arguably giving the qunari the ability to focus on strengthening the veil, bc i cant imagine the viddasala and her people were the only ones of all qunari to have/know of that goal

selfish: if romancing lavellan, he understands one aspect of his selfishness, because it's a relationship he should have shut down HARD. but his feelings are real... and he selfishly gives in to them, even knowing he'll break their heart. he does try to pull away, he does eventually break up with lavellan, but by then the damage is done. even the offer to remove their vallaslin is selfish in its way - he's trying to give them a piece of the truth, but instead delivers a cruelty and leaves them whether they accept or deny his offer.

but he's selfish in another important way, too: he's convinced of his own perspective. he thinks bc he literally knows more (which, yeah, tbf he does), that his pov holds more weight. he's willing to change the world bc of his guilt about it ofc, but also bc he's - selfishly, self-centered - convinced that he's RIGHT to do so. he's not traditionally selfish - in many ways he's selfless, overwhelmingly willing to sacrifice all his own chances at happiness and peace in order to restore the world - but his selfishness (which ties in with his arrogance) is shown in his self-conviction.

he makes excuses, but honestly? he could have told the inquisitor who and what he was. he could have done that! he could ask for help reconnecting the fade with the waking world. dreadwolf could be about the inquisition gathering together myriad experts and looking for ways to do it that aren't destructive. but he's so assured that his path is the right one, the only one.

and it's... a complicated selfishness, too, because part of it is that he feels like he deserves to be punished. he thinks he needs to walk this path alone not bc the inquisitor is incapable, but because 1) He Knows What's Right, and 2) He Deserves To Suffer (to alleviate his guilt about his "sins" - which is selfish in a complicated and roundabout way)

reserved: the superficial aspect of this is obvious: he's lying about his identity. but he's also reserved as part of his core character - according to him, he used to be reckless, quick to fight. I think his reserve is something he grew into, a willingness to play the long game, an understanding that information given can never be taken away. it leads to other things - a hesitance to trust, for example - but it's just a part of him now. I think even if he found someone to be 100% open with, he'd STILL be reserved by nature

arrogant: my man is an arrogant ass, no denying it. ofc he knows so much more about history than those around him, but he's also so willing to fight about it, to condescend, to trivialize. when he realizes he has a genuinely receptive audience his tone changes, so I think a lot of this stems from defensiveness and a deep familiarity with needing to justify his every expressed opinion, but... he's still an ass. his conversation with a dalish inquisitor at haven? yikes.

he's also regularly convinced that his interpretations are the correct ones. like wrt my recent post about the mages after Faded For Her, I have to assume that he thinks the inquisitor sparing them demonstrates disdain for the inherent value of spirits and their sentience, even if the real reason is a lot more complicated. he jumps to conclusions and states them like facts and it takes a lot for him to begin to deconstruct them

empathetic: this ties in with his kindness ofc, but its worth a unique mention. he is incredibly empathetic. he cares about what happens to people, to spirits, even to your enemies in a way - he talks with bull about how he doesn't like to relish his victories in combat because the people he kills could have been something else, someone else. he cares about wolves (I WONDER WHY... but also like, him being fen'harel doesn't mean he HAS to care about wolves, but he does, bc he cares about animals, too), he cares about the farmers being attacked by wolves, he cares about the refugees, he's understanding towards speaker anais and the cult that grew up around the rifts... he not only cares, he understands where people are coming from, regardless of who they are or how they behave

detached: this one lessens somewhat over the course of the game, but he's deeply, fundamentally detached to the world he woke up in and the people who inhabit it. its a little ironic when u look at his kindness and empathy, but it doesn't negate his detachment. i tend to think of him as seeing everything through a fog, feeling like he's not really there at least as much as he feels like everyone else is not really there.

not joking or exaggerating, he must have such terrible trouble with disassociation/derealization. ive seen people bring up excellent points wrt this that i dont feel a need to rehash, but suffice to say: while he still cares, everything he experiences is at a remove. this stems from shock, trauma, guilt, fear, and profound culture shock.

