#to chop or not to chop

[stealingpotatoes]

my cat still doesn't get that we have different definitions of 'acceptable breakfast time'

[theborzoiarebackintown]

When you wet down a borzoi they scrunch up like a paper straw wrapper

[stantanly]

[reilinell]

[glorianas]

a lot of YA and fantasy stuff has always been a little cringe and silly but at least it used to be cringe from the heart instead of designed in a lab to get teens on tiktok to use a certain sentence from it

[snifsnoof]

"the birth of the red king", 2021 colorized

[amberluvsbugs]

Official new years count-down illustrations I did for mob :D

[hismercytomyjustice]

I am exactly two days away from deciding whether or not to cut off all of my hair again.

Right now it’s maybe 1-2” past my shoulders and has been hovering there for several years now. This is pretty much the longest my hair has ever been.

I only managed to grow it out this far in the first place after making my stylist at the time promise to refuse to let me cut it all off again before my wedding back in 2019 lol. She took that vow very seriously to the point of swearing other stylists into our pact when she became unavailable.

I’ve been toying with the idea of going back to a pixie cut for a while. I’ve had an undercut for a few years now (thank god because I would’ve cut it all off my damn self otherwise).

I got out of the shower the other day and my hair was brushing across my shoulders and the sheer feeling of “abso-fucking-lutely not” hit me like a ton of bricks.

I also live in the south and it is gonna be hot and humid and miserable until at least October/November and I am feeling weak.

I have a love hate relationship with my hair. It took me pretty much my entire lifetime to find products that didn’t leave me looking like I stuck my finger in an outlet. I have 3a curly hair that is extremely prone to frizz, especially in this ever-present humidity. I’ve always been self-conscious about my hair because of negative comments other people have made. Probably can throw a dash of gender dysphoria in there too! Yay!

Tho my hair is probably also the reason I got mistaken for a guy a lot back as a teenager/young adult. Which always confused me but not in a terrible way. Most girls my age straightened their hair while guys had their hair on the longer side and not straightened.

I didn’t realize all the super uncomfortable and awkward feelings I was having about stuff like my hair and womanhood were gender dysphoria until I was much older. I struggled so much with femininity because I always felt like I was badly faking it and surely everyone knew I was faking it. Everyone had to know something was not right, didn’t they?

I didn’t even know there was a word for “not a boy but also not a girl” until maybe 2017/2018ish? I’m glad I found out then because getting married as a female presenting southerner was wildly fraught with gender panic.

I was became jealous of Haruhi from Ouran High School Host Club in my late teens/early twenties because she didn’t give two shits if someone thought she was a boy or a girl and also unapologetically gravitated toward more masculine presentation. I was very much of the “must be nice” mindset without understanding why until embarrassingly later.

That’s actually why I gravitate toward her when selecting profile icons, even if I run the risk of coming across as an “anime profile picture” deviant. Tho idk if that’s as much of a thing on tumblr? I am old and out of touch after migrating to Twitter for almost a decade and back again. I don’t even remember what my original tumblr handle was. I’m pretty sure the one I have listed on my older works on ao3 wasn’t my first. But I digress.

I realized there was something “wrong” with my sexuality around the same time as I realized it with my gender. I was comfortable enough with the label bi/pan (didn’t realize this until college) but I also couldn’t figure out if I was ace. Turns out there was a word to describe that too! Demisexual! So gray ace, heavy on the ace!

I’m incredibly grateful to all the folks out there who have shared their own experiences with gender and sexuality and have broadened my vocabulary and understanding in that regard. It’s such an utter relief to know you’re not “wrong” or “weird” and that there are other people out there like you who feel the same way. The trans community in particular has been a godsend on this fronts.

I waffle back and forth over whether or not I fit under the trans umbrella. I know a lot of nonbinary folks do and I don’t mind stepping under it if someone offers it to me, but I also don’t know if I feel confident enough to use the label for myself. Confident as in “am I nonbinary enough to be considered trans,” which is definitely a personal thing on my part and also an OCD spiral slide that’s trying to trick me into jumping on.

Who knows!

