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Ok I promise I’ll be normal but part of how Ron and Reagan gripped me so fast is the fact that once Reagan realizes she actually really likes Ron it’s like. The one and only thing she’d ever prioritize her job (even if at her own detriment).
Is that good? Is that healthy? No, but neither is her job for her health and mental state. She has never had a close relationship before Brett, and until Ron never one that she cared to deepen.
This isn’t even necessarily a shipping post bc personally I think both Ron and Brett give Reagan things she needs, kindness, compassion, laughter, and she has gained a desire to forge actual human connection with from them. I am just. So sad. That she lost someone who meant so much to her that she would sabotage her own work for THEM to work.
#inside job#inside job spoilers#IM SO SAD IM GOING TO MISS THEM SO MUCH.#now. listen to me. LISTEN TO ME. I REALLY LIKE BRETT AND REAGAN.#but also. it feels so so good to have a primary male and female relationship be the focal point of a show that isn’t necessarily romantic#they have good chemistry and I think tbh. the plan is/was for them to end up together#but I also really REALLY liked Ron for Reagan#they have similar temperaments and have senses of humor that sync well#if anything#I’m just devastated Reagan lost someone she obviously cared deeply about who WASNT trying to extort her for their own gain but#wanted to help her live her best life
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KINCADE PACK 🐺 (original works) — “The name goes back centuries, and all Miranda cares about is making sure it lasts for many more”
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#insp: the lodge#too many ocs to tag here lmao#this is a little bit rushed because it’s like 2am#but I’ve been thinking about doing this template for them since I first saw it#FINALLY I get to talk about this fucked up rich werewolf family#Logan and Jayde’s dad were best friends and grew up together#so Jayde and Skye essentially grew up with Logan’s kids#there’s a lot of complicated feelings there between the kids for various reasons#they consider each other family to a degree (more like cousins)... but some of them would definitely straight up kill each other.#Miranda had her eye mostly on Jayde because she’s the same age as Garret and Miranda’s main goal is to strengthen her bloodline#and Jayde comes from a well known purebred bloodline#so Miranda’s golden boy Garret (massive douchebag) tried his darndest to rizz up Jayde for most of their childhood#Jayde fucking despises him. she beat his ass on more than one occasion. which massively bruised his fragile ego. but he still wants to hit#Amara and Mitchell are the designated chaos twins that Jayde has a love/hate relationship with. Skye gets along with them great of course#Jonas is the only mf that has his head on straight. He's mostly separated from the fam. removed at the 'heir' when he didn't want it.#now hes a werewolf therapist for werewolves with a small family of his own. he reminds Jayde of her dad. he's around the same age too#SCANDAL: Jonas is slightly older than Logan lmao#Declan is the other golden boy. the precious spoiled baby. Miranda's backup for the backup.#he's terrified of Garret so he tries to stay out of his way and mostly keeps to himself#tbh Declan is just Scared of Everything and desperately doesn't want any responsibility but tries to hide it#anyway before Jayde's dad was killed and she was captured they knew hunters were coming for them#so they went to the Kincades for help. Miranda would only accept the girls.#Jayde chose to stay with her parents and they left Skye with the family to keep her safe (she was 12)#that was the last time Skye saw her family intact :/ she didn’t see Jayde again for years.#so Miranda pampered her and groomed her to be in her family.#like she was this little jewel. the last living Thatcher.#now that Jayde is back and Skye is with her and they're living their own life#Miranda be scheming. she wants to claim their bloodline sooo bad.#anyway sorry for the massive lore dump there’s.... a lot of complicated shit going on here
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thinking about shuichi ryoma parallels ...
