#we talked about it with mum and she doesn't really fully get it why I want to fix her rather than just listen to music on my phone akjhg

[ayakashibackstreet]

Gave the headphone jack a proper cleaning, actually seems like it made things worse :/ Oh well, it's not that bad yet, if it gets worse I'll take it to the repair shop I guess

As I took her apart I realised that for a device I've been using extensively pretty much every day for 8-9 years, her battery life is still amazing? She easily lasts more than 10 hours of continuous music playback on one full charge, I take her on train rides and after 6 hours, she still displays half the battery. They don't make them like this nowadays (mainly because they don't really make them nowadays at all, 'them' being Sony)

[mikalame]

Can she come, please

This is gonna be a bout little tom and TH going on their first tour and he's wanting you to come a long with the band ( young love relationship)

taglist: @oppopotamus @violentnewmarley @saumspam

"Please let her come sir i promise nothing bad will happen to her, please..." Tom childish voice bounces of the wall in the living room. His pleading feel on the deaf ears of his girlfriends dad.

It was currently 11:30 pm at night the tour bus was leaving in an hour Tom was already running late. He just wanted his lovely girlfriend to come along on on their first tour what was so bad about it.

"Boy, do you know how stupid you sound right now, do you really think that i would let my little girl go in a bus with people i dont know-" "but you know me! " Tom argues back

"Dont interrupt me, i may know you but i don't trust you little boy" The older man snaps at the young boy "____ calm down let Tom speak" ___ mum asks with a hushed voice the only person that on his side with letting her come along

"Please sir, this is a very big achievement and shes been there since the beginning pleas-" "dad whats going on, why are you yelling" a girls voice echos through the halls before a body pops out from the hallway.

Looking in the girl is very confused seeing her dad angry looking at her boyfriend and her mother trying to calm down her dad. "Go back to bed ___ this has nothing to do with you" The man says not using the same tone of voice as a couple seconds ago "well if my boyfriends involved i think i does, hi Tom" The girl says kissing the boys cheek before sitting down.

"Wait aren't you supposed to be on tour right now" The girl questions "yes i am, and i was asking your dad if you could come along but he's not agreeing" Tom says frustrated rubbing his hand over his face "Oh you little-" "okay, you two go up to ___ room ill be there in a second i need to talk to your dad first" ___ mother says calm and collected, very over this discussion.

Before her dad could argue against it they bolt down the hall and close the door shut. They talk for a while saying things about how they would text and call whenever they can before Tom had a great idea.

"Why dont you just run away and come we could leave right now" Tom says chipper thinking is was one of the best ideas in the world "No Tom, thats a stupid idea my dad will kill you and then me for even going along with that plan" ___ whines back.

"My dad already doesn't like you why do you think that wold be a good idea" ___ pleads not wanting her boyfriend to not get even more hate then he already gets from her dad.

Just then her dad opens the door, Tom stands up ready to defend himself again. "Sit down down Tom, i dont trust, like or even want you in my house right now, ...but my daughter seems to really like you a lot so i suppose you can go" The kids start cheering only for it to be cut off "BUT, i need you to answer my questions okay" The boy nods dreads to short to tie up yet bouncing with his head.

"Will there be adult supervision?" the man questions "yes every bosy but from us will be adults" the boy very happy that she is able to come along.

"No alcohol, drugs or anything of the sorts on the bus" The man says eyebrow lifting, eyes squiting looking for any detail that could say that the boy was lying to him. "Nope sir, the only people what would have alcohol would be the adults, they wont give anything to us dont worry" they young boy adds trying to better his chances at getting her dad to like him.

The older man huffs "fine but i want you to know Tom im not fully agreeing to this, ___ mum is the only reason why ___ coming with you dont think i like you right now" "i understand sir" Tom nods

"___ pack your things you need to leave in like an hour, hurry up" the man says nonchalantly over his shoulder.

Time skip

"Thank you so much mum and dad i love you see you in a couple weeks" The young girls says the excitement bubbling in her voice " Thank you ma'am and sir promise shes in good hands" The boy says "yeah she better be" the man huffs "you two be safe and careful, wish you good luck to you and your band Tom" ___ mother says with a warm smile on her face " Thank you, hope we do good aswell" the pair wave as they close the door behind them.

"He called me Tom not boy, Ahhh i think im warming up to him" the girl giggles at what the young boy says walking to the tour bus hand in hand.

Hope yall like, sorry i havent done TH in a while most of my request are Manzini its a bit hard to write for him tho but i try my best

[bibibbon]

Inko midoriya is a bad mum

Yeah you heard it right inko is a bad mother. Look Iam not saying that inko is abusive but Iam saying that she isn't a good mother. YOU CAN CARE FOR YOUR CHILD AND LOVE THEM BUT STILL BE A BAD PARENT.

Somehow doesn't realise the severe bullying izuku went through and him being beat up since the age of 4. Iam so very concerned and confused on how inko never noticed that izuku was getting beat up when coming back home from the park or school it literally makes no sense to me like?!?! It's not like she even works she is a literal stay at home mum so how did she not notice for a good 10+years of izukus life?

Didn't really do anything about protecting her son until he got a quirk. The only time we actually see inko advocating for her son is AFTER He got his quirk. Look I think quirkless discrimination could of been a thing but seriously this series doesn't treat it like it is like this stuff only happened to izuku and I don't get why she never went to aldera and complained or why she didn't re-enroll her son into another school. How am I supposed to believe that she is somehow a helicopter parent when stuff like this happens and the fact that the plot doesn't allow her to take izuku out of ua and instead somewhat demonised her for that is sad.

She is very emotionally dependent on izuku. No offence but this is the truth. Every single time we see them together there will be a panel or a whole page even dedicated to inko crying to izuku and him having to comfort and honestly as a parent YOU SHOULD BE COMFORTING YOUR CHILD NOT THE OTHER WAY ROUND. This also reflects a lot on Izuku's behaviour, throughout the series izuku is actually very emotionally intelligent when it comes to people take the whole Katsuki Vs izuku 2 or take the sports festival and todoroki this could all be a result for him having to take care of his mother emotionally and having to grow up quickly when it comes to emotions. stuff like this explains why he is so emotionally mature and also emotionally intelligent.

Her reaction to him being quirkless and completely breaking down on him. Izuku's is 4 he has very limited knowledge of the world and the stuff around him. Izuku being diagnosed quirkless isn't necessarily something he can fully understand so the only thing he understands is that 1) this diagnosis makes his mother sad and 2) he can't be a hero and do what other kids/the majority of the population can do. Her reaction doesn't help Izuku at all and izuku even goes on to acknowledge such a thing and talk about how he wanted his mother to comfort him instead of cry and profusely apologise. @delawaredetroit talked about the meaning of this panel and how the chair acts as a barrier between the two which I really like and think explains their relationship perfectly

Her "concern" on the quirk Izuku got. Look your child that has been quirkless for 10 years of his life magically gets a quirk and explains it to you in some gibberish about modern science but then you find out that the quirk is completely different from yours and your husband's genetics and it physically hurts your child to use it. (He hurt himself to the point he had to get surgery?!?!) Instead of questioning the origins of this quirk and asking your son to explain himself or worry about your son hurting himself you JUST COMPLAIN?!?! Complain to the universe about why he got such a dangerous quirk out of nowhere like?!?! Also is it just me BUT THE WHOLE SEVEN TIMES FAINTING IS GETTING TO ME LIKE?!?! Iam confused aren't you supposed to be there for your child why is he supporting you emotionally and mentally on stuff he shouldn't have to worry about

Izuku's reaction and mentality whenever his mum is brought up. From the few times izuku has thought of his mum in the series you can clearly tell how their relationship really is. Their relationship is literally I can't make my mum sad and I have to be there for her instead of it being the other way round. Like seriously why is izuku waking up from a two day coma and the FIRST THING HE THINKS OF WHEN HE SEES his mother's handwriting is her crying for him to wake up and not to hurt his mum by him getting hurt. This is very concerning?!?! It doesn't help that the two times he actually wakes up from the coma he is the one that has to be there for him mum like he had to comfort her when she found out that villains were after him (understandable) but she should of been there for her child she should of advocated for him or tried to comfort or even reassure him in anyway like seriously?!?!

