#this post rly rubbed me the wrong way lol

[ca-suffit]

Sorry this is long. I'm working through the thought as I write this.

There's a post with kinda a lot of notes going around that idk how jokey it is and it's like here's what you need to have read/seen before watching IWTV so you understand the abusive patriach.

And well, I feel like it's part of the pattern of ppl pushing the show's critique of the abuse family structures enable in a way where they won't have to talk about race. How does Revolutionary Girl Utena relate to IWTV? How does Succession? I've never seen Succession, but their cast is almost completely white, which is racial commentary all its own... In Utena neither race nor colorism ever figures into the narrative iirc. I haven't read the Cairo trilogy since uni but I don't remember race factoring into it either??

Like Lestat was the abusive patriach of their family bcuz he's white! His power is gendered bcuz race is gendered (becuz power is gendered and so on). I think the show is in greater dialogue with James Baldwin and bell hooks than Yoji Enokido and Jesse Armstrong! Baldwin outright, didn't Rolin Jones say in an interview once that Giovanni's Room was a direct inspiration?

It just bothers me. The omission of art by Black creators was so striking I felt like someone slapped me. And maybe if then the tone wasn't so condescending and the idea that you have to have read The Oresteia to understand patriarchal violence so classist, maybe I could shrug it off. But you couple both and I'm like damn we squeezed the Greek and the Japanese in but don't mention even one Black person. I'm not saying the OP did it on purpose cuz I don't know the OP, but it felt so so glaring to me the times I've seen the post. Especially ppl sharing it going yeah exactly!! 😐

Lestat As Patriach to me is just more about white supremacy than the cisheteropatriarchy, and how despite Lestat's promises to Louis (be all the beautiful things you are etc) vampirism could not and does not free Louis (+ Claudia) from anti-Blackness. Altho patriarchy and white supremacy are closely related and both relevant to the show, obvs, it just rubs me wrong when one is ignored in favour of the other. And of course it's always the critique of whiteness that ends up ignored 🤔

Why is everyone so scared of mentioning that Louis is Black? Ugh. Sorry. I'd like your thoughts this fandom makes me feel like I'm off my meds. - 🦁

sry it took me a min to get to this, I wanted to track down the post itself for context. I can't find OP's username now but I remember seeing it before and it not being familiar. so idk otherwise what they've said about this post for the tone and intention.

I can say tho that utena and succession have made rounds here in comparison to iwtv from black fans sometimes. but I've also seen this post otherwise criticized before this ask for not having any black references on it. I tried to find that rolin quote about giovanni's room too, cuz I remember it, but idk where it is or what the whole context was anymore.

from being around the tumblr fandom, what I can say about this kind of stuff is that....from the book ppl to show fandom, both sides usually want to "prove" they're rly smart? it's for diff reasons but sometimes the same references. fandom in general keeps moving towards if u can make ur argument about whatever thing sound deep then that means it is and more ppl will support it. there's a lot of constant misuse of social justice and psychological terms as well as connections to art and literature. look how often ppl never talk about anything critically bcuz "it's gothic romance, sweetie" or "stop looking for morality in stories about vampires" (that was anne rice's whole point tho?? but ok lol). it's a lot of words to say nothing.

ppl will basically always jump thru more hoops than is necessary to look smart in ways that ppl have a broad connection to. a lot of black creators aren't well known to ppl in the first place and mostly only prbly by black ppl too, so referencing anything doesn't get u the points that greek "classics" or pop references get. it also depends on the age range of where anything is posted. this fandom tends to be 20s to 40s but with more emphasis on 20s now, prbly, so lots of focus on proving ur worth and intelligence in the world. this post feeds that type of thing. it's kind of a pat on the head that ur engaging with "smart" stuff.

idk if the post *was* meant as a joke or not bcuz this is the kind of stuff the fandom *will* weaponize in defense of white fandom shit in rly racist ways, so. like u said, it's always kind of about all these other things except the most obvious.....which doesn't take much book smarts to see, u just look at the world around u on any given day. but I've noticed ppl tend to avoid topics that hit too close to home, so this is a way to give distance to things too, I think. If it's all fictional then it can't hurt u fr and also u don't have to care about being vocal about anything or doing any work otherwise.

[vintage-bentley]

I saw you mention Hazbin Hotel and couldn't help myself... The Charlie/Vaggie situation is even worse if you take into account related show Helluva Boss. The gay/bi men in HB are also plenty sexual and it's shown that the main m/m couple fucks nasty. While lesbians kinda don't exist? Like there's lotta dick jokes in these shows but I don't recall any jokes about scissoring or something. I found the Chaggie relationship cute and even interesting (mainly due to episode 6 spoiler reasons) but the weird desexualisation in a show that's all about hell, murder, drugs and sex (and redemption ig) is so lame. Even if they were just rly private about this stuff (for non-homophobic reasons I'm sure) there could have been at least a "Angel accidentally interupts them when they're having sex (and Vaggie almost murders him for it)" type of joke but nope. (Idc if Charlie is sunshine personified, she can still go down on her gf lol.)

Sorry for sending this to your GO blog 😂

No need to be sorry, I was actually going to make a post asking people to send me their criticisms!! I loved the show but I had issues with it just like I do with everything 😂 I’m picky, especially when it comes to depicting SSA. One of my issues is how Angel is basically the embodiment of what I would describe if I was trying to explain the fetishism of gay men.

I love Helluva boss too, and that’s part of why I was so annoyed by Charlie and Vaggie’s situation. One of my gripes with that show is the lack of lesbians (I can’t remember if there’s bi women, I know the creator has her own headcanons of everyone’s sexuality) and F/F relationships. Considering how Blitzø/Stolas is so sexualised, I can’t help but feel like it’s a classic case of “wow I love gay men so much!! Anyway did I tell you about how a lesbian looked in my general direction today? Gross, right?”.

And omg you’re so right about the dick jokes. They’re EVERYWHERE. But pussy jokes are pretty rare, and they never come from a woman if they do pop up. I think that has a lot to do with how normalised it is to talk and joke about penis, while vulvas are still considered fairly taboo.

