#tula burrow's end

[scalpho]

they're the cutest... they're fambliy...

[thinkingaboutbones]

get it tula!!!!!!!!!!

[conschintz]

burrow's end pcs + text posts

[chungledown-bimothy]

"You're very bright and you're getting older, and that means that I can rely on you more"

Hey parentified eldest daughters (whether or not we're still daughters), on a scale of Erika to Izzy to Aabria, how we feeling about that interaction?

Personally I'm 100% in the smiling through the pain camp.

[fanwarrior321]

everyone is talking about izzy and siobahn nailing the sibling dynamic (WHICH THEY ARE) but I also just feel like brennan and rashawn are such an underrated sibling pair as well in all of this. the little moments they find to connect with each other, the solidarity dealing with an old mom, I just think everyone is killing it

[sunburstsandmoonshadows]

"in the end, all I hope for is to be a bit of warmth for you when there’s not a lot warmth left to go around" - boreas, the oh hellos

below, a version with other lyrics:

[rainebownerd]

Straight up, crying on the floor

[justsalpals]

hi, tula is killing me

Geoffrey was brave and clever.

Geoffrey was heroic and curious.

Tula looks into the eyes of her children and sees so much of him. They are brave and they are clever and every moment she remembers how her husband died alone where she could not reach. Where she did not follow.

She looks at her children and she is afraid.

That they will be brave and clever and curious and heroes and the world will not care. The world will not care for their big hearts and soft bellies. The world will not care that they are children, yet to see even a single winter. The world is harsh and cruel and all Tula wants is a place for her children to be safe.

A place where she can see the man she loves reflected back at her from the children she loves, and let it warm her heart instead of fill her with dread. A place that will not tear them to shreds for the most admirable parts of themselves.

Because Tula is not brave and she is not clever, and when they go somewhere she cannot follow it will be her fault when they die alone and scared in a world she should have made safe for them.

[irisbaggins]

Spoilers ahead for the finale!

An aspect of the final battle that got lost after Viola's amazing attack, was the fact that Tula nearly killed her son. And that, I think, is something I would really like to delve my teeth into, to properly look at what happened.

The thing that struck me the most during Tula's attack on her son, was that Jaysohn did manage to snap her out of it. In the context of the story, Jaysohn grappled his mom to get her to stop, and even after getting viciously bit by her, he still managed to get her back to herself. He managed to get to his mom fast enough, and used himself to protect the others from the mindless being Tula had become. And, even when faced with near death, this little kid manages to get back up and attack the creature that did this to his mother. Not once did he blame her, having understood enough about the situation to realise his mom was not in control. He knows, he understood, that this was Phoebe, not Tula. And so, the moment he is able to free his mom, still wounded and near death's door, he goes after Phoebe so that his mom won't be taken again.

Tula, however, was aware of everything she did to Jaysohn. She was painfully aware of how badly she hurt her son, how she nearly killed him. And, as Brennan describes;

She is broken, in a way she has never been before. She nearly killed her baby, used as a puppet because she's alive when she should have been dead. The Blue that keeps her alive is what nearly caused her to kill her son. Tula nearly lost everything, yet, once more, it was hope and love that brought her back once more. Her son brought her back.

However, she was silent for the rest of the battle until Phoebe finally fell, and Jaysohn nearly died. She was quiet, too horrified with what she nearly did. Perhaps, had more time been afforded to that moment with Tula and Jaysohn before he decided to retaliate against Phoebe, there would have been...something...that went on. A focus on the fact that it was Tula who went for another member of their family, whilst Ava went for the ground and the reactor. What would that do to her, I cannot help but wonder. What did that do to her, in the immediate aftermath, when she could slow down and process what happened. She must live with the knowledge she nearly killed her own child, and that, had he been just a little weaker or just a little slower, she would've succeeded. She might have been able to bring him back, like she did with Sybil...but she would have to live with the knowledge that she took her son's life. And that thought is horrifying.

Yet, it makes her gentleness with Lukas later all the more significant. Even with the blood of her son on her hands, she still chooses to hope for a better tomorrow. She still chooses to give Lukas - and herself - another chance, another tomorrow. Bad things could have happened, but they didn't, and they all made it out. The "what ifs" will remain in the shadows, in the nightmares, but in the daylight, she will keep her head high. It doesn't lessen the impact of her deeds or her burdens, but it can make them bearable. And, with the addition of her son's refusal to blame her, it makes it just the little easier. She deserves a new tomorrow, too.

[camellia-thea]

so.... i finally started watching burrow's end

[youweremyversaillesatnight]

tula and her journey

(as a note, this is incredibly long so i've put the vast majority of it under a read more. please open it all the way if you want to see the whole thing)

@/atticfish // The Oresteia, Aeschylus // C.S. Lewis // Clearest Blue, CHVRCHES // Howl’s Moving Castle (2004) // I See Boats Moving, Fernando Pessoa // Deep End, Holly Humberstone // The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge, Rainer Maria Rilke // Tired, beabadoobee // Sarah Kay // Half-light: Collected Poems 1965-2016, Frank Bidart // (could not find) // Zinaida Gippius // Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides, Anne Carson // Don’t Swallow the Cap, The National // When Did It Happen?, Mary Oliver // Holy Wild, Gwen Benaway // Manhattan is a Lenape Word, Natalie Diaz // Dead Stars, Ada Limón // The Power of Myth, Joseph Campbell (1988) // How to Cure a Ghost, Fariha Róisín // @/CrowsFault (twitter) // Spring, Mary Oliver // @/jb-blunk // (could not find) // @/roach-works // Tales From Earthsea: Dragonfly, Ursula Le Guin  // Some are Always Hungry, Jihyun Yun // All About Love: New Visions, bell hooks // Notebooks 1951-1959, Albert Camus // @/podencos // The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath // Waiting, Marya Hornbacher // The Summer Day, Mary Oliver // Burrow’s End (2023)

and, as a bonus if you made it this far:

[family-on-6]

i deserve to wait for a day that i won't feel so tired anymore!!!

[azurecanary]

If i had a nickel for every time i deeply related to Brennan Lee Mulligan character on Dimension 20, in a campaign ran by Aabria Iyengar, to the point where a near emotional response was elicited, I'd have two nickels

Which isn't a lot, but it's weird it happened twice

[conschintz]

burrow's end pcs + textposts (2)

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[chungledown-bimothy]

Tula didn't need to lick Bennett's paw. That was entirely her choice.

Even if you argue "well that's just her habit from taking care of her kids" that's still an incredibly intimate thing to do to a complete stranger.

She didn't lick Viola after the bear fight, even.

[redsandsshoes]

Mom...🥺🥺 are you okay?🥺🥺

I'm having a Frito🥹🥲