#trying to find

[botasgame]

My fav part about being a game dev is that some days all the work i get done for the game is googling how to make my code simpler or just looking for a program to convert and condense my files so i don't make every scene take 5 years to load .

[artificial-absinthe]

Has the tumblr search engine always been this terrible or is it just me? In general, every damn image browser makes an atrocious work, finding only stupid ntfs or scrap of the like. Im trying to find references for Megatron fueled by dark energon (crossed by glowing purple lines like this:)

BUT tumblr throws at me posts each one more off-putting than the former or not related to my search In the Slightest.

Can anyone provide some? I'd be very grateful.

[darkestmad-er]

Since I've been feeling myself again. I have been wanting to go on adventures or just hanging out and playing cards. Hasn't been easy. A single mom who moved to a small town. I try to mingle but not as much as I should, I guess. While working and healing the past five years or so I have met some amazing people. Truth is everyone seems to have their own group. So I'm curious... What app do you all use to connect with people in your area? It's been a while (almost twenty years) since I used a "dating/friend/networking site. I haven't a clue where to start. Tumblr isn't bad. My mutuals are great but 90% are half way around the world ✈️

[cardiocorvidae]

looking for a specific cardiophilia gif

going to copy paste my message from discord here. ive been on the hunt for a specific gif for a long time and i need your help.

im trying to find an old cardio gif that i swear was on tumblr at one point amongst cardiophile blogs… ill try and describe it as best as possible it might've been an n s / f w piece but heres what i remember

this was a drawing. it was in first person, and was a view of someone looking at their chest while in front of the mirror. i dont recall if their breasts were fully exposed but they wore a pink top.

it was a gif of a visible heartbeat, you could see their chest moving, and with every beat the gif had a sort of red outline (like dying/low health in a video game)

the caption said something about flights/flying

please please message me or send an ask if youve found it anywhere, ive tried digging through a couple of old blogs but havent been able to turn it up.

[k4nn4-k1zu1ch1]

One time I was looking up death games and I saw this series thing that was based on a roleplay of some kind. I can remember that on the image I saw for it, there was a welcome banner and a girl that was standing there, inviting people to the island(?) And then she was turned off or knocked out (I'm pretty sure she was a robot) and was replaced with this guy with a stoplight for a head(?) Coming up from the podium. I think the name was _________ Island? Could someone tell me the name?

Also the girl kinda looked like Teki

And KAngel

But much more like Teki. She still had KAngel vibes though I guess?

[theboxfort]

Peace and love

[catmask]

when u go to write a mentally ill person in ur story you are presented two options. the first option is to write your mental illness realistically as you actually experience it with all the ups and downs and people who are like you will resonate with it and feel seen. except every person who reads instagram infographics on mental health that uses the phrase narcicisst for anyone who does anything that crosses them and unironically call themself a dark empath will call you scary and tell you that youre demonizing mentally ill people

the second option is to lie and write inspiration porn for those people to get hard to

[pineapple-frenzy]

Book 2 au with Zuko and Katara Lee and Huamei

Katara is separated from her friends, and so she's left to travel the earth kingdom on her own. She stumbles across Zuko, who is similarly travelling on his own. They decide that pairing up and travelling together would be best

[madqueenalanna]

been seeing homies get deep into "the terror" and making me want to rewatch SO i spent two hours in the dead of night reading the wiki/the subreddit/other linked articles and like. one of those articles was deadass fucked up

there was a woman who spoke inuktitut who was writing a book containing a lot of inuit oral histories, and in nunavut she was able to hear passed-down recollections of when survivors from the franklin expedition were passing through

and like. i can't imagine being an inuit family/group, knowing that europeans exist but having never seen them, seeing 8-9 shambling, blue-skinned, cold-to-the-touch out-of-their-minds white men come wandering by. they invited the men inside their igloos for warmth, for food, to be hospitable. the men refused to eat, refused to speak, and when trade was offered, clutched their possessions close and refused to entertain the idea of trade. this was, offputting, to say the least. the group set them up in their own igloo, with their own fire, and left three whole seals for them to eat. and then they fled cause what the FUCK get out of there. they came back in a few days to check on the strangers. the three seals were completely untouched, while all of the men had killed and eaten each other

i mean. fuck dude. there are obviously pretty dark angles to view the franklin expedition from– honestly can't think of a good angle, it's pure colonialism and british exceptionalism– but that specific interaction, that inuit group who were living lives as normal until a dozen fucking walking dead showed up and did cannibalism. no wonder that story got passed down, i'd be shitting my pants if i saw that

[peachy-mitchy]

I'm curious if someone knows or familiar with a specific animated english movie I watched as a child, I remember vividly is there was a group of children all had household problems one has a abusive/alchoholic father/brother(?) Can't remember, but the kid was mad bcs there was no food in the fridge.

He then ranaway meeting his other friends all of the sudden a kraken/giant octupus came out of the waters and they need to defeat the monster, I was about 10 or less year old when I watched this idk. If you know this movie please tell me 😭 I've been thinking abt this for years

[inkskinned]

what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.

[aphel1on]

i have such a love for characters who descend into madness or villainy out of deep, deep empathy. characters who fundamentally cannot cope with the cruel realities they find themselves in and blow up about it in spectacular fashion. fallen angel type characters with tears of outrage in their eyes. characters who break before they bend, and break so badly they splatter blood all over their noble ideals. every variation on it gets me so good

[ihaveaphobiaofclowns]

Hey Tumblr I’m trying to find this one very specific meme that had a split image and one was a guy saying “Life sucks/everything sucks/ some variant) and looking very happy & 90s vibes and one was a guy saying the same thing and looking very sad? I saw it on Instagram.

If ANYONE had seen it I’d appreciate it.

[lgbtlunaverse]

There's a version of the "don't go grocery shopping while hungry" rule specifically for writers where you should never under any circumstances be allowed to touch your draft within 3 hours of reading a really good story. Because sometimes when you read something great your head goes "fuck this is so much better than my stuff I should make that more like THIS instead!" Look at me. That's the devil talking and you should close the document NOW.

[dumbledorathexplora]

🥺🥺🥺🥺

[eraserheadadult]

cute ocean themed bedroom where its pitch black no windows full of fucked up shrimps and steaming hot chemical vents. the bed is a whale carcass