Plus all the super fun “now I know I’m neurodivergent but am I autistic” stuff I’ve been going through the past year or two. I got a *big shrug* on that front when I was formally tested a few months ago. My therapist (who specializes in OCD and not in autism) says she’s pretty confident I am. So did the woman who gave me the adhd/autism assessment, tho she didn’t get the final say in my actual diagnosis. I’m pretty confident I would’ve gotten it if she had.

The issue is that, while autistic traits seem to be hardcore showing up in my work life, they aren’t as obvious elsewhere. This may very well be because my current job is the only fully virtual job I’ve ever had and wow it’s hard to interpret social cues and whatnot when everyone is virtual!

I’ve been at my current job just shy of 2 years now and I’ve met my coworkers in person exactly one time at a big org wide event in New Orleans last year. We’re actually scheduled to all meet in person again in June, this time just the 17 of us that roll up to our director (instead of the ~1k or so people in our greater org). We’re gonna be in NYC too.

I’m wildly exhausted just thinking about it! 💀

This post also got super out of hand, but it is what it is. Yay, feelings!

[mediamime]

beating off crippling depression the only way I know how ✨

It’s unfinished with a chunky brush because I’m chasing a vision beyond my capabilities 🫠

Lyric is from Holy War by Rainbow Kitten Surprise.

I add/subtract from my playlists a lot because sometimes I experience A Thought and need to act on it, but if you like my particular brand of suffering in music form, here:

Unrelated, but those of you that have sent me asks in the last few weeks I’ll get back to you soon - just haven’t had much willpower to do Anything lately.

That’s all, have a nice day, bye 🐸

[hiwelcometothemonstersancturary]

Alternative ending for the game - instead of killing almost everyone, Angel is able to save all of them, bringing them outside. Authorities arrive soon after, and Angel drags all the toys to a nearby hospital in order to patch them up.

It's found family time.

[dovewingkinnie]

dr sawyers pets

[nnobodoodles]

Huh.

So I randomly remembered Croc is pretty much Italian.

[pinkravat-art]

i cannot keep my identity secret anymore. I am harrier du bois

[green-tea-456]

Im too lazy to draw smth so have a meme

[hxney-lemcn]

Kiss me Silly — Mr. Crawling, Gap, Silvair, Chopped, Hugeface, and Scarletella x gn! reader

summery: kisses with some of the Homicipher boys.

tw: slight unrequited feelings (I mean it's in the game).

wc: 1.2k (~200 per character)

Master List

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Mr. Crawling

❥Your first kiss is confusing to say the least. Mr. Crawling doesn’t know what your talking about and you try your best to explain what a kiss is and why you do it. “We touch lip” “Only someone you many like”. He doesn’t fully understand it, but you seem to like pressing your lips together, and he honestly finds himself liking it too. Any excuse to touch you is worth it in his eyes, and he finds himself wanting to do it again and again.

❥Thankfully, Mr. Crawling is a fast learner, and kisses go from sloppy to coherent quickly. Tugging at your clothes and chirping cutely in such a way you can’t say no. Kiss his lips, his forehead, cheeks, nose, he doesn’t care, he just wants your affection and you’ve open him to a whole new world.

❥Will give you kisses in return. In fact, it’s become a fifty fifty whether you get a kiss or head pats in comfort. When I say kiss I mean forehead kisses, he just finds it so comforting. If you’re really lucky he’ll pat your head and give you a kiss.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Mr. Gap

❥No. Sorry, but Mr. Gap isn’t a fan of any kind of affection. He barely understands the concept of liking someone! Though…you are strange. He likes messing with you, grinning devilishly every time he asks for your heart. He hasn’t had this kind of entertainment for a long time. Mr. Gap can’t deny he’s curious about those magazines you read. Why do humans do such strange things with each other?

❥After enough time, his curiosity beats his apprehension, agreeing to allow you to show ONE sign of affection. Just one though, and not for long. Tries his hardest to not back away when your face inches closer, watching you wearily as you press your lips to his. It’s weird, and uncomfortable, and his cold skin feels oddly warm. Disappears the second you pull away. 

❥Safe to say that kisses are far and few in between. Mr. Gap has a weird relationship with the sign of affection (or any). He feels awkward and doesn’t like how strange (vulnerable) it makes him feel, but on the other hand he has you try again, and he’s not sure why. Doesn’t want to dissect why (it’s cus you only do it with him and makes him feel special).