There’d be so many ways to make some sort of sex joke with Charlie/Vaggie…I love your idea with Angel 😂

Charlie being the “sunshine” type would make it even funnier imo. You know how she blurts swear words and it’s kind of a shock? I can see that also happening with some sex comment.

This just isn’t the show for a sanitised lesbian relationship imo. If the creator wanted that, she should’ve made Charlie/Vaggie a couple in Heaven. But in Hell with everybody constantly talking about sex? It stands out like a sore thumb and honestly seems cowardly. The fact that the only mention of them fucking so far has been from the misogynist chad character really rubs me the wrong way, too. I love Charlie and Vaggie, I think they’re adorable. So I really want them to escape this trap of being all “teehee we’re girls and we hold hands” .

[lorephobic]

ik its cringe to complain about a post blowing up, especially as much as i already have, but i am pretty disheartened to see some ppl in the tags of that post assuming that the message i was trying to convey is “mindcrack bad hermitcraft good” which is. absolutely not the point LOL. and i think thats totally obvious to u guys who know that i love mindcrack with my whole entire heart, but there rly are strangers seeing that post and saying shit like “so glad bdubs got better friends” and “this is why i watch hermitcraft” which just. rubs me the wrong way. idk.

[petphantoms]

hi I'm the anon from earlier. clarifying that scott isn't aro and i was referring to it being a headcanon I've seen alongside these types of interpretations, my bad on the wording there. and thank you for sharing your thoughts, I'd hate to get into like "shipping discourse" or anything so i hope the original message wasn't too idk pessimistic or aggressive about it, i was really frustrated at the time and the whole thing was really rubbing me the wrong way (so i might have been a little less charitable in my observations). I love discussions around interpretations and fanon and aus of this kind of thing and i think your input is thoughtful and interesting! sorry for dragging it out onto this one random blog though i do feel a little bad about it, you seem cool though

lol nooo! i love to talk! and aah that makes sense.. as a headcanon, and then pairing them together... that deffo rubs me wrong. and espec if he was aro irl, right, thats a totally different can of worms.. idk how to explain myself there but ty for the clarification!

i mean to be completely honest, i made the post bc i was asking. i was frustrated with it too, because my exposure to scott in the fandom had only been negative, so it was just not sitting right with me. now that im learning my way around i definitely am finding more folks that share interpretations similar to myself (or they just post silly shit and thats all i want anyway), and its not as like. im realizing. oh thank god, not everyone is doing that, but it was still so weird scary to walk in on...

100% if you want to chit chat or something about this stuff feel free to keep sending anons or even message the blog? i can dm you with my main or something if you go off anon and tell me you want that, lol. im open to really any shipping discourse i guess not because im a discourse person (i dont rly like discourse ngl) but because i do have an interest in what makes people see things the way they do, and i like discussions where i can throw my own hat into the ring and either learn things or feel like im engaging with others thoughtfully instead of passively.

i am 100% open to hearing your thoughts and or bitching, i wont say im staunchly anti a!fh, because truth be told i just dont have enough stake in it to care (and those who did explain themselves to me didnt seem to have poor intentions in mind, and it was just an interpretation! which was nice), but i am definitely.. not someone whos going to partake in it myself, lol...

i feel like i just rambled in a circle here but. don't feel bad for talking abt it, i opened the door myself, and 100% i love to chat so if you have more to say im all ears! we dont have to agree to have a discussion, hehe (: -🍄

[lookinvacantohno]

what's ur opinion on holly 👀 i rly wanna like her and be supportive of dom but something abt her rubs me the wrong way lol

okay. tbh i was hoping i would get an ask about this because i’ve seen quite a lot of posts about it and have some #thots about all of it.

so i wanna say straight up no hate to you specifically anon, this is addressed more to the fandom as a whole and i get its easy to get caught up in certain attitudes. but honestly? i have no problem with her. i think the reason a lot of people do is because they’re jealous of her or are possessive over dom. im not trying to be mean, i think it’s a very normal and valid thing but it definitely doesn’t justify talking shit about holly.

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

Oh man... I just saw one of the most awful takes on j2's comments from that con... the op essentially said what those two said was MORE inclusive than what a lot of destiel fans who consider the confession to be gay & romantic (& sexual) think actually! Which like.... huh?!? 

(& obv not gonna reply to that person cos I don't wanna start shit, but I just wanna rant about it for a sec)

First of all, I think most destiel fans are pretty open to all and every type of queer identity being used for dean & cas! I myself see dean as bi, but I'm not gonna argue w/ people who say he's gay or pan or whatever lol! Ive also heard people say cas is an angel so has no fixed form of gender but still say he's gay! I've also seen a lot of trans!dean/cas headcanons, which I love, & others who say they're both cis, which is fine lol!

Basically, even in the small garden patch of fandom I exist in, I've seen a large variety of queer headcanons from people that are just accepted as valid by most fans!

(side note: there’s obv gonna be certain fans that are less inclusive, but that’s what comes from having such a large and diverse fanbase lol)

Now, what the op of this post said was that destiel fans who say cas is gay & that the confession was romantic ONLY think that and shoot anyone down who doesn't think that, which (in my experience) just doesn't happen lol...

But if we look at what jared & jensen very specifically did in their answers, it was vehemently deny that the confession scene can be interpreted as both GAY and ROMANTIC... because in their eyes, cas is 'junkless' which means he can’t have a penis which means he can’t be gay or have sex right? (which is contradicted by the text btw lol & in the grand scheme of things is just... not true at all lol) and that the love he spoke of in the confession can’t be DEFINED because it’s so heavenly, except.... they spend the entire time forcefully claiming that you can define it however you want, except if that definition involves claiming it was gay and romantic and/or sexual lol... 

