#uhhh insecure lmfao

[achillesofgold]

had halloween early (:

closet astarion, mostly bc the only thing i bought for this was hair dye !! my hair’s a lil too long but not terribly!

(over on insta @ achillesbones (: )

[milkywayes]

As someone who greatly enjoys your turian HCs and given your recent art, I must ask: How do you think Garrus feels about dressing up? Does Shep enjoy seeing him all gussied up? Was he that teen with the turian equivalent of logo tees and beanies? Did his parents dress up for Hierarchy events given Castis’ tier?

ooooh hell yeah thanks for the questions, i love this. gonna be a long one

my thoughts/HCs are as thus:

generally speaking, at least for heterosexual relationships turian women are the ones to approach a potential partner and the males will attempt attracting them by looking good / having a good reputation and accomplishments. long fringes are supposed to impress, hence why only the men evolved them, but it would make sense to me that they’d try to dress up even more to better their chances. picture men in a turian bar posing and wearing their finest outfits to stand out. hell, even turian armor is kind of fancy compared to what other species don. their civvies are very elaborate. it tracks.

but then there’s garrus, who… is just not very interested in all that. i like imagining that the ‘bad turian’ thing goes beyond not being an obedient soldier. so he does not enjoy dressing up. he’s never actively tried attracting a partner like that, and he got shepard without trying, even if he’s still not sure how he pulled that off. to say he’s out of his depth and feeling awkward is an understatement. he got the high rank in the hierarchy in the least straight-forward way imaginable, probably without precedent. he stumbled his way sideways into this gig by uhhh being himself, which is an uncompromising maverick idealist, and by trying to do right by shepard and their mission. not by acting how other turians expected him to.

shepard enjoys it, which is probably the only redeeming factor to garrus. a good chunk of that enjoyment is mirth because she loves when garrus is feeling awkward. it’s a big contrast to his usual confidence and swagger, which she also loves, but rarity’s a factor and she’s gonna take any entertainment she can get from attending these shit functions. (she’s going in utilitarian dress blues, suit and pants combo herself. no jewelry. you can’t make her. lmfao.) that said, he also looks hot in that getup. no complaints from her. or anyone else in attendance. she could point this out to garrus but he wouldn’t believe her. he can be an arrogant bastard, even after getting the scars, but he’s already feeling insecure about his place in the hierarchy and at the event, so there’s none of that right now. at least not for the first half hour. he catches her ogling him a couple times and that does end up boosting his confidence.

as a teen i think he just wore uniforms. i can’t imagine that turian schools don’t have uniforms. i don’t think he’d have had the interest to modify them, he’d have put that energy elsewhere (weapons mods. lol), so you wouldn’t have been able to tell just from looking at him that he’s a bit of a weirdo. but you’d notice fast enough upon meeting him. maladjusted child/teen garrus is important to me. he was lucky he was cute and got good grades.

as for his parents… castis wouldn’t be on palaven often enough to attend lots of hierarchy functions, and while i think mama vakarian had a very respectable tier for her age, only the real high ups who had to impress and be seen by the public really attend galas and such. the couple they did go to, they’d have dressed up, but maybe not as much as i dressed garrus up in that drawing - castis was no advisor to the primarch, and my headcanon for him says he prefers things to be utilitarian. a ‘let my work speak for itself’ kind of guy. he’ll do all that is required, and he’ll be meticulous about it, but he has no love for extravagance.

the funny thing is, castis and garrus are very alike in some ways but then their respective belief systems diverge so heavily that the things they have in common end up working against each other / their relationship lol. they both live for their ideals, they’re stubborn as all get out, they don’t do things just to appease other people.

garrus has more of a swagger though. and he’ll be extravagant - but mostly when showing off his sniping skills. put dangly, sparkly chains on him and he’ll act like a hapless cat that just had something put on their body against their will.

[frankenfran]

How are you so pretty, mom?

i know this is a flattering rhetorical question compliment but to answer honestly it's all about confidence! i mean looks definitely get you really far in this world don't get it twisted. people are shallow and the most mid skinny girl with a bad personality is inherently going to get better treatment because that's just how it works but! if you know yourself and own it then that's more than half of the battle. the charm of a confident and boisterous fat woman is undeniable... unless you're one of those weird insecure people ive encountered who feel threatened by that and assume you're like. coming on to them by simply being nice and outgoing while fat. lol

anyway the other side of it is that i put a lot of effort into my appearance. ive been out and presenting as "female" since i was a teen so ive had a lot of time to figure out what works and what doesn't even with how much ive changed along the way. lots of trial and error and a rather fortuitous lifelong obsession with dress up and designing outfits and stuff (thank you doll games and gaia and fruits magazine and any game that allowed me to customise my character lol)

part of that is knowing yourself and your body. im shaped like toriel or audino so certain things look more flattering on me, which tends to be comfier maternal type stuff (chicken and egg situation) and i already gravitated more towards comfortable and flowy outfits to begin with so it works out. im still a proponent dressing however you want forever because that tends to be what makes you the most happy and confident anyway!

im also very selective about my selfies or photos of me in general. for every perfect booby selfie that makes me feel sexy there's like 50 candid photos of me that make me feel uh. not so very good about myself lmfao. i think photos are inherently limiting and can never capture the fullness of a person quite like seeing them in motion but they're quite good for projecting how you see yourself.

uhhh estrogen also helps highly highly recommend that to everyone no exceptions. getting to know yourself and eventually getting comfortable with yourself and hopefully even loving yourself is a neverending process. some days you'll feel like the ugliest person on earth even after a shower and grooming and other days you'll wake up after not showering for 2 days with messy hair and wrinkled clothes and think "wow i look really pretty today". life is funny that way! this ended up really long and rambling so ill end it here but thank you for letting this old lady ramble. it's community service to let old ladies talk about whatever BS until they get tired lol

[abracazabka]

You. 🫵 Top 5 Moments in The Karate Kid Novelization

OHHHHHOHOHOHO

so for anyone who wants to read a lot of bits and pieces of the Karate Kid novelization, click the read more bc I uhhh. Well I went kind of crazy on this ask. Sorry, friend lmfao

1. Well I made a post about it before but CAN'T FUCKING FIND IT. But anyway, you and I both know the top moment is when we see what goes through Daniel's head as Mr. Miyagi gives him a bonsai and urges him to picture a tree:

"He saw it. It stood, a cypress on a cliff by an ocean, beaten and shaped by the harsh wind and salt air. Its branches withstood the environment and reached bravely for nourishment and survival. It was lonely and beautiful" (Hiller 39-40).

I love this moment bc it resonates with the theme of healing yourself and obtaining strong roots through reaching for help and connection from other people, and not falling to anger, bitterness, etc. Wounds can be healed, y'know? And Daniel is stronger than he looks, and not alone anymore. (Also how you mentioned it coincidentally reminds you of the bonsai in KK3?? INSANE!!)

2. Next would be all the moments that clue you in to how kind and considerate Daniel is toward his mother. He has his pissy teenage boy moments, but he loves his mom so much, and wants a good life for both of them, even at the expense of himself. A couple examples:

[After he is beat by Johnny on the beach]

"'Oh, Daniel! What happened?'

Daniel wanted to tell her something she could believe. She had enough worries of her own and he didn't want her to have to worry about him, too" (18).

Very very sweet. But Daniel, she's your mother!! She will worry, and you gotta be honest </3

[After The Cobras ran him off the road]

"'I'm sorry doesn't help, Ma. I want to go home. I don't understand the rules here.'

