#tools are tools and they are not inherently bad

[chasing-rabbits]

I think any personality disorder suggests to the person diagnosed that there is something inherently wrong with them, whether or not that disorder is associated as bad person disorder or not. Also from someone with BPD which is also often seen as bad person disorder to the point I see many people arm chair diagnosing their abusers as having BPD for the mere fact that they are abusive. I have other dxs but BPD is the only one that at one point made me feel like there was something wrong in who I was as a person that the way I felt was so intertwined with who I was that there was no degree of separation that existed unlike my Bipolar and other disorders. I would describe it as Bipolar is something that happened to me, there's a clear distinction between me & my Bipolar. Bipolar has had a massive impact on my life, on my development as a person and has absolutely guided me in large life decisions and it has to a degree had an impact on my hobbies likes interests things that do make up who I am. But at the same time I can still to a degree separate out the Bipolar from me. That is to say I wouldnt be who I am today without my Bipolar its not to deny its large impacts on my life overall BUT yet there is still a degree of separation that I dont feel with my BPD. Those things happened because of my Bipolar but I don't feel it's so fundamental that I would cease to exist without it. I once saw an article I say article but it was written up by a researcher or something iirc that talked about viewing BPD from a similar lens as autism. And honestly this helped changed my whole perspective & it just fit it lined up so many things & made so much sense & clarity BUT not in a bad light. It no longer made me feel like there was something inherently wrong with me but it didn't try to deny that BPD is as much a part of me as Autism is to an Autistic person. It is not the same as Bipolar & whilst its not entirely the same as Autism it definitely felt closer than how my other dxs were viewed & defined. There's no way to reconcile that it isn't an inherent part of me so constantly being told BPD makes me horrible makes me feel like I am horrible to the core and there's no hope unlike w/ Bipolar or any other disorder with degrees of separation. And to be clear I wasnt even a horrible person but then we get back to the original point of peoples stigmatising views & lack of true understanding of disorders like BPD. Many people now view BPD as a trauma response/trauma based disorder & overwhelming evidence supports that with just over 2/3rds of us reporting childhood abuse/trauma/neglect. I also have a CPTSD dx & some want to see BPD as CPTSD & that bpd shouldnt exist at all. I see a clear difference in the disorders & like most want to see BPD reclassified as a trauma disorder but also believe that PD as a label is harmful for the same reasons OP has pointed out above. I'm not an abuser I have experienced childhood trauma/abuse & yet I am given no grace as a person whose experienced abuse but yet re traumatised by a system that throws ppl like me away & treated as if I am all things I experienced myself. I dont think these illnesses should necessarily disappear from existence for BPD specifically I dont want the disorder to be wiped as I do have what we call BPD but I want it to be reclassified based upon new emerging evidence & seen for what it is & treated accordingly. The diagnosis and the labelling of it is flawed but the symptoms are very real. It's become seen as a bad person disorder & idk if it was always seen as a bad person disorder but it is now & BPD is one of the most stigmatised disorders w/in the MH systems itself. Its a label that essentially gets you blacklisted, its a free pass to deny us treatment & get away w/ it. It's a wastebasket dx for some psychs. It's a tool of harm for others & then there are good ones who dx you bcos u have it but are unfortunately putting you into a box that puts you at risk but you need a dx to access treatment so its a lose lose.

On the question of ASPD and NPD I honestly wish the debate would be less about "you can have Bad Person Disorder without being a Bad Person actually" (true) and more so "why is there a Bad Person Disorder and what political purpose does it serve". Like the fact that we are literally and officially diagnosing people as Inherently Bad™️, usually due to trauma reactions, and treating them accordingly should elicit a lot more criticism than it does

[cryptic-forge]

what do you think about the hand sculpting VS digital sculpting debate and why do you choose to sculpt digitally ?

