#we make a commitment to our pets yall

[sidetongue]

this beautiful idiot went to live with someone else and honestly, both of our QOL are much better HAHA

[sickassastrology]

Hey yall, this is a general reading for the collective on new love. Keep in mind roles can be reversed, there is no gender in tarot-just energy, time is super fluid. this can happen at anytime. We all have free will to make our own decisions, changing outcomes. Please take what fits to you, leave the rest. Don't force the story. And sorry if I repeat some thing in the text. It's hard trying to write these messages. I may switch to audio recordings!!**

-E 🌻

So right off, this person has left a long term relationship. I do see a family dynamic here, but they have turned their back on that situation. I feel like this person was forced to though. I'm getting they had to cash out a lot of money to leave. The old person they were with wasn't going to let them go unless they got money out of it. They made it difficult as hell. This new person could be paying child support or giving funds out of obligation. But there is no emotional ties to their past. The new energy coming in has been hurt too. I feel like the person they were with was deceptive. And it forced them to turn their back. They were or wanted to marry this person. But they got hurt. They are now ready for a new start. they have been looking for someone to have. It has taken thus person a super long time to learn how to trust again. They have been searching for happiness again. When they left their person, their energy was all out of wack. I feel like this energy wanted to go back to their old person. But they just couldnt do it. They knew they deserved more and didn't want to go back into that situation. This is a good person. This person coming towards you doesn't give up easy on someone they love. They try their very hardest to not give up. They put in that work! I feel like with this person, you could hurt them easily. Like they let their partner get away with a lot of things. So like if your mean to them or put them down, and go back and say sorry....they would be like "no it's okay, and they will just take it." they push it down. They are gentle, yet strong (they showed up as a the emperor). You know those kinda people that you come across and you know you could hurt them but you wouldn't because they have such a good heart? Yeah-that is this person. That's who they are to the tee. This new person just wants to give love. Thats it, that's all. This person COMMUNICATES. So if that's your thing. This the one! They will always tell you how it is. This person doesn't have an issue expressing themselves. Sad, mad, frustrated, happy. Your going to know exactly how they are feeling. This person is an over giver. You could do something simple for this person. and they would be overjoyed for it. They will over fill your cup. Not that you won't give to them, but its like they are always ahead of the curb. Things you weren't weren't thinking about handling or thought about. They are going to jump the gun and take care of it. Like if they see your car dirty, they will clean it. Or if they see something you need. This person is detailed. Its like they will come from the store and be like "I got this" and you didn't even realize you needed it. The Love you deserve is coming. It's a gift for leaving the past and learning lessons. If in the past you were begging your person to love and communicate with you. THIS PERSON WILL DO IT WITHOUT QUESTION. They will give you so much and more. No more of that old energy. This person is committed and yes they are a soulmate. This person doesn't want you to keep focusing on the past. Just take the leap of faith and leave it behind. They got hurt too, so they know. This individual loves talking lol. It's like they will hit you up just to see how your day is going. Asking if you need something or want to hang out. Just to hear your voice type of energy. If you mad at them, they wana talk about it lol. I feel like you really are going to get annoyed with them always openly communicating lol. But they just wana know about you. Such a humbleness about it. They don't require much. Once this person plants seeds, they want to reap them. Once they are in-they in! No questioning. This energy will look you in your eye and say they love you. And they mean it! This person is asking for you to trust them. And asking boldy! But there's something about this person you don't trust. Although their intentions aren't bad. I feel like they have a slick look on their face or a certain smile that makes you feel like they are sus. But no....that's just how they look. 🤣 They do really want a relationship with

you.

Very honest energy. Almost to a fault. Super blunt lol. **you may be on a dating website, social media, or work. I'm also picking up on a long distance relationship.** This individual just wants to be in your space. Being around you will be enough for them. im getting a trip or vacation coming for the two of you. Past life energy too. You will feel like "do I know you"? you could end up marrying this special person too! When yall meet your going to feel like I found my person, finally. You are done with the past goodbye!! This new person just wants to know about you. If there is something your afraid to tell them or like something you may not like about yourself. It's alright to express it.. (I'm not saying be complaining & super insecure) but like if your having a bad day, or a heavy mind. you can talk to this person. And they won't throw it back at you. Yall will be a dynamic duo couple. Like one person comes up with a lot of ideas and the other will execute it. A lot of propensity coming through too. This person is also looking at your pictures a lot. Spying on you on social media. The money is flowing with this person!! Again, they do have a child or pet. But I feel like this is still alright with you. You will be a step parent or figure to the child. I feel like though some of yall may be nervous because you don't know too much about kids or your not good with them. But I see them still clinging to you. You have natural instinct of caring for others. Man yall this relationship is fun. it's freedom and trust. I feel like some of yalll go out in the morning to exercise or walk your dog with your music playing. And your past partner would have an issue with you doing this-or anything for that matter. this person won't. you will have your time to do your things. They are coming yall they are needing just a bit more courage to come say something. After yall released yall exs. I feel like yall felt like you'd never love again. But the universe wants you to believe in the impossible. You know your good enough, and now your just waiting. You've waited a lot of time to get here. So be patient!!!

[dolansmith]

CEO Pt. Two~ Grayson Dolan

A/N: I took too long to upload this and this isn’t even long enough to compensate for that lol oops. But I hope yall like it anyway c: Let me know what you think! (Next part will be longer I sweeeeaaarr)

Summary: YN is an aloof businesswoman that meets her match in the hopeless romantic that is Grayson Dolan.

Warnings: mentions of sex, fluff, angst towards the end

Word Count: 2,204

And if you haven’t read part one, here it is

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The night consisted of a lot of hot sex, and a lot of laughing.

But despite that, the next morning, Y/N awoke to an empty bed. She wanted to be unsurprised. She even wanted to not care, but for some reason she did care. Sex with Grayson was some of the best she’d ever had—not that she’d ever get the chance to tell him so. 

After talking a bit more about the project he wanted to start with Ethan, his twin brother, they drank some more and then started where they left off at the car. They both got oversensitive from how much they’d fucked, Y/N’s pussy tingled at the thought of it.

She sighed disappointedly before making her way to the bathroom to shower and get ready for her day. After having done her hair and makeup to her liking she entered the kitchen, surprised to see Grayson lying on her sofa. Her eyebrows shot up as she watched him snore. How did I miss that sound when I woke up? She thought to herself. 

Y/N shrugged before making her way to the kitchen, making a breakfast shake and some toast. After placing the two smoothies, and a large plate of avocado toast on the coffee table, she turned the tv on loudly, taking a quick bite of her toast, sitting back and watching as Grayson sat up, startled by the loud music from whatever show she’d chosen off of Netflix.

Grayson looked around the room in a confused state before his eyes landed on a smirking Y/N. She turned the tv to a normal volume and gestured towards the food. “Made you breakfast as a thank you.” Grayson’s eyebrows shot up at the gesture, his chest warming at how kind it was. She wasn’t as cold as she made herself out to be. “A thank you? Also, is that smoothie dairy free?” He asked sheepishly.

She looked at him strangely, “No, it’s almond milk—the only dairy consumed in this household is cheese. I didn’t think that’d compliment the fruits very well, though, but if you want some—“

Grayson pecked her lips, effectively cutting her sarcasm off, “This was really nice of you…ma.”

For the first time, in what felt like maybe ever, Y/N blushed. Grayson noticed, but didn’t comment, he simply smiled triumphantly. “Why’d you sleep on the couch?” She asked, sipping on her smoothie. Grayson shrugged, “something told me you weren’t the type to cuddle.” He wanted to seem nonchalant, but his heart couldn’t help but stutter at the thought that maybe she wanted him to cuddle her.

“I’m not.” Or not, he thought.

“Then good thing I didn’t stay in your bed then, huh?” Grayson mocked her, a smirk finding its way onto his face despite the slight disappointment he felt. Y/N made a face, nodding a bit, continuing her breakfast. They watched the show in a comfortable silence, finishing their respective meals. Once they did, Y/N watched as Grayson gathered their dishes and made his way to the kitchen to wash them. She followed suit, sitting on the countertop by the sink as he cleaned up.

