#very self indulgent i know but idgaf

[bitter--boxx]

eah x splatoon crossover ❤💜 ... royals vs rebels splatfest idea i had in my mind for a while,,,

some extra stuff below ~

i had this idea since like 2 years ago, but never got around to do much of it aside from these 2 doodles:

[megumishotgf]

comforting megumi after a nightmare

summary: as the title says! aged up gumi. my precious boy i just want him to be happy he deserves this type of comfort!!

warnings: manga spoilers (!!), possible mentions of depression and suicide (very small), canon divergence (i’m resurrecting people idgaf)

masterlist

megumi fushiguro has had a very difficult life.

his mother passed away when he was too young to even comprehend it happening, and his deadbeat father had abandoned him and sold him off to an unbearable clan, preferring to indulge in his gambling habits than family matters. despite being luckily (?) 'rescued' by gojo and growing up relatively normal, megumi has a whole lot of self-esteem issues that were embedded into his psyche at a shockingly young age.

megumi’s cold, unwelcoming and closed off from the world. that’s what he thinks. he was forced to mature and act older than he was to survive and protect himself and tsumiki, leading to the formation of many interpersonal barriers, which have restricted his relationships throughout his entire life.

jujutsu tech seemed like a fresh start. he met yuuji, nobara, you. you. you were different from everyone. megumi finally had people to care about, other than himself and his sister (and gojo too, although he will never admit it). but how many people has he witnessed die unspeakable deaths, some at his very own hands? how many people did he hurt when sukuna had taken over his body? how the hell did he even survive that? maybe he wasn’t even meant to.

nevertheless, in the cloudy, messy fragments of his broken mind, you were the sun. how could megumi ever think of leaving you? the one thing he is certain of is that you love him more than anything. you’ve never given him any reason to doubt that. while he doubts whether or not he is deserving of you, he knows you would have been broken if something happened to him. and so he keeps going, just for you.

it’s the middle of the night when megumi finally awakens from another awful nightmare. he had only been asleep for an hour maximum before those terrorising memories had plagued his mind again, replaying as constant reminders of who he had hurt and lost.

you’re still besides him, snuggled into his side, chest rising slowly and calmly. how can something so precious be able to sleep so peacefully next to someone like him?

megumi is too consumed in his thoughts to notice you stirring besides him, blinking away the sleepiness in your eyes. you take a few seconds to register that he’s wide awake and visibly panicked. you can feel the pounding of his heartbeat underneath the hand placed on his chest and he feels awfully shaky.

you sit up instantly, sensing that something’s wrong. “gumi? are you okay?”

megumi swallows thickly before answering, afraid that his voice might falter. refusing to lock eyes with you, he stares (sulks) at the ceiling above you. “mmh. sorry, baby. didn’t mean to wake you.”

you can see through his facade, though. you notice the way he’s trembling and how he's covering his face, as if you studying his features for too long will give away his misery. “hey. another bad dream?”

megumi hesitates for a moment, ultimately deciding this isn’t something he will be able to keep from you. you can see right through him. “yeah. again.”

you’ve been in this situation more times than you can count. you insist that these bad dreams and the thoughts that come along with them will eventually dissipate (after all, time is the best healer), but it's becoming increasingly difficult for the both of you. is your comfort enough? are you even helping megumi at all? what if this deteriorates into something worse? your mind is racing with your personal anxieties, and your own memories of the awful war, but megumi takes priority. you usher him to rest on your chest, while one of your hands begins to play with his hair. yeah, he loves that more than anything, that always helps.

“tell me what happened, hm?” you say softly. you don’t ever want to push him, but you also don’t want him to keep the dream himself, hoping that by confiding in you, you can take some of the heavy burden for yourself.

megumi hesitates again, but as he breathes in your familiar scent and focuses on the slow rhythm of your heartbeat, he feels the weight on his shoulders being lifted. “i… killed you. and yuuji. and ‘miki,” he recalls. it’s the same unbearable scene that’s played over and over in his unconscious mind like broken film, even if it’s been years since the initial trauma.

“sukuna,” you correct him, arms tightening around him. “you did nothing wrong, gumi. i’m here holding you, right? and yuuji and tsumiki are perfectly fine, too. sukuna won’t be able to hurt any of us ever again.”

“but you were hurt. one of you almost did die - at my own fucking hands.”

you can sense his anger now. megumi’s angry at himself. he thinks he’s so damn weak and that’s why people got hurt. you know that’s the way he sees himself and it kills you inside. you hush him before he can spiral any further into his angry thoughts, hands soothingly caressing his skin. gentle strokes of his upper arm - the kind of tender touches that can lull him to sleep and ground him.

“you were so young, megumi. you shouldn’t have had to carry such responsibility at that age. you have immense strength, mentally and physically. but sukuna’s actions are not your burden to carry. you were a victim, not the instigator. you’d give everything to us, the people you care about. and we love you. we know you’d never hurt us, yeah?”

you feel megumi nod against your chest. he’s grinding his teeth, blinking away unwanted tears that eventually fall onto your skin. your hands cup his cheeks, pulling him to look at you.

“humans cry, gumi. it’s okay. you don’t need to feel embarrassed, especially in front of me. come on, you’ve literally seen me sob uncontrollably during frozen.”

megumi chuckles at you and it feels like a breath of fresh air seeing him more light-hearted.

“see? you’re okay. you’re smiling again. you look so pretty,” you coo at your boyfriend. a blush tints his cheeks but he can’t stop the stupid grin that forms on his face.

“yeah, yeah. whatever. i’m okay now,” megumi replies, snuggling into your chest once more. “i don’t know what i’d do without you.”

“you won’t ever have to find out, baby. i’m always gonna be here,” you say, brushing away his hair so you can kiss his forehead. “do you wanna stay up a little more?”

megumi’s reaching for your laptop seconds later and that gives you your answer. he puts on frozen, of course. he cries like a baby when elsa and anna reunite, but it's okay because you're there to kiss his tears away.

yes i'm in my serious megumi brain rot era!! i have so many unfinished one-shots that will be coming soon because he refuses to leave my brain!!

[saenora]

YOUR FAVOURITES AS YOUR SIMPS

note: if we flip tables and what if youre the mangaka character and your fav simps on you… these are some adequate subpar headcanons… 🫠 (i dont write so lmao bear w me 🤭) thankies to Ai <3 @gojoest-main for indulging always mum ily and SOBS GOJO IS BASED ON WHAT AI SAID🤭)

the husband

YN IS HIS LOML. he is huge on selfship community! HIM AND EVERYONE CALLS HIM YOUR TRUE HUBBY! he has a whole lot of selfship arts with you. he might go broke with all the merch but he cant help it every time he sees your fanarts or a new chapter drops, he goes feral. PINTEREST MOODBOARDS, PLAYLISTS YOU NAME IT. HE HAS IT. he is defending you on every website, writing little self indulging drabbles about you. he knows you well, his little head canons are cannoned by all of your fans. your his f/o and nobody can change it. he either talks about you infront of his friends and he has gained a reputation because of it or leads teh secret life… there is no inbetween. has the sweetest selfship headcanons but occasionally tweets regular horny one liners about how bad he wants to be fucked by you, or about how much he wants to cum inside you and get you pregnant.

gojo?, reo, kise chuuya, isagi, yuuji, taiga, ran + anyone who fits the criteria

the loyal hoe

he has too many blorbos, he knows it. BUT YOURE HIS MAIN BLORBO, HIS BIGGEST SELFSHIP/ THE ONE HE KEEPS CRAWLING BACK TO. it can be put as you made him standout. IS 25/8 YN BRAINROT AND TWEETS HORNIEST STUFF. HE ONLY SURVIVES ON SMUT AND BREATHES TO THE THOUGHTS OF YOUR AROUSAL. writes the best sex stuff. he keeps hopping from one to another but everyone knows he is your biggest whore. UNHINGED. crazy lot of nsfw fanarts of you, has patreon subscription to see all those fanarts. it doenst matter where he is, work/home/cafe. HE IS THIRSTING ABOUT YOU. writes about the shapes of your labia/cock and can write poetry on your body.