The lack of communication between the two. In my opinion these two truly lack communication because why is she bringing the fact that she is going to take him out of UA at that point Infront of all might when she could of had a proper discussion with her son at any point before all might came?!?! It seriously makes no sense and don't get me started on the way she was talking about it like I know she had a point and she was right but the way she brought it up and the way she talked about it were horrible. These two don't necessarily communicate about anything that is solely about izuku himself. Majority of their conversations are about things like heros, inko and her health and some other stuff but none are about the child and solely the child which I find very worrying to be honest. also don't get me started on how izuku never felt responsible or felt like he could trust his OWN MOTHER ENOUGH TO TELL HER About thr bullying or OFA ( still mad that bakugo found out before inko)

Her allowing her child to go vigilante and not actually sticking up for him during the whole don't let him into UA thing. Idk about you but I genuinely don't understand why a parent who claims to be very overprotrctive of their child allows them to go and become a vigilante and run around while they haven't even fully healed. Also this went on for a month?!?!!! Like we she seriously never went to UA and was like?!?! What about my son is it safe for him or she never set her foot down and was like no izuku you're a child you don't need to fight you shouldn't fight the adults should keep you safe or something along the lines. No we got nothing of the sort all we got was her crying and agreeing to it which is honestly frustrating. Also HOW AND WHY THE HELL WAS SHE NOT ANGRY?!?? LIKE WHY WAS SHE NOT ANGRY AT YAGI?! WHY WAS SHE NOT ANGRY WITH UA ?!? OR AT ANYONE INVOLVED. Are we also forgetting that izuku was also used as a child soldier in the first war without his consent and idk if the parents knew but why was inko not rightfully angry about what happend it makes no sense to me. Oh and don't get me started on the chapter when all the people were like get this kid out like was inko not standing up for her son why didn't she comfort him with Kota when he broke down sobbing like why?!?! How am I supposed to believe that she is a good mother and not neglectful at all when I get THIS

Her lack of reaction when izuku is on the news for the sludge villain. So almost everyone knows about the sludge villain incident it was literally boardcasted on the news and you're telling me we never got a scene of izuku and inko talking about it, of inko comforting izuku or just inko knowing in general. Like your son was on the news and decided to run into a villain fight and you don't reprimand him or demand to find out why he did it. Like why is it that kirishima and other strangers have more of reaction to the sludge villain incident instead of the main characters mother and I bet izuku didn't even tell his mum that he met all might or that he was attacked by the sludge villain before Katsuki so yeah

Simply allowing her child to do whatever after waking up from a coma (THIS LEGIT HAPPENS TWICE?!?!) Are you telling me that inko really let her child who woke up from a coma not even long ago just go out because UA required him to or something like she just let izuku do whatever he wants and didn't even come and seem him after he woke up or didn't even come and collect him after he was literally discharged from the hospital!?!? Also I have touched on the 2nd coma thing but the training camp parc inko kinda drives me insane because how do you simply allow this to happen?

PS this is just stuff from the manga because if you want me to go on about how inko was absent WHEN IZUKU LEGIT GOT ACCUSED OF BEING A MASS MURDER AND DID NOTHING ???! that's not really something imma go into deep depth but wanted to mention (THERE ARE A LOT MORE INSTANCES I DIDNT MENTION)

Look I get it inko is a flawed parent but the narrative doesn't acknowledge that and no one else does. Like I said if horikoshi actually wanted to redeem an abusive parent then he had inko and kotaro idk why the hell he chose someone like enji to fulfill that role because let's be honest enji sucks and so does his redemption. (Neglect is a form of abuse!!!)

Also it's sad inko never gets to be more than the overly emotionally dependent parent to the MC and that's it. Like she has no friends no job no family except of izuku no nothing she is all alone and usually forgotten about in the narrative sometimes I think that a dead parent could of been more useful than her which is sad.

Iam all for inko actually being somewhat of a bad mother who works a lot but loves her child and is now trying to improve and be there but that never happens and izuku deserves so much better cos how come the villain Tenko has a better family and mother than the hero

[quodekash]

guys jokezo just made out and now they have to share a bed together. just chew on that for a bit.

NO, DON'T GIVE ME THEM SITTING ON A BUS

GIVE ME WHAT HAPPENED WHEN THEY HAD TO SLEEP IN THE SAME FREAKING BED IMMEDIATELY AFTER THEY MADE OUT

👀

(they made out last night btw)

(just in case anyone forgot)

(and then they had to share a bed)

ass x7

also zo is fully just not doing anything lmao

everyone's pushing with all their might and zo is just 🧍‍♂️

FUIWEBSDGIOUVEWJBOGD

oh the desperate thigh grab

yeah, im with him on this, they need to talk about it. especially about how they had to slEEP IN THE SAME FREAKING BED AFTER THAT

welp. I guess joke's day was just ruined in a slap to the face disguised as a few words

AND THE WAY HE TAKES HIS HAND OFF ZO'S THIGH AFTER THAT????? OUCHHHH

I must say tho, this is really giving episode-6-of-bad-buddy

its very patpran-post-rooftop-kiss-core

the vibes be gay and yearning and very very sad

OKAY, THE MOTHER, FINALLY

a few things to say about her

1. she's gorgeous

2. DAMN she is SHORT

3. I was rewatching the first four episodes yesterday and today because I could, and I noticed in the first episode, zo asked his friends to not tag him in photos they took at the bar, because "I don't want my mum to see"

but my question is... why? he's just out drinking with friends, he's an adult, he's not being irresponsible or anything, so why doesn't he want her to see the photos?

is it something to do with what his mum thinks of him? is she overbearing? does she have high expectations of him? does she kinda suck?

she's probably lovely though, and ill end up adding her to my list-of-fictional-parents-to-get-adopted-by (it's a very long list)

I guess we shall find out today as the episode progresses

oh, honey, you're so queer

the amount of times ive done exactly this

she's so short its hilarious omg

also: ive decided I love his mum

she's so sweet

and neither of them know how to use a stove and I think that's so hilarious and endearing

HSDHSHFSHDHHS

(also: this scene is making me think of akkayan at aye's house having a meal with his mum and rhbgdhjgb)

he's putting two and two together

the few braincells he has that aren't dedicated to debating are whirring in his mind

I can practically hear his thoughts

"he kissed me back... he wants to talk about the kiss... we went on two dates together at his suggestion... he showed up at my house and charmed my mother... he says I have secret admirers..." cmon sweetie youre so close

"WAIT, DOES HE LIKE ME?" omg honeybun you did it!

or maybe he didn't do it

maybe he was still shuffling the pieces in his brain but hadn't put them together and then his mum said something and distracted him

either way: that was hilarious and I want to high five dunk for his acting there

HIGH EXPECTATIONS, I KNEW IT

still love her tho

high expectations suck but she seems wonderful so far (obviously my opinion will change if the circumstances do (like if it turns out she completely sucks) but for now she's made it to the adoption list)

brb, gonna go cry real quick

well now their thumbs are making out

you see, I understand the things he's saying. and I honestly agree with him. if I were ever somehow put in his position, id probably say the same things.

HOWEVER, I just want my bl boys to kiss again and be happy and together and I appreciate the realism over the usual fantasy kinda situation we go for in bls, but I just want them to kissssss

this is very good advice

I hope that jokezo kiss again this episode

also AAAGBRDHFKBG JENGPOK CRUMBS

YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHO'S LOSING THEIR MIND OVER JENGPOK AGAIN

BERIUFDJKGBEORPVFD

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP

IM NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING

FHEWSDGFVESDV

THIS IS TOO FUNNY

im gonna start crying soon

its so funny

help me

girl is worried

I know this is what jeng told you to do but is during debate club really the right moment

im so certain that she ships it

awwhhhhh

HE SAID IT

HE SAID THE THING

AAAAAAAAA

hell yeah

GOUERJLHDGOBIERVLDNF

AAAAAAAAAAA

IM SCREAMING

THATS IT??

THAT'S THE END OF THE EPISODE??

THEY DIDNT EVEN KISS

OR ADDRESS THE FACT THAT - and I can't stress this enough - THEY SLEPT IN THE SAME FREAKING BED AFTER FULL-ASS MAKING OUT

omg next episode is gonna be amazing

I can't wait

gekjrdsbfd I love them so much

im like 70% certain they're gonna kiss next episode so fingers crossed

ALSO NITA DEFINITELY SHIPS IT

anyway. that was good. I should go to sleep now

[sunnyie-eve]

5 | Family Drama

Series: Odds Together

Paring: Ryan Dunn x OFC Margera!

Word Count: 1.7k

Warnings: Rude Family, Mention of rape

| MASTERLIST |

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Since that night I went off on my mom, which I didn't fully remember, I've been avoiding any type of conversations about that whole day. I think everyone knew it too so no one ever brought it up.