There’s also the fact that they conflate being gay with having sex, AND that having romantic feelings means that you also have sexual feelings which I think all ace & aro people would laugh in the face of lol

Because this isn’t just about a couple destiel fans insisting that cas is gay or that it was a romantic pairing, this is a continuing pattern of denying and gaslighting the fans that a scene that meant so much to them as an explicitly GAY confession about GAY LOVE is actually just something ‘vague’ and ‘up for interpretation’ WHICH is what hollywood & tv companies has been telling us for fucking years instead of actually including some decent fucking representation! 

I honestly don’t care if op wanted to defend some grown ass men’s comments to make themselves feel better, but to deny the real harm those comments have caused, AND to claim that ‘destiel fans are worse actually’ is just such a shit move and makes me genuinely angry tbh

[randombubblegum]

okay my main problem with hiidef is definitely the prices. ik you get sooo many asks about this i jsut want to say this. there have been pieces i really wanted , mostly just the blue zipper jacket and the reversible orange and black one. i like brightly colored things so that’s why. i have the black and pink heat activated one. and honestly i kind of wish i didn’t spend as much as i did on it. i really like the shirt but imo it’s worth like half the price. that’s how i feel about like everything on hiidef pretty much. it’s jsut crazy to me that a grown man is fine with pushing teenagers to pay those crazy prices. im pretty poor and always have been , the only difference now is that im moved out and have the opportunity to treat myself to nicer things when i can. but never in a million years would i have gotten that sweatshirt while living with my mom. it’s just sad to me when people who are doing wayyyyy better financially than their target audience take advantage of the fact they have a cult like following. just really rubs me the wrong way. idk how you can’t feel bad for making teens who are probably making minimum wage at shit jobs overpay for your products , or making their parents pay that when they also could be struggling with money

ya i know weve been over this x1000 but yeah…… like im less concerned w feeling bad for the ppl buying it, thats their choice, if theyre enjoying their purchases thats good and if theyre putting themselves in debt for these overpriced essentially band merch items thats on them…… but what i rly hate abt hi def is that awsten is selling FOMO. literally his whole business model is designed to take advantage of the fomo of literally teenagers LOL……. like hes basing this business venture on membership to an ~exclusive club~ of ~cool fans~ who he might like or retweet if they post the $70 or $200 jacket they bought from him. and he keeps stressing that these items are selling out immediately so ppl wont have time to slow down and consider their purchase they just feel pressured to buy now. i dont like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[stanharu]

beastars episode 24 thoughts!

this post got kinda long i have Many Thoughts on this one

Overall I had fun watching this ep but I could really tell it was rushed and there was so much that got cut, which makes me super sad. our fears about the finale having pacing issues due to all the added scenes & rearranging were confirmed & it rly sucks, but i'll elaborate more on that in a bit.

this week's ep covered the end of chapter 92, chapters 93-97, and included small bits of chapters 98 & 99.

so the ep starts with the ED and the latter part of the tunnel scene with ibuki and louis. i liked the visual effect they used to show that they were in the dark. louis' voice acting was also On Point. for the most part i think this scene was done pretty well but I can tell it's being rushed also. I really wish we got more buildup and narration instead of just jumping straight to ibuki telling louis to shoot him. the way it is in the anime feels less impactful imo.

also im sad we didnt get to see this in the anime

before i move on, i wanna talk a bit about louis and his relationship w/ the shishigumi and ibuki. i feel like in the anime quite a few of the lil moments that really endear you to the shishigumi and also ibuki were either cut or kinda glossed over, which is strange to me considering how much effort and care went into the ED. it's very emotional and good but i feel like maybe anime onlies are missing out only seeing the anime and the MV. but idk.

legosi and riz's fight was quite rushed as well. there's so much narration and dialogue missing from it and that really rubs me the wrong way. It wasn't all bad but compared to the manga I just don't think it's as good. I will say tho that I really liked the sequence w legosi and the moths. I thought it looked really nice and was pretty well done.

also i liked how the backgrounds had some anti-yahya graffiti, its a nice touch imo

it says "high quality horse meat"

I was happy to see legosi do the "tell me more" pose but I'm honestly disappointed that the anime took out the whole exposition about why legosi did it. like i feel like without that it's just legosi being weird when he has a reason for it!!! This is just one example of the anime taking out crucial narration during the fight.

I also think it's kinda weird how they changed how louis shows up at the fight. im not sure how i feel about riz just charging at him like that, but i liked how legosi kicked him before they ran lol.

i dont have much to say about pina's small scene but I did wanna say that during my first watch thru of the ep i was too distracted trying to read the graffiti behind him that i didn't notice him getting his phone out of the dumpster and calling the cops lmao

it says "devour yahya"

and now... here we are... the predation scene.

overall i thought it was pretty well done but, like the rest of the ep, i could tell it was also being kinda rushed. some important beats werent given enough time to really sink in, and there's a few bits of narration taken out of this part as well that i find disappointing :^(

tho i did like how the anime called back to this scene in s1 when legosi mentions utilizing his strength.

also this part where louis is remembering ibuki had me like😭

I also really liked seeing louis cry. I was crying too sjdflskjdflsjkdf. i thought that scene was really good, its prolly my favorite part of the ep tbh. getting to hear the whole predation scene voiced made me kind of a mess lol. i really liked louis' expressions throughout this whole ep too. studio orange used their whole louis expression budget on these last 2 eps lmao.

seeing legosi instantly get all beefed up was great too. he looked a little ridiculous but i kinda loved it lol. he's so huge and poofy. i love him.

big pomeranian

anyway, im also sad they took out louis' line about being reduced to a flashback character lol. instead he tells legosi "be a hero" again which... im not sure about that change. i liked the part with riz thinking back about tem tho. tho imo the way riz realizes he's in the wrong feels pretty sudden. again adding to how rushed the whole ep feels.

before i move on again i just wanna say legosi looks so cute. even all puffed up and covered in blood. how does he do that

baby boy baby. i wanna ruffle his cheek floofs.

i think one of the things im most disappointed about from this whole ep was how the fight got wrapped up. i really like how the cops show up and totally shift the tone in the manga jslkdfjskljdf. im also really sad we didnt get this interaction

tthe anime really took out most of the sillier moments from the finale, which makes me pretty sad to think about. i know the anime and manga have different tones but pls let the boys be silly sometimes!!

the next part where legosi and louis finally establish their friendship was really cute tho ❤️ even tho it was pretty different i enjoyed it a lot.

