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luvtonique · 2 months

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I just woke up and I chose violence let's go.

Look all I'm sayin' is

If you're gonna attack AI generative art

You should, for the same reason, attack Toby Fox.

The reason I've seen the most for people not liking AI is that it's not "Real art" and that it "Takes jobs from artists" and that it "Steals from other artists"

Well, then, let's talk about how Hopes and Dreams by Toby Fox uses fake Violins to mimic a symphony orchestra. Toby could have hired a real orchestra but he used a fake one and y'all came in your drawers over it.

Why'd nobody ever lift a finger to cover social media in how Toby Fox doesn't deserve to make money because his song "Undertale" uses a fake guitar that sounds just like a real one? He could have hired a musician to play guitar but he didn't! That cost a REAL guitar player a job, didn't it?

And how come when it was found out that Toby Fox stole entire lietmotifs from other games like Kirby n shit, y'all had like 600,000,000 excuses to defend him?

I don't dislike Toby I think he's amazing, like 100/10, one'a the brightest examples of a success story of all time and one of the nicest most pure-hearted people on earth who made two of my favorite games of all time and a ton of my favorite music. Spider Dance has been my ring tone for like 8 years.

I'm just saying, the literal same reasons I see people attacking AI gen art is shit that Toby does, all of it, and y'all worship Toby for it but attack artists.

And neither here nor there, but hear me out?

Y'all will say you're in defense of artists keeping their jobs and their livelihoods which is so very noble of you, but if an artist draws shortstacks that are just a little too short, or if an artist utilizes AI, or if an artist draws Rose Quartz skinny, or if an artist draws Sans and Frisk getting a little too Frisky, or if an artist votes for Trump, or if an artist says a dirty word you don't like, or if an artist draws a black person that looks just a little bit too stereotypical, or if an artist draws a lesbian character getting fucked, or if an artist doesn't believe in gender identities, or if an artist doesn't put trans characters in their graphic novel, or if an artist makes a sexy character with butt-jiggle the protagonist of their video game; Y'ALL ARE COMPLETELY OKAY WITH SAYING THAT ARTIST SHOULDN'T BE MAKING MONEY, AND BANDWAGONING A HATEMONGERING BRIGADE AGAINST THEM.

Or in the Sans and Frisk case: PUT SEWING NEEDLES INSIDE OF COOKIES AND GIVE THEM TO THE ARTIST WHO DREW IT, PUTTING THEM IN THE HOSPITAL.

Listen

Spare me this "We hate AI because we care about the jobs of artists" shit, you lying scoundrels. You don't care about my job! You've tried to cancel me like 500 goddamn times, got my Patreon frozen twice, got my PayPal frozen over 100 times even right in the middle of conventions, flooded my stream chat and spammed the N-word in chat trying to get my Twitch banned, flooded my Discord multiple times with links to CP trying to get my Discord banned, and you have entire Discord servers literally called things like "Jay is an asshole" and "The We Hate Jay Society" (YEAH I KNOW YOU FUCKERS EXIST, HI, HAVE FUN SCREENCAPPING THIS).

My artistic career has been under fire for the past 12 years because I draw things y'all disagree with, have opinions you don't like, and have family members who vote for politicians you think are the boogeyman that's the cause of all your problems (and haven't disowned those family members). With all due respect, when I hear "We hate AI because we believe in fair wages for artists and want to protect the jobs of artists" I just wanna strangle your lying ass.

You hate AI because it's popular to hate AI.

AI is like a prosthetic robot arm that helps you carry the groceries, and disabled people like myself (rheumatoid arthritis) benefit from its uses greatly (such as being able to draw backgrounds much easier which has greatly improved my art and INCREASED MY COMMISSION REVENUE DUE TO MY ART QUALITY IMPROVING [But y'all don't care that AI helps artists earn more money, you hate AI because you claim it's hurting artists' ability to earn money]), but you're so hung up on people using the robot arm instead of their real arms that you think you're some crusader against injustice.

You aren't.

You're just looking for reasons to attack people, it's what you do. I've been dealing with y'all looking for any goddamn reason to attack someone that you can muster for the last 12 years, hell even before that I dealt with you types. You just want to hate, you want to be prejudiced so fucking bad that you look for literally any reason you can possibly find to make some vaguepost about how much you hate an artist and post it to Reddit, and then when you get called out, get so surprised that I found your bitch ass that you start pretending you didn't mean any ill will, and start pretending that you're someone else in the most pathetic attempt to dodge blame I've ever seen.

[Context: The OP of this post accidentally revealed who they are on Tumblr, and then when I called them out on Tumblr, they pretended they were someone else because they were scared I was gonna out them on Tumblr and they tried pathetically to cover their ass, and even politely said "I never wanted to garner hate against you" when they literally posted "I hate the way he draws women" on r/mendrawingwomen and flooded the comment section (mostly now deleted) with how "disgusting of a person" I am, while I was in the comments politely giving context to the shit he was saying about me, and he started getting furious when other people were liking my art and agreeing with me instead of him. I have like 600 screencaps of all the cringe this guy spewed, but I'm not gonna post it all because it's tangential anyway. Case in point? This guy's blog is absolutely covered with how much he hates artists for drawing things he doesn't like, and he regularly posts about how AI is taking jobs from artists. Not gonna out his blog, but that's who he is. A shining example of exactly what I'm talking about. "I hate AI because it takes jobs from artists!" "THIS MAN-THING DRAWS WOMEN IN A WAY I DON'T LIKE AND HE'S A DISGUSTING PERSON, EVERYONE JOIN ME IN HATING HIM AND TRYING TO RUIN HIS REPUTATION AND THEN WE CAN CELEBRATE WHEN HE LOSES HIS JOB!!!"]

Like, y'all can sit there and act like you're defending me and artists like me all you want, you're liars. You're boldfaced fucking liars. You are disgusting. It's completely pathetic watching you attack a tool that can be used to improve our art, and claim it's in defense of the authenticity of our art and the continued financial stability of our artistic careers. Fucking give me a break.

You're looking for people who say positive things about AI art so you can attack them and feel justified because it's popular to attack them.

All while sitting there and gladly swallowing the cum of any musician who makes amazing music with synths, fake symphony instruments and autotune.

"We care about the jobs of artists."

Yeah.

Long as those artists fall in line with your opinions and only draw things that agree with said opinions, right?

Wouldn't wanna care about the jobs of "problematic" artists who draw "offensive" stuff or vote for politicians you don't like.

Final note: This isn't even an attack against any political opinions or activism or anything like that, but I'm being realistic here because these are the people I see brigading against AI art. It's not me saying those people are dumb for having their opinions or political standpoints or being activists for their beliefs, it's me saying those people are the ones who are constantly attacking AI art in "defense of artists," while in the same breath attacking artists for not sharing their political standpoints or also being activists for the same causes. If you truly, truly cared about the livelihood of artists, you'd stop attacking artists' livelihood for disagreeing with you. Or for that matter: Any reason. Stop attacking artists' livelihood, or stop pretending you care about it. Be consistent, at least.

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choicesficwriterscreations · 4 months

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January Creator of the Month: Jerzwriter

Each month, CFWC highlights one of our talented fanfic writers or artists, and this month’s creator of the month is CFWC's own @jerzwriter. The writer is selected at random. More info can be found on the navigation page.

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1- When did you start playing Choices? What was the first book you played?

It was sometime in 2017, and the first book I ever played was The Royal Romance, Book 1.

2- When and why did you join Choices fandom?

I joined a couple Facebook groups in 2019. I just wanted to discuss stories with others who were interested, as no one in my real life reads Choices. I didn't even know I was entering a fandom. lol I started reading fanfic on Tumblr the following year, but I found Tumblr intimidating, so I was mostly a silent reader. I didn’t start writing and contributing until May 2021, mostly because Open Heart was ending and I was in denial. 🙂

3- How did you pick your blog name?

It’s pretty boring, actually. I’m from NJ, and I write. I wanted it to be JerZwriter, so people would know it is Jer-ZEE-Writer, but that wasn’t doable, so it’s Jerzwriter, and most think it is Jerz-Writer. Oh, well!

4- Pull up the first and last posts in your archive, and tell us about them!

My first post was the first chapter of my Ethan x Casey x Tobias love triangle, Delaying the Inevitable (OH). It was my very first fanfic and I really didn't think I'd write anything beyond that. I was so green back then, not only to fanfic but to the fandom as well. I’m really glad that I was naive because I don’t think I would have had the courage to post it if I had, but I’m glad that I did.

My last post was Falling for You, a little drabble I wrote for Tobias x Casey (OH), and it featured a commission by the talented artist @weetlebeetle. It was a light, fun piece that took place early in Tobias and Casey's relationship, and it shows Tobias at his absolute simpiest. Lol

5- Do you write fanfiction, create fan art, or are you one of those really gifted people who do both?

Oh, how I wish I could draw, but I can't. So, I’m strictly a writer. I may try giving drawing a go again, but I don't expect much to come of it. lol

6- How long have you been creating for Choices and for any other fandoms?

Choices was the first fandom I ever wrote for, and I started in May of 2021. So, just over two and a half years. I have written a little bit for some other fandoms since that time, but I primarily write for Choices.

7- What is your favorite Choices book, and what is your favorite Choices book to create for?

Tough question. I write for Open Heart, Crimes of Passion, and Wake the Dead, and they are three of my favorite stories. I also loved Desire & Decorum, but I never wrote for it. Though, I’m planning a re-read, and you never know. 🙂

8- Share your first Choices fanfic or fan art that you posted with us. Do you still like it, or would you change it if you were creating it today?

It was the first chapter of Delaying the Inevitable. I was so green when I started that series that I’m sure there are things I would change, but I’m still very proud of it. That series will always have a special place in my heart. I’d like to revisit it one day to “clean it up”, it could use some condensing. But I would never change the storyline.

9- What is your favorite piece of fiction or art that you created?

This is such an unfair question. lol The Delaying the Inevitable Series definitely comes to mind, but I’m also very proud of my Eli Sipes prequel stories, A Mother’s Journal, Coming Up Blank, and The End of the World. But Tobias and Casey are my favorite pairing, and I simply love the world I created for them. And while my headcanon for them is my favorite, I cannot pick just one fic for them, and I'm not going to! lol But, I've also written a bunch of AUs for them, and Friends* is one of my favorites.

10- Do you have a fic/art that you didn’t expect to be well received, but it was? What about one you expected to do well but found it could use a little more love?

Yes, to both! The fandom is much smaller today, but back when we were more active, I learned you couldn't predict how a fic would be received. There are too many to name, but I will say whenever my smut does well (and quite a few of them have), I’m always astounded. lol

11- If you could write only angst, fluff, or smut for the rest of your writing life, which would it be and why?

This is such a difficult question because I believe the best stories incorporate a little of each, and, as a writer, exploring all three helps spur creativity. Also, my absolute favorite is angst with a happy ending, so there is definitely some fluff in there (and I'm never mad at a little smut being thrown in!) But if I were forced to choose, it would probably be angst. I think that's where I am strongest, and I just love raw emotion. I think that’s where character development really occurs. I have not written as much angst recently, and I miss it. Perhaps I need a change in 2024.

12 - Do you ever recognize yourself in any of your MCs or in your writing?

There are definitely parts of me in my MCs and OCs, but I do my best to prevent them from becoming self-inserts. I'm not as cool as any of them, that's for sure! lol That said, I do find inspiration for my fics in real life, so there is bound to be a little crossover. When using real-life inspiration, I try to change details so that the fiction is not a carbon copy of the real-life event. Normally, by the time I'm done, they're hardly recognizable.

13 - What element of writing/art do you struggle with most? Where do you feel you are strongest?

I struggle most with setting a scene. Dialogue is my strong suit, and that just flows for me. It flows so much that sometimes I forget to describe what's going on around the conversation. I think this is particularly easy to do in fanfiction because so much of the "world" has already been provided for us, so I recognize this more when I'm writing original works.

The other thing I struggle with? Brevity. I know I can go on, and on, and on. lol I've gotten much better at this, but there is still room for improvement.

14 - Do you have any neglected work you really want to finish?

(Elsa leaves the room, quietly crawls under her desk, and hides…) YES!!! Far, far too many, and no matter how much I share those posts that say, "You don't have to finish! If you're not feeling it, move on!" I don't believe it! lol I really want to make wrapping them up a priority in 2024. But I also know writing - particularly good writing - cannot be forced. So, it's a goal, but I'll only do it if I feel it’s right.

15 - If someone you know in real life (who isn’t involved in fandoms) asked to see your work, would you let them? If yes, what would you show them first?