SHIDOU, karasu, dazai, GOJO, sukuna, toji, BACHIRA, aomine(ik.. but if he could write), ranpo, EREN, kaiser, jean + anyone who fits the criteria

the sweetheart

he isnt extremely active. somewhere in between the worlds. he calls himself your cheerleader, your number one supporter. he has tons of art saved of you might/might not be on budget. has one commissioned selfship with you. he loves you and probably has the most pure of the selfship with horniness served as dessert. (NO ONE CAN ESCAPE IT) occasionally indulges in you. is mostly very sfw!! but his head is full of all the sexi stuff. loves to talk about you… if anyone strikes a conversation about you he can write verbal books. CERTIFIED SIMP. his selfship is uwu. doesnt go big on it but is a soft fan.

kenyu, hiori, isagi, yuuta, megumi?, chifuyu, rindou, kakucho, connie, atsushi + anyone who fits the criteria

the silent one

he has been your fan since the start, the first time he laid his eyes of your 2d character design, your story, your everything captured him. he loves you from afar.. isnt really active but has a small pinterest board or a playlist of you that he silently indulges in. has no idea what selfships are but you’re a coping mechanism for him (sometimes). if you were real, he’d treat you so much better than the shitty charcter you’re stuck with. doesn’t pick fights online but wouldn’t hesitate if someone crossed a line. he doesnt realize but thinks of you more than a fictional character. probably is the healthiest out of the five. none of his irls know about his fixation of you and it would never see the light of the day. IF LOYALTY WAS A PERSON IT WOULD BE HIM. period.

nanami, rin, ness, levi, erwin, akutagawa + anyone who fits the criteria

the idgaf

he simps only for you. he has posters of you and is not ashamed. people know about you being his favourite character but he is scary so nobody can ask it about. has minimal/no online presence. but keeps signed copies of the mangakas. JERKS OFF TO YOUR POSTERS UNABASHED. he follows one fan account and prolly goes anon sometimes. heavily reads your smut or hasn’t scratched the surface you cant tell. YOURE NOT A CHARACTER, YOURE HIS FAVOURITE. ANOTHER ONE WHO DOENST KNOW WHAT SEFSHIPS ARE, BUT HEAVILY CREAMS THINKING OF YOU and has wild fantasies about you.

sae, aomine, shoichi, oliver, izana, kaiser(idk), baji, naoya, mikey, wc kunigami, ranpo + anyone who fits the criteria

zen speaks: i’ll do a yn as diff as character tropes drabbles too 🤭 so wtevrhr <3

dividers: @/cafekitsune

[nanjokei]

no but it honestly really is tragic how joker basically has no real identity. i think the content added in royal is really good (should have been in base game but lol)

like, there is at least a clear thesis statement for minato and souji ("being indifferent to death until its time to go and realizing you actually do love the world and your friends that inhabit it" and "whether its the city or the boonies what matters is your connections with others for better or for worse".. ofc this is my own interpretation.) and they are a little similar but they are stories written by the same guy and he's known for recycling elements though i DO NOT consider having similarities in this case to be recycling.

wtf is up with joker? society is bad? i want to reform it? but the cops are ok. and actually idgaf. also (specifically in vanilla) akechi who is a direct result of Society Bad is actually a terrible person who should die.

i have always maintained that p5 is hashino at his most self indulgent... and his most spiteful. everyone knows about the artbook exerpts where he talks about the female social link characters in weirdly disparaging ways. i think ikutsuki and adachi are also reflections of his spite, but they are also a bit "relatable" to him. despite this the thoroughline for all three of his twist villains are his hateboner for anyone who seems nice on the surface (all three) and are perfect/good at a first glance (ikutsuki and akechi). akechi he wrote fully to be some kind of hatesink, it is honestly seriously meanspirited how far it goes, if you look at it from that angle it immediately becomes clear. this is not a post about akechi but i think it is important to talk about because of how critical it is to understanding hashino. with akechi it was so... yeah no you wrote this character to assauge some kind of deep rooted insecurity.

it's the same with ikutsuki, but at least for him, he was an adult. with akechi hashino was lording over a 16 year old in an abusive situation. after a while of thinking i could not really seperate that, knowing how spiteful his writing is. even with the p4 gang! look at everyone's shadow selves. and then compare to the p2 shadow selves. it is so spiteful and it is super clear to me that it is at least somewhat influenced by how he sees other people which makes me very sad to think about. i think he needs to clean his brain for real.

because p5 is the most indulgent in hashino's spite it really falls apart... and that influences joker immensely. we can sit here and talk about how p4 can get really unpleasant but at least at its core even if its weirdly executed the message of p4 is there even if the commitment to it is incredibly questionable. the reason why royal is so good is because the addition of maruki (and kasumi) injects a much needed angle of empathy into p5. needless to say the humanization of akechi in royal whos hatesink status in vanilla was so excessive it made little to no sense also helps.

i can't even talk about joker even though this post is about him. because he is so nothing in his own story. there's nothing to talk about. his existence or lack thereof outside of royal exclusive content makes no difference. you could make mishima the protagonist or any rando really and not much would change. joker's existence might as well just be to be an actual self insert, which is insane to me, i never consider most protagonists in ANYTHING self insert unless i am explicitly told "this is You, form You however you want" (like for example harvest moon).

[wawamouse]

Drunkposting here I go

here's the thing: I reread Beneath the Shadows or whatever the fuck I title that fic, and: It's sorely missing come cuddling. I thought it was fluff at the time because I have the EQ of a piece of bread but I see in retrospect that the Something Deranged universe was badly missing some actual tenderness. Maybe I will write some more later but in my mind they're very much in love in that series, no quesiton

I have been missing Oz a lot in past weeks that I have been having to work on other fanfics. Even tho I know like nobody gives a shit abut this pair or the fics (AH), I still miss the feeling of thinking on it every day. Sure beats thinking about work or whatever (fail life). To be honest, I have a scraps notes app thing of Chico andMiguel moments that is much more self indulgent (lol more so than my fic, even). In those i'ts like very like reciprocated and shit. Idk . To go off the canon characterisations, it would feel OOC to me, because I don't think there is a single character in Oz that is Actually 'nice". There're all assholes to be honest. So trying to imagine them as anything else feels disingenuous in some ways. Like I think they're humanistic but I think there is a danger of writing them as too nice, which would be false. i don't think they are nice people. I think miguel seems nice by comparison of the others in the show but if you plopped him amongst non-oz people, he would have a very uncomfortable and even threatening vibe. idk where i'm going with that thought.