BABIESSSS 🥺😭❤️❤️

the wrap-up for this arc and this episode gave me whiplash sdjlfkjsdf. it literally speedruns thru legosi's predation conviction, being released, louis & haru's graduation, and legosi deciding he's going to drop out of school. that is SO MUCH AT ONCE. also i was holding out hope that legosi would have his new years call with haru after the fight instead but that didnt happen!! so it just got cut!!! kinda mad about that tbh. legosi and haru having a lil scene at the very end made up for it a lil bit but that's still one of haru's few moments in this arc that's just not included.

we didnt even get the part wher legosi learns he can't marry haru bc of his conviction.

ive been really hoping for a season 3 announcement once this season ended. with all the background allusions to yahya, the added plot point of someone stealing elephant tusks, and sebun and melon's lil cameos in this season, it seemed to me that studio orange was kinda teasing a 3rd season. but now, with the dismissive way the anime ended, and paru's note from earlier today, im less sure about the possibility of a 3rd season. i'd still like to see the rest of the series animated, but i guess we'll just have to wait and see if more anime is announced in the future.

if we do get another season in the future i just hope that we swing back around and actually address the things that got completely glossed over in the last couple minutes of this episode instead of charging forward w/o touching them again.

i really think the finale for this arc should've been two episodes at least. not including the tunnel scene. i think then things wouldn't have felt so rushed. people have been saying this season really would have benefitted from at least 1 extra episode and i cant help but agree. some have even suggested a whole 24 episodes just for this arc, but i think that this arc couldve been done properly with 12 or 13 episodes if there was some better prioritizing on what to include and what to cut.

like i dont mind not getting the parts about legosi's family if they can be addressed somehow in a future season (or if theres no more future anime seasons thats a plot thread that doesnt have to be worried about). i could have lived w/o seeing sheila & peach's chapter animated if it meant more time for the focus of this arc. and was the kangaroo red herring really necessary?

adaptation wise, i dont think this season was as good as the first. i still think it did fairly well, but i know that it could have been much better. ive been excited to watch this season with my friends once the dub releases, but now im wondering if i should just tell them to read the manga instead. sighs idk. perhaps it comes thru better as a bingewatch, or perhaps im being a bit too harsh. idk. at some point ill do a rewatch and see how i feel about the season as a whole, but that wont be for a while.

if you've read this far, thanks for reading my ramblings!! it's been fun to make these posts every week and im gonna miss getting new episodes every week.

[ancient-bruises-ancient-moon]

so my vet shot me an email

this woman (patient of my vet) has had cockatiels for TEN YEARS and just...doesn’t want them anymore because they’re old and sick?? she’s like annoyed that they need medicine and it costs money?? 

so she asked if I could take them in and I am rly rly rly thinking yes. I've been rly wanting to adopt some new friends- I think I even made a post about it yesterday or the day before lol 

there’s 3 girls & they’re sisters & as much as everyone tells me to like stop it with older and sick animals bc I get so heartbroken when they pass like...they’re the ones that need homes the most- and I feel like it’s wrong to buy an animal when there’s animals already out there needing care. most ppl dont want to take in sick/behaviorally difficult animals..  and I had to turn down the last birb my vet asked me to help with just bc I have no experience w that kind of parrot and I am way too anxious of a person to go into something like that blind  and I love her for even thinking of me so I also want to make her happy.

im like 99% sure I'm gunna say yes. just gotta wait a few hours to give her a call and let her know. im gunna spoil the shit out of them and make them so happy and healthyyyyy and loved and rubbed and kissed and sung to! ahhhh

im so nervousssss

[matoitech]

have you done galo or lio. heck. galo AND lio.

GALO

favorite thing about them

I LOVE HIM A STUPID BIG CRAZY AMOUNT EVERYTHING HE DOES IM LIKE YES!! YOU GO!!! I LOVE YOU!! 

least favorite thing about them

idk. nothing. hes perfect. i do think he should get therapy but thats not like a him problem its just a “i doubt he ever got therapy and after everything thats happened to him it would probably be useful” thing. at least TALK to people about some of this shit bro. im pretty sure he hasnt!

favorite line

i have a lot of favorite galo lines but “ITS NOT WEIRD ITS COOL!!” is definitely like. up there

brOTP

lucia!! they are so funny i love that its canon they get more stupid in each others presence. also hes good friends w aina and varys and i figure gueira and meis probably like him too

OTP

his husband lio

nOTP

anything weird. also him w aina he just is not into her and vice versa lol

random headcanon

dont get me started on hcs i will go on forever but to keep it to a couple basics hes obviously trans, and is also autistic and has adhd. the thing he does w his hair is a fave stim (i need to gif it sometime its so specific i cant describe it well)

also hes rly good at cooking he thinks its relaxing and fun. lio gets SPOILED when it comes to really fuckin stellar food

unpopular opinion

i dont like most f*ndom interpretation of him i find it.. interesting.. that a lot of ppl dont think its weird of them to infantalize a 20 something year old, easily read as nd, canon abuse victim character so heavily. it rubs me the wrong way for some reason lol cant imagine why /s

song i associate with them

oof i have a lot ill probably post the playlists when im done but a couple are shark attack by grouplove, role models by ajr, and tic toc by mother mother

favorite picture of them

every galo pic. but i like this one

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LIO

favorite thing about them

EVERYTHING I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. his style is pretty cool i like his dragon i like his 17 belts i love that he cares about people SO MUCH

least favorite thing about them

nothing he is great. he needs therapy too though like seriously if he didnt need it pre-movie (which im sure he did.) he definitely needs it now

favorite line

revoke my creds as a promare blog im so bad at remembering quotes i forgot lios ;-; 

brOTP

GUEIRA AND MEIS I LOVE THEM ALL

OTP

galo! they are married. possibly canonically? good for them!