"What the fuck are you doing?" I ask Bam hearing our mother start to scream. I see he was bashing through the side of the door to make a draw bridge. "And I still couldn't stay out late?" I mumble to myself going back upstairs.

"Anna!" I hear Ryan start to rush after me.

"Leave me alone." I groan shutting my door on him.

"I can open it still... What did you do to your wall?" He sees all the holes.

"That bat plus a not so sober me pissed off equals that." I point at the bat, me, and the wall. "And before you speak... No, I don't wanna talk about it."

"I heard everything you said. I followed you in. She really got on you for doing what we did growing up? The videos and everything?"

"Yes. She wanted me to be the clean cut one out of her kids. Wanted me to get good grades in school, go to college so I could get good paying job. Maybe find a good clean cut guy who knows what he wants to do with his life. Then my dad wanted this perfect princess daughter. When I was super young, I loved Disney princess and he said I could be just like them. I started doing chores at six years old thinking I was a princess. Then Beauty and the Beast came out when I was 12. She became my favorite and I wanted to be like her so that's when I started reading. Growing up I of course realized I wasn't some princess and if I was one I was Cinderella. So when I got to hangout with you and Bam, it felt nice just having fun. But I got chewed out because I wasn't supposed to be doing that. I was supposed to be doing girl things."

"I'm sorry I never noticed." Ryan gives me a sad pout.

"You wouldn't have known because it was always said when I was alone. Bam doesn't even know because he's not super observant. Just stay quiet about it. Please." He nods his head then leaves my room.

~

"We're having a big dinner. All your relatives. All of Phil's relatives." Bam tells our mom.

"You are lying. You would not invite all theses people. No you wouldn't. You wouldn't dare." She tells him.

"We want drama." He tells her and I huff eyeing him.

"Why would you want drama with your family? I'm gonna have a heart attack." She tells him so I decide to speak up.

"One, drama already happened for your don't feed Phil episode. Two, you do know everyone in our family heard about the lies Austin said right? They believed them."

"That's right Bam. I completely forgot. They're gonna bring all that crap up again." Mom tells him.

"If they do, I'll shut it down quickly." He says so I leave the room listening to them bicker.

When my mom comes into the living room she looks over at me sighing, "I'm sorry Anna. For everything. When you said I was one of the reasons you left really hurt me and made me realize I hurt you." She tears up. "I just wanted my little girl to be perfect." She wipes her tears away making me tear up.

I walk over giving her a hug, "I love you."

Bam asks me to go with him and dad to go get Mum mum so I go but when they go inside I wait in the vehicle. She was one of many family members who gave me hell for the lies I apparently did.

"I didn't hear you were back." She says as she get in.

"She got back a few months ago." Bam tells her. "Do you still not say the f word?" Bam asks her.

"No, I don't say the F word."

"What about the S word?" He asks.

"What shit?" She makes us chuckle.

"I'm gonna a tattoo that says the f-word right here." He motions to his chest.

"I'm gonna disown you." He tells him making him say you can't. "I already cut you out of my will."

"Is anybody left in your will? Jesse is right?" Dad asks her.

"No, he wasn't a virgin til he got married."

"That's impossible to do that." He tells her.

"In the olden days people did it." She says making them go off about not anymore.

"Is Anna in it still?" Dad asks making Bam say his name.

"You know she ain't after the things she did." I roll my eyes chuckling as she looks at me.

"I didn't do any of the shit." I look out the window.

"Where's your proof?" She asks making Bam say her name now.

"Proof?" I look at her. "How do I prove I was almost raped by a group of football players and that I wasn't the one who made a move on them first asking for it then decided to play a victim? I did have proof for a negative pregnancy test so the rumor about getting knocked up was proven wrong." I look over at her.

"I don't wanna argue about this right now." She looks away from me.

When we get back home I get out annoyed going straight to my mom. "Mum mum already brought it up because dad was talking about whose in her will." I tell her making her sigh.

"Hopefully no one else brings up that topic." She rubs my back.

"Hopefully no one tries talking to me." I give her a small smile.

When the whole family shows up I sit away from everyone and just read a book hoping to be left alone. When the crew got back with the food they make a big entrance with an elephant and dressed up. I watch mom freak out about the elephant trying to go in the house.

"What do you want Dunn?" I ask as he stand in front of me with an animal head on wearing wings too.

"How do you know it's me?" He asks not moving.

"Your tattoos give you away." I laugh at him so he takes his head off.

"Why you alone like you've been disowned?" He looks at everyone sitting together.

"Because I basically am. Majority of the people here believed in the lies and I don't want to talk about it with them. I already went through it with Mum mum." I close my book as he squats down in front of me holding on to my knees.

"I'll eat with you so you aren't alone. Come on, let's get food." He pulls me up dragging me over to eat. He grabs a big piece and just pulls the meat off to eat. "Open wide." He tries feeding me.

"Dunn..." I move my head away.

"Come on, you gotta eat." He smiles moving the meat towards my face again so I open my mouth and take it. "Good girl." He laughs.

"You're ridiculous." I laugh at him.

"But you love me." He smiles bigger and I stop going to get my own food then go sit alone again.

After eating I pull out my phone and listen to the voicemail I refuse to respond too. When it starts to get wild because of Vito making Mum mum fed up and leaves.

"Ryan, it smells bad." I whine as he puts the animal head on me as he sits on my lap.

"Does it? I can't tell." He takes it off of me smelling it.

"Because you stink." I laugh at him.

"I took a shower." He looks offended.

"When months ago?" I say making him hit me.

"No, fuck you."

"You love me just admit." I laugh making him put an arm around my shoulder leaning his head on me.

"You know one of the rumors was she cheated on Austin with him... Bam's best friend. I believe that look at them." I head someone from mom's side of the family say as they pass us.

"I want up." I try to get Ryan off me.

"Ignore them." He doesn't move.

"Annabelle, how was Ireland?" One of my cousins walk up to us.

"Good."

"I bet you had fun with the boys there." She giggles walking away.

"Okay, I'm done get the fuck off me." I shove Ryan off me so I could go to my room. As I pass my cousin she calls me a slut so I turn around to punch her but Ryan runs over wrapping his arms around me.

"This isn't gonna help you." He carries me into the house.

"You can put me down now." I shake my way free. "I don't care what my family thinks of me. I don't talk to anyone out side family gatherings. Never have growing up before the lies." I go up to my room hearing him following. "Ryan, just leave me alone. Go enjoy things."

"I will by watching Grease with you. It's one of your favorites. Then once it's over we can watch Cry Baby because I know Johnny Depp will make you forget them outside." He smiles taking the movie off my bookshelf putting it in.

"You hate both movies." I watch him.

"I do but I'll pretend to like them for you." He jumps onto my bed getting comfortable. I turn back to look at him laying there looking at the tv then at me, "Get comfortable." He pats the spot next to him so I lay back turning my head to face him. He turns his to look at me giving me a big smile.

[cephalofrog]

omg project sekai JP event

full spoilers below cut

- first off: wow I underestimated this event. I didn't expect it to be *this* good. it's incredibly well-written imo.

- there are so many flashbacks to previous events. it really hammers in the feeling of everything having led up to this. samsa, mirage, bug, 2nd anni, wish/i nandesu, even a callback to the group story with the song miku sings - then finally the escape for survival quote.

- it's kinda nice that it makes the point to show that mafumum's methods don't even work for getting high grades - like on the one hand it wouldn't matter either way but on the other it's good to hammer in that her worldview is entirely illogical.

- the phone is broken when it's dropped in the empty fish tank. I did not expect checkhov's fish tank but also: it's a hobby she doesn't care for, something she only has due to the expectations of her having a hobby from other people. a reflection of her own emptiness under the expectations of her mother. of course it's what destroys her final way to contact 25ji.

- mafumum saying she's made food mafuyu likes for dinner. mafuyu doesn't like any food. the way it shows mafumum's complete ignorance of the harm she's done to mafuyu.

- the flipping back and forth between empty eyes and normal eyes during the final confrontation

- "it was a mistake, buying and giving you a computer, letting you use an instrument too!" mafumum is saying that the thing that saved mafuyu was a mistake. horrific. (not to mischaracterise - obviously she doesn't know how much it helped her - but mafuyu knows, of course.)

- cutting the ending with kanade short is a good choice imo. I think it's nice to leave it there - we can get confirmation on what happened later, for now we just leave them on that moment of comfort.

