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As an ordained priest, I have the authority to say;
God doesn't care if you're Gay, Trans, Ace, Aro, Straight, Cis, Questioning, or even just plain stupid. So long as you aren't a raging dickhead, God still loves you.
And if you don't believe in him, then the people around you hopefully do too. And if they don't, (how dare they,) I do. Have a nice evening, and if that's not possible, have a safe one.
#Be nice to others please#christianity#monke thoughts#shoutout to atheists agnostics buddhists taoists pagans jews catholics and people of all/no religions other than my own#we don't have to worship the same god(s) for me to love and care about you#just don't kick puppies or innocent people y'know?
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Smut Dialogue Prompts
You may mix and match these prompts with ones on the same or different prompt lists you find on my blog when making requests. Context for the prompt(s) is always welcomed and encouraged, but not required.
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"Your voice does things to me. I just thought you should know that."
"I know you're technically my instructor..."
"I dreamed of your legs wrapped around my waist."
"Don't act innocent when we both know where your mouth was two minutes ago."
"We should probably leave, before we start a scandal."
"My tongue still remembers the way you taste."
"I want to count every one of your freckles with my lips."
"I know I should ask why you're naked in my bed, but I just want to enjoy it for a moment."
"Maybe you could use that mouth for more than just talking nonsense."
"Your eyes are already saying yes, now I just need your mouth to tell me the same."
"You look so cute when you're all disheveled."
"Well, how do you like my outfit?" "You're hardly wearing anything."
"I’ve never seen you look at me like that before."
"Don’t deny me what’s mine."
"Let me take care of you, yeah? I'll do the work."
"My God, you're so fucking gorgeous like this."
"Can I- can I please touch myself?"
"Wanna see how you look when you come undone under me."
"I'll make you feel good, I promise. Just trust me."
"I wanna taste you on my lips again."
"Wanna feel you against me."
"Clothes on or clothes off?"
"Mmm, always so impatient for me, aren't you?"
"Do I turn you on that much?"
"I don't think I'm gonna last long if you keep doing that."
"Need I remind you on what happened last night?"
"Lift your hips up for me."
"You’re so hot when you're bossy."
"Tell me if it becomes too much, okay?" "Okay."
"Are we— are we really going to do this here?"
"Eyes on me at all times, sweetheart."
"I want you in the most sinful ways possible."
"You like messing with my head, don't you?" "Only because it clearly turns you on."
"You'd sound so good begging for it."
"Getting you naked was just the first part of my plan for the night."
"You're wearing way too many clothes for what I have in mind."
"There's just something so extremely irresistible about a uniform..."
"You should keep the boots on."
"Maybe I should wake you up like this more often."
"We still have a few minutes left. You think you can manage?"
"Tell me if the collar is too tight."
"You’re such a good girl."
"We’re in the middle of a restaurant, what are you doing?"
"I’m trying to drive here."
"I love the way you touch me."
"Are you saying this doesn’t turn you on?"
"You know you want it."
"I’m not sure you could handle me."
"Please, I need you. Now."
"I like it when you say my name like that."
"I’m going to be late because you can’t keep it in your pants."
"Shut up and take your pants off."
"Don’t stop. Whatever you do, please don’t stop."
"I’m not hurting you, am I?"
"This can be our little secret."
"On your knees."
"I’ve thought about it before. You know, being with you like this."
"You look so good with your head between my legs."
"What would people say if they knew you were such a slut for me?"
"Let me worship you the way you deserve."
"It’s been such a long time."
"Turn around. I want to try something."
"Try not to ruin your manicure when you dig those nails into my back."
"Are you sure there’s enough room to do this in a hospital bed?"
"You don’t have anything on under that, do you?"
"Take me to bed or lose me forever."
"Keep this up and I’ll become a sex addict."
"You’ve been playing hard to get all night."
"I love it when you dress up for me."
"I love that the sexiest woman I’ve ever met is also my best friend."
"You don’t just belong in my bed, you belong on magazine covers."
"You make sex a religious experience."
"I thought we agreed to share her."
"I’m afraid I can no longer remain professional."
"I think I’ve made my intentions clear."
"I shouldn’t allow myself to get so close to you."
"I thought maybe we could do a little more than kissing this time."
"Oh my god, you’re naked." "Look all you like. I don’t mind."
"Mmm, good morning to you too."
"I want you." "Then have me."
"You’re not taking me to bed. Ever." "Who said it had to be a bed?"
"Would you reconsider if I were sober?"
"I'm not wearing any panties."
"Can’t I at least take my shoes off before you pounce on me?"
"I’m the one in charge here, silly girl."
"Be a good girl for mommy."
"And here I was, thinking that you were so innocent."
"Are you going to keep staring at my ass or…?"
"I want my first time to be with you."
"I can’t believe I did this again."
"Come sit on my lap, baby."
"Oh I'm sorry, did I pull too hard on the leash? What a shame."
"You enjoy being praised, don’t you?"
"Why don’t you bare that pretty neck for me?"
"I want to hike up your skirt and take you right here."
"Do you think they can hear us through the tent?" "Yes we can."
"I was wondering how long you two were going to make out like that before you realize you weren’t alone."
"You could be wearing a trash bag and I’d still want you."
"Oh my god. Did we just break the bed?"
"Throw your morals out the window, just for tonight."
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※ Ch149 WBK spoilers/leaks, endosaku/endochika talk. +my nickname for chika is chiitan btw
Can't believe edsk neg diffed every sakura cp in 4 pages what the fukk
This is really fun for me to interpret...! in my view, i think that endo equates love to full-blown attention and bloodlust. since sakura is known to lock in on his opponents which was painted as a flaw (im unsure when, around keel arc was it? i rmb he realized he had to protect everyone and not just charge in by himself), this very flaw unfortunately pulled endo in
Like, endo practically spent less than 2 hours??? Face to face with sakura???? And then he's already calling him a man he "values from the bottom of his heart" before acknowledging he can never have the things he truly loves (chiitan and sakura standing side by side, and we already know his feelings for the former are Not merely platonic)
If chiitan is an unobtainable god of worship in a higher plane for endo, i suppose sakura would be the human embodiment of said god... and chiitan never gave endo the attention he categorized as love, but endo still fell first after seeing his bloodlust (the other part of his love)
When endo sees sakura with the same bloodlust, this time directed at him with full attention, he realizes for the first time in his life that he also wants to be desired by the person he's taken an interest in; i believe this was repressed after all those years with chiitan. even tho he was satisfied chasing after and worshipping chiitan, he was never truly happy because those pair of eyes would never look the same way as sakura had looked at him, with the same intense fervor.
Yet endo can't have both of them, his feelings will never be mutual. Sakura's whole spiel in the beginning was how he could never meet another person's eyes, but everyone (with "everyone" being the things sakura loves—the people who care for him) was looking at him—and now endo, who never had the eyes of the thing(s) he loves looking at him, experiences it for the first time, and sakura's gaze is trained fully on him. he's looking his way for the first time in his life, but at the same time, what endo wants will never be reciprocated. I think it's ... wow! Wow u make me HOME A PHONIC
Fucking hell this disaster gayfailure makes me insane. I am homophobic now. I hate him /lh
Edit: me and my friend talked a bit...
I like how the image of endo embracing chiitan is religiously inclined (the title, the pose, the robes, the painting). It's the beginning of the chapter, the largest image. It's clearly depicting worship. Whereas sakura's one is in the middle of a chapter. It's mundane, it's human, it's something fleeting yet all-encompassing, a potential pedestal of worship and idolization. Endo's in normal clothes sitting in front of Sakura's bust. There could potentially be more people around him but the spotlight right now is on sakura, his attention has narrowed down to him and him only
I like how Sakura is also a bust and not a painting... he's more 3 dimensional, perhaps more nuanced even, more developed; he's observable from multiple angles and his features are more defined. But chiitan's a painting—and it kind of fits since we don't know much about him at all. We've only heard of him from tales and other potentially skewed perspectives like how religious paintings depict religious figures
My friend mentioned, Sakura being a bust on a mount could be because endo can topple it down and break him, similar to the panel how a sakura twig can be snapped. Paintings are meant to be hung and admired from afar.