Imagine for a second that this was a big fandom that created portmanteaus. what would miguelxchico be? mico? (laugh). chiguel?

I really like Oz but idk how long i see myself writing fic for it. this is a very give everything/get nothing type fandom (no offense); i feel like this is obvious either way). my own personality is such that i find it somewhat difficult to go on when there is no one matching my enthusiasm. like what's the point. oh, we do it for "for you", but get real, why should I write when nobody is read it lol. bu ru don;t post it or whatever the fuck! but i do like that this fandom has been around for so long, like there's still people doing events 20 years later. i think that's lovely. I am just worried my own focus will wane eventually. maybe i'll come back to it. this latest hyperfixation was after i reread some fics i had saved to my google drive. it's kind of funny to me that i'm probably never going to to write a miguelx ryan . i really like how other people wrote them (there is one with a diamond heist that is probably my fave) but i read all those before finishign the actual show and ryan is a shitbag i would dare not inflict upon miguel. i think someone should be inflicted upon ryan, tbh, say stanislofsky or whoever, idk. he's just some pathetic white guy to me. idgaf in canon. i'd beat him with a blunt object tbh. force feed him Respect women juice like leave gloria ALONE.... fanon makes him more sympathetic, I guess. LOL. he's on a thin wire with me, frankly. I don't have much sympathy for his life ruining tactics. I wish someone wrote a miguel x ryan fic where he ruined miguel's life too because that would SUCK but it would be in character for both of them (and i love angst). couldnt be me tho! I just don’t seem them as being very happily ever after tbh . There was a fic that some giy wrote (I think it’s funny that you could tell it was written by another guy idk) “interim” something idk whatever the fuck . I liked that it ended with Miguel sort of just riding off on his own. I feel like that felt right…. I remember other comments being very like bu fu about it but I think it worked /made sense . I realllt like that fic

inflicting chico on miguel conversely is amusing to me bc chico is down so bad and is at best a moderate annoyance ( aside from the attempted murder

i should write a mcd fic. i keep thinking this to myslef. i I did it for ding rong and cried like a baby while i was cooking dinner at the mere thouguht but it was kind of cathartic too. crying over fictional characters is always funny to me. i should kill chico and leave miguel alone alone.

i was originally looking for hte chico's so hot post but i couldn't find it. but i was real for that one. i need to start a tag for drunkposting probably

mukada x cloutier i still think about it

Cloutirrx Timmy Kirk also not bad

[givemeanaccountalready]

HELLO MOOTIE im here to ask ur opiniom on 18 and 21 for the milgram asks 😵‍💫 ALSO have a nice day, if not then im sure tomorrow will be. IF STILL NOT then the other day, the other and other and other- okay dont forget to rehydrate urself if u hadn't. thats all thank you!!

Hello, and same to you, my friend~

Don’t mind me, just gonna take advantage of not having a specified character to babble on about as many characters as possible. I’m just a silly gal, a silly goose if you will 🪿

18.) What non-Deco Vocaloid songs do you think suits them?

Jackalope: “Welcome to the Internet” by Bo Burnham. Do I need to explain?

Es: “Saint Bernard” by Lincoln although I thought “Autoheart” by Sailor Song fit them as well (more so Es singing it to Kotoko/us). At this point, the poor kid’s exhausted and straining under the pressure and guilt so I think “Saint Bernard” fits them rather well.

Haruka: Hmmm. This one's tough. I'm gonna have to go with “I’ll Be Good” by Jaymes Young. It’s mournful and pleading and I think if he had been voted guilty in Trial One, his second trial song would have vibes of “I’m bad but I want to be better” instead of “I’ll be bad to be better,” that All-Knowing, All-Agony gives me. As a runner up, "Not While I'm Around," from the Sweeney Todd: Demon Barber of Fleet Street musical. I can just picture him singing it.

Yuno: “Bring on the Men” from the Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde musical. It’s fun, full of quips and innuendos, and definitely embraces her take on sex work.

Fuuta: “Dance, Dance” by Fall Out Boy. I feel like this fits his vibe.

Muu: “We R Who We R” by Kesha. Love her, hate her, you gotta admit that Muu wants to embody this IDGAF confidence, and I will indulge her with this song (where's the yellow paint can? I liked using it for Muu).

Shidou: “The Night We Met” by Lord Huron. It just sounds very mournful and fits his longing to see his loved ones again.

Mahiru: “E.T.” by Katy Perry, specifically the one without Kanye West because it vibes better with her. It's less... let's say Katy Perry is less direct about what she wants from her alien, and I feel like Mahiru could barely spit out an innuendo because of her dedication to her 'good girl' image.

Kazui: I suppose “False Confidence” by Noah Kahan would be a good fit. The emphasis on trying to fake it till you make it and wishing to go back to when you were young and before you began faking your way through life. That said, "The Good in Me" by Jon Bellion was a close second.

Amane: Another tough one. Perhaps "Miss Independent” by Ne-Yo. I had a song on here that didn’t really fit her and then I heard this song on the radio and went, “No, that’s the one.” Something fun and light but still fits her idealized self.

Mikoto: “LA Devotee” by Panic! At the Disco. Like Fuuta, it just fits his vibe. That said, I feel like John is scream-singing "Fight Back" by NEFFEX at him.

Kotoko: “Interlude IV” by Zach Callison. I can only assume this is what her two brain cells discussed during the break between the first and second trials. It’s menacing but fits so well.

21.) Do you have any similarities with them/relate to them?

Hmmm. It'll probably be shorter if I write a paragraph rather than breaking it up by character. I suppose the two I relate the most to would be Es and Yuno, but I relate a startling amount to Shidou, if I’m being honest. Let me explain the Shidou thing first since I know that he is heavily disliked and how I relate to him is dependent on how I view his crime.

My impression of Shidou is that he was a doctor who looked at the forest rather than the trees. At the very least, he pushed for the family members of patients who were brain-dead to take them off life support. I think he also pushed for patients to undergo risky surgeries in hopes that it would treat them when their current treatment failed. Shidou never thought beyond treating the physical ailment, and it wasn’t until his wife and children were in the car accident where he was put in the same position that Shidou fully understood the emotional weight of what he asked his patients and their families to do. With that, he began to suffocate under his own feelings of guilt and inadequacy (because if he couldn’t save his family, what is his worth?), and his push for the death penalty and claims about being irredeemable were his own attempts at trying to die so he can be with his family again. It was only when Kotoko attacked, that his savior complex was revived and he was given purpose again. I fully expect him to try and attack Kotoko (“remove that fang” anyone?) and push for the death penalty again during the third trial. Now, I know you’re thinking, wtf, how can you relate to this man?

Well, for starters, if the people I loved most in this world were violently ripped away from me while I stood helplessly by, I’d blame myself and look for reasons as to why I’m the worst and deserve death. Also, I have a lot of family who are nurses, and stories about dickhead doctors and the realities of illness, injuries, and treatments were common enough dinner conversations that hearing about, reading, and listening to Shidou act like a martyr makes me think, “Yeah, professional hazard,” not “what a scum ball.” To me, Shidou is the equivalent of a pothole in the street. I might startle if I fall into him but in all likelihood, I’ll trip, grumble, and move on. There’s also the part where I think, if I was a worse person, I’d probably be more like Shidou. He reminds me of what I could be if I was more arrogant, more willing to sacrifice in the name of the bigger picture.

