#tw:csa

[rose-blooms-red]

The door creaks.

And the lungs of fear are given new breath.

The door creaks.

And there is a moment where hope reaches out with insidious hands.

Maybe, it whispers, soft and scared, and oh so young, maybe this time will be different.

The door creaks.

And hope and fear twine together with shaking hands and trembling breaths.

I love you, the door creaks, I love you.

The door creaks, and it sounds like the sobs of a child, too small for the feelings trapped in a rabbit-quick heart.

Hope wittles away into a bone deep grief.

I love you too, the child says to the door that creaks its love. Iron on their tongue. Thorns scraping the soft insides of their mouth, growing past milk teeth and blossoming from trembling lips.

The door creaks.

[michelvinci]

HELP ME FIND FIC

I’m looking for a fic where Jason as Red Hood thinks he has a stalker and it turns out it’s Tim Drake. Tim is like 11 and he was following Jason because he wanted to see for himself how he really was because his dad told him that if he didn’t behave the Red Hood would hurt him. (TW:CSA). Jack Drake abuses Tim and Jason pretty much adopts him. There’s a guy named Marcus in it

[yourleftpinkytoe-blog]

TW:csa, abuse, neglect

Headcanon: Andrew was given a stuffed animal when he was like two or three years old. the foster family he was with at the time had a bio daughter who loved cats. She had a shit tone of stuffed animals of them and when one ripped it was given to Andrew.

She became his most precious belonging. He never parted from her not when he’s 4 and locked in a dark room for three days with only a bottle of water and a can of tuna while his foster mother went on a bender. Not when he’s 5 and was beaten half to death for sneaking out of his room trying to get dinner for him and the other five kids who haven’t eaten. Not when he’s 6 and getting verbally assaulted for simply existing to loud. He named her Sir Fat Cat McCatterson.

He when through everything with sir. Sir was there then he was r@ped for the first time.

Andrew threw her out the morning after. Looking at her reminded him of too much which hurt more than being without it, but he really did like that toy.

So in fifteen some years when he finds a fucked up looking orange kitten he’s reminded of his old stuffed animal and (definitely not because it made him feel anything) decided to bring her home and give her the title “sir fat cat McCatterson”.

[haroldherald]

// tw:csa

wishing everyone who makes william afton sa the kids execution by firing squad

[k8-says-------hi]

tw:csa

really hate the physical sensation of tingling on my back from a childhood sexual trauma that is too mortifying to want to remember in any detail. even when you have enough context clues to work off of it wont ever just go the fuck away! i wish i could actually lose memories both in the mind and body instead of just partially burying them in the mind yet they torment my body and also influence my destructive behavior for 20 years

[hibiscus-tea-party]

THANK YOU FOR CALLING THIS DUMB BITCH OUT. IF YOU REALIZED THE ABSOLUTE DESTRUCTION THEY DID TO ME MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY IN LATE 2023 EARLY 2024 YOU'D VOMIT

(Note: I don't have specific screen shots bc my phone storage flubbed in March and deleted all my folders ;; but if you ask to see something anyone said, I'll see if I can retrieve proof for ya!)

((Important note: I have a bad case of potty mouth, but I'll still try to tone it down from everyone's sake. Still, proceed with caution. Also in 2023 I was still pretty immature, though it never warranted the emotional and mental abuse I endured))

For those who don't recognize me, my name used to be Ace, but it's now Cole or Piper, whichever you like (I used to run an account here called Ace-my-boy, more on that later). I'm 20 and actually used to be great friends with/date Nico! (Blame them for the date part I didn't ask for that shit) So I've known them about a year before the incident.

Now, for what they did.

I really don't feel like explaining it all again because I've had to so many times, so I'll just boil it down to a brief list:

-Lovebombing. So much of it.