It would depend on who asked. I’m not ashamed of writing fanfic at all, but if I believed the person would be judgemental, I wouldn't be willing to share. A few of my friends have read select pieces of my fanfic, and I’ve always received positive feedback from them. I wouldn’t be opposed to sharing more. What I'd share would depend greatly on the person asking.

16 - Are there any writers (published authors and/or fanfic writers) who influenced your writing or art? Are there any artists that influence you?

There are many published writers that I admire, but I don’t think they've influenced my writing here. Within the fandom, there are many writers who have inspired me in different ways. There is no way I can ever name them all. But I'd like to give a shout-out to some.

@jamespotterthefirst and @bex-la-get were among the first writers I read when I joined Tumblr. I found their passion for both canon and the worlds they created inspiring, especially as Open Heart was nearing its end and all of us addicts needed our fill. Reading their works helped keep the story alive for me and so many others, and it inspired me to try my hand at it as well. To my shock, they were both so encouraging and supportive of me when I arrived, and I'm forever grateful. Back then, I thought they were rockstars - and they are! But now, they're also friends. I wasn't familiar with @alwaysmychoices from the start, but when I came across their work, I was just blown away. Weekend with Dr. Ramsey will live rent-free in my head forever, and that headcanon about Charlie calling Ethan the night before she marries someone else. (I faint.) Ohhh, the delicious angst! The way she made me feel what Charlie felt was just mind-boggling, and it encouraged me to really dig into my character's emotions and bring them to life in a more meaningful way.

Early on, I read @utterlyinevitable, and the thing that impressed me the most was how Dom was willing to "write stories that “went "go there.” They tackled issues that others wouldn't touch. In their world, everything wasn’t perfect, including the characters themselves. I admired that vision and, frankly, bravery, and it definitely encouraged me to write what I wanted to and not what I felt was expected of me.

More recently, @mydemonsdrivealimo inspired me to explore parts of my MCs that I have not delved into in the past. In particular, Casey's bisexuality. It can be challenging to represent a bisexual character when they are in a straight-presenting relationship, and you risk alienating readers no matter what you do (looking at all readers here.) So it becomes easier to be lazy and ignore it. But that's a disservice to the character as much as it's a disservice to people living similar situations in real life... like I have many times. Through MJ's writing and our conversations, they've helped me become more aware and do a better job in this regard, and I'm not even sure if they know this - it may totally be news to them lol - but I'm eternally grateful. Now, I feel my girl Casey is free, and OMG, how I love our characters playing together in HC now!

Then there are @lilyoffandoms and @storyofmychoices, who bring joy to all that they touch. Who knew when Lily created a little drabble putting our characters in a new world together, it would end up being one of the brightest fandom spots of 2023? Who knew that so much more would stem from that one work? Seriously, it's been one of the highlights of my fandom experience this year, and it's helped me to find inspiration at times when I felt like it was lost. Thank you both - I am so lucky to have you both here!

There are so many more I could mention, but I'd still forget people and feel horrible, so I want to take the chance to thank every writer in the fandom for sharing their gifts with us. Each of you is an inspiration in your own way; each of you can give someone an idea, and you have no idea where that spark will lead. So, never stop sharing!

17- Which one of your stories would you most like to see as a movie/series?

Delaying the Inevitable, Friends*, All in the Past, and the WIP What’s Forever For. I also think some of my Ethan x Tobias works would have made for a good sitcom, and how I wish my Tobias x Casey friendship with Bryce x Jensen would be an epic sitcom. The world needs it! lol (Jensen belongs to @mydemonsdrivealimo.)

19- Do you write original fiction or create non-fandom art?

I do. Mostly shorter stories that will never see the light of day, but also some more substantive works... which will also never see the light of day! lol I wrote a novel-length political thriller some time ago. It would need a ton of work to bring it up to 2024, as the political landscape has changed so much. I also have two original WIPs I've been writing. One is an angsty story about a friendship that's loosely based on a childhood friend I lost to cancer a few years ago. The other is a polyamorous romance about two best friends who fall for the same person. It's really a beautiful, emotional story. If I like the end result, maybe I'll let it see the light of day... maybe. lol

20- What other hobbies do you have?

I enjoy theater, and I'm lucky enough to live in the best part of the world to partake in that. I go to a lot of Broadway, Off-Broadway, and local theater productions. I also love going to concerts - they’re like group therapy! Trust me, I got more out of seeing Noah Kahan and Hozier in 2023 than I did from the entirety of sessions with my therapist - and I loved my therapist. lol

Prior to 2020, I did a fair amount of traveling, and I hope to start doing a little more this year. But I have to admit, since the lockdown, I’ve become more of a homebody, and I like it, so we’ll see how that goes!

I used to be very involved with activism and advocacy for women’s, lgbtq+, and mental health issues. I still am, but in a different capacity than I was in the past. These issues require people fighting for them, and doing so has always been a huge part of who I am, but it can be draining, and burnout is real. I really reached the end of my rope. So, nowadays, I work as a volunteer for a couple local organizations that really mean a lot to me. I'm not involved in grassroots efforts or taking trips to talk to legislators as often, but I'm helping people on a smaller scale, and that still goes a long, long way.

22: BONUS - tell us anything you’d like (if you want to).

As most of you know, I’m one of the mods here at CFWC, so it was a little weird when my the wheel landed on my name. But, honestly, it’s happened before, and I've just spun again, even though I am eligible. But this time around, I decided to do it. This fandom really means a lot to me, and I wanted to share a little more about myself and my crazy pixelated people.

I'm truly grateful to everyone in the fandom who does their part to make this a place that many, like me, still see as a place they want to be. We're smaller, it's imperfect, it has plenty of problems, but I am choosing to focus on the good... because there is much more of that than there is bad. So, thank you to each of you... and I hope we all have a wonderful 2024! xo

PS... My header... I know Tobias wasn't technically an LI... which was truly criminal. So, that's what fandom is for, fixing what canon effed up. lol My favorite canon LI is Trystan Thorne (COP). I tried adding their picture to the header alongside Tobias, but it looked terrible, so here I am. :)

Thanks for taking the time to read this, and I can't wait to highlight more of you in 2024! :)

#choices fic writers creations #playchoices #choices the stories you play #cfwc creator of the month #jerzwriter #choices fanfic #playchoices fanfic #january creator of the month #open heart #crimes of passion #wake the dead

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princessofmerchants · 28 days

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Which scenes from acotar- acosf with Nesta are your favorites? 👀

Thank you for this ask, anon! This will be super fun to list out all of my favorite Nesta scenes from the ACOTAR books.

ACOTAR

"Tell me everything that happened." - When Feyre returns to her family halfway through the book, and we learn Tamlin's glamour didn't work on Nesta, and Feyre starts to understand Nesta's inner fire in a way she hadn't before. This set of scenes launched Nesta right on to my list of favorite characters - they are pure fire.

Feyre teaches Nesta to paint - This is a brief but, to me, utterly beautiful moment amid the set of scenes I listed above. It's when Nesta asks Feyre to teach her to paint, and in particular it's the moment when they emerge from where they had been painting together and both are covered in paint and charcoal, even as it's clear Nesta isn't very good at it but she wanted to try anyway, with her sister. Some day I want to commission an artist to draw Feyre and Nesta in this moment of ACOTAR. It fills my familial heart right up every time I read it.

ACOMAF

"Wings and Embers" bonus chapter - When I first read this bonus chapter, the way Nesta's pov in this extended scene made me feel seen by words on the page, in a way I never had felt seen before, is something I cherish.

When the human queens visit the Archeron estate - Nesta makes a passionate and uncharacteristically vulnerable plea to the queens to protect the human lands south of Prythian, which leads to Cassian promising to protect the humans even if the queens will not. It's another beautiful example of Nesta being vulnerable in a public way, and it moves me every time I read it.

"The hellcat now, if you'll be so kind." - When the King of Hybern orders Nesta to be pushed into the Cauldron and forcibly Made Fae. This entire scene is devastating and traumatic. But watching Nesta fight back with the rage we first glimpse in "Wings and Embers" makes this an absolute standout Nesta scene for me. The finger point at Hybern and his unnerved reaction are everything to me.

ACOWAR

Scenes when Nesta is training with Amren - I always loved these and even though my present canonical feelings about Amren are mixed to poor, the way these scenes brought out a side of Nesta we hadn't seen yet make them special to me.

The meeting of the High Lords - Both during it, when Nesta as the Night Court's new Emissary to the Human Lands makes a public and, again, incredibly vulnerable case to those assembled that the humans are worth protecting, and also the scene just after the meeting when Nesta senses the Cauldron and Cassian believes her without question, which is just one of many of the embarrassment of riches we get in this book when it comes to Nessian.

When Nesta scries for the Cauldron with stones and bones - Everything about this scene is chef's kiss, but especially the Nessian dynamic in it.

Nesta screaming for Cassian during the battle against Hybern - This doesn't need an explanation, does it? As we learn later, it's the moment Cassian realizes they are mates. It is everything.

Cassian lifting Nesta to greet Drakon and the legions he brought with him, and the arrival of Papa Archeron - This scene, also during the battle, means so much to me that it's depicted in the first ever artwork I commissioned.

Nessian's stand against the King of Hybern - the way they fight together and are willing to die together sets me alight whenever I read it, and it's always fascinating to me that SJM manages to show us this scene from within Feyre's pov, who isn't even present for it.

Nesta and her father - His last words to her.....ACOSF shows just how important and complicated this moment is for Nesta, and it's for those same reasons this scene is so important to me.

Nesta kills the king - I love that Elain is the one who appears and makes the first blow on this kill, and that when Nesta finishes the job she lifts the king's head like the badass that she is. There is such trauma and rage in this moment and, again, seeing that baldly on the page is transformative for me every time I read it. Related to this moment is a little while later when the Archeron sisters walk past the King of Hybern's corpse, and Nesta spits on it. So raw, so perfect.

ACOFAS

Nesta's pov - After her fight with Cassian, the small snippet we get in Nesta's pov when she returns to her apartment, locks her doors, and completely dissociates in despair. It is so painful and raw, but again there is something about this scene that also makes me feel seen, especially heading into ACOSF.

ACOSF

(I need to do these rapid fire because, if I give an explanation for each one, this post will take forever to write; they also may be listed out of order, my apologies for that)

The Prologue - Nesta in the Cauldron from her pov

Opening scenes in Nesta's pov where we finally learn what she's been going through

Nesta's nightmare after her first try at scrying

Nesta successfully scrying for the Mask (when the room turns cold and Cassian kisses her back to herself after using her power)

Nesta fighting the kelpie in the Bog of Oorid and then reuniting with Cass and Az

The first time Nesta wields a sword

Ch. 50 - Nesta and Cassian by the lake after their hike through the Sleeping Mountains

Nesta's fight against Lanthys in the Prison

Nesta bringing Cassian to her family's cottage (this scene is absolutely standout for me)

Nesta, Gwyn, and Emerie making friendship bracelets together

When Gwyn gives Nesta and Emerie her Solstice gift to them ("We're in a book." "Our stories are worth telling." *sobs*)

Nesta working through her PTSD response to the sound of fire and then the House of Wind's Solstice gift to her in the heart of the House

Nesta dancing at the Solstice ball (when this leaked ahead of the book's release, I sobbed at seeing a glimpse of Nesta healed and joyful)

Ch. 58 - Cassian giving Nesta the Symphonia, her response, and Nessian finally yielding to each other and their mating bond solidifying

Nesta mastering herself during her fight with Cassian about their mating bond and choosing not to hurt him with her words

Nesta, Emerie, and Gwyn fighting off a group of random Illyrians during the Blood Rite like a single Valkyrie unit

Nesta sending Emerie and Gwyn to the summit of Ramiel and holding the Pass of Enalius

Nesta erupting with the power of the Cauldron

Nesta's conversation with the Mother while wearing the Mask during the birth of Nyx

Nesta visiting her father's grave at the very end of the book

#ask answered #anon ask #favorite scenes #nesta archeron #pro nesta #nessian #cassian #acotar #a court of thorns and roses #acomaf #a court of mist and fury #wings and embers #acowar #a court of wings and embers #acofas #a court of frost and starlight #acosf #a court of silver flames #sarah j maas

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goldendoodlerlockerlove · 4 months

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4, 10, 11, 27!! (took you this long to reblog the thing >:/ but hell yessss ♥️)

Yesss!! Thank you so much for invading my ask box, DT!!❣️

4.) How many different styles/mediums (e.g., digital art, traditional art, comics, sculptures, paper craft, etc.) did you try this year?