But onto happier topics, I like to think I’m able to relate to Es. They have a strong sense of morality, integrity, and responsibility when it comes to their work. I like to think I keep to those three values when faced with an unknown or conflict. It’s admirable how they try to stay true to those values despite Milgram’s mental/physical interference when it comes to Es trying to remember or establish a sense of personhood separate of the organization’s will. With Yuno, I like to think I can read the room, albeit I’m probably on par with Muu, not Yuno when it comes to that. Although, I do understand her frustration with trying to establish agency when others try to limit it, and admire how willing she is to put herself out there to find herself. Actually, now that I write this down, I admire Yuno more than relate to her. I guess I’m Shidou and Es. Sorry y’all.

As a bonus, Jackalope. If I had to pick anything to relate to, I would certainly pick his love of the drama and chaos that goes on in Milgram. I definitely share his amusement for the chaos. As much as I enjoy all the prisoners (including Es in that), with the caveat of some more than others, I get a bit of a kick out of trying to use Jackalope’s taunts and jabs to predict what will happen next. If Es is the audience surrogate, then Jackalope is an author insert. He’s as enjoyable as he is smarmy, and I enjoy a battle of the wits. I’d probably lose against Jackalope in that battle, but hey, I’d lose with a shit-eating grin on my face. Jackalope definitely knows more than he lets on and while I don’t think he’s ever lied outright with how he prefers to dodge questions and give half-answers, he is using that to keep the upper hand and let things unfold. I don’t think I’m sadistic, but he is a fun enemy to face.

[alyjojo]

October 🕷 2022 Monthly - Cancer

Whole of your energy: 5 Wands

555 and 333 both appear in your reading as multiple people & conflict. This seems to be for a creepin’ Cancer, which could be switched, but based on the conflict, Ace of Cups, Knight of Cups, and Queen of Cups (Cancer’s card), it really seems to be leaning towards you as the one with options here. A new love opportunity and some level of romantic action is causing conflicts and arguments. It could show that you’re simply conflicted within yourself, because whoever your main person is - is unaware and you’re keeping things to yourself while you decide on which option you’re going to take. Knight of Cups is action, so something has actually happened, and 3 Swords existing shows you know the hurt it’s going to cause.

What’s going on in October:

3 Pentacles:

3 clarified by 3, you’re dating two people at the same time, and loving every minute of it with 9 Cups. This can be indulging, pleasuring yourself with drinking, excess, celebratory energy. Partying a lot, going to the club, things like that. That could be what you’re telling your person when you’re out doing these shenanigans, or it could be where some action has taken place. Ace of Cups is brand new energy and is followed by the Knight, it could have been a spontaneous thing that happened quickly, or because you were drinking. I don’t think you have any intention of speaking up.

2 Swords rev:

The decision you have made is to let this new person go, you’ve made your mind up because you know you have to make a decision and you don’t want to be cruel to the person you’re with. You may let this other person down in a cruel way, or it’s seen that way by them. It’s also possible you’re just ending the first connection, it’s over, done, period, and not being honest as to why, which feels cruel to this person that assumed everything was okay. It’s also possible this was done to you.

9 Pentacles:

Whoever ended something, whoever had a 3rd party involved, was clearly acting out of selfishness and self interest, and probably still is. If you, you’re good on your own, you’re financially stable, you could have just opened yourself up to being single again. You don’t have to worry about anyone’s judgement or heartbreak over what you want to do, you’re over it. You could be extremely cold to the person that is hurt, it brings up very negative feelings in you, and you don’t seem to care. You probably weren’t that romantically invested in this person in the first place to end things so casually, it seems more like their heartbreak gets on your nerves.

3 Swords:

Heartbreak, plain and simple, probably someone else’s. It’s clarified by 4 Pentacles which seems to be you, completely closed off, resistant to their feelings about the situation, narrow-minded and holding on to what you’ve got, which is your own stability and situation. Like idgaf about you, I’m good, go away. This is what your person is so deeply hurt over, because they probably don’t know about the 3rd person, and you’re not going to say so and look even worse than you already do.

The Moon:

Lying, hiding information, keeping them in the dark, that’s the plan. Justice shows you just giving the relationship a clean break and not speaking on the hows and whys you’ve decided to do this, leaving the other person extremely confused, and probably emotional. Your main focus per the head of the reading is the new start you’re having with this new person, so they’re very much involved and you’re shedding this old skin like it’s yesterday’s news. See ya ✌️ Your following cards show that the only place to go from here is forward, into a new beginning elsewhere.

Signs you may be dealing with:

Cancer, Libra, Pisces & Capricorn

Oracles: ✨

26 Duality 🎭

Black and white, good and evil, yes and no, up and down, want and don’t want. These are all examples of dualistic thinking. What if you banned these labels from your thoughts for a day? What would happen? Would the world end? Doubtful. Would some person “get away” with something? No. Would you attach less emotion to a “bad” situation or drama? Possibly. If that happened and there was less attachment to a situation, you could keep your vibrations higher, which would enable you to deal more successfully with any situation that comes your way. Given enough time - most “bad” situations work out in the end. It is your choice to be drama free, or spend a lot of time and energy wasted on a situation that will turn out okay in the end. What do you choose?

We enter into October as:

Dancin’ Daisy 🌻

“Let’s just jump and see what happens.” - Joe vs. the Volcano

Dancin’ Daisy represents a new phase in life, the acceleration of all the events that happen. Daisy says “Come to me and jump beyond what you believe, into a new possibility.” It tells you take action where you may not have previously. Daisy is the life energy, she is connected to enthusiasm. Dancin’ Daisy is physical expansion and embodies in physical form the example we all seem. She represents a joyous time for you, a move, a job, or another significant change, such as a marriage. This also signifies taking a risk that will work with faith and trust. This is the moment after the leap, when you cannot see where you will land. The Daisy is reassurance that you will land on your feet, so keep the faith.

Daisy also represents radiant health. Spirit can only manifest through us if we honor the physical body we inhabit. This may mean that you need to adopt a good physical fitness regiment. Your will to heal yourself is great. If a man is attracted to this fable the indication is strong that he is pulling a new partner into his life. This is also an indication for him to look to a woman for his next brilliant idea. If a woman is drawn to this fable, she is the radiant being that is attracting all that she needs.

What is to be learned in October: Two came out for you this month.

Sky Blue 💎

“You’ll see it when you believe it.” - Wayne Dyer

Seeking wise council is vital when you are pushing into new territory that may be overwhelming. Choose wisely though; if you choose someone too critical of your dreams, it could be a hinderance. When we are close to the proper decision, often we teeter on the brink and simply give up for fear of being embarrassed. Do not use another person’s negativity as an excuse to hold yourself back. If you pick someone who you know will not support you, do not blame them for your shortcoming. When you believe something is possible, everything and everyone you need to manifest your desires will materialize. We can only create what we can envision. It is time for you to imagine what you wish to create, for you will only see it, when you believe it!

The Emerald Stone 🧩

“The heart knows what the eyes cannot see.”