-Manipulation of the mind (and heart)

-Threatening to off themselves, constantly

-Talked about their "Shitty" ex as soon as we started dating (the ex didn't even do anything wrong, they just broke up after discovering that they were aro, which Nico accused them behind their backs of it being a lie just to excuse breaking up with them), and even before that, they would always lament to me about their breakup and insist it was my responsibility to listen

-Lied to me, and about me, a lot, about the most mundane

-Talked shit about the "friends" they tried to turn against me (again, more on that later)

-SENT ME "KYS" ASKS ON BOTH MY OLD ACCOUNT (ace-my-boy) AND THIS ONE. I had to delete ace-my-boy because as they turned people against me, that was the blog they flocked to just to tell me they hate me. Lol.

-[TW:CSA!!!] Sent me anon asks telling me, an actual victim of child rape, that I deserved it. FYI, that event started when I was 10 and didn't even end there, so...happy with yourself, Nico?

-Sent me asks harassing me and apparently claiming I wanted them back? Which isn't true, considering they...

-BEFRIENDED A KNOWN PEDOPHILE (among our former friend group, before the revelation of what she was of course), WHO HAS BEEN KNOWN TO INTENTIONALLY SEND NSFW PICS TO HEAVILY MINOR POPULATED SERVERS!!!! Her name is Mage btw idc abt her privacy 💀 (she's another can of worms)

-Literallu got Mage to harass me AND MY FRIENDS FOR SUPPORTING ME???

-Started accusing me and a good friend (I'll call her Newt, for her safety) of being proshippers/groomers after a third, neutral friend brought up those accusations to Mage personally, even though they know that me and Newt are survivors of that type of shit, so why tf would we do it????

-Tried to tell everybody that I doxxed them and threatened to kill them (I...don't even know where they live...and I can't even do basic code no less dox someone. How do you even do that????)

-Had worked with Mage to turn most of my friends against me (I got some of them back recently which is honestly a win, but still)

-Would demand my time late at night to complain to me, even though I told them multiple times that staying up late and losing sleep causes me to have HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE SEIZURES. They didn't even want advice, they kept me up just to bitch to me about other people.

-Manipulated multiple minors into being their personal comfort assistants, and one minor EVEN KNEW THEY WE'RE BEING MANIPULATED AND STILL DEFENDED THEM?

-Would deny any advice I tried to give them, despite always asking for it?

There's so much more. So so much more. I don't even remember every single thing because But instead, let's go into how it affected me overall.

-My depression increased drastically, of course

-My temper increased drastically (Bipolar Disorder, folks!)

-[TW:ED AND VOMITING] I went back to my bulimic tendencies, that I had kicked for 5 years

-I was convinced nobody wanted me alive (and yes, Nico is to blame for that too), thus plunging me into sh tendencies

-Even before the bulimia relapse, I was throwing up just thinking about what they said to and about me JUST FOR WANTING AN APOLOGY.

-I literally could not have fun or get anything done. Ever since that shit hit the fan, I would not be able to do anything without moping.

-I consider myself a strongwilled person irl, but when I tell you I cried everyday bc of their bullshit (I actually like, fr loved Nico before and even briefly after the fiasco started, so think about that please)

There's more, but they're issues I'm not sure if Nico/Mage directly caused, so I won't lay it on their doorstep.

Oh, but here's the best part. You wanna know what caused this altercation?

...I expressed boundaries to Nico that they kept breaking, and I told them it was making me angry

So when I want an apology from Nico for responding passive aggressively, I'm instead met with Nico not once, but twice harassing me and soft blocking me on ace-my-boy, insisting I don't deserve a apology and that itwas why people don't like me...like literally what in the elementary school type drama is that shit wtf (esp since their

Man there is so much more. I could write and publish a fucking novel on this situation alone, no less what they've done to others. But I think enough is said to get a glimpse of how reprehensible a person Nico is. I would suggest everyone not interact with them at all, no matter how sorry everyone feels for them, for everyone's safety! Nico does not want help. They will not accept help. They want comfort through making everyone feel worse than they do. And for a so-called friend? Not worth it.