- not to get too ship-y but god kanamafu fans are winning

- the ending animation is excellent and heartbreaking.

- I saw someone say that an area convo says that she's staying with kanade? but she might also be staying in sekai? idk. no idea how things are gonna go from here.

- I think this event helped me get a solid idea of mafumum's actual motivation - I think she thinks she's wasted her own life and is projecting that insecurity onto mafuyu, judging by a couple of her lines. this makes sense to me - it explains why she acted similarly towards kanade. if it was that she wanted to control mafuyu there wouldn't really have been a reason for her to give the dig about kanade's future towards her during samsa.

- shout-out to mafumum's va (and also tanabe rui of course). the voice acting in this event is incredible.

- bad end au in which the phone fully breaks in the fishtank, miku and kaito aren't able to talk to her, and during the confrontation with her mum she gives in and fully forgets her true self, adopting the "good girl" persona for good

- might add more once I see card story translations etc.

[therhythmafterthesummer]

Chris x pretty are so perfect ( the Drabble was so effing cute ugh!) but now I’m thinking what are their respective red flags ?? Like what are things that they need to work on in their relationship?? We’ve seen from that previous chapter that sometimes it does go down between them..

ohhh, good question, good question. i don't include this much in the stories because most of the time i just want to write the positive stuff lol i'm already too sad irl to deal with it constantly in my silly little stories as well, but i have certainly thought about this before, so i'll leave some thoughts under the cut:

so... Chris is very stubborn. very. he believes his ways are the best ways, you know? although he does try to let go of this and let people do what they want or feel like they need to to, he'll always have that little voice on the back of his head telling him that his opinion on any matter is the right one. see their argument in afraid to lose you, he was tired, scared, and it was near impossible for him to believe anything other than that his opinion on pretty turning was the only one, you know?

besides, he's half animal. he's incomprehensible levels of Intense™. in general, it's hard for him to be normal when it comes to emotions. he feels too much, too quickly, and depending on the situation this can cause both him and his partner distress and start misunderstandings (it's great when the emotions are positive, tho. as we've seen...)

also, he's very career driven, and tends to lose himself in his day to day job, to the point where he doesn't take care of his basic needs (food, sleep, cuddles with his pretty girl, etc). if he's too engrossed in what he's working on, he'll lose all sense of self and his surroundings, which will make pretty mum's left eye twitch in annoyance because he's a grown man that needs to take care of himself.

pretty is intense as well, although to a lesser, more human degree. i don't think their relationship would work if she weren't, tbh. chris' inner voice said it in the narrative of Alpha Dog, he'd been told he was too intense before, which is smth pretty hasn't done because she's just the same. again, this is great when it comes to positive emotions, because they're able to enjoy their love to the fullest, but when negativity seeps in, it can cause arguments and disagreements.

additionally, pretty can be... insecure. we know she's not particularly insecure about her looks, so this is not the source of her insecurities. it's her capabilities that she often worries about, which leads her to overthink things, to isolate herself from her loved ones because she feels like she can't fully provide them the support they need.

contradictorily, she likes to mother people. she's always been the mum friend, probably not only because she cares deeply about her friends and because she's good at it, but also because she likes to feel needed, you know? which is part of the reason why Chris' lack of care for his basic needs when he gets in his heads gets to her so much, because she doesn't want to mother him, but she feels like she'll eventually end up doing it because that's just who she is, and a girlfriend shouldn't really be mothering her boyfriend that's not how that works lol.

one thing that causes arguments sometimes is that Chris doesn't like to burden people with his problems, whereas pretty ALWAYS wants to help people with their problems, so sometimes it's like they're both on the opposite sides of a spectrum where she wants to know what's weighing heavy on his mind to help him, but he doesn't wanna tell her so she doesn't worry about him.

ultimately, they're both mature enough to know these things. not the things in themselves, but also in each other, and they really do try their best to communicate. Chris has gotten better at opening up, just like pretty has learnt to let things go sometimes when he's too closed off, simply reminding him that if he does want to talk about it, she'll be there.

they try to support each other even in their bad days, and if any arguments occur they'll always find a way to work it out.

[gins-potter]

Are you all caught up on the OC finales? What did you think?

I caught up today! I thought they were fine to really good!!

Med was really solid. Surprising no one I'm absolutely heartbroken that Will is leaving but I'm glad he went out in typical Will fashion, had a really nice scene with Sharon at the end, and we got Manstead endgame. Liliana and Dr Charles are back together! They're so flipping cute, I love that for them. Dasher are doing Dasher things, I had to LOL when Hannah was like HARD NO about dating Archer and he was so offended. I think Med's gonna return to somewhat normal next season, probs the first half will be dealing with whoever buys the hospital and convincing them to turn it not-for-profit again. The only question marks for me are whether Maggie and Dr Song stay. I think if they continue to do O.R 2.0 things, Dr Song will, and I think they've left it a bit open for Maggie depending on Marlynne's health and what she decides. I was a little surprised they didn't address it more in the finale about the possibility of her leaving since the episode before made it feel like much more of a sure thing. A solid episode!

Fire was... kinda meh if I'm being honest. Like it's not unusual for me to multi-task while I'm watching tv, but I still pay attention to what's happening with the plot, but I was dicking around on my phone while watching Fire and kept realising that I was fully not paying attention to what was going on and kept having to go back and rewatch. Like, it just felt like lots of talking ha ha. I think where we go from here is super dependent on whether Taylor comes back next season or not. Feels like they're setting up Carver and Violet, which I'm not against, but haven't fully let go of Carver in his feels over Stella either, so if T.K doesn't come back and Stellaride break up (BIG IF NO ONE THROW TOMATOES) they might continue to pursue that as well. I'm more and more on the Stella/Carver train (NO ONE HATE ME) so I'm super fine with those angsty looks he's sending her lmao. Super here for the little friendship between Kylie and Ritter and very keen for Kylie to become the new candidate (that has to be where this is going). Sylvie's adopting the baby, yay for her I guess, I mean, like I said in another ask, I'm pretty sure I know this is heading for a Kara exit, which I'm not opposed to, so I'm just very.... okay? about this storyline. It feels rushed, but it's fine, and I get a Brettsey endgame (probably) so fine. And Mouch... maybe I'm stupidly optimistic but I don't think he's dying. I think Christian is leaving the show, but I don't think Mouch is dying. Idek why tbh. It's a bit anticlimatic if he does die tbh. Like he didn't even get shot, it was a random piece of shrapnel. Idk, I think he'll probs survive and then retire. Maybe I don't think they'll kill him because it would mean that PD also has to change Trudy's characterisation over on that show. Like imagine her husband dies and they never even mention it on PD 💀💀💀

PD was the best episode imo. The pacing and writing was great, even though I'd seen bits and pieces of it already online I still felt drawn in by it and I really felt the tension. I felt like Adam, Kim, and Kevin all got to shine. Hailey and Voight not so much, sad for Hailey, get fucked Voight. Absolute snaps for Kevin getting to shoot that racist mother fucker, and I know he's just a kid but lmao fuck Callum. Fuck his mum too and I hope she goes down for some of this shit. One of my only question marks is why Torres wasn't in the ep? I can't tell if it's a weird writing choice to keep leaving him out of episodes or if the actor has some sort of other commitment keeping him from being in every episode, but I feel like they either need to commit to his character being part of the team, or drop him and bring someone who will be around all the time. Burzek slayed as always, inject that moment of Kim on the phone and absolutely sprinting to get to Adam into his veins. Kim in the ambulance, and at the hospital, "Are you his partner", "You're with Adam" "I'm with Adam" yeah girl you tell that bitch. You ARE with Adam. I mean, as with every other Burzek shipper I'm annoyed that they clearly filmed a Burzek scene at the hospital and then cut it. I hope they release it as a deleted scene at some point bc I need it. I've seen the theory that they cut it because it shows Adam's alright and Paddy might leave the show.... I mean.... maybe? I doubt it. It's more likely they cut it bc the show has a hard on for Hank Voight and wanted to end on him. I think it would have been a better ending to end with Burzek because it would have been a really full circle, cyclical ending from where they started the season, and the episode, but, what can you do? I'm sure someone will write the fic. Still, despite all that, a really great episode and end to this arc.

Sorry, this got long but yeah, those are my thoughts. Med 6/10, Fire 4/10, PD 8/10.

[jvstheworld]

My Ted Lasso Re-watch: S2E1 (part 2)

Goodbye Earl

Ted thinking that the team's tie streak his karmic justice because of the end of last season. Or it could be that the team is missing something... A certain Prince Prick of All Pricks?.... Just saying.