There are times when things happen to is and no explanation is possible. Often our journey brings us full circle, leaving many of us to wonder why. The Emerald Stone is inviting you to follow through in whatever is before you. Going back is not an option. Forward movement will change your entire perspective on life - for the better. You may now be able to hear something that you have been told many times. Your reward will be a closer relationship with yourself. If Emerald Stone sparkles for you, it is with the understanding that you are now developing a new perception of things. The Stone welcomes you out of the dark and into your heart.

Blue & Green may be lucky colors 💙💚

[samuelroukin]

Okay fine so all this WOT talk is getting to me lol. I've just dipped my toes mainly for Donal Finn reasons, but Rand's actor is also very cute to me, and then I found out A Thing Mat goes through in the later books (one thing about me is idgaf about spoilers) and with all this. I'm cautiously eyeing that one fic idea I have that is just plain indulgence for me...

write it! i obvs don't know about the Thing, but self indulgence in writing is always a good thing 🫡

[shrekgogurt]

Discography Tag!!!

Rules: pick an artist or a band and share your favorite song from each of their albums, then tag some mutuals!

Thank you @yellobb for allowing me to be incredibly self indulgent!

I’m sitting here considering who is an artist I know very well with a large discography? The answer, unfortunately for y’all: Dave Matthews Band. Does this make me a 45 y/o man who wears crusty canvas flip flops? Perhaps. But is that so bad? DMB sounds like coming home from the pool to my parents cooking dinner in the summertime—the warm kind of nostalgia! So, here is some…

Under The Table And Dreaming (1994) - “Typical Situation”

Crash (1996) - “Lie In Our Graves”

Before These Crowded Streets (1998) - “Stay (Wasting Time)”

Everyday (2001) - “So Right”

Busted Stuff (2002) - “Raven” but tbh this is a no skips album for me!!!

Stand Up (2005) - “Louisiana Bayou”

Big Whiskey and the GrooGrux King (2009) - “Spaceman”

Away From The World (2012) - “Gaucho”

Come Tomorrow (2018) - “Come Tomorrow” but honestly idgaf about this album lmao

No but for real I tried to choose genuine deep tracks unless my family didn’t have the album (Before These Crowded Streets) or there were honestly too many “hits” and the deep tracks I honestly didn’t like that much (Everyday). Otherwise………….it would just be a playlist of only “Ants Marching” like COME ON IT’S SO GOOD! Still, RIP all my favorites I couldn’t include. I’m looking at you “Grey Street”!

Tagging for the fun of it @raenestee @larkral @palimpsessed but really anyone interested!!!!

[certifiedceraunophile]

Hi! A fan of your writing here. I just love the way you write Caroline. An Avoidable Heart is my comfort fic and I am constantly in awe with the way you write and craft the dynamics in that story. Caroline's inner monologue is just priceless and God! I just love that intro scene where Caroline is walking into the Mikaelson compound with vampires and hybrids in the surrounding ready to pounce on her.

I would love to hear how you would have visualized Caroline crossing over into TO or not? Like in what season and why? How it would have likely gone?

Thank you!

First of all lovely anon gimme a moment to breathe, asdfghjkl why are people so lovely 😭😭🥺✨ It means sooo much to me that you’d take the time to jump into my inbox and send these kind words, like please I’m not worthyyyyy, But you make me smile and feel really freaking warm so *handcuffs your hand to mine* you aint leaving 💖✨💞🙃

But OK ALSO oh my god dude THAT CAROLINE WALTZS INTO THE COMPOUND AND TAKES ON A COUPLE HUNDRED VAMPIRES BY HERSELF SCENE???? Ughhhhh I’m sorry but I have SUCH a boner for Caroline in that, like my badass -I admit kinda op- QUEEN IS HERE and she’s fucking shit up, I’m sorry but I love that scene so much it’s so dear to me I was killing myself over how self-indulgent and grossly Over powered Caroline is but like idgaf man it’s such a hot scene and Caroline is practically invincible and we just love to see that, so seriously lovely anon, you telling me you LOVE that scene??? Puts the biggest smile on my face and reassures me a LOT bc I was whining and cribbing over how absolutely unbalanced that scene is to literally everyone BUT LIKE YOU JUMPING OUT OF NOWHERE and pointing that exact scene UGHH…...meant to fucking be the both of us 💖💞✨

And ALSO Caroline’s monologue is quite honestly the easiest inner monologue out of the three voices I wrote for that work, Klaus’s is the real pain in the ass tbvh like it is NOT easy writing pretentious besotted losers with a Kardashian complex especially when you need to make them sound cool when they’re the lamest OP dude bros to ever exist - and no I don’t hate Klaus although I seem to try my darndest to convince ppl I do- I just personally believe that a feral fucker like that with a thousand years of existence under his belt can grow a pair and graduate from his kindergarten level of emotional maturity to adult sometime soon, But then on the flipside he’s so grossly adorkably smitten and feral for Caroline plus hella horny for her all the time that its usually easy to write the trashed and devoted idiot he is into something pretentious and powerful and potent when relating to his unflappable arrogance and his narcissism, but sometimes I also need him to be *deep* and ffs profound for the sake of the plot and jfc my muse just wont work with me on that, she’s like I’m sorry I’m not about to bust my ass to make this mongrel intelligible like no sir all I wanna do is make him uncomfortably horny for Caroline and leave him like that.

So smh yeah the struggle is real….but lmao Caroline is just so precious and fiercely protective and just so achingly lonely in that story, so desperate for connection and trust and intimacy yet so guarded and impervious to everyone like it hurts me to write her like that but it really challenges me as an author to balance out her inherent light with the “void” I create in her and through her, so yeah it’s a very fulfilling task and I wouldnt change it one bit, and also I had to balance out her physical op-ness w half a millennium of the ugliest emotional trauma lol so I guess that figures, but the point being….once again I am overjoyed knowing that you liked a facet of the story that I tried so hard to make as authentically Caroline and achingly real and moving as I can and I cannot possibly feel more accomplished than rn for it so ty ty ty ty for reaching out to me and telling me *tackle hugs* It makes me GIDDY knowing that you enjoyed that particular part of the story like ugh stab me please you're too sweet.

And ok NOW, coming to The Originals part of the ask, (also please note that when I say TO headcanon; Hope does not exist, Hayley is a dead in a ditch and ofc Klaus will stop being that lil bitch they tried to pawn off as Klaus in TO) 

HEADCANON 1

Honestly my biggest headcanon when it comes to TO crossovers somehow always include non-humanity!Caroline like it’s just so perfect to me?? The opportunity to make shit BLOW UP b/w them like imagine the DEBAUCHERY, the heat, the SEXUAL TENSION, the repression of one Klaus Mikaelson, the EXPLORATIONS, and omg the role reversal when Klaus has to be the voice of moral reason between them and not bc he believes Caroline would not be able to stand herself if she does something heinous and monstrous but bc he wants her to be completely and utterly herself, and yk *aware*, when she DECIMATES ppl to the ground and is in full-on predator mode, like he wants her monster to come out and play with him when no part of Caroline is locked away or suppressed, so obviously when she is w/o her humanity KLAUS exercises restraint on her behalf, like can you imagine that, Klaus restraining himself and being the vague, extremely broken and just largely inaccurate moral compass between the two of them for ALL the wrong reasons- and the entirety of NOLA just standing there watching him herd this baby vampire who seems to be intent on riling him up and angering him when all she is doing is giving him a massive hybrid hard on, like IMAGINE THE GOODNESS of non-humanity Caroline wrecking NOLA and Klaus letting her wreck it bc he is helpless in the face of Caroline Forbes and also bc he is quite honestly *enjoying* the debauchery himself so why put a damper on the festivities.