“Thank you,” she muttered as he finished. He leaned his hip against the sink, facing her, his signature goofy smile on his face as he said, “You made breakfast, it was only right. About last night—“

“I’d like to do it again, if you’re interested,” she stated. No use in beating around the bush, not when she wanted something. Grayson’s eyebrows shot up, his heart racing as he moved to stand between her legs. He placed his large hands on her thighs, “I think something could be arranged,” he muttered. Grayson softly rubbed up her thigh, his thumbs only an inch from her core, before he pushed them back down to her knees, rubbing circles into them, a smirk on his face.

He leaned in closely, his breath tickling her neck before he began to place small, fluttering kisses on it. Y/N chuckled as he made his way down, making Grayson’s heart skip a beat as he continued kissing down her chest and breasts through the fabric of her shirt, a small smile playing at the corner of his lips. Her laughter stopped when he pressed his lips to her hastily; his tongue swiping against her bottom lip for the entrance she decided against, pushing him backwards instead. Grayson groaned as the pretty, red painted smirk he knew he’d grow to be very fond of, took its rightful place on Y/N’s face as she said, “Not quite yet.”

Those three words ignited a flame that neither of the two would quite know how to extinguish. They met up almost everyday for three months, creating an unspoken, but strict, routine: on Sundays, Grayson helped Y/N film and edit her videos. He’d sleep over on Saturday nights. Most of those Saturdays consisted of Thai takeout and a movie followed by long makeout sessions and sometimes fast and rough sex, sometimes it’d be a nightlong 50 Shades ordeal, and sometimes they wouldn’t have sex at all—they’d just hold each other and talk, something neither of them could bring themselves to do with anyone else. The next morning Y/N would make breakfast while Grayson set up her equipment. At some point, he became her unofficial cameraman and would spend the evening helping her edit.

During work on weekdays, they’d spend hours on FaceTime. Helping each other through the lull that paperwork brought, and Grayson especially loved when Y/N began a new project and took him into meetings. Her eyes would sparkle as she ran through ideas with her team, her phone propped up so he could see her, and she always kept at least one AirPod in so he could hear her too. She had to learn how to acknowledge Grayson’s commentary while staying as professional as possible; she spent a long time earning the respect she had, she wouldn’t want to damage that.

A couple time’s a month, Y/N returned the weekly favor Grayson did on Sundays and would help the Dolan twins with their videos. She’d help them film sometimes when they needed more than one cameraman, and she’d helped them plan a few videos as well. They’d truly become best friends; Y/N knew Grayson almost as well as his own twin did and Grayson knew her better than anyone else did.

To Y/N, it was all perfect. She had someone she could call her best friend: someone who could make her laugh until she wheezed, make her scream in orgasm, someone who knew her Thai order without asking, and bought her tampons and groceries whenever he was able to—their dynamic was perfect. There was no drama, no distraction from work, no—

“I think we should stop,” Grayson said one Saturday at Y/N’s door. He’d gotten there a lot earlier than he usually did, but Y/N had a tendency to wear lingerie as loungewear so she was never not ready to be taken by him. He’d knocked so loudly, she imagined the scenario going very differently as she was already untying the red silk robe while opening the door. Her manicured fingers fell from the robe as he spoke.

While their friendship and all its factors meant more than a great deal to Y/N, Grayson was beginning to see that there was no future in what they were doing. No matter how close they became, no matter how happy they were, no matter how familiar they’d become to each other…Y/N was never going to see him as more than a friend. He’d come to terms with this reality. This didn’t mean that it didn’t hurt him, but it did mean that he’d asked a girl he’d met, and had a rather lengthy conversation with at a coffee shop that morning, out on a date. He liked Nancy enough. She was kind and soft-spoken. She reminded Grayson of sunshine, except on legs. He knew that if they were to go out, it was more than likely that he’d fall in love with her.

But she wasn’t anything like the fiery, intimidating, and blunt woman he’d grown to love. He wasn’t sure that anyone like Y/N existed, he highly doubted it—but at the very least she’d stay his friend.

“Stop what, baby boy?” Y/N asked as she furrowed her brows, not bothering to cover herself back up, her red lacy bra and underwear on full display as she left the door open for him to walk through. She took a seat on her couch and patted the space next to her, concern in her eyes. He seemed nervous and reluctant. She knew what he meant, but she didn’t understand where it’d come from. They were fine last night before he left to go back home to hang out with Ethan, what had happened in less than 24 hours that would have him wanting to leave her?

What did I do wrong? She asked herself, suddenly wanting to kick him out so she’d be in control of the situation. So maybe the sting of losing someone she’d become so close to wouldn’t hurt as much.

Grayson ignored the stirring in his pants at both the sight of her and the pet name. He’d never been one to be submissive, or enjoy it at the very least, but having Y/N dom him, made him change his mind. Judging by the color she was wearing, that’s what he would’ve been in for had he not said anything. He wanted to take it back as he took her in, his mind briefly imagining her tying him up and making him beg for her—but he pushed the thoughts down. He needed to move on.

“Stop the sex part of our relationship.” He clarified. There was a brief pause before he continued, “I met someone.” He was hoping to elicit some type of reaction. A part of him, the selfish part, hoped that she would realize his feelings if she felt him slipping away. That if she watched him begin to fall for someone else, that it’d change her mind about relationships, about commitment.

Grayson’s life wasn’t like the romcoms he binged with Y/N on Saturday nights, though. He’d always found it ironic that romantic comedies were her favorite, when commitment was something she couldn’t fathom. He was disappointed when a wide smile, one he didn’t think he’d ever seen before, made its way onto her face, “Really? That’s great, Gray! Tell me about her?”

It took him a moment to gather his disappointed pieces and shove them in a box but once he did, he told her about Nancy.

The pair sat together on the couch, discussing Grayson’s potential love interest, both doing their best to ignore the tension it brought between them as they both figured it was a figment of their own imaginations. Y/N didn’t want to let what they had go; she knew a relationship would take him away from her in big ways—not just sexual but also their weekend routines, or even just hanging out in general. He’d met someone, though. She knew what that meant to him because he wasn’t like her. He wanted a family one day. She wasn’t the person to give that to him. And the way he described Nancy? He described her as some kind of goddess living amongst them, and it was something she could never amount to even in her wildest dreams. Even if she was the ‘settle-down-start-a-family’ type, he wouldn’t love her. She was too much of the opposite of what he wanted.

What felt like hours later, but was really only half of one, Grayson checked his watch to see he had to get going or else he’d be late for the date. “She’s gonna love you,. Who wouldn’t?” Y/N smiled, fixing his hair a bit after walking him back to her front door. She knew she was doing the right thing, letting him go. It didn’t hurt her any less, though. Grayson’s eyes softened, silently begging her to ask him to stay.

But Grayson knew his best friend better than anyone. She either wouldn’t notice his silent pleas, or she’d ignore them. So instead of making any other embarrassing attempts to get her to ask him to cancel the date, he kissed her forehead swiftly and grinned, “I’ll let you know how it goes.”

She nodded, closing the door behind him. Y/N slid down her door, ignoring the startled feeling the cold tiles brought as they met her warm, exposed skin. She brought her knees up under her chin and tried to calm her breathing as her chest began to ache and tearless sobs racked her body. She didn’t want to cry, but the second the thought of Grayson no longer being in her life crossed her mind, the tears fell freely.

If he didn’t stick around for the sex, it was only a matter of time before the friendship aspect of their relationship deteriorated too.

TAGS: @szadolans​, @sweetbily​, @preciousd0lanboiz​, @reblogdolan​, @babyboydxlan​, @afrophilia​, @jeweldolan​, @sugarfootdolan​, @g-e-dolan​, @miriamxsworld​, @graysavant​, @dolanskippy​, @giggling-grayson​, @whiskyryeandredlipstick​ 

[dracoangel]

So, did Blizz put any effort into this next expansion? If we’re to go off the pre-patch “event” (I’m being kind by still calling it an event) I’m going to say a hard no. This pre-patch was absolutely lack luster and boring as hell. You have everyone asking “WHY ARE THE SCOURGE ATTACKING?!” Oh, idk? Maybe because the Lich King is no longer controlling them? Just a wild stab in the dark. I mean, it’s not like that wasn’t the whole reason Bolvar became the Lich King or anything.