Nate is really starting to get harsh with Will. It was a simple request to celebrate his mum's birthday and Nate acts like it's the worst thing ever. And it's only going to get worse. And Beard can tell that something isn't right.

Nate getting phrases wrong, pearl instead of diamond and then wonder kid instead of wunderkind.

Ted shouting yes to Beard calling Nate unlucky after their discussion of the word gives me life.

Ted is a Diane Sawyer fan. (I don't know who she is. I need to watch more films).

How does Ted come up with his Tedisms? Or how do the writers for the show come up with them? How do you fan fiction writers do it too? Also by the way, you Ted Lasso fanfic writers are awesome, I love reading your works, mostly the Ted related ones, because if I haven't made it clear, I love Ted. And the way some of you write him and how sweet he is and certain fixations on certain body parts (not being rude, I'm talking hands, chest and stomach) is just wonderful. May you continue to find inspiration.

Barkingham Palace is a great name for a dog's shelter, and I'd go there any day over Buckingham Palace. (I am not a fan of the Monarchy, which if my ex-RAF service man father hears about he will not be impressed).

To Earl, he was a good boy.

Empire Strikes Back - basically season 2 of this show. How would you explain the Luke and Leia thing when they are brother and sister? You can't hide that, it's on the Internet so kids will know about it before they watch the film, so how do you handle that conversation to first time viewers with questions?

Ted wanting in on girl talk. It's basically the same principle as the Diamond Dogs. Which he and Roy talk about later in the season.

Ted being a country music fan makes sense since he's a Midwestern boy. And who doesn't love Dolly Parton? But if it's an obvious and out there alias, doesn't that defeat the point of having one in the first place?

Roy's new coaching gig - 8 year old girls football team. He's great with kids and he doesn't hide who he is with them which makes them like him even more. Roy is just Roy all the time no matter who he is with.

Ms Bowen knows.

Roy likes hot chocolate. Good man.

Unlce Roy is proud of Phoebe's red card, because that's what he would do too.

We love Roy's feral look. Shame he had to get rid of it.

I want to see the full version of Roy's retirement press conference. I just need to.

Roy says fuck 5 times, shit 4 times and twat once, in his rant about being a football pundit.

Holy shit Roy! £1236, that is quite the tab. I wonder if that number is going to pop up again later? Wonder what Phoebe would spend that money on.

Dani's nightmare, poor guy. Though with a blood splatter like that he could be in an episode of Supernatural, or in a horror film, or The Boys.

The two women in Dani's bed are his girlfriends because he is in a throuple, as seen at the end of season 3. Hey, if they are happy then fair play to them.

Red hat to Planned Parenthood anything is bordering on yikes territory. Though as long as it doesn't have a certain phrases on it, you should be fine.

Ted wishing he was Keeley. In what way?

He wants in on girl talk, then why not? He's got the right enthusiasm for it. Like when he shouts 'Stamos' and talks about John's last name and then does his announcer voice. He's trying, bless him.

Sir. Theodore. How dare you look like that while looking at Rebecca! Don't be all fucking cute and adorable with your cute smile and head in your hand and listening skills.

Ted being late to practice because he was helping Rebecca pick nail polish colours. That is peak friendship right there. And he's so proud of wearing it too. And he would have had to wait for it to dry fully before going to training.

Dani's problem is a tragedy. Beard you undersold it, my guy.

Even Sam is done with Jan Maas.

Beard is always there to help Ted, even with Tom Cruise's hair styles in different films. Which Ted graciously accepts the correction. Unlike someone people *cough*nate*cough*.

Ted's sneakers are coordinated with his training gear. Just felt the need to point that out.

Okay, why would you stand in front of the guy who is struggling to kick the ball in the right direction? And not behind him? Because that ball hitting Ted's butt had to really hurt. Poor Ted butt. Get an ice pack of that. Does he need help rubbing it better? I swear I will stop one day. Though the friend I sometimes refer to in these posts told me I should include my thirst for Ted in these and I have. But this thing I have for a guy who is 21 years older than me is not going away anytime soon apparently. Damn my attraction to older men, and this one specifically. But it's fun to annoy my friend with it.

[fumblingmusings]

What are the big differences between how Evelyn parents and how Arthur does? And since the who's the favourite child question gets asked a lot I'll flip it and ask, who would each of the kids prefer between Evelyn and Arthur? And do those preferences change over time? Not to pit the unhinged blondes against each other but i feel if they were suddenly to exist in the same universe they would have an absolutely insane custody battle.

Ohhhhhhh good question! Hmm... To be honest, I think all four kids would prefer Evelyn as a parent, but Matthew especially. I imagine when Jack was a baby it was quite hard to be around Arthur at times. He just clammed up so much after Alfred left, it took a long time for him to come out his shell again, but for Evelyn she sort of did the opposite and drew a lot of strength from the one kid that did stay and the new baby who really needed her. But as a person? Like say if they were all human and just happened to all meet each other at the pub one day? Arthur is just more interesting and sharper and more energetic. Evelyn really is a melancholic wet paper towel of a woman.

Or maybe it's like... as babies Evelyn wins, as kids through to teenagers she wins again with Matthew and Jack, but Arthur wins with Alfred (until neither parent wins that is) and Zee, and then as fully grown adults living their own lives it's... hmm. Spoilers.

Matt picks Evelyn every time though. Jack can sit on the beach and have a beer with Arthur and talk about the Ashes. (Which. Side Note. Why the Ashes are called the Ashes and why the joke prize is an urn is so sweet to me. Does anyone else think it's sweet? I mean, at least we can laugh at ourselves...) He can't do that with Evelyn for example. Matthew, however, can and will go hiking with Eva over in BC in September where they will spend literally hours not saying much to each other, simply going 'ah' every now and then at the view.

They're both very good with babies I think, to be fair to Arthur though. Babies can't judge you, so they can very much throw their dignity to the wind. They would both very happily sit up all night and hold the babba if that's what got them to sleep. I think the biggest difference between their parenting styles comes in to Arthur just being a bit (a lot) more emotionally closed off. As the kids get older the standards they have to hit get higher. They can never hit it. But for as much as Arthur can be so cold and cruel, Evelyn is not a stable presence.

It is not easy at all to grow up with a chronically ill parent, it doesn't matter what they do, you somehow develop guilt complexes for being any kind of a burden on them (even when you're not and they don't see it that way). Double bad considering it's a colony/coloniser situation. Their job is to enrich the motherland. It is not a child's job to fix their parent. The two cannot ever mesh. And she's keeled over in her porridge because she took a shot of laudanum last night and it hasn't worn off yet.

I mentioned it somewhere else before, but Arthur is the kind of parent who goes 'The world sucks, here is how is sucks, here's how to guard your heart when it starts sucking', and when it does start to suck, he'll say 'told you so', but still make you a cup of tea. Evelyn is the one to go 'The world sucks, but if we just keep to ourselves and stay close maybe it won't be so bad' and then when it does start to suck, the kids have had the rug completely pulled out from underneath them with no preparation on how to deal with it, but she'll be there to say 'I told you so', remind them that her way was the safest way, coddle them to death, then make them a cup of tea. In terms of nationhood, as awful as it may sound, Arthur may do them better in the long run. A permissive parent is not necessarily a better one (though I do think overall she was a better mum to them then Arthur was a dad).

Does that make sense? Arthur is aggressive and forthright, Eva is passive aggressive and avoidant. Some kids thrive with the former, some the latter, and maybe some at different stages of their lives. Arthur wouldn't pinch Eva's kids I think though. She absolutely fucking would for his.

Alfred once thinks that Eva is a sweet thing to come home to, and I suppose that's one way to visualise it. Arthur is someone you go and have a (buck-wild) adventure with. Evelyn is the at the end of the road going 'what have you gotten yourself into now?' Like both have their place, I think. If only they used it in the right time and place.

[akajustmerry]

Hi Merry, its your girl here to talk about the most iconic bi4bi couples, Jessie and Tom (and no I will not take criticism about them being the best!).

So yesterday my mum and I watched Notting Hill, and as I watched it, I couldn't but help to compare it to Starstruck. I'm not sure if you've watched Notting Hill, if you haven't feel free to ignore the rest of this message, but it was really an interesting experience to watch it and think about Starstruck.

