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cizzle-freezy · 1 year

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man i love trios

especially trios that would bully each other and then get really defensive/protective of each other

the "no one picks on them but me" trope

(Aonani, rightmost person, belongs to @juan-o-clocks)

#cizzle scribbles #doodle #digital art #original character #oc: Maryn #oc: Chai #i love their dynamic #siblings (begrudgingly)#augh Aonani my beloved......#giving up an immortality many would give everything to have #rebelling against the rest of himself to become mortal again #to become one with the cycle again #to feel HUMAN again #but in his own way

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fusionsprunt · 3 months

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Hunter, Year 4036

#I just realized that some of the dates aren't coinciding. The current Beatrix is from Season 3 and not Year 4038.#It is likely that Year 4038 was the year she woke up after her slumber cycle and also the same year she met Hunter.#He was definitely much different before her! Not as welcoming or laid-back as he's seen later on in the story.#After becoming Hunter‚ he joined rescue teams in Fusionsprunt city in a desperate attempt to fix his mistakes.#He got increasingly depressed over the few months he worked there but managed to solve a few cases and even get his job as a technician.#Aloof and irritable. He was constantly on the edge and paranoid about having his identity discovered.#He would exhaust himself hours on end because of his guilt‚ which would result in accumulated stress and bleeding.#After he found Guto‚ he was forced to change his lifestyle and bad habits into healthier ones for him.#You could say the guilt still weighted heavily on his shoulders‚ but Hunter certainly started taking care of himself again.#fusionsprunt #fusionsprunt hunter

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quietwingsinthesky · 11 months

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it ever hit you out of nowhere that castiel is living in a dead guy's body and the show just does not care. it does not care. jimmy novak might as well not exist the moment he or claire is out of sight. cas stole a guy's body and his face and his life, and we can't ever talk about it or discuss it in detail because of how fucking horrifying it is that sam and dean's best friend just walks around in a dead guy suit. there's not even a human soul in there anymore. it's just a corpse. stone-cold body snatcher indeed.

#castiel spn #spn #this is not like a Castiel Crime (tm) to be clear. this is more me being (un)surprised that the show is Like This.#castiel is a horror story he is so much a horror story in the rapture #and then they just uh. never bring up again how horrifying and fucked up this is for another like 7 seasons #and when they do its to briefly go :( claire lost her dad :) but its okay! she forgives cas for it!#which!! NO SHE SHOULD FUCKING NOT!!!#but we can't have that discussion. we can't talk about that. because to acknowledge that it's fucked up would mean making cas kind of. evil #in a way that would vastly improve his later character arcs btw. if we had to reckon with not only this massive transgression #but with the fact that cas himself STILL DOESN'T SEE IT AS ONE.#that on a lot of fundamental levels. he is still functioning as he did in s4. a lot of that base programming is still there.#something something how cas never changes out of his suit under his trenchcoat #but it's like. jimmy said yes. so it's fine. that's what it is to him.#anyway. i wish they hadn't been scared of making all three of the boys more fucked up in later seasons.#thank GOD for dean being interesting in how he becomes Worse <3 because they were not bringing that for castiel.#again. good version of spn where jimmy's bloodline is an off-shoot of the lucifer vessel bloodline. explaining a) how lucifer Got In There #and b) letting lucifer possess claire later so that the two of them can have daddy issues together.#something about cas being the monster-not monster that jimmy let in that destroyed his life.#something about lucifer being the monster-not monster that castiel lets in later. the cycles. they are cycling.