#rewatching chapter 2 and it just got me thinking#shuichi who previously struggled with wanting to stay alive after kaedes death#having a version of himself revealed to him in a flashback light saying that they are willing to throw away their life#and finding the strength via the support of others to reject that mindset#coming to the conclusion that he will live for himself and for others#ryoma having virtually nobody to turn to while being in a headspace that prevents#you from wanting to live even in an environment encouraging survivalist behavior#only to find out that there would nobody waiting for him anyway#and just becoming completely resigned to the idea that him dying was the best option for him#not exactly helped by the fact that nobody reached out to him during the kg despitd Very Explicitly displaying signs of suicidal ideation#in which were preyed upon by kirumi to ensure her survival#effectively becoming a sacrifice#like man ... imagine if someone had just listened and extended that olive branch to him. imagine if it was Shuichi#drv3#seren speaks
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most people (and honestly even the narrative itself) comes to the consensus that grandma zhang was a good grandmother and raised frank well. which i find interesting, because frank talks about her with a lot of vitriol.
throughout the series, frank constantly associates his grandmother with degradation and insecurity. there's not a single moment where he remembers a good memory about her. in fact, for probably his entire life until he left, frank probably saw his mom as his "ally" and his grandma as his "enemy".
but he clearly still loves her. despite her heavy negative presence in his mind, frank still has affection for her, grieves when she dies, and is motivated by the want to make her proud.
i think it's cool. i think it's a good reflection on the culture surrounding frank and his family. his development (if we can call it that) is depicted as him going from being a whiny, apathetic teenager to someone more of the ideal warrior. grandma z. is a pretty spot-on stereotype for the strict, harsh "tough love" chinese grandma, but i think it really works for his character.
it explains why he is the way he is. why he has such a strong urge to protect, to be strong, to not show pain, not show weakness. he doesn't cry so everyone else can.
he hated his grandmother, but he loved her, too. even if he couldn't remember the happy moments. even if there weren't any.
#frank zhang#heroes of olympus#you could argue that her treatment of him#resulted in him being. kind of severely emotionally stunted lol.#he clearly had a very lonely childhood#and now he's got the whole “don't show pain and take everything because you're strong” schtick#which is ideal for a soldier but for a teen living a healthy life? ehh#anyway i think gma was doing what she thought was best for him#like i dont think she was trying to raise a well-adjusted adult. she was trying to raise a strong soldier.#and she succeeded. say what you want but she cooked!#anyway i just think frank is poorly socialized lol#and his grandma definitely did not help things#but i would love to hear others' thoughts on this.#because there r some people who would say she's abusive and others who would say she did nothing wrong#riordanverse#grandma zhang#son of neptune
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I always think it's funny that a terrible life is one where "you're alone with no lover and you will only have the company of cats to keep you scarcely tethered to the real world.
Like... don't threaten me with a good time. That is a dream to me
#aro#aromantic#lgbt#lgbtq#and like... if your only tether to feeling full and whole and content is a magical whirlwind relationship...#...i don't necessarily think that's always better. i personally had to investigate that impulse for myself...#...and i found that i wasn't satisfied with myself and i wanted a distraction from knowing i am alive and real...#...plus being aro did help because i had to come to terms with the fact that i cannot 'function' in a typical way...#...i feel afinity toward single mid-30s/mid-40s crazy cat ladies...#...i always saw them shamed because they never 'found a man to put her in her place and make her whole' and it's just...#...she's living the ideal life to my eyes. even if she's lonely she doesn't *need* to be made whole...#...loneliness is not a sign of being lesser. it's a part of the human condition and it's natural...#...but that doesn't mean it fundamentally changes the core of who you are#my cat is my best friend. i don't need to replace her actually. my life is fine without having any relationship or whatever else
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can not believe i have to put this out there but: being concerned for the welfare of an animal who has a condition that frequently leads to a slow, painful death is not ableism. its uh. basic animal husbandry
#humans can make informed decisions about their bodies. humans can decide how they want to be helped. humans can decide if they WANT to be#animals can't advocate for themselves and their health#the two-faced calf can't look at her caretakers and say 'im in pain. i can't breathe. my organs are failing.'#so it is up to humans to pay attention to animal health and to make the best decision to cause them the least pain and suffering#forcing an animal thats suffering to live is cruel#plain and simple#perhaps deux face will be a miracle case like frank and louie and live a long healthy life#but she may also be in pain and is more likely to suffer and die before she gets too old
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I know how it sounds at first, but I really gotta feel bad for the boys that sacrificed edwin; I mean even the term “sacrificed edwin” paints them in a more sinister light than they really deserve– considering that wasn’t really, actually their intention.