Again, I'll admit I'm exponentially more mature then I was then, but it doesn't take a genius to know that you dont try to make someone as mentally unwell as they made me just because someone "sounds too mean" when they tell you that you did something wrong.

I'd love to say more, but I could write a novel on what I have on Nico. But the point of this post is to inform and warn, not to vent. Please ask me questions if you have any and sorry for my unhinged nature throughout this post. Thank you!!!

(DO NOT HARRAS THIS PERSON, JUST IGNORE THEM. ALSO GARTIC PHONE THING WASN'T THEM)

Piacere, space, whatever you go by, you said you wouldn't mention anyone from this, or at least that was what the deal was, I hope you were told about it. We'd not mention you, as long as you wouldn't mention us. But you did, so a new callout post with new points, people defending you don't really do a good job. TLDR: they blame everything on mental health, takes little fault for hurting people because of said mental issues, vents to people decently younger than them constantly, and they demand boundaries, but get extremely upset when anyone asks for them to do so for them.

NOTE I didn't directly see any of this, I'm doing this to defend my friends because, no offense, they are kinda letting themselves get walked all over. If anything is wrong please tell me. Do not harass anyone in this situation, no one deserves it.

First up a recap on the first situation with a new moral because talking to your friend made it more obvious what the issue was, you blaming mental health. My friends silver and JJ banned someone from wheezle's easel for in their mind being toxic, the other mods including piacere and their friends didn't feel the person was that bad, but instead of voicing that they went on a rant at how they were never listened to. Even when given an opportunity to unban the person piacere went on about not being listened to while actively ignoring their attempts at giving them an input. They caused my friends to have anxiety attacks and cry, yes they apologized, but only after saying my friends were horrible people. I don't know how you go from that to sorry in a few days and mean that apology. Proof under this, and another situation and perspectives of other people on them.

Now for the new situation i heard of, they were in my friend's server, velon's, and they'd do their constant venting. They were asked to not mention suicide so often and got really upset. More stuff must have happened because like, everyone there says how they would make them super stressed out with how often they'd beg for attention and do things like make sex jokes with people who were uncomfortable with it. Here's people's opinions on it and also i'd check out Typhoonclade's post on them here for more opinions.

Generally they'd vent everywhere around like 16-18 year olds as an almost 20 year old. they'd constantly cry about not getting attention while they got a lot of attention from at least half the active members in our server. And also a lot of weird sexual stuff that granted is hearsay to me but tbhI don't care anymore, there's no way two unrelated people have similar stories. Here's some other stuff of them being mean about people and attention seek-y I have.

Piacere, you won't read this tbh, but just get off the internet, its clear you can't handle it, and you hurt people, for everyone's good, please just get offline. I know real life sucks for you, you'd say it a lot man, but its not an excuse to hurt people who aren't doing anything to you. Just, idk what you should do, other than leave the wider internet.

[outrowingss]

i wish people would realise this isn’t about “shipping” it’s about the way this show is mishandling the abuse of a 15 year old girl

[white-chocolate-medusa]

Ok I am a bit scared because there is some negativity directed at Riko stans. I'm not really a stan but I believe that Nora did him wrong. I'm using a new throwaway account for this. :)

My lore is a mess and I'll try to write as good as I can.

HC:1 (tw: transphobia+sexism)

First of all the name Riko is a name generally given to girls in Japanese culture. ("The name Riko is primarily a female name of Japanese origin that means Jasmine, Truth" source:babynames.com) So I think Riko was AFAB. And he was not given the privileges of being a son and that's why he was not an heir to the Moriyamas. I think he realized he was trans right about in the time stamp where Jean arrived. And he was not allowed to change his name but he went with it. Tetsuji would degrade him for being a "girl" and he would go extra hard on him. But Tetsuji was also ok with the idea that Riko would present himself as a man/boy. Because according to bigots "females" don't do good at sports (I can back this up with how there were close to no girl players in the nest) and they are not that advertisable. So the media was never made aware that Riko was trans.