Another friend of mine pointed out that the kanji for chiitan's name contains 焱, while the kanji for endo's has 棪. 木 = wood and 火 = fire... It's like he's firewood as fuel for chiitan's inferno, but at the same time, endo's hurting himself and turning into cinders
Fire (chiitan) is beautiful when admired but painful to touch, but endo's been shown to worship and grasp at it even if it almost kills him.
But Endo uses words like "submerge" and "bathe" when it comes to sakura... he's like water if chiitan is fire. I don't know about the JP originals but endo does mention feeling "joy" upon meeting chiitan (a brief spark) and sakura brings "happiness" (a more prolonged thing) if eng TLs are accurate
What I'm saying is... if chiitan is truly symbolized in the painting and endo is searing himself away through worship—i'd dare say that the best way to destroy a painting, too, is to burn it.
#endosaku#endo yamato#sakura haruka#chika takiishi#wbk#wind breaker#discussion#congratulations endosaku for becoming semi-canon (one-sided)#i'm going to bed with my head full of endo
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SHIPPING INFO // ANSWER THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR MUSES SO PEOPLE KNOW HOW SHIPPING WORKS ON YOUR BLOG.
WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER(S)?
i don't have one particular otp — big ships change depending on the Era hellhound is in!
HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?
nothing illegal obviously — other than that, aside from long-lifespan characters whose mental maturation is slower, i generally stay away from with 10+ year age gaps when the younger muse is under 20. just feels like a weird power dynamic i guess?
ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?
yes! ships on this blog cannot be pre-established — i tend to lose interest fast if they don't build up naturally, either through lots of ooc plotting or through writing. on top of that, seph is ... piiiiicky. she has very specific Types. generally, ships with very gentle, soft, mentally well-adjusted characters are possible, but transient — seph falls out of love after a point, but remains staunchly protective of them.
the long and short of the matter is she's a freak, and you kind of have to match that to be compatible as a long-term partner. but even then they don't always line up perfectly! idk. seph's weird. simultaneously very easy to ship with and very hard to ship with.
WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH?
oh i've got lots of good ones going on right now!! pls forgive me for gushing. focusing on currently heavily-plotted and/or written ones for this bit bc otherwise it will be pages and pages!! if i forgot someone you have full permission to impale me on a pike i am SO SORRY. (aka i'll go back and add u in omg)
@vsagis' villain izuku— i had to put u first bc u kickstarted this shipping renaissance. seph and izuku clicked instantly and started a long-term trajectory that i don't think either of us writers expected. they're just freak enough to match each other, just soft enough to genuinely care. we're really putting these two through the horrors(tm) and watching them fall hopelessly, horribly in love. <3
@spiritcrown's pasha — how could i not mention pasha!! i was so happy to see you back, because pasha and seph's relationship was soooo formative for seph's development wrt romance. seph is absolutely, completely and utterly devoted to pasha. they worship at the altar of her. they would bend heaven and raise hell for her.
@crowshoots' jesper — UAHGHGBBHBH INCOHERENT CRYING NOISES. the first thing seph noticed about jesper was extremely respectable fighting skills, but even then they were definitely uhhhh touch and go for a while there before they started to simmer down and. pin each other down and — one thing led to another and jesper's being antagonized by her antagonists and they're too deeply in love to go back!! i love them. i l
@crowgreeds' kaz — HHHHHHHHH god. hi siri i know ur not around the dash much but idc im writing u into this. kaz and seph both have such a darkness in them that the other recognizes and not only feeds, but when necessary, balances. they're ruthless and violent and mean but at the same time, they have such a softness for each other that they both thought was dead. also, you're the recipient of probably the best rp reply i've ever written (that fucking. hellhound kill description. my GOD im feral for seph protecting him)
@tewwor.... goose is2g we really have the creatures ever. litho — FIRST SHIP!!!! FIRST SHIIIP i still cant believe it took 4 irl years for them to finally admit their stupid feelings. now they're soulmates and there's no turning back. he's the reason seph likes poetry in every verse. the softest snarkiest ship. probably the closest to a true YA-style soulmate seph has. she hasn't forgiven him for all the twilight jokes though tough luck jie & ricochet — the boys... the absolute chaos trio... i never expected seph and jie to fall for each other but honestly i should have. he falls so neatly into her "equally feral" type. ricochet is so calm and seph is kind of intoxicated by that. sheathed claws kind of vibe. just love these three their dynamic balances itself so well
@spungolden's dio — two femmes raised as weapons with deeply suppressed emotions, chillin in a murder alley, five feet apart cause theyre not g— (theyre gay. theyre so gay) these two are so sweet they sometimes make me tear up. they skipped the trauma stage and went straight into lesbian domestic fantasy with only occasional murder.
@chaoslulled oh boy(s). toji — brutally in love. they saw and embraced each other's monster, refused to shy away, and now they somehow revolve in this strange orbit of violent and incredibly soft with each other. i think he's the first of the current ship lineup that seph has in-thread said the L-word to. this ship was so easy to jump right into, the chemistry was like lightning in a bottle. satoru — one of the most genuinely unexpected slowburn ships i've stumbled into. these two read each other for filth INSTANTLY as lonely motherfuckers who, in some way or another, had loved and lost. they haven't even gotten to the oh-shit moment in the slowburn yet but i'm lookin forward to it yakuza sukuna — THE PAIN. THE SUFFERING. AUHHHGHGGGG HOL YOU'RE FUCKING KILLING MEEEE. these two are mirrors in the worst possible way. they've got their throats stuck under their boss' boot heels; they've been disfigured, they've had their siblings used as leverage, they've been made into muzzled dogs. despite hating each other at the start, they can't not recognize that, and it's led to this fierce protectiveness that isssss whoops evolving into feelings. i'm sure nothing will go wrong
@eraserisms' shota — AHHHHHHH god okay most of this ship has been pure plotting vibes and responses to memes, but i truly cannot wait to get into writing more of them because they own my heart and soul. i think they know each other to the marrow in a way that's not super common for seph, and the gentleness and caution with which they're starting to explore revisiting their care for each other is heartbreaking in the best way
@sasouken BEE!!!! ok chronologically(??): deku — so precious and wholesome from the start. your honor he's just a little guy with a big dumb crush. when i tell uuuuuu some of our plotting has literally made me tear up a little??? the absolute bleeding heart on this boy??? HURTS ME??? one day they'll hold hands casper — slated to be our angstiest dynamic, i just Know it. two motherfuckers who love their siblings, inextricably involved in a tangled web of crime and violence. two people who have lost so much and don't want to lose anyone ever again. i will die i WILL satoru — such... a different vibe than i was expecting in an amazing way?? his dynamic with seph is so fuckin sweet? so much physical touch born of trust and comfort. also again: her first ever fwb (for now), which is truly a wild thing to experience. sukuna — i .. . dont even know what to say about this one. (affectionate). he unlocked an entirely new dimension of freak in seph's psyche and attraction style that i couldn't comprehend before we started writing them but retrospectively makes so much sense. what the fuck is going on with these two i have no idea but i am OBSESSED with it. also writing them getting down nasty has been extremely fun, i'm enjoying it a lot
there are more sort of beginnings/potentials for ships that haven't been explored yet which i haven't included here, but i'm truly excited to see where each and every one of them goes!!!
DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?
yes absolutely hahaha — at least communicating ooc about it is necessary! i'm much more comfortable shipping with partners i mesh well with as a mun and have an easy time talking to.
ARE YOU SHIP-OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?
LOOK I. LISTEN. LISTEN... IM FERAL FOR SHIPS. FERAL. even though seph is picky about them — and i promise it's not personal if it doesnt work, it truly is just her dumb creature ass being unable to normal.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?
N/A for this blog, but as a fun trivia fact, i'm deep in satosugu hell rn
FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?
it's all vibes babey. we just start writing their non-romantic dynamic buildup, and if it clicks (or even if u just think ur character would have a crush!) we talk about it ooc and plot some more, then plot some more and before u know it, the angst hammer looms over ur head
Tagged by: @bearratic (thank youuuu!!)