'You know, hon. I'm not so sure I understand them myself. It's been a little rocky here for me, too, though I've made it through three days without getting a black eye.' Daniel caught the twinkle in her eye and smiled despite himself.

... 'Let's get you cleaned up and we'll see if we can't figure out the rules together.' She put her arm around Daniel's shoulders and they began to walk to the apartment together" (37).

I love this moment!!! Lucille lets Daniel know they are in this together. They are able to share their hardship with one another, and bounce back from it not just to soldier on, but to be there for each other!!

3. Honestly, I thought it was cheesey at first, but from a literary standpoint, the Garden of Eden allusion/motif. Some examples:

[At first he sarcastically/bitterly thinks of "the Garden of Eden" his mother calls California. This is as he ponders about insecurities about Ali, then distracts himself with thoughts of his tree.]

"He thought of his bonsai tree and how he had pruned it and clipped it so that it almost looked like the picture in his mind ー the one thing that flourished in this Garden of Eden" (44).

I love the way he thinks back to his bonsai and what Mr. Miyagi has given him, but this passage is kind of saddening as much as it scratches my brain

[The last line of the novel presents the phrase very differently (positively). It is pretty cheesy, but it's grown on me. Context within the quote.]

"How can I go wrong, he thought, with a terrific man like Mr. Miyagi for a friend, the most beautiful ... girlfriend ... a mother who will spring for lobsters every time I win the All Valley ...

A guy could really turn on to a Garden of Eden like this" (131).

I'm happy for him! This is how the ending should always be! The joy!!

4. Bobby's moments make me fucking INSANE. I think it was handled pretty well, all things considered. So: Bobby Brown renouncing Cobra Kai.

[After being commanded by Kreese to take Daniel out of commission, then beginning his match with Daniel]

"Bobby stood still, his eyes locked with Kreese's. Daniel couldn't understand what was happening as he observed a battle of wills between Bobby and Kreese ...

Once again [Bobby's] eyes shifted to Kreese, then back to Daniel ...

From the stretcher, [Daniel] watched Bobby exit the ring to catcalls from the audience. Bobby stopped just long enough to untie and discard his belt at Kreese's feet and walk out, shattered.

The Cobra, it seemed, could be poisoned by its own venom" (119-120).

THE COBRA POISONED BY ITS OWN VENOM? SHATTERED??? yeah I'm insane about this. Bobby...Bobby...

5. Lastly, bc who cares about these gay bitches (me, I do), all the moments that could be associated with lawrusso if you squint:

"As their eyes measured each other, Johnny's body moved, catlike, into a karate stance ...

Johnny and his gang mounted their dirt bikes" (16).

Cat-like, huh...mounted you say...this is some strange description, Daniel

"[Ali] smiled at him one more time and rushed off, almost bumping into Johnny. Daniel realized that Johnny had witnessed his entire conversation with Ali" (20-21).

Why are you so close, so transfixed, Johnny...

"Calmly, [Daniel] smeared the gob of blueberry gunk on Johnny's shirt. Mayhem erupted" (30) ...

"Johnny just stared at him ... Silently, Johnny brushed Daniel's bicycle to the limit" (34).

:( The bullying moments ... PIE!!! PIE!!! I love what a little shit Daniel is there. This moment doesn't have the sensuality of the deleted scene though. But I do like Johnny's STARE in the next part

"So, he learned Johnny's class schedule and avoided him" (43).

I get it but also. Hmm. Okay...🏳️‍🌈

"Johnny stood in front of him, soaking wet. He put his hands on his hips" (49).

This is just hilarious cuz a lot of us like to call Johnny a Wet Beast for Daniel. Also hands on his hips is just a funny and endearing moment, what a shit lol

"Daniel carefully evaded Johnny's grasp, but realized it was going to be a losing battle. Johnny was bigger" (66-67).

THE EMPHASIS...HUH. I GET IT. BUT ALSO. OKAY...🏳️‍🌈

"For there, on the dance floor, was Ali ー dancing with Johnny. Johnny's eyes met Daniel's" (88).

Gayass

"He'd have to ... meet Johnny at the tournament, completing the battle they'd begun that first day on the beach" (96) ...

[After Daniel returns to the arena, and Johnny meets his eyes] "Daniel wondered for an instant if there was a slight flicker of relief in those stony eyes, but rejected the thought" (123) ...

"Daniel and Johnny circled, each looking for a point of attack, each oblivious to the rest of the rest of the world" (124).

The tournament! I love the phrases...the battle that begun on the beach...Johnny's recognition of and buried hope for Daniel...their eyes only for each other, for this fight...

[After the tournament] "Daniel had won the crowd's respect; he'd won Johnny's respect; most important, however, he'd won his own self-respect" (125) ...

"Finally, Daniel stood next to Johnny. They bowed. Their eyes met in genuine respect" (126).

I love Daniel's journey toward his self-respect, that is so important to me. But also Johnny's HEHEH....Cobra Kai take notes.

ANYWAY UH YEAH. THERE YOU GO. THIS LITERALLY TOOK ME LIKE AN HOUR (PROBABLY MORE). LOL...

[ingleaisle]

i will say this forever just as ive said it before but i dont like the attitude of getting anywhere from annoyed to furious at people who are often not all that familiar with your work to begin with (especially if uhhhh lmfao you dont actually make it that accessible to begin with, assuming you've posted it anywhere at all) comparing your OC to some character they likely are familiar with and like to begin with.

Like uhhh whatever your issue with THAT is, it does kind of reek of some kind of insecurity to me and idk maybe work on that instead of discouraging ppl from commenting in a certain way that isnt actually that wrong or necessarily insulting.

[thx-sunsxts-addrxss]

ok i’ll ask. it you need to answer all of them

0: Height

1: Virgin?

2: Shoe size

3: Do you smoke?

4: Do you drink?

5: Do you take drugs?

6: Age you get mistaken for

7: Have tattoos?

8: Want any tattoos?

9: Got any piercings?

10: Want any piercings?

11: Best friend?

12: Relationship status

13: Biggest turn ons

14: Biggest turn offs

15: Favorite movie

16: I’ll love you if

17: Someone you miss

18: Most traumatic experience

19: A fact about your personality

20: What I hate most about myself

21: What I love most about myself

22: What I want to be when I get older

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

25: My idea of a perfect date

26: My biggest pet peeves

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend

30: What I hate the most about work/school

31: What your last text message says

32: What words upset me the most

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

34: What I find attractive in women

35: What I find attractive in men

36: Where I would like to live

37: One of my insecurities

38: My childhood career choice

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

40: Who wish I could be

41: Where I want to be right now

42: The last thing I ate

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

44: A random fact about anything

I need to know who asked me this. WHY WOULD YOU-

okay fine.

0: 5’2 (no don’t make fun of me, looking at you @aylin-hijabi)

1: I’m 14. Yes I’m a virgin.

2: I think it’s a 6? Idk

3: no I’m 14

4: no I’m 14, again.

5: no.

6: answered! it’s under the tag #loife answers

7: no

8: answered!

9: yep! just one pair of piercings tho

10: answered!

11: my bestest friend in the world is from third grade! she’s in us and I’m in India but the fact we haven’t broken apart-

we only had third and fourth together but we’re still best friends and I love her sm

12: single, but I hope that gets changed by one specific dude

13: uhhhhh pass bc idk I’m just a innocent teenager (kay maybe not that innocent)

14: pass again

15: answered!