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iicaru2 · 3 months

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people who find ascended astarion hot and not absolutely devastating frighten me. ive ascended him exactly once (for my origin gale run where the goal is to let them both ascend and be ambitious power hungry vaguely evil boyfriends) and that was enough for me to decide i am Never doing that again

#like sure i find some of the Lines hot but thats because hes played by neil newbon. what do u want from me #its everything else that hurts me #the concept the cycle of abuse continuing the way his delivery in his lines changes the #aaaghh aaughhhh #astarion is such a personal character to me for so many reasons. this fucking hurt #something something becoming your abuser so that no one can ever hurt you again #cannot do that again. my origin astarion playthrough is not ascending anymore thank you #my feelings are hurt my day is ruined etc #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 astarion #baldur's gate astarion #astarion #astarion ancunin #ascended astarion #bloodweave

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atlabeth · 10 months

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ascended astarion fans scare me ngl

#like i appreciate the character and especially neil’s performance bc he does so well #making spawn and ascended so different #and i have no problem with people that like the character #but the ones that are hopped up on copium that insist that it’s NOT the bad ending for him?? that it doesn’t repeat the cycle of abuse??#and insist that he sees tav as an equal when the whole point is that he sees them as lesser than #you’re not his partner you’re his CONSORT you’re a treasure a possession for him to enjoy #he literally says your future is his to decide because the tadpoles are gone he can control you to do whatever he wants #he’s meant to become tav’s cazador; literally says NOT AGAIN when tav asks about freedom #acting like because he’s treating you better than cazador treated him there’s no problem at all but a gilded cage is still a cage #like enjoy ascended astarion all you want just don’t try and ignore everything around it that isn’t “hot sexy vampire lord jfc #anyways rant over #anti ascended astarion

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eisthenameofme · 3 months

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love when it gets to the point of The Discourse where i feel the need to key word search otherwise chill people's blogs for rampant bigotry before following them. Like this isn't exactly what happened with 'ace discourse'

#this is about transandrophobia by the way #i'm not even a trans man per se but it's not like that matters to these idiots.#hm. interesting. almost like bigotry can still affect you and surpass personal identity or something.#this inspired by Surprise Transandrophobia from someone i previously followed #at which point i was forcibly reminded of how much that happened during the hight of Ace Discourse #before i started checking ahead of time. it was easier to keywordsearch 'ace' or 'aro' though #because now it's like 'trans' 'gender' 'masc' because a lot of times they won't include specifically the word transandrophobia #but you can't just use what they say about trans people as a whole because they're not actually talking about all of us lmao #the one good thing about how similar it is is that it heavily implies it's another one of these cycles #that will pass eventually where people are abjectly pathetic about one type of #queer person for a while and then it becomes unfashionable again #the bad thing about that is it means they're just going to circle around to someone else.#And none of them will ever learn anything apparently. Get A Fucking Grip challenge #anyway if you ever see me pulling this shit about any type of queer person you have full permission to just kill me with a hammer #like can you Imagine. we are Not doing that. it would be kinder. kill that thing.#mypost

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aingeal98 · 5 months

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Thought about Daisy Johnson too long again. 7 dead 5 injured.

#aos rambles #it's the way she “hardens” over the seasons without losing her kindness and empathy #she grows tougher sure but she doesn't change. she just doesn't fall for the same thing twice. she grows #there was a post on here about how choosing to be kind isn't always a virtue especially when paired with naiveness.#and how it ties into abusive cycles and the emotional labour women are expected to perform #and i feel like that's an aspect about daisy I love #she's never going to stop fighting for the random innocent strangers she meets every day #but at the same time if you hurt her and betray her she's not going to forgive you. she might not be ready to kill you at first #but if you keep pushing she will just shoot you. and i appreciate that.#she's so tired. and so traumatized. and miraculously so grounded despite that all #and the world keeps on using her and using her and breaking her down and she fights back without ever becoming like her enemies #she's not going to start killing civilians just because her lover was secretly a nazi.#what she IS going to do is shoot that nazi in the chest several times after he kidnaps her AGAIN #and then of course there's the self destructive tragedy. she won't let the world break her and she won't hurt innocents.#because the only one allowed to break Daisy is Daisy. The only innocent she will hurt is herself

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apollos-boyfriend · 9 months

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honestly i joke about my schlarklez being toxic yaoi but like. with the exception of some college shenanigans + the Initial Adam Incident they’re like. barely even anything. at best they’re a 1 on the toxic yaoi scale. they’re more annoyances than anything which is Not healthy but in the grand scale of things could be much worse. my REAL toxic yaoi is in my majorcaptain bullshit that i never post about but think about every fucking day