Tagging: (points) do it
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Hello! Can you write a Dark!Morpheus x reader where they tell the story of the most popular myth of how to sandman courted the primordial being of love (the reader) by inspiring artists to write songs,books and ballads in attempts to woo her in a sort of Persephone and hades sort of way if that makes sense .it work and they are seen as like THE couple and Morpheus is just head over heals worshipping the ground she walks on both then and now and reader obviously adore him as well.maybe they have a few kids?
So I focused more on the darker side of this request and I didn't include the bit about children. Hope you don't mind and enjoy the fic!
Title: A Story
Warnings: dark fic
Everything tag list: @greenrevolutionary, @byebyebreezywrites, @spngingerbread21, @layazul, @lov3vivian, @simonsbluee
Are you sitting comfortably?
Good.
Then let me begin my tale of the Lord of Dreams and the Goddess of Love.
A burning, passionate love story that has lasted longer than this world has been around. It wasn’t often that another being captured the Dream Lord’s attention and yet this Goddess had done just that. Her siblings and fellows Gods and Goddess had warned her about the power and danger of the Endless but she paid them no heed.
And that, my listeners, was to be her undoing.
So, I hear you ask, how did he manage to court the reclusive Goddess?
You see, the answer is quite simple- by inspiring the humans that she cared so much about.
Dreams of inspiration is what he gave to the humans. Poetry, books, paintings, plays, all of this he provided for the humans. To shower each other in declarations of love that they otherwise would not have said. They had the ideas but he provided them with the ways of putting them into words.
That’s how he got the attention of the Goddess.
How happy she was that her humans and how charmed by the Dream Lord despite the continuous warnings from those around her. Of course this didn’t go unnoticed by the humans. Myths and legends sprung up about the two of you. How the God of Dreams gifted human s with divine inspiration to court the one he loves the most. These were the myths that humans needed the most. In hard times these were the myths the humans turned to the most. All other relationships paled in comparison to theirs. You see, there was no drama or fighting between them. Just love.
Ah, I see your cynical smile and perhaps you’re right.
In fact, there is no ‘perhaps’ about it.
You see, these were stories created by human and-
Oh. I see you’ve already clocked it.
The Dream Lord inspired the humans who created the stories…
Yes, you’re correct, how do we know these stories are fact or fiction? But that’s the same with any myth isn’t it? The lines between what happened and what is made up is often blurred and that is the case with this. Humans are romantics are heart.
The truth is, yes the Dream Lord did inspire humans and that did captivate the Love Goddess. However, the Dream Lord asked too much of the little Goddess. He wanted her to reside in the Dreaming with him. To leave her family and become completely his. To never walk among the humans again. To have his heirs and to never mention her old life outside the Dreaming.
And she didn’t bend to his commands.
You ok? Oh, you don’t like how this story is turning out? I’m afraid things rarely turn out how people want them to.
Now, there’s something else you should know about the Dream Lord. It isn’t just dreams that he controls.
It’s also nightmares.
At her refusal the human were plagued with horrific nightmares. The Endless are older and more powerful than the Gods, even the ancient ones. The more the Goddess refused his affections the worse the nightmares became. Until she agreed to meet, to relieve the humans pain and suffering at the hands of the one she thought she could trust.
But when it came time to meet she couldn’t face him. The trust that had been built up had long since gone. So she did the only thing she thought she could do.
She ran.
She disappeared from existence. None of the other Gods or the Endless knew where she had gone or if they did they didn’t let the Dream Lord know. The Dream Lord searched endlessly for his little Goddess but he couldn’t find her. He even couldn’t find her dreams, the mind he used to enjoy spending so much time in.
Which brings us up to now.
The Dream Lord has escape the prison where he was held for one hundred years. With all that time he’s done quite a bit of think and from what I hear he’s determined to find his Goddess. This time, nothing is going to stand in his way.
Hmm?
What’s that?
What does this Goddess look like?
Heh.
My dear, just look in a mirror and you shall see. Surely you don’t think of me as stupid?
Pleasant dreams and good luck.
#fanfiction#the sandman#sandman#reader insert#request#sandman x reader#dream of the endless#dream of the endless x reader#morpheus#morpheus x reader
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(Mhyk) More northern twin thoughts and i basically try to guess what happened to them when they were actual children
So, first of all, what we DO know about them:
They have two dolls that function as parent substitutes
They don't actually remember their childhood at all besides each other and the dolls
They love dressing up
They love giving and receiving gifts
They definitely have a vague idea of what human relationships LOOK like...but it's very weird? Like it's dry textbook knowledge, almost
They're from north and there, even in ancient times, since humans can't survive on their own, human groups usually rely on one wizard leader for survival
Their bodies stopped aging REALLY YOUNG
So, the fact that they are born at all means that they were born to humans. Unlike figaro, who probably immediately got worshipped as a god and had zero proper socialization, or oz, whose parents i will assume died during his birth, i think snow and white actually were taken care of and loved by their parents. At least really early on.
But i also think that snow and white never really knew their parents that much.
I think their parents locked them away. Not out of neglect, but out of love. I imagine being a human and relying on a wizard for survival and then giving birth to wizards is HORRIFYING. Especially considering how prideful northern wizards are, i can imagine that the village leader might have been killing any wizard born to consume for mana stones/strength and also to eliminate any potential competition. S&W's parents, not wanting their babies to die, probably had to hide them away.
And i think that's where their love for gifts and dressing up comes from. Maybe their parents felt guilty locking them away and would then shower them with gifts to keep them happy and to make up for the fact that they can't actually be there for their kids. And obviously one of those gifts would be the dolls.
And afaik this is the one time we get an explanation as to what these dolls could be. And it makes me think, why not both? They could have been given to you by your parents as a substitute.
But here's the thing tho...the dolls have the same eyes but a different hair color from S&W themselves...and this could be the dolls being faulty ooooor S&W themselves had changed.
And there's also the fact that something must have happened to them for their bodies to have been shocked into no longer aging (there's also the possibility of "ooooh what if they're just genius magic child prodigies that unlocked their full potential really young" i am ignoring that) and maybe they ended up fighting that village's leader anyways? Ok so here is what i am envisioning
S&W locked in a room -> parents out doing whatever -> S&W sneak out to leave because they don't wanna burden their parents any longer -> leader finds them by feeling magic presence around -> leader kills parents first for betrayal and then goes for S&W -> they defeat him because 2 vs 1 but also they ended up maxing out their magic potential because this is a life or death situation
And then maybe, after consuming the mana stone of the leader they defeated, their hair turned from blonde to black (because consumption of mana stones you are not ready for might take over parts of you, including changes to physical features) That's the only explanation i can think of for the hair color difference between them and the dolls who supposedly represent their parents.
And maybe the reason why it was so easy for them to forget their family because they have not actually seen them that much in the first place.
#Kind of related but does anyone else wanna be sick with me abt the fact that the village near the west (in the halloween story)#(the one snow liked)#Has a “i'll survive with whatever i'm given” way of thinking#But the one that white chose (town of ice) has a “i'll do everything to keep you bound down to me because i can't be alone” way of thinking#The villages they like kinda reflect who they are huh#snow mahoyaku#white mahoyaku#lore rant
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Beloved Spawn
Pairing: Ascended Astarion x Human Female Tav
Warning(s) : Unhealthy relationship, Possessive Behavior, Manipulation (implied)
About: The ascendant remembers about his relationship with his most beloved spawn.
Notes: Post Tadpole, Soft Ascended Astarion, Astarion's prespective, My Tav X Astarion, Oneshot, Named Tav
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Sacrifice and martyrdom.
A music that grates Astarion's ears to no end. The core teachings of Ilmater. Truthfully, one he has no intention to follow nor care but an inconvience he's willing to indulge as long as it comes from her lips, Saveena's lips.
His indulgences do have it's limits. Forget the Gods, she should worship him, submit, and be completely under his mercy. A delicious thought that sends shivers of excitement. A few sweet words of encouragement and his debonaire charm will do the trick. He knows it will work, two centuries of experience made him confident.