Actually, quite a bit!! At least, more than I initially thought I did. I, of course, did mostly digital art near the end of this year, and ended up producing a lot more pieces than I've done before!! It was honestly kind of crazy how much art I began producing at the end of this year. It was like I was a driver in a race, pffffffft. But, at the beginning of this year, I dabbled a lot in traditional art, because I enjoy the feeling of putting a pencil to paper, and whilst it takes more time, sometimes it can give you more freedom to experiment with designs or expressions. I also began making a long-form Bob's Burgers comic for the first time, which was inspired by @bluebirbbs and their long-form Bob's Burgers comic, which everyone should read if they haven't already. When I was younger and in art class, I actually used even more mediums for creating art, like sewing an actual Christmas ornament, and sketching stuff using a lightbox, which is super fun. But I haven't done those two things in years. I kind of want to try doing them again someday.

10.) What inspired/motivated you this year?

DT, you know I'm going to say you as my first (and biggest :3) inspiration. I mean, come on, you're the reason I have this blog in the first place. I know I've said it before, but seeing your amazing, lovely BB art inspired me to begin making my own and get back into drawing, and it caused me to create my blog and expand it into territories I didn't even think were possible. And now I'm running Geneuary, an event celebrating my favorite baby boy, and that would never have happened if it hadn't been for you, and that initial Boblin ask I somehow worked up the courage to give you (and am so glad I did)! It doesn't show it anymore, but do you remember how I didn't even have an image for my account?? 😆

Yes, I'm getting super sappy, but all of this is true!! Now, of course, you weren't my only inspiration. There are too many blogs to name, but @br1ghtestlight has been super sweet and my Gene Belcher buddy!! He's the one person who loves the baby boy as much as I do. We may or may not do a collab for Geneuary based on an idea she had about Gene and Tina working on a lil' puzzle together, which is just too adorable 😭

I also must shout out @babsvibes too. She was also, in a way, the reason I even have this blog. I used to be content enjoying this silly Burger show on my own, watching the episodes and having fun, and reading the occasional fanfic (@thisaliennerd and their Boblin fanfic Falling For You is Easy [Like Sunday Morning]) was one of my first forays into the BB fanfic community, and it wonderful) when I suddenly stumbled upon this Tinimmy fic by Babs one fateful day called Honeycombed Hair, I believe: https://archiveofourown.org/works/44413795

This fic led me to you, DT, and your amazing art!! And I joined this incredible Muppet community, and nothing's been the same for me ever since. Now I don't have to enjoy this show alone!! Of course, I have my BF @cryptidchrome now, who watches the show, but I digress. Babs also invited me to the Louigan server, which has been an absolute blast. And she's just an excellent writer in general, which is very inspiring as someone who also writes.

I must also shoutout @theangrypomeranian for being so sweet and Commissioning me, and also being an excellent writer (she called me the #1 Gene person in this fandom and that made me so 🥺). And @devilh0rnsinc for having such lovely art that it makes me squee every time. And @jimmypesto for making the best Boblin fics and just being the ultimate Boblin connoisseur. Shoutout to her new nephew for being the most adorable bambino on the entire planet. Welcome to the world, lil' bean!! @jimmyjrsmusoems is another fantastic writer and is hilarious, and is the other Tinimmy connoisseur in this fandom, besides you, DT, of course. Also, @koko-raccoon has some of the cutest art ever and listened to me ramble about my OCs, which I definitely want to thank them for. Their art is very inspiring to me. But the person whose art is the most inspiring to me, besides yours, DT, is probably @dianadeadwing. Her art is wonderful, and I'll never get enough of it. I also get so excited whenever I see it.

Okay, now for more of a speed round so I can mention more people!! @ratguy-nico has adorable art as well, and I love his style so much. It's wonderful. And @ltwharfy is such a good writer and I didn't even know until I read his Roudise Week fic about Bob and Rudy getting Louise a new hat when she outgrows her bunny ears. @keepyourhornson-spyro is another fantastic writer and is the certified Tedmort Monarch. There are just so many more people I want to name, but I'll just mention one more person: @carnivaldemon, who gave me the most adorable art of Gene and my OC, Alexis. His art is truly inspiring to me.

11.) What pairing/character/subject did you create the most for this year?

You probably already know the answer to this ☠️

It's definitely a tie between Boblin and Gene/Alexis, which is definitely my newest ship and obsession. But I have to give Boblin a special shoutout because I began work on an entire Pre-Canon Boblin series (which I'm still working on to this day) and a "Linda is Deaf" AU, both of which are super close to my heart now. Thank you for giving me the push I needed to work on my "Linda is Deaf" AU when I sent that ask about it to you, pfffffft.

Gene is definitely the character I've created the most for in terms of just singular characters. I could talk about him all day. I love this lil' guy so much. Hopefully, y'all don't get bored of hearing me ramble about him, because I'll certainly never get bored of rambling about him.

27.) Biggest surprise while creating art this year?

Honestly, the biggest surprise was just how sweet, supportive, and welcoming the Bob's Burgers community ended up being. Y'all welcomed me with open arms and supported all of my creative endeavors (and long analyses about Gene) and for that, I'll always be grateful. This community really does feel like one big family, and it's so lovely to see. Everyone is just so nice to each other, it warms my heart 🥹 And one of my biggest surprises was learning about the Ship Weeks/Character Events, and how fun they are. They're truly a testament to how sweet and talented this community is. I'm definitely looking forward to them all next year if they happen again.

#asks #doodler’s daydreams #bobs burgers #thank you so much for asking this dt❣️#i know i got super sappy but everything i said was true #joining this community was the best decision i ever made #i'm not planning on leaving anytime soon. not willingly anyway #who knew them burger muppets could create one of the sweetest and most supportive online communities ever?? i certainly didn't #and i've never been the same since (in the best way possible)

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dgdraws · 4 months

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My art year in review!

I learned so much this year and made a ton of cool stuff! These are my favorites from each month, but it was so hard to choose. A lot of stuff didn't even get posted--I'll be sure to at least post the ones that made it to this list!

It's amazing to see how much I've changed and learned over this year, and to see the things that are emerging as part of "my style."

Here's to another year of delight, creation, connection and fun!

Some monthly reflections beneath the cut, but here's the highlights:

I participated in 3 art challenges, Artfight, OC-tober and Huevember.

I made fanart for the first time!

I created a piece I conceived of before I started drawing

Made some big breakthroughs in techniques and skills in April, July and November

January: My first branch into full character design, Rodd is the culmination of training on Hero Forge renders to make dnd portraits! I was doing this cool thing with neon rim lighting, I should bring that back!

February: I saw a piece on here with this amazing glowing effect, so I color picked it and experimented to figure out what relationship between the colors was making it do that! The answer was saturation. This rose is meant to be glowing from within, and I think I did a good job for my knowledge level at the time! As Chuck Tingle would tell us, it's beautiful because only I could have made it in that moment on the timeline.

March: I spent a million years on every detail of this one, it has at least 5 clipping overlay/saturation layers for lighting, multiple line work groups and I want to rework that background but! I never felt more accomplished than I did when I finished this one. I learned a lot, especially about things I could skip or simplify. And the symbolism really pops off ngl

April: I read Gideon the Ninth for the first time this month and I immediately needed to draw Jeannemary Chatur, Cavalier of the Fourth House, the worst teen to do it. She's the first fanart I ever made and posted! I also discovered a new pen tool with this one, which CHANGED THE GAME.

May: This one is an idea I had written down before I ever picked up the tablet and stylus. I thought I might commission someone to make it, the image of it came to me so clearly during our VTM session I just had to make it real somehow. Well I did it! This is one I will come back to redraw in like 5 years bc I love the concept so much. Also rife with symbolism and inside nods to the Low Kings.

June: I made a bunch of ref sheets in the run-up to Artfight in July. Caleb hadn't even been in my plans to upload, but I had time and inspiration! I will be uploading this and a few more of him <3

July: This is one of my faves from Artfight! This character is Blueberry, by way of OrchidEatsBread on artfight. I have still never played... rainworld? But I love me a slug cat. In July I drew a TON of people, it really drilled anatomy basics into me and how to get clothes looking like actual clothes a bit more. Also solidified some things I would consider "my style" at the moment, like no irises, and my approach to noses and mouths and fingers!

August: Another fanart for the Locked Tomb series, I never posted this!!! Will be rectifying that soon.

September: I got really into javascript and css this month, and I made this to be a landing page image on my neocities website XD I'll get back around to that eventually...

October: At the last minute, I discovered OC-tober and the prompts from @/bweirdart, a worthy follow up to the rush of Artfight two months previous. I developed so much stuff for the Low Kings, including this drawing/character, Amayah/Girl-Z, who has been a figment of my pintrest board for 2+ years.

Huevember: Chasing that OC-tober high, I found Huevember! I did not expect to actually do every day, but it proved to be an amazing exercise! I learned so, so much about color, discovered amazing new brushes and techniques and found I really enjoy working in those one day capsules! I loved a lot of the stuff that came out of this month, including my highest note post ever!!!, but this one is still my phone background and I'm maybe developing an OC world around it. We'll see what happens in 2024.

December: I got hit HARD with the writing bug this month, so this was my only choice for this month but I WOULDA CHOSEN IT ANYWAY. I unlocked something here that I'm really excited to visit again, in fact I'm working on a companion piece rn! This is also fanart btw, prepare for me to get even weirder about this guy in the coming months.

If you've read this far, thank you so much! I have so much fun writing these little reflections and making my posts on here.

xoxo, wren

#my stuff #reflections #low kings #oc tober #huevember #artfight #year in art #year in review

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pine-niidles · 2 months

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February Project Updates

The move is done! I'm settled in at home again and it feels great! I can quickly feel my ability to function coming back to me. It's also nice to be going swimming again, my local pool finally has its upper floor showers fixed, so I don't have to go up and down the stairs as often. On the other hand the construction that's been blocking my girlfriend, and I's shortcut for going grocery shopping is still blocked, and likely will be until summer. Other construction is finished, and new ones started, such as it is living in the city.

Moving was the focus this February, but I did get a couple of art things done.

Hourly Comics Day

Hourly comics day was a blast this year. I'd only participated a couple of times before, and I don't think I ever manged to finish the whole day. That was back in university, so I thought I'd give it another shot. It ended up going pretty smoothly. I stumbled into a style that worked well when doing the 9am comic. It's pretty quick to do, I like how the final result looks, and any rough edges feel intentional.

I did find it took a LOT of focus and about halfway through the day I stopped drawing comics every hour so that I could concentrate on the work I needed to do. I still took notes every hour of what I wanted to draw later.

I had to stay up late to finish drawing the catch-up comics but I was having fun so it's all good.

I always enjoy seeing diary comics, it's nice to have a glimpse into other people's everyday lives and thoughts. With the medium of comics specifically - it's fun to see how people depict themselves and their surroundings. What they put more effort into drawing, what they leave out completely, how they stylize things. Most of the time we see artists draw from a built-up image bank to make made-up objects or from refs found online, there's something a little different that comes across when drawing something one uses day to day. At least it certainly feels different to draw it! My favorite panel to do was drawing the sink full of dishes.

You can find my full day of hourly comics here, I'm still working on putting together that pdf/zine of them

Erwin Zine

I put together this zine of photos of my parent's cat, I already miss him <3

2023 Sketchbook Compilation

I finished the intro, I still have the cover and outro to do. Will be wrapping that up soon :)

March Goals

I haven't thought much about what I want to get done in March yet... I'll be leaving that for next week's me as I get back to figuring out the perspective issues on this commission I'm working on.

That's all for now - I hope you enjoy your last couple weeks of winter o reader of mine.

#project updates #a new attempt at addressing you the reader #if you remember my previous conflict between using you all or yous #let me know if it's too awkward or if it's a nice touch of drama

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dexadin · 1 year

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Do you have any fun stories from your Strahd game? Moments you were proud of? You always have such good advice, and you deserve a chance to brag! Your players are lucky to have such a fun GM. 💗

Hi there! I've been sitting on this ask because it gives me serotonin every time I see it but I finally have a story line that I'm really fucking proud of that I want to talk about :3

So back during the Vallaki arc, Strahd attacked Father Lucian at the stairs of St. Andral, and the only reason that Lucian survived was party intervention (the infamous Vanya crycatting at Strahd scene). However, much to the party's chagrin, Strahd's magic shattered the stained glass windows of the church of St. Andral. The party also lost the favor of Father Lucian because of it, which was devastating to them, as Father Lucian was their first NPC who was truly good to them.

Backstory aside, they have finally gotten to the part of the story where they actually start hunting for the items prophesied in their tarokka reading at the beginning of the campaign and are seeking the sunsword in the 'wagon of someone who is not who they seem.' This quest leads the party (and Rictavio, who is travelling with them) to Vallaki once more in the pursuit of Blinsky, about a year and a half of real-world time down the line. They go to his wagon and get to hear their favorite NPC delighted to see them , and they ask him if he has a sword in his wagon. Blinsky goes, "oh this one?" and everyone goes, "no fucking way." Blinsky pulls out a toy wooden sword with an odd hollow cutout of the blade and everyone hesitantly exhales. Blinsky lets them know that it was commissioned by Father Lucian as a prototype for a project he's working on.