#icarus speaks #referring to the cosmicverse stuff w stella here #it takes. a VERY long time for those two to become normal about things #probably only even kicking in when stella’s in her like. mid to late teens #short version of it is that. to no one’s surprise. being gifted a bandaid child does not help your issues #stella’s presence worsens scott’s perception of himself/role in the server #bc he’s just getting tied in with jordan again. it’s nothing but a punch to the gut #and he does try to not let that show in front of stella but. it’s hard sometimes #and ofc jordan’s oblivious bc for a LONG time scott doesn’t share his feelings #so he continues to be his peppy and hero-worshipping self to scott #worsening the cycle even further #it is. Not Good over there !#stella spends. so much of her childhood with aunt shubble

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the-girl-with-too-many-ideas · 5 months

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Does anyone else get the feeling that at their core, all of mxtx's works are about cycles of abuses.

#idea dump #ramblings of a sleep deprived girl #heaven official's blessing #tian guan ci fu #scum villian self saving system #mao dao zu shi #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #mxtx #mo xiang tong xiu #cycle of abuse #I don't only mean the passing down of trauma #I also mean the abuses of an established corrupt system #that systematically hurts people that are less fortunate than those who actively benefit from it #to me this one is more prevalent in mdzs and why jin guangyao downfall is so upsetting to me #because he was coming close to breaking the cycle of abuse of both the system and of his family #but unfortunately it was his past actions in service of perpetuating it that doomed him #if he had realized a lot sooner that his father was not worth it #and started pursuing his own interests from the beginning instead of his father's approval he could have changed everything for the better #not to mention that unlike his father he actually treats his spouse with respect and doesn't intentionally hurt her #emphasis on the 'intentional' part (if you know you know)#just like Jin Guangyao became the new wei wuxian Nie Huaisang became the new Jin Guangyao #so i'm of the firm belief that since the system is still in place the cycle will repeat again #and Nie Huaisang will replace Wei Wuxian as someone else becomes his Jin Guangyao #sorry for this long ass essay in the tags lol #it's 3am so I'll probably do the other two another time #also let it be known that I'm only running on spoilers/fanfictions/wiki when it comes to svsss and mdzs #so if anyone bothers to read my essay tags be free to correct anything if I get something wrong #side note why wasn't mdzs about breaking cycles???#why didn't yanli become sect leader. Jiang cheng remain coreless. or Jin Zixuan marry into the Jiangs to show worth outside the norms #you can be a strong woman without being cruel. cultivation doesn't equal worth. and powerful women are beautiful and should be respected

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taegularities · 11 months

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will probably delete bc nobody might see lol

#but it hurts how lonely life's become #it's a constant cycle of feeling like nobody's around and letting nobody close to me #i have this fear that i might just annoy people if i try to inch closer #or that i might get hurt (again) if i let ppl in too much #i try with kindness and love and patience every day but lately ive had so much anger and sadness in me #and feeling alone sucks and hurts so fkn much #looking around and feeling like the world's empty.. irl and virtually too #or feeling like no one cares or like? feeling unloved even?#a lot of fears are irrational anyway and just in our minds but god.. loneliness drains you thoroughly #just wanna make friends without feeling like everyone hates me sigh

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twentyonefirstmates · 5 months

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Guys. Guys we need to talk about the drown/chlorine/backslide parallels. We have to talk about it. I don't have time to make a full analysis right now but just think about it. Think about it Guys. Think about it

#enough about the car theme lets talk about the drowning theme!#lets talk about the motif of getting up every time you fall and doing it over and over again #lets talk about the things you turn to to heal yourself becoming things that pull you back into the cycle #lets talk about the guilt of coming back to someone for help when youve turned away from them #guys we have to talk about it #uuuhfhfhfhfhfh fuck #tyler stop it #tyler let me give you a hug #please tyler you need a hug so bad #twenty one pilots #tyler joseph #josh dun

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grimgummies · 10 months

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Sudden urge to drop off the face of the Earth (have zero online presence) and just focus on my art and myself then suddenly come back like nothin happened but now my art looks super different and I'm prolly mentally better too