This is how it should, should be doing, not like this. Of course, nothing goes his way. The Gods must have cursed him or one of poor souls in his Ascension did. He clenches at the flowers in his hand as he stand in front of her--his consort's tombstone.
[... ]
"Cyrus" Astarion calls the servant. "Make sure to send these papers. "
"At once milord." Cyrus bowed then sorts the paper.
Few more inks with these stacked papers and he's going to lose it. He knew running a palace is a lot of work but no one mentioned how annoying it could be. He puts down his glasses on his table and rub his forehead. Stressed, he stepped out of the study, passing through the same tasteless paintings and opulent decorations that fills the hallways.
He stopped at the balcony, only to be greeted by the green grass, gaudy flowers, and butterflies flying around the garden. This corner of the palace seemed out of place but welcome sight. He takes the sight, particularly his consort. Basking under the sun, as she hums while tending the plants.
"Astarion" She cheerfully called as she wipes the sweat off. "Care to join me? "
'Again? An attempt to divert me from my plans?' "I rather keep these nails clean, thank you."
"Alright, but if you do change your mind, you're always welcome to join me." She casually turned around to tend the plants.
"How...kind of you, but one I wouldn't take."
[...]
"Yes, my treasure, what is it?"
"I was wondering, if we could go out?" She hesitated before continued. "I want to experience going to the temple and visiting the orphange with you. "
"No." The very idea spoils his mood but masked a unreadable expression. "Besides you can't go out in the sun without me."
"That's perfect! " Her face brightens at the realization. "We have been together for awhile but I haven't even introduced you to my friends and family. Now, you really need to come."
The image of introducing himself to her love ones made him scoff. On the other hand, it's an opportunity to show people who Saveena belongs to. Now there's an idea he wouldn't mind.
"Afterwards, let's have a date or anything you feel like doing, sounds good?"
"Naughty-naughty, you don't know what I'll ask." He wraps an arm around her waist, practically breathing on her neck.
"I can handle it, besides I trust you." She patiently waits for his answer.
"Alright, but a peek of what's to come is in order, don't you think? "
"Got it!" She kissed his cheeks then smiled cheerfully.
He made sure that she forgot she even asked that day.
[...]
Astarion came back from a bussiness trip. As soon as he sets out of the carriage he was greeted with a smell of burnt crisps. He hurriedly went inside and saw the state of the ballroom. Tattered artworks, shattered vases and trails of blood. Infiltrated and ransacked, it could be anyone: his political and bussiness rivals or someone he pissed off for existing.
Saveena.
He immediately went to their room to check on her. Before he could get inside a Cyrus is sat on a ground while leaning on the wall. Holding the wound in his stomach. He should repimand him if didn't have to look for Saveena.
"Where is my consort?"
"At the garden...milord." He hastily makes his way into the gardens.
"I suggest you take your leave before I before I bury your corpse" From a distance, he heard Saveena say, threatningly. Something, he hand't heard for a long time.
"I wish we would have time to convince you but--"He heard an unfamiliar man said, he runs faster than before. Then felt a pain of one of his spawns.
Saveena evades the incoming stake the young elf is holding but still felt pain. As arrow suddenly appears hitting her back shoulder followed by another attempt from the young elf. This time it hits her heart. The pain made her kneel, she tried to cast restoration spell but your magic wouldn't work nor her vampire abilities are working.
"Saveena!" Astarion simply calling her name made her smile.
In an instant, Astarion is by her side, using his body as a support to keep her steady. He barked out orders to servants could respond. He should be berating their incompetence but decided to focus on Saveena.
"You're doing good, need to focus on me." She gritted her teeth as Astarion removed the arrow from shoulder, and realized it was coated with sussur bark. Looking around, the unfamiliar voice he heard nowhere in sight and the fire won't be put out soon.
"Come now, don't sleep on me darling." Astarion cradled her body protectively.
[... ]
"I love you."
The last three words Saveena uttered before her-- death. Three words that Astarion couldn't return, he tried to return these feelings, genuinely. This is what he desired but can't, being vunerable brings out unwanted feelings. Thus, he settled with the way he know how: gifts, lavishes, and her protection. He focused in her needs and wants that he failed to be with her. Truly, together, bonding--making memories while being true to oneself.
Power feeds his soul, it keeps him alive and safe. Power is also what destroyed his love for her. Despite all of it, Saveena always tried to include Astarion with her plans. Trying to ignite their love, while wearing the brightest smile, he had seen. She was truly a fool for loving a monster.
A fool that he didn't deserve.
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as a woman, this is why i absolutely cannot get with the "man made" idea that god is father and jesus as son .. men. the male deity in religion teaches that he is to be "feared". that when we sin we are punished or shamed and then must ask for forgiveness. most men are leaders of churches and if women are leaders, they preach the same lessons as men. religious or non religious, parent or non parent, this man made idea as god as creator and father and jesus as son, subconsciously teaches men that they are superior and to be feared. feared by their children, the women in their lives or even women they don't know. that they are the structural authority of how society is to be be ran, as well as their households.
how many of us have feared our fathers? how many of us have done something considered wrong as a child and have been verbally or physically reprimanded by our fathers or been told by our mothers, "just you wait til your daddy gets home"? i don't know about you, but i was terrified of my dad and lived in fear in my household. i'm adopted so one example is if i did something as little as walking pass a piece of lint (mind me not even seeing it) and not picking it up, i would get some sort verbal abuse or be told that i was going to get sent back to foster care. and a lot of mother's either adapt to raising their kid(s) in the same manner as the father, turn a blind eye even if they disagree with how the child is being reprimanded because they also live in fear. i'm sure we can sit here and say "not all father's ...", and of course it's not, but there is a lot more than there is not.
i honestly cringe and breaks my heart every time i hear a woman call god "he, him, his, father". i wish for women who are to ask themselves, "why am i worshipping, praying to a male god and following man made teachings/religions? "does this feel natural to my soul and being, or forced?" women have been misguided because these are not women's teachings, nature or culture. We have our own nature, culture and ways of honoring and communicating to the Divine. Mother is God and God is Mother. She is the Creator of life and She is the Destroyer of life. She is our food. She is not to be feared because She is the highest frequency of Love and fear is not Love. Love is not confusion, chaos, strict, restriction, punishment, shame or structurally militant. It is Free and Peace. As she has the power to create and destroy .. so do women. man made religions and teachings reduce women as inferior and hide our power as creators of human life and destroyers of human life if we choose to not give birth. when all women Return to Mother, Matriarchy will be reborn. The natural way on earth that is nourishing and nurturing to every woman, man and child.
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His Dark Materials: The Intention Craft (3x03)
Oh boy, I can't wait for episode four, I have a feeling it's going to make me a little weepy. But let's talk about this one first!
Cons:
The effect on the Gallivespians is... weird. They've got the scaling situation going, but it doesn't ever really feel like they're in the same place? Like when Lady Salmakia is talking to Lyra and Will, it doesn't feel like they're actually physically near each other. And the scene where she attacks them, angry about the knife being broken, it really did feel like the kids were flinching away on cues from someone off-camera, not to an actual living person existing in their environment.
Mary Malone... it's strange that we're not making progress quicker with her. She's on her journey, and I know where it's going, but there are five episodes left the show, and we're just now getting to the point that I think of as the beginning of her story? So I don't know, that's a little odd, pacing-wise.
Also odd for pacing was to have Balthamos come back for like two seconds just to say "oh, you're going to the land of the dead. Okay, bye, then." I guess I'm glad to see him, but not really sure what the point was there.
Pros:
GOD, everything with Asriel and Marisa is so juicy and interesting. They really did steal the show for me this week. Asriel has control over Marisa, has her at his mercy, and yet Marisa cannot fully be controlled. The moment when he laments, why can't you be what I want you to be, was honestly so powerful and I think encapsulates so much of what this relationship is. There's a deep passion and intensity of feeling between them, but ultimately he cannot fully respect her, and she cannot consent to be subjugated. I love that Lyra's parents have what at first glance seems to be very gendered conceptions of parenthood: Marisa is the one frantic for their daughter's safety, while Asriel is impatient about the whole mess. But then you think back to their history with her: neither is a nurturing, supportive parent, but Asriel was at least willing to see her and admit to the family connection, while Marisa hid in shame, only entering Lyra's life when she feared that her own research would lead to her daughter's harm.