The party then goes to Father Lucian and finds him working in a forge, hammering out a ribbon of foil on his anvil. They learn that he has found a record of a sword that was wielded by a beloved priest, written by Andral himself. The hilt was encrusted in stones and plated in metal that wasn't easily found in Barovia, and so Lucian had only been able to work on the blade. Vanya notes that Rictavio is looking intently at the drawing of the hilt, and sends him a message, to which he responds that he needs Vanya to meet him outside. The party splits, as Vanya and Threnody go outside with Rictavio, Wofl stays in with Lucian, and Corsair goes off to distract the other NPCs.

Outside, Rictavio reveals himself to be Van Richten, swearing Vanya and Threnody to secrecy before going through his wagon full of random treasures to find no other than the sword in question--missing its blade.

Inside, Father Lucian reveals the work-in-progress to Wofl, revealing a stunning silvered blade with an inlay of leaded stained glass, made of the remains of the shattered glass windows of the church.

All in one go, I got to connect the Sunsword to several significant NPCs, reveal Van Richten, give a satisfying conclusion to the church of St. Andral (which had left my players distraught), and provide new speculation about Sergei, all wrapped up in one of the coolest weapons I've ever designed. The players were as hype about it as I was, and I'm just really fucking thrilled about how it all played out.

I hope this was at all coherent and/or fun to read! It was really fun to plan and play.

#fawk you guys are so sweet #i love getting asks about strahd #cos #curse of strahd #atsbb #curse of strahd spoilers #van richten #strahd #dexadin answers #dnd stories #dungeons and dragons #dungeon master

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sharkneto · 1 year

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For the Pick Any Passage ask game:

Searching for Good Times is still one my most favorite fics ever. Do have any more thoughts or feelings on how you built the Hotel around Five, particularly when describing things like Five's house.

some bits i really liked:

Her fully grown, adult, man of a brother.

How fucking long has he been in here?

Adult Five is recognizable, which is a relief. Same dark hair, cut short and flopping over his forehead, same sharp green eyes, same slightly curved nose. His face is more angular, longer and without the baby fat, and there’s a slight shadow of stubble along his jaw. He’s shorter than she would have expected, maybe an inch taller than she is.

. and .

Her first discovery is that Five doesn’t actually have any plates. Or bowls. There’s some pots and pans stored by the stove and a few miscellaneous utensils in the drawer by the sink. There is a can opener that has obviously never been used, which she finds a little funny. The pantry where he got the wine has more bottles stored inside, along with an entire shelf of coffee and a wall of plastic bins that protect boxes of cereal, crackers, oatmeal and protein bars. The double storage is a little strange but after the truly insane number of cans that are in the other cupboards, it’s easy to overlook.

. and .

No paying here then, either.

She frowns to herself as she steps onto the street. Why doesn’t anyone use money? There was a cash register in the deli, just like there was in the café yesterday, but it was ignored. There for decoration, again.

Five, she needs to think about all this in context with Five. Why doesn’t Five’s world use money?

Ah, designing the HOb around Five for Searching for Good Times was so fun. The whole point of it was to be Five's Perfect World, which isn't where everything is perfect but instead is a world Five understands perfectly. My overall concept of th HOb was that it works with the occupant's experiences and memories to create a place they can't leave by being a place they don't want to leave. The two biggest pieces for building Five's world (after "his family will be here Tomorrow" to keep him strung along) were 1) Five Lived In The Apocalypse For 40 Years and 2) Five Saw Thousands Of Years Of Human History. Those two things have to merge into a functional world for Five to wander around in and makes sense to him. How he looks prioritizes him Fitting In with his family (his greatest want and his priority over looking his actual age) and smooths over any niggling questions he could pull at for why he has the same birthday as his siblings but looks so much older (or younger). The merging of eras is just fun - what bits and pieces stuck out to Five, what parts did he particularly like. He's seen an insane amount of history. It's hard to wrap your head around, so I slapped it all right in front of Allison so she had a chance to understand that.

As fun as mashing eras together was, thinking about how the apocalypse shaped Five's idea of the world was even better. The angle I wanted to get across is that this is all the idea of what Five thinks the world is like. Five's house has a full kitchen he doesn't use because he knows what kitchens look like and that houses have them, but he also didn't cook on a stove or use a refrigerator for half a century, didn't use plates or dishes. Shops and restaurants have cash registers because That's What Stores Have but Five also grew up a billionaire and then, again, spent 50 years in the apocalypse. Money is Meaningless to him, an inconvenience drilled into him by the Commission so he would stop drawing attention to himself dining-and-dashing. It's the charade of normalcy, Five playing house with the best idea of it that he has, which is genuinely rather childish because he hasn't been home since he was 13 (as much as the Academy counts as a Home) and then glimpses of ones as he bopped around time murdering. On top of that idea of what the world is like, we have survival needs and instincts from the apocalypse so that he feels safe and secure - a woodpile in the living room, fully stocked cupboards and pantry with shelf-stable food, a pharmacy's worth of medical supplies in the bathroom.

And then, of course, he has Delores. You didn't specifically ask about her, but she's a pivotal part of the illusion. I thought a lot about how Delores fit in, if she was Actually Delores or if she was the Hotel, and I don't think I really settled on it until I wrote her Wall of Words in chapter four. What I settled on is that Delores was the linchpin to the entire illusion working but also the Hotel's downfall. Five would not have stayed without Delores, but he also would not have gotten out without Delores. The Hotel did supply a fake Delores as part of the initial illusion to keep Five there, but Delores has always been Fake. She's just Five. The Hotel accidentally gave Five his survival tool for compartmentalizing and figuring shit out. Once she was there, Five could shape her to be His Delores (and the Hotel had to oblige because if she didn't act right, Five would figure it out and Leave). Delores lets Five relax into the illusion - like the Hotel wants - while also being his emergency escape the second he needed it. A tricky, painful emergency escape.

send me ~500 words from one of my fics for director's commentary

#this got long #but i spent a long time thinking about the HOb #and had a lot of fun doing it #i miss thinking about it sometimes #i do not need more wips but if i figured out a fic that let me play with it some more that would be fun #maybe a prequel - five getting there and figuring it out and then letting himself fall into the illusion #anyway - here you are sail friend :)#the fic that started our friendship too :) :) :)#ask game response #ficblogging #long post

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metukika · 1 year

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ok you needing a second to understand that tumbel in tumblr saved me from my embarrassment for having misread your message xD hell yeah haha

maybe you could write us a lil post about your favorite character & why they are that :D (soz for not doin it myself i‘m not feeling like putting anything out there today)

and don‘t decide that you won‘t ever contribute to a bigger project that touches people yet !!!!!! YOU‘RE SO YOUNG you‘ve got the whole world waiting for you and you‘re ALREADY so good at art though. your art is already touching people, no reason why that shouldn‘t work if you should ever work with others on a bigger project!!! GET OUT THEREEE i mean also take your time but IF YOU WANT THAT ABSOLUTELY SHOOT YOUR SHOT KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN FOR OPPORTUNITIES i‘d personally love to see your work in something bigger :D nothing‘s set in stone <3 <3 <3 !!!

aww thank you so much anon! idk who you are but youre so kind to me... thats so nice!

about the whole future thing... i know i have a lot of time but i think because of some stuff coming up soon (when i leave school) im stressed about the future and my decisions in it entirely. idk what im gonna do if i need to go to the military lol like what job to take... i havent started driving and i dont understand shit about all the other stuff thats attached with going to the military im just stressed in general. i dont wanna end up staying in my parents house forever ig.

but i have a lot of time and i know that even if my connection with my friends fade away when they get recruited (which is... also something that could happen... oh god i dunno how to make irl friends) i still have my family, and probably the online world too. if i open commissions im pretty sure id get some work, but i dont think i could do that too much cuz i hate drawing things i dont wanna draw.

but, again, who knows what will happen. ill be fine haha, especially if there are people like you who care enough to write messages like these. most of my online friends are from twt so its always nice to see a tumblr fan <3 thank you anon.

(im realizing how depressed this is all making me sound like i promise its just my school hammering in the importance of the military signs up like i dont even know what part of the mess ill be in most of the time theyre teaching shit that doesnt concern me. im okay, im not dying!!)

now to actually talk about my favorite character! woohoo! happy topic change!

for the two people who read this and the one thats actually gonna read till the end, im putting a cut so this isnt annoying on ur dash (note to anon: this post is so so fucking long i know u prob asked me my fav character to cheer me up but dont force urself to read this whole thing just to be polite lmaooo but id appreciate it if anyone did cuz holy shit)

something that ive realized a while back is that usually when it comes to favorite characters of media, i have a type.

when i made this the character i had in mind where souda (danganronpa), aiura (saiki k) and teru (mp100).

after making the tweet i also thought of denji (csm) who fits right in, and also bakugou (mha) who doesnt, but he looks like half of the characters i did mention lol.

i think the whole social but nice thing came to because of all those shows and stories where the popular kid in school is the mean bully.. maybe i dislike this trope cuz i havent personally experienced any kind of bullying in my school, even as an observer so i cant relate to the experience of having this type of antagonist. the worst it ever got for me was when in fifth grade a girl made fun of me for crying and no one laughed. (shes still in my class over six years later and shes really nice not ufhduh were not friends but were friendly and i dont hold a grudge). maybe its just cuz im wholesome so i dislike any type of negative character. maybe.

that might sound stupid cuz i said i like bakugou, who i used to think of constantly, like for the entirety of 2021 he was in my mind it was annoying. but idk man not all my favs fit into this category ((shinguuji, saihara, yuuko, tweek (who also looks like them! what the fuck!) yuudai from sakana (why are they all blond?!? and men. more female characters what the fuck) barf bag (yes im an object show fan good morning)))

anyways. i like the popular but nice trope is what im saying. why are they all simps? i dont know honestly only one of the characters that i mentioned at the start is simping for someone i ship them with (terumob) (but the reason i even like teru in the first place might be cuz i saw terumob art, thought it was cute, and decided to search more art. i do that with a lot of characters when i dont watch the show (from the original list ive watched all of saiki k, watched playthroughs of the first 2 dr games, watched like a season of mp100 years ago and watched like 2 seasons of mha even before that. i get my filling of plot and character from meme videos, fanart, and fanfics. i understand enough.) and i get hooked on the ship (more examples include akiangel, kiribaku and the two gay boys from evangelion. a lot of homo happening. also whatever the fic version of this is but with denji and yoshida).

about the simping and the bakugou being mean-- i accept my character's flaws!!! i dont erase them!!! bakugou is an asshole and thats why i wanna see him get punished and learn from his mistakes, even if its a little hard! a great fic where this happens (but isnt the main storyline) is quirk: knife! which is probably my favorite non ship heavy fic, check it out!

my fav characters have flaws but just like how you need to embrace flaws in the people you love, whether that means helping them get better or accepting them, i embrace these flaws cuz it makes them who they are! souda, denji and auira wouldnt be themselves if they werent pushing the lines with their crushes and idk what the fuck bakugou would be if he wasnt what he was.

alright lets actually start talking about my favorite character now.

so, right now, my favorite character of all time is-- ding ding ding-- kazuichi souda! who i already mentioned.

look at him! idk if the one and a half people who are reading this know him, but if u know denji, who is a more popular character atm, then imagine that but more wimpy.

the first time i encountered this character i was watching game grump's playthrough of the second game. i watched their first and enjoyed it but didnt really join the fandom. i didnt know anything about the second so i was going in blind like arin and dan, so theres a chance that whatever i thought about the characters was biased and connected to how they feel.

at first i really liked his design. a lot of the characters have small and complicated details but souda is probably the most simple design, not including hinata, but unlike him souda has a lot of bright colors that draw the eye in! i dont particularly prefer designs with sharp teeth but i think its a pretty nice quirk, since its another part of him that makes him look intimidating. theres a headcanon that he filed themselves but i honestly think he wouldnt do that, and prefer the headcanon that its genetic, even if it makes less sense. but danganronpa, and their designs, dont make sense. i think these little strange quirks are better when they arent thoughtout or have reason. he has sharp teeth becuz. just cuz.

if u dont know what happens in the game im just gonna say that the plot doesnt really matter, cuz really the only growth souda experiences is with his relationship to hinata (the main character) and his trust to his survivor friends that makes him stronger and convinces him to leave the virtual reality. im not gonna be talking about the plot in detail. i also havent watched the anime so im not gonna get into whatever he does there. i do know that he makes some cute faces in it, which is pretty awesome.