nOTP

anything weird idk. i dont rly see anything else but him and galo

random headcanon

lio has a fursona. and its a dragon. 

unpopular opinion

im sick of f*ndom interpretation of him too. hes nice. people need to remember that hes Nice hes a good person he wouldnt be doing everything he did in the movie if he wasnt a good person. also he would never be shitty to galo -_- this is so obvious and i dont like when people do it, at all

song i associate with them

aspiring fires by mother mother and pop/stars by k/da. the second one seems like a mad burnish song idk its the aesthetic

favorite picture of them

like galo lio has so many epic moments but i think this look is truly crazy mode and who can blame him

[thearcanasucks]

Honestly glad you added a little more to your response because I couldn’t believe I was only going have to respond to [insert meme] This is too long, I refuse to read this, while  immediately after accusing-me- of not reading anything you guys have been saying which-honestly, I see no reason why I would even bother saying anything if I didn’t-UR A LOSER. Real mature guys. I expected something a little more substantial from a group of people pushing their 30s when serious issues like racism and sexism are on the line. Wow.

And still you’re telling me that the info your receiving are from your friends, not you. Can I just put this up too?

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You admitted to this recently. Also, I did not defend the game. Take more than a second to read through my post. I said nothing about how I feel about the endings either which way lol. That is totally made up. I’m sorry it was too long for you.

“admitted” like saying we get our info from friends is… a crime. okay. idk what that screenshot is trying to prove btw.

you still came here to be like “hey expose yourselves to extremely triggering content or i won’t take you seriously at all ever” (btw do you want to pay us 700 dollars so that we can access the paid content?) and also “i think some people thought THE ENDING WHERE THE MC IS A SLAVE was bittersweet” like. you didnt bring anything new to the table? i know people liked it? i know they think it was fine? that’s the problem?

yr rly just coming in like “listen i dont like your tone” and we don’t. we don’t care. we have posted actual evidence of the disgusting bullshit in this game (and did you miss the part where dana rune draws incest p*rn? and dana and elle love rubbing elbows with pedophiles? did you see that?) and if after all that you STILL think tone-policing is a brilliant move and calling us out on getting some factoids wrong can destroy our entire argument then… that sounds like a whole lot of your problem

tl;dr you’re acting like we’re positing in front of a judge and jury and we need to be professionals about this. we’re not, and we don’t. either you take the piles of evidence we’ve provided, or you’ll nitpick to your heart’s content to pretend you’re the one who actually cares abt sexism and racism (because an nb lesbian and a romani person would never truly about those issues unless they presented them in MLA format w proper citation, apparently)

[davidsvlogs]

I rly wanna like ughitsjoe like genuinely I do he seems like such a nice guy but something about him makes me cringe everytime he speaks like he’s trying to hard to be funny maybe I’m just mean

i think i posted something similar to this months ago, but i feel the same way. like there’s literally no reason to dislike joe, but something rubs me the wrong way...maybe we’re both just mean lol

[upwardeath]

answer 11 questions, tag people and ask 11 questions (tagged by @lsfp @cognitionis-amor @venusian-prince @kishka) thanks dudes. I’m combing the first two sets of questions I was tagged in, and I gotta jet so can’t do them all rn

lsfp/cognition-amor questions:

1. What’s your favorite music genre/movie genre/book genre and why?

I guess alternative would be my favorite, I enjoy finding obscure or independent artists, I can spend hours on Spotify if I’m not careful. Movies, well I go for anything that combines drama and psychological. But I enjoy sci-fi and rom com as well, I’m a romantic. And yeah I get into all the typical Ni shit. I like classic lit a lot and apocalyptic/post apocalyptic/sci-fi books most.

2. Where do you see yourself five years from now? Ten years from now?

Funny you should ask, bc I’m currently very undecided about my future, I’m leaving the education field and leaning toward psychology, but I’m also considering a graphic design/advertising strategy role. But I’m fighting strong ‘fuck it’ inclinations atm. SO, 5 years from now, I hope to be settled somewhere that challenges me and also satisfies my passions. 10 years, happy and in control of that bitch, anger.

3. What’s a quality you always admire in others and never get tired of?

The ability to truly forgive, bc fuck if I could ever figure out how. Also, the ability to be vulnerable, because while I can be with a select few, it still kills me, but in the name of being authentic, I value it and want to get better at it.

4. What in the world/universe/human mind just ABSOLUTELY fascinates you?

How spirituality intersects with psychology. How physiology intersects with psychology/mental health. All psychology, how the brain works, neuroscience, sports strategy, relationships, love. Existentialism, anything ‘dark’ and mysterious. The idea of absolute truth.

5. Have you ever been proven wrong about a person’s character for the better?

Fuck yeah. There have been many times I was rubbed wrong by God knows whatever hunch I had at first. I find that no matter how good my magicalTM Ni/Se abilities are uwu (I’ll clarify right here bc I’ve been known to be misunderstood on this, but I’m very sarcastic and ironical when I say things like this), tert Fi can be a bitch when looping as it can be susceptible to using Te to support it’s schemes with Ni. And sometimes it can’t be trusted, but the more self-aware I become, the more obvious it becomes when this is happening, when I’m falsely basing my hunch on some shit-sensitive feeling I had. LOL. I’ve experienced the enemies to friends trope a couple of times actually. And I love it.

6. How do your favorite aesthetics make you feel and why? What aesthetic do you find rly ugly?

Connected to some deeper understanding and satisfied, because they put my inner world into something tangible. Ugly? LOL. Anything but my own uwu. Kidding, ummm, colors that clash, like I can’t explain it. I may have inf Se, but I think I have a decent eye. Shrug.

7. Would you kill someone?

Only in defense of others, and in a heartbeat if needed.

8. Who would you die for?

People I love, I think, but uh maybe not idk.