Asriel is so intense: his motives are, I think one could argue, good, in the sense that the Magisterium is evil and what they claim to worship is no good either. And yet we watch him torture an angel to get a message to Metatron. We see what a controlling, dismissive, inconsiderate person he is at his very core. His passion, however, makes him so interesting to watch. He's not some sort of pedestrian evil man grabbing for power wherever he can get it. And Marisa certainly isn't just her ambition, either. The look they share, as Marisa escapes on the Intention Craft, is one of mutual understanding; a strange, angry respect. I can't wait to see the end of the story play out between them. It's bound to be such an intense moment.
Will and Lyra are similarly moving to watch, albeit in a very different way than Coulter and Asriel. The warmth of their friendship is so obvious, and then when there's conflict between them, you get the sense that it hurts precisely because of how much they care for and trust one another. Will doesn't fully understand Lyra's plan to go to the land of the dead, but ultimately he's going to back her play. Yes, his father told him to bring the knife to Asriel, but his mother always told him to help a friend in need. Their hug was beautiful, and I'm already getting weepy about what's going to happen at the end of this show. It's gonna screw me up big time.
It was cool to see Iorek helping Will to reforge the knife, although I think they're cowards to not show Iorek's big huge meaty bear paws holding forging tools. That's kind of all I have to say about that. It's sweet seeing Iorek and Lyra together, and Lyra using the alethiometer again after so long was a treat as well!
I'll stop there. After I watch episode four, we'll already be halfway through the season. Say it ain't so!
8/10
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Week 3: Visio divina
Historic murals in Zion Lutheran Church, Athens, NY; Basilica, University of Notre Dame
Sanctuary of Zion Lutheran Church, Athens, NY. Photo taken June 16, 2023.
Visio divina
Welcome to Week 3 of my prayer exercise. This week, we step away from the Met, but not from architectural forms. I attended a colleague's studio's piano recital at Zion Lutheran last week. My children and I have also performed here, and my family has attended ecumenical services here. I was happy to be back in Zion, as it's a small, welcoming upstate New York church -- by that, I mean that the sanctuary is cozy, and the building is historical, as are most Mainline Protestant churches here. I love worshiping in the Basilica at Notre Dame or at Duke Chapel when I'm down for my intensive weeks, but the smaller worship spaces in our Northeastern villages are home. Most are similar, and some, regardless of denomination, have the same blueprint (having used the same artisans).
If you are a church history fan, click here:
The recital was lovely and showcased serious young people who pursue their passions for piano performance.
Today is the Saint Day for Aloysius Gonzage, whose relics are housed in the Basilica, because he died on this day several hundred years ago. He was also a young person who pursued his passions. Coincidence?
Here's a bit about him:
Aloysius Gonzaga
died midnight June 20-21
patron saint of young catholics, died age 23
headstrong teen with ideas his father opposed
forbidden by Jesuit superiors from too much prayer: he needed a balanced life. He "pursued" relationship with God as his main passion
Read more about him here where you can see depictions of him at the University of Notre Dame, including a mural found within the Basilica:
https://faith.nd.edu/s/1210/faith/interior.aspx?sid=1210&gid=609&calcid=53508&calpgid=61&pgid=15208&crid=0
* A quick memorial to my high school algebra teacher and quiz team coach Mr. Gillette, whose middle name was Aloysius -- a fact he grudgingly revealed when none of us could guess his name. He smoked like a chimney and drove us off campus without permission (it was the 80s), he accepted and respected pregnant and newly married teens, and he was unpretentious to the point of being loved by his critical teen students. He was an Army man turned teacher, God bless him. His mother knew what she was doing when she named him after a saint for the young. I didn't know it then, but Mr. Gillette was a saint sent to us.*
Getting back to the recital, and Zion Lutheran's sanctuary, I invite you to imagine a piano program played with increasing skill as a backdrop to a meditation. I don't have a link for that, but you can play this in the background as you keep reading.
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The verses
We are continuing in the gospel of Matthew, this week in Matt. 6:1-6. The verses that grabbed my attention are verses 1 and 6.
“Be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
2 “So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 3 But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4 so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
5 “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
The Meditation
Praying in public and in a leadership role is a weird thing for me, having been raised to pray quietly, privately, authentically, and spontaneously (not by rote). Adding my gender and its ensuing religious issues into that public prayer mix creates a barrier that I must constantly work to overcome. More on that, maybe, in the next post on contemplation.
The mural: Ok, ok, it isn't really a mural, but we're viewing the art on the wall, and OF the wall at Zion Lutheran. The art we are contemplating IS the worship wall. What strikes you about the images and words on the wall? How does this compare to the mural of Aloysius at Notre Dame? How do they relate, or do they relate, to the verses from Matthew?
What words stuck with you when you read the passage? What phrases do you keep coming back to? How do you feel about them? Do they inspire you? Irritate or confuse you? Are you ok with this?
Time now to sit for a moment in silence and let God continue to dwell with you.
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Oh I feel you, Mark. I'm bisexual, I'm black, I'm a woman, so, yeah. I've grown up with a family that is enthusiastic about sports. I love sports, I love competing and I've been more or less worshipping different athletes for as long as I can remember. And I am so used to being let down by these people who are an inspiration, who I do regard as heroes.
And then, looking at F1, there's Lewis and there's Seb and I think you can imagine how much they mean to me, how much their words and actions have meant to me over the last couple of years. That especially counts for Lewis, but I cried when Seb took the knee in his One Love shirt, since then he owns my entire heart. It's so hard to put into words.
I want to be respected and seen and treated as an equal, regardless of my sexuality and regardless of my skin colour and regardless of my gender and that's, as we know, not something that just happens. And with athletes like Lewis and Seb I just know that I'm safe to support them, that I can be proud of looking up to them and their achievements and that I don't have to be scared of them ever staying silent just because it's the more comfortable option. They care, they've shown that they're always willing to educate themselves, they're loud and unapologetic in their support and values and they go out of their way to use their influence.
But they're the only ones who do so, in a sport that's been part of my childhood. Seb has left now. It's so tiring. I try not to think about it because it makes me sad and angry but it should make me sad and angry, I know that. I want the bare minimum, yet more often than not am faced with utter silence, aside from the ocassional and obligatory PR inforced statement or social media post. And that includes favourites of mine, like George.
I do have hopes for the future, but I just suppose with most of these guys the harsh truth is that they just don't care if it's not an issue they're directly involved in. At least not enough to bother doing research, or, god forbid, to talk about it without having to be prompted.
Sorry to dump this on you, but you're very right and just hit a nerve. x
Thank you for sharing this with me anon
While its been long enough the timeline has been blurred and lost to time, Lewis and Sebs outspoken steps in supporting the BLM and Same love movements are part of what made me begin paying attention to F1 as a sport even when I had grown up around it. I remember seeing Sebs rainbow shirt and thinking ‘if this is a sport that has someone who supports me, maybe I should learn more’. I fell through Reddit shaped rabbit holes of memes and jokes, and before I knew it I was watching it with my dad. I remember seeing the we race as one logo at Silverstone in 2020, and I cried. Because it meant so much to see that logo up there on the national screen and on British ground. You can say WHATEVER you want about F1’s intent with that move, I will likely agree, but at that time, knowing nothing, it was something sudden I hadn’t realised I needed.
I think it is a common choice for queer and minority people to flock to things with rainbows, just to be given a break from the cloying worry you wont be seen as human by people involved in such main stream and traditionally male sports. It is, as you said, fucking exhausting sometimes. And you articulated part of my love for lewis and seb so well: they are willing to learn and educate themselves. I don’t need them to know everything, I don’t need them to have an opinion on every minute topic, but I needed the thing they showed over and over- the humble ability to accept they do not know everything. We have seen Lewis go through this in real time with his comments about his nephew wearing dresses. He learned, he listened, he apologised, and he showed his growth. It’s so uncommon to see the acceptance that they were wrong in any celeb.