#Grim rambles #I just know this is one of my weird phases. I cannot for the life of me have a total lack of presence #I still want to talk to ppl :(#I love interacting with ppls posts #but the break from posting art for an undisclosed amount of time just to focus on myself and find the simple joy in creating again sounds..#super appealing #my mood fluctuates constantly between loving and hating posting my stuff #like I love showing my stuff because people seem to enjoy it!#and I love showing my ideas and sharing creativity in a community of people with similar interests #but at the same time I feel like it has taken away what made art enjoyable for me as a kid #and that was creating simply because it was fun #now I feel like I kinda sucked the fun outta it #and I oughta take my own advice and return to my roots #I keep telling fellow artists time and time again to focus on themselves #not worry about an audience #just experience the simple joy of creating again #yet fail to take my own advice #it's like a vicious cycle I can't escape #it's almost become routine #and once you make a routine it's hard to break it #once I get a few things done I'll see what I can do #I just need to get into that mindset of 'I don't have to post my art I can just create to have fun'

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casualhedonists · 8 months

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DATING IS SO HARD WTF

#vent to follow in the tags lmao #like. what????#people!!! chill the fuck out!!#i had some dude unmatch with me bc i didn’t respond to him YESTERDAY #and like it’s not that big of a deal we’d only just matched but like?? patience is a fucking virtue?? and i have a life?#he was all like come back :((( then two minutes later he was like ok sorry for bothering you bye and then LEFT #like. fine if you do that but the message?? what??#anyway it came at a bad time bc. a bitch is already in crisis rn #cause i kinda feel like my irl friends hate me for some reason and i already feel bad that i’ve been so busy i’ve not been able to #talk to them that much #and i was supposed to go on a trip with my friend but that’s been postponed (not her fault or mine)#and my car still won’t start. we tried to jump it today and it didn’t do anything #anyway i’m like rapid cycling through major emotions and it’s like mimi chill the fuck out #and listening to way too much phoebe bridgers i know the end #also i’m in crisis bc i’ve made up with like. my oldest friend who used to have a crush on me and when i told him i preferred girls he like #stopped talking to me for a while #that was years ago and now we’re slowly becoming friends again but i feel so much guilt over it for no reason #and i get into avoidant episodes as a coping mechanism and like. i feel like im going into one atp #okay okay vent over im okay lmaoo #sorry folks hope your days going better than mine <3 #｡･:*˚:✧｡ mimi speaks!

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hellhoundlair · 2 years

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okay but sam after dean dies really can NEVER go home :(

#thinking abt post finale sam being fucked up after everything that happened and him going thru with having an apple pie life and whatever #but he can never truly get over it and everyone can tell #and it becomes a whole thing. the most innocuous things will make him stop and think of dean and mourn again #and when he names his son dean jr everyone who knows is like ... 😬 are you sure about that name #and he project onto that kid SOOO MUCH and hes a good dad and hes patient and caring with him #but he also relies on him so much emotionally without realising it #he pulls a lot of ''its you and me against the world'' and ''youre the only person i can trust with this information'' type shit #without fully realising what hes doing. like thats his dean Reborn Baby doll and thats what he was like with dean so whats the problem #i also just like the idea of sam just being a. a good dad who doesnt do that. but i think the long con of thinking sams going to be the #normal one who breaks the cycle and ends up repeating it in such a specacular and emotionally manipulative fashion is also fun

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fettery-fetterie · 5 months

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Wouldn't it be fucked up if peka was just a hlev from another universe who never truly escaped development hell and decided to start anew and prosper on another world.

Wouldn't it be fucked up if he was jealous of this hlev's life. One where he can go around and just live and love and laugh and fuck around find out with no restrictions of what he can or can't do by external forces

Wouldn't it be fucked up if he was deeply saddened at how this could've been the life he would've had, yet that was never given to him

Wouldn't it be fucked up if he realized that, whoever was above him didn't put him through hell out of maliciousness - rather because they couldn't make up their mind on what to do, and feel anger towards that? It would've hurt so much less if they did it intentionally. But no, no, they couldn't do anything. Nothing.