BONUS: He never got a top surgery because his tiddies are that small :(

HC:2 (tw:CSA+SA+physical violence)

Ok so there is undeniable evidence that some victims of SA and CSA turn into offenders in those things right? (Source: Victim To Offender: A Review) Because in so many cases victims think they deserved what they got. This is so fucked up but unfortunately this causes a cycle of abuse. People are simple, as long as they don't have the right resources to inform themselves (in Riko's case being stuck in the Nest couldn't have helped) they think what happened to them is justified and they believe that it is a normal form of punishment of some sorts. This is so fucked up, I know. I'm not trying to say Riko is innocent and what he did was excusable. I'm only saying, that no one that age knows of that form of punishment to inflict on others unless they have been a victim said offense themselves. I'm saying that Riko was probably SA'd as a child. He grew up in the Nest and he was a victim of that toxic environment and the people in it. Even Tetsuji might have played a part in it. And it's so possible that may have happened because coercion/grooming is a canon event in the Nest (Kevin and Thea for example). So some way or other Riko might have been a victim of SA. Or even CSA. Riko probably also saw Tetsuji ordering someone to do that to a victim and thought, "so this is completely a normal and an easy way to subdue someone.".

Again, I'm not trying to overlook the vileness of what Riko did. But evidence suggests that Riko was also a victim. But he needed to get rehabilitated for this not killed. No one that young is irredeemable.

HC:3 (No tw)

Riko is pansexual. I think the first time Riko saw Jean naked he was very angry. He is used to Kevin's body and he sees him as a sibling but Jean?! He was frustrated (and probably took it out on Jean) because how dare a boy be attractive to him when he is also a boy? And he probably had a crush on Jean for a bit of time. But being self destructive, he made sure that Jean would never be attracted to him and even would hate him.

HC:4 (tw:murder+mentions of child murder)

Riko's mother was probably killed because she gave birth to a daughter rather than a son. I don't know if it's common in Japan to do those offenses but it's pretty common where I come from. (Middle east :() Well little did Kengo know that Riko was in fact a boy...

Riko's mother left a necklace to her daughter who was actually a son. Riko hides it in a book. The book is carved in a little square shape to keep the necklace safe. The necklace is a silver jasmine flower. Because Riko was his mother's Jasmine.

Also Kengo was going to kill Riko when he was born but Riko's mother convinced Kengo to kill her instead. Ichirou who was probably 5-6 at that time was crying non stop. And it was the last time he saw Riko. After that Riko was just a garbage that no one spoke of. Also Ichirou always blamed Riko for taking his mother away from him and never really forgave him.

HC:5 (No tw)

Ichirou is the only one who accepted Riko's gender. Yes Tersini might have used it because it was more marketable but I can see Ichirou standing up to Kengo when he misgenders him. Kengo can do nothing but to listen. He is not the big man he was twenty years ago. He really can't whoop Ichirou's ass anymore.

But Ichirou never really told Riko how brave he thought Riko was. Because in a family like that you don't say those stuff to your brother.

HC:6 (tw: attempted suicide+physical violence+murder)

After Riko broke Kevin's hand (and after he nearly got crippled himself from Tetsuji's wrath) he cried himself to sleep holding his mother's necklace in his hand. So tight there were bruises even after a week. He was also hugging Kevin's jersey and he was hating himself. Even after he got better physically he stayed in his room for a whole week before Tetsuji came back again and gave him an another reason to stay in one more week. After hearing Kevin left he took some pills and committed suicide but he was resurrected by the Nest doctor (who was later killed after saving Riko because this was too big of a secret to trust a doctor with).