When it comes to George, I am braced for him to say nothing. I wont be shocked. But, and this is a big, tenuous but, he has shown at least some genuine desire to do more, and I want to push him to follow that.
While his steps would often be considered the bare minimum, I also recognise that it would be so overwhelmingly easy for him to do nothing, like so, SO MANY drivers. He has always stepped forward to support whatever Lewis has started, whether it be being outspoken about abuse or wrongs lewis has faced on social media (AD, the piquet incident) or Kneeling alongside Lewis during his protests in 2020, wearing the rainbow star in 2022. He has begun to speak openly about receiving therapy and mental health support. About how he wants to leave the GDPA at the end of his time in F1 knowing he made an impact on driver safety. They are the minimum, but they are more than nothing, and I have to encourage people who are trying, so they continue to try harder.
I think, or at least I hope, he continues to be so willing to listen and learn alongside Lewis, especially as a huge fan of Seb’s, and that he starts to speak on his own without prompting. I think he has that potential, and thats why part of me yerns to sit down and speak to him personally about these things, because I want to believe he’d listen.
I hope you don’t mind me sharing in return, anon. I started typing my reply to you and I suppose the words just kept coming.
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I know that there's too much we don't know yet about Severance to actually eviscerate the subject, but - you're bored in isolation, I love your words, so, if you're so inclined, indulge me: would you care to elaborate on the gigantic nature vs nurture question that is embodied by Helly R. / Hellen Eagan?
[spoilers ahead, obviously, for anyone who hasn't finished season 1 of Severance...]
One of the many posts on this site that has unwittingly stuck with me is about "professional education" and what it teaches. OP explicitly mentions lawyers, engineers, and economists, but I doubt that's a bounded set; it could include anyone trained to fill a white collar or knowledge economy role, however you want to define that, however formal the training was or wasn't. The point is that the "professionalism" hammered into its alumni takes the same shape, regardless of industry or intent.
Professional education, the OP writes, teaches you to be okay with things.
It makes what might have otherwise been clear and immediate harm, obvious and certain violence, into hypotheticals. You end up installing software in your head and it watches you, measures you against The Market or The Law or The Math, some other bloodless god whose worship conveniently does not require changing anything in the more temporal sphere. (The plural of anecdote is not data, but still---I never cared about contract law until I showed up at law school. It had no bearing on my life until I was inculcated into believing it did.)
All this to say: I really don’t think Helly and Helena are that different. Obviously we’ve only had one episode to really know them, know them in tandem, but still---are they different people? After all, Mark and Mark S. aren’t so dissimilar. Mark S. might lack details about his Outie’s life, but they react with the same blend of hesitancy and hospitality when new people crash into their lives (e.g., Helly vs. Petey.) They bite back with similar jokes when Devon or Dylan tease; they protect their people (whichever side) and their mutual first instinct is to hide, whether it’s an illicit cell phone or a bad self-help book. Mark’s Innie and Outie are very similar people, just...missing some details about each others’ experiences.
I think you could say the same of Helly/Helena. Except the details Helly's missing are crucial---unlike Mark/Mark S. or Helena, Helly hasn’t been civilized or professionalized. She’s new, brand new, has received no professional education. Nothing has tempered her, no one has taught her---month after month, year after year, cheap, empty prize after prize---to be okay with things.
And so she’s not. She hangs herself. She runs. She snarls and sneers and fights and is not okay, is not okay about any of it, at all.
Maybe that’s nature vs. nurture, but I think of it more as the essence of horror looked at without flinching. In Leroux’s Phantom of the Opera, the Phantom genteelly dines at the managers’ supper-table as others murmur around him; Conrad’s Heart of Darkness has Kurtz whisper of horrors on his deathbed; Frankenstein’s monster promises that as long as it haunts Victor’s footsteps, his creator will never know joy. The tell-tale heart beats, the ghosts abide. And Helly---who is both ghost of Helena and more real than Helena---exists. Exists inexorably, and demands recognition of the particular horror of her existence.
I don’t care for Ian Duncan as a writer, but I can’t help but think of that line:
Except sometimes, the horror won’t be accommodated. Sometimes it’s the horror appears on its own terms, refusing to budge, screaming at the top of its lungs and dying, suffering immovably---such that it is not okay. Such that you cannot pretend it’s okay, make it okay, ignore it into being okay.
Sometimes it’s better that way.
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I don't know if this is just me, but I'm just imagining reader domming PS!Bucky, focusing on his pleasure so much that he cries, and this is such a difference experience for him because he usually falls in the role of giving pleasure and being dominant
I had a terrible day so this is what I wanna talk about to make me feel better, I’d want that man crying and begging me to stop making him cum
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I just want to tie him up and tell him I’m going to do whatever I want to him? And I can just imagine the look in his pretty eyes as he goes subby, looking up and nodding with pretty plump lips and his dick all pink and flushed, weeping and throbbing.
“M-mommy touch me. Please, mommy.” He’s the neediest baby when he gets subby too fast and you smirk, deciding to make him regret being so impatient.
“You want mommy to touch you sweetheart? Where do you want me to touch you?” Your voice gives him the shivers, his eyes not able to tear away from your body. Fuck, he gets off on this. He gets off on losing control and not having to think for himself. It feels so good just being allowed to take the pleasure you give him without having to worry about reciprocating right then and there. You let him take time to have his needs tended to and for someone who spends most of his time focusing on someone else’s pleasure, it’s a huge relief.
“My dick mommy, please. S-so hard it’s starting to hurt.” He gasps when you wrap one hand around him, clenching nice and tight and not moving at all. Your other hand cups his balls, rolling and massaging them and fuck, it feels so good.
“Hm, your balls are so heavy, baby, so nice and full.” You hum your approval and it makes his dick twitch in your grasp. “You wanna empty them? You gonna give me a couple of nice big loads of cum?” His head nods before you even really finish asking the first question and it makes you laugh, your precious baby is just so keen to cum he’s forgetting how to say please and thank you.
“Where do you want to cum sweetheart? You get to choose tonight.” You hardly even need to ask the question, you know what his answer will be. He chooses the same place every single time, without a second thought.
“Inside you, mommy. Let me cum in your pussy.” His manners are totally gone as you release his dick, lining yourself up on top of him, combing your fingers through your hair as you sink down on him.
“That’s it baby, good boy. That feel nice? Feel good around your dick?” The way your body slides down on his is mesmerising, a groan leaving his throat and his head buried in the crook of your neck. He wants so badly to be able to touch you. To worship his mommy who treats him so well but at the same time, it’s so freeing not to be expected to.
Your body starts to rise and fall, groans and pleas tumbling from his lips. “Remember your safeword, baby. Mommy is gonna make sure we drain your balls until you’re cumming dry. Be careful though, make sure you don’t knock mommy up with all that cum, okay?” He’s so gone and it’s adorable, desperate for more of every touch, his first orgasm already painfully close from just the thought of cumming until he has nothing left to give you
Four loads later, he has tears streaming down his cheeks, his head flung back as you keep rocking on him. “M-mommy please, slow down, oh my god I’m gonna cum again, mommy I can’t take it.” He whines but you know he’s loving it. Both your bodies are sticky with cum, slightly sweaty and so blissed out. You’ve cum almost as many times as he has and you’re both nearing your limit.
“You can’t take it baby boy? I don’t think that’s true. I bet you can take it. You can and you will.” His sobs start afresh as your hips speed up, babbling about how good it feels and how perfect you are and before you know it, he’s gritting his teeth, his whole body shuddering as he cums one more.
#asks answered <3#anon#becca writes spice#ps!bucky#I feel better already ahahaha#might have a lil power nap bc my eyes are heavy#and then I have classes to watch#and some work to do#this was such a selfish blurb omg I loved it
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Felt like crying, so I came to you, my friend! Mc and Mammon went out shopping, specifically to buy gifts for his brothers, as an apology. When they get back home they are met with hostility. They berate Mammon until Mc screams at them to shut up, then rips into each of them for their treatment of Mammon. Then finishes with "Don't expect Mammon to stay here when he can live with me in the humanworld. I'm done with you. Mammon, lets go, you deserve better, love" and leaves w/ Mammon. Thank you!