9. What method of suicide would you prefer? (Even if you aren't suicidal, please don't kill yourself cause i asked this oh my God). If someone killed you how would you probably get killed?

Gun to the head. If someone else killed me, I’d probably die because I didn’t back down to a threat of some sort. Likely some chaotic good scenario. I mean I do some crazy shit, but sp keeps me in check most of the time.

10. Is there hope for humanity?

Yes. But I hope I die before it ever comes time to test this theory. Like apocalyptic shit. But I hope God saves us from whatever fate we have in store. Actually, I hope I’m alive to save humanity tbh. Yeah I’m stupid I know.

11. On a scale of 1 to 10 how bad was the worst pain you ever felt?

I have a high pain tolerance so the scale is skewed imo. I guess that time I had my gut knifed open by... jk. Lol. I don’t know. I’m having a hard time remembering. As into extreme sports as I am, I surprisingly haven’t had too many injuries other than bruises and some broken bones which weren’t very painful. I’m very prepared for stuff like that and don’t put myself in situations I don’t think I can handle, and thanks to genetics I’m pretty good at that stuff. I think nagging pain is worse tbh, I’d rather get shit over with. So maybe tooth pain? Cause you feel it in your head and it makes you want to rip them out. I’ll give it a 7.

Venusian-prince questions:

1. do you believe in romantic soulmates, if so, multiple or just one?

Yeah, just one, and i also think your soulmate doesn’t have to be romantic.

2. thoughts on religion? do you practice anything?

Raised Christian, currently having an existential crisis, so no fucking clue what I believe, but i do know what i don’t believe.

3. believe in magic? 

No, but the concept is cool.

4. describe your absolute perfect / idealized partner

Someone nicer than me and better at dealing with their emotions. But not in denial or devoid of them. xstp tbh. An edgy nerd. Someone who will do Se shit with me and also talk about interesting stuff. Someone who doesn’t poopoo my big emotions and crazy mind but also calls me out on shit. Someone hot.

5. what is a little quirk/nuance about you, that not a lot of people know?

Idk I’m tall. 5’11” to be exact. Yes I played basketball in college. I seem very serious, but I’m actually quite playful and I love to laugh, only with certain people of course.

6. what is the perfect weather for you, and why do you like it that way?

65 degrees. Dry. I sweat easily and I don’t love hot. Humidity sucks.

7. first thing you think about when you wake up? last thing you think about when you go to bed? (be honest!!!!)

I need to pee and i wish i could sleep longer. Sex and i hate myself.

8. name something about yourself you highly value & appreciate 

My advice-giving abilities, my passion.

9. have any regrets? if so, why?

I regret hurting some loved ones with my anger. Ugh. Why, bc my anger/pain is no excuse.

10. how do you deal with your negative emotions? 

Drink them away when disintegrating/gripping. I punch the hell out of my punching bag, workout. Drive/walk around at all hours of the night brooding. Writing. Drawing. EMDR therapy. Talk therapy. Talking with this one person. Or I just don’t deal.

11. have you ever been obsessive / addicted to anything?

Chapstick, salsa, I’m probably addicted to coffee. I obsess over trying new beer/whiskey. I wax the hair off my arms obsessively.

My questions (I’m yoinking some from others):

1. Names you find beautiful?

2. What’s a song that embodies you as a person best?

3. Do you have any weird/out-there theories? What are they if I may ask?

4. Do you have a favorite enneagram/mbti type?

5. What’s the thing that annoys you most?

6. Where would you live if you could choose one place in the world?

7. What are your hobbies?

8. What are your religious beliefs, if any?

9. Do you like pizza? Yes or no?

10. Do you have any vices and what are they?

11. What’s something random you were thinking about today?

not gonna tag anyone cause I think most have been tagged already

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though actually while i’m on this subject, I do kind of have a big issue with how this frames griffith.

cut bc this probably doesn’t really make sense lol, i’m rambling and i’m not entirely sure how to explain my thought process lol

like, if pre-eclipse griffith was a symbol of guts’ potential to have fulfilling relationships and find a place where he belongs, that guts then totally fucked up by “abandoning,” and post-eclipse neogriffith is a symbol of guts throwing away his potential to have fulfilling relationships by pursuing a stupid self-destructive dream, then there’s a bit of an awkward contradiction:

during the golden age, guts distancing himself from griffith was a bad thing that caused all his problems. after the eclipse, guts distancing himself from griffith is the narratively correct choice. this makes technical plot sense because in between griffith transformed into a demon lol, but thematically i think it’s unsatisfying.

griffith has essentially been replaced with guts’ protective relationship with casca. he fucked up and abandoned her, just like he fucked up and abandoned griffith, but now he’s making up for it by sticking around and protecting her - something he never got a chance to do w/ griffith. like, there was no magical cure to heal griffith, no long journey of personal growth, nada.

ignoring who could be blamed for what if berserk happened in real life, bc this has nothing to do with morals or literal interpersonal responsibilities, from a fictional storytelling perspective guts destroyed griffith when he made the wrong choice by leaving. griffith’s year of torture and then eclipse causing despair is the direct consequence of guts’ narrative mistake, and femto/ngriff is an antagonist of guts’ own making.

so to then say that the right thing for guts to do is to try to forget about him rubs me the wrong way. it’d be one thing if griffith was dead and there was nothing guts could do except try to avoid repeating his mistakes, but he’s alive and currently acting on the world in a capacity that is, at least by some standards, negative lol. the way stories work, that’s guts’ problem to fix.

so if the thematic takeaway is that guts should just ignore neogriffith and move on, and if he goes back to obsessing over him that’s bad, then... i’m not satisfied with that lol.

also like, if the manga decided to draw a very clear and explicit dividing line between human griffith and neogriffith, essentially declaring everything human griffith represented to guts as dead, that would also be one thing, but miura deliberately muddies the waters both by teasing the audience about his beating heart and by guts’ emotional conflict a la “the instant I saw him I’d forgotten my urge to kill,” and “longing,” and by continuing to utilize the light/dark imagery for their relationship, and having guts reminisce about original griffith after seeing him, etc.