but, yeah, besides his design, at the start i truthfully didnt really like him lmaooo he was kind of stalkerish towards sonia (ill prob get into their relationship later), he is also a wimp but honestly... i get it hes stuck in a killing game i would be scared of anything too. i feel like of all of the cast, from all the games, souda is probably one of the best depictions of an actual teenager that might exist. of course he has his obnoxious moments, but in a way that a dumb teenager would have. i dont know when i started liking him, maybe after discovering soudam? hmm.

kazuichi is the ultimate mechanic, which is one of the talents in the game that actually gets used? he makes the communicators in chap 3 and fixes the elevator in chap 4. besides that, he is also important to the second chapter since he helped tie up komaeda and he also brought hinata to the diner, though that has nothing to do with his talent.

he learned to be a great mechanic from working at his dad's repair shop or garage or whatever its called. its mentioned that their family is pretty poor, and i think the concept of a character being at one point or another un-wealthy pretty interesting (did that come strange? sorry). he worked to help get their family money he is a good boy, he mentions being better than his dad too. he doesnt look like the typical mechanic, except from the greasy hair and jumpsuit (im talking specifically about his color scheme) and thats another one of those quirks that make no sense but i just like haha

speaking of his parents, lets talk about a popular headcanon that fans have of souda's dad (before we start i wanna state that my opinion on this topic and the topic of souda relationship towards sonia and his trust issues were all stem from an analysis video of him on youtube, if u know u know, so if i want someone more competent talking about it go there, but if u dont care enough to research it or ure only reading because u like me and wanna hear me talk about something i care about dw im gonna go into detail about these anyways

the hc is that souda's dad physically abuses him. i wanna talk about why dont agree (if u wanna skip this part ill put *** when it ends so just go there <3). this hc stems from a story he tells hinata in one of the free time events where he didnt go to his previous school trips because he wanted to save money for his family, even though he really wanted to go, and he says something along the lines of how his dad "beat the crap outta him" when he didnt go.

do i think his dad hit him? probably. i dont really know how common this type of discipline is in japan, or in places with more un-wealthy people so this might be normal to them. does that make that okay? obviously not. but if the only example we get for him hitting souda is after souda does something good for the family in his own expense, it wont make sense for his father to be mad about it, right? i think he was upset his son had to give up his happiness for them, even if it was to save money. the analysis vid said it might be souda just using more dramatized words for it. He was hesitant to tell hinata that he was picked on at school, i dont think hed just admit to being abused so casually. i think his dad might have smacked him from time to time when he was younger but probably stopped the more souda grew up. if his dad really hated him he wouldnt beat him after doing something that would benefit the dad, is what im saying.

also i think that the way souda acts doesnt reflect someone who would be regularly abused... its not like im an expert, but if we for example look at tsumiki, who was canonically abused and bullied regularly, we can see a great difference. yes, souda tends to be caught off guard or scared of stuff, but usually its less of other people and more about the situation around him. he was scared of monokuma and the monobeasts and the morning after the killing gama announcement. he's also generally not that apologist about his stupid behavior... for example he doesnt feel remorse for tying up komaeda, and even threatens to tie up kuzuryuu too. i also think he said something about wanting to punch one of the other guys? this might be cuz he tends to blurt out his thoughts stupidly and doesnt know how to hold his tongue (something that, if he was abused, would probably get him in trouble) but he never recoils from what he said. he whines about being judged, like after letting slip that he was thinking of sonia in a creepy way, but he never goes back and is afraid that someone might punish him or hurt him. like how tsumiki apologizes for the smallest thing at claims that she'll take any punishment.

it might also be because i generally dont like hcing characters with abusive parents haha. i know for a lot of characters its a part of what makes them who they are, but if thats not the case i feel like its always to excuse the character from some frowned upon trait they have.

its a bit difficult to explain so ill take an example from a different character from a different show. todoroki from mha was abused as a child, and its a part of what makes him him, and its a big part of his character, even if hes not in that situation anymore. i wont deny it. now, theres a hc that some people like to believe about bakugou's parents, specifically his mom, being abusive. this isnt canon. first of all everyone is entitled to hc what they want but a lot of the time i feel this is a way to explain his asshole behavior (also i just love mitsuki). i dont like excusing his fucked up actions and blaming his parents. i think that him being an asshole from the ideals that he himself made is kind of what made him interesting. he believes in what he learned from his own experiences that he and only he had. his stupid child thinking made him the gross person he is, and thats way more interesting than blaming his parents' behavior, like we can do with reason in todoroki's case. todoroki acts antagonistic at the start of the show because of the pressure his dad put on him.

now going back to souda, by making his dad abusive a lot of people linked that to him being a creep towards sonia. while i do see how his parents and their expectations might be a motivator, i prefer to blame souda himself for his wrong actions. i dont want to excuse his actions like that. its more interesting to see him grow from the ideals and reasonings he made himself.

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now let's talk about his relationship with hinata! woo!

canonically, hinata is the person souda is closes to in the game, even though most of the time hinata is just tolerating his stupid behavior. except in his free time events maybe. their relationship is probably the biggest character development souda gets.

lets talk about his past a little more.

souda tells hinata that he used to be picked on for looking like a nerd. he had black hair (but i hc it more like dark brown, because reminder this is a post gushing about my fav character first and an canalization second), brown eyes (in hc world dull pale brown cuz a lot of the char's eyes are dull and pale colored) and glasses (hc: thin and rectangle shaped). he's not really a nerd... except that he's probably good at math and that type of things, since he builds machines and all. if i remember correctly, he says his bullied got away with what they did because he tends to be naive and trusts too easily. he was also used by his best friend that cheated off of his test, blamed souda for it (which he didnt really mind, showcasing how much not a nerd he is if he doesnt care about his studying and tests like that) and then kinda ghosted after feeling bad. but at the time souda was really heartbroken and felt betrayed, this whole situation gave him trust issues because that his naive heart cant tell when someone really wants to be his friend or if they'll drop him when they dont need him anymore.

souda and hinata start off being friends because souda didnt like any of the other guys enough (fair enough, hinata is the most normal one lol) and he tolerated him enough to go to the diner on the second island to spy on the girls with him. at the time kuzuryuu was still an asshole to everyone, but the two do get friendlier after the second trial (survivor boys bff agenda. i did say "bff coded" didnt i?)

souda tells hinata that after his ex best friend left him, he kinda went through something-- he dyed his hair, put in contacts, and pierced his ears (which i like to think was really scare to him) (and i assume this is when he started to wear bright colors, but i like to think he was always a fan of them (aiura and teru kinnie)) to make himself more intimidating (like i said in the list! remember the list?!) so that he wont be picked on. i assume the bullying he experienced was more emotional that physical, and he was probably called names for his nerdy appearance and was made to do tasks for toxic friends and somethings like that. tsumiki was physically bullied and she has bandages all over her design while souda rolls up all his sleeves and has his collar bone exposed while there is no marks on him. maybe he's have some scars from beginner's mechanical mistakes but thats hc territory.

anyways, because of his appearance change, he got some attention from flirtations girls and said that it had intimidated him. i imagine that while he was in his nerd looking mode, he didnt get much attention from the other sex so when they only started approaching him with the assumption he's some punk badass, that was probably a bit overwhelming for him and thats why he has a strained relationship with the female sex. he does kind of sexualize the girls, specifically in the second chapter, but honestly its not really that bad. it kind of even feels a little forced, like he said nanami had "huge jugs" and wonders if this "is what moe gap is" or something like that but he doesnt even say anything about wanting her lmao. the only girl he really shows any interest is sonia, and he mostly gushes about her beauty, instead of her body. not that thats really any better ofc.

he does get along with some of the girls or at least acts normal and not incel-y towards them, like whenever he's angry at saionji, when he felt awkward next to tsumiki or when he made minimaru for owari (though he did mainly do that to impress sonia). when alter ego enoshima suggest putting him between her boobs or whatever batshit crap she said he just yelled he's get crushed, so like. good for him for not being toooo bad. so yeah i do think there are reasons why souda's best friend woudlnt be a girl (for now, at least) and thats why it really is hinata.

and while hinata has other friends, his and souda's connection is special <3 some examples: he is friends with nanami, but they dont really get each other, or at least hinata doesn't feel too connected at her at times cuz shes like a robot and doesnt really get emotions to the full extent. canonically, his and komaeda's relationship is just not... bros, yknow? whatever it is its not "bros". he and souda are bros. i know that he and kuzuryuu consider each other brothers but i feel like while the friendship they have is great, hinata would be more comfortable just letting loose and being stupid with souda. they could connect by being stupid together and distracting one another from the bad in the world by being fun. cuz souda can be fun when he isnt stressed.

but since souda is an emotional character (i dunno if i mentioned this, if u didnt know souda beforehand hes emotional as shit and cries constantly, my beloved) they can get close the two of them emotionally and are empathetic enough to be able to comfort each other. that is, when souda trusts his enough to do that.

thats right. as much as id like to say souda is loyal like a dog, he doesnt really show that in the game lol. because of his experience with his ex friend, souda has trust issues, which i think i already touched upon (idk this is so fucking long im tryna go thru this one topic at a time but good god) and these issues come up in his and hinata's relationship, mainly chap 4. to put it simply cuz honestly the plot doesnt really matter in this context: souda suspects hinata to be a traitor, and because in chap 4 the characters are not allowed to eat, this probably makes him more stressed and causes him to think even more rationally. after the chap is over, in souda's last free time event, he invites hinata to the beach and order him to punch himself.

his actions are really silly here, but basically: hinata shows in souda trust, which makes souda feel like a bad friend, because he couldnt bring himself to trust hinata even though hinata didnt do anything wrong. he feels that their friendship is unfair and that he's the cause of this problem. so i guess he knows he'll get into an argument or a fight because of it, or maybe he wants to give hinata a reason to not trust him so he bring hinata to the beach so they could fist fight. but souda doesnt like to harm people cuz soda is a good boy tm so he asks hinata to do the work for him (which he does not do lol. they communicate and talk like normal friends). this is where souda tells hinata about his past being bullied, after in the last free time event hinata said he could see souda hanging out with the cool kids, so this is where he confides that hes not a cool kid. anyways souda comes to the conclusion that hes more scared of being a bad friend and a coward because of his trust issued that actually being betrayed, and tells hinata that he'll trust him. hooray!

in my mind they are suchhhh good friends. i dont mind shipping souda with a lot of the characters, but it think their friendship is the most important to me. i love them!

now lets get into his relationship with sonia!

i do, in fact, think that his crush on her is fake. i do think he believes in it. but he does not realize that the created a version of her brought on by her general politeness, her status as a princess and her beauty, in his mind that every day strays farther away from the real sonia. he denies her liking of the occult and other scary stuff that turns him off and he acts shocked when she admits to being a virgin (yikes. at least he doesnt really shame her. i think it just ruins his image of her-- again, yikes-- but he ignores it mostly. like he ignores her, the real her, most of the times)

i dont know why he needs a romantic relationship specifically so desperately, but i can think of why he wants that puppy love admiration that he has for her. she, or at least the way he makes her in his mind, is wildly out of her league. sure he wants a girlfriend, but deep down he knows hell never get her. thats why when she turns him down again and again he only gets hurt for like a minute. she even suggests she would rather he be the blackened in the 4th trial and he gets over it pretty quickly. this is the reason he wants to like someone out of his reach so much-- because he cant get hurt from her. he isnt being betrayed or heartbroken like his ex best friend did to him (yes this is about the trust issues again) because he never expected to be with her in the first place. by expecting failure by chasing a girl that is so so out of his league (a pretty perfect princess) he knows what he gets when hes turned down. to him, this is better than actually making an effort with someone he is genuinely attached to because in that case he might actually get his feelings hurt. we see this with his relationship with hinata, though it isnt in a romantic sense. sadly, after they become close friends, he still chases after sonia, but that might be because the player isnt guaranteed to play all of souda's free time events.

this stuff probably will take time for souda to understand. ofc this doesnt really justify his actions and creepy behavior towards her... i like to think that at some point (i constantly forget that dr is a game about killing each other and the apocalypse, but ig this can take place in here too since they both survive) he understands where his problem stem from, maybe with a conversation with hinata or kuzuryuu and he learns and he asks forgiveness from sonia and changes his behavior. the long and hard way!!! my boy did something stupid and he has to make up for it!!!! he will take responsibility because thats what good character writing is!!