Obviously both Starstruck and Notting Hill have very similar premises, and Emma Sidi has talked about the similarity. But one of the things that I found interesting (other than the scenes that paralleled) was the fact that Tom + Jessie and William Thacker have similar mannerism, but more importantly their humour is also very similar (like their quips and what not). HOWEVER, maybe this is me being support my fellow brown actors, but in my opinion, both Tom and Jessie are SO much more charming and funny. I also feel like they have better chemistry then Julie and Hugh. Sorry to all the Notting Hill fans out there. Its pretty wild, because the plots are very similar.

I think this kinda goes back to something that you and Deah may have talked about in the new ep of GayV where you talked about in terms of adaption. Something something the idea of taking something we know and adapting it for a specific audience.

Also, I think its hilarious that in Notting Hill William watches Anna's movies and seems to enjoy them/seeing her. Whereas in Starstruck, Jessie thinks Tom's movies are shit 😭

I am WITH YOU ON EVERYTHING!!! I don't like Notting Hill and never really got what the fuss is about but I've never really liked Hugh Grant as a romcom lead. Again, didn't get what the fuss was about. the only romcom I like him in is Two Weeks Notice but I feel like it's because he's meant to be unlikable in that. I love Julia Roberts as a lead but fully agree she has no chemistry with Hugh or at least not enough. To me, Tom and Jessie in Starstruck a) have more chemistry and b) feel more real and find a better balance between the reality of that kind of scenario and the romantic fantasy whereas I think Notting Hill just doesn't feel grounded enough. Maybe it did at the time, but not now. In terms of adaptation, I think Starstruck is very much for people who love romcoms who are little disillusioned with how clean they are. Starstruck offers an intentionally messier and thus, more loveable homage to these tropes and popular stories and that's why it's so great!!!!!!

[mondscheinprinzessin]

#interesting#but I get I wouldn't want my real me out there either#but I wouldn't really call it insincere mor like keeping a low profile#he's always professional#maybe that's why we perceive him as 5 people in one#he has so many sides because he never reveals himself fully so you only get these little glimpses

I think the deal with Aleksi is just that he's uncommonly good at code-switching. He's highly adaptable, and the way he acts and carries himself changes depending on the situation at hand—not in a conscious "pretending someone you're not" way, but in terms of instinctively matching the tone and "language" of a situation or person. From personal experience, the real Aleksi probably isn't any one of these multitudes; he is the multitudes. Versatility and variety strike me as a core part of him as a person (see also: his music tastes, plural).

That said, the reason he's so professional on social media might just be because he doesn't seem like much of a social media person otherwise. Read: if he didn't have stuff to promote he'd probably be the guy who goes off grid for three months, posts one (1) thing, and promptly disappears back into the abyss for another three months.

Y'know, introvert stuff I guess?

That reminds me of something my mum recently told me about something she had talked about with my one-time therapist years ago. That depending on who I was with, a group of people or one person, that I was a completely different person, always portraying someone else but not the person she knew me as.

And I never thought about it more of except for in of course you start to mirror behaviours when spending time with people, much like you unconsciously slip into the accent of the person you're speaking with.

So maybe he does it all consciously or doesn't even really notices.

See, he's so good at it that many people didn't even pick up on him being introverted before his red flag tiktok came out.

And if you look at his insta the overwhelming majority of his posts is connected to his job/band/music. The captions almost always are about concerts/the album/future stuff, except for a few selfies scattered in between. I bet if people wouldn't bug him about Rilla, we would see even less of her😄 And from his pictures alone we also wouldn't have been able to guess he was friends with Robin because there's nothing there to find, just professional stuff.

He was more open and willing to show off himself in his old facebook era from the posts we had digged out once. Now there's nothing private or funny or random about his pictures. (But he's still not a Tommi).

[lifviakaza]

I'm not proud of it sih. Tapi emg bener, kalo setiap individu aplg bersaudara punya passionny msg2. Kk ane pinter beud masakny dn skrg punya bisnis catering. Ane lebih ke workaholic yg pergi pagi pulang tengah malam demi segunung berlian🤣 And there's nothing better or worse. And tbh it's one of the reasons why I never really end up well with my ex, gebetan whatsoever. Krn every time we talk about the future, we have different principles. Di Indo yg kebanyakan alpha males yg sgt proud akan "kasta" antara perempuan dan laki-laki, masculinity etc, women like me aren't fully accepted. Why? Simak percakapan di bawah ini:

M: Jadi kalo gabisa masak dan nyuci. Gimana kamu mau jadi ibu yg baik?

F: Memangnya Ibu yg baik itu yg bisa masak dan nyuci yah? Kalo aku gabisa berarti aku bukan wanita yg sempurna gitu yah? Hmm.. And btw ini bukan tentang bisa dn gabisa yah, but are you marrying me for being your chef and laundry machine?

M: No, I meant, that's the nature of women.

F: What nature? What's men's nature then? Bossing women around and complaining? You don't think taking care of the kids and the house is overwhelming, do you?

M: No, you got me wrong. I meant kan anak2 itu ibu lho madrasah pertamanya. You need to have time for them.

F: Lol we were talking about masak and nyuci not taking care of kids. I didn't say I wouldn't have time for my children, I was saying that I wouldn't be able to do all the household chores cz I'm not used to it and btw, it's not all women's responsibilities. Stop saying that working mums aren't perfect and barely have time to educate their kids. It happens but please don't generalize it.

M: ok whatever.

F: OK, bye.

See? Netizen say, "Get married, already! " They don't know, ppl like me, we talk about the shits upfront and (no offense) but most Indonesian males can't really stand these kinda of moves, they call it feminism, but me personally I don't think so, I call it SMART. Doesn't matter how much you fall for somebody, to me, when he can't be open enough for some changes in living the life, then he's not my guy.

Compare above's convo to this:

M: So you can't cook and are not familiar with doing laundry?

F: Well, not that I can't, I can, and I will be better eventually if I learn more about it. But you know, I'm a grown up, with the job and whats coming, I don't think that will be my priority. Wdyt?

M: It doesn't matter to me. We can hire a household assistant, but then maybe sometimes I need financial help from you too.

F: Ofc! We can do it.

M: Nice, deal!

See the difference between open and closed minded guy? Again, no offense, netijen lol

Kalo di Time Management, ada yg namanya DELEGASI. Ketika kita punya banyak hal yg harus dilakukan, hal2 yg sifatnya bisa dikerjakan oleh orang lain, bisa kita delegasikan. Banyak banget ibu2 diluar sana yg mungkin kerja juga, atau punya usaha, atau kerja dan punya usaha, kalau harus dipaksakan mengerjakan semua hal, she can go crazy :) Give her a break! Hiring assistant when it's necessary is fine as long as the priorities (like educating the kids, family quality time, business etc) are being taken care of.

Well I know, I'm not Emak2, but the sentences like: "Ohiya, aku ingin berumahtangga karena skrg udh gatinggal dg Ibu, jadi kalo pulang gaada yg siapin makanan. "

"Iya si anu mo nikah. Kasian dia bajunya kusut terus gaada yg nyetrikain. "

Etc...

It breaks my heart hearing those kinda of bullshits let alone in this century!

Iya iya tahu, some women are happy doing these and those but netijen, I'm not talking about them and yeah, there's nothing wrong with it. But if you can respect their decision, you need to be able to respect keputusan kaum lain like me too :)

For me, still, while writing this, I know that I will need a household assistant (not nanny) when things seem to be getting out of control. Up until this very moment, my business, my job, my well-being, they're my priorities, maybe someday, you and the kiddos will be my top priorities. But don't and never, never tell a woman that she's not perfect just because she doesn't do the "ordinary" based on netijen's standards. Ever.

Sekian~

[ghostinyourbuilding]

July 2nd, Saturday. 00.53am. Good night ghost.

My mind has been going places all night. My day was very calm and actually quite boring, all I did was organise my incredibly bloated wardrobe, get rid of clothes I didn't want and I also planned my schedule. Shit went down at night tho, in a few different ways. I've been pretty introspective since then about those things so I'll just write them down so I can go to sleep without having to think about them and tainting my dreams.

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Annoying family members™

To the surprise of nobody at all, my sister said she won't go to the diversity march tomorrow. I knew it so I'm not surprised but damn, I'm kinda annoyed and a bit hurt that she never fails to go out with her friends but she flakes almost every single time we plan something. I never take seriously any plans we make but she keeps making them just to rain check them. I wish she'd realise she doesn't have to do that, she can just not make plans unless she actually wants to go out. It's weird because she opens up to me so much so I don't think she's avoiding hanging out so that I won't fuck up her plans or anything, but there's something there. Oh well.