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Mr. Silvair

❥Hahaha. He’s confused. He doesn’t understand your strange human emotions nor your fondness. You’re his test subject, and he takes some time to ponder over your offer. His scientist mindset takes over, thinks of the whole situation like a test. Sorry :/

❥Doesn’t move when you kiss him. To be fair he doesn’t know what a kiss entails, lets you take the lead. He’s confused when you pull away with a frown, your nerves clear.,,interesting. Notes the way you act in a file in his mind to go through later, your mannerisms are just the most intriguing. You have to teach him how to kiss first, he’s willing to go along with your whims as long as you don’t expect too much from the interaction.

❥Strangly, over time he finds himself expecting your affections. Cheek kisses, lip kisses, its an odd slice of domecity. He comes back from his research and you’ll greet him with a small kiss. If you forget he gets a strange hollow feeling…very strange. Will watch you until you realize he’s waiting for a greeting kiss, that nasty feeling leaving the second your warm lips land on his own. How very strange…

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Mr. Chopped

❥Looks at you weirdly. Why would you want to touch your lips to his? He doesn’t get it. Says no at first, but over time his curiosity gets the best of him. Demands that you pick him up and touch your lips together. Wants to know why you even asked. Gets a strange fluttery feeling (even though he doesn’t have a body) and finds the action oddly enticing. Demands you do it again the second you pull away, a grin stretching from ear to ear. 

❥You can only kiss him on his terms, but more often than not he’s demanding you for one. Always gets a giant dopy grin afterwards, basking in your warmth. He’s on top of the world when you shower him with affection. Leave kisses all over his face. Do it. Mr. Chopped will become a giggly mess.

❥Get’s a bit insecure that he can’t kiss you without help. He wishes he could just kiss you when he wanted instead of asking you to pick him up. But those thoughts are quickly squashed when you brighten up at seeing him, placing a quick kiss to his cheek. If he’s sleeping on the otherhand…don’t do it, no matter how cute he looks, he hate surprises, even if it’s just you.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Mr. Hugeface

❥Uhm…I’m sorry to say but I’m not sure this is possible. Well, it could be if you tried hard enough. Mr. Hugeface has no idea what you’re yapping on about, you have to walk him through the steps (like bringing you close enough to his face). He’s giggling to himself as he strains to see you leaning your little head closer to his bigger one. 

❥Placing your lips to his is a difficult task when he finds himself grinning so widely at how cute you are. Can’t get enough of your kisses. Tries to kiss you back…at least he doesn’t accidentally eat you? Unfortunately, this sign of affection is a one way street, but hey! Mr. Hugeface can’t say no when you want to kiss him, it feels like little tickles.

❥Instead, Mr. Hugeface will pat your head with a finger (🙏 he tries his hardest to not squish you). Always coos at you, calling you cute over and over. Can you blame him? He’s so happy that a small little human is showing him affection! Sometimes he just wants to squish you! But he won’t…I swear, cus then he won’t be able to get any more kisses :( 

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Mr. Scarletella

❥Oh boy. This guy… Won’t hesitate to do what you ask. Sure, he doesn’t understand what you’re talking about exactly or why you’d want to do such a thing, but who was he to question you? Leans down and watches you expectantly as your face inches closer, static thrumming inside his ears from excitement. Mr. Scarletella can’t deny how exciting it is to be so close to you.

❥Completely hooked the second your lips meet, his creepy grin spreading so wide it nearly breaks your kiss. I hope you’re happy, you now have a demon already at your beck and call ready to end the world if you promise him a kiss…well I guess he’d do that anyways if it made you happy. Notices that if he does things you like you kiss him more. Becomes a Pavlov’s dog situation. 

❥As boundary breaking and homicidal as Mr. Scarletella was, he won’t kiss you first. It would be wrong, you call the shots, not him, so don’t expect him to start anything. Watches you like a demonic puppy dog when he wants a kiss (all the time). Just…be a bit careful with this newfound power, Mr. Scarletella won’t take too kindly if you deny him what he wants (just a bit of a red flag…just a bit…).