itll probably be difficult to come to terms that the girl in his mind, that i do believe he actually fell in love with, is not real. he will cope <3

briefly i'd like to mention souda's and kuzuryuu's relationship i think they are bffs #2 honestly i feel that the both of them plus hinata could be the best trio they are such wholesome guys from all corners of the bro spectrum let the be friends<333 idk maybe even add owari. owari and souda sibling energy <3 this is just hc territory at this point. mioda and souda sibling energy!!!!! for more kuzuryuu and souda friendship read the fic Fuyuhiko and Kazuichi's Guide to Despair Disease: A How-To Take Care of Your Friends(?) Without Spiraling Out Of Control Story. still a wip.

hmmm that was a lot. lets talk about some hcs cuz believe it or not i dont just think of his as what he is canonically, but also what he could be!

ok lets talk about appearances (still canon atm:) he is short-- one of the shortest guys in the cast cuz fuyuhiko and teruteru dont count (thats a plus) and he is, sadly, pretty ripped. it makes since cuz he prob carries heavy stuff and moves his arms a lot for his talent of being a mechanic but when a (male) character is TOO ripped and not for a good reason (for example theres a good reason why nidai or oowada are physically strong cuz of their talents, and some characters are just himbos that deserve it like momota) i just look at them like :|. but it think souda deserves some strong arms <3 he is a cuddler. he would. i just dont think he's impressively ripped. like i think he could sprint fast, but not for long, and that girls wouldnt flawk him for his arms (if they already knew who he was) cuz all in all he is still a wimp loser and he will stay as such, please and thank you.

im a big fan of his narrow eyes. theyre just. dont make sense on him i love it. just like the sharp teeth, he is blessed with looking the opposite of his personality.

now lets talk about post canon appearances! in the world of canon, where the most tragic event in history happens and they were a part of the despair refinements and they live the neo world program (i always forget they dont live in my lil modern day normal aus, ugh), i think he would wake up still looking like how he did in his depair era. idk how long theyre like that but this is my personal hc: hair that reaches his chest, some ugly dulled down pink still sticking to the tips of his messy hair, no hat </3 but his hair is long enough that he doesnt have that hedgehog thing going on </3, no contacts, no glasses, probably scars over his arms and one over the side of his lips like that rio penguin from madagascar (also curse that show for making my tiny stupid child brain think there are penguins in the desert. at least there are such a thing as beach penguins... hmm). i think he would cut his hair to be shorter that it is in canon, a bit longer than hajime's and would resemble saihara's except brown, parted and no ahoge. he wold be dispensation by the length. he would also wear a cap (the normal way) and with his natural colors back, he would look very snuggble :)) he would hug everyone he would be the comfort giver at least to the survivors (this is the part where u realize how insame i am for him lol)

in a world where the end of it didnt happen, i feel like he would feel kind lonely for a while after school, and wouldnt care enough to wear contacts and would go back to glasses, and he wouldnt dye his hair (i just really like his naturality okay i know i said i liked him at first for his colors but this is character growth! he is learning that he doesnt need to be intimidating to get friends!!!) his hair would be a little longer than canon but not by much. i just have this au where he works in an office and there he meets kamukura (who, personality wise is just hinata but depressed) and they become bffs dont at me, and this is how he looks in that au, wearing a button down without the tie and the sleeves rolled up. i do think hed wear obnoxious colors in his free time tho <3

maybe i should get into ships a little? mostly i shipped him with tanaka because i love me some rivals to lovers that isnt angst filled and is mostly just petty. theys either be salty towards each other or tanaka would be very intense in his friendship and souda would be tsundere-ish, not the obnoxious type tho. imagine how denji acts towards yoshida. (denji and souda are actually really alike. before i knew anything about csm my twt mutual told me id prob like denji cuz i like souda and.. well he was right)

but recently i dont really focus on shipping souda with anyone as much as i focus on his friendship with hinata (am i the only one who watched gg compilations and put their faces behind the silly conversations? like i imagine their sprites laughing while the video plays. is that weird? them and also saihara&momota. cuz theyre the same relationship!!! tactful mc and their friendly dumb bro! they!!!). also if u recall i made that drawing of souda with a bunch of ships so its not like loyal lol.

also why are souda and tanaka together constantly in the anime... i think its the end song where theres a slide show of all the characters in class in places like a picnic and the beach and stuff and the two of them are almost together. theyre at the very least friends. that dynamic where they both look intimidating but theyre both so fucking stupid. frienemies. <333 they are so <333 theyd be friedns at least!!! thank you for the anime for realizing that.

i also like to imagine that he and tsumiki would be friends <3 they were both bullied, they both cry a lot and arent really taken seriosuly, at least when it comes to their emotions. i think theyd hug and cry together and be friends :) also as couple they could be very cute.

i dont really know what more to say... i think this is it! i dont know what about kazuichi souda makes me love him so much. he is flawed but not to the point of being unlikable. he is unique but can easily be related to! i care about him so much... the amount of aus i come up and put him in... i dont post so much about him, but know he is my love. ofc i dont have romantic feelings for him some ppl just thirst over their favs i wanna preface that aint the case. not cuz of his age (im close to him in age) but cuz i just... dont feel and romantic or thristy feelings towards anyone so istg if anyone says something stupid to me about that.

thats all! i think this is the longest post ive ever made? when i got this ask last night i thought id write about all those characters i mentioned at the start but then when i went to bed i thought about my answer and realized i have a lot to say lol.

to the one person who actually read until the end, if u even exist (who knows myabe this was for nothing, i still had fun), you're insane. and i hope u have a great rest of ur day. if u didnt know who souda was before this... well u certainly do now (also why did u read this?) sometimes i just gotta rant about something i adore haha. its been a while since i went all out cuz me and my irl dont watch the same shows. i hope i made whoever read this love souda! at least a little!

this post is 5787 words long... im not rereading this

#this post is an investment #kazuichi souda #character analysis #also this is not proofread so expect a bunch of typos haha

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snarky-art · 11 months

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2, 8, 17, 20 and 21 for the art ask game 👀

2. Favorite thing about my style

Hnnnng h a r d. I think my anatomy work, my painterly style when I do more intense pieces, my sketchiness for the rest, and the way I draw hair! I also like my line work a lot of the times

8. What’s the most fun and least fun parts about your process

Most fun: sketching and lighting, even if I don’t know how it works really🥲

Least fun: figuring out the initial composition, final lineart of Im not doing a more casual sketchy piece, and the base colors. Color palettes are hard and filling it all in (even with doing an outline that I fill in automatically and color dropping) is soooo tedious for me😭 it feels like I’m slogging through the most boring stuff just so I can get to the fun stuff again

17. What do you love getting compliments about

How I draw bodies! One of my favorite compliments I’ve ever gotten was from @teawink and it was saying I draw bodies really fleshy and like,, omg thank you so much I’m so glad you think so akdjdjsj

Also, posing. I don’t always do stuff with that as an emphasis, but on the ones I do that have that, I love seeing it appreciated🥺 my last major zelda piece for example! I had comments about the perspective in the tags and it made me feel so good fr

20. A piece from this year that you’re really proud of

OUGHHH H A R D. I have a few that I’m gonna have to include because I think I deserve it lol

The zelda piece i mentioned above, the mythix redesigns for the winx because the detail work I went through on that was INSANE, this owl house piece because I still can’t get over how much this poem works with it, and this commission for @hag-rambling-on because of the poses and way I really love how the magic is like,, consuming the individuals

21. Something you would like to improve on

Soooo much!! Anatomy, positioning and space layout, characters interacting, perspective, lighting (esp reflected light), detail work, BACKGROUNDS BIG TIME, and so on and so on and so on

There’s always stuff I can improve, and I love my style and my work, and tbh I haven’t really suffered with “oh my art looks shite compared to so and so” since I was like 14 because i view stuff more like, “oh I like this part of so and sos style, how can I integrate that into mine” and see it as more of a learning opportunity than a fault of my own in anyway, BUT that doesn’t mean I’m not always thinking of ways I can improve

#winx club #winx #asks #ask #ask meme #barbie #loz #legend of Zelda #totk #botw #toh #the owl house #artists on tumblr #illustration

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codylabs · 2 years

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I was commissioned by HCGathey on reddit to design and draw a fantasy race for their story! They're purple 4-armed slit-nosed desert-nomad orcs that live in a quasi-vampiric manner using blood magic, that manifests in prominent veins and an extra storage chamber adjacent to the heart. The author had some definite ideas for the body plan and anatomy, but largely let me run wild with everything else. I could definitely write an essay on the various ways I overthought the clothes, but my favorite detail has to be the knuckle scandals.

Extremely interesting and fun commission, that pushed me quite outside my comfort zone, as commissions so often do. And resulted in the only uncensored boobies and peepee you might ever see from me on Tumblr, so live it up. But I really like the end result! Their long torsos and thick-but-localized body hair make them ridiculously close to humans, but different in an animalistic way you don't see too often. I think HGCathey went in a really unique and creative direction. Full props to you, my friend, and good luck on your story!

These were all the rough concepts I gave. They liked the first one best, but wanted it super hairy like the third one. (And for some reason didn't like any of the horrible hideous head designs I ripped off from Predator.)

This project has also solidified my scientific and political opinion that human beings have the exact correct number of limbs; if you have more than 2 arms the extras don't have anything to do 98% of the time, and just hang there making you difficult to convincingly pose. These guys sidestep that for the most part by frequently using their larger pair of arms to help with walking, but it can still look the tiniest bit awkward.

#fantasy #orc #art #character design #commission art #magic #desert nomads #vampire

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lonelyquail · 1 year

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since ive been too College to have enough art for any sort of summary im just gonna put a general year end rundown of what i feel i did best on this year!!

i think every year since i figured out that i dont need to use pens to line has just gotten better art wise for me. FUCK lining. pencils are my best friends forever and ever and can do your job better than you ever could. anyway apologies for some of these drawings being crunchier than others, i only recently got a scanner and Cannot be assed to scan my old art for this post rn.

also the first art here is a hatoful boyfriend spoiler. i mean i guess the last one is too but its vaguer i think. anyway. none of these are actually analyses of what i learned with each art im just braining

april 5th-

you guys know this one i REALLY like it. why in the goddamn were my best pieces this year hatoful boyfriend. anyway i uh. hey did you know that i didnt do the notgeki with graphite because i like mixed media. i did it because i have not owned a grey pencil for my some-teen years of drawing ever. i only JUST got a grey pencil like. a couple months ago. i mean im good with graphite i would have done it like that anyway but. yeah. anyway this was abt the height of my beginning hatoful fix and Also indirectly what got me to meet like a bunch of my mutuals here!! i did. not know there was a hatoful community. and because That i actually started using tumblr so!! hey thanks hitori. i need to do more birdform art.

april 15th -

this motherfucker! ill be. completely honest i dont have a lot of feedback for a lot of my graphite art bc ive Been doing this. ok actually yknow what i will say. there is a limit for how dark something can be with graphite and i Very much remember going over the inside of the cloak So Much. this was my pet project during my weekly 3 hour long lecture so god bless it. also i do still like how i did the eye. can i draw eye guys exclusively please.

july 3rd -

not really Art im proud of but!! holy shit i dont design often and i dont hate this!! this is at least in part thanks to my gf. my gf knows how to clothes better than i do so i did ask them for help. also i really need to scan this one. or maybe draw her a new ref. anyway (holds up celine) look at her. look at the silly.

september 6th -

this one was a trade for my friend raicatty and. also something i probably should have scanned. but its fine. anyway this one did teach me something and its To Line Your Damn Pieces Darker. lining with the color that youre going to be coloring in is kind of Asking For Disaster if it overlaps with others and u can. see that. this is a bit imparseable. but its also pretty. and thats all that really matters. a fun fact for when i ever do commissions is that being allowed to use this purpley pink pencil i have will make me really happy. its so pretty.

OERSHRIMP INTERLUDE

november 13 -

forgive me for including a sketch in this but YOU DONT UNDERSTAND IVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DRAW HUMANS. like. NEVER. much less in an actual decent pose. (god bless adorkastock) im So very delighted by this oboromaru and hes!! like!! one of my least favorite characters!! (not to say i dislike him hes just lower). i dont know what happened here!! if this wasnt at the very back of my Sketchbook I Just Put Away Because It Was Falling Apart id say id finish this one later. rip. he and that dark daroach sketch i had there can just vibe i guess.

aaand the big one. december 8th -

things i learned from this one! 1. the scanner did not pick up the red lines very well! 2. scanners are good! 3: NEVER do a full page project again! buuut i do want to say i am like. insanely proud of this one. its the first art ive done i can really say has any sort of Composition and im so delighted that it turned out just as cool as it looked in my head. also this took forever and i could have easily messed it up Multiple times in the process. so god bless.