And it doesn't stop there with the weird choices my family members make. My incredibly hated aunt was purposefully trying to make my mum worried when I went to spend the night at Mark's place. Since my mum wasn't home I told my aunt to tell her I probably wouldn't come home so she wouldn't be worried, and my aunt said she would and also said it was nice that I was going out and taking off some steam.

Well, when my mum came home my aunt said she didn't know when I was gonna come back and that she tried hard to convince me not to go out so late to such a far away part of town. Bitch, what??? My mum didn't buy the latter, but she was worried because I've been on a couple dates lately but I always came back home the same night. I already went over it with my mum and we're both mad as hell with said demonic auntie, I even called her out when she tried to make small talk with me and she just walked away. She knows I'm fucking terrible to be around if I'm mad at someone and I will absolutely make her life hell until I'm satisfied with pestering her.

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The only good thing about men online is that you can block them©

I know I am pretty focused on my love life and I'm a serial dater but what I actually like is hanging out, going places, having good (note the word good) chats and nice sex, I don't give a shit about anyone specifically to the point where I'd bend over backwards for them. I don't fall in love like that, I don't drool over individuals to that extent. I enjoy temporarily being near certain people with certain features and qualities and having specific experiences, but I don't give a shit if someone leaves, stays or is considering either of those two options no matter how long I've known them, how much we lived together or how unique/special they may be. Much like me they're all replaceable, the world will never run out of interesting people to be temporarily fawned over.

That's precisely why I've been so fucking annoyed at the men I have contact with online. Imagine thinking I would care enough about a collection of pixels with a name assigned to them to the point where ultimatums would do anything?

I've been so busy and socially drained I barely have time to talk to friends, much less my disposable reply guys. The fucking audacity of those men to expect me to suddenly want to consistently talk to them just because they act passive aggressive or threaten to stop talking completely is baffling.

Mo has been one of the dumbasses who is trying that shit with me. It's always a different problem with him, at this point the fighting isn't even entertaining. I just completely disregarded his complains and passive aggressiveness fully knowing it'd make him even angrier. He can seethe for all I care, I don't really consider him anything but a reply guy since he fucked up a while back by constantly asking me to consider meeting him then saying he wouldn't want to meet when I went to the US to see my cousin because 'it'd be too short of a visit'. Downgraded instantly to pixel validation machine. If he continues being this whiney I'm just gonna completely ghost him. I don't care if we've known each other for years or that we were very close at one point, he should know by now that both those things and him as a person means nothing to me.

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Relationships and all that jazz®

You know those dogs who sniff corpses? The men I go out with are like that, but instead of corpses they can sniff other dudes' cum. That's the only possible explanation for why I can go on 100 dates with one dude without him pestering me with the 'what are we?' talk, but the second I start seeing another dude they pull that damn card.

Otto was super lovey dovey with me from the start, but I was actually surprised he didn't suggest a relationship yet. But of course; like the XY-chromosomes-having, cum-sniffing, subconsciously territorial male he is, he just waited until I had another dude to try and lock me up. Jokes aside, he decided to what are we me around the same time Mark started suggesting we could be a couple.

Both of them are jumping the gun severely at the exact same time. I don't judge their decision because I know they are... uh... intense? That's a way to describe them. I'm avoiding anything serious at the moment because I just got out of a longass quarantine cabin fever, I just left a year and a half long relationship and I want to see new people still.

With Otto, he's just expecting us to meet downtown every time for a while and dude... I'm not 16 anymore. I like to go out and drink, of course, but I wouldn't have a relationship with someone I wouldn't have a place to spend the night with and to fucking have sex. He lives at home, and that's fine, but he has this weird thing about not liking to bring anyone to his house, not even friends. I completely respect that but it clashes with my expectations for a relationship. He keeps saying he is working on opening up to me like that and that he's been feeling finally well now that he found me again and yeah, cute, whatever, but I still don't want to have a relationship with this guy when we have to be in public and can't have sex. I don't wanna have to put aside all my other potential dudes just because he's working on his little self discovery in terms of having a relationship. Fuck no.

As for Mark, I only saw him once so that's not really the appropriate time to be thinking about that. Not to mention I wouldn't even consider a relationship with someone who lives 2 hours away by bus and has an incredibly weird roommate. About that - he talked today out of nowhere about how weird Nobody's behaviour was. I didn't even comment on it or anything, he just organically brought it up. He said again that he was thinking about leaving soon. Good news, finally.

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In conclusion - fuck men, fuck annoying aunties and fuck relationships.

[aspiringkuia]

My History | Chapter Two.

This Series is not in chronological order, this is my outlet of my History and it doesn't necessarily come back to me chronologically. I point this out because I know the feels <3

Warning: The following includes themes and discussion of tra*ma.

I am a Maori/Aboriginal Woman. It's important to me because it's been made brutally clear that that is what I am to most people. And that's okay, I'm proud of my cultures. But it has impacted me deeply, to an A N C E S T R A L level. And if we don't mind, I'd like to share a huge part of my life experience >

My Hair.

When I was 7 years old, I had long, straight, shiny and smooth hair. It reached my lower back! Mum had always braided my hair into complex styles, training it to grow even longer. One time, the braids were so tight it gave me a headache all morning. My friend's Mum was in to talk to her daughter and greeted me, complimenting me on my braids. She'd noticed that I was wincing asking, "What's wrong, love?"

I told her, "My braids are digging into my head, it hurts." She offered to help me, I said 'yes' and she carefully loosened the braids at the top of my head, evening out the sides. She was a very kind lady <3 Immediately I was relieved and I swear I felt the colour fill my face again.

When I got home that day, my Mum almost screeched, "Why is your hair all over the place?" I was 7 years old, running around all day. She was so angry and I couldn't understand why. When she'd learned about the kind lady loosening my braids, Mum retorted about messing up her handiwork.

Who's hair did this become?

When I was 8 years old, I was invited to my cousin's house to sleep-over one time. I was so excited because they had a pool with poles in them that was bigger than our blow-up pool at home. At the time, my cousins had head lice, fully infested. And all it takes is one kid to get head lice, and they had a pool. It doesn't take long for head-lice to just lay eggs and take over.

Unfortunately, I speak from experience.

Presently though, looking back as much as I begged on that fateful day, my parents were only saying, "Go on, catch knits then!" I mean, I was 8, I would've gotten over it and there was always opportunity to hang at the cousin's. Yes, I was persistent, but I was 8 years old. If you're letting 8 year olds take control of a situation, when do you take control of a situation?

So yeah, I got knits and I had them for two more years after that day. Classmates wouldn't really stand near me or sit near me. It was the first time I freaked out if someone reached out to touch my hair. I was paranoid for a big chunk of my childhood. I wouldn't wear my hair up if I could avoid it. I was always scratching my head, only at home. It was a nightmare. And petrol-smelling-treatment after more chemically-smelling-treatment, they wouldn't budge. The rest of my siblings got head lice, but I was the one with the thickest hair, the longest hair. It didn't take long for my parents to make a fatal decision:

They shaved my head.

I was ten years-old and when I was in Grade 5, I was wearing a bandana to cover my head. I had some hair, but I just felt so low, so shameful. I wasn't even forced to wear the bandana. If I could describe that feeling, it would be dread.

Sure, I shouldn't have set foot in that pool. But what's a kid to know about those things? I just wanted to swim and play with my cousins. I grew resentment towards them, not really knowing where to direct the anger I felt. When the real villains were my parents. There comes a time where you have to look at the past realistically, without your pre-conceived notions or beliefs. Growing up in my experience as of late, has a lot to do with neglect in my upbringing. It's hair of all things that just so happens to be the common thread for me, and looking at my hair now, is a clear indicator of "a-lot-of-shit-went-down." And I did not have a pleasant or stable upbringing at all. And I do credit my parents' reactions to be unconscious and an unfortunate result of the traumas they come from.

But still, every one's responsible for their actions.

My mother would gel my hair back with way too much gel. It got so bad that the skin behind my ears would shed. When I went back to bandanas, I remember a school assembly (this was 2008) where the Principal opened a panel with the school about Dress Code. Different students stood up to talk about what bothered them about the dress code. About tucking shirts, buttoning up buttons and wouldn't you guess it: Head Covers.

This one kid said into a microphone, "I don't like it when people cover their hair. Not everyone wears it, so why go against the code?"

And I just felt wrong in so many ways. I share this today to really shed light on the town I live in, the town I'm stuck in. And it hasn't changed much in 14 years.