-I might wanna add that I favour this headcanon a lot bc I genuinely do not even remotely *like* the idea of NOLA as Klaus's chosen place to set his roots so like I would love Caroline going to NOLA and destroying everything there just bc I detest NOLA and the storyline behind it in TO. (yes is it petty? Obvi, but like I am a petty soul and I make no apologies ma’am)

HEADCANON 2

So yeah that’s my main TO headcanon, but my other one being, one I talk about very frequently, scream about in tag rants to an obsessive level, and like this is a cracky one but still very valid, where Caroline rolls up to NOLA humanity intact and all, finds Hayley preggo and is just laughing her fucking ass off bc anybody ANYBODY, with half a brain and a two minute convo w klaus would know how UTTERLY stupid the entire baby shit is especially when it’s with an immemorable one night stand, and Caroline’s just losing her shit about how like an entire city is obssessed w this baby and she just straight up tells Klaus he’d SUCK as a dad (which he really does tho like he was a shitty fucking dad canonically too) and Klaus is just like *sigh* girl tell me about it. I mean basically he’s finally relieved that someone is on his side about the whole baby thing and how he definitely does not want his entire millennium of life to finally sum up to this one squalling leaking stinky infant/unicorn Hayley is apparently baking in her oven, and I say this headcanon is cracky bc klaus would never have put up w this mess long enough for Caroline to come in and sort it out, there’s this preferred method of disposal of his called heart ripping that would've been employed quite early on and honestly saved us all a lot of brain cells and minused years of life, bc let’s be real any Klaus who’s NOT a lil snivelling bitch wearing a Klaus skinsuit would’ve yeeted the baby and the mama first chance he got, and that’s just how I see it.

Lmao I really hope I didnt scare you away w my *strong* opinions Ik they can be a bit much but I enjoy having them so theyre not going anywhere, anyways this ask answer got WAYYYY too long but I’m hoping I answered your question well with this or atleast left you slightly confused and bemused over my feral screaming....either ways I’m really really really happy to have got your ask and the chance to rant so much bs, Twas cathartic and honestly I had nothing to do today so I was more than happy to dish this baby out for you. Thank you so much sweet anon for putting a smile on my face today I am absolutely HONOURED by your words you’sa cutie 💖💞✨🗣🗣

[ofmythsandmadness]

scribbles in progress.

Here, you can keep up with all the writs I haven’t yet published or completed (or started, in some unfortunate cases). These are all either long or multi-chapter wips; I won’t post short requests or drabbles here.

If you want to read some of my completed work, check out my masterlist! If you want to request something to be written, check out my prompts list. And, if you like my writing and feel generous, feel free to buy me a kofi (its elleslilcorner)! All will be linked in my bio (because tumblr is finicky and gets mad when I post any links, I won’t post any here until the posts made the rounds).

This is not in order of what comes first; it’s literally just in order of the google docs I’m looking at right now lmao.

Also .2 -- these are not all the fics I have in motion; it’s just the ones I’m really concrete on writing at the moment. I have a bunch of ideas scribbled out or written on my notes app but I’m not posting them here, because I don’t know if I’m going to write them or not. And because this is now a mostly tua blog, I’m always hesitant with posting marvel stuff or any other fandom, which is why again this is only the tua fics here. :)

UNTITLED | D.H | the eight times diego hargreeves realises he’s touch-starved - and the one time he does something about it.             — STATUS: 20% (1.2k/est.6k)             — NOTES: this is just me indulging in more diego pov, aka peak simp    himbo hours. also me being lonely as hell. but it’s sweet and another attempt at me writing long flowery romance bullshit.

WOEBEGONE HEART | B.H | a modern/university au and a take on cyrano. aka, poor ben hargreeves is stuck between the friend he’s hopelessly in love with, but has no clue how to tell them, and his brother who’s hopelessly in love with the friend, and has no clue how to tell them in an...eloquent fashion.            — STATUS: 30% written (2.7k/?)            — NOTES: this fic makes me so mad because I have been working on it for so long and yet!! i have not finished it. I’ve scrapped two versions of it and restarted because I despised the characterization I gave Ben, but now I’m scrambling trying to remember how to write and -- hnnngggghhh. but this one I think’ll be out soon! it’s funky and angsty.

FLIRTATIONSHIP | L.H | luther hargreeves has no idea how to find a partner. he can’t even look someone’s way without feeling immediate embarrassment trickle down his spine. but he wants to.            — STATUS: 25% written (1.9k/?)            — NOTES: this was a request I got about a week ago I’m turning into a full shot because I actually really like the concept! it’s taking a while because I’m new with writing Luther, but I like it still. 

SOLIS OCCASUM | H!ROYALTY AU | it’s no secret that king reginald’s illustrious lands make up the strongest kingdom in the nation. and it’s no secret that creating any alliance at all with said king would be a huge accomplishment for any around. and for those greedy for power, doing anything to achieve this was an easy price to pay -- even when it meant marrying off their unwilling daughter to his oldest son to get it.            — STATUS: 3% written (3.5k/??)            — NOTES: I came up with this at like 3am when I couldn’t sleep and -- I love it so much. It’s an old-timey based royal au and it’s going to be about nine chapters of steamy glory (steamy?? is that the right word?? am i just alluding to badly written sexual tension?? yeah). finally bringing a dabble enemies to lovers to here too :’)) i’m most excited about this. will i ever post it?? who the hell knows. but,,,i want to.

FIFTY SHADES OF GREEN | D.H | the man who could never ever possibly get sick, gets sick. and you’re roped into taking care of him (because who else would??) modern/university au.            — STATUS: 20% written. (1.3k/?)            — NOTES: I actually started this in April, but it was just around the time of the pandemic starting to get bad and I didn’t want to be insensitive. I left it to sit in my drafts for a while and...honestly I’m still hesitant to write it even if it’s not at all connected but I’m revisiting it soon. 

CRACKED REFLECTIONS | TUA AU | the hargreeves just to the future battered and bruised (emotionally and physically) only to find they have changed their own lives entirely. somehow their father knew not to adopt them, took in seven entirely new super-powered lunatics and labelled them the sparrow academy. but the worst of that was...somehow, their unadopted selves survived and went on to live six very different lives, alone.             — STATUS: 1% written (planned, not written)            — NOTES: I came up with this literally last night when discussing season  three with my sister. i know that there probably isn’t six new versions of the siblings out there but this fic is pretending otherwise. idgaf about time travel rules with this one. the siblings basically seek out who they could have been and who they are in this alternate world. and it’s not x anyone; just a self-indulging sad idea.

 — feel free to let me know what you like or don’t want to read (?) from this list. i’ll prolly focus my energy wherever someone wants to see this go. but we’ll see?? i’m not sure if i know how to string words together anymore. or what i’m doing. i’m tired.

[the-wardens-torch]

I’ve lost some followers lately. Obviously they left because this blog isn’t self-indulgent enough. So here’s a meme about me and a mugshot of me after I got caught raiding the bird feeder at midnight.

