In the place where the foundations shiver with the weight of every ghost you’ve laid to rest beneath the floorboards / In the liminal, staticky place where you were first made monstrous (made hollow and whimpering and fickle) / In the place that tore you lengthwise and emptied you onto the front porch, you learn to swallow back the rage, hold it captive and writhing in your gut.
You learn your way around a set of teeth.
You learn the hackles-raised, jagged-mouthedness of a home without a scrap of heat. You learn how to pull each of your canines out by the bloodied pulp, all nerve endings and the blunted edges of grief.
You learn it because what other choice do you have? What’s the alternative, when all you’ve ever known is the dull scrape of your back against the wall, of your heart tearing clear through your chest?
And god, god, god (you pray to an empty sky). God, you’re so bitter and your bones are all galvanized under your skin, and it hurts. It fucking hurts.
And yet you’d sooner turn your own snapping jaws on yourself than risk learning what happens to animals that misbehave.
So you make yourself small, you make yourself antiseptic and supplicating and placid. You domesticate every thrashing need to escape. You walk into a family dinner with darting yellow eyes: Cerberus with three heads, each maw zip-tied shut by your own hand. You show them the soft flesh of your underbelly—you show the whites of your eyes.
You bite back the terror, you choke on the wrath. Because what else is there to do?
(inspired by this post from @actual-changeling. thanks for the gut-wrench, alex </3)
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I finished the season like 2 seconds ago and just wanted to get this out before I even look at what anyone else is saying.
There was honestly quite a bit that disappointed me about this season, but one major complaint about the Jiara of it all, is that despite being told by reviewers and in interviews that Kiara was going to fight for her man, she didn't really. They had like two "conversations" after getting back to the obx where he said they can't be together and she says she cares, and then that's that.
I wanted Kiara to tell him that he deserves happiness, and security, and love. I wanted her to say screw who my parents and society thinks I should be, and who I should be with, I choose YOU.
I wanted them to make an effort to work in an environment where it wasn't easy. But instead, they drifted apart and JJ struggled to communicate in the OBX, and then they didn't make that next step until they were back on the run, living out their surf trip lifestyle. We knew they worked in that sort of environment already. I wanted them to fight to work in circumstances that didn't come so easy to them, is all I'm saying.
Instead they had one quick kiss/admitting feelings scene, where they weren't even alone, barely a scene after (nothing of substance) and then the season ended with a YEAR AND A HALF TIME JUMP?
We got canon jiara but honestly at what cost lmao
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almost done with my very late final paper for my early british english lit class i am powering through it i am powerful i am unstoppable i am writing so many cool things about sir gawain and the green knight and oroonoko and shit you guys don't even know
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If you were to write a spin-off about a side character, which would you pick?
Unsurprisingly, I'm actually planning lots of prequels, short stories, and weird in-universe documents for Heralds of Rhimn. Two big ones center around specific side characters from the main series.
The first is Children of Snow, a Frostbiters-centered prequel. Gildhe is the main PoV character, but other Frostbiter kids like Karah, Delise Merlie, and Alevar are liable to get a few chapters. Mostly, it's about Lonnie's disappearance, how poorly Gildhe deals with it, and also about how Gildhe ends up pushing Mep out of the family. Funny enough, Mep will not be a PoV character.
(He's had enough time to bias the narrative through the main series!)
The second idea is a presently-untitled novel about how Inky got kicked out of his noble house. Features some of the older characters, like Atevia and Ainzel, plus Iriah and Lucketh back when they were alive. I've had this idea for longer, but it's not quite as fleshed-out as Children of Snow.
Other extremely undeveloped ideas for stories with side characters include;
Courtfather Snow and Charlan's relationship and breakup.
Tincre's life. Oh Tincre . . .
Evain becomes the first guy to become a wyfwolf after the war dies down, and I'm sure that'd be a fun tale to tell.
Maybe how Morekai met Silamir? Eh. Maybe.
Short story about Crislie's Ma and Da meeting each other.
Something to do with the other courts, especially the Mirthful Ones. I love inventing their jestercore puritan names.
In short; brain go brrrrrrr faster than the pen can. Rip.
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i thought about a fic idea all of last week, obsessing over it night after night and then when I finally had a chance to draft and write it, got approximately three words out in the document
instead I've now spent the day writing another completely different fic that came to me this morning. almost 5k words at this point, completely drafted out in the form of dialogue, and some entire scenes actually written out too
because why on earth would creativity be in any way controllable, that's clearly not how it works
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