16: answered (by accident)

17: answered again

18: pass

19: I despise loud noises so much

20: answered

21: I like that I can speak to a public audience well. It’s really improved from last year, and my friend said it sounds like I know what I’m talking about. And it’s funny she gave the example of this one time I talked really good about a topic (I only had 2 mins to think about it) and I didn’t know what I was talking about honestly. So yeah, that’s great ig.

22: answered

23: it’s amazing actually. I think it’s because we’re seven years apart, so there’s nothing really to fight over, just some things to talk about.

24: answered

25: answered

26: when people make a mess and don’t clean it up properly. Like just sweeping it to the side.

27: answered

28: answered

29: answered

30: that they think they’re encouraging us but they put us down a lot. Like, “ I thought you were better than this” they think it encourages us to better, but it makes us feel ashamed. Mental health, down the drain. Especially to teenagers.

31: it literally says. ‘lmfao. what the fuck’ (it’s from lemon dude guys)

32: the word ‘useless’ nothings useless, you’re just not using it properly. No one’s useless, they have their things they’re good at that you’re neglecting

33: answered

34: I’m not interested in women (I don’t think-) but probably confidence and extrovertism.

35: how thoughtful and attentive they are

36: around North Carolina, New Jersey or Georgia

37: answered

38: I wanted to be a teacher lmao

39: chocolate. Yeah, I’m basic

40: answered

41: answered (I’m pretty sure)

42: chocolate :D

43: uhhh. pass. I don’t find lemon dude sexy, I don’t think lmao

44: FINALLY THE LAST ONE! I THINK IVE ANSWERED THIS :D

all my answered questions are under the tag #loife answers !

anyways. time for me to kill the person who asked this /j

[bitegore]

Okay so idk if you like Knockout/Breakdown, but after your last break down of the stunticons shitty sex-

Knockout gets his claws into BD and after he’s through BD is in fact excellent at sex bc KO is a princess who demands to be worshiped. How to the rest of the stunticons react to getting out classes by their punching bag? Or does KO have a whole host of mechs to whip into shape because to varying degrees none of them can let Breakdown be significantly better at something than them?

okay so like YES i do kobd but i don't mix g1 and tfp because i don't find them terrribly interesting to cross the streams in fjgdfjsd if the stunticons are in tfp they're not nearly as closely interwined as they are in g1 in the first place, and i'm inclined to say they're not really a thing wrt Breakdown like, at all.

if we make this a "ko gets transposed into g1" sort of deal i don't... actually see kobd happening outside a lot of maneuvering because, like you said, Knockout is a bit of a princess and he's not going to settle in with the world's shyest bottom-feeder unless there's something about Breakdown to like really catch his eye in a way that i think would be kind of unusual for him. Knockout doesn't strike me as a person who wants to chase, he wants to be chased, you know? He's kind of like Drag Strip in that regard, though obviously more, like. functional and not a giant insecure mess lmao

all that aside so my stances are clear, i dont think the other stunticons would care that much beyond begging breakdown to "please fuck them, c'mon breaky it'll be fun pleaaaaase please please please" and occasionally getting really jealous at Knockout for taking away their extremely good teammate who fucks them good when they ask real nice lmao. Maybe Drag Strip gets competitive but i think it's more likely that he's like "well i'm better at, uh. bl- no. uh, fuckin- no. uh. uHHH [storms off]" all huffily and shit than actually, like, getting good because i don't believe he knows how to cooperate with anyone ever and KO's attitude would get on his nerves because he wants to be the preettiest person in a room but he's like just insecure enough that KO's shtick would get under his skin. The rest of them like....

well, MM won't care, because Motormaster is unaware he has flaws and that extends to sex, he's just like "well i do it so i must be okay at it" (he's not). Wildrider just likes having sex so if Knockout is up for it he'll fuck around with Knockout but I think Knockout would kind of bore him, he doesn't strike me as someone who wants to spend more than 30 seconds on foreplay unless there's violence involved, which KO would definitely not do, so it'd end poorly because Wildrider acts out when bored. And I don't think Dead End and Knockout works because if you're both pillow princesses that want someone else to polish you and fuck you, who's gonna do the fucking? Kinks too similar. Insert "and they were both bottoms" meme here. though i imagine dead end appreciates knockout's work on breakdown the most, then, now that i think about it lmfao

[ariaisabitch]

ALRIGHT LOVE IS BLIND REACTIONS AGAIN

idk i did these last season and got a lot of notes from it so. Time for a single lesbian to judge a bunch of random straight people!!

S3 Ep2

I did episode one but then tumblr crashed and i lost it all and no way in hell am I re-typing all of that. Just know that I already dislike Cole and am feeling antsy with uhhh whatever his name is. The dude in the first couple. Ok anyways onto the reactions ig.

BRENNON. His name is Brennon. Idk I feel like he's gonna react badly to Alexa (probably cause i'm plus size as well and have that same fear LMAO)

MAN'S WHISPERED "Yes!" under his breath when he saw her, nvm.

Awww ok they're kinda cute. They're like the awkward couple, but they're awkward together. Love that.

HES JUST STARING AT HER AS SHES SPEAKING OK NVM ALL DOUBTS ARE GONE. Why can't I find me a girl like that. This show is so rude.

oh yeah this girl got rejected twice in the same day. Ouch. I mean, I understand their sides cause why would you marry someone when they can't decide what they want? Like this show is literally speed dating x10000000. But also I understand her want to find someone to love her, I just don't think it would be on this show of all things.

YO THIS DUDE GOT MARRIED AT 18 FOR 8 YEARS? AND THEY BROKE UP? FUCKING OUCH. Holy shit. Give this man a massive ass hug.

Ok, she's literally just gonna go to her third choice? This feels like another Jess situation ngl. This shit happens every season omg.

(yet i eat it up everytime)

Yo, Nancy is so fucking beautiful, man. Like holy shit.

Andrew gives me douche vibes. Just the way he holds himself. Dude has barely talked yet and i'm like "nope. ew" he's literally bragging about traveling and cars and shit dude.

Nvm, man's just dropped some really deep shit. Wtf. Where tf did that come from? the casual sip afterwards

I know she did not just basically call this man humble.

Bartise is giving me bad vibes. Like he hasn't necessarily done anything that bad yet, but he just feels off. Idk.

Raven is so gorgeous too. Weren't these the two that randomly started working out on the first date? I forget. oh wait she said she was insecure about something, i missed it.

Honestly, I think the Bartise feeling i have is just his voice. I just really don't like his voice LOL

She's just pacing around in a circle, and she keeps looking directly into the camera and it's fuckin hilarious omg. Girl is just doing hip thrusts as he tells a story.. Dude this girl.. LMAO He's opening up and she's just doin jumping jacks.

LMFAO HE HEARD HER WORKING OUT, THATS GREAT. Aww i kinda feel bad for him now.

SK's voice on the other hand, is so smooth. I could listen to this man read me audio books bro. YOO HIS PARENTS ARE POLY?? Omg this man is an absolute sweetheart. I like SK way more LOL. He's so nice about everything.

HOLY SHIT WAIT COLE

HE LOOKS LIKE AMBER AND BARNETTS KID

I KID YOU NOT

He annoys me so fucking much tho omg. I feel like he's trying to be quirky hyper, but he's just annoying hyper.

Zanab is great as well. They're all so nice this season and then the dudes are shit. Except for SK and- why tf is he crying? is he fake crying or just? cause both are incredibly weird. He's fake crying... wtf. Anyways. Except for SK and Brennon.