so there’s this sense to me that neogriffith is simultaneously a symbol of guts’ self destructive dream (revenge, fighting stronger and stronger enemies, becoming griffith’s equal) and a symbol of guts’ mistake in pursuing that dream the first time - a symbol of what he threw away by leaving - and to me it feels unsatisfyingly contradictory.

and then on a purely emotional level lol it frustrates me that if the moral of the story really is that guts needs to move on and forget about the past and griffith and focus on the relationships he does have, then that means griffith was essentially a casualty of guts’ one step forward two steps back style character development. a character, from the perspective of his relationship to guts, who existed to be a consequence of guts’ mistake and teach guts a lesson through his destruction. and that just strikes me as unfair lol. idt guts should get to move on when griffith never had the opportunity - OR when griffith did take his opportunity ie the sacrifice, if we’re counting that, because then griffith moving on is evil but guts moving on is good.

and yeah maybe it’s a statement about moving on by suppressing your emotions vs moving on by forming new relationships, but griffith was railroaded by the narrative lol, he never got the chance to move on by forming new relationships, he was irreparably fucked the day after guts left. so if that’s the case then it’s weak.

but idk maybe i’m looking at this from entirely the wrong perspective. idk i’m just thinking outloud again rly. and until we find out what happens when casca has her mind back, it’s too early to draw any real conclusions anyway.

[theboykingofhell]

seisans replied to your post “why everyone always get mad when people are straight up like ‘i want...”

i think this time it was more within the context of what was going on ... like ... monique was a fantastic group leader and mayhem didn't speak up for herself and now she's going around talking about how she's "not here to play games (unlike the other girls???)" and how she's just here to get them out of her way and win like ok girl lol

oh def like my post was very much out of the context cuz it’s not the first time i’ve noticed this happening and the reaction always strikes me but yeah that was rly off

seisans replied to your post “why everyone always get mad when people are straight up like ‘i want...”

like she went out and supported eureka in this untucked ... bye ... i love mayhem and she turns out some LOOKS but this is really starting to rub me the wrong way like wtf is going on in her head

I FEEL THE SAME WAY when she was talking shit about vixen to eureka i felt so betrayed da fuq...... altho today i found out mayhem’s also an aquarius so now i feel i understand at least a tiny bit

[dovechim]

After a hectic week I can finally sit down and dedicate the next hour or so to continue my story because I really want to get to the part which I'd like to hear your opinion - and everyone else's - about!! ☆ Long Story Anon

So we kept messaging for the following days, both busy with our respective classes; but before I knew it and I can't say I was surprised, he invited me to do something again less than a week later. We're from a considerably small city, there isn't much to do around here, so we had a hard time coming up with an idea. Well, he suggested to pick me up and we'd go back to his house to eat something, to which I agreed. I was with my friend and we were both jumping around from excitement ☆ 1

Needless to say my friends all loved him; they were happy that after such a long time and with such bad luck in love I finally found what seemed to be the last guy on earth who was worth more than two seconds of my life. I knew going to his house implied something more serious than making out could happen, but honestly I didn't mind if it did. In context, he lived with his little brother and parents; where we're from it's common at our age to still live at home since we've not graduated yet ☆2

But he'd mentioned during the first date that his parents were away for an anniversary holiday and his little brother was staying with the oldest one who lived in his own apartment with his fiance; meaning we had the house for ourselves. As planned he picked me up and took me there, had some food delivered and we watched terrible horror films on netflix. He'd cheesily try to put his arm around me on the couch and I'd move closer, ending up snuggled together with my heart about to burst ☆ 3

At one point both brothers and the fiance show up with some food, for some reason and that's when I knew half his family on the second date lol. But they moved upstairs quite quickly after eating and left us alone to watch the movies. Eventually he'd kiss my cheek, not-so-subtly letting me know he wanted to KISS-kiss me, but me being the nervous little shit I am didn't really know what to do. It'd been two whole years since I even attempted to make out with someone!! ☆ 4

So he had to move even closer and he said, which I'll never forget: "you're so shy", which I wasn't surprised about, it's not common for a 22 year old to be that reserved, I guess, but with a little bit of patience that single moment turned into the best first kiss I've ever had. I was so scared he'd be a terrible kisser, like I'd experienced before bc that's just a deal breaker for me and everything else about him was so perfect; but boy...was I wrong. We ended up making out for so long that ☆5

Our lips hurt, and he didn't even try to go too far, already noticing that I wasn't the kind of girl to tear off our clothes and start fucking (not that I didn't wish I were lol), so he just held me tight and took me home eventually. God, the memory of his kisses will never leave my mind. To this day I still get butterflies because it was the kind of kiss that makes you feel like your bodies fit together and makes your toes curl :') ☆ 6

im so soft for you and him already :”)))) it’s so sweet that he wasn't afraid of scaring you off and still went for it!! a lot of guys i know are hesitant about dating an inexperienced girl bc they’re scared they will scare her off, and once my friend asked me how he should chase after a girl who has never dated. i literally got so pissed lmao i just said “just fucking treat her like a fucking normal person!!! what are you intending to do that might scare her off???” 