GETTING TO KNOW THE MUN - stolen from @nutley-rp​, and I’m calling out @adeat​ because he needs to feel less guilty talking about himself, and @lettersnorth​ and @flamesworn​ because they’ve been so nice in liking so many of my posts and I’m embarrassed I haven’t learned more about them!

NAME: Sam/Samantha if you’re a friend or colleague, Rosie if you’re a blood relation.

NICKNAME: Fal if you know me from FFXIV, or Tris if you know me from Ragnarok Online.

FACECLAIM:  Muns have face claims?! Uh, resting dissociation face?

PRONOUNS: idgaf.  At this point in my life I only identify as female by default.

HEIGHT:  5’4

BIRTHDAY: 11/2, aka the Day of the Dead

AESTHETIC: Used books, found natural objects, original art, trinkets and oddities from garage sales and antique stores.

LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO: Bob Dylan - Hard Rain’s a Gonna Fall - it was what my car’s flash drive decided I needed at the time.

FAVOURITE MUSE(S) YOU’VE WRITTEN:

My Ragnarok Online Hunter/Sniper/Ranger, Tyr Aldsvider - A prodigy of kyudo-style archery, known for being very quiet, sensitive and mostly solitary.  Annnnd also for having PTSD and severe social anxiety due to having served time in the military.  I enjoyed him because gave me the opportunity to write without filtering my personal thought processes and rationalizations, since we shared a lot of the same issues.

My Ragnarok Online Monk/Champion/Sura, Tristan Sky’s-Shadow (he actually started as a tabletop RPG character, but he made the jump to RO when his campaign ended.)  He was a martial artist (and werewolf) with an older brother sort of personality. I like to think he represented a lot of what I wanted to be - a guardian who was brave, independent, kind, and at absolute peace with himself.

Fal, of course.  He’s taught me a lot - see answer below.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO TAKE ON THIS MUSE:

I tend to write characters that are similar to me, so I just wanted to go outside of my comfort zone for a change. I‘m timid, quiet, emotionally reserved and a “meh“ asexual in real life, and so I took on a character who was irreverent, loud, expressive and a “hell yeah!” pansexual. He’s been an a blast and absolutely has dragged me out of my comfort zone. Although, at this point I’ve sort of shot myself in the foot because I’ve just been writing what I wanted to write and not what made for a good story. I love to write descriptions, intimate conversations, inner monologues and little crystallized moments in time, but I can only do so many of those before I have to thread them together with some kind of plot continuity… I’m in that stage now.

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE ASPECTS OF YOUR CURRENT MUSE:

His passion and his fearlessness. He feels everything very deeply, and LETS himself feel everything very deeply.  He‘s an uninhibited free spirit who expresses his feelings via songs and music and stories, regardless of what other people think.  He’s also a charmer and an optimist, who, despite his own deep-seated feelings of sadness and regret, does whatever he can to brighten the world around him.

WHAT’S YOUR BIGGEST INSPIRATION WHEN IT COMES TO WRITING:

If I knew, I’d actually have become a professional writer like I wanted, hahaffff. Its almost completely random.  Maybe music?

FAVOURITE TYPES OF THREADS:

I like those threads that have a solid storyline/plot, but end up being memorable mostly for the interplay of the characters involved.  I love watching friendships blossom, and I love watching characters help to process each other’s traumas and learn about each other’s unique quirks against a backdrop of adversity.

[daehwvns]

hey guys, i’m june! i’m 21, from the pst and my pronouns are she/her! my son here, daehwan, is a mix of beauty and chaos because...well, he’s beautiful but has a lot of issues deep down lol. if any of y’all would be down to have something going on with daehwan, just send me an IM or like this post and i’ll message you instead! under the cut is his story so far :)

( min yoongi, cismale, he/him, twenty-seven ) — daehwan shin, better known to the media as ares has been working for the yōkai for around 6 years. rumor has it, he can be insightful & plucky but also blunt & virulent which is why he makes the perfect crowd control.

** daehwan’s mask looks like this -- basically inspired by the devil, with the horns and everything. he wants it simple but not too boring either so he settled for black plus the details it has.

backstory

tw: death

daehwan was born in morioka, japan to a wealthy family. his dad is a businessman and owns a large share of a pharmaceutical company based in seoul while his mother was a doctor.

daehwan’s upbringing was…sad, in a way, because his parents were barely there when he was growing up. daehwan’s father was always away, doing business out of morioka or the country but whenever he’s back home, he would always pressure ( not encourage ) him to do better in his studies. his dad was strict and daehwan hated his ‘nurturing’ ways because to him, it didn’t help him be better in any way.

but his mother, on the other hand, was the opposite of his father. she was very nurturing and supported daehwan in the best way she could; often encouraging him to continue his passion for the arts ( painting and drawing ) but she lacked the time to be with him due to her work and usually being assigned as the head of medical teams sent to work abroad.

basically, daehwan was often left in the hands of his nanny hired by his parents and this made it difficult for him to really bond with his parents, especially his dad. so he grew up and matured in ways that wasn’t necessarily always fit to make the best decisions.

despite his upbringing, daehwan was a good student at school. he’s pretty smart but sometimes, too smart that some of his teachers find him a nuisance lmao. nevertheless, he survived high school and went to uni to pursue a degree in fine arts.

however, at 19, daehwan’s mother died on a plane crash on the way back to japan and this hit him pretty hard ( his mom was the only one who supported him so even when she lacked the time to be with him, her death still affected him heavily ).

daehwan ended up quitting uni and because he found no purpose in living in the empty house that his parents had ( his father was still m.i.a even after his mother’s death ), he left morioka and moved to tokyo.

at 20, daehwan starts out his life in tokyo and worked as a tattoo artist. he started out in small tattoo parlors before ending up in a well-reputed one where his clients consisted of people who had some form of affiliation with gangs to actual yakuza members and while he should’ve find such clients frightening, daehwan found himself intrigued by them.

in the same fashion was how he ended up meeting ( and eventually befriending ) a person who had ties with yokai ( potential plot ). he hung out a lot with this person and in one of their night outs, some drunk guy started shit with him and his friend and...well, things didn’t end up pretty, especially on the other guy’s end lol. needless to say, daehwan beat the shit out of the guy and before the police could arrive to the scene, his friend dragged daehwan away from the place -- saved his ass the jail time it could’ve served sksks

that scenario, however, sparked an idea in his friend’s mind and ultimately resulted to daehwan being recruited into the group as a crowd control.

soon he found himself tangled up in the illegal yet fascinating world of yokai, and daehwan, to say the least, loved it. he was drawn to it and the people surrounding this newly discovered world that his transition came by rather smoothly.

now daehwan works for the group for six years and has no plans of ever getting out of the world he now lives in. he knows he can’t get back to how things were for him --- not that he had anything nor anyone to get back to anyway.

personality

daehwan is a relatively affable guy. befriending people is usually not a problem to him unless he didn’t like them right off the bat ( or vice versa ) and if that’s the case, there’s no way he’ll show his good side to that person lol all they’d get for him are caustic comments and him laying out reasons why he doesn’t like them lmao

he’s insightful and could sense someone’s bullshit pretty easily. daehwan is also very self-reliant and would usually want to handle things on his own ( unless the ordeal is too much for him, then he’ll ask for someone’s help though with loads of hesitation on his end ).