Yes that was it. Oh boy was that much! I hope you guys like my HCs. I probably have a lot more but those are all I remember. So yeah :)

(ps: I won't respond to any hate comment if you don't have anything useful to say please don't, I learned this the hard way: "if you see something (that is harmless) you don't like, rather than arguing about it just scroll away! It's easier and better both for you and for other people", thank you)

posting means writing and boy am i bad at math

[kaypeace21]

Firstly gotta congratulate u on your work. Your theories are amazing and detail-oriented. You are a genious! I was thinking the ST team already linked Will on next season to Spring awakening the musical which I don't know much of. If you have any post about it let me know please. But the meaning of that word Sping awakening can also be linked to coming of age right? So this conexion makes me very excited for what's to come. What's your thoughts about that?

Aw, thank-you.

Yeah , talked about it forever ago. It was strange how every other play is pretty up-beat. Unlike Will's.

Like Robin's was "prom". About a lesbian highschooler living in indianna and dealing with close minded people. Makes sense...

El had "matilda'- both her and el have telekenesis.

Steve had "MAMA mia"- prob a mom joke.

Nancy had "legally blonde'- rich,hard working, intelligent girl dealing with sexism (in professional settings) because of her appearance.

Will's ...play is considered one of the most controversial plays ever- cause it tackles many tr*ggering taboo subjects , for its time (written in 1891). It has queer boys ,sure . But they could have picked another queer play that has gay male characters that isn't so ... dark. Like you can read the synopsis it has many many dark plot points . Tw: Like one character in it had a se*ually ab*sive father .Which is again... a weird theme in many of the movies said to be inspo for s4. Could be a coincidence, could mean something. But that play is a unusual pick just because it's such a dark play. Ofcourse they could have picked it as simply a spring break ref/lgbt ref /byler ref ? It had a romantic sublplot between 2 lgbt-highschool boys, during spring (byler) . Regardless, it sticks out like a sore thumb compared to the others, simply because it's a much darker play than the others. Like, I'd say any dark subject you can think of is in this play.

[sadboyhrs]

CSA evidence? Would you mind expanding on that?

hi so the original theory was not mine, i didn't even notice until i read kaypeace21's theory on it:

https://kaypeace21.tumblr.com/post/661685313902641152/the-subtext-in-st-shows-lonnie-is-more-than-just-a

i've also talked to a friend about it and we talked about how the pictures that Jonathan took of Nancy undressing could hint at Lonnie taking pictures of Jonathan/Will like that.

It's really hard to read and completely changed my outlook on stranger things as a whole, so only read it if you're sure you can stomach it.

I hope this helps!

[deadbilly]

This story dates from 2010, though most people outside of Portugal have probably never heard of the Casa Pia abuse scandal.

LISBON, Portugal—Seven people were convicted of child sex abuse in Portugal on Friday in a major trial that lasted nearly six years and shocked the country.

The six men and one woman were found guilty of crimes including sexually abusing minors and adolescents, raping children and running a pedophile ring at a state-run children's home in Lisbon during the 1990s.

The six men were handed jail sentences of between six and 18 years for sexual abuse. The woman, whose house was used by the ring, was not given a custodial sentence because of a 2007 change in the law, the judge said in the televised ruling without elaborating.

The longest sentence was given to a 53-year-old former driver at the home, Carlos Silvino, who confessed to more than 600 crimes and gave evidence against the other defendants.

Others sent to prison were Carlos Cruz, a popular television presenter with a three-decade career in show business, who will serve seven years; and Jorge Ritto, a decorated career diplomat and former UNESCO ambassador, who was given six years, eight months in jail.

Their lawyers said they would consider an appeal.

Chief prosecutor Miguel Matias said the victims were pleased with the outcome.

The victims -- now aged between 16 and 22 -- gave chilling testimony during the trial and identified their alleged abusers by pointing to them across the courtroom.

Bernardo Teixeira, one of the victims, said he felt vindicated. "The court recognized that we were telling the truth," he said. "It's a happy ending for us. The pedophiles are going to jail."

The three judges at the trial read out a summarized version of the court's decisions, but they did not refer to dozens of other alleged crimes they found to be unproven. The full ruling, which reportedly runs to almost 2,000 pages, is due to be released next week.