I did the questline to open the dailies (*snort* what a joke), I went and killed Nathanthos (or more like watch Tyrande do it), and got the staff I had been wanting back when I played regularly for transmog. After doing all that I already had enough token things to buy the new pet. The gear from the vendor is trash, doesn’t even have a cool look for transmog. And what are we supposed to do after that? Play the hurry up and wait game for rares that spawn every 20minutes and a big one that spawns at every 400minutes for... a 38 slot bag... really? This is it?

I was expecting something like the Legion invasion. That was fun. Guess it was too much to ask for Blizz to actually make something interesting and engaging.

Ngl, I regret my choice of pre-ordering Shadowlands. Everything I’ve seen so far doesn’t even grab me in the slightest. Blizz bringing in a Covenant system that they can’t seem to get to work right (just give us back our old school talent trees already! that’s basically what you’re trying to do with garbage systems like this. yall already level squished us back down to 50, that was supposedly the whole reason why you gave us our current shit in comparison talent “trees” because our levels were getting too high), nothing but game breaking bugs since they squished everything and the plot is meh...

Idk if I can refund Shadowlands still. But I’m definitely going to try. Cause as of right now, that was $80 wasted.

It’s like Blizz is trying to commit slow suicide on WoW. Guess gives them an excuse to pool everything into bringing back old content WoW (Classic being the beginning)

[infinite-galaxywolf]

Day 7

Tumblr is having issues when it comes to downloading media. I emailed them for help, but who knows when they'll answer. Honestly who knows where my post went from day 6. I'll keep myself accountable for doing my 15 push ups and writing something here each day.

Morning yall,

I had a hard time getting to sleep.

Sad trying to go to sleep. Sad in your dreams dreaming about the situation and wake up crying. It fucking sad lol

I guess I was in a situationship, but it felt more to me. I always look at things in the long run as a relationship to be a goal. I didn't mind taking things slow. I should of brought it up to see where we are and if we were on the same page still. Now I'm here looking goofy and sad.

Talking/dating I'm going to be honest I gave too much. Over the top gave too much. I'm a giver that's what I do. If you are my closest fam to me I going to love you so hard. Make sure you're taken care of in anyway. I never expect a damn thing in return because I don't mind helping. Truly all I want reassurance, love, and affection. That brings me so much joy.

I guess it was too much. And they lost interest. I've always wonder if I was boring. I thought I could get an answer from here......

Dating isn't my specialty or scene. And everyone is different with their levels. But seriously don't get mad or upset if a guy or girl asks "What are we" because you could be casually dating, but doing exclusive dating/relationships quirks on and off and that throws anyone for a damn loop. They just want to draw a boundary line of things they want to give. Until they get to the next level.

That was my downfall I never made many boundary lines. I just made so I would look stupid. And fast forward to the future who is still looking goofy?!?! Me 👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿

My one boundary line: If you find someone you are interested in while we casually dating (since he wasn't ready for another commited relationship coming from a previous one. Ok cool) Let me know so I'm not looking stupid. And he said it's not his top priorities, but okay.

I knew we were casually dating, but I should of spoke up more often if we were still on the same page. Certain things he would say or do would point to exclusive dating, but then back to casual. It was back and forth thing that was super confusing. But I was happy spending time with him.

But my observations skills said otherwise when it came to me. Body language is an amazing thing. They always say "actions speak louder than words" And man they were hollering at me. I just never had to assertiveness to speak up about it earlier.

And in the end I was right.

They said "I am talking to someone I am interested in, but it's not serious. But it's serious that I should let you know"

[[Heart drop]]

I really appreciated. I truly did, but it still hurt. I honestly didn't know what to do afterwards. Just awkward and stand offish

Use to calling each other pet names and just revert back to our names. He has every right to talk to someone else since we weren't exclusive or in a relationship, but I should spoke up more where we were.

Now I just straight up ghost him because I don't know what else to do. I guess I had more feelings in this than him.

Looking goofy and sad with all the feelings

I really miss him. You know you always texting that person all the time. And now it's just empty space and you're like damn 🥺

Honestly was I wrong leaving him on read?

Man dating sucks....

[thehomierobbstark]

HC/ y/n is mad at Erik cause he did something dumb and he’s trying to make it up to her “kiss me like you mean it “

Shame [Prelude] // Communication [Part II] //  In The Cut [Side Story]

A/N: So I have an inkling who might’ve asked this question *cough @wakanda-inspired cough* but I hope this turned out the way you were hoping anon!

I wanted to get something out for Valentines Day while I’m working on other stuff, and this isn’t part of it but don’t forget to check out the With Love, From Wakanda Fic Fest that @purple-apricots and @hoopshoney are hosting.  @wawakanda-btch posted the first one I’ve seen so far and and I’m super excited about it.

Anyway, I know some peeps do celebrate Valentines Day and some don’t, but I just wanted to dedicate this fic out to all of yall.  I know I write Erik in super cheesy n corny ways sometimes, but we all deserve to have people in our life who will take the time to learn us authentically.  Romantic or otherwise.  Hope yall like it!

This is for all my lil cute ass black gorditas out there rockin back fat, belly rolls and thick ass thighs that touch!!  x Reader is always gon be black, chubby, and sassy.

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You sigh, crossing your arms as you lazily trail out in front of the rest of the group, feet moving slowly as you put one foot in front of the other and attempt to walk in a straight line, if for no other purpose than for your own personal enjoyment.  You were pretty through with the night, but you didn’t want to rush along anyone and risk dampening the fun mood, so you tried occupying yourself as best you could to keep from sending out the wrong vibrations.

You feel the presence come up next to you before it makes itself known, but you ignore it, choosing to feign ignorance instead of acknowledging it with your usual situational awareness.

The presence lingers for a moment, waiting for you to notice it, but when you don’t it inches a little closer, nudging its shoulder against yours with a light tap, the spot where it touches you feeling tingly.

“So, how’d you like the movie?” He asks you, and you glance up at him, seeing his eyes lit up and full of interest.

“It was ok.” You answer flatly, shrugging your shoulders, and those eyebrows of his hike up, not expecting your nonchalance.  

“Oh.”

It was an honest answer.  The movie was just OK. Even though it wasn’t just the movie you were expecting more out of tonight.

You divert your attention back down to your feet, indulging again in your own little game of ‘Walk the Plank’. The presence next to you grows quiet again, and you know he’s observing you, trying to figure out what’s going through that head of yours.  

It doesn’t phase you, already knowing that whatever emotions you had you didn’t wear them on your face.

Luckily, you were hard to read like that.

This was the second time-

*Correction*, the third time that the both of you had hung out this week with your friends, and you were starting to get the feeling that maybe there was something happening between the two of you.  

At least, that’s what you thought… up until tonight.

“Everything okay?”

You can hear the hint of worry hiding somewhere behind his words, and part of you wants to just drop it and chalk your mood up to being tired or something.

You nod your head, shrugging your shoulders again, eyes focused somewhere on the floor.

Don’t be petty. Don’t be petty. Don’t be petty.

You lift your head and look him in the eyes, smiling.  

“Yeah, I’m fine.”

He returns the smile, visibly relaxing now, diverting his own eyes to the floor now as he chews on his lip.

You quirk an eyebrow, watching him, and open up your mouth again.

“So where’s your friend at?”

Fuck.

The sound that comes out of his mouth is something between a choke and a snort, and he brings a fist up to his mouth to clear his throat before looking back your way.

The smile is still plastered on your face, but not an evil one, just…friendly.  Weirdly friendly.

You can see his eyes squint a little as he quickly studies your face, trying to figure you out, but there’s nothing to see except what appears to be your innocent smile.

“You, you mean Clarissa?” His voice almost cracks at the end as he points a thumb back in the direction of your friend group, referring to it’s newest blonde member, but you don’t even bother to look.

You know who she is.

“Oh? Is that her name?” The charade you’re putting on sounds so real you almost believe it yourself for a second, and you have to drag your attention back to the conversation at hand to keep from verbally patting yourself on the back.

“Clarissa?” You repeat (for clarification, of course), and the name sounds harsh and abrasive in your mouth, but that doesn’t keep you from saying it with perfect pronunciation.