#an ongoing problem ive been having w my colored pencil stuff is that u can see my pencil lines through a lot of it #especially if its got warmer colored lines #but ive kinda?? accepted it?? since my lines tend to be too light and imparseable anyway if theres pencil underneath you can tell #mm its not the best solution and it still bugs me but shrugs.#vee shut up #look at my art boy

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jelly1799 · 2 years

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About Time

I'd always enjoyed the finer things in life, from the finest clothes and the most decadent foods to even the most handsome men the ages have ever known.

It was never enough for me, I never stayed in one time long enough to be tied down. Always moving forward, always looking for the next best thing.

In the hundreds of years I've traveled through, my least favorite had to be the one where I met him. I mean, don't get me wrong, the Dark Ages weren't particularly great for anyone and I didn't spend much time there, but it did start something that I wouldn't be able to shake no matter how hard I tried.

The Wilton Diptych.

It's one of the most highly revered and mysterious works from medieval times. It was completed in 1399 and was painted for King Richard II of England, who is shown kneeling before the Holy Virgin and Child, surrounded by angels. The particular artist who painted the Wilton Diptych is unknown, although most art historians and critics believe it was an English or French painter.

But that's all utter bullshit, the annoying man who painted it was not English or French. The man who painted it was none other than Park Jimin, a Korean man who found himself in the continent, with a passion for painting and a sharp tongue that did nothing but grind my gears.

Those in the art community knew the king had commissioned a painting and for me, what finer thing could there be but what was meant for the king?

I had climbed the building under the cover of night, stealthily picking the doors lock to gain entry. My steps, light as a feather, made no noise as I crept into the house. Everything was going well until that insufferable man stubbled out of his bedroom catching me red-handed.

Literally.

In my haste to hide, I managed to place my hand straight into his tray which still had wet red paint on it. Our eyes met and the man had the audacity to full-on laugh at my pitiful form.

"I don't know if I should be flattered or angry catching you here in my home," he said with a heavy accent.

"I suppose you should forget this incident happened at all," I calmly reply placing my red hand on the table next to the painting, trying to remove the offending liquid.

"Where would the fun be in that though?" his husky voice sounds from right beside me and I've failed at keeping an eye on him.

"Well, for you there would be none, but for me, I'm sure I could make it work," I say turning to face him and I can't stop the stupid gasp that leaves my lips.

He's but a hair's breadth away from me, this man clearly did not know personal space, but the closeness allowed me to gain a better look at his features in the moonlight.

He had dark hair that hung loosely just above his eyes, his eyes the color of a rich walnut tree that bore into me with amusement and a hint of lust. My eyes inadvertently are drawn to his plump pink lips as his tongue runs along his bottom lip.

"I think we could make it a fun time for the both of us," he says with a smirk noticing how my eyes drink in his frame like I haven't had water in 400 years.

"What are you suggesting, Mr...?" I draw out waiting for him to give me a name.

"Park, but you may call me Jimin, pretty lady," his hand reaches up to caress my face and I quickly come to my senses, side-stepping out of his reach.

"Well, Mr. Park, this has been nice and all but I'll have to leave you now," I've positioned myself close enough to the diptych that all I've got to do is grab it and run.

His gorgeous features scowl in confusion and, in the blink of an eye, I'm moving. I snatch up the art and push over the table causing all his supplies to go flying and make a mess.

He curses and scrambles for me only to trip over his own feet clumsily. His eyes meet mine just as I slip out of the door, they are filled with surprise and then rage as I blow him a kiss before disappearing into the night.

The king had issued a warrant out for me, well, he didn't know it was me, but he was looking for the woman whose handprint would match the red one I had left behind.

But like I always did, I stashed away my treasure and moved forward, jumping to the next time period I thought would interest me. Never once looking back, never trying to remember my past.

You see that's the thing about time travel, it sounds great in theory, but my gift came to me without any experience. I first leapt in time at the age of seven, I leapt 100 years into the future alone, scared and totally confused. I was never able to find my family again because, the thing was, I could only go forward. Despite all my effort and research through the different eras, I'd never been able to go backward.

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When I arrived in China in 1765 all I wanted to do was heist the square imperial seal that was surmounted by a dragon, made of pale green carved jade and a silk tassel.

I had scouted and made all the preparations, but again was stopped by someone I was not expecting to see ever again.

"Mr. Park?" I exclaim, completely in shock to see him thousands of years after he should have died, looking exactly as he had that night I first met him.

"You?" he asks just as shocked as he goes to grasp me.

I quickly step away making sure to keep at least five feet apart.

"I have many questions but the most pressing one is...why? Why steal from me then and now?" he stops moving and patiently waits for me to answer, as his eyes take in my form slowly.

"Simple," I say as my fingers dance along the jade seal, "I like pretty and shiny things."

"I've been called pretty many times," he says with a smirk and a raise of his brow.

"I don't think you're something I want to collect, you're not... pretty enough," I pick up the seal and his eyes narrow. "But this, on the other hand, is exquisite."

"It's not meant for you," his voice is low as he inches closer.

We are still doing a dance around each other, neither getting close enough to touch, but not far enough to let me have a comfortable escape. I look to my left and see the open window. I calculated the jump down before I even entered the building and I know I'd definitely hurt myself that way, but if I went out I'd be able to get to the roof and climb along the joining building to get away.

I just have get to it...

"I thought I'd met all the immortals still walking the realms," my eyes snap to him curiously.

"Immortals? I'm no immortal."

"Then what else could you be besides one, beautiful?"

I inhale a sharp breath, the nerve of this man to continually flirt with me when I've clearly got the better hand in the situation. The teasing smile on his face and the humor in his eyes shows he doesn't think for a second that I'll be escaping tonight.

"Wouldn't you just love to know," I humor him and allow him to step closer without me moving back.

My hand teasingly traces along his chest and I see him bite his lower lip as he watches me closely. His hand reaches out and I allow him to wrap his strong arm around my waist and pull me flush against him.

"I do believe that's why I asked..." he pauses waiting.

"Grace," I say softly and his smile takes over his gorgeous face.

"Grace," he almost purrs my name. "What a name for a thief."

"I'm no thief!" I argue and he gives my hip a little squeeze.

"No? But you have already stolen my heart."

I can't stop the chortle that erupts from me, it catches him by surprise and I use all my strength to push him back as hard as I can. He falls over the table and I dash to the window, only turning around once I'm assured the seal is tucked safely in my bag.

"Nice to see you, Mr. Park. I hope we never meet again."

"Why?" he groans as he watches me from his prone position on the floor.

Why? He could mean anything. Why steal? Why leave?

"Because I can," I press my hand on the ink pad I carry with me and leave my signature red hand print on the wall beside the window, and disappear into the night.

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When I first met Grace I was angry that I had not had the pleasure of spending the night with her. I could care less about the painting for the king, It was just an opportunity for me to practice my skills and make a good income.

However, when I met her again in China, I was angry that again she had duped me. That sly fox had shown me not to underestimate her.

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. She shouldn't have had a chance to fool me again. I'd let my lust for her blind me that night, I was not expecting to see her beautiful figure standing in front of me.

It had been at least 800 years since I'd last seen another immortal. The thought of having someone else to discuss the changing world with and also a nice warm body next to me had me totally ignoring the fact that, once again, she was trying to rob me.

I'd let her draw me in that night and made a complete fool out of myself. It was so humiliating I've made it my only goal in life to stop and catch that bewitching beauty. I've met her countless times through the years, sometimes I'd been able to stop her from gaining the art she wanted and for others, I'd completely blown it.

Either way, our cat and mouse game continued. Sometimes I'd meet her a year later and others I'd see her after 20 or so years. Each and every time it ended with her getting away and me longing for her.

"We really should stop meeting like this," I hear her seductive voice caress my ear, and turn to face her quickly.

"Grace."

She doesn't flinch or move back as I wrap my arms around her, pulling her close enough for our lips to almost touch. I always give her the option but not once has she ever taken it. I inhale her scent as she wraps her arms around my neck.

Irises.

Her powdery aroma surrounds and evades every breath I take and I would happily allow it to smother me.

"Why don't you be a dear and tell me what time I've arrived in?" she says in a soft breath, boops my nose and drops her arms to move past me to elegantly drape herself on the edge of a fountain.

"1930."

That's one thing I have learned about this mysterious temptress, she was no immortal, instead, she was something I thought had long ago died out, a time traveler. We have made it a habit on planning where she would see me next and I always patiently waited for her to let her know about how things had changed and what to know.

This time was different, we were in America, in the middle of prohibition. The world has changed, and the people have changed. We were no longer in the great depression but that time had caused many to be angry and that anger made them dangerous.

"I know that, Mr. Park. I've been here for a few months," she says bored.

"And you've only now come to see me?" I say offended.

"I got caught up," she answers with a smile and her eyes glaze over.

I know what she means, she wasn't caught up, she was stuck under someone. I could feel the jealousy start to build in my body. Never once did she give me more than a glance, but she had no problem making a move for one of the many strangers she's met.

"Now now, Mr. Park, don't be upset."

She pulls herself up, her long legs gliding over to me, and she wraps her arms around my waist with a playful pout on her full kissable lips.

"Jungkook was a means to an end. I needed him in several different ways."

"Like I care," I lie through my teeth not wanting her to have the upper hand yet again.

She gasps and drops her arms, a frown on her beautiful face, and I physically have to resist the urge to pull her back in.

"Well, I guess that's fine then. I know what I'm going to get and then I'll jump another 10 years," she says with a shrug of her shoulders.

She's leaving already? She's just gotten here, well, at least for me. These usually go on for months before she jumps again. I gotta play it cool, so I tuck my hands into my pockets and lean against the lamp post.

"Perfect, what do I have to stop you from getting now?"

The smile she shows me almost looks wicked and I unconsciously gulp.

"I'll be going after Menin Gate at Midnight."

"Jesus Christ, Grace! You can't be serious," I say heatedly as I stand up straight and stand toe to toe with her.

"I'm deadly serious, it's beautiful, and the danger surrounding it makes it even more appealing," she doesn't back down, she doesn't even blink as I try to intimidate her. But that's the thing about her, she's fearless, bold, and completely reckless.

"Grace, this isn't like the other times," I spit out.

"You're absolutely right, it's not like the other times, that's why little Jungkookie was so important. He was my in, I've seen the painting countless times, I know the house inside and out," she replies smugly.

That's when it clicks who Jungkook is. He's Jeon Jungkook, the son of one of the biggest mafia in New York right now. If something is going down, be it gun trafficking, alcohol sales, or the recent influx of murdered bodies piling up in the streets, you can bet Mr. Jeon has had a part in it.

"Grace, those men are dangerous. You don't know what you're getting yourself into," I'm torn between wanting to grab her to shake some damn sense into her and wanting to kiss her until all her thoughts are of me and not that damn painting.

She groans and rolls her eyes as she side-steps away from me and turns on her heel.

"Catch me if you can, Mr. Park," she calls over her shoulder and again disappears into the night leaving me worried instead of angry.

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"You really thought we wouldn't catch on to you? A woman like you would never give my son a chance unless she was after something else," Mr. Jeon spits out as he circles the chair I'm tied to.

"You don't give your son enough credit. He's more of a man than you will ever be and if you're not careful, he will take everything from you in the blink of an eye," I snicker out despite the pain it causes my busted lip.

"You've got a real smart mouth for a woman in your position," he says crouching to be face to face with me.

"What are you going to do? Kill me? Please do it and put me out of my misery," I mean every word I've said. Traveling through time is lonely, I've grown bored, the only excitement I've had over the years has been Jimin.

I wouldn't even call it excitement, it's more like comfort. He's my comfort, always consistently there, waiting for me. But I could never stop and be with him, there's too much between us. He's an immortal and I'll grow old, ugly, and helpless. He'd never want someone like me, so why would I even subject myself to that? Better to just go out with a bang.

Mr. Jeon tucks a strand of hair behind my ear and leans in.

"Worse. I'll make you wish you were dead and then leave you for someone else to find you to do as they wish," he says as if he's whispering words of love.

"How about we leave your little red trademark here?" he motions to the wall, "but instead of ink, we use your blood."

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I'm breaking into the house, sneaking through hallways, when I feel the cold barrel of a gun being pushed against my neck.

"What are you doing here?" the voice is threatening and steady.

"I'm just here to get a friend," I whisper as my hands go up showing I mean no harm.

"What friend? Friends usually come through the front door, not through the second-floor window in the middle of the night."

"She's friends with someone here."

"Grace?" the voice says shocked and I whirl around, knocking the gun and pressing the man against the wall.

"Where is she?!" I say angrily pressing him harder into the wall.

"How do you know her?" he asks narrowing his eyes, not even phased that I have him trapped.

"Like I said, she's a friend."

He snorts and I feel my blood boiling at the smug look on his face.

"Some friend you are, letting her come in here alone to do your dirty work."