You came to me because you felt like crying and that gives me two (2) things to think about. 1.) I'm apparently someone who people see as a tissue? 2.) My angst is just THAT good. Also! Apparently today is rain on Mammon day and I'm here for it not me avoiding my exam to write these things
Warning: uh.... Angst?
Soul-Searching (MAMMON X GN!READER ft. THE BROTHERS)
“You know, I’m proud of you for suggesting this.” Truly, you were. Mammon was your favorite and you felt for him, but you also completely understood where his brothers came from. At first, it honestly annoyed you as well; the constant stealing, the lying… You tried blaming it on his avatar, but even then it doesn’t explain the lying that comes with it. However, you do realize that it’s a habit and it’s a habit that is hard to fix, so instead of constantly getting onto him like the rest, you tried to understand him a bit more and give him some life advice. So far, you have managed to get Mammon to give back all the things he has recently taken from his brothers, and some of them even got an apology. You’ll be working on how to properly apologize, though, because oof, that was a mess.
And now? Now you managed to take a small trip with him downtown to at least attempt to make things better. Mammon is now, or at least today, using his own money to buy some things that his brothers would be fond of: a new vinyl player for Lucifer (non-cursed), a new Ruri-chan t-shirt for Leviathan, a neck pillow for Satan because lord knows he has some cramps back there with the way he leans over and down to read his books. Then some perfume for Asmodeus that he had been swooning about, a gift card to Beel’s favorite restaurant for the glutton, and a heated blanket for Belphie. You were proud, truly, that Mammon wanted to do this. As a matter of fact, he was the one who suggested it. “Maybe… uh.. I could… ya know… buy somethin’ they like” is what he said. You were just excited and agreed to help.
Now you were going back to the house with a few shopping bags and ice cream almost fully eaten. You paid for the ice cream, as a way to reward Mammon, and you’re sure he’s secretly thanking you for that because some of these items truly did burn a hole into his credit card, which is partially his fault. “Lucifer deserves more than some random vinyl player.” his words, not yours. Also “satan needs one of them neck pillows that massage it, too!” again, his words. So yeah, some money was definitely spent on these items, but… once again, you were proud. “I think they’ll love everything, Mam. They’d be fools if they didn’t.” Hearing you say that made Mammon feel a lot better, honestly, and a small rush of confidence came to the surface “Ya betcha they will! Nothin’ but the best from the Great Mammon!” You just laughed.
However, upon arrival, it was a different sight. As a matter of fact, you barely made it through the door before Beel was grumbling something about Mammon eating his custard, which is true, but it’s just a custard? “MAAMMMOONNN!!” and then there was Lucifer who appeared so fast you wondered if he was even real. He went on a whole rant about how irresponsible Mammon is and how another bill came in the mail that talks about Mammon’s debt. Satan and Belphegor teamed up to show empty hands, which left both you and Mammon confused, but then “do you see anything here? No? That’s because you sold our belongings, Mammon!” Mammon can be lucky that Leviathan was still holed up in his room because he just remembered that he also, at some point in the past, sold one of Levi’s figures. Asmodeus came last and honestly he wasn’t mad, he was just annoyed. “I saw you go through my things, Mammon. Nothing was taken, but it was still so incredibly rude!”
Next followed a screaming match which was basically just Mammon trying to defend himself, trying to show the bags and apologize, but none of them would have it. It irritated you. Yes, they had every right to be mad because personal belongings should stay with their owner(s), but at the same time, they didn’t even give Mammon a chance to explain, especially after he’s been holding the bags up and attempting to apologize. “You’re so stupid, Mammon” “StupidMammon” “so irresponsible. You know better than that. Do you need another time out session, Mammon?” “I can’t believe you’d go through my stuff again!” by now your eyes were twitching and the voices echoing off the walls surely didn’t help your case. One more word and you’d snap, surely, especially since Mammon’s hand is now shaking and you grabbing it did nothing at all. “We would be better off without you.”
Ah yes, there it is. The final straw. The amount of anger boiling inside you right now isn’t even manageable anymore and you’re surprised that Satan, as the Avatar of Wrath, has yet to notice it. “Shut up! Shut up, Shut up, Shut up! All of you!” You yanked Mammon behind you, almost protectively and Belphegor found the need to laugh at it. “Really? You’re going to protect him?” Oh, there. That’s your first victim. “Are you really that dense, Belphegor, or is sleep still clouding your brain cells? That is your brother you’re currently making fun of and I don’t know about you, but I was taught that family sticks together, blood related or by choice. So how about you get your head out of dreamland, take this stupid heated blanket that he bought for you, as an apology, and wake up for a second.” yes, you did throw the bag at him and then you pointed your finger at Beel. You’d regret later on that you’re tearing into him as well because Beel means well at the end of the day, but still, he was also part of this.
“You’re my least worry, Beel. Honestly you’re too caught up in your burgers and brawns to care for a second that your brother tries very hard to be liked by all of you. Sad, really.” you threw the card at him too. As a matter of fact, you threw all of the bags right in front of them. “And then Asmo.. oh my God, first of all, the world doesn’t revolve around you. Shocker, I know. If you were half as empathetic toward your family as you are obsessed with yourself, maybe you wouldn’t feel the need to always go party and drink your life away. Oh, I’m sorry, did that hit just a little too hard? Can’t be harder than the hangovers you wake up with on a regular basis.” You glared at him before turning your attention to Satan. “Honestly, if you weren’t such a baby inside I may actually be scared of you. You always complain about how stupid he is, how he needs to just learn, but you? What do you do all day? You hole yourself up in your room and read about worlds that you wish you could enter. News flash: you’d die before you had the chance to say hello. People don’t like self-proclaimed assholes. Mammon IS smart. He’s very talented, too, but you’re too far up in Shakespeare’s ass that you fail to realize that everyone has knowledge in different fields of life. Give me a break.”
Satan was about to retort but you already moved on to Levi. “and you! Let’s be honest, if it weren’t for you wallowing in self-pity and fake depression, you would have absolutely no personality traits. What are you again? The Avatar of Envy? How about instead of being envious of others’ accomplishments, you actually start working on yourself. It’s truly pathetic that a couple millenia old demon’s only purpose in life is ramen and self inflicted emotional pain. Seriously, what are you? A pitiful loner? I can’t even begin to empathize with you in any way, shape, or form.” Your blood was boiling right now and maybe if they hadn’t attacked Mammon like they did, you would’ve felt bad about Levi’s sad face right now, but there was still one person left to deal with.”
“And you… beautiful, responsible, way-too-good-for-you older brother, Lucifer.” He’s been glaring at you this whole time, arms crossed over his chest but you stood your ground. You’re not quite sure how you managed, but you did. “You call yourself the best, the most responsible. You constantly say this family would fall apart without you, but that’s not it, is it? I think you’re just lonely. You force these six to be by you, to respect you and borderline worship you. Not because you deserve it…” you chuckled, shaking your head, “no. You’re just so sad that Daddy and Michael left you, mocked you, that you turned your sadness into anger and took it out on these six, but especially Mammon. Why? Because you see yourself in him. You call him your favorite brother, but it’s not because he actually is… he just reminds you of everything you used to be: fun, reckless, and feeling. Now you’re just cold, mean, and bitter. Don’t bother calling yourself the mighty first because without him you would be neither. Maybe if you pulled that stick out of your arse and actually tried to get to know your brothers, maybe you wouldn’t be so lonely all the time. Family, right? That’s what you want. How about you start acting like one.”
You shook your head after that, grabbing Mammon’s hand and kicking the bags in front of you before dragging Mammon back out the door. “Those are for you, by the way. Not that you deserve them, but they’re Mammon’s way of apologizing for all the things you accused him of the minute he set foot into the house. Have fun. We’re going to the castle and, if we’re lucky, to a real home.”
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Hi again! Thank you for answering my ask. Since we're talking about magic do you mind if I make more questions? 1)what does it means to be a Hag to you? 2)I see that many witches use Christianity in their pratices but without worshipping the Christian God, sometimes even saying they work with the devil. I don't quite understand how that works. God does know who's calling his name and subordinates so why he helps? Thank tou and take care! 😉
Hi Anon!
Now I must say that I am not a particular deep thinker when it comes to magic and witchcraft. I enjoy reading other peoples thoughts about it. But I always have trouble putting something coherent together.
1. The Hag question; I enjoy being a hag since I joined @graveyarddirt Hagging Out. As older practitioners on Tumblr, of over a certain age, it is a bit of fun. And it is interesting to see what other practitioners come up with. Not only inspiration, but also infectious to see other people crafting, making and sharing.
2. The Christian question; you are twisting my arm here dear, theology is not my cup of tea. Though I reckon you should read up on (religious) syncretism. Catholicism has been- through colonization, forcefull conversion, and by merrit of being the dominant/the first form of Christianity -mixed with tonnes of local beliefs/folklore and folk-customs all over the world. And all those people see themself, and are, devout and practicing Roman Catholics.
Many and if not all western witches and magical practitioners were raised within a Christian culture. Which means that our psychology, and the lens through which we see and interact with the world(s) is formed by it. The same goes for everyone. This is why turning to Heathen/Pagan religious reconstrucion is hard; a large or complete overhaul of morals, values, spiritual and religious ideas and way that you see the world, from something that is so integrated into a person is hard.
But to get back to your question; so in this later people turn to this form of magical practice because it fits. It fits that lens and psychological hardwiring. Not to mention that these are spiritual entities that people have known, worked with, loved and flocked to for various reasons. Least of all, since it has been happening since forever.
About God; dear, I don't know Gods mind and reasoning. Personally I think/suspect that God is quite less a being as it is portrayed- or less human. But such a being/energy/entity that is beyond such specific reasoning. Simply stating 'God doesn't care' would be too short of reasoning for me. If all is God or within God and created by God, is anything truely not from God? So I am afraid I don't have any real answers for you, only questions.
Take care!
- Toverij & Spokerij
#toverij & spokerij#folk catholicism#catholic folk magic#folk magic#working with saints#folk magician#catholic folk witch#catholic magician
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Anon with the fanfic tropes list (most of these are somewhat specific but that's cause they just appeal it me), didn't think you guys want to see it that bad but here it is! (I said it's over 1k words so don't say I didn't warn you) (also Note: few of them are implied nsfw but it's mild)
-The italicized oh.
-Sun and moon dynamic
-Teaching someone how to skate
-comparing hand sizes
-picking a flower and putting it behind someone's ear
-BRAIDING HAIR O U G H
-babysitting together (bonus if kid thinks they're dating but they are just mutually pinning or kid figures out one of them have a crush on the other and either try to get them together or straight up blurts it out while the crushing tries to get them to shut up)
-when someone's laugh/smile/moan becomes a character's favorite sound/look in the world and they try as much as they can to hear/see it
-A Covering their face with their hands/arms/etc and B moving them and saying 'you're beautiful/I love you/I want to see you'
-Sharing headphones
-SHARING/BORROWING CLOTHES (bonus if it's too big for them)
-using nicknames
-Stealing food off someone's plate
-Sharing food with someone
-comparing them to either sun, moon, stars, god, angel, etc and ultimately saying something about worshipping them (and their body LMAO DONT CALL ME OUT)
-Riding on a motorcycle/bike together
-calling someone something in another language (bonus if they don't understand what it means and says it back)
-voice messages
-cooking/baking together
-when a character wears something new and asks 'how does it look?' And the other absolutely short circuits
-sitting between someone's legs?? (Doesn't have to be inherently sexual, it's just cute like:
-playing with someone's hair
-head on someone's lap and they just look up with the sappiest smile on their face
-oh my the inherent and absolute banger of peppering kisses on someone's face!!
-Kissing someone's nose (as in a 'boop' kind of way)
-FOREHEAD TO FOREHEAD (bonus if one of them is cupping the others cheeks)
-Kissing someone's hand
-Scar kissing
-watching someone play video games
-taking pictures of the dumb shit they do (and them favoring those pictures over normal ones)
-friendship bracelets
-personal special friendship greetings
-still using/wearing something someone's outgrown (small rings on necklaces, old tee shirts as headbands, etc also; "you kept that?" "Of course, why wouldn't I? It's special to me." )
-Painting someone's nails
-Seeing how peaceful someone looks while sleeping
-'I missed you.'
-Grabbing someone by the wrist as they're about to leave and saying 'wait-...stay.'
-Hand/finger on someone's mouth and the one with mouth covered is silently short circuits/panics
-pinkie promises
-maybe this is one sided joy but tickle fights
-pillow fights
-Going swimming (bonus if one of them isn't dressed for water and the other is so they just drag them into the pool)
-hugging someone from behind with arms around their waist and head resting on their shoulder
-hugging someone with so much force that they almost fall over
-putting someone's hair over their ear/clipping it
-Getting into a certain media because of someone
-When pets like a person and the owner is like 'Awww they like you, they're usually shy/etc' and it's symbolism for their relationship
-'oh you like this?' (Starts buying merch or whatever it is just for them)/(gives the one they own to them)
-riding something together and the other has to hold them tightly/close
-playing video games together or just watching them play
-Distraction kisses (whether to beat the other in a game or just to distract the long enough to let them escape, it's good)
-singing karaoke together or just preforming as a duo
-When a character wins or finishes a race and they immediately rush to a certain person, asking them 'did you see me/that/did I win??' Cause all they really care about is the person they're asking's opinion
-A staring at B from a far and B noticing them and either waving/smiling at them or blowing them a kiss from a far and A just looking away really quickly cause they were caught
-Saving spots/anything for somebody
-drawing somebody (bonus if the muse actually sees it and they're like 'woah is that me?? You're a great artist!!' And artist reacts by either quickly closing it or just dying)
-licking lips, wether it's their own or their partner's, it's good
-"you taste like (food)"
-aaa goes along with licking lips but like savoring the taste
-*calls other their s/o in front of people proudly and said s/o is either embarrassed or really likes that they're not afraid to be known that they're together*
-alternatively, calling the other their s/o when it's just them and they haven't decided what they are and said s/o is very much short circuiting
-ALTERNATIVELY that but they're together and one of them uses a cute nickname for the other!!
-Leaving Notes around for them w cute messages
-communicating through a notebook/notes together in class
-throwing paper airplanes at them (they have notes inside)
-carrying something someone else always forgets
-sending songs that remind them of each other
-not exactly romantic but this still slaps, other friends seeing their pinning from a mile away and putting bets on them
-when couple gets together, one person going 'TOLD YOU/CALLED IT! HAND IT OVER, (NICKNAME)' and the doubters reluctantly hand over 20 bucks
-and when they do get together and find out, friend group is like 'yeah and what?? Y'all were so obvious *acts out/recalls their past pinning*' and couple just shuts down
-Oh and the pinners somehow gushing to their friends about said crush
-making pictures of said crush and them as their wallpaper
-the dumbest possible contact names for each other
-making a flower crown for someone/putting flowers in the other's hair/tucking a flower behind their ear
-describing a kiss or a feeling as addicting
-describing something as downright sinful
-Siblings or friends cheering/teasing the couple (wether they're dating or pinning, it's always fun)
-running through the rain together and laughing
-Dancing together (bonus if one of them is reluctant or inexperienced to dance and the other teaches them or just tells them to have fun, also bonus if they do 'the dip')
-Taking care of someone while they're sick
-Intoxicated/high/sick person confesses that they like the other/gets affectionate/flirts and other is very blushy (bonus if other gets to see a side of the intoxicated they've never seen before)
-Sharing a drink (like milkshake)
-Kissing someone's lips to taste something or get lipstick
-The visual of lipstick smudged or all over
-A seeing B with a different hairstyle and absolutely being like: 😳💘‼️
-Same reaction but A hears B's morning voice
-Preforming on stage and performer (who's already with s/o) points at their s/o in the crowd and is like 'this one's for you, babe!' And said s/o is embarrassed but finds it endearing
-or the exact opposite where s/o points at performer and says 'THATS MY S/O!!!' very proudly and loudly
Okay why is this so goddamn well thought out!!!! Honestly we should make this an ask game one day bc I’m the “THATS MY SO!!!!” trope
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