“Yeah, yeah no she’s back there chillin, I guess.” It’s his turn to shrug now, and he almost acts as if he didn’t spend the entire movie sitting right next to her. While you were all the way on the other side.

Out of the group, you and Erik were the only single people, and while you usually hated it when your friends’ boyfriends tried to set you up, you liked Erik.

He’d just happened to be back in town the same week his boy had made plans, so it wasn’t like he was there for you.He was just… there too.

But you’d clicked instantly.

The whole night you and Erik had been hanging together, picking right up where you’d left off from the other night.

Then Clarissa showed up.

Your voice keeps its same curious tone, and you press on.  Not to make him uncomfortable or anything, but just to…understand better.  After all, it’s not like the two of you were dating or anything, you were just friends.

Friends were allowed to be curious, right?

Maybe the feeling you thought you had between the two of you was wrong.

“Oh, OK.” You say, and silence falls between the two of you again for a moment as you reach the double door exit of the movie theater.  He opens the right side, holding it for you, and you brush past his chest a little as you walk out.  

You can feel the solid muscle resting underneath his sweatshirt and smell the scent of his body wash, and before you can let yourself get distracted by it you accidentally blurt out your next sentence more aggressively than you wanted to.

“Umm, you can go hang out with her if you want, you know.  You don’t have to be up here with me.” You word vomit, and you squeeze your eyes shut, mentally face palming.  

So much for trying to be subtle.

“What?” He walks out behind you, letting the doors shut, but you don’t stop walking, not wanting to have to look him in the face.

Your feet unwittingly stop in their tracks after a few steps and you blow out a sigh, your body betraying your urge to flee. “I mean…”

You scratch at the back of your head, gathering up all your courage to deal with the dumbass situation you’ve just put yourself in.

“…don’t feel obligated to be up here with me.  If you wanna go be with her that’s okay-”

“Be with her? Who said I wanted to be with her?” He interrupts you, and you open your eyes to see he’s standing in front of you now, eyebrows scrunched in confusion and what looks like frustration.

Shit. You so didn’t mean for it to go this way.

“Nobody! I’m just, I’m just saying that if you wanted to you could-”

“Y/n.”  He stops you again, but this time when you look up at him his face is oddly calm, a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth barely hidden by his bottom lip tucked between his teeth.

You don’t say anything at first, but when he raises his eyebrows at you as if to repeat himself, a small ‘yeah’ escapes your lips.

“…Are you …jealous?”  You can hear the teasing lilt in his voice, and your face deadpans, your feet working again as you stomp past him.

Jealous? You? Please.  You’d sooner watch the original ‘Birth of a Nation’ than ever let anything that girl says or does intimidate you.  You knew your self worth, and you’d rather die alone than let any man think you’d waste your time competing for his attention.

You can hear his boisterous laughter behind you, and you quicken your pace, but you don’t get very far before you feel his arm wrap around your waist and pull you back, feeling the deep rumbling emanating from his chest.

“Alright alright ma, damn, I was just joking.  Where you think you going anyway? We all drove together.”  He wraps his other arm around you to keep you in place, emphasizing his words.

“I got Lyft, I’m good.” You sniff back, and he kisses his teeth, dragging you both backwards until the back of his knees hit the edge of one of the patio tables, and he lifts the both of you onto it to sit, you on his lap.

You sit there stubbornly for a few moments, and when he realizes you’re not going to speak he rolls his eyes, breaking the silence.

“So you gon tell me wassup, or what? Why you acting like this, babygirl?”  His voice is soft but stern, and you stir a little in his arms at the pet name.

“I’m not acting like anything,” you try and disagree, but your words sound distant and clouded in your ears, losing some of their bite.

He sighs patiently behind you, leaning forward to tighten his arms around you, resting his chin on your shoulder.

You can feel him looking at you, and you turn your head away, staring through a hole in the grated table to the ground.  

“… I’m trying, okay? Just… give me a second.” Your voice is just above a whisper, but he still hears what you say.

“I know,” he presses a kiss into your shoulder through you sweater, and he lays his head there.  “Take your time.”

You take a few beats to gather your thoughts, mulling them over in your mind a few times to make sure you’ll be able to say it right.

When you’re finally ready, you turn around a little to sit sideways in his lap, still facing away from him as you rest your head on his chest.

Taking a deep breath, you finally let it all out.

“Look…all I’m saying is if you’re interested in other people, that’s okay.  It’s not like we’re together or anything, all we did was share one kiss.  You’re free to do whatever you want and so am I, there’s no commitment here.”

A dry laugh that comes out as a sniff blows out through your nose, those shoulders of yours shrugging again as you try and crack a joke.

“It’s not like you live in California.”

Your last sentence hangs in the air for a bit, and when Erik doesn’t say anything, your heart starts skipping beats.  

Shit, was he offended?  You didn’t mean to offend him.  All you were trying to do was be honest…and keep your heart safe.

“Erik?” You wait a second for his response, but when it doesn’t come you turn your head to look at him.

His eyes are downcast, and a small smile plays on his lips.

“Do you think I just go around kissing strangers, Y/N?”

The question catches you off guard, and when he lifts his head to look at you, you don’t know what to say.

“Do I seem like the type of person who would kiss random people just for the hell of it?”

Well, it didn’t seem like he was the type.

“…no.”

“Then why would I kiss you and go be interested in someone else? You are the person I’m interested in, Y/N.  It’s you.”

You want to say something back to him, but when you open your mouth, an emotion you can’t place starts creeping up your throat, paralyzing you.

“Listen… that… ‘thing’ at the movies… trust me, ya boy not interested.  I was trying to get back over to you but ol’ girl couldn’t take a hint.  Figured I’d just be polite and let her sit next to me during the movie.  It’s not like it’s her I’ll be calling anyway when I get back home tonight.”

He flashes that knee weakening smile at you, his golds peeking out, and you roll your eyes, pushing at his chest.

“So what you tryna say? You got hoes now?”  You joke, and he fake groans in annoyance before grabbing you up in a gentle headlock, pressing kisses to your temple as you squeal and struggle.

“You so annoying, I swear,” he grumbles, and after you calm down he releases you and cups your chin in his fingers, angling your face towards his.

“Gimme kiss,” he mumbles, and you lean up a little, pressing your lips flat against his for a soft lazy smooch.

“Mmmm,” he moans against your lips .“Mm Mm.”  He detaches from you.  

“Nah,” his full lips poke out in a pout. “Kiss me like you mean it.”

Blushing, you smooth your hand against the back of his head and pull him into you, lips parting to accept his full, juicy ones between yours, both your tongues poking out to taste each other.

He sighs in contentment into your mouth, and his hands latch onto your soft waist as he takes over the kiss, letting his tongue roll against yours.

Leaning into him you wrap your arms around his neck, breaking the rough kiss to give him gentle teasing pecks that make him whine from the back of his throat.

“Fuck, you’re making me miss you already,” He whispers into your skin, nudging his face down into the crook of your neck and taking a huge inhale.  

It sends sparks across your skin, and when he groans hungrily at your scent you can feel the vibration in your whole body, making you clench in different places.

You both get lost in euphoria until a loud voice from a ways away grabs your attention.

“Uhh… y’all ready to go?” You rise out of your blissed state as you pull away from Erik, looking around dazedly to find the source.

You spot Rashad, Erik’s friend, looking curiously at you two from his spot across the patio, and the rest of your group behind him snickering childishly, including Clarissa.

“Yeah bro we comin!” Erik yells back, all his attention still on you.

“Well meet you there,” he mutters, not really caring if his friend heard or not, and he buries his face into your neck, growling and fake munching on your skin as your laughter fills the air.

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Warnings: CollegeBoi!Erik, Softboi!Erik, Fluff,

[maplestreetsims]

❁ Character Facts ❁

Name ➔ Valeria Valerie Boston

► Are you single ➔ yes

► Are you happy ➔ If I were any better, I'd be illegal.

► Are you angry? ➔ my only state of mind

► Are your parents still married ➔ no, thank god

NINE FACTS

► Birth Place ➔  back of a taxi cab in selvadorada, a great start huh

► Hair Color ➔ Brown....i mean, green atm

► Eye Color ➔ Brown

► Birthday ➔ 18th of december, a true capricorn

► Mood ➔  Living a life of denial and suppressed rage.