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[touch-starved-lurker]

i am hopping on the bandwagon

500 notes and i do a bit more painting/drawing and post it here

1k and i find and ask for a more Gender haircut (even if this is done idk when itd happen)

1.5k notes and ill start trying to correct my fam when they misgender me (i make no full promises as i am a coward and feel really weird doing this)

please don’t spam the comments, spam reblogs are fine

[slutforpringles]

In summary:

Looking at the data VCarb's upgrades themselves are working and doing what they were supposed to

Daniel was overall fairly happy with the balance of the car during quali and the race

It doesn't sound like not being able to use the updated rearwing accounts for the huge lack of performance, rather that the team are uncertain if they managed to actually find the 'sweet spot' in terms of setup, thus haven't managed to extract the full load potential of the new package. This is likely due to miscorrelation between the virtual and real car.

The team will be reviewing all of the data and simulations to see if they can find where they went wrong on setup before Austria, but if they are unable to find a conclusive reason for the huge drop in performance then they may revert one or both cars to the old spec for Austria, especially because it being a sprint weekend means the team will not have much time for experimenting

via: Motorsport Total | Wie im "Strudel": Warum Racing Bulls "eigentlich nicht da war" in Spanien

[carlyraejepsans]

my aunt was checking her dream numbers this morning after she had a weird dream and she asked me if i'd dreamt anything lately but my mom said "oh biscia doesn't really dream" and the topic dropped. which was relieving bc i DID have a dream where i went in for a hysterectomy and the whole process was being livestreamed on twitch and what tipped me off that it was a dream wasn't so much the twitch stream as the fact that no one had commented "nice hole"

[bandzboy]

hybe is becoming a bigger mess every other day between scooter still being employed and bang pd doing his recent bs and them overworking idols more out in the open there's no way that as a fan of any of these groups would should not be happy rn. you have your fav groups saying they are doing a comeback yet again when they just recently had one and are STILL on tour and your reaction to people being concerned for their health is "you should be happy and excited" explain to me how... HOW CAN I BE HAPPY IN THESE CONDITIONS?? it pains me that i can only do so much as a fan and i have to convince these supposed fans of these groups to care about their groups AS HUMAN BEINGS and that something is severely wrong that's when you we have a bigger problem with stan culture. you people don't care we have genocide loving mfs in this company that might use these groups for propaganda at some point, you don't care about the palestinians in your fandom and say they are being dramatic for asking you to boycott the company because this man shook hands and met netanyahu (the man who is directly killing their families) and that he is a big threat, you don't care about boycotting the brands your faves might be associated with and how it might be harmful to palestinians, you don't care that your faves are being constantly overworked and mistreated by the company you directly give money to and i'm honestly asking here... who do you care about other than yourself and your comfort? this whole streaming and buying shit does not show that you truly support and care for groups and i've seen people even admit that they only stream for themselves and that was all the confirmation i needed it. your support does not extend to idols as human because at the end of the day you only see them as entertainment and nothing else and it's so obvious that a lot of people get uncomfortable when we call this out because deep down they know it's true! this shit of "not caring about others" should not be the norm in any fandom space you should always extend kindness to others in need ESPECIALLY people who you interact with in fandom spaces very closely and also you should actually start to question whether your so called support for your faves is healthy and if the way you perceive them and care for them goes beyond the content and music they put out

[syrips]

hi im not involved/affiliated at all with the FREE memento mori curse of strahd fan zine by our lovely community and organized by curseofsergei but anyways please enjoy this list of all of the beautiful artists/writers/contributors individual self-published posts because they all deserve individual love and attention cuz o my lordy lord oh my AAAAAAAh

obvious spoiler/cw warnings on the zine, please read/dl the zine first if you can, this is just a directory list to appreciate and update whenever the contributors upload their own work

Page 01. Page 08. Page 10. Page 16. Page 19. Page 22. Page 23. Page 24. Page 27. Page 32. Page 41. Page 42. Page 45. Page 47. Page 54. Page 61. Page 62. Page 67. Page 69. Page 71. Page 72. Page 79. Formatting

[foundationsofdecay]

aight these aren’t the best but wheeeee shirt

[lokh]

ive gotten some asks about the human trafficker comment and im just going to say i hear you, i (probably) saw it, im just not gonna post them because itll clog up the blog but 👍😭

[the-king-of-lemons]

qsmp doodle design ref sheet i made for myself :)

[ottoslab]

“It doesn’t make sense for xyz character to be fat because xyz reason in the story” I dont care i dont care you can do whatever you want when you make stories and characters why would you purposefully choose to ignore that when making characters. It doesn’t make sense for teenagers to be the sole fighting force of New York City it doesn’t make sense to swing on webs due to your fucking mutated spider genes . A character can be fat. A character should be allowed to be fat.