THEY DATED FOR A FEW MONTHS, GOT MARRIED, AND SHE LEFT HIM IN A FEW MONTHS AFTER THAT? Girl nah, that's a red flag in itself. There's a reason that girl left.

dude just casually asked her to be his girlfriend. He's like the fucking couch steve impersonator from last season that dated natalie.

Colleen and Matt. Forgot about him. Why do so many men have southern accents here? I think it's like two actually. Oh wtf, I blanked out and now he's talking about getting cheated on. Ok, but that situation actually does suck ass.

LMAO RAVEN JUST STOPPED AND STARED AT IT. Can she say no, man? Like, if he's about to propose let's just say no. SHES JUST EATING CHIPS WHILE HES ABOUT TO PROPOSE. Honestly, I don't feel sorry for him ngl. He sounds like a prick rn. LMFAO HER FACE OMG THATS AMAZING.

"I go out there looking for girls that make me feel better" absolutely not.

LMAO THIS GIRL. SHES AMAZING. Raven has been picked as my favorite this season. Absolutely love her. Queen.

I KNOWWW HES NOT TALKING SHIT ABOUT RAVEN. LMAOOOO he calls raven obviously very attractive and SK is like "She's very smart! 😁" he's adorable.

Bro Nancy is just picking the douchebags. Like Andrew needs to be humbled, and Bartise needs someone to smack sense into him.

Nancy is so cute, girl I need you to run. Rip those heels off and full on quarterback run outta there.

Wtf is this? Silent disco? That's not random at all. Literally where tf did that come from.

"I wouldn't want it any other way, I want love in your way" this man..

Cole is a literal child omg

i can't believe she said yes. Well i mean i understand it, but me, personally. Absolutely not.

Matt, that "me too" was not convincing at all

AWWW YEAH SK IS PROPOSING

Her pacing around the room is such a mood

SHE DID NOT JUST SAY "YES SIR" LMAOOO

"Husband material" girl.... be honest...

"i couldn't see myself being with zanab" yeah cause you got rejected by your number one. Rightfully so.

ok i did not need to hear her moan

"has bigger boobs than i expected" bruhhhh

ok that's enough kissing... ok...

i feel like nancy's gonna pick baurtise and it makes me anxious

I don't think Andrew's amazing, but he's better than baurtise.

[brothalynchhung]

2023 overview

im such a loyal person man LMAOOO i still specfically come back here to do this lool anyways this year was fucking insane like FUCKING insane and long as hell... grniguehrsi

i think i started the year a lil depressed cuz i was working that fuckass job

lets seee

i think jan 2023 was nothing but me suffering through that fuck ass job, gyming, etc.,

that old apt ahahah i mean tbh it was nice but too big and TOO SECLUDED omg

actually the way i spent a whole year so isolated from society was crazy what the fawk

i dont even think i got much out of it like self improvement wise

maybe japanese? guitar? but that came only at the end

i guess playing ps5... lol -_-

i gained so much weight cuz of depression and that stressful ass job

the way i think majority of that weight was just the AMOUNT OF CORTISOL BUILD UP I HAD

anyways jan was whatever

then i went to umrah in feb which was stressful cuz the amount of ppl and the BUGS man god

this whole time i thought my prayers werent answers but they were tbh i had a good year even if there was struggles

i didnt get gl yet but APPARENTLY thats too much to ask for

whatever

then barcelona lMAOOO which was okay!! i think i would have obv enjoyed it more if i wasnt there for work but i mean still it was just another european city

my spanish was ass

i was too paranoid about someone jacking my phone lol

survived tho

ate some GOOD ASS FOOD. omg best food ever

and the sangriaasss omg

it was worth it being the canon event of me getting fired LMAO

hoenstly was a lil ugly ass bitch that co founder was fuck him fr

loser highkey

anywho

so spain barcelona and saudi 2 countries down within the first 3months of the year

tbh basically up until june majority of my year was this stupid ass job travelling here and there complaining about that ugly ass bitch

omg what a shaytan that man was holyshit and not like a powerful shaytan more like a whiny weak insecure life sucking pitiful pathetic piece of shit shaytan the one that lowers the energies of everything around it

pitiful ass human fr im so happy that shit got out of my life

that was the best thing to happen to me this year like not exclusively him but the whole job too LOL

like thanks for the pay and travel finessed the fuck out all tbh BYE

chaper closed thank god

and whats crazy is that the SECOND after that meeting i forgot about it all lMFAOOOO LIKE I WAS READYY

march was cool i finally got to go back to america

actually march lowkey changed my life

texas was so much fun omg i miss america man americans are nice just h8 their govt

sxsw!!! DUDE ive always wanted to go and GOT TO ALL under someone elses coin LMFAOOOOOO

met cool ppl ig, saw cool things, film and tv industry - coool cool cool

and i didnt rlly have to do shit there LMAO

anyways then went to houston where nadas friend HELD IT DOWNNNNN

like finally omg i got to get hiiii FINALLY

RODEO HIGH VEGAN SOUL FOOD HIGH

THE FOOD WAS SO GOOD THE RECORD SHOPPING WAS SEXY

so good

then i came back and i was mad depressed cuz i should be out there working and learning from ppl who like the shit as me not stuck out the middle of FUCK ASS NOWHERE DOING NOTHING

which yeah i think that like lit the fire out of my ass about how much i hated the job and place and cuz ad was like quarantine istg

thennn hmm april..OH YEAH JAPAN

BASICALLY ONCE I GOT BACK IT WAS HELL DEALING WITH THAT FUCK ASS JOB CUZ OF THE STUPID ASS.

i dont even remember waht the bullshit ass term is

uhhh i forget lMAOOO that stupid bullshit where i was PERFORMANCE PLANNN

stupid as fuck what kind of corporate fake working society term is that omfg

AND FOR NOTHING BUT THAT THING IN BARCELONA WHERE I DIDNT GO TO SOME BULLSHIT

i dont care was worth it like fuck yeah bitch!! i really am using yall to fuck around and travel cuz THIS STUPID ASS JOB IS NOT MY FUTURE

and it isint omg its like it never exsited LMFAO

anyways that stressed me out but thank god i had edibles lmao

DUHA HELD IT DOWNN

mmm then i survived to japan

I WENT TO JAPAN THIS YEAR OMFG AFTER YEARS!!! YEARSSSS!!! OF DREAMING ABOUT JAPAN!!! I GOT TO GO

honestly me going to japan was what made this year like this def had to be one of the best years of my life just for that on its own

actually like yeah this def was oddly enough one of the best years of my life?

emotionally hell yes but everything else was good

jsut stupid self-inflicted stress (minus that fuck ass job)

anyways japan was amazing left it wanting to learn the language and AM

i cant wait to go back

and the fact i hit tokyo kyoto and osaka all at once omg amazing

nintendo world 😭 shibuya 😭 just kyoto in general 😭

i bought so much omg

THE FOOD OMG THEIUEHGSEIUH

i had so much good food this year lmao barcelona, japan, texas 🤪

anywhoo after that i basically dont remember much of may like it was just tryna get through the shit and deal with that stupid ass plan and talking to that dumb bitch

which i punked off and he didnt like like fuck u u ugly untalented waste of life ? im not talking nice to u or respecting your bitch ass

and he think getting rid of me was a slap in the face as if that wasnt exactly what i wanted LMFAOOO

3 months leave with pay ??? and i scammed yall w the ticket price?? LOOOOOL oKAYYY THANKS!!!