why pit two bad bitches against each other? claiming digital and traditional art are somehow inherently opposed makes no sense to me & sounds like boomers going "oh, so the computer does it for you?" back when digital 2d art was starting to become more common and accessible. the most important thing in sculpting is your concept & understanding of shape, and how you execute on those is up to preference. also maybe there are/will be younger people who have only done digital art, but if i think about people my age, we have all started traditionally and built the base of our skills there, and still do trad art as well -> the dichotomy makes even less sense.

as for why i sculpt digitally:

i don't sketch, so the sculpting phase is also the sketching phase. i love being able to change proportions effortlessly, and making multiple iterations of body parts.

when i have a project idea, i want to sculpt the rough shape of it immediately, and then leave it to a wip folder until i can get back to it. i have so many wips there's no way i could keep them traditionally.

the ability to start and stop whenever i want. unfinished parts won't dry, and on the other hand i don't need to wait for a thing to dry before i can add to it. autism brain loves setting its own schedule.

autism brain also hates clay caking on my hands. i do use tools, but i'm still very handsy with trad sculpting & up to my elbows in clay in 12 minutes.

the convenience of instant symmetry. when i've sculpted a good leg, i'm not really interested in doing it again in reverse.

taking finished parts out of the printer feels like getting a little gift.

[bookshelf-in-progress]

Now that I know more about writing, I'm upset at all the writing advice that urged new writers to find the one best way to write stories, when they should be telling us to play with writing techniques like toys.

Don't tell us to avoid certain points of view! Don't box us into the one currently popular prose style! Let us play and see what effects different techniques achieve, so we can learn the best ways to make use of them! Give us a whole ton of possibility instead of one cookie-cutter template!

[cybertron-after-dark]

Being constantly surrounded by the presence of a loving God sounds great until you realize you never know when his freaky fuckin eyes are gonna show up to check on you.

And man. They do it a LOT.

[hibernating-stag]

The way I read Robo-Ky is that he IS mostly as sophisticated of a machine as he describes himself as, he's built with everything he'd need to go toe to toe with the fighters he's supposed to collect data on. He's got programs to read vitals, all sorts of ranged and close quarters weaponry, several ways of replenishing power... he has got it all.

However. Robo-Ky is held back by Being A Little Stupid. It's endearing, but by God is he A Little Stupid.

[adobe-outdesign]

Are you pro-AI/chatgpt?

[taamlok]

amazing how i JUST said don't put lesbophobia on my dash challenge and then someone immediately did it lmaooo

[quietwingsinthesky]

Wait I just assumed you were ace because you had an ace pfp for forever and now that you don't I am realizing that maybe I made an incorrect assumption and should just ask.

I also thought you were aro from something you said or other and that I think was on firmer ground but maybe I'll double check that too.

My point is, aspec check?

(Because it is generally polite in these situations to answer the question as well, I'm aro, aplatonic, allosexual and allofamilial, but you probably already know that because I never shut up about it)

I do miss my ace flag... but the people voted for lesbian leonardo da vinci and i am nothing if not a vessel for the people. (also it was funny) (also probably going to swap back to ace flag again eventually when i have the time to edit another pic.)

anyway. yeah! I tend to just default to saying I'm somewhere on the aroace spectrum, cause getting into the granular details of it just sort of gets confusing even for myself, let alone whoever I'd try to explain it to. At the end of the day, all I'm really trying to explain is that there's a disconnect between me and societal expectations/ideals/desires of sex and romance. 'There's Something Weird Going On In There' with a vague gesture towards the aspec to try to explain it, if that makes sense.

[lord-squiggletits]

One of my least favorite parts of how JRO wrote Optimus is that he wanted so badly to continue his dark and gritty world building making the Autobots problematic, but evidently couldn't reconcile this with Optimus being a Heroic Paragon, so instead he leaned way too hard into "oh Prowl was the one who did this and it was behind Optimus' back" which if anything I think makes Optimus look worse, not better. Because then it's like, okay I know Optimus trusted Prowl a lot as his friend but you CANNOT TELL ME that over the course of 4 million years, Optimus as the leader of the Autobot army who literally would have access to 99.9% of all the records they produce, would never notice or question where some of these odd/inconsistent details were pointing. It just seems really inconsistent with how a real military would actually function, especially regarding Optimus' character, who is incredibly thorough and responsible and wouldn't neglect to keep up with all the details of his army.