[byeler]

i generally agree with the sentiment of the post about liking v reblogging, but i think at its core the issue is about being able to get work out there and seen by other people. i mean this with all the respect in the world as a big fan of your work, but i’d imagine as the author of the number one kudos’d byler fic in the world (no small feat and a testament to your skill seriously) you have established a solid platform for yourself. i think overall it’s a very interesting discussion and like i said, i agree with you! no one is entitled to an engagement, regardless of the merit of their work. i just also think this adds an extra layer that’s interesting to explore. i hope this comes across as respectful, and my fr deepest apologies if not. all the love.

i do fully understand where you're coming from, but i also was not joking when i mentioned that i've said this before. if you can't tell by the date or the fact that post got a whopping three notes, i really did not carry the same presence back then that i do now. any reblog on any post or fic of mine was (and still is!!) incredibly valuable to me. i know how important it is to encourage and share fics you enjoy because that is what did and still does continue to help me. i promise i didn't post that because i want to stop people from interacting with things that they enjoy.

what really, really bothers me is the guilt trips. i absolutely endorse and support posts that say "hey, if you want your favorite authors/artists/theorists to continue to create more of what you like, reciprocate and interact with them". what i do not condone is posts that boil down to "this fandom is dying because YOU are not reblogging enough" when there are several reasons that someone might just not want to reblog. and i just don't feel like my desire for engagement overrules anyone else's desires for what they want to do on their own blog.

at the end of the day, if i post a piece of writing for free on the internet, it's already written. while getting feedback often feels like a reward for the work i've put in, i've already done the work. if someone wants to read it and enjoy it and then choose not to like or reblog or kudos or comment or acknowledge it in any way, i still don't lose anything from that. i might not gain anything, either, but that is not a loss, because i'm not entitled to someone else's time. and on the flip side, it gives me a huge amount of appreciation for those that do take the time to otherwise engage with my work, because i know it's not a requirement, it's something they wanted to do.

i know it might sound like i'm coming from a place of privilege (?) being able to say this, and i won't fully disagree with you on that, but it's something i've felt strongly about long before my writing really had any sort of traction. i also want to be clear that i can only speak for myself, and that many other authors and artists likely disagree with me on this topic. but i simply do not want anyone to feel pressured to force some sort of interaction with me for whatever reason, regardless of how much they like my fics.

[bandzboy]

there needs to be nuance in this situation it’s so obvious that the media is jumping on yoongi because they saw an opportunity to join a smear campaign of a bts member and i wanna preface by saying this nobody is saying what he did wasn’t wrong and i know that’s what is going around a lot. dui is wrong and i think everyone can agree on that. in this situation, he didn’t injure anyone else and fell on his own while being drunk and he did acknowledge this TWO times at this point but obviously using this situation to cover up other news in south korea will come in handy

hybe is nothing doing anything to ease any of the damage and when this came out initially, bang pd was caught in LA with girls half his age who people found out later on were cam girls and so that’s why they used yoongi’s situation to protect him and the company because, if there’s anything this situation showed once again is that companies will do ANYTHING to protect their image and would never do the same for idols in fact, they would throw idols under the bus to do so

this situation is going too far and it’s getting ridiculous to the point he had to apologize twice and honestly what else can he do in this situation? when he probably will face the consequences and know what he did is wrong. people are asking for more when there’s nothing else to explain here when the facts were given and people still wanna make up their narratives because they hate bts. it’s just all seems insane to me atp

[sinhasfluffyheadfur]

does anyone here read return of the blossoming blade/return of the mount hua sect

[evilkitten3]

bfjlasndlasdnasd phone consultation for top surgery!!!! happening in next couple of hours!!!!!!!!! i! am! so! excited! for! this! klanqrirnlw

[moonsidesong]

what r ur guys' favorite pokemon rom hacks i wanna download some after work today :-)