From one traumatic experience to another, it's very strange how these ripple effects happen. But it's real and to this day I cringe whenever someone touches my hair. It is not long, straight, smooth or shiny anymore. It is short, thick, curly, frizzy and wide.

But that's just my natural hair, right?

The way I see it, touching hair is already an intimate act, is it not? My hair is a part of me, my hair is my crown. Why not protect it? Why not look deeper to how these actions ripple out and the deeper affects they may have?

I had dyed my hair too, and further chemically bleached it a couple of times, that's fair to mention. But if I hadn't of had such a detaching experience with hair, wouldn't I, in turn of knowing its sacred connection to me, wouldn't I have known its worth?

[rendevousz]

not a secret anymore

natasha romanoff x fem!teen!reader

summary: nat reveals a secret to the public when your class takes a learning journey to the tower.

requested: yes

warnings: might come off as half assed writing because this probably is one of my worst works i'm so sorry 😭😭

word count: 1681

notes: i'm so sorry i haven't been writing much, i've recently just gotten extremely busy so i had no time to sit down and write (this one was literally written between all the short breaks i had 😫) and i have a few requests piling up so i hope you guys can understand if they come later <3

"hi, y/n!" ally, an agent, greeted you as you, along with your classmates, walked through the east wing hallway of the tower. your classmates—except for peter, ned and mj— turned to look at you with confused looks.

your class was having a learning journey at the avengers tower and you had contemplated on calling in sick to avoid people who worked in the tower acknowledging you around your classmates.

you were actually an avenger—yeah, crazy—, having been rescued during one of the many avengers' hostage rescue missions few years ago. you were able to single-handedly take down a few of your captors, hence why the team took interest in you then.

now, though you had been trained enough, they decided to keep you a secret in order to protect you. lord knows how many people would try hurt you if they ever found out the avengers had a new, teenage recruit. peter was technically still safe as his alter-ego is masked so you had no choice but to only go on missions that weren't in the public eye.

you also lived in the tower so the agents and staff were undoubtedly familiar with you, some even friends with you, just like ally, who had just passed by with a wave of her hand at you before turning the corner.

"did that lady just acknowledge you?" an annoying voice spoke from beside you in a mocking tone. you gulped, not wanting to respond to flash's irrelevant question.

"hey, loser, i'm talking to you," he nudged your arm with his elbow and you held the urge to grab it and flip his whole body upside down. it's not like you couldn't—you had the skills, obviously— but it's the fact that you didn't want to get in trouble for that.

you ended up keeping quiet, like you always did whenever the boy taunted you. peter taught you to do just that. if it were up to you, flash's stupid face wouldn't even dare to show itself in front of you anymore.

speaking of peter, he was nowhere to be seen by now. you internally rolled your eyes. it had only been two minutes and they were already gone. peter was probably showing them around the place. you had no idea how your teacher didn't notice the three of them missing from your group. you were so going to kill them for ditching you and leaving you alone when they knew they were your only friends. they were also the reason why flash still had his head to this day because they'd stop you from doing anything rash. now you weren't sure if flash would be safe from your fury.

"you probably work here as a cleaner on the weekends or something, huh? that's the only way people here would know you," flash jeered. you let out a breath, trying to control your anger towards the boy.

you rolled your eyes, opting to deliberately ignore his insults and walk away instead, hoping you'll bump into those three idiots of friends of yours.

"did you just ignore me?" flash asked incredulously, as if it was a crime to ignore his annoying ass. he pulled you back by your back collar, effectively halting you in your spot.

by instinct, you grabbed his hand that was on your collar, twisting it and turning his whole body around, pinning him against the wall with his twisted arm pressed against his back. it happened in just two seconds which totally caught flash off guard, the boy groaning in pain as he begged you to let him free.

you could hear a series of gasps from all around you and you internally groaned. this is why you always ignored flash's taunting. you didn't want to attract attention to yourself and have people wonder how you could defend yourself so well. but flash just had to provoke you. especially here, out of all places.

"what's going on here?" you heard a familiar voice ask and you sighed.

"oh my gosh! it's the black widow!"

"miss romanoff!"

"oh my gosh, i'm gonna need to get a picture for my mum later, she's gonna freak out!"

you stepped away from flash, releasing him as he dramatically kept rubbing at his arm. as if you even put that much pressure. flash smirked, seeing this as a chance to complain about you to an official avenger.

"this girl right here," flash points an accusing finger at you with a glare, like he wasn't just practically begging for his life twenty seconds ago. "attacked me."

you rolled your eyes, unamused. "i hardly attacked him." you told nat. the woman turned to you, an eyebrow raised as she gave you a knowing look. "this...?" she trailed off and you nodded, knowing what she was insinuating. you'd told her about flash one too many times for her not to immediately figure out who he is from a crowd of students.

"flash thompson. heard a lot about you," she turned to the boy. flash's face lit up, thinking he must've made a name for himself or something that even the black widow knew him. little did he know he did, but not for good reasons.

"i would prefer if you stop messing with y/n/n." nat gave him a sharp look and that grin was immediately wiped off his face. "i– y/n/n?" he stuttered, confused that the natasha romanoff is calling you by a nickname.

"you do know she can kick your ass if she wanted to, right? she's been silent all this while because she didn't want to hurt you but you just never seem to learn, huh?" nat took slow, calculated steps towards him until she was towering over him.

"she doesn't need anyone to protect her because she's fully capable of that but i'm just here to warn you, kid, that she, is not to be meddled with. i'm saying this for your own good, flash thompson. she's capable of much worse than whatever she just did to you. so if i hear you messing around with her or any of her friends," she pauses before continuing with a whisper. "i'll close one eye on whatever she wants to do with you."

you wished you could've taken a picture of the dead scared look on flash's face; it was priceless. you turned to nat once she stepped away from him and she put an arm around your shoulder, leading you both away from the watching crowd.

"i–i'm sorry, miss romanoff," you could hear one of your teachers say and nat stopped, effectively stopping you too as she had you in her hold. "but miss y/l/n is on a learning journey with us and she'll miss the tour of the tower if she leaves with you. we'll be discussing a lot regarding this trip in class and she won't understand what we talk about if she misses this tour. i hope you understand." he spoke nervously.

"with all due respect, y/n's seen the whole tower already," she smiles at him but you could tell it was fake. "even the avengers' residential floors which are closed to the public and most employees of the tower."

your teacher looked at her wide-eyed, mouth open but nothing coming out. nat smiles a fake one once again. "now if you'll excuse us, the both of us have avenger duties to attend to."

gasps could be heard all around you and in the midst of it all, your best friends came back and you made eye contact with them, all of them having the same shocked look on their face.

"avenger duties?! nat, what are you doing?!" you whisper-yelled at the woman who seemed to be enjoying the reactions of your classmates and teachers.

"y/n!" peter ran over to you, your other friends following suit. "oh, um hi miss romanoff," he greets shyly. "thanks a lot, guys, look what happened." you spoke sarcastically, rolling your eyes at them. nat proceeded to drag you away from your friends and the last thing you saw was them mouthing apologies and you half-heartedly mouthing to them back that it was fine.

"relax, y/n/n, the public were about to find out soon anyways." nat said nonchalantly. "what?!" you exclaimed once you two were in a different hallway.

"yeah, you're gonna have press this weekend for this. we're gonna officially announce you to the world as an avenger." she once again says nonchalantly, as if this wasn't the first time you were hearing this. "wait, wait, wait, seriously?" you asked in disbelief. no one had told you anything.

"yeah, i—ohh yeah, you don't know yet," nat remembers and you give her an unimpressed look. she wasn't usually this dumb; she only showed this side of her to you. "sorry, i uh, yeah.. i was supposed to come get you for this. meeting with fury and the rest, yknow?" she tells you and you nodded slowly, taking in the information.

"but tell me it didn't feel good that you got to do that to flash," the woman states excitedly and you playfully rolled your eyes at her. "you got to do something. i'm practically an empty threat to him," you stated matter-of-factly.

"not after this weekend you're not. he'll be afraid of you after. that's what you get for being a smelly bully." you couldn't help the little smile on your face. she really sounded like a child right now and it was adorable.

"alright, natty, whatever you say. let's go before fury releases his fury." you look at her hopefully, waiting for her to laugh at your joke which she responded with an unimpressed look. that of course didn't work as you two burst out laughing looking at each other's faces.

you walked alongside her, the woman resting an arm around your shoulder. you smiled up at her as she talked about her day.

god, you couldn't wait to be able to finally walk out in public with these people you considered family.

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