► Gender ➔ Female

► Summer or winter ➔ uhh summer, i guess, thats the only season del sol seems to have

► Morning or afternoon ➔ Morings after staying up all night

EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

► Are you in love ➔ no

► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ not a chance, i dont belive in real love, period

► Who ended your last relationship ➔ who??? like as in another person?? lmfaoo

► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ I dont know? 

► Are you afraid of commitments ➔ not really.. im everyones ride or die

► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ yeah, my cat bat...and sam, i think

► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ thousands, who wouldnt wanna get a pice of this?????

► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ yeah

SIX CHOICES

► Love or lust ➔ Lust

► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ Lemonadeeeeeee, bitter, just like me

► Cats or Dogs ➔ Cats...everyone gives them shit just bc they’re the superior pet an thats the truth yall just dont wanna see it

► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ i mean...The guys from the band? sam, skylar and ray..... first one that i met was sky when i moved out here, she’s my neighbour and our moms bonded over their divorces or whatever the fuck, i met sam at school....at first i fucking hated her but she’s actualle pretty chill, and ray... when we decided to make the band, we needed a bassist, sam told us she knew the perfect guy and thats how i met him...i dont know much about the guy now that i think about it.

► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ wild night out babey!!!

► Day or night ➔ night ofc, im a bat... i have one tatted on my chest, wanna see??

FOUR HAVE YOU EVERS

► Been caught sneaking out ➔ back when i slept in the house i would get caught all the time, but after i moved to the garage i just never got caught anymore, my mom wouldnt even notice that i was gone thankfully

► Fallen down/up the stairs ➔ *flips ice cream* did you know i skate? i never fall baby

► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ when i was a kid i really wanted my parents to get a divorce... that shit ended up backfiring on me tho lmao  

► Wanted to disappear ➔ always looking for a way out

FOUR PREFERENCES

► Smile or eyes ➔ ‘eyes are the windows to the soul’ that’s what people say, right?

► Shorter or Taller ➔ uhhh.... taller? idk...im pretty avarage height myself, but everyone around me seems to disGREE and its ANNOYING

► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ attraction??? i know that sounds bad but hear me out.... the smartest person that i know is my cat, and he’s not even a person

► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ Hook up, im not good at relationships surprise surprise

FAMILY

► Do you and your family get along ➔ ...Not at all, me and my mom.. used to get along, when i was little, and my dad, i never liked him...haven’t seen him since the divorce 6 years ago so does that answer your question?

► Would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ Everyones life is fucked up...just, depends on the degree

► Have you ever ran away from home ➔  no...but im sure i could figure myself out

► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ once my mom took my car keys, (which also had the garage key on them) because of something that went on at school, so i got locked out and spent the night at sky’s... she felt really bad abt it and apologized...so

FRIENDS

► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ nope

► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ yeah i would say so

► Who is your best friend ➔ BAT

► Who knows everything about you ➔ uh.. i dont know, i mean... there used to be a girl back when i was a kid... i pretty much told her everything... i dont even know why, but i guess her

[ts-akhmim]

Episode 8 | ”Being a muppet is a contagious disease. ” - Ali

omg so?! i need to do a proper long confessional and go through my thoughts because i just got like a tsunami of information but... jake lived?! and idoled out scott who i thought was gonna win?! hello?!? i'm so so so excited because now i get to work with jake and he is SUCH a shield, and me/him/autumn are gonna ride off into the sunset im manifesting it.

what the HELL is going on here first jake pulls out an idol (which i was JUST gossipping with jordan pines about him having it because i know just how he plays and would ya look at that!) i was so ELATED to read he did that, thinking ok, i gave him a fair warning those false beauties we're gonna get us all, and they voted him unanimously so surely he'll take one of them out and ... HE TAKES OUT SCOTT?? i dont even have time to process this bafoonery yet because here i am, minding my business, trying to watch micronesia to heal the hole in my heart left by w*nners at w*r, eating a piece of pizza and then BOOM we merge?? but oh ok! they said we get a nice little break, lemme not stress and go back to eating my piz- NOPE THERE IS SO SUCH THING AS A BREAK IN SURVIVOR GORL I SWEAR I PUT MY PHONE DOWN TO GET ONE BITE, I COULDNT EVEN ENJOY MY EXTRA CHEESE BECAUSE MY TELEPHONE IS BLOWING UPPPP people are spilling tea left and right, i probably dont even have time to write this so i gotta keep it short and sweet; the false beautys are really trying to slide in my pms and sing kumbaya and if they wanna sing with me, bring it on because they are not a songstress like i am, ill riff run and harmonize yall right off this island. PERIOD. ive been REALLY trying to play up this card where im just some dumb bitch, let everyone keep thinking im the mayor of boo boo the foolsville, but i know a lot more than i let on so catch the tea on that

i swear for it being our "day off" this sure has been the most work i feel like ive had in a hot minute first of all fuck the tomb but FUCK this pyramid even more the second it was announced i found the extra link to the slide puzzle on the blog within SECONDS but 1) i suck at slide puzzles and 2) MY COMPUTER CRASHED HALF WAY THROUGH IT SO I HAD TO START AGAIN. literally took me 2 hours to finish, so that was embarrassing, then much like how the tomb had questions, this pyramid has a hashi puzzle to solve in EIGHT MINUTES....which i dont even know what the fuck that is sorry to this hashi man i gave a good effort but didnt get it in time, so im gonna try again tomorrow of course but im sure someone who isnt a dumbass had better luck than me and got it so thats that on that ....also gorl some of these people aka kendall really got the audacity, she messages me today and is like IS JAKEY COMING TO YOU SAYING STUFF ABOUT ME TRYING TO PIT US AGAINST EACH OTHER oh gorl, if only you knew its ME going to jakey saying shit about YOU trying to get him against YOU, because your first mistake was trying to prepare an alliance to vote me out, your second mistake was running around telling everyone i have an idol, and your third mistake was making an enemy of jakey, now there's this angry jakey on the loose and im gonna just try to work my magic to tame him and keep him like a pet dragon on my side to get them out and then deal with whether i think ill be able to trust him going foward, but again, i know i voted him out last game so i cant rule out him trying to target me already, especially if somehow worst case scenerio people try to pick us off first for knowing each other also had a call with augusto which was.... interesting, look, i genuinely like him as a person even though i still feel some type of way about him turning fake on me, so i definitely want to maintain a friendship with him even if it's hard for me to just stomach talking to him because of how stupid he must think i am, keep your friends close but your frenemys closer!! then i just had a call with devon too which was also interesting because, i do like him as a person, but idk how to feel about it!!! after all of them lying to me in the beginning im already feeling PTSD and dont know if i can trust anyone, but he gave me some valuable information even more so just reaffirming them all thinking i have the idol which i know is a crock of bs because DAMMIT IVE TRIED I JUST DONT HAVE IT. I know amir has it, it's so obvious to me, maybe augusto?? but i think amir. apparently devon also just kinda said he think he could see the first vote coming down to me or jakey or even him which.......makes me really nervous, i wasnt planning on fighting for immunity at the auction i wouldve rather had an advantage of some sort, but i think with this cast, and the amount of intertwined relationships going into this first tribal, i want that immunity necklace and im gonna do my damndest to get it OKAYYY this game is going to drive me insane, i feel like ive been running my mouth TOO much and talking to too many people and am gonna get voted out for it but i also simultaneously feel like i havent talked to people no where near enough and, am gonna be voted out for it so ???buckle the fuck up ladies we've officially boarded the confusion express so im just gonna try and sit back and enjoy the ride ig