"If you know Grace at all, you'd know no one can stop her from doing what she wants. Plus she's not alone, I'm here for her."

"You're too late," he says and I see his rugged features soften as he frowns.

"Let me take you to her," I release him and he straightens his shirt before motioning for me to quietly follow him.

He leads me out of the house and we make our way down a bunch of alleys before he stops at a side door of a decrepit building. I watch him put in JJK1 as his code and I realize who I've been following.

"You're Jungkook," he turns and gives me a grin before opening the door and holding it open for me.

"Took you a while to figure that out."

"Why help me?" I ask now suspecting that I've walked into a trap.

"Not helping you. I'm helping her," he motions to a small bed and the even smaller girl lying in the middle of it.

I rush over and I could cry, her beautiful brown locks look almost black with the blood that has dried and matted it. Her face is so swollen and cut up from the beating she received. I pull back the blanket and gasp seeing her clothes are shredded and there are cuts all down her arms and legs. A makeshift split has been placed on her wrist and leg and I'm furious.

I'm so angry. Angry at that disgusting son of a bitch who hurt her, angry at her for not listening and getting hurt, and, most importantly, angry at myself for not making it in time to stop her.

Grace is hardly recognizable, her chest is rising and falling too slowly and not nearly breathing deeply enough for me to feel like she's okay. Her skin is hot to the touch and a steady sheen of sweat coats her pale skin.

"I'll kill him," I say through my clenched teeth.

"I'll help," Jungkook says. His eyes are focused on Grace, filled with rage and something I recognize all too well.

Love.

Now's not the time to dwell on it. I nod and he clears his throat as we walk deeper into the warehouse where guns and other weapons are stored.

"Pick your poison and a lot of it. My dad is no novice, he'll be expecting me."

I grab two pistols just as a precaution but load up on as many knives as I can. With the way I'm feeling, I know it will be the up close and personal kill I'll go after. I want to watch the suffering and life go out of their eyes for what they did to my Grace.

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"Jungkook?" I question as I see his worried face hovering over me while I feel something damp-wipe across my forehead.

"Yeah baby, it's me," he whispers gently with a soft smile.

"Why?" I croak out.

"I couldn't let you be the one that got away," I frown at his words and hear a snort from behind him that I know all too well.

"Jimin?"

He steps into my view and his face looks so sullen. He's acquired a few new cuts and bruises on his face but they don't seem to be bothering him. His jaw is clenched, lips pressed tightly together, but his eyes...they are filled with relief and something else I'm not quite sure of.

I struggle to sit up, every part of my body aching and protesting the movements. I cry out the second I put weight on my wrist, almost instantly crumbling back down knowing I've broken the damn thing.

Jungkook frantically helps me, effortlessly shifting me up into a sitting position.

"Relax, beautiful, they broke your leg and your wrist."

He gently rubs my thigh and I see Jimin's eyes dart to the action. I've never been embarrassed with displays of affection and would often thrive in the looks of jealousy others cast as they watched me. But with Jimin it was different, I didn't want him to see, I didn't want him to judge or be jealous.

"It hurts, Kook," I mumble and both men look at me with concern.

"I'll have to make a run to a different warehouse. This one was only meant to be temporary," he says to Jimin who nods.

"I'll be back in no time," Jungkook says and cups my face as he leans in to gently kiss my tender lips.

I watch as he quickly grabs his things and rushes out of the building. My heart is heavy with what I'm about to do. Jungkook was a wonderful man: sweet, kind-hearted, and dangerous when the time called for it. I wasn't lying when I said he would take everything from his father from right under him. I knew he would excel and make the changes New York needed without giving up one inch of the territory his dad had gained.

But...

He couldn't do that with me here. I liked him well enough. He was a wonderful lover and never once treated me badly, but he was soft when it came to me. Gave into each and every one of my whims and I had grown bored rather quickly. I couldn't stay here and hurt him or use him.

"Get me out of here, please, Jimin," I plead and Jimin lets out a sigh.

"You never listen," he says sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Now is not the time," I argue and he holds his hand up to me.

"Now is a perfect time. What the fuck is wrong with you, Grace! Don't you know I could have lost you?! You could have died," he roars out angrily.

I've never heard him raise his voice, not once in the thousands of years I've known him. Not even when I'd left him stuck in a gay brothel, not when I had cut his long hair in the 1800s, and not even when I'd stolen from him and trashed his shop the first time I met him.

"But I didn't, I'm okay," I squeak out more than a little intimidated.

"That's not the point, Grace! This needs to stop!"

I shuffle in the bed, ripping the blanket off of me as I swing my legs over the opposite side of the bed. I go to make my way to try and stand up and he firmly but gently grabs my arm to stop me.

"What are you doing?"

"I need to get out of here. So either you help me or let the fuck go," I hiss out and his shoulders drop in defeat.

He gets up and walks to my side of the bed to effortlessly scoop me into his arms.

"Are you not even going to give the man a proper goodbye?"

"It's better this way," I whisper and rest my head on his chest.

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"Where are you going?" I ask as I catch Grace hurriedly packing a bag.

"I've got to go, Jimin, I've been here too long."

"You don't have to go. Jungkook has stopped looking for you, it's been nine months," I argue.

"That's already too long. Too long here and too long with you," she says and I flinch at her words.

Grace was in no state to jump when we left Kook's warehouse and the first few months of her healing were hard on both of us. I wanted to help and she'd rather eat a live rat than accept it. She'd rebroken her wrist when she stubbornly tried to shower on her own and even ended up getting a bout of sepsis from not dressing her wounds properly.

But when she was on death's door, she finally let me in and the last few months had been peaceful and probably the happiest moments in my whole life. We still got on like fire and oil, we both enjoyed riling the other up but, in between our childish bickering, there were long talks about the places we've been, the people we knew and I found her laughing a lot more freely than I ever had before.

We had even talked about going back to England and seeing if we could find the exact place my original shop was, the future was looking good for the two of us.

"Grace, you don't have to go," I reach out for her, and like the dance we both know oh so well, she side steps away from me.

"I can't stay here, I can't stay with you," she snaps and I can see the hurt in her eyes.

"You don't have to run from me, Grace," I say gently and she huffs out a laugh.

"Who's running, Mr. Park? I'm just doing what I've always done. You know I can't stay in one place for very long," she throws her bag over her shoulder and pulls on her boots.

"We can move, we can go to another country, you don't have to jump," I say and step in front of the door trying to stop her.

"Don't look for me, Mr. Park," I reach out grabbing her hands and she quickly closes her eyes, a lone tear manages to escape and rolls down her cheek.

"Grace, please don't do this," I plead, my body shaking and heart racing so fast it might just beat out of my chest.

And, in the in the second it takes for my eyes to blink, she's gone, poofed right out of my existence.

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The year is 5398 and I never saw Jimin again.

Granted I did stop thieving altogether, I didn't want him to have the chance to find me again. I'd made the best choice possible at the time, I was lost, bitter, and angry and the only thing that made me feel somewhat sane and stable was him.

But I couldn't be reliant on him, I could only rely on myself, and staying and becoming attached to him would only hurt me. I could already feel myself falling for him in those months it took me to heal. I had shared too much of myself, let him in too deep. I actively found myself waiting for him to come home, to tell me about his day and eat the dinner I had prepared for us.

I was making a home with him, he was becoming my home. The only memory I'd ever had of home was that it wouldn't last, it could be ripped away from you as fast as you closed your eyes. So I did the smart thing, the best thing, I left and learned to rely only on myself again.

There was a time in the 2000s when I'd let a man in named Taehyung. There was something in the way he cared and teased me that reminded me of Jimin. I had stayed with him the longest out of all the lovers I ever had, but nothing and no one could ever make me forget Jimin.

As time has passed, I've grown bored of jumping. I've let time pass as it should and it's been four actual years. I've learned to appreciate life for the moments it gives me, but they are lonely.

I've found my thoughts circling back to the annoying man I once knew. The man who always had a witty comment to throw back at me, the man who never once took himself or me too seriously. The man who had cared and, damn, the man who loved me despite seeing and knowing of all my flaws and faults.

Jimin loved me, I knew it for sure the day I was leaving. I knew when he was fighting for me to stay, fighting to make things work how I needed, and I was scared. Scared of what that love meant, so I jumped and I've regretted it ever since.

I was too stupid and stubborn to admit it back then, so I never looked or went to familiar places. Now that all I can think about is him, I find myself back in England, wandering down some less than ideal streets looking for a building I know has long been destroyed.

But tucked between two massive warehouses is a two-story shop I recognize. It looks almost identical to the one that stood there thousands of years ago. It's the middle of the night and, well, old habits die hard.

I find myself scaling the side of the building and stealthily picking the lock on the door. The moonlight casts shadows of the furniture that sits in the house. My breath catches as I see a painting sitting on an easel in the middle of the room.

Menin Gate at Midnight

"I don't know if I should be flattered or angry catching you here in my home," a voice says from behind me.

"I suppose you should forget this incident happened at all," I calmly reply despite my heart racing faster than that of the Usain Bolt guy.

"Where would the fun be in that though?" his husky voice sounds from right beside me and I clutch my chest trying to steady my heart.

"Well, for you there would be none but, for me, I'm sure I could make it work," I say turning to face him a small smile on my face as I remember having this exact conversation the first time I ever met him.

"Grace," he says softly reaching out to hold me in his arms.

"Mr. Park," I whisper back allowing him to pull me in close.

"I've missed you so much, you have no idea how long I've been here waiting for you."

"I'm sure it couldn't have been that long. I've only just arrived in this time period...umm, like four years ago," I say sheepishly.

"And you're only just finding me now?" he says with a fake gasp and I can't help the laugh that escapes me.

"I stole it for you the day you left me," he says motioning with his chin to the painting.

"I thought if I got you the thing you wanted most in the world, you'd come back to me. But you never did..." he says sadly and I shake my head.

"That's not what I've wanted most in the world."

"What is it? Name it and I'll get it for you," he answers quickly as his arms tighten around me.

"I wanted a home," I say wrapping my arms around him and hugging him tight as I bury my face in his neck.

"Grace," he starts and I hush him taking his face between my hands as I stare him right in the eyes.

"I'm sorry for leaving, I'm sorry for running. I've wanted a home, someone to love me and care for me, and the second I got a glimpse of it, I got scared and bolted. But I'm here and...um, well, Jimin it's jus...you're it. You're my home and, if you'll have me, I'd like to stay," I rush out and try to gauge the blank look on his face.

"Hmm, I'm not too sure. I mean, now that I think about all you have put me through...remember that time you left me in the gladiator pits?" he says dropping his arms and backing away from me.

My face drops and I feel the tears start to build in my eyes. Damn, I knew better than this. I shake my head turning my back to him because I'll be damned if I let this stupid, arrogant, kind, son of a bitch see me cry.

I feel his arms snake around me as his chin rests on my shoulders.

"I'm only kidding, Grace. I've wanted you since we met here all those years ago. Now that you're here, I'll never let you go."

"What about when I grow old and ugly?" I stutter out no longer able to stop my tears.

"I don't think you'll ever be ugly, but even when you're old, I'll never want someone else."

I turn around in his embrace and he gently wipes the tears from my eyes. Our gazes hold each other's and he leans in like always, giving me the opportunity to make the final move and, this time, I don't buckle.

I lean in connecting our lips and kissing him with all the love and passion I have for him. We are both breathless when we pull apart and he's smiling before he moves to kiss me again.

"It's about time," he says between kisses and I giggle as we make our way to his room knowing he's absolutely right.

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Grace was everything I could ever want and more. She never jumped again in her life despite the times she really wanted to because of fights or things happening in the world. She stayed, every single day with me and eventually our children.

We built a life, a home, together. Our children gaining gifts from both of us, immortal life from me, and time jumping from her. We were always open and honest with them about them and neither child jumped until long after their mother passed.

Grace aged with beauty, even when her body became frail and her hair had turned grey, she was breathtaking. I never loved her any less and stayed with her 'til the very end. It's been a couple of thousand years since she's gone but I still remember the feeling of her lips pressed against mine and the smell of irises.

I have traveled with our children and seen them grow. I've met them in times I'd never thought I'd see, but nothing compares to my time with her. I think now it's time though. Our children no longer need me, having created families of their own. I think it's time to go home now, to my Grace.

Our family home has passed through the generations always remaining a safe haven, a place to rest and come home for when I need it or when our children jump. I've said my goodbyes and explained what should happen next now that I will go. I lay in our bed, with your favorite painting hanging above it, all of Grace's other collectibles having been donated to different museums after digging them out of her hidey holes she had scattered all over the world. I sip on the drink allowing the poison to do its job, it will finally end it all and take me home.

Home to her...

Grace.

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