CHAPTER CLOSED

so basically june they let me gooo true freedom then had the best month of my life in thailand which was FUCKKINGGG MAAZINGGG

omg thailand was so much fun i felt so free

the most free and most happy i ever felt in my life

krabi .. rayleh beach omg the weed and shrooms on the beach 😭

seriously i had no one in my face, no bitches, no work, money, freedom, time, no problems NOTHING

i seriously think those few days in krabi were the happiest moments of my life ever

like pure freedom and security and happiness in ever sense of each word

soooo grateful

and i deserved it after all the stupid ass stress that stupid ass job put me through

and the whole time i was there i was just so grateful i never felt that much gratitude in my life ever

thailand in general was fun omg i bought so much stuff i loved bangkok

i just love travelling man seriously im just built to travel around discover and learn about the world i love connected with the world and exploring and adventuring i hate being stuck in a place

all i ever want to do is travel and live like really LIVE

hate work

anywho right after i came back to my freedom then basically just chilled until i had to go to canada

which was 🙄

listen - ottawa was surprisingly okay actually i enjoyed it, i smoked, i walked around listening to y2k music, stayed at home all cozy, appreciated the nature and the nostalgia lmaoo even chilling w lina and her cousins was fun

but toronto -_- listen im never going to forgive that bitch for throwing me out and those other hoes for not being there for me

shout out to p tho lol

all i wanted to do was leave istg

toronto was a lil boring but i was also just mad cuz all my friends were all

CUT OFFFFF ill never see yall again except maybe nadine and p

for once ottawa was better than toronto

anyways i think im 1000% done w toronto

CHAPTER CLOSED

thank god finally

oh yeah i started a youtube account that im trying to take seriously i guess LOL

i still need to keep going and working on it but its fun

OH YEAH CHICAGOO

LOLLAAPALOOZAAA

yeah thank god that crazy bitch didnt come but omg what a waste of a ticket but anyways her L not mine

just thankful that i had the money for all of this -_- shout out that fuck ass job i guess lmao

part 2... ?

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #132

Who is your favorite sibling? I'm not picking a favorite.

Do you have neat handwriting? Yeah, people regularly say it's almost too fancy to read lmao. Once you're used to how I write my letters though I think it's perfectly decipherable.

Have you ever tried seaweed? Yes, I thought it was disgusting.

Would you rather grow wings or a tail? WINGS

Have you ever been to a gynecologist? I went to my very first one over a month ago, maybe close to two; I'd been able to avoid them this long because of being a virgin but by 27 years old, it was understandably being pushed on me for my own protection; not everything that happens down there is related to intimacy and I was being very unsafe by refusing to go for this long. It was an extremely upsetting and difficult experience that took a long time to do because I just wouldn't cooperate and calm down but we eventually got it done. I'm very, very thankful for how patient and understanding the doctor and her assistant were, and obviously my mom being so supportive and present too.

Do you get on Facebook every day? Generally, yes.

What is your Instagram screenname? I have three lmao (brittsburrow, brittanymphotography, eldritch_obscura), all for different purposes.

Would you ever consider naming a child after a family member? No. They're having their own, unique identity.

Do you know anyone who has the virus? Not currently, I think.

What do you remember from sex ed class when you were younger? That apparently you were either abstinent or stupid. No in-betweens.

Are caterpillars more cute or disgusting? Cute!!!!

Did you reject or accept your last friend request? No, some rando I didn't know or even have mutuals with.

Have you ever made out with someone you weren’t dating? No.

What was the last thing you threw away? A food wrapper.

When you were born was the umbilical cord wrapped around your neck? Not that I know of, and I'd definitely assume no because of how my mom explains mine and my two immediate sisters' births: Ashley was born with a very red face, I was normal (white as a newborn baby is gonna be), and Nicole was blue (she wasn't breathing/at risk of dying), so she sometimes calls us the American Girls lmfao.

Do you have a guilty conscience? YES

Would you enter a burning building to save a kitten? I think in the heat (lul) of the moment, unless it was a very clear, indisputable case of "you're going to die walking directly into fire," I feel like I would.

Matthew, Mark, Luke, or John? If you're asking which section of the Bible I prefer, none. What name do I like best, Luke.

Do you like avocados? Ugh no, I do NOT get the appeal whatsoever.

What’s the worst name you’ve ever been called? A weak-willed deadweight. Or martyr (and not in the "I'd die for my beliefs" sense). The first one hurt more though, because I get insecure over myself in the way of seeing myself as weak and burdensome.

What are some pieces of furniture that you must have in your dream house? Uhhh I haven't thought much about this. Obviously a comfortable bed large enough for me and my partner, a decent couch (that is NOT leather, that I do have a strong opinion on, lol), and I'd actually really really like a cozy hanging swing chair for reading and stuff. Certainly an entertainment center of some sort for a television and gaming consoles.

If you smoke weed, what do you usually do after you get high? If you don’t, what would you do if everyone around you were smoking? I don't, and I've been in the second situation before lol, I just chatted with 'em and watched TV.

Have you ever studied human anatomy? No. I mean, besides lightly in very basic science courses that cover like our different bodily systems.

Do you plan to do much or go anywhere tomorrow? Um nothing that I know of. I'd like to see Girt though, maybe I will.

Would you have more Word documents or images saved on your computer? Images, by a long shot.

What's your favourite non-dairy milk? I only enjoy dairy milk. Trust me, I've tried not to.

Which sibling are you closest to, both physically (distance) and emotionally? Physically, uhhhh... I'm preeeetty sure Ashley's place is closer? Emotionally, none, honestly. I WISH I was closer with them.

What would you do if your partner cheated on you? I'm gone, immediately.

What’s the furthest you’ve gone with the opposite gender? I guess it'd be oral.

Have you ever taken part in an orgy or bondage party? Noooooo I have no interest in doing intimate stuff with more than just my partner present.

Does pain turn you on? More than what I'm rather positive is considered normal but not to an extreme level, I absolutely have boundaries.

What time of day you were born? Like, 11:30 AM.

Have you ever had sex at school before? You couldn't have paid me to do that.

What piercings do you want? A good chunk more in my ears, right nostril for the third time lmao, I'm DYING to get a pair of collarbone dermals if my collarbones are ever prominent again (or with this new tattoo I'm actually considering the possibility of just getting one in the middle of the arch of the moon that's in it), and I've also thought about MAYBE back dimple dermals if my body/weight gets to a point that I'm happy with. There are more facial piercings that I'd like, but me ever not having glasses again isn't realistic and I don't think they'd look good with glasses.

How many people have you kissed? Four.

Describe your dream home. Not sure about the building material (I love wooden houses but there are more sustainable options), but I know with absolute fucking certainty it's GOT to be out in nature, very preferably the woods, with only few neighbors. A nature-friendly yard is absolutely mandatory; fuck that bland-ass green carpet shit, we're having plenty of flowers (even those that are considered weeds), a birdfeeder, hopefully a bat house, and a bird bath would be AMAZING. I'd really like a flower garden too, but that REALLY depends on if I develop the dedication for it and tolerance to being outside in the heat and stuff. As far as interior stuff goes and besides the very obvious essentials, I'd like a room to dedicate to my hopeful collection of reptiles and inverts, as well as one for gaming and computer stuff... more so for Girt at this point, haha, but I'd love it too. A room dedicated to productivity (drawing, doing yoga, writing poems, etc.) would be really beneficial for me, and it's one where I'd like big windows to let tons of light in.