Welp we are on the bottom... shit. I'm going to be honest, this week has not been great for me. Like my real life is slowly going to shit and now my fake life has been screwed. Thanks Jakey... you dick. All is not lost, because out there in the distance is the iconic duo of Jordan Pines and Kendall Duffy AKA Sarah and Woo. You know, Sarah and Woo. That iconic duo in Cagayan. Remember that one time Sarah walked up to Woo and said "Sup I'm Sarah," and he nodded and said "Woo". And that other time they were sitting on the same log laughing at something Tony said? That is stuff of legends man. Okay so genuinely Jordan meant to say Tony and Woo but he accidentally said Sarah and Woo and now this is our legacy. The plan is to play it both ways. As this isn't going to be a simple Pangonging. Obviously a beauty is going to leave but before we all go, they are going to try to get rid of some of the brawns. The goal is that the beauty isn't me and the brawn isn't Jordan. I know you're legally not supposed to trust Jordan Pines but it's never really been the case for me? IDK maybe it's cause he always gets sniped before I betray him. Maybe it's cause the one time he voted me out it was cause I committed suicide by cop. But for the most part he's a realible ally. Also this would be a shitty and stupid lie right? Like he knows I don't have an idol, literally everyone knows that! Trying to get in my good graces is a terrible fucking idea, Jesus. Right now I'm just going to market myself and the others as a free vote. I know it's not realistic to get Augusto and Amir to the finals but it's all I really want. We've been through shit together. I don't want to be put in a position to get them out. I also believe that either Jakey and Ali has the idol. So this round I'm going to flush it. I'm not going to be able to get him out, I just need him to believe he's going to be voted out. He's a very paranoid individual, it shouldn't be too difficult.... I am not going home tonight. I refuse to. 

okay so i haven't done a good typed confessional in a WHILE and i have thoughts. so i'm basically really frustrated with a lot of this tribe and i don't know how to vocalise it. but first the positives.. the fact that i have an alliance of me/autumn/jake brings me such a rush of seretonin, i love them both and i will fight my hardest to get the three of us to the endgame of this game. i think rn my goal final five is me/jake/autumn/adam/devon, adam because i dont think he is playing this game as well as he necessarily thinks he is, but i also think we have trust and he is someone who is scoop-up-able? and then devon i get good energy from him and his straightforward energy i'd like to see in the endgame. the rest however.... whew. well actually Liam is fine, he is sweet and doing his best. of the rest tho... hmm. kendall's energy doesn't quite land with me, her dry sense of humour doesn't really work with me ha so i feel like we are gonna struggle to gel as allies (especially since we are either side of the weird brawn/beauty divide). augusto is very chatty but its a lot of chatting for... the sake of it, like his social game is to just overwhelm you with lots of messages but its nothing of substance. amir i actually like!! he has me-energy, i would actually like him to stick around (he is a good shield too). duncan i am still sus about from premerge, but i'd love to mend that bond because i might need duncan?! tj and jordan both give snake energy... tj is suddenly back to being non-commital with me and it frustrates me, i wish he would like... talk to me KJLSADF. jordan is the same i always get weird energy from him and he was in that weird alliance during the swap and didn't tell me... feel a f10 boot for jordan ideally. honestly its just frustrating i feel like everyone on this tribe is so cagey and like just thinks talking a lot is social game?! and its... not. but yeah ideally first four merge boots: kendall, augusto, tj & jordan (tho the last two is open to consideration if they stop being shady to me KJSDFA).

I just got immunity in the auction and I feel like I wasted a chance to get some long term for my game. Because I wasn't going anywhere this round (I don't think), but like at least it prevented some other people from getting it which allows me some room to make a couple moves without too many repercussions. In terms of social standing, I truly think I have put myself in a good spot. Jakey and Jordan have both said they want me to be their number ones; Devon also has said the same and has told me that he holds the Double Vote. I know that Autumn and Duncan are both willing to work with me in our alliance with Jordan. Liam and I have bonded quite a bit. And I get good vibes from Augusto, Kendall, and Adam. So the big question now is, my target at the moment is Amir... how do I get him out? I need to break up Amir, Augusto, and Kendall so that I have a better chance of working with Augusto specifically down the line and hopefully Kendall as well. I have a feeling that Adam will push for one of the trio and the trio will push for Adam or Jakey, which should give me plenty of ammo to try and make that move. Correction to my last confessional... the trio can't target Jakey because he's immune. Suck it!

i really... really just got my second idol huh... i cant believe it. i bodied that idol hunt, i sat their trying like six hundred combos for the morse code, got that demonic tile and did that evil hashi puzzle... im so happy hehe okay so ignore my super jaded confessional from yesterday im back in again akdjfsaf im literally on a reign of terror doing harsh confessionals then apologising but askdjfafa we move. so yesterday was a real busy day, we had the auction, i called lots of people and... i got myself a little bit of bling. with the auction first, it was really interesting. i misunderstood the "idol block" so i snatched it up, but then it just blocks hunting for the idol versus playing one, but for my mental health am glad i have that. i also got the vote revealer, which was like a mid-tier thing that im happy to have just got a second thing tbh. then i had like six hundred calls kaljsdfas. i called with devon first, he is really sweet and we had a great talk tbh? i really like him and hope we stick together. i did then go on to have very similar conversations to the one i had with him, with augusto and amir, but i felt best about the conversation me and devon had tbh. augusto is sweet, and very social. like i'd prefer to vote him to kendall, but i like him ha and feel like we have a bond now. i think i could be a good number moving forwards (i wouldn't want him gone 11th/10th). amir is also very nice, we are calling tomorrow, and i just dont think targetting amir is in my best interest rn? like what's the end goal in doing that. so then right now. i think i want the merge vote to be kendall? i feel like if we let that trio slide, its scary, and i have a closer connection to amir and augusto of the three. i think then the brawn tribe can turn inwards, but im eager to push the brawn tribe like "implosion" until after that trio is taken apart (to the style of splitting up alex c/jones/mo from montenegro) also otherwise i got an IDOLLL, or rather my second hehe. i put in a LOT of work to get it, i translated morse code, i did a demonic hashi puzzle, i got the 2048 tile. i earned this idol and im very proud. now i have two idols so have such wiggle room. and i'm building bonds across the tribe... im not saying im set, but... im covered for the time being

okay so im a clown and got frustrated with jordan for telling jake he was hesitant to keep me in... jordan just told me he has been downplaying our connection to people like jake KJLSDAFA so i fully just bought into nothing.

i am starting to feel my standing in the game rise, like im building bonds... everywhere. like im starting to become set to go the distance because i have lots of lowkey social bonds and because im not overtly super strategic i dont think i seem as threatening.

okay so ideal merge bootlist: f4: me/autumn/jake/devon, adam (5th), liam/jordan (6th/7th), amir (8th), duncan (9th), augusto (10th), tj (11th), kendall (12th) and then at the moment the order i would vote for people as a juror (bringing this back from montenegro): jake > autumn > amir > jordan > duncan(?) > devon > augusto > adam > tj > kendall > liam because i think jake has already idoled someone, and to make it to f3 after that is super impressive. autumn is a queen, has real strategic savvy and will have made moves to get to the end. amir is very much like autumn and him making it to the end. jordan is an amazing player and tbh deserves a win. duncan is really in game-mode and id love to see him in FTC (what a role reversal), devon has a real rootable underdog story, augusto is a social king, adam needs to pick it up beyond just targetting beauties to get my vote. tj/kendall are question marks for me, and then liam i LOVE but he doesn't necessarily 100% want to be here so i would be tentative to vote him. but its crazy because i think: jake/autumn/devon/adam/liam/jordan/amir/duncan... all trust me to some extent that's... such a large portion of the tribe. so i need to be careful im not scorning people too much, but this is a real work-able situation i think ahh

Interesting development that both Kendall and Amir want/wanted to call and talk to me. I just finished talking to Kendall (she is so sweet, I enjoy talking to her!) and I definitely see an avenue where we work together, but I am concerned that there does seem to be a guard up, which I totally understand given that we haven't been on a tribe together. We both kind of mentioned that Liam has been flirting with the idea of asking to be voted out which gave me an avenue to not say that the name I would throw out is Amir. I do hope that Liam isn't adamant about going because I truly do care for him and want him to stay in this game. I picked up a great ally in him after the initial Brawn vote and losing him now won't be fun. It does dispel this Brawn alliance people probably expect to be happening, but am I at ease with Liam going to facilitate that? But if that happens, that delays the fight between Adam/Jakey against the trio of Augusto/Amir/Kendall, which in fact would be good for me as it allows me to slide by for another week... ugh, decisions decisions. Why do I feel like this first vote could determine the rest of my game?