Hell, Optimus knows who the Wreckers are and had them on call for tricky operations when he needed them (Stormbringer) so he's literally not at all ignorant of/averse to the use of special wartime units composed of dubious individuals. He's the fucking commander of an entire army, of course he knows that War Is Hell (TM) and no one's hands are clean. That's not even getting into all the stuff he got up to in phase 2/3, I mean everything from the annexation of Earth to OP breaking humans out of prison against Council orders shows that Optimus is no stranger to immoral and/or unlawful means.

It also leads to a lot of annoying fanon where people write Optimus (sometimes unintentionally, sometimes not) as like some sort of ignorant fool who's unaware of the machinations of his own army or has some sort of naiveté of "b-but we can't use bad tactics against the enemy! I would never condone the use of morally gray means in war!" No, IDW Optimus knows perfectly well all of the bullshit he's enacted/condoned for the sake of trying to win the war. Some stuff is definitely out of character for him and was only machinated because of Prowl, but I think this fandom REALLY underestimates Optimus' personal agency/responsibility as the commander of a whole ass army and ESPECIALLY underestimates Optimus' capacity to condone morally gray Bullshit Of War while still being a good person individually as well as, comparatively, the lesser evil compared to Megatron/the Decepticons.

Anyways what I'm saying is JRO may be a good writer but he's really hesitant to make Optimus morally gray and does some asspulls sometimes to justify most of the bad things the Autobots did as "Optimus just didn't know," and since the majority of the IDW1 fandom only reads JRO's stuff they go running with this premise of ignorant/uninformed Optimus when there's evidence elsewhere in canon to show that Optimus is, in fact, very highly aware of the bullshit he's allowed "for the greater good" and the only stuff he was "unaware of" was the stuff he would literally never agree to the ethics of, like bombing innocent neutrals disguised as Decepticons to get them to join the Autobots.

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

have i actually discussed neo and sonic's deal in the bad end au in detail i'm not sure. i mean like there’s more to it than just mutually consensual murder though that’s a big part of it. but like it’s specifically to stop her from hurting people for fun basically. neo's petrified of sonic bc he's someone she can’t kill and that's the one thing she’s good at but that’s not something that applies to, like, the rest of the world. but she really really wants to kill him and make him suffer more than anyone else. so the deal is basically that she can do fucked up evil torture murder attempts on him (bc he's bored and doesn’t really mind) all she wants if she doesn’t do that to other people for fun. and also on a level deeper than the literal text it kinda just gives them an excuse to hang out and play final fantasy together and they’re extremely lonely fourteen year olds.

[falins-dragon-meat]

Nothing will make you hate all licensed medical professionals like spending 5 minutes In a lunch line with them

[honeysweetcorvidae]

hm.

[epicdogymoment]

honestly i dont care about the sanctity of human art (as opposed to ai art or any other kind of Fake Art). the idea of human art as a pure and holy expression of an Artists inner self. because. it can be. it sure can be that. but it also can be Not That. its just one of the infinite purposes that people have to make art. and from an outside perspective it is literally, truly impossible for you to tell whether it is or not. + why does using one specific tool (as opposed to all other tools that supposed Real Artists use) to create an image make it Not Real? at what level of human involvement does the Soul enter the art?

[vampiremourning]

anyway as soon as i pry myself off this couch im gonna share some screenshots of bg3 protags on my sideblog. just gotta like. reach the desk first.

[seafoam-taide]

my freak wife

[lord-squiggletits]

Between TF and my other fandoms like BG3 and TES, I keep finding myself making OCs that have some element of "battle hardened hero who is actually good and righteous, but so traumatized by the toll of war that even after the war ends they feel empty/wrecked and can't enjoy the fruits of victory" and I'm not sure if it's bc I gravitate to a certain type of media where such OCs fit in best, or bc I have a specific character archetype I like and gravitate towards media that contains those things.