Do you watch porn? No, very much not my thing.

Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced? Most likely not.

How would you spend a million dollars? House and car for Mom, then buy a house for Girt and me.

Describe your best friend. Funny as hell and loyal as a dog. He leaves nobody he cares about behind, ever, and despite he himself actually thinking he's generally selfish, he's SO far from it. When he cares, he cares incredibly deeply, and he's the most hard-headed human being I've ever met, sometimes to his detriment. He's an extremely hard worker, but on the downside, puts an absurd amount of pressure on himself and is convinced he's never enough in any sort of way. He's very much a provider in personality, like he's straight-up said he LIKES knowing that he's taking weight off people and that it gives him a sense of purpose. He's an introvert and a major homebody that likes sticking to himself, but he's perfectly friendly when he does interact with others, unless you give him reason not to be. He's VERY much more logical than emotional, like it's not even close, but he's absolutely not heartless and especially as his s/o I certainly see he has feelings. He is honest to god just such a fucking fantastic person and I consider myself remarkably lucky to know this one guy out of eight billion people.

Do you still have feelings for any of your exes? No romantic feelings, no. I do care that Jason stays okay (even though I don't have a way of truly knowing this) and I want him to do great in the world, but I don't have surviving romantic feelings for him anymore.

If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick? I don't personally know a single celebrity, so none of them.

What’s your favorite kind of weather? Snowy! Not like a blizzard, but just a gentle, quiet snowfall.

What in your opinion is the best love song ever written? Maaaan idk there's so many lol, I have a long-time adoration of "When It's Love" by Van Halen, but I also think "If It's Love" by Train is insanely adorable.

Was your mother married when she had you? No, apparently.

Who was the last person(s) you took a photo with? Uh, I'm actually not sure, I feel like it was my sisters on my birthday...

Do you like cheeseburgers? They're actually one of my favorite foods and I really wish they weren't lmao

Are you mad at your best friend right now? No, got no reason to be. On the contrary I've been clingier than normal the past few days, I've noticed.

Do you have a Flickr? Yeah. Not a big photography platform focus for me, but it's there.

Anything exciting happening in the month of September? Yeah, that'll be mine and Girt's second anniversary.

Where was your FB display pic taken? This desk chair.

Your ex calls wanting to hang out. What do you say? I don't know how the hell he'd have my number, but in the total hypothetical, the answer's no. I'd ask him why he's asking, and I mean... I guess maybe I'd be fine meeting up in a public location with Girt present if he in some foreign universe wanted to like, make amends/try to dispel any remaining bad energy, but I'd prefer that not happen. I'm not willing to "hang out" on a more personal level, that I know for sure.

Would you get back with your last ex if they asked you? HELL FUCKING NO

Are any of your friends virgins? Extremely unlikely.

[sharkiethrts]

Hi uhhh i am the very odd s/o karma rq person! I loved it but right now i am having a panic attack so im trying to indulge in my comforts which the person who’s causing this hasn’t infested and changed for me, how would karma deal with a s/o who had a dramatic falling out with a toxic friend and now is easily triggered by any appearance of that person into their life? It gets horrible knowing that i nearly ruined someone’s life by my words and officially did so with their perception of me, i hate knowing that the last version of me that they saw was such a hateful one and i cant stand myself for what i did, I can’t live my life without this paranoia they cloud my mind with (as simple as you’d like- in fact I’d prefer just headcanons but seriously however you see fit, i dont mind i am so fucking grateful no matter what. And, if you don’t write for this that is perfectly fine)

writing style, casual

KARMA AKABANE: headcanons, panic attack, comfort

[1:27PM, 30th March 2022]

- karma's parents are practically never home

- so he invites you to his home 24/7

- its like "ayo u free?? ok come over." "you just took a shit?? ok come over."

- im a firm believer that he gave you the key to his house. like he got one done just for u. his parents dont even know HAHAHAH

- so that means that you get to come around to his anytime you want.

- he's always so excited for you to come over omg :D

- he would never admit it tho >:0

- his pride </3

- he would hold you as you rant

- hes not the type to judge

- and his eyes, you are held to a very high level and respect

- hes the type to actually listen

- and if you need tips?? hes here

- he actually has vry good tips

- if you ever want to meditate, hes here. lmfao he shits on meditation sometimes cause he thinks it doesnt work.

- but dude is such a simp man.

- justdonttellhisfriends>:0

- if u ever feel like youre a horrible person, hes there to listen to. he wont deny what youre feeling, cause feelings matter. yours matters twice as much <33

- he would work on himself with you. he has tONS of flaws too yk. tons of stuff hes insecure abt.

- working on yourself tgter omg so cute!!! <3

heres a virtual hug again :D

[purplestzebra10]

Umm, what?

Summary: You’ve been trying to shift for a long time now and after a week long break it happens unexpectedly.( This is about reality shifting and if you don’t know what that is you basically shift your consciousness from this reality to another one that you desire. Research it if you’re interested. You don’t have to really know about it to read this fic.)

Pairing: Platonic!Haikyuu x Reader

Word count:  around 826

Warnings: nothing just fluff, oh and swear words (idk if I have to warn about that lmfao)

A/N:uhhhh, hey. No long authors note full of excuses, just expect for me to be posting periodically. However, as an apology I will post some of my works from my vault and that may or may not include smut. 

For reality shifters: I know its been tough not getting to your goal (I may or may not be speaking from experience) so I though I could write some x readers to cheer yall up.  

(this picture is from a google image search.)

Key:

y/n- your name y/l/n- your last name h/c- home country

You took a week off to yourself. It was a break that was very much needed. 

It wasn’t school you needed a break from, well yeah you did, but it wasn’t about that. 

For what seemed like years, but was actually a few months, you've been trying to shift realities to go into the My Hero Academia universe and it seemed like your efforts weren't working. You listened to the subliminals, meditated, even picked up yoga but it all didn’t seem to work. Hell, you even tried to keep a positive attitude and “acknowledged the doubts and push them away.”

After yelling at the universe for your misfortune, you decided that you guys needed to see other people. Even if to you that meant scrolling through your phone mindlessly while talking to friends. 

When you decided to take a nap on a beautiful Friday evening you didn’t have any intention of shifting. You simply went to sleep daydreaming about what it would be like to be a part of the Haikyuu gang. 

A few rules would be bent here and there so you could be a volleyball manager along with Yachi. Playfully fighting with Tsukki because he said something under his breath. Watching Hinata go on a long rant about volleyball and how he has to improve in some skill. 

Because it was a daydream, you didn’t really have much of a backstory on your character. Just that you are a transfer student from H/C and that you lived alone in an apartment. Said place being a common hangout area for the group to chill and play video games considering there were no parents. 

You went to sleep with a small smile plastered on your face. No dreams came to you but what did was much better. 

You felt someone poke at your right arm and as you awoke, you saw it to be Yachi.

What the hell?

“Y/n, you’re drooling!” Yachi exclaimed. “Eww.”

“Uhhh, yeah, that’s what people do when they sleep.” You said. 

“Gross, but school is over. Hurry up we have to make it to the volleyball gym!” Before you could say anything, she rushed out of the classroom. 

You packed up your things and headed towards the gym.

WAIT A DAMN MINUTE! HOLD UP!