We had a third date after that, about a week later. We went out to eat and it was the day he started posting instagram stories with me and tbh I was surprised. In our generation it takes more than just a couple of dates for a guy to 'announce' he's not 'single' anymore. You know, like if he had intention of seeing other girls at the same time he wouldn't be parading me around for everyone to see, which only fed my hopes of him being 'the one' even more ☆ 7

omg yes :/ the dating culture is so complicated lmao like ppl can be going out with different people at the same time and there’s a certain time after which you’re considered exclusive... it’s so tiring tbh

Another week passed and out of the blue he was asking me to meet his parents. He was very lowkey about it; he said he missed me, mentioning they'd returned from NY and asking if we could meet again that night, but "my parents would be there too, is that a problem?" lol. So I said no, obviously, even though I was shitting my pants, I'd never met a boy's parents in that context before but he seemed excited. He picked me up and we drove back to his place where they were waiting for me ☆ 8

I decided I didn't want to read too much into it back then, but still couldn't help but notice that the older borther+fiance had dropped plans to go to dinner with us so 'the whole family would be there to meet me'. Did that mean him bringing a girl home wasn't that common? Was I actually that special? As if I didn't notice myself falling fast and hard for me enough, his whole family welcomed me with huge open arms. His little brother, extroverted as they come at the age of 10 did everything ☆9

To include me in the conversations; the older brother would tell embarrassing stories. The parents, both doctors, both dating since college and pretty much the whole family (fiancee included) were some of the most welcoming people I'd ever met. They treated me like a family member from the very beginning and noticing how nervous I was they would try to make the dinner as easy going as they could. The guy in question, let's call him Jed? Would hold my hand under the table to calm me down ☆ 10

Or rub soothing circles over my the fabric of my jeans to distract me when a family member would embarrass him. I fell in love with his family as fast as I fell in love with him and I just couldn't believe I'd found someone so perfect. We'd make out until our lips were sore and he'd drop me off at home always leaving me with a feeling of sadness that I had to say goodbye. He made me so happy that I started to go out more, meeting my friends I was just in such a good mood because of him ☆ 11

no you must have been so nervous!!!!! i mean i get that he was low key but  still... parents are a big deal. i hope his intentions were rly pure and that he was that into you!! but im glad they were nice :”) 

I'd even dare to say he made me a better person in ways only I can understand. He'd text me what he was doing or who he was with every day, all the time, even if I didn't ask -which I never did. Sure, he wasn't perfect; sometimes he'd forget we had plans. I have a feeling he lied to me a couple of times but about nothing really major; sometimes he'd be in a bad mood and be sarcastic and annoying af but honestly nothing too bad. All in all I had absolutely nothing to complain about him☆ 12

It wasn't until around a month and a half into the 'relationship' that we went out for drinks and then back to his place that he tried to have sex with me (he'd waited to bring it up more than any other guy I'd ever met lol). I didn't directly tell him I was a virgin, he kinda guessed, and he was more than okay with it, even saying 'I'll wait as long as you want to'; and damn I didn't really want to wait that long, it was just that the time was never right! ☆ 13

At this point we'd both had dinner with his parents several times already. They told me in that household they'd set the habit of having dinner together every night, and were more than happy to let me into their little tradition. At more casual nights we'd sit down and watch some film on netflix, the parents and little brother always moving upstairs at the end and leaving us both alone to make out some more lol. I was even invited to his dad's birthday dinner at a fancy ass restaurant ☆ 14

this is so cute 😭 im just very ugh whenever a guy kinda hints at sex bc dude u gotta make me WANT it not just ask for it :/ but it sounds like he was super respectful!! and tbh im just very bad with other ppl’s parents, but his sounds rly perfect  😭 do such ppl even exist??? i cant even remember the last time i ate w my family :/ 

So by the third month I already felt part of that family tbh. I'd cooked alongside the mother like lifelong friends, and sat down for coffee after dinner to talk about how fast technology is moving with his dad. His little brother would tell jokes or ask me to teach him some guitar and I think they began to love me as much and as fast as I loved them, honestly. I was even invited to the dog's birthday part lmfao I was just unable to attend but was kindly provided with video memories ☆ 15

Everything was going so perfect, I think we could've lasted so much longer but maybe just the timing wasn't right. I still remember him dearly though, but back then I had my heart broken so bad that I simply wish I'd never met him. What hurt the most was growing so attached to his family and then out of the blue, and without a single chance to say goodbye I never saw any of them again. I should've known life isn't a movie or a book and nothing that starts so well can end just as happily ☆ 16

WHY ARE YOU USING PAST TENSE?????????? NO!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO SHAKEN RIGHT NOW bc this feels like that part in a book where the author’s just leading u towards that horribly devastating ending and that’s exactly what ur doing  😭

The last night I went to his house - btw we never visited MY house because MY family as much as I love them to death aren't as welcoming as his was with me, so until I knew FOR SURE this guy and I were serious, I decided to suggest activities that required not being at my place lol - the whole evening started weirdly. He'd been taking longer than usual to text me, and it was getting too late so I though we just weren't doing anything but he insisted he wanted to see me ☆ 17

And fuck, I wanted to see him to, once or twice a week just wasn't enough anymore and I missed his touch so badly. So I agreed for him to pick me up, even though he kind of strung me along for a few hours. By the time he picked me up I hadn't eaten, not knowing wth we were going to do but he said he'd had dinner before picking me up. Why would he though? He knew we had plans, which usually involved dinner, why not wait for me for eating? Either way, I'd missed him, I wasn't about to fight ☆ 18

We reached his place and his mom was already going upstairs for sleeping along with the little brother; the father was performing a surgery so we were alone at the living room together. He was a little tense and I didn't understand why, he said he was tired because he'd had class up until late and I asked if he just wanted me to leave but he asked me not to; he wanted to see me, he wanted me to stay. We cuddled on the couch and I had to wake him back up several times, growing annoyed ☆ 19

And when the dad got home he quickly got up and pretended to do something in the kitchen. The man had to eat and we had to wait for him to leave to sit back together, the whole situation was awkward af. I was wondering if I should just call a cab and leave, but he insisted not to. At around 2am (it was a friday) while making out he asked if I wanted to go up to his room, to which I said yes. He knew what that meant, so he was excited about it, going upstairs to check if his room was clear ☆ 20

Damn, I hit ask limit again :'( I'll have to leave it here right now but I swear I'll get to the point eventually lol I'm sorry!! also thank you for giving me your patience and space to tell this story, I feel like this way I can tell it without filters about what really happened or how I felt and actually receive honest unbiased opinions

omg i literally cannot believe u ended right there??????? i hate tumblr’s ask limit. im on the edge of my seat right now!!! thank you for taking the time to send me these, im so invested in ur story now its insane!! 

come back whenever you have time bb