And yet to see the same person showing misericorde to him and letting a version of himself To Be. To see it could've worked, to see they had all the chances and ideas and power and everything on their hands. Yet hey couldn't do anything at the end

And yet to feel this strange (unwanted) sense of understanding, sickening sympathy. And defeat

Would that be fucked up or what

#perceptive little crow #the game got so lighthearted this will never happen but whatever. it's whatever #anyways I don't think it'd give him a change of heart. I don't think he would be able to do so #he'd be stuck on this self-fulfilling tragedy of never truly “seeing the sun” and being released. by trying to start anew again and again #he'd try fulfill himself with money as that's what “he was meant to do” without realizing that core aspect of him is holding him back #on actually becoming a full character. worth of being seen and worth giving the chance to see the light of day #i feel he just would give up on this specific world and move to another one #repeat the cycle #anyways whatever im talking nonsense what is never gonna happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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bonebrokebuddy · 7 months

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Aw man, just reread my document I wrote on my speculation on how the metagene works & how modern DC could rewrite it to being a result of retroviruses & transposons and man, I really wish I finished that post.

Unfortunately, the reason I stopped was explaining it all down to the point where someone with little genetic knowledge could still understand it proved to be too lengthy and long winded of a task.

Maybe one day I’ll pour myself back into research & finish that speculative paper. Bc I had a whole fun idea that relied on that background information that was about the Daily Planet reporting on the discovery of an entire city of metas with similar meta abilities. The town faced such high levels of radiation and contamination, only the population with the meta gene survived:(

#The meta ability was just super perfect cell replication.#No changes outward. They appear perfectly normal #to be clear. ppl still age. the power is just that their cells are super good at replicating the way they’re meant to #Zero chance of tumors or damaged DNA due to the radiation because their meta ability just resumes them to their previous state.#the city blows up afterward in the news cycle due to people trying to go there so they don’t die from cancer.#and don’t have a risk of cancer BUT THE CITY IS STILL IRRADIATED AS HELL AND THE PPL THAT ENTER CANNOT LEAVE #DUE TO THEM BECOMING SO RADIOACTIVE THEYRE A HAZARD TO BE CLOSE TO WITHOUT PPE #i just thought it was such a fun idea and me being me I overthink the shit outta things & made it super long and overcomplicated #because I wanted people to also learn what retroviruses & transposons were bc they’re cool as hell #and by the time I wrote 5K words on it #I didn’t want to take the shortcut and just embed other ppl’s videos explaining it bc I had already put too much effort into it #for me to delete that research #bones speaks #the cause? the city was built ontop a large kryptonite meteor.#and someone (cough cough LexCorp. but no one actually has enough legal proof to say it’s them)#and when it’s investigated. it appears that someone (cough cough LexCorp. there’s not any legal proof that can pin it on them.#so lexcorp once again escapes scott free without evidence of villany)#has been digging tunnels under the city and excavating it. the excavation not following proper mining protocols caused the city’s ground #and water supply to become extremely irradiated to the point where it’s like when ppl were just eating & drinking uranium products.#actually imma stop myself here & make this it’s own post #anyways. the radioactive bit gets figured out due to the poorly constructed tunnels collapsing and the city conducting an investigation #leading to a ‘oh shit. the Geiger counter is saying this sinkhole is Super radioactive.’#to ‘HOLY SHIT THATS THE ENTIRE TOWN’#to ‘wait fuck how are we still alive? to ‘a weirdly high percentage of folks in the town had metagenes so not a super significant amount #of ppl has died from abnormal lookin cancer.’ to ‘oh my god everyone that doesn’t have the meta gene here is slowly dying get them Out Now’#bones writes in the tags #anyways. that’s kinda the story #I’ll rewrite the tags into a proper post and see if I can revise it so my paper isn’t needed to make some plot points work #bc it’s a Far simpler explanation than the one I wrote in the doc so I’ll base it off of this version instead

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