they were bullies, they were homophobic (and/or were self loathing gay boys themselves taking it out on edwin, or were equally likely peer pressured into acting a certain way), they planned something stupid and mean to do to an innocent, anxious boy with the goal of scaring the shit out of him, all because he was effeminate and an easy target. but they didn’t know or expect any of the ritual stuff to be real. they were all laughing and joking during the ritual because it was just that to them– a joke. a cruel joke, but a joke.
teenagers can be mean and stupid and they usually regret it as adults and grow out of it / grow from it. they were stifled the chance to grow out of it, at least while alive. none of those boys deserved to be instakilled and sent to hell; they’re really not that much less deserving than edwin himself. they were all just kids, after all.
#random thought but. yeah……#I mean think about if crystal happened to be killed somehow pre-demonic intervention#she would’ve been deemed deserving of hell by the standards we’ve seen. no doubt about it. if the dragon guys were pulled to hell then yeah.#she would be as well. simply put- she was a bully#she was also a teenager. not a fully developed person. a very damaged and neglected teenager at that#it’s kinda like the criminal justice system right. it’s like. hey you really think sending them to be tormented is the most humane and#efficient way to heal these kids of what makes them act out and allow them to grow and improve?#Crystal’s such a good case to look at because she’s. well. to compare to The Good Place which you can probably already tell I’ve watched 800#times and adore with all my heart. she’s kinda the michael of the group#no one knows it at first but she’s actually kind of a terror to people most of the time. but she’s put in a situation where she#suddenly has a support system- people who care about her and want the best for her- she’s given a purpose and realizes how much better it is#to use her powers to help rather than hurt (well. sometimes helping can involve hurting but you get it)#and by the time she’s regained her memories and has a place in the agency it’s much easier to reflect on her life and be like huh!#this system kinda fucking sucks!#not that edwin wasn’t an example unto himself but he was a ‘clerical error’ not a ‘rightfully’ condemned person#with his situation someone could argue that the problem isn’t with the system being wack as a whole- it should just be maintained better so#these ‘errors’ don’t happen and all the good kids go to their afterlives and the Bad Evil Kids go to hell.#yes yes I know they’re not in hell forever (hopefully) but uhh Simon was still there for over a century and for fucking What?#gay self-loathing and catholic guilt? his intentions were clearly not Truly Evil and more than anything he seems to have been punished using#how much he hated himself for being gay and how guilty he felt for it all. like shit aren’t those feelings enough of a punishment? if he had#lived through that ritual and edwin hadn’t– do you think he would’ve been Okay? I think it would’ve crushed him. chronically#man. anyway#this was an especially long ramble huh#rambling#edwin#edwin payne#dead boy detectives
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#going through an absolutely uh heart wrenching breakup right now and#i need someone older and wiser to tell me how this goes#we live together. she wants to be single. i want to keep her as my lover. i wanted to live with her like lovers for the rest of our lives.#we want to stay friends. we're best friends. weve dated for 6.5 years. im nauseous in denial i don't have people who know how to help me#dumb putting this bs on glitter blog but just in case anyone has survived something like this and can DM me hi#how do you live with someone youve had the best times of ur life with when they don't want you to be more than friends#i want to hold her forever. she doesn't want to be beholden to anyone in this point of life.#im deleting this post later just hoping someone might see and help bc i am absolutely lost and dont know how on earth to act#im in fuckin nyc and it hurts being alone somewhere so big. crying on the subway and shit.#we live together. we live together. the lease ends february 2025. what the fuck. its a studio apartment. its one room and one bed.#op barks