as such, daehwan is headstrong af and if he knows he’s right, he won’t stop until you know for sure that he’s right and isn’t scared to speak his mind ( and a lot of times, that could be a problem ).

he likes making money ( probably why he found the whole underground scene fascinating because of how relatively easy it is to earn money if you know what to do; in his case, he does ) and a bit self-indulgent ( likes to party, drink and fuck lol ) and this lands him in trouble from time to time.

violence tw: this boi is also hella plucky and it can either be a good or bad thing, depending on the situation. additionally, him being virulent meant he’s not afraid of starting or finishing a fight even with someone who’s way bigger than him. doesn’t really give a fucc if he goes home with his face ruined so long as he knows the other a-hole learns their lesson and/or got a good beating from him lmao

daehwan also likes...flirting. he’s subtle most of the time but get him drunk and he can get vocal. would most probably hit on anyone as long as he found them attractive lmao

can get really soft with the people he loves/cares about though and can get overprotective as well. he’s a soft boi but also not a soft boi at the same time lol

all in all though, daehwan is a pretty good person who has the tendency to act first before thinking of the consequences later. save this boi from himselfksksks

quick facts

he’s skilled at painting and drawing and is an excellent tattoo artist.

he’s still working as a tattoo artist and has very recently opened his own small tattoo parlor in tokyo. basically, tattooing is like...a side job for him at this point (because he definitely earns more with yokai) but he loves the art -- loves making art with ink so don’t think he’ll drop this hobby/job anytime soon.

can tattoo people using a machine or using the traditional japanese technique called “tebori” -- which is basically tattooing manually by hand with a wooden or metal tool.

daehwan is bisexual. if he finds someone attractive or the connection is there, he’ll pursue them. that being said, he have had relationships and flings with both males and females in the past.

he has 8 tattoos and counting. one of them fills his right forearm, one on his right hand, while four are on his left arm, another one on his left shoulder blade and one on the back of his left ear. that being said, he makes sure to always wear clothing that covers his tattoos entirely when carrying out their ‘jobs’ so as to not be recognized by anyone by them.

speaks 3 languages: korean, japanese and english.

he’s korean japanese. basically, him and his parents are/were ethnically korean born in japan.

he stands 5′10 and has a pretty muscular build but not that muscular, if that makes sense? he’s not the big buff guy people might expect a ‘crowd control’ person to be and the result is often him being underestimated by anyone who tries to start shit with him. only when they get the beating from him that they’d realize how wrong they were for doing such because boi has such good brawling skills matched with an ‘idgaf’ attitude and idk about u but that’s pretty scary and dangerous ksksk

has a 1 year old husky doggo named ‘chan’. daehwan goes full softie with this good boi like...that’s his son ;~; slander or hurt his dog and daehwan would come biting your ankles sakjdlajsd

will probably add more later when i think of something!

[ishgard]

Also I’d had this thought before about Nero, off-hand wondering if perhaps he still relayed any sort of information to Gaius in some way or another...

Still not sure that’s an even remotely valid theory but man Gaius sure had a LOT of information about us. Which makes sense of course, for many, many reasons but when he made note of Nabriales infiltrating the Rising Stones I was really ?!? 

I realize in part his dialogue there was likely just as much to catch some players up on events they might have forgotten but it’s still there, in canon.I have NO doubt of his resourcefulness and ability to gather information but I’m still... idk, I just really loved this moment.

(And I’ll be the first to admit some of it definitely felt a bit heavy-handed “do you remember?” HOW I WAS TRAGICALLY DECEIVED INTO WAGING IRON-FISTED WAR AGAINST YOUR PEOPLE? but I still loved it idgaf). 

...there was something else but I forget cuz doggo.

I def had ‘headcanons’ though about Gaius being very thorough in his own intel gathering, before going to various imperial provinces, or setting out to conquer. Knowing any and everything he could garner on the peoples, their culture and history. Just... the mental image of him pouring over files and reports, the pale blue glow of screens of information in front of him- ok THIS HAS GONE FROM A SEMI-LEGITIMATE THOUGHT-POST TO PURE SELF-INDULGENCE I’M DONE.

[notyobabygirl]

My friends keep leaving me out, one of the girls I was super friendly with but I get bad vibes from her now. She’s very self indulgent and I feel if she can’t gain soemthing she doesn’t give a f about me. She wants me to listen to her drama but when I’m happy she’s no where to be seen and when I’m sad her advice is so cruel and basically - idgaf deal with it or she idk excludes me. Especially recently. I have been distancing myself and the other girls I am close 2,however v easily influenced

if you get bad vibes from her then i wouldn’t even try to get close to her. she doesn’t seem like a good friend anymore and shouldn’t be someone who you even want to be friends with. it’s hard when friends grow apart but that makes room for new friends to come in. when people are jealous of you then they want to tear you down and exclude you. it’s fucked up but that’s exactly what it seems like this girl is doing. get close with other friends and try and put yourself out there. old friends or people you know you would like and vibe with! put your energy into other people instead of these girls

[major-artery]

10 Songs I’m Currently Obsessed With

Ugh. @atarostarling tagged me. And I must obey. So here’s ten songs that are ear-worming the fuck out of me. 

1.  “Mic Drop (Steve Aoki Remix)” - BTS | DID YOU SEE MY BAG? IT’S HELLA TROPHIES AND IT’S HELLA THICC. I put this at the top of my list because my dance partner and I are working on a raqs fusion piece for June to this song. It’s hard to not get hyped screaming “FOLLOW ME FOLLOW ME”. 

2. “IDGAF” - Dua Lipa  |  My husband has been listening to this song on repeat. I cannot get it out of my head. I am a fan of the video. The choreography is very entertaining. 

3. “Bounce” - Solace  |  This is my go to “work on your zil patterns” song. I don’t know why. It just is. 

4. “No Mercy” - The Living Tombstone  |  Relevant to my recent Overwatch obsession. Ps. I never play Mercy. Moira is bae. 

5. “Pillow Talking (feat. Brain) - Lil Dicky | This is another entry that I know because of my husband (and I instantly became obsessed with Lil Dicky’s cadence.) The song is not that catchy until the rap picks up. But the video is also fuckin’ top. 

6. “Attach of the Hipster Zombies” - Sound Stabs | This makes me miss CoD Zombies so bad. It’s a great song with some sound clips thrown in. The beat gets me grooving out of my seat. 

7. “Witness” - Mindless Self Indulgence | I am DYING for MSI to tour again. I miss seeing them live. They always put on a great show, even if Steve, Righ? looks out of it for the majority of the time. There is something so satisfying about screaming “SONOVABITCH” when you’re blaring down the highway at 7:03 in the morning. 

8. “Busy Earnin’” - Jungle | This is just one of those songs that get me motivated and like I’m in a montage. 

9. “Viva Discordia” - That Handsome Devil | I don’t know what it is about this band. That Handsome Devil has such a unique sound and I thrive off of it. Bats in the belfry!

10. “Adam’s Song” - blink-182 | Because I’m 12 and what is this? blink-182 has been a staple since I was a youngin’, when TRL was still a thing and you had to fight for your band to have the top video (but it was ALWAYS Nsync or Backstreet Boys.) It’s a song I know how to play, too, so even better. 

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