The trial, believed to be Portugal's longest, included testimony from more than 800 witnesses and experts, including 32 alleged victims.

The abuse centered on Casa Pia, a 230-year-old institution caring for roughly 4,500 needy children, most of them living in dormitories at its premises around the capital.

A whistleblower broke the scandal in 2002, followed by a yearlong police investigation. The case that shook public trust in the country's institutions, and the protracted trial fueled outrage about Portugal's notoriously slow legal system.

Catalina Pestana, who was head of Casa Pia during the period when some of the abuse took place, said she would not celebrate the ruling.

"Nobody in their right mind can be happy after a case like this," she said. "These were some of the most horrible stories I've ever heard."

Casa Pia "shared some of the blame" for the crimes because it failed to detect them, the judges said.

Alvaro Carvalho, a psychiatrist who has counseled the victims and was in court with them, said they were nervous as they awaited the verdict.

"They calmed down when the judge ruled that the crimes were proven," Carvalho told reporters. "In a way, it's society making reparation for what happened to them."

Archive link

[morbidoptimisim]

Vampire the Masquerade: Bloodlines - Therese Voerman 

[outrowingss]

As for Elizabeth, she might have blushed when Seymour’s name was mentioned, but blushing can mean many things; it could have been a sign of shame, especially if she’d had to suffer his unwelcome sexual advances. Despite this, she remained polite and pleasant, but this could well have been an act of self-preservation; her way of avoiding potential conflict with a powerful man twenty-five years her senior.

Blood, Fire and Gold: The Story of Elizabeth I and Catherine De Medici, Dr Estelle Paranque, 2022.

[kaypeace21]

Hi! I was thinking about watching some of the s4 related movies and "the book of henry" seems to be the biggest one on the board. Should i watch it first...? Or why do you think they write it so big? is it more related to your theories?

It’s important . And Lonnie and Will related.

I wouldn’t say it’s the most important per say- but still very important(they made the title big and put 3 explanation points next to it, unlike other movies for a reason). It shows a repetitive theme from other movies relating to dads who do the worst things to their kids. Trigger warning- at least 30 + movies have a dad r*pe their kids. Or a family member or other adult do so. That’s not even including the movies which mention the r*pe of adults , or v*ctim blaming from the villain /cops or the victim themselves , m*rder, or other forms of ab*se/ch*ld ab*se. Alot of movies also have other dark themes -like s*icidal thoughts or attempts. So I’d read movie descriptions before watching and going in blind and not being prepared and getting possibly VERY VERY triggered.

[asura-zoro]

hey. just wanna say we love you and good on you for not taking their shit. fcuk em pieces of shits. like good riddance as you said. people who ddidnt go thru the shit you went thry dont get to tell you what you went is right or wrong. if its bad for its bad. thats all there is to it. their opinions dont matter. theyre hiding behind a screen cuz they dont have the faces to show it. fuck those shittty ass people. youre one of the best people here who tries to do better by most. we love you bro

Thank you! I usually tend to ignore the rude anons (racists, homo/transphobes, p*dos... etc) and just block 'em as they come through. Normally what they say just make me roll my eyes, but some of what these p*dos and p*do apologists said really took it over the edge for me to where I had to let out my frustrations (But still not answer these..."people"). I have never received so many anons telling me and other CSA survivors that we deserved it, it's our fault and that we are lucky to even have gotten "affection" (we never deserved it and it wasn't our faults) . I have never seen so many "people" to tell me to k*ll myself too. Of course I'm going to be upset, and my severe depression makes the already hard blows even harder; but I am strong and resilient. The absolute bullshit these "people" spew makes only proves the true nature of what they really are, predators; it also strengthens my disgust and my morally sound opinions of them.

[hellfresh]

We have been living in a pedophile, rape culture for too long. All of these red flags have all been small instances in a greater plot. It is all by design.

These are the men that run the world.

This is what they want for the future of our children.

It is up to us to wake up and put a stop to it