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Minor thing that really irks me is when people treat the femc route in p3 portable as like the lesser story or like it’s a fanfic where nothing that happens in it is the “true” canon like. Bitch. The femc and everything that happens in her version of the story is just as canon as the male protagonist and everything that happens in his story. And there’s literally been so many fucking versions of p3 at this point like the base game, fes, portable, the movies, stage plays, reload, as well as spinoffs and manga and they all do things differently. I don’t see anyone acting like the base game is more canon than, say, reload so why do they do this with portable? Why can’t the (infinitely superior) version with the female protagonist just be respected for five fucking minutes goddamn
#persona#persona 3#kotone shiomi#its the misogyny yay#but god i am so tired of her game being treated as not actually canon like it literally is#theres multiple canons dipshit there is no true version of this game#and also people saying she doesnt fit the theme or some shit like. she literally does??? and honestly she does it better#like you can really feel the love she brings to the group and how she gives everything life and helps everyone#but also just how it all comes with pain she smiles and befriends everyone but shes always been so deeply alone and she doesnt want anyone#to feel the pain shes felt and so she carries all those burdens on her own and when everyone goes to reach out for her#its too late far too late shed sacrifice herself over and over for these people and theyll never once see her cry#she also you know. actually has good social links and gets to know everyone not just people she wants fuck#so you get to see just infinitely better versions of every character with her she really does bring out the best in them#and another thing in particular with the disrespect of her story is the way shinji living is treated again just like#some kinda fanfic au by someone who didnt wanna cope with their blorbo dying like ughh#shinji surviving is just as canon as him dying there is an entire canon where he gets a happy ending and it is once again#much better than versions where he dies like ive. exhausted myself with explaining it but its just better#so yeah basically out of spite i like acting like kotones story is actually the one true canon#and when people mention stuff that isnt in her story im like ‘huh? what? that didnt happen’#cuz whos gonna stop me
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#⁽ ˚₊‧ ꒰ა id: writer ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⁾#will discuss in depth in the future but...#i actually hate it when someone compares marnie to sophie and says that sophie is a better witch#you can't compare marnie who was hours away from permanently losing her powers to sophie who's at the prime age of starting her training#was said that you start at that age because your imagination helps your powers and strengthens them. it's natural talent at that age#meanwhile marnie was hours away from losing her magic and becoming a full mortal because her mom made that decision for her without consent#she decided that spooky loving marnie would be a mortal cause she hated what she was and didn't want it for her kids#like hello?? just so unfair to me especially when considering that marnie is a powerful witch despite her lack of training#who has saved the world multiple times with what she was dealt!!#i just live a marnie appreciation life and think she deserves a bit more credit for doing her best after what her mom caused#also why do we always compare the sisters and pit them against each other when they love each other so much? leave them alone#marnie loves her siblings so much and everyone in halloween/town so much like her heart is so beautiful... my girl#on the other hand i will fight her mom always actually
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p5 suou au microwaving in my head thinking about shiho's parents' change of heart eventually lead to katsuya and maya taking her in. hmm. oh i could be so unhinged about this. akechi has shit to Say about this and none of the Phantom Thieves are going to enjoy it because they always strive for the ideal outcome and. well. akechi does not. and i think too much peace so suddenly with her parents would just leave Shiho on edge after so long under their scrutiny anyway.