Your mind finally caught up to the situation and so you made your way towards one of the girls' bathrooms. You locked yourself in a stall and started doing reality checks. You tried putting your hand through the other which failed. You pinched herself quite a few times and felt pain. Then you ran out of the stall ignoring the looks of your supposedly classmates who were walking out and looked in the mirror. 

You looked like yourself, a few things changed here and there, just some insecurities, but overall it was her. 

“Shit shit shit shit shit. Okay, Y/n let’s not freak out.  Let's go over this.” You said as you started to breathe more rapidly. “You went to take a nap, yes. Now you’re here. Okay let’s calm down Y/n you might shift back.”

After steading your breathing you decided to make her way to the gym. 

“Could you not surround her until she’s more comfortable?” you heard Kiyoko say as you neared the gym. Not soon after you saw Yachi scurrying off. 

“Um, Y/n, there are a lot of dudes in there and they’re kind of scary.” Yachi warned you.

“I love you, but it is boys volleyball.”

When you made it to the door you gave it a few knocks and were greeted by Kiyoko. 

“There she is!” Kiyoko exclaimed. “Everyone, this is Y/n Y/l/n! She’s in the same class as Yachi and hopefully also going to be a manager.”

“Wow Kiyoko, you got two girls!” Nishinoya said which was rewarded with a slap on the head by Daichi. 

“Hey everyone!” You said.

“Hello!” The boys said in unison. 

“Um, I don’t really know much about volleyball so I don’t know how much I’ll be of use.” You explained.

“It's okay, I’ll teach you the basics if you can help me warm up.” Hinata offered. Without giving you a chance to reply, he grabbed one of your wrists and pulled you to the volleyball net. 

While you helped Hinata with warm ups he went through the different aspects of volleyball and what was needed to win. You completely forgot that you technically weren’t supposed to know everyone so you asked Hinata to help you put faces to names. 

Even after that was done there was a lot of time left for practice so for the rest of it you ended up talking to Kiyoko about your job as the manager. However, the whole time you were internally screaming at the fact that you were actually here. 

Out of nowhere, a volleyball had come flying your way which made you accidentally say your safe word. You awoke from your nap that apparently lasted a few hours. 

[kurooandkenmasslut]

Gacha ppl 😫😫😫

That's Melissa she's a red head (Lmfao) she has a twin sister named Peaches who she loves a lot 💖 she is Aro/Ace 😫 and yuh

This is Peaches she's more shy than Melissa and she is gender fluid and she loves my hero academia like she is a big fan 😫 (She ships Deku x Bakugo tho so 😬 🧏‍♀️)

OMG A LITERAL GODDESS 😫😫😫😫😫 HER NAME IS MOSMEI MARIE MOKI (I made her have the same middle name as me cuz I fucking said so 💅) SHE IS INSECURE ABOUT HER FACE SO SHE COVERS IT UP BY USING HER HAIR 🥺 SHE HAS HETEROCHROMIA (WHAT OBANAI HAS WITH HIS EYES) AND VITILIGO 🤧🤧🤧 HER FAV COLORS ARE PURPLE AND PINK AND SHE IS ALSO A BIG SIMP FOR MITSURI AND OBANAI 😫😫😫😫 yea that's it uhhh tell me if u wanna see more OC's 😍

JDLDJD MOSMEI DOES LOOK LIKE A FUCKING GODDESS WTF AND THE WAY SHE COVERS HER FAC WITH HER HAIR IS SO FUCKING CUTE, NOT TO MENTION HER FITT KIEJDJDKD 🤭🤭

AND YES I WANT TO SEE MOREEE

[keijiskitty]

getting caught making out with yamaguchi w/ fem!reader

request: can you do yamaguchi getting caught making out with his gf in the club room? but he’s more dominant in their relationship. also can you not put my name in this? thank you <333

a/n: hey love! so i didn’t really know how to respond to your ask but keep your url hidden, (or if that’s even possible) so i decided i’d just copy paste your reuest and tell you lmfao. also, congrats on being my first request lol <3

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• okay so earlier in the day, he had lent you a textbook

• so you decide to just stop by the clubroom and leave the textbook in his bookbag since you dont want to interrupt practice

• but in the gym earlier, noya had spilled water on yamaguchi's shirt

• and daichis all like "don't worry about it, there are extras in the clubroom"

• so then yams goes back to the clubroom to change

• he's taking off his shirt when the door opens, and thinking its nishinoya coming to apologize, he turns around

• "hey, noya-senpai i'm not ma-"

• “i’m not that short y’know” you retort, but then you get a good look at him

• and now you're standing there staring, because your boyfriend is standing in front of you, shirtless, and fuck he looks hot- what with the sun coming through the open door behind you illuminating his features and defining his toned abs

• you have absolutely no idea what to do because you've never seen him shirtless so should you look away? no that would be weird you're his girlfriend. but what if he doesn't want you looking because he's insecure? but how could he be insecure he literally has the body of a God wtf-

• "like what you see, y/n?” seeing you ogle at him was a total confidence booster

• "uh"

• he rolls his eyes good-naturedly and leans against his locker with an amused look, "well? are you gonna keep ogling or are you gonna come here and kiss me?"

• you: say less lmfao

a breathy sigh leaves your lips as you feel tadashi's hands roam up and down your sides, your back against the cold locker. honestly, you're not complaining, your boyfriend is extremely hot, you're in the mood, and he's giving you exactly what you want. its just that you know how hard he's been working and how much he’s been focusing on volleyball, and don't want him to berate himself over this later. "tadashi, you have to get back to pr- ah! practice!"

"practice can wait, love" he responds as he sucks hickies above your collarbone

yeah, definitely not complaining.

he grazes his teeth over the sensitive spot under jaw, "fuck!" you breathe out, pushing his chin to face you so he can continue kissing you. you comb your fingers through his hair, tugging on one strand to elicit a grunt from him.

you smile into the kiss, satisfied that you’re the reason he makes those sounds, and you’re the only one who gets to hear them. your body is on fire, feeling electric everywhere tadashi touches you, your hand trailing down to the back of his head, pushing his head deeper into the kiss. you wanted more, needed more. 

unfortunately, you didn’t quite get more.

“hey, yama- ohhkay! woah! uhHH”

you scrambled to let go of tadashi and push him off of you the second you recognized another presence standing in the doorway, made easier by the fact that your boyfriend had practically jumped 3 feet backwards.

you recognized the short stature standing in the doorway as nishinoya, their libero. why was he here? it sounded like he had some business with yamaguchi, shit, you realized you weren’t even supposed to be here in the first place, was he going to get you in trouble?

“nishinoya-senpai! I’m so sorry! I- I didn’t- I’m really sorry It won’t happen again-”

“I DIDN’T KNOW YOU HAD A GIRLLL!! CONGRATS YAMAGUCHI! My mann!”

okay, so he definitely wasn’t going to get you in trouble. he was...proud? of tadashi? you were just grateful that it wasn’t one of the third-years or coaches, that would be bad. still, it’d be better if you left before anyone else come in and read the situation. you moved to pick up your bag and finally give tadashi the textbook you had borrowed when-

“aaand what do we have here?” 

your head shot up to see one of the third-years, the one with silver hair leaning against the doorway. so much for your escape plan

“I was just leaving! Sorry, I came to give back one of Tadashi’s textbooks.” you looked over at him when you said his name, and actually took him in, he was still shirtless, and crimson red from his beck to the tip of his ears, avoiding eye contact by hanging his head down. it would’ve been cute if you also weren’t mortified. 

