#top surgery surprise

[cameron-artist]

I had top surgery yesterday!!

The most unexpected thing so far is how hard it is to stand up and sit down by myself.

[tmasc420]

so i got sterilized recently and had top surgery in 2020. the difference between those two experiences in relation to talking to medical staff was striking. like i come from a small town and got my salpingectomy here instead of the bigger city i traveled to for top surgery. When i went to get top surgery in the cosmetic surgery center i felt really out of place. I got misgendered by nurses despite obviously passing as male. Everyone seemed to not know how to handle me being trans and having a surgery.

So due to this i was dreading getting my tubes out because getting surgery done in a small town and being a male getting "female reproductive organs" worked on is notoriously not usually nice for us. But i was actually wrong. My surgeon was really chill with me. Everyone seemed competent or at least nice about questions. The hospital secretary guy i called to schedule surgery was super nice. he told me that he was glad i can do what i need to do and that he has a trans nephew like me. Everyone working on me was really considerate. I was kind of taken aback. For years, doctors offices and hospitals have been extreme points of anxiety for me since transitioning. But now was the first time that people in that field treated me well while knowing im trans. So i dont know how well this translated to other peoples recent surgery experiences but i feel like doctors have gotten better at treating us over time. Maybe its more exposure or more DEI but im glad it actually made a difference. It makes me more hopeful.

[scoops-stevie-archive]

"dad?"

eddie looks up from his book at where his daughter is standing in the doorway to his bedroom. it's late in the evening, a little past ten. she's already dressed for bed; one of eddie's old anthrax t-shirts and pajama pants.

the look on her face and the way she's using the door frame to hide herself tells eddie there's something wrong.

"you alright, sweetheart?" he asks, setting aside his book and patting the space beside him. she immediately goes, crawling in next to him like she's still seven years old and not almost seventeen. jesus, eddie thinks, his little girl is growing up right before his eyes and he can't do a damn thing to stop it. she curls into his side and rests her head on his shoulder.

she's quiet, which isn't out of the norm for her, but she's clutching onto the front of his shirt like a lifeline. eddie combs his fingers through her curly hair and smiles as he feels her slowly relax.

"you wanna talk about it?" he asks softly, kissing the top of her head.

more silence.

"when..." her voice is small as she speaks, nervous as she takes a shaky breath. "when did you realize you were different?"

the question surprises him. it doesn't take a genius to figure out what she means. when she was born, eddie vowed never to keep any secrets from her, including the ones that could be considered confusing for a four year old kid asking why she didn't have a mom like the other kids in her class.

still, he needs to be sure so he can quell the curiosity growing in his chest.

"different as in...?"

she huffs and rolls her eyes, not unkindly, and puffs out her cheeks, not meeting his gentle gaze. "when did you realize you were trans?"

oh.

eddie's eyes widen. he feels like a cold bucket of water was just dumped on him. his brain kind of shuts off for a few seconds because that definitely wasn't the question he was expecting. he clears his throat and shifts slightly.

"well..." he starts, thinking back. "i was around your age, i think. maybe a little older. why? is that something you're thinking about, maybe, exploring?"

he looks down at her and his heart breaks at the tears welling in her eyes. "hey, look at me." he cups her cheek and turns her face toward him. her bottom lip wobbles as she finally looks at him, her green meeting his brown.

he holds her face in both hands like she's the most precious thing in the world. "you know you can talk to me, right? about anything, especially about this." he waits for her nod. "and you know that there is nothing in this world, and i mean nothing, that will make me love you any less, you hear me?"

he thumbs away the tears that stain her cheeks and he's not far behind, himself.

she sniffles and takes a sharp inhale, her eyes still wet and her voice unsteady, "i think...i think i might be a boy."

a fierceness alights in eddie like he hasn't felt in a long time. he beams down at her proudly. "okay. what do you want to do about it?"

she frowns. "i...i don't know yet."

"that's alright," he tells her. "sometimes just putting a name to the feeling is enough for that moment. but when you're ready, i'll be here to help you figure it out."

that brings on a new wave of tears from the both of him and they laugh as they wipe away each other's tears. they settle down into bed, the unspoken agreement that she's bunking with him tonight like she used to when she was little.

just before he shuts off the light, she says quietly from where she's burrowed under the blankets, "i love you, dad."

eddie kisses the top of her head and lays down beside her. "i love you, too, baby."

[venacoeurva]

I forgot hero forge existed, I made a Wren

[puppyeared]

Fanboy

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

have ae ever told you all that aba ‘therapy’ essentially pavloved us into hating uno cause they’d make us play it every single time we were there

cause it turns out that if you’re stuck in a place you hate with people you hate and they’re making you do things you hate because obviously THEIR interpretations are the correct ones and the fact that you thought otherwise is just cause you’re autistic (and that’s all you are to us and that’s all you ever will be) and you’re here so we can teach you how to mask better dumbass what are you doing having opinions-

(inhale) …and they make you play uno every time you’re there, you kinda start to hate uno just as much you hate them

[vvossy]

Quick sneak peak of the thumbnails for the sims4 scar cc I'm currently working on!! I will have everything ready to release by the end of the week :D

[verathena14]

Decided to draw an overblotted Sora! This draws from my Savanaclaw Sora design :>

[1caru]

welcome to my blog @linksboobs you'll never guess what happened literally yesterday

[ratss0up-deactivated]

Leon Kennedy WIP that i’m making in preparation for re4r.

[divinegrump]

What has no tibbies and first words out of anesthesia was 'can I have dunkinnn'

[michameinmicha]

trying to make an appointment with a very busy surgeon feels like running an obstacles course in a cruel kids show where the other team's players get to throw things at you while you take your turn

[teddylou]

realized it’s friday the thirteenth and then that it’s my 3 year anniversary of my top surgery?? which was also a friday the thirteenth

[heartshattering]

My life feels like one case of "Hey I reallyyyy should've taken this medical condition a lot more seriously when I was first diagnosed with it" after the next 🙃

[eggs-can-draw]

Kamukura kamukura yass kweeeen small infodump of a crazy man under the cut

ok so small elaboration on how the Kamukura Project and The Lucky Student Lottery worked exactly: The Lucky Student Lottery was a way of finding a person with a luck talent (since I feel like that isn't something you can just give someone, no matter how many ethics laws you ignore) and force convince them to participate in the project (AND if things go perfectly, they have a perfect student they can parade around who's already considered an ultimate/shsl) Komaeda was the first Lucky Student selected, and was actually totally down with participating in the project (stepping stones/sacrificing one's self in the name of hope and all that) but sadly, he found a heads up penny just before going in for the project (what are the odds?) and causing an earthquake the second they began the procedure. They quickly deemed his luck to be far too dangerous and just not worth the risk so they just kinda sent him back to class (with plenty of threats along the lines of "We Will Fucking End You If You Tell Anyone About Anything You Saw Here") Next school year, and Naegi just so happens to be the new Lucky Boi. Unlike Komaeda, he very much did not want a fucking lobotomy, but was basically forced into signing the consent forms and going through with it. Believe it or not, just like Komaeda, he also happened to find a heads up penny before going in for the procedure (again, wtf are the odds?? esp in japan lol) That's where the similarities with Komaeda's case end, with the procedure going ridiculously well, and the person once known as Makoto Naegi being locked away within his own mind to make room for the artificial Super High School Level Hope.

[butchcharliee]

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