#p5 suou au#like. imagine living with the same two parents that threw you under the bus#just because they had a forced change of heart#you still vividly remember how they've hurt and wronged you#they've apologised and expressed remorse and Everything#so now everything is meant to be all hunky dory and whatever#[akechi voice] that is bullshit the best thing you guys can do for each other is Cut Those Fucking Ties!!!!!!!#idk i just think of the mementos quest where you help futaba's online friend#when her parents are basically sex trafficking her or whatever?#and idc how much a change of heart someone could have#sometimes it's best to just leave it at that and then Never Fucking Engage With Them Again#the obligation to is ultimately dissolved#and in Shiho's case? yeah. yeah i just think something like that happening and being the real result of her parents change of heart.#i have a lot of thoughts on this#mostly bc i think the dynamic between shiho and akechi could be very interesting.#something something ''do you actually want to bother wasting your time with family that already betrayed you''#''do you think haru here is cordial with me because she wants to be no it's because it's an occupational hazard now''#''could you all cut the hallmark movie shit. holy fuck.''#they already ruined their relationship with shiho and#if shiho isn't AWARE of the thieves doing this for her the change of heart would be disconcerting anyway and she'd STILL be on her toes#around them!!! tell me she wouldn't!!!#not to mention katsuya and maya would be out for their blood anyway#i do also think ryuji would have a thing or two to say about this#given his own shitty dad#dude would NOT want him back in his life just because he made amends or whatever#get that boku no academia endeavour shit outta hereeeeee
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very busy babysitting a duo of kittens (only two months old) the last few days but i shall be drawing when i return home (this includes requests)
and also if anyone wants to see the babies send an ask and i can post them in response hehe i have taken SO many photos
#yew branch#also i just missed a step on the stairs going down and ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow#i am now trapped on the couch until my back stops exploding at least a bit#upside tho is that the kittens are playing together on the couch#sometimes right on my lap!! theyre so so so so cute#i adore them#BUT YEAH i shall be drawing when i return home provided my back allows me to sit upright by that time#bc it sure isnt rn GDJSGJS#im sad ill have to go home tho.. these kittens are some of the cutest beasts alive#life is worth living because every day kittens are playing and having fun#i miiiiiiight be able to indirectly take one#one of my best friends might possibly be able/willing to take one and keep her with her own cat for me#until i move out of my parents house mid next year#so i might get to have... kitten that ive watched grow up from newborns...#the story behind these kittens is that one of my other best friends took in a stray and she turned out to be pregnant#and had these two!!#im also watching the three adult cats in this house but theyre not nearly as much of a handful#as can be imagined this friend is very tired of having 5 cats in the house regardless of how small two of them are GDJSVSN#which is very very understandable#i dont think i would want five cats unless i had a fairly large house. if i had a large house and plenty of free time most of each day#to give them play time and tons of affection#as well as the physical ability to keep up with them all#then id gladly have five cats#who knows maybe someday ill have a nice big house and plenty of spare time and my ddd will be under control#but that doesnt seem likely#aside from ddd being managed! because i have a pain relieving steroid injection tomorrow and then ill be starting physical therapy!!#im excited and i have a lot of hope for at least the physical therapy to help#PLUS THEY HAVE A POOL FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!!!!! AND I LOVE SWIMMING ESPECIALLY AS A GENTLE WORKOUT#and low impact things are very important for my body specifically i cant do high impact exercise or itll hurt me#plus i just love being in water i swear i was meant to be an aquatic elf from dnd
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something something the gang continues fighting supernatrual problems within the town, even going to universitys near each other/ the same one so they can continue working as a group since it's fun.
Eventually they face another creature that causes them to experience their greatest fears and Ethan is forced to fortell the future over and over and watch as none of his friends ever belive him. He realises that his greatest fear has evolved from being alone, to being with people but never heard, because isn't that worse? to be seen but to never be listened to?
Anyway they deal with the super natrual creature and alls okay and they start beliving Ethan again but it still FUCKS with him.
ps if you see how I just wrote ethan into casandras position (without the "no Apollo I do not want to have sex with you omg" moment), shhh no you didn't.
#mbav#my babysitters a vampire#ethan morgan#I always like thinking about how the season 1/2 tropes would be reflected later in their lives#like I think Benny's fear later would be a fear that he's depended upon ONLY for his magic and not for himself#or that Erica will become afraid of returning to humanity NOT because she prefers being a vampire/ thinks its superier#but because she's scared she won't be able to help her friends as much and also afraif to return to what she wants was#because she never experienced humanity at it's best only ever as a 'nerdy girl' in highschool which cannot have been a great experience#how are you meant to act as a human 20 year old when you only experienced life up untill 16?#what the fuck am I on about again
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Omg with the rain and the concert and everything I forgot to say something really weird that happen me and my mom were so confuse (and also kind of mad) it’s still haunting me.