“sure,” said the third-year, with a knowing glint, “don’t worry about it, your sugawara-senpai’s-” so that’s his name “got you covered.” he looked down at the libero, “as long as you can keep your mouth shut,” and then looked back at you and tadashi, “you lovebirds’ll be safe from embarrassment.” 

“c’mon, nishinoya, you can apologize later” you heard sugawara say before walking out the door, following nishinoya. you picked up the textbook and placed it in tadashi’s hands, who was still avoiding eye contact.

“uh, here” jeez, real smooth y/n, you could’ve at least tried to act normal

“hey, y/n?” he finally looked up at you.

“hm?” 

“don’t worry, we can continue this later.” 

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and that’s it! i apologize for how long this took, and i’m really sorry if it’s cringey, any feedback is appreciated! <3

[crispin-kreme]

Hello cutie ;) !!! May I have a TOT Match comin right up plsss? I'm esfp 5w4, im a pure cancer (born on july 7th, a july baby yk??? :D) Ok so I have this thing where I act all bubbly one second and I go quiet the next second. Apparently it's because my mbti are both opposing each other, wondered abt it a few times but decided to not take it too seriously because the person who told me was named Jacob. LMFAO JKJK

IM JOKING AHAHA

anyway

im pretty clingy but my pride gets in the way cause i dont wanna be vulnerable with my significant other ykyk? like im fine with being affectionate with my friends, but being lovey dovey with my partner??? its kinda cringe. will need more trust fr. i have a serious maladaptive daydreaming problem. and dude dude this is a sudden thought but

do u ever get tired of doing these requests? just a sudden thought LMFAO

oh no haHAHAHA off topic anywaYYY

what else should i add?? i guess uhhh

ur blog hella cool?? how do u regulate ur asks so well?? respects!!! ur writings so good too?? im obsessed.

oh no off topic again one sec one sec

i would want a partner that doesnt mind me bothering them at ungodly hours. like i wanna go and get mcdonalds with u ykyk <3 and idk why but im pretty insecure abt this

i want a partner that doesnt mind me eating sm unhealthy stuff <3 like i promise my metabolism can handle it- i THINK HAHAHHA can u even understand what im typing rn?? u can?? omg lets get married.

jkjk

unless. LMFAO JK/hjhjhjjjjjjhj

hi !! tysm for the ask but rn i’m not taking ship requests but you could be an exception anyways!

(i lost my layout so its bland rn)

i ship you with… marius von hagen!

idk i think yall would be chatoic and chill 🤔 he doesnt mind if you seriously maladaptive daydream. he’d probably cuddle the shit out of you as you maladaptive daydream, he’d spoil you fr!

in general you guys would be chatoic and chill as i mentioned. stay at home dates are often to happen but if you wanna go out he’ll take you to a fancy shmancy resto 😮‍💨

[zukos-scribe]

You’re Beautiful Beach

Hey could you pls fic /oneshot thingy y know (I always get confused by these) with zuko X insecure reader? Maybe the gang is going to the beach and every one is in there swimming stuff but the reader feels really self conscious zuko realises somehow and makes her feel better.

Idk why I titled this that way lmfao, i couldn’t think of anything else.

The beach. Of course, why not? It made sense because of your location, but you wish it could be anywhere else. You didn’t want to go to the beach.

You didn’t want anyone to see you in a swimsuit, because you didn’t feel great about your body. Especially because you would be in front of your crush, Zuko. Prince Zuko. Of the fire nation.

While you were from the water tribe. And while you could bend, you were shy and insecure. You didn’t do a lot, you were more of a healer. And being from the water tribe, you were used to being cold and fully covered up.

“LET’S GO!” Sokka screams as he dashes towards the water. Aang and Toph follow straight after him, followed by Katara, then Zuko, and then myself. I followed behind quietly, wearing leggings and a sleeveless coverup. That was already as much as you had ever shown before. 

The others were messing around in the water, Zuko was sitting and resting on a towel, and you stayed back in a shaded spot where no one noticed you. 

You were typically shy and quiet already, so it wasn’t much of a surprise to the others that you weren’t messing around like them. Some of the others noticed that you were sitting in the shade, but they didn’t think too much of it.

Except for Zuko, who at first thought that you were just too hot and being your normal self. But then he noticed that you were growing more and more uncomfortable, and trying to make yourself as small as possible.

He decided that he would go over and sit with you, because he knew you wouldn’t get involved unless prompted. 

“Hey y/n,” he said softly as he approached you.

“Oh… hey Zuko,” you replied quietly. “Do you need something?”

“No, I just wanted to see how you were doing? We’re at the beach, but you’re sitting in the shade in a swimsuit cover up. Are you too hot?”

“Uhhh…… no I’m ok. All good here.”

Zuko raised an eyebrow at you.

“Right. Would you mind if I sat here with you for a little while?” he asked, kneeling down in the sand. 

Your heart pounded a little harder in your chest, and your breath hitched before you responded.

“Yeah, sure,” you stated, trying to stay calm. Zuko gave you a small smile and sat down next to you.

The two of you sat there enjoying the scenery, watching the others messing around, and feeling the nice cool sea breeze drift through your hair. 

Neither of you spoke, but Zuko watched you out of the corner of his eye. He noticed that you were trying to make yourself smaller, and that you were pulling at your clothes a lot. Anytime that the two of you made any sort of eye contact, you would immediately turn away. As he watched you move around every couple of minutes, he finally understood part of what was going on. You were extremely uncomfortable with something.

“Y/N?” he asked.

“Yeah?” you replied, turning to look at him from the corner of your eye. Your fingers picked at the skin on your lip as you stared off into space. 

“What’s wrong? And don’t say you’re fine, because you’re obviously not. It’s written all over you, you’re not comfortable with something. Do you want me to leave?”

Your eyes widened and a small grimace graced your lips. 

“No, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you feel bad.”

“It’s not me that I’m worried about. I’m more concerned about you. There’s something wrong, and I’d like you to tell me. I promise I won’t judge or tell anyone. But if you really don’t want to talk that’s fine, I’d just like to help you.”

You looked up at him and saw how sincere he was being. You sighed, while adjusting yourself one more time, staring at your hands before talking. 

“I just feel… really uncomfortable in these clothes. I don’t look great, and I’m not the most attractive. I’m scared that people are going to see me out there and judge me. It’s happened before, I have a little more weight on my hips than some other girls and it makes people turn their nose up at me. Like I’m lesser just because I have a little more fat. So I try not to draw attention to myself.”

Zuko stared at you in disbelief. 

“Seriously? What weight are you talking about?”

You looked at him in confusion, and he stared back at you with the same expression. 

“The weight here on my hips. There’s a little bit on my stomach too.”

Zuko shook his head. 

“I don’t know what people are talking about. I don’t see anything except a healthy young woman. So what if you have a little extra weight? Your beautiful blue eyes remind me of the ocean out there, and when you smile your teeth shine like when the sun hits the sand. You’re smart and wonderful, and we all would be lost without you. Don’t let anyone tell you differently. Everyone is different, that’s what makes us unique. By the logic those people give you, then I should be downright hideous with this scare on my face.”

You frowned.

“You’re not hideous because of your scar, why would you say that?” you asked.

He gave you a look.

“Alright I see what you mean.”

Zuko takes your hand in his gently and gives it a squeeze before wrapping an arm around you in a slightly awkward side hug.

“Don’t think that what other people say is important. They’re just jealous. Trust me.”

You sighed and let your head fall on Zuko’s shoulder. 

“I trust you.”