So Liam still wants to be in the game, which is good. I can easily work with that. Yes, I feel awful telling Kendall I thought the vote would be Liam, but now that he seems to want to be in the game, I think I can work with Liam possibly staying. I still have to wait it out and listen to what some others think, but I may be back on the board of going for one of the trio. I know Jakey wants to do Kendall, but I don't want her to go just yet. Eventually, yeah probably, but I do want her here.

Whew merge merge merge. Tonight is the first night to play my legacy advantage, i could block a vote but honestly im probably not going to. Id be pretty caught off guard if i was the target tonight and I think id rather let it fester to an idol, whether for me or someone else later tha depends on my game play. Last night was the auction and boy did jordan win big, i got a whole vote steal that im pretty sure no one knows about. I created a believable (i think) lie about what i bid on and spread and thankfully adam came out the gate with a super fact checkable lie about the auction so i think most of the heats on him. For the vote it could be a beauty butpart of me really sees liam going home just cause people are so scared of how many brawn are in the game, and like thats fine i can deal with that. I am slowly building my relationships to the point where i can get the ball rolling enough to do some damage. Ive been biding my time in the shadows for most of this game, but Jordan Pines is about to rise!

this round is what we call a mixed bag like the auction? hated that girl. I saved my money and all I got was a drawing like sis this is the Survivor Auction not an actual auction ;-; but other than that, I’ve felt really good about how I’ve been playing? Like always, I’m trying to be the Belle of the Ball and have everyone want me as a date yknow? Currently, I have my main allies (Amir, Kendall, Devon) but others (Autumn, Duncan, Ali, Jordan, Jakey) have expressed that they want to work with me which is cute! I don’t know who to trust tho ngl but yay? My main priority is getting my footing in the game this first round and hopefully getting out a Brawn. The main two I want gone from the Brawns are Liam M and Jordan Pines. Liam M is the easier sell and I don’t mind that, Jordan Pines is someone I want gone soon though. I also want Adam gone if at all possible sometime soon but we shall see! 

i take it back jordan and duncan can go again...? literally like both of them preach up and down that we are gonna work together, then pull shady stuff like saying me and adam are a duo in their alliance chat of gremlins with love of my life autumn and professional robot tj?! literally just because y'all linked up at swap and think you are gods gift to alliances doesnt mean me and adam are a duo? i just talk to him and actually give him a chance in this game unlike like... 99% of this cast. now i cant really defend adam at all or people are gonna try and snap my neck? which sucks... adam was in my endgame but because i see him having a losing finalist arc versus me being a duo with him. so that sucks but well. it just reconfirms to me that i have to trust autumn. which is not hard because i literally love her sm and i want to see thrive in this season. so i am praying it works out. this cast continues to prove that being a muppet is a contagious disease.

im absolutely LIVID right now.... i dont even know where to begin ?? let's start with this: are we playing SURVIVOR or are we playing america's next top CLOWN?? because based on how silly all these people are it doesnt seem like survivor. this is my 3rd time playing this game, and never once have i ever made it to a merge where .... every single person wants to just settle on one name since they're the "easy" vote.... and yet that's all im being told with people wanting to vote liam?? at this point i hope the plan is to vote ME out and everyone is just telling me liam because i dont want to play the game with a bunch of feeble minded school of fish who have no backbone. first of all everyone has wanted to do nothing but play that ANNOYING ass "ooh its been quiet i havent heard a name yet" game for the entire day. We're 3 hours before tribal and all the sudden everyone wants to sing kumbaya and vote for liam??? because he's not around, which guess what it does make him an easy vote but....this is survivor why would you EVER vote that person off in the merge right away, he can literally go next or any other time. I refuse to sit back and just conform to it, ill probably end up having to, but im gonna try to push what to ME makes the most sense, not only for myself but for everyone... to get one of those 3 false beautys out. I've been going to a lot of people and basically saying "Let me break it down for you: one of them 150% has the idol??? and thanks to the suvivor auction, and based on what ive gathered from people they probably have advantages too.....why waste this vote being "easy" because then next round....they're gonna know it'll be one of them and so......they're gonna play all their shit and take someone out, and i absolutely reserve the right to laugh at whoever it is because theyre an idiot and didnt want to wake up and play the game (unless it's me of course oop) I've approached, jakey, autumn, duncan, jordan, ali, devon, tj, pretty much ANYONE who has a brain to just state the obvious.....its stupid getting liam out. literally the stupidest and quite frankly downright embarrassing move to make for a group of players of this caliber. and you know what responses ive gotten? "oh its too soon to rock the boat" "we have to get one of those brawns out" "yeah we just have to go with the brains on this one" ??? too soon??? at merge??????? to play the game of survivor??????????? at this point im about to try and just tell liam with the very slim chance that he has an idol and can use it on himself because how am i supposed to try and play the game of survivor with people who dont want to play its frustrating. **update as i was writing this i just had a call with jordan pines, im not as mad anymore after smoking weed with him for like 20 minutes ahfdd but its BORING LIKE WAKE UP PEARL LETS PLAY SURVIVOR...i probably made a big mistake pushing those 3 to as many people as i just did but whatever hopefully it at least planted seeds with people and people actually try and approach me in the future rounds with that idea again in other news, the auction happened and i got the power to go to the prejuror island and plead my case with them regarding this next vote, no one was even there so that was lovely i felt like i was talking to myself so nothing new there, i peeped connor was online but didnt have anything to say when i showed up, much like how he never had anything good to say in the game and that's why he was voted out, but ANYWAY. im pissed i made a case to them to vote for amir and now no one will even make the move with me. I also bought a challenge advantage which i wanted MOSTLY so i could just tell people thats what i got from it because to me i suck at challenges anyway, so it shouldnt paint as much of a target on my back and i want people to know i dont have one of those really scary ones (and i also want to keep making people think amir or kendall has something good), but ali did confide in me he has the vote reveal which made me trust him a lot more, and i dont plan on revealing to anyone what he told me so anywho, tribal is NOT gonna go my way tonight, i tried to make a move but liam is unfortunately completely unsaveable because he's not around even though i do like talking to him personally, i opened the door to people and it just got slammed in my face but in this game you have to learn when to drop it so im hoping i dropped it fast enough to not be a future target because people could still very well vote me out next because they'd be taking out the only real beauty left!

tj, jordan and duncan are all going home as soon as possible. they really think they are slick and they are not. they think they can badmouth me, my game and my position and it wont get back to me. there is a word for it and it is clownery. one of them is going to get to stepping really soon. maybe jordan.

also i cant be too mad at liam because im voting him but i wish it wasnt like this. well. what can you do. if he plays an idol im playing mine.

Now that we're told the right day... Well, it looks like most people are back on the Liam Train, and damn I really don't want this move to be made. Like, yes, it will set me up well moving forward: less "Brawn Alliance" hype, more battles between Adam/Ali vs. Beauty Babes, and a decent amount of social mobility for me. But this just feels like a giant waste and I don't know how to stop this at this rate.

First of all: YAASSSSSSSS WE LOVE MAKING THE MERGE!!!! I’ve gotten over my Scott grief and actually am pretty content with him out of the game since he was a big contender to win it all. The time I’ve been able to spend talking to people has been amazing and I feel like I genuinely have a good relationship with everyone on the tribe besides Liam, which is why I’m happy to see him go. He’s a really nice guy but he’s not adding anything to my game. I expect the vote to go 11-1-1 tonight. I could always get idoled out or blindsided and that would suck but you try your best and do what you can! I think I have EXCELLENT relationships with Amir, Jordan and Autumn and that’s like the kingpins of each group so if someone comes after me hopefully I’ll hear about it one way or another. I need to get my head out of Amir’s ass though, I’m most excited to play with him and we called for literally 2 hours and 50 minutes yesterday. I’ve always thought he was cute and intelligent from when I was in the community before and I fangirled getting to play with him. I like to think I’m in a good position in this game so far, we’ll see as the game progresses. One last thing? ADAM!? SIS?!?! EVERYONE IS AWARE YOU LIED TO THEM! YOUR ASS IS GOING HOME NEXT! PERIODT!! (Hopefully I’ll be here to help vote you out lol