We left my aunt house after bringing them Puppy and went to take the bus. Halfway there we were in the motel parking and two people came from the restaurant parking beside it. Since we are two totally shy and introverted (antisocial) people, me and my mom of course ignore them but the woman started to yell, I didn’t understand cause my ears aren’t that great, but apparently my mom said she screamed « we didn’t take anything I promise » like okay who cares even if you did we didn’t even looked at you ???? So we ignore them and continue to walk but she continue screaming on repeat « you know I have cancer ?! I’m going to d*e soon ! Oh you’re not even looking at me ?! I’m saying I’m going to d*e from cancer and you’re not even looking at me wow » first of all sorry ???? Idk what you want me to say ??? I’m like 👌 this close to an anxiety attack cause I hate confrontation so I look at her and say the lowest Sorry cause I can’t talk but she continue almost calling us name cause we are ignore her and her friend is also adding on it and I just can stop thinking about it ????? Like who is sick and do that ???? Mind you she didn’t look sick at all (even if sometimes you can’t see it I agree) she just look like she wants attention or like to mentally torture people they looked really strange and agressive it was yeah 😐
#if she wanted money for anything I would have gladly be like oh I’m sorry I can’t give anything but I wish you the best#but we weren’t even looking at her too that she start attacking us with words ????#if she didn’t attacked us I would definetely at least say sorry and smile to her wishing her luck 😭#anyway it was pour ring and we had to walk fast to thank you got she didn’t get physical cause i fell like she would if we respond badly#it’s the second time I take this bus in my life and it’s my second#bad experience help 😭#last time the old man was harassing me wanting me to call him handsome and now this#my poor aunt that took this bus everyday for 30 years i hope it wasn’t like that fkdbjxjd#thank you for reading if you did I had to get this off my chest it was so strange#i do wish her the best if it’s true but I wish her hell if she’s healthy and was living <3#alex.txt#tw death mention#tw cancer mention#tell me if i should add other tw I’m not sure#tw drug mention#idl
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i didnt want to put this in my prev reblogs tags but like
my dad was a us army soldier that went to Iraq, and for a long time i thought he did good over there, or at least tried. like my mom said that he had locals thank him personally for his help. though now i wonder if he’s just, lying about all that. bc not only did he literally Come Back Wrong after his third deployment, over the years he slowly opens up about shit he deliberately never told me, like the time he and a few other soldiers were left for dead by his group, and he only survived because the locals helped him, if im remembering right. however, i wonder how true that all is, or rather does that make up for the other heinous shit he’s responsible for. i remember him telling me passively he tortured a man. so i Know he has skeletons in his closet, i know for a fact there’s shit he will take to his grave.
all those times i prayed for my dad to survive and come back home, was that at the expense of innocent Iraqis? could my dad dying out there saved someone? I’ll never know for sure, but it kinda points to that doesn’t it?
#its hard. growing up believing your dad a hero only to be disillusioned and see he was a murderous pawn for the state.#that he didn’t help anyone there. his presence alone made everything worse.#i know he didn’t enjoy it but that doesn’t matter#sometimes i think. maybe it would’ve been best for him to die out there. but what would that have done to me?#would i be so angry and devastated that i Never would have been disillusioned? i wouldve been a military bootlicker my whole life?#my dad lives so i can be better than him?#and ofc he comes home with ptsd out the ass and just blew up our family#as in he doesn’t love my mom anymore and wants to move away and split us all up#took me and my brothers to alaska and left my mom to struggle all on her own#only for him to be dogshit at the parenting thing when hes by himself. kept bringing in other women in his life#my moms okay now. shes remarried and owns a home and both of my brothers live with her now. but the journey to get there? it was fucked#i just. i fucking hate the military. i hate what it did to my family i hate what it does to families overseas#idk why im even going on about this#here of all places#txt
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someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck
#who is talking about this!!!! let me know#idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which#i was anticipating#and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before#but liiiiiike.#i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them#it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there#just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse#like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no#anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite#and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up#people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out#and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point#or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible#but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding#at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends#which i am so grateful for obviously#i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol#AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad#just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t#i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it#i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this#which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao#probably for the best#ugh whatever#again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know#meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone#AAAAAAAA i just want to scream#text
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