Well, here we are? This is where my game was MADE back in Guyana, however, I clearly don't have a solidified alliance I am willing to take to the end at this stage. We have 5 Brawns, three former winners, a person I voted out in Guyana, two people that voted me out, and a person I tried voting out last round all still in the game. Still, I am going to make the best of it. In the short period of time this game has provided, I have been able to make REALLY solid connections. Not all of them are 100% genuine, but the hope is that they're enough to gain trust and information that I can use to advance my game. 

if i go home tonight im gonna lose my marbles

so basicallyyyy jakey is gathering intel from the other sideand apparently theyre all scared of me, grow up??? im literally harmless wtf

HOHOHOHOOGO WHO WANTS SOME TEA ? SO DUNCAN SPILLED THAT back long ago on original hathor, remember when I was losing my mind thinking aj ratted everything to Adam It was THE TRUTH and I’m glad aj has been dealt with. It’s what he deserves .

adam thinks hes so fucking slick running around telling everyone i gotta go and that i have the idol, and then messaging me in my pms trying to call and have a "tea-spilll uwu" when hes just going to use that against me anywayyyy honey u arent as smart as u think u are, and when the time is right, you're getting crucified ADAM CAME TO ME TO BE LIKE "FUCK JAKEY WON IMMUNITY" and im like "ik :( " and he runs to jakey and goes "THE RATS ARE MAD U WON" mark my words if im leaving this game i will blow him tf up on the way out

these people are all rats ALLIANCE: Threats R Us members: jakey ali autumn Source: jakey ALLIANCE: (name unknown) Members: Autumn Duncan TJ Jordan Source: Autumn so autumn ratted on an alliance to me and not the other, which lets me know that she is far more invested in Ali that she is in Duncan. Working with Duncan is not going to save face with autumn, i have to treat her as a separate entity and work with her genuinely if i want safety from ali, like she sold duncan tj and jordan down a river to me so fast i love her so much, i want to work with her but i have to see how far it goes people i want out : adam tj liam ali jordan but rn ill settle for anyone but me cuz no one is talking to me

devon wanted to talk real quick and tellin me that there was a whole ass plan started by adam to get me out, like say the vote is kendall but actually vote for me, and the plan was entertained by brawn, also i told jakey i have the idol, and jakey told me ali has 2 idols a vote reveal and an idol block

[rogue-rook]

many highlights from Petals to the Metal from a first-time TAZ listener

also featuring some bits from the lunar interlude immediately preceding petals to the metal

garfield the deals wizard, the first inter-dimensional cross-podcast asshole

magnus acquired a pet goldfish and named him lord steven q fletcher esquire the goldfish the third, which is just a bonkers name to saddle a poor goldfish with

the director calling the bureau of balance, her own organization that she is in charge of, “the shadowy cabal” was primo nonsense

travis: “so griffin, should we assume that these vines might be relevant to the story?“ "no, you land and then you go to mark’s house and you just kick it there”

"this is a very one percent town” yeah griffy i didn’t think this fucking town called Gold Cliff is running on a shortage of fanciness or anything

in the lunar interlude right before this arc, magnus found and paid for a fucking object at the Fantasy Costco called “the Lens of Straight Creeping” and I want to ask some fucking questions of the living human person who made that up

taako: “lets put it this way: you can understand us when we say the word ‘voidfish’?” captain bane: “…….yep” i think this dude already hates the grubby grifters

HIS FIRST NAME IS ALSO CAPTAIN

captain captain bane runs a fucking meta-level inception fancast of his own about the grubby grifters being the only fucking bureau of balance employees to ever accomplish a goddamn thing

clint always just casually says the phrase “Extreme Teen Bible” as if its NOT the most fucking ridiculous nonsense a grown adult man could possibly say

the part-tree, part-ant tree-ant called trent

COOL COOL COOL THERE’S LIKE NON-PHYSICAL FUCKING GRAY FIGURES WITH GLOWING WHITE EYES ON THE ETHEREAL PLANE. JUST HANGING OUT THERE. @ taz WHAT THE FUCK

“I’m going to cast Scorching Ray on Trent” “ARE YOU SCORCHING RAY?” “who wants to know?"”the funny part is that dad has never listened to mbmbam”

they decided to attempt diplomacy with this poor tree-ant bank guard AFTER they started chopping him to bits and not before

the amount of shit they have to go through just to open a goddamn lockbox, like okay, OUTSMART THE BOX, DUDES, ITS AN INANIMATE OBJECT AND YOU ARE HUMAN PEOPLE WITH BRAINS

the mcelboys were like “dad can we have a fourth brother to play dnd with us” and clint got to drop the most top notch goddamn jon snow joke on them

Petals to the Metal: Audrey II’s Ultimate Revenge

“I want everyone to notice that I’m wearing Me Undies..oh no, wait, I’m wearing Ye Undies” this cross-podcast pollination is hilarious

taako: “we’re looking for someone called the Raven, and she has a raven mask, so maybe…she’s a fan” taako, the fucking idiot of this campaign

the raven casting both thunder wave AND thorn whip against the grubby grifters pretty much makes this a pokemon au

sloane and hurley were both amazing and i can’t believe griffin didn’t understand how cool his own creations were. he made me feel real human emotions. why must he play god in this way

captain captain bane can’t ask hurley if she’s dating the raven “because of the HR concerns” like even griffy’s npcs are trying to be respectful

magnus, why are you trying to Steal right in front of a goddamn cop

griffin: “-cars, and by cars I mean battle wagons” x100000

travis: “griffin, i don’t wanna tell you how to do your job, but most of the time DMs let people roll, instead of just trying to bullshit their way through scenes”

griffin: “magnus has one spell card and it just says 'punch’….'roll to punch’”

the hammerhead gang, aka the target of the most poorly thought out infiltration detour in all of bullshit dnd history

the grubby grifters commit murder and instantly double down on the murder by discussing all their options of COMMITTING A COVERUP

klaarg came back so now I’m convinced Everyone will end up coming back in some way. hopefully my favorite npc Jenkins the Shitty Train Butler can come back too

griffin: “yeah, they’re breathing” magnus: “GREAT, TIME TO GO!”

griffin right after reading a jumbotron message: “I have never been showered with burritos by my older siblings, except for that time where they literally threw burritos at me at a taco bell……..I don’t like to talk about the taco bell incident”

taako: “this was definitely our least fatal conflict we have ever had in our entire lives”

griffin: “it’s a…really big…um..black….metal…wrench” justin: “DILDO!” griffin: “DAMMIT!” clint: “too many pauses”

justin: “Everything’s for keepsies if you’re sneaky about it”

griffin: “yeah taako, you get a special situation too to see if you can UNFUCK this situation”

garyl is a pure, beautiful, innocent….deus-ex-machina NONSENSE of a creature

“diet dr. fantasy pepper” is my kind of fantasy soda

hurley’s frustrated “WHERE YOU BEEN???” aka hurley continuing the trend of npcs reluctantly allying with the grubby grifters and then regretting all their life choices

I have spent ten goddamn years of my fucking life listening to these assholes battle A VERITABLE MENAGERIE of battle wagons and yet sloane remains somewhere iN THE WIND and im like great, mcelboys, you’re really testing my love for your content, MOVE IT THE FUCK ALONG

somehow the idiot taako managed to PERMANENTLY charm poor klaag and im like this poor bastard will be permanently blinded to the truth, which is that taako is a goddamn idiot and not worthy of his permanent magical adoration

oh god, taako instantly takes advantage of his colossal fuckup by asking klaarg to put himself in danger on taako’s behalf, hey justin….you’re being an asshole!

griffin: “there’s actually a lot of buttons on the dashboard, there’s not one that says ‘press here to deus ex machina’“ griffin says this like he’s not the literal god of this little world

merle: “I AM WEED-BE-GONE”

griffin: “okay, it’s fire damage, which plants DON’T love” its a goddamn pokemon au, yall

Petals to the Metal: Audrey II’s Ultimate Revenge: THE SEQUEL

griffin: “uh, the sun basically comes out of the end of your umbra staff” damn. i gotta get me an umbrella like that

i really gotta question the efficacy of the Bureau of Well Our Job Is To Acquire These World-Fucking Relics and Yet We Keep Sending Three Magical Morons To Get The Job Done

this mad max wasteland style fucking chariot race featuring way too many assholes in animal masks and lots and lots of accidental murder and a heroic sacrifice was